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- In this same New Bedford there stands a
- Whaleman's Chapel, and few are the moody fishermen, shortly bound for the
- Indian Ocean or Pacific, who fail to make a Sunday visit to the spot. I am
- sure that I did not. Returning from my first morning stroll, I again sallied
- out upon this special errand. The sky had changed from clear,
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- sunny cold, to driving sleet and mist. Wrapping myself in my shaggy jacket
- of the cloth called bearskin, I fought my way against the stubborn storm.
- Entering, I found a small scattered congregation of sailors, and sailors'
- wives and widows. A muffled silence reigned, only broken at times by the
- shrieks of the storm. Each silent worshipper seemed purposely sitting apart
- from the other, as if each silent grief were insular and incommunicable. The
- chaplain had not yet arrived; and there these silent islands of men and women
- sat steadfastly eyeing several marble tablets, with black borders, masoned
- into the wall on either side the pulpit. Three of them ran something like the
- following, but I do not pretend to quote: -- Sacred To the Memory of John
- Talbot, Who, at the age of eighteen, was lost overboard, Near the Isle of
- Desolation, off Patagonia, November 1st,
- . This Tablet Is erected to his
- Memory By his Sister. Sacred To the Memory of Robert Long, Willis Ellery,
- Nathan Coleman, Walter Canny, Seth Macy, and Samuel Gleig, Forming one of the
- boats' crews of the Ship Eliza, Who were towed out of sight by a Whale, On
- the Off-shore Ground in the Pacific, December 31st,
- . This Marble Is
- here placed by their surviving Shipmates.
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- Sacred To the Memory of The late Captain Ezekiel Hardy, Who in the bows of
- his boat was killed by a Sperm Whale on the coast of Japan, August 3d,
- This Tablet Is erected to his Memory by His Widow. Shaking off the sleet
- from my ice-glazed hat and jacket, I seated myself near the door, and
- turning sideways was surprised to see Queequeg near me. Affected by the
- solemnity of the scene, there was a wondering gaze of incredulous curiosity
- in his countenance. This savage was the only person present who seemed to
- notice my entrance; because he was the only one who could not read, and,
- therefore, was not reading those frigid inscriptions on the wall. Whether any
- of the relatives of the seamen whose names appeared there were now among the
- congregation, I knew not; but so many are the unrecorded accidents in the
- fishery, and so plainly did several women present wear the countenance if not
- the trappings of some unceasing grief, that I feel sure that here before me
- were assembled those, in whose unhealing hearts the sight of those bleak
- tablets sympathetically caused the old wounds to bleed afresh. Oh! ye whose
- dead lie buried beneath the green grass; who standing among flowers can say
- --here, here lies my beloved; ye know not the desolation that broods in bosoms
- like these. What bitter blanks in those black-bordered marbles which cover no
- ashes! What despair in those immovable inscriptions! What deadly voids and
- unbidden infidelities in the lines that seem to gnaw upon all Faith, and
- refuse resurrections to the beings who have placelessly perished without a
- grave. As well might those tablets stand in the cave of Elephanta as here.
- In what census of living creatures, the dead of mankind are included; why it
- is that a universal proverb says of them, that
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- they tell no tales, though containing more secrets than the Goodwin Sands;
- how it is that to his name who yesterday departed for the other world, we
- prefix so significant and infidel a word, and yet do not thus entitle him, if
- he but embarks for the remotest Indies of this living earth; why the Life
- Insurance Companies pay death-forfeitures upon immortals; in what eternal,
- unstirring paralysis, and deadly, hopeless trance, yet lies antique Adam who
- died sixty round centuries ago; how it is that we still refuse to be
- comforted for those who we nevertheless maintain are dwelling in unspeakable
- bliss; why all the living so strive to hush all the dead; wherefore but the
- rumor of a knocking in a tomb will terrify a whole city. All these things
- are not without their meanings. But Faith, like a jackal, feeds among the
- tombs, and even from these dead doubts she gathers her most vital hope. It
- needs scarcely to be told, with what feelings, on the eve of a Nantucket
- voyage, I regarded those marble tablets, and by the murky light of that
- darkened, doleful day read the fate of the whalemen who had gone before me,
- Yes, Ishmael, the same fate may be thine. But somehow I grew merry again.
- Delightful inducements to embark, fine chance for promotion, it seems -- aye,
- a stove boat will make me an immortal by brevet. Yes, there is death in this
- business of whaling --a speechlessly quick chaotic bundling of a man into
- Eternity. But what then? Methinks we have hugely mistaken this matter of
- Life and Death. Methinks that what they call my shadow here on earth is my
- true substance. Methinks that in looking at things spiritual, we are too much
- like oysters observing the sun through the water, and thinking that thick
- water the thinnest of air. Methinks my body is but the lees of my better
- being. In fact take my body who will, take it I say, it is not me. And
- therefore three cheers for Nantucket; and come a stove boat and stove body
- when they will, for stave my soul, Jove himself cannot.
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