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buffyfic-digest       Monday, November 16 1998       Volume 02 : Number 369



In this issue:

       BUFFYFIC: I Don't Know How To Let You Go (1/1)
       BUFFYFIC: If I Never Knew You
       BUFFYFIC: Love Will Find A Way - 1/1 by Tiffany
       BUFFYFIC: Legacy of the Burgunds (3/?)
       BUFFYFIC: Story To Come

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Date: Sun, 15 Nov 1998 17:53:57 EST
From: [e-mail]
Subject: BUFFYFIC: I Don't Know How To Let You Go (1/1)

TITLE: I Don't Know How To Let You Go
AUTHOR: Danielle Loughlin
E-MAIL: [e-mail]
DISTRIBUTION: If you like it, take it. Just tell me where it's going.
SUMMARY: Cordelia's reaction to Willow/Xander
RATING: PG
SPOILERS: Through Band Candy
FEEDBACK: Feedback is to me as chocolate is to Xander
DISCLAIMER: Cordelia, Xander, and the rest of the Buffy crew belongs to Joss
Whedon & Co. No copyright infringement intended.

This is just a 10-minute-Danielle-avoiding-her-term-paper fic. Enjoy! :)

I DON'T KNOW HOW TO LET YOU GO

"I have the sense to recognize I don't know how to let you go"
                                                     "Do What You Have To Do",
Sarah McLachlan

Cordelia slammed the book shut with a resounding thud. "Big fat nothing here,"
she noted to the startled Watcher. She stood up with a sigh, heading towards
the stacks to return this book and replenish her supply of dusty volumes of
obscure demons. "I can't believe I'm giving up my Saturday night to research
yet another
demon. Hasn't Giles got them all memorized by ---"

Cordelia let her complaint trail off, stunned by the sight that met her eyes.
She swallowed hard, resisting the urge to cry out. She felt like she'd had a
stake from Buffy's crossbow driven into her heart, the pain was that sudden
and intense.

Xander. Her Xander. And Willow. Kissing.

Cordelia retreated a few steps into the shadows of the bookcases. Safely
hidden from sight, Cordelia watched her boyfriend with a growing feeling of
disappointment welling up in her stomach. She couldn't take it anymore. She
turned away.

It all made sense now. The strange looks Xander and Willow had been giving
each other. The guilty look that had been in Xander's eyes for the past few
weeks. Willow's jumpiness around her. Cordelia couldn't believe she hadn't put
the pieces together sooner.

She fought to hold the tears back. "Damn you, Xander," she whispered to
herself. "Why did you make me fall in love with you?" Xander had been a
completely new experience for her. She'd never actually cared so much about a
guy before. Usually she dated them till she was bored, then broke up with them
and bestowed the honor of dating Cordelia Chase upon another, cuter guy.

And then Xander came along. She'd hated him for years. Never expected to talk
to him, let alone date him. But she'd gotten swept into the Scooby gang.
Spending more time around Xander. And then that day they'd kissed in Buffy's
basement . . she knew she'd been a goner right there, but she refused to admit
it to herself.

But Xander had gotten to her. He'd made her laugh, he made her furious with
his constant insults, and he made her feel special without even meaning to.
And she'd fallen in love with him. And she'd thought he loved her too.

But this. Cordelia had always been afraid she'd lose Xander to his beloved
Buffy. But she'd been aware of the threat Willow possessed. She had prayed
Xander would never wake up and realize what a beautiful, intelligent girl
Willow really was. But Willow had seemed happy with Oz, and Xander never gave
her much of a second look. Willow was his best friend. Cordelia was his
girlfriend. The line was drawn.

But obviously Xander had woken up. And Willow had never fallen out of love
with Xander. The kiss she'd witnessed proved that beyond a doubt. She knew she
couldn't compete with Willow. But she didn't want to let Xander go.

Xander was the only person who knew the real Cordelia, who saw her beyond the
exterior she presented. She didn't want to lose him. She didn't want to lose
that. So what was she going to do? She knew the more she held on to him, the
more he'd slip away. She let out a sigh of frustration and regret, and wiped
away the tear that had escaped from her eye. She wasn't going to cry. Not yet
anyway.

She knew what she was going to do. She was going to break up with Xander
before he had the chance to dump her. And she'd act like she didn't care, that
he hadn't meant that much to her. She wouldn't show how much she was hurting,
how much she did care. The Cordelia Chase reputation would be intact.

But she would know. And she thought Xander would too. She wasn't going to tell
him she'd seen him with Willow. She'd keep that to herself. If Xander decided
to tell her, that would be okay, but she wouldn't tell him. She'd let him go.
And she wouldn't look back.

"But I'm going to keep on loving you, Xander. Because I don't know how to let
you go," Cordelia whispered. "I don't know how to let you go."

END

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Date: Sun, 15 Nov 1998 20:05:21 -0500
From: "Kitiara" <[e-mail]>
Subject: BUFFYFIC: If I Never Knew You

Title: If I Never Knew You
Author: Kitiara Hashiba
E-mail: [e-mail]
Feedback: <Rob Schneider voice a la "Waterboy"> You can do it! </Rob>
Spoilers: Becoming
Disclaimer: Buffy, Angel, and all plotlines/flashbacks in this song-fic were
created by Joss Whedon and Co. "If I Never Knew You" is copyright Disney.
Don't sue me.
Summary: A reunion of Buffy and Angel put to a fitting song.
Quik-Note: The flashbacks and actions in the [bracket thingies] are being
done as the lines that follow them are being sung. Don't worry... it should
make some sort of sense. I hope. ^_^


ôIf I Never Knew Youö
The male lines of the song are labeled Angel, the female lines, Buffy.

[Scene opens: Angel is perched on a rooftop, among several gothic statues.
He walks around the rooftop aimlessly, reminiscing. It is raining quite
hard, but he doesnÆt seem to notice.]

Angel:
If I never knew you
If I never felt this love
I would have no inkling of
How precious life can be

[We see Angel and Buffy slow dancing in the Bronze, her silver cross burning
him]

And if I never held you
I would never have a clue
[From the last encounter with Acathla, AngelÆs eyes flare yellow as his soul
is returned]
How at last I find in you
The missing part of me

[Buffy and Kendra drag Angel out of a burning church where Spike had
attempted to kill him.]

In this world so full of fear
Full of rage and lies
[From when he and Buffy were possessed, he wipes away her tears as they
dance in the music room.]
I can see the truth so clear
In your eyes
So dry your eyes

[Angel puts a claddagh ring on BuffyÆs ringer, promising to return to her.
Both of them have tears in their eyes.]
And IÆm so grateful to you
IÆdÆve lived my whole life through
Lost forever
If I never knew you

[Scene change: Buffy is sitting on her window sill, her eyes staring out
into the storm. She is obviously thinking about Angel.]

[Buffy cries as she tells Angel she loves him, even though she shouldnÆt.]

Buffy:
If I never knew you
IÆd be safe but half as real
Never knowing I could feel
A love so strong and true

[Angel smiles at Buffy as she rambles on about her motherÆs boyfriend while
she wraps up his arm. He pulls her towards him and kisses her.]

IÆm so grateful to you
IÆdÆve lived my whole life through
Lost forever
If I never knew you

[Now our view is split: we see both Angel and Buffy in their respective
places, looking at the storm.]

Angel:
I thought our love would be so beautiful
Buffy:
Somehow weÆd make the whole world right

Angel & Buffy:
[Angel and Buffy sword fight as Acathla is about to be reborn.]
I never knew that fear and hate could be so strong
ll they leave us were these whispers in the night

[Buffy stops as sheÆs about to kill Angel, realizing WillowÆs curse has
taken effect.]

And still my heart is saying we were right

[The memories come faster to both of them now.]

Buffy:
[Angel startles Buffy in a graveyard as she patrols.]
If I never knew you
    Angel:
    [Angel tosses Buffy a velvet box which contains a cross.]
    ThereÆs no moment IÆd regret
Buffy:
[Buffy tenderly puts a hand on AngelÆs vampiric face and kisses him.]
If I never knew you
    Angel:
    [Buffy tackles Angel, who she believes to be stalking her.]
    Since the moment that we met
Buffy:
[Buffy and Angel kiss in front of her bedroom window.]
I would have no inkling of
    Angel:
    [Angel pulls away, his face transformed into that of a vampire.]
    If our time has gone too fast
Buffy:
[Buffy and Angel kiss as the vortex into hell opens.]
How precious life can be
    Angel:
    [Buffy runs Angel through with her sword.]
    IÆve lived at last

[Angel leaves the rooftop. Buffy leaves her window ledge, wiping away tears.
She starts to get ready for bed.]

Angel & Buffy:
I thought our love would be so beautiful
Somehow weÆd make the whole world right
[Angel walks rapidly through the streets of Sunnydale.]

Buffy:
I thought our love would be so beautiful
WeÆd turn the darkness into light

[He stops in front of a house û BuffyÆs. He takes a deep breath and heads
for the tree under BuffyÆs window.]

Angel & Buffy:
And still my heart is saying we were right

Angel:
We were right
[Angel climbs the tree and looks in BuffyÆs window.]
And if I never knew you

    Buffy:
     If I never knew you
Angel:
IÆdÆve lived my whole life through

Buffy:
[Buffy settles into bed, then hears a knock on her window. She whirls
around, and sees AngelÆs face.]
Empty as the sky

Angel & Buffy:
Never knowing why
[Buffy slowly walks to the window, not believing her eyes.]
Lost forever
If I never knew
Youà

[As the scene fades to black, you see Buffy open her window, and take
Angel's hand.]

~fin~


Any comments? Please send them to [e-mail].

~Kitiara
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Oz: "Yeah, I think I could splash some Dingo action."

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Date: Mon, 16 Nov 1998 10:20:53 -0800
From: "Ian and Tiff" <[e-mail]>
Subject: BUFFYFIC: Love Will Find A Way - 1/1 by Tiffany

Title: Love Will Find A Way - 1/1
Author: Tiffany Gregg
E-Mail: [e-mail]
Distribution: My site http://www.thegreggs.com/fanfic.htm  If you'd like it
just let me know where it's going, please.
Rating: PG-13
Spoiler Warning: None
Feedback: Would be most appreciated
Classification: BSR
Summary: Buffy talks with Giles about Spike.  Then she goes to see Spike.

Disclaimer: The characters of Buffy the Vampire Slayer belong to Joss
Whedon, the WB, FOX and Mutant Enemy.  I am making no money in writing this
and no copyright infringement is intended.

Authors note: This is the 7th part in my "Masquerade" series.  The previous
parts can be found at my site http://www.thegreggs.com/fanfic.htm Also, this
series takes place after BatB and is a bit of an alternate Buffy-verse.

==========
Love Will Find A Way
By: Tiffany
E-Mail me at: [e-mail]


Buffy knocked on the heavy wood door and waited for an answer.  She looked
around a little anxiously, suddenly aware how odd her being here at this
time of the night might look to the neighbors.  Getting a little impatient,
she knocked again.  Finally, the lock rattled and the door creaked open
revealing a half asleep, bathrobe clad Giles.

The sight of his Slayer standing on his doorstep at 2am shook Giles awake.
"Buffy i-is everything all right?  What's happened?"  He ushered her inside
and shut the door behind her.

"It's a long story, Giles." She said with a sigh.  "Do you have any coffee?"

"No, no coffee, but I can make a pot of tea?"

"Tea would be good." she replied sinking down onto the couch.

=========

Giles came out of his office still reading a book.  "Buffy, I think I've
found..." he began before he noticed she was sound asleep, head pillowed on
a book at the large library table.  After she had told him everything that
had happened with Spike, they'd come to the library to do some research.


They had been researching through the night together.  Searching for
something, anything that would explain Spike's behavior.

He sighed deeply and shook his head.  Pulling his glasses off he massaged
the bridge of his nose and wondered how his Slayer had managed to fall in
love with a vampire again.  She was the strangest girl, but she was his
Slayer and he had found the answer she was looking for.

Giles gently placed a hand on Buffy's shoulder and shook her gently.  She
came instantly awake.  "Giles!  Did you find anything?"

"Y-Yes, I-I think that I have." he said

"Well then, what are you waiting for?  Spill it."  Then she added quickly
"And in English."

"Um, well, I found a reference in one Watcher diaries about a vampire who
didn't always kill his victims.  The Watcher wrote that this certain vampire
was in control of his demon."

"His soul was restored?  Like Angel?" she questioned

"No, well, not exactly.  Mr. Sacamoto hypothesized that somehow this
vampire had maintained or regained a degree of his humanity."

"So, what you're saying is, that it's possible that Spike could be in
control of the demon?"

"Yes, well to a degree.  It would explain his feelings for you and the fact
that he cared for Drusilla all those years after the incident in Prague."

Buffy jumped up from the table and hugged her Watcher.  "Thank you, Giles.
You're the best.  I gotta go find Spike."  Then she was jogging across the
room towards the doors.

"Buffy, I don't suppose I need to remind you..." he called, but she was
already out of the library.  "to be careful" he finished to himself.

=========

It was early afternoon by the time Buffy reached the abandoned warehouse
that was currently serving as Spike's lair.  Buffy climbed in an open
window and carefully looked around.  Since it was daylight, the minions were
no where to be seen.

Buffy finally found Spike's room and quietly slipped inside.  She
immediately saw Spike on the bed and went over to him.  Her heart lodged in
her throat.  He wasn't breathing.  He looked dead.  Buffy smiled a little to
herself for being silly.  He was dead and he didn't need to breathe she
silently reminded herself.

Spikes eyes fluttered half open and he regarded her for a moment.  "Have you
come to kill me, Slayer?" he asked in a quiet voice.

She was shocked by his words.  "No, I don't want to kill you.  I just wanted
to see you.  I talked to Giles..."  she stopped talking when she noticed his
eyes were shut again.

Spikes eyes fluttered open once more.  "Lay with me, Luv?  I want to hold
you."

Buffy quickly scrambled onto the bed and snuggled up next to Spike,
pillowing her head on his shoulder.

Spike pulled the blanket over the two of them.  Then he kissed her forehead
and whispered "I love you" into her hair before drifting back to sleep.

Buffy couldn't help the grin that spread across her face.  She felt so safe
in his arms, so contented.  But, most of all she felt loved.  With a sigh
she drifted off to sleep as well.

Things were going to work out for them she could feel it.  Love had found a
way.

================

The end - Masquerade series, part 7

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Date: Mon, 16 Nov 1998 13:33:41 -0800 (PST)
From: Black Fire <[e-mail]>
Subject: BUFFYFIC: Legacy of the Burgunds (3/?)

  Title: Legacy of the Burgunds
  Author: Black Fire
  Email: [e-mail]
  Feedback: Please?
  Spoilers: This part comes after Homecoming.  I need to see
  what happens with the next few episodes.  For now, this is like a
 subplot to the current storyline.
  Disclaimers: I don't own any of the Buffy characters and I can't
  afford to.  (Though, I wish I could, a least afford to.)  Wolf and
 any other
  characters (I haven't even given them all names yet, how lame) are
 mine.
  Please do not use them without asking.
  Summary: This story is heavilly based in Germanic/Norse mythology,
  particularly, on the Saga of the Volsungs.  Two of the greatest
  legends of the past have returned, bringing who-knows-what with them.


  Legacy of the Burgunds

Chapter 3 -- An Incident... or Two

    Later that night, at the Bronze, Buffy and the rest sat in their
usual corner discussing school, slaying and anything else that came to
mind.
    "Hey!  Wolf's back in town," Willow chimed in.
    "Wolf?" Cordelia ask.  "You mean that gorgeous, would-be football
player guy with the nice eyes?"
    Willow nodded, smiling.
    "Oooo... yum," Cordy said, gaining a jealous look from Xander.
    "Yeah, Buffy and I saw him this afternoon," Willow explained.  "I
think Buffy liked him."
    "Now what made you think that?" Buffy asked.
    "Well, you... did that thing with your mouth again," Willow babbled.
"And you really seemed to like talking to him."
    "Oh," Buffy blushed.  "But that could mean anything.  He's a nice
guy.  He's funny.  He's normal.  What's not to like?"
    "Hey," a voice interrupted.
    Everyone turned to see Wolf walking up to them.  They all waved their
hello's and welcome backs.
    "So..." he said, taking a seat, "what are you all doing here in the
corner?  Not conspiring or anything, I hope."
    "What?  Us?" Xander asked.  "Not at all.  Why?"
    "You had a look about you," Wolf said.  "You know, that kind of look
that should send most of this town screaming in fear.  You know the
look I'm talking about.  I saw it about you all summer."
    "Oh *that* look!" Xander exclaimed.  "That's just us... being us, you
know."
    "Uh huh..." Wolf nodded, smiling as if he knew more than he let on.
    "Hey Buffy!" Faith yelled as she approached in a hurry.
    "What's going on," Buffy asked.
    "Hey,... hello!" Faith stopped short as her eyes caught sight of
Wolf.  "Why didn't you tell me there were munchies like this one
around?"
    "I didn't know he was around until today," Buffy answered.  "What's
up?"
    "Too bad," the other slayer said.  "Nothing right now.  Just keeping
my eye on the dance floor."
    "Oh?" Buffy looked.  There were a couple questionable characters out
there.  She watched as they left with their intended victims.  "Not a
problem," she said grabbing her bag and Faith, who was staring at
Wolf, rather than watching the vampires.
    "Don't go away," Faith ordered Wolf as Buffy dragged her away.

*   *   *   *   *

    The fight didn't last long.  In fact, with Faith along, it was even
shorter than usual.  Buffy got the two girls away, while Faith staked
one.  She then finished off the second herself.
    "Not bad," Faith said, brushing some dust off her shirt.
    "Not bad at all," the slayer replied.
    "I was talking about the hunkster inside," Faith said.
    "Oh..." Buffy was cut off by the sound of howling.
    They turned as a wolf came loping up to the Bronze.  It seemed to
ignore them and head straight for the door, causing a bit of a scene.
The bouncer tried to get the creature to go away, but it just sat down
some distance from the entrance and waited.
    "I said get out of here," the man  at the door shouted as people
hurried inside.
    The wolf ignored him and stayed where it was.
    "Is there a problem?" Buffy asked, approaching the bouncer.
    "Yeah!" the bouncer yelled.  "That flea bag's scarin' away the
patrons."
    This gained a seemingly insulted growl from the wolf, but that was
all.  She barked once, twice, then howled again.  This time, the
bouncer tried swatting the animal with a stick.  It only evaded the
attack and sat back down.
    "Thrudhr!" Wolf yelled as he walked out of the Bronze.  He walked
straight over to the wolf.  "I told you to stay home."
    "Is that your animal?" the bouncer yelled.
    "No," Wolf said, his golden eyes flashing as he turned to face the
man.  They were almost the same size.  "This is not my animal.  She is
my friend."
    Wolf knelt beside the creature, "I told you to stay home with father."
    The wolf's tongue lolled out of her mouth.  She whimpered and licked
WolfÆs cheek.
    ôOkay,ö Wolf laughed, as if he understood her.
    ôSheÆs beautiful,ö Buffy said, staring.
    The wolf stood at over half BuffyÆs size, with pale, blue eyes that
sparkled within her masses of gray hair.  As Buffy spoke up, at last,
the Thrudhr finally turned her attention to her.  There was a low
rumble, not quite a growl, heard as the wolf stared at Buffy and Faith.
    "They're friends," Wolf said, stroking his companion's neck.  "This
is Buffy and..."
    "Faith," the other slayer chimed in.
    This seemed to calm Thrudhr down, though she still kept her distance.
    "Are you through with your introductions?" the Bouncer asked,
mockingly.  "'Cause I want that creature outta here, or I call the
cops."
    "She's leaving," Wolf told the guy.  He looked at the wolf, "Go on
home.  I won't be here much longer."
    Thrudhr didn't seem to like being sent home.  She gave Wolf an odd
look, much like that which a mother would give a child, and loped off.
    "Now," the bouncer said, "I want you out of here too.  You've caused
enough trouble."
    "But he didn't do anything," Buffy defended.
    "I don't care," the guy argued, "he's caused enough trouble, he and
that wolf, I won't have them causing any more.  And if you don't like
it, you can just go home too, missy."
    "Fine," Buffy said, turning to leave.
    Wolf watched her walk off into the night.
    And, up on the roof, a small brown cat, who had seen the entire
event, mewed as she stared, intently down at the entrance to the
Bronze... watching.

*   *   *   *   *
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Date: Mon, 16 Nov 1998 19:06:56 -0500
From: NightHunter <[e-mail]>
Subject: BUFFYFIC: Story To Come

I just finshed the series that I started in Her Darkest Hour.

A long time ago since it has been so long I will repost the

entire series in the order it was intended to be read.

Under the series Title The Crystal Arm Band.

This will be the last time this series will be posted.

If anyone wishes to use it on their Web site ask first.

I Will Start posting This Saturday 11/21/1998

NightHunter

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