home
***
CD-ROM
|
disk
|
FTP
|
other
***
search
/
ftp.xmission.com
/
2014.06.ftp.xmission.com.tar
/
ftp.xmission.com
/
pub
/
lists
/
buffyfic
/
archive
/
v02.n259
< prev
next >
Wrap
Internet Message Format
|
1998-07-08
|
14KB
From: owner-buffyfic@lists.xmission.com (buffyfic-digest)
To: buffyfic-digest@lists.xmission.com
Subject: buffyfic-digest V2 #259
Reply-To: $SENDER
Sender: owner-buffyfic@lists.xmission.com
Errors-To: owner-buffyfic@lists.xmission.com
Precedence: bulk
buffyfic-digest Wednesday, July 8 1998 Volume 02 : Number 259
In this issue:
BUFFYFIC: Libidinous 4/?
BUFFYFIC: IOHM (4/?) Cordelia
See the end of the digest for information on (un)subscribing to the buffyfic
or buffyfic-digest mailing lists and on how to retrieve back issues.
----------------------------------------------------------------------
Date: Tue, 7 Jul 1998 21:27:12 EDT
From: <TruPhile@aol.com>
Subject: BUFFYFIC: Libidinous 4/?
Title~ Libidinous 4/?
Author~ Shani
Notes~ in psychoanalytlic theories, the libido is the driving force behind all
human actions
Summary~ A Buffy/Angel story with a few twists. Involves characters from
General Hospital, but yoiu donÆt have to watch GH to understand this fic. I
did change a thing or two around for you GH fans
Disclaimer~ All characters of Buffy the Vampire Slayer belong to Joss
Whendon, Mutant Enemy Productions, Kuzui Enterprises, Sandollar Productions,
and 20th Century Fox. ôThe Climbö belongs to No Doubt and can be found on
their Tragic Kingdom CD. All characters of General hospital belong to ABC.
Chapter 4, The Climb
<Step by step I come closer to reaching the top
Every step must be placed so that I donÆt fall off
Looking down to see about how much higher I am
Another cool wind comes through, brushes my skin>
ôStefan!ö Buffy called. ôWait up!ö
Stefan and Nikolas both stopped and turned to face her. She looked in a
hurry, and they could tell from the expression that something was up. Angel
stood behind her, still holding her hand.
ôSomethingÆs here. IÆm not sure what but I could feel it. Even Angel could
feel it.ö She rushed.
ôAlright, I must consult my books,ö began Stefan. Angel and Buffy both
smiled. ôYou said that you æcould feel itÆ, would yo ucare to elaborate?ö
ôIt was evil. I could sense that evil even after it left. All I saw was a
black shadow and it was gone.ö Buffy said.
Hmmm...maybe she wouldnÆt go back to the Hellmouth as soon as they all
thought. He left the room and headed for his private library. Though the
private room in the public library held old books, they were only on rituals.
The books on Spoon Island talked about demons, horrible evils that people
couldnÆt imagine. Stefan began his search.
<The harder I push the tension does grow
I gather my thoughts the further and further I go
With some luck I just might keep on climbing
So better to climb than to face a fall>
Nikolas had never been in a situation like this before. He was frightened,
but still would help anyway possible.
ôIs there anything that I can do?ö He asked the Slayer. She nodded
slightly.
ôI need you to be careful, donÆt go trying to save the world or anything,
ok?ö Buffy thought that may sound a bit harsh, but needed him to understand.
The lastthing that she wanted was to have to save him on top of killing the
demon. WouldnÆt it be nice if ths turned out to be nothing? Right, like
*thatÆs* ever going to happen. Still, she had Angel, which made her stronger.
She could face this...if only she knew what ôthisö was.
<So high the climb
CanÆt turn back now
Must keep on climbing up to the clouds
So high the climb
CanÆt turn back now
Must keep on climbing up to the clouds>
He hated this, but accepted it. He had no choice. He just wished that his
reunion with Buffy could have been demon-free. SheÆs the Slayer, he knew
better than to hope for that, he had known better than to hope for a reunion
with her at all. Yet, here he was. She stood close, helping Stefan look
through books. He admirred her for focusing on this hellish issue, instead of
him. He wished he had more of that control, though she was starting to get a
bit bouncy. Finally, she couldnÆt seem to take it any more. She stood in
front of him, reaching behind her, she grabbed his arms. One in each of her
hands. Then she wrapped them around her and locked his hands together. She
continued her research. That was more like his Buffy.
<Pulling myself up on a rope I better my view
The only thing in sight is what I must do
As I turned I could see myself falling
Which in return gave me strength for the climb>
ôI found it.ö Stefan said. ôArcanus.ö Angel recognized the name.
ôArcanus. Hidden, in latin. He hides in shadows watching humans. Then he
possesses whomever he likes most, hidding in their body and causing
destruction. Not one of the worst demons,ö Angel assured.
ôBut he will kill, right?ö Buffy asked. Angel nodded, seeing where she was
going. ôThen he must die. What else do we know about him? Where would he go
in this town?ö Buffy asked, going into Slayer mode. They would get this.
<So high the climb
CanÆt turn back now
Must keep climbing up to the clouds
So high the climb
CanÆt turn back now
Must keep climbing up to the clouds>
Nikolas had seen Buffy as the determained sort, but not really as a hard
worker. He was wrong. Though he could tell she resented her fate, she did
what had to be done. From what his uncle had told him, she gets it done well.
He felt somewhat helpless, but didnÆt want to get in the way.
ôWhat happens next?ö He asked Angel.
ôWe develop a theory, then a plan, then carry out the plan.ö Angel replied.
æGee, I couldÆve figured that out.Æ Nik thought. Well, he answered the
question at least. Now all they needed were theories and plans.
<Although many failed
I must now prevail with no question
Have no time to stop
Onward to the top of the mountain
And I canÆt turn back now
ItÆs so very high but I canÆt turn back now
If I keep it up IÆm gonna make it
IÆm so very close canÆt you see>
Angel was hungry, though he had no taste for blood. He found that strange,
but ignored it for the moment. They had more important things to worry about,
like keeping the people of Port Charles safe from a possessing demon. Oh!
ôUh, guys...ö
<So high the climb
CanÆt turn back
Must keep climbing up to the clouds
So high the climb
CanÆt trun back
Must keep climbing up to the clouds
IÆm getting closer...>
------------------------------
Date: Wed, 8 Jul 1998 20:51:43 -0700
From: taygeta@juno.com (Charity C. T.)
Subject: BUFFYFIC: IOHM (4/?) Cordelia
TITLE: In Opacitatem Habitant Modo #4 Cordelia
AUTHOR: Taygeta
E-MAIL: taygeta@juno.com
FEEDBACK: Pretty please with a cherry on top!
DISTRIBUTION: Sure, just tell me first.
RATING: PG-13
DESCRIPTION: Buffy is blind, various POVs
DISCLAIMER: The characters any such reference to Buffy the Vampire
Slayer television series belong to their creator, Joss Whedon, and their
owners, Mutant Enemy productions, Kuzui Productions, Sandollar
Productions, and 20th Century Fox. In other words, they do not belong to
me. Copyright infringement not intended.
******************************
In Opacitatem Habitant Modo
#4 Cordelia
By: Taygeta
"Thank you," Mrs. Summers had said to me when I had brought Buffy
back home. For some weird reason, I couldn't even bring myself to say,
"you're welcome." If she only knewàif *they* only knewà
That nightàthat night was the night when everything went wrong.
We were suppose to have the upper handàwe *had* the upper handà or at
least we thought so. Our planàit seemed so flawlessàit seemed so
perfectàa little too perfect, come to think of it. That "great" plan was
a total failureàwe didn't succeed even though we did stop Spike and
Druscilla from awaking the century old demon, Roflar, who had enough
power to destroy the world a few times over. It would have been a
success if we had all gotten out of there without barely a mark, but it
didn't happen. By saving the world, we lost our livesàeverything we knew
of up until thenàit didn't seem to matter. Buffy was blindàshe's
blindàshe'll never see againàand it's my entire fault! But they don't
know that.
"Honk! Honk!" the car behind me wailed and I noticed that the
light had turned green and pushed on the gas pedal to move aheadàmy
thoughts still spinning in my head.
If only Giles hadn't gotten caught during the planàeverything
could have worked outànot that I blame himàit wasn't his fault. We came
up with another planàa so-called perfect planàthat somehow ended with
Buffy, Xander, and I fighting Druscilla and Spike.
Most of the Vamp Troop had been done away with the first time we
were there and only a few were around the mansion. The leaders of this
depleting demon minion were aloneàAngelus hadn't been aroundàThank God,
who knows what kind of a state Buffy would be in if he had been.
Druscilla saw us first, she whispered quietly to him, and he stood up
with a smile.
"Wellàwellàlook who's backàBuffy and her bloody Brigade," Spike
had began, but the she interrupted him.
"Stuff it, Spikeàjust give us back, Giles," she said immediately,
not wanting to waste another minute.
He chuckled softly, "You think you scare me, slayer? Well,
you're wrongàyou're just like the othersàweakàI was sure you were
different, but, um, nopeàI'm not."
"Spike, dear, don't let her take away my new friend," Druscilla
said in an attempt to make Buffy more angry. It worked.
"Hush, Dru, I could never do thatàdid you remember to feed your
new pet?" he said slyly as he glanced up at her lovinglyàan expression
that surprised me was in capable of him.
I saw her think for a moment and she sighed as she played along,
"I suppose I forgotàahàwellà"
Although it had only been a few hours since he had been captured,
I could imagine him in her demonic handsàstarving to deathàhis thin form
turning to bone and to dust right before my eyes. If anything had
happened to himàI don't know what any of us would doàhe was the
WatcheràGilesàour Giles.
Then, it happened so quickly, that I couldn't believe it, even
though I saw it happen right in front of my eyes. Obviously, Spike was
majorly ticking off Buffy, and I saw her clench her fists tightly, but I
saw something he didn't. She was clenching a stake that she somehow hid
by using her hand and jacket. My heart had rapidly pounded as approached
her, but its speed probably didn't even close to how fast hers must have
been going. He had just about reached a few feet away from her when she
ran towards him with a stake and the demonolatry sustained body we saw
crumbled into dust at her feet.
Dru went stark raving mad and at first it seemed that she dived
towards Buffy, but really she had wanted to take the dust on the floor
and hold it. Tears fell down her face as the last remnants of her
boyfriend caked her hands. We stupidly stood idly byàwatchingàwaiting
when we should have tied her upàkilled her. If onlyàthat's all I can saw
when I think of thisàif only.
Suddenly, she screaming, "You killed him! You killed Spike!"
Repeatedly, and not just at Buffy, at me and Xander, too, as if we had
all killed him. She must have thought so because she lunged towards
where Buffy and I stood, throwing Xander against the wall along her way.
I screamed when I saw him hit the wall, and almost ran towards him to see
if he was okay, but something stopped me before I could.
Druscilla had not been going towards Buffy that nightàshe had
been going towards me! I think she wanted Buffy to suffer with another
friend deadàlike a friend for a friendàsomething like thatàI don't
knowàI'm not sure I want to know. I could have diedàI think I would have
died, but Buffy pushed me away and Dru's rage got the better of her as
she clawed at her face and at her eyes like a cat would to a tiny mouse.
Her screams still ring in my earsàwaking me up at nightàshocking me at
the most impossible moments of the day.
I've tried to talk to heràto say I'm sorry, but she wouldn't let
meàstopped me the first time I tried to approach her. Something about it
being her jobàsomething about it being okay, but it wasn't okay. At
least to me. I know she feels what's going on around heràthe tension,
the fear, the sadness, and sympathy we all have for her, but she doesn't
see itàshe can't see it because of me.
She says it okay, but every time I see their faces, I know that
if they knew what she and I knewàthey'd hate me. More than they all did
beforeàmore than they do nowàXander, maybe most of all. He loves heràI
know he does. We all do, but him, maybe most of all. I'll leave that at
that.
I don't want them to hate me, and I want to help Buffy in any way
I can, and maybe it would make living day-by-day a little bit easier if I
did. I'd give her my life if I could had toàafter all, she saved my
lifeàshe's saved us all a hundred times over, and what does she get in
return? A life in the darkàshades drawn and never to be opened, again.
******************
End Part 4. Feedback?!!!!
_____________________________________________________________________
You don't need to buy Internet access to use free Internet e-mail.
Get completely free e-mail from Juno at http://www.juno.com
Or call Juno at (800) 654-JUNO [654-5866]
------------------------------
End of buffyfic-digest V2 #259
******************************
To subscribe to buffyfic or buffyfic-digest, send the command
subscribe buffyfic-digest
or
subscribe buffy
to majordomo@xmission.com. You will need to go through a
confirmation process, and the listowners have to manually
approve your subscription request, so it may take some time.
To unsubscribe, send email to majordomo@xmission.com with
unsubscribe buffyfic-digest
or
unsubscribe buffyfic
in the body.
Back issues of this digest can be found at:
ftp://ftp.xmission.com/pub/lists/buffyfic/archive/
Dalton Spence has also provided an index of the buffyfic archive at:
http://www.hwcn.org/~ag775/BUFFYFIC.HTM
For help, contact Jill Kirby (jtkirby@mcs.com) or sah (romana@mindspring.com)