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buffyfic-digest Tuesday, July 7 1998 Volume 02 : Number 258
In this issue:
BUFFYFIC: WHere was I? and Now, Foever, and Always
BUFFYFIC: Libidinous 1/?
BUFFYFIC: Charlotte Sometimes (part 43)
BUFFYFIC: Libidinous 2/?
BUFFYFIC: Unusual Ways (1/1)
BUFFYFIC: DISCUSS: Help
BUFFYFIC: Libidinous 3/?
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Date: Sun, 5 Jul 1998 23:21:00 EDT
From: <TruPhile@aol.com>
Subject: BUFFYFIC: WHere was I? and Now, Foever, and Always
Title~æWhere Was I?Æ
Author~Shani
Summary~ This is just a poem based on some of WillowÆs thoughts after
Becoming II
Disclaimer~ The characters of Buffy the Vampire Slayer belong to Joss Whendon,
Mutant Enemy Productions, Kuzui Enterprises, Sandollar Productions, and 20th
Century Fox. No infringement intended. Story for entertainment purposes
only.
Feedback~ YES, YES, YES, YES!! Please send all comments to TruPhile@aol.com
æWhere Was I?Æ
Where was I when you needed a friend?
Hearts to heal, wounds to mend.
Where are you now that your love is gone?
Will you come back soon, will you stay long?
The world needs you, as do I.
A warrior, a friend, a shoulder on which to cry.
The blame which you hold is in the wrong place,
In the wrong soul, in the wrong face.
For you did not send Angel to his prison cell,
I am to blame for sending Angel to Hell.
Where was I when you needed a friend?
Hearts to heal, wounds to mend.
Where are you now that your love is gone?
Come back soon, please stay long.
Title~Now, Forever, and Always
Author~Shani
Summary~ This is just a poem based on some of BuffyÆs thoughts after Becoming
II
Disclaimer~ The characters of Buffy the Vampire Slayer belong to Joss Whendon,
Mutant Enemy Productions, Kuzui Enterprises, Sandollar Productions, and 20th
Century Fox. No infringement intended. Story for entertainment purposes
only.
Feedback~ YES, YES, YES, YES!! Please send all comments to TruPhile@aol.com
Now, Forever, and Always
The water will be warm, a comfort, a friend.
This is where the pain will finally end.
I left my home , I left my pain,
And now I shall leave all over again.
The water will take me, and at last I shall be,
With the one I love, for all eternity.
Alas, I can not take that way out,
Though I shall scream and cry, throw things and shout.
In my heart I know my lover stays,
He is with me now, forever, and always
------------------------------
Date: Sun, 5 Jul 1998 23:19:24 EDT
From: <TruPhile@aol.com>
Subject: BUFFYFIC: Libidinous 1/?
Title~ Libidinous 1/?
Author~ Shani
Notes~ in psychoanalytlic theories, the libido is the driving force behind all
human actions
Summary~ A Buffy/Angel story with a few twists. Involves characters from
General Hospital, but yoiu donÆt have to watch GH to understand this fic. I
did change a thing or two aroung for you GH fans
Disclaimer~ All characters of Buffy the Vampire Slayer belong to Joss
Whendon, Mutant Enemy Productions, Kuzui Enterprises, Sandollar Productions,
and 20th Century Fox. ôPower To Believeö belongs to Wally Kurth and can be
found on the General Hospital CD. All characters of General hospital belong
to ABC.
Chapter 1, The Power To Believe
<ThereÆs a face here in the mirror
One I hardly recognize
The fireÆs burning low
Behind these tired eyes>
<splash> The cool water calmed Buffy. Wiping her face with a towel, she
left the hotel bathroom. What to do today? What was there *to* do? She had
left home almost a month ago. After traveling across the county on various
leads, she was pretty sure that she had discovered what she was looking
for--the book that would bring Angel back from Hell.
* * *
Normally, she worked at a cute little grill called KellyÆs that seemed to be
the main teen hangout. But, today was Sunday, the one day that she took off.
æAh ha!Æ She thought as she approached the Port Charles Public Library.
Once inside, Buffy made her way to the very back of the library, doubting
that demonology books would be in the front. Looking through a small window
in a storage room door, she was several shelves full of old, dusty books.
This was obviously the place.
ôMay I help you?ö A male voice called from behind her. She turned to see a
hansome, dark haired man about her age.
ôHi,ö she began brightly. ôMy nameÆs Buffy Summers. I was wondering how to
get into that room.ö She added a flirty smile, she hoped this works.
ôNikolas. My name is Nikolas Cassadine. That is my uncleÆs private
collection. Actually, itÆs a bunch of old books filled with nonsense about
demonology and rituals.ö
ôReally...ö Buffy said, her voice trailing off. ôCould I meet your uncle?ö
For some strange reason, Nikolas trusted this girl. Buffy Summers...where
had he heard that name before? ôI--I suppose.ö He found himself saying. She
followed himout.
* * *
< Do you believe that love
Can heal a broken dream
And faith can move a mountain
æTil it melts into the sea>
Buffy was impressed, to say the least. They had arrived at Nikolas
CassadineÆs home, a large cassle that he calls Wyndemere on itÆs own island,
referred to as Spoon Island. Nikolas had told her a bit about himself. He
lives with his uncle, Stefan Cassadine. He is a prince and heir to the
Cassadine fortune, etc...she had stopped paying much attention about there.
A man with dark hair, similar to NikolasÆ was reading on the couch.
ôUncle, this is Buffy Summers. She...ö Nikolas was cut off.
ôBuffy Summers, the one and *only*.ö Stefan said, as if they had known
eachother for years. His emphasis on only made Buffy wonder if he some how
knew...ÆNoÆ, she decided. æThatÆs impossible.Æ
ôNikolas, do you recall the book you read about Vampire Slayer?ö Stefan
asked. Nikolas nodded. Buffy was stunned.
ôPlease sit down. So tell me, Miss Summers, what are you doing so far from
the Hellmouth?ö
ôEx-excuse me, sir?ö Suffy studdered.
ôUncle?ö
ôIÆm looking for a book...a book on how to return a person from Hell.ö Buffy
said. It was obvious that this man knew what he was talkign about. Why
pretend to be clueless? This may even make things easier. ôAngel, my
boyfriend, recently reverted to his former self, Angelus...ö This would be a
long story.
* * *
NikolasÆ head was spinning after the tale that Buffy had just told, but he
knew it was true. Apparently, his uncle knew a man named Rupert Giles, whom
was referred to as a Watcher. *This* could turn out to be very interesting.
* * *
<ThereÆs just one thing I want
Just one thing I need
You to stand beside me
And the power to believe>
Buffy awoke suddenly. Something was coming. After checking out of her hotel
room and moving into one of the many spare rooms at Wyndemere she had gone on
patrol. To her great suprise, she had run into three vampires. All of which
were now dust.
Buffy could feel the evil in the air. Maybe she was here for reasons other
than Angel. æI sound like Giles,Æ she thought with a smirk. Giles. Was he
worried? Stefan had said to make herself at home. Did that include using the
phone? She dialed her number.
<...and where you can be reached. beeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep>
ôHi. ItÆs Buffy. I just wanted you to know that IÆm ok. As soon as IÆm
done here, IÆll come home. Please get this message to Giles, Willow, Xander,
Cory, and Oz as soon as possible. Goodbye, mom. And...try not to worry.ö
Whew. She hung up the phone.
* * *
<Time moves in the shadows
A clock with missing hands
Your silence says more to me
Then words ever can>
Buffy let out a breath that she hadnÆt realized she was holding as Stefan
opened the private library room door. Stefan then walked to a shelf on the
right side of the room. After looking at the rack of books briefly, he pulled
one out and flipped through it. Without hesitation, he handed it to Buffy.
Tears welled in her eyes as she read the page.
ôTonight,ö Stefan assured her.
* * *
<Is there a heaven waiting
On the other side
Or do we find heaven
Just by looking here inside>
Some people in the small harbr town of Port Charles found the Cassadine home
somewhat creepy. Nikolas had never agreed, until now. Though he would never
admitt it, the dim lights, candles, herbs, and soft chanting was giving him
the creeps.
He once again focused his attention on the task at hand. In the circle of
candles, the three were performing the ritual. One that woud hopefully heal
the broken slayer.
<ThereÆs just one thing I want
Just one thing I need
You to stand beside me
And the power to believe>
Buffy and a single candle stood in the center of the circle, with Stefan to
the right and Nikolas to the left. She was softly chanting.
ô...and I shall bring ye forth to once again walk amoung the rightous
living.ö As she finished, she poked her left ring finger with a needle and
let the blood drip onto the candle in front of her, putting it out.
<Do you believe that love
Can heal a broken dream
And faith can move a mountain
æTil it melts into the sea>
They stared in awe as the vortex formed. A dark figure appeared. He slowly
staggered out just before the vortex closed.
A...Angel?ö Buffy asked.
<ThereÆs just one thing I want
Just one thing I need
You to stand beside me
And the power to believe
The power to believe>
------------------------------
Date: Mon, 06 Jul 1998 02:47:45 -0700
From: _-Sun-_ <KBleyle@earthlink.net>
Subject: BUFFYFIC: Charlotte Sometimes (part 43)
Title: Charlotte Sometimes (part 43)
Author: _-SuN-_
Email Addie: Kbleyle@Earthlink.Net
Rating: R (Well, I AM making someone insane here....)
Warning: There are lots of violent parts! And a coupe sexual scenes.
Nothing a 15 year old living in 1998 couldn't read I think - but I'm
just warning you.
Feedback: Yes! Send it now!
Disclaimer: Drusilla and Angelus belong to Joss Whedon, Mutant
Enemy, Sandollar, 20th Century, the WB, etc. The Story and the other
characters cast are mine! :P~ (but they all die anyways soo...)
Summary: How *did* Drusilla become a vampire?
Charlotte Sometimes (Part 43)
"Drusilla? Babe? You alive?" Ian asked as he walked around her,
checking out the burns and scratches. Nothing bleed to death deep..
She'd be alright.
Drusilla rolled onto her back looking up at the exotic features of this
new man...
Fear jetted though her.. She didn't like this man, he was dark, very
untrusting. Everything about him screamed evil.
She managed to get into a sitting position and scramble backwards until
her back slammed against the wall. She looked towards the face again
shocked to see stars and blurs.
Drusilla's head feel between her bent knee's as she cried, trying to
cover her face with her hands.
"Great," Ian mumbled "well, there had to be a reason he dumped her with
me"
He sighed, wishing he had a little help here.
"Dru?" He asked again.
Her head snapped up, vision coming back better now as she got a good
look at him.
He smiled, wondering if she was as innocent as she looked. "You're
gonna be stayin' here for a while."
She frowned. "I need to go. Go find Lydia." Ian knelt down next to her,
and Drusilla whispered "She's alone"
He nodded, looking the confused girl. "Yah. You *need* to rest." He
laughed "C'mon, you can stay in my room,"
Ian stood holding out his hand, but as suspected she looked down.
Afraid.
"It's gotta bed" he smiled.
Ian envisioned her busting with tears any minute "Are you going to hurt
me."
"Nah, got pretty strict orders on that"
Drusilla smiled and laid her hand in his.
"My names --"
"Ian," Drusilla smiled "My savior..."
- --
_-SuN-_
SD - Http://home.earthlink.net/~kbleyle/SD/index.html
K - http://home.earthlink.net/~kbleyle/kinky/
Daylight licked me into shape, I must have been asleep for
days. And moving lips to breathe her name, I opened up my eyes
And found myself alone alone. Alone above a raging sea
That stole the only girl I loved, And drowned her deep inside
of me (The Cure)
_ - _Spikette _ Dru's Dolly - Mercenary_ - _
_ - _ Head Dominatrix in the Evil _ - _
_ - _ Plan For World Domination, _ - _
_ - _ With Chains and Stuff _ - _
------------------------------
Date: Mon, 6 Jul 1998 12:08:35 EDT
From: <TruPhile@aol.com>
Subject: BUFFYFIC: Libidinous 2/?
Title~ Libidinous 2/?
Author~ Shani
Notes~ in psychoanalytlic theories, the libido is the driving force behind all
human actions
Summary~ A Buffy/Angel story with a few twists. Involves characters from
General Hospital, but yoiu donÆt have to watch GH to understand this fic. I
did change a thing or two aroung for you GH fans
Disclaimer~ All characters of Buffy the Vampire Slayer belong to Joss
Whendon, Mutant Enemy Productions, Kuzui Enterprises, Sandollar Productions,
and 20th Century Fox. ôLove Has The Last Wordö belongs to Wally Kurth and can
be found on the General Hospital CD. All characters of General hospital
belong to ABC.
Chapter 2, Love Has the Last Word
<These are the times
The days and the nights
The best weÆll ever know>
ôAngel?ö
ôB...Buff? Buffy?ö The man asked, hope filing his voice.
Nikolas saw the tears running down BuffyÆs cheek. He wanted to reach out to
her, to help her. Seeing the small smile on her face he realized that he just
had.
<Come rest in my arms
My love is strong
Outside the world is cold>
ôIÆm sorry. IÆm so sorry.ö Buffy began to cry. Angel moved toward her,
shaking his head.
ôIÆm so proud of you, thereÆs nothing to be sorry for,ö Angel said gently.
ôA...ö Angel cut her off with a kiss.
<When your heart is breaking
And prayers die out unheard
When the more you run
The more youfall behind
Come to me baby
Just come home to me
And love will have the last word>
æPerhaps the slayer could now return to the Hellmouth where she is needed.Æ
Stefan thought. She truely looks happy. He couldnÆt remember the last time
that he had been that happy himself.
He looked over at Nikolas. The boy was watching the reunion intently.
Several emotions played on his eyes. His face remained vacant, no emotion
visible. ThatÆs the Cassadine way. Stefan had been taught to hide his
feelings, as had his father and grandfather, and now Nikolas. He resented it,
but knew that Nikolas was a good person dispite his Cassadine upbringing. He
had always known that.
<Our destiny rides
One every throw of the dice
Even when we loose
We still win
Just hold me close
And donÆt let go
HereÆs where it all begins>
A black figure watched as Nikolas and Stefan left the room, giving Buffy and
Angel some privacy. He looked at his surroundings. æThis was no Hellmouth,
but it would do nicely.Æ He smiled wickedly and began to silently look for an
exit. He kept to the shadows, but was sure that the slayer was too busy to
notice him.
<And when your heart is aching
And your bridges have been burned
When the road youÆve travelled
Fades at every turn>
Nikolas followed Stefan out. æShe looks so happy.Æ He was jealous. He
would never act on that jealousy as long as she was happy. As long as he
helped make her happy in some small way. Angel was lucky to have her. Nik
just hoped that he was able to see that. Having Angel back meant that Buffy
would have to go back too. Maybe a little trip to the Hellmouth someday would
do him some good. He wondered where the hellmouth was locatedas he finally
left the room.
<Come to me baby
Just come home to me
And love will have the last word>
BuffyÆs happy smile faded. Something was wrong.
ôBuff?ö Angel asked, growing concerned. She put a finger to his lips and
closed her eyes. He had a vage memory of her doing this befoer. She was
focusing on something he silently guessed. Angel did the same, though he
lacked the SlayerÆs abilities. He sensed it too. Evil. Suddenly, it was
gone, but itÆs presence still lingered in the air. Buffy opened her eyes and
looked at him.
ôLooks like was have business to take care of before we go home,ö she said
and gave him a kiss before pulling him out the door of the ballroom to find
Stefan. He was the closest thing she had to a watcher here.
<Come to me baby
Put your trust in me
And love will have the last word
And love will have the last word
And love will have the last word>
------------------------------
Date: Mon, 06 Jul 1998 12:43:15 PDT
From: "Black Fire" <blackfire42@hotmail.com>
Subject: BUFFYFIC: Unusual Ways (1/1)
Title: Unusual Ways
Author: Black Fire
Email: blackfire42@hotmail.com
Feedback: If you wish
Spoilers: Becoming 2
Disclaimers: Buffy belongs to Joss Whedon and crew. "Unusual Way" is
from the musical "Nine"
Summary: Buffy is wandering somewhere, lost in her thoughts.
The bus arrived just before dawn. She got off immediately and began
wandering, aimlessly through the city. Buy about 11am, she had found
her way over to a large park near the center of town. She followed the
sounds of clapping until she reached a small, open-air theater. A sign
on a post read "free concert."
As Buffy watched from the top of the amphetheater seating, she saw one
woman accending the stage as another was leaving. The new performer
waited for the the applause to stop. As it did, a slow, almost haunting
melody welled up from behind her. And she sang:
"In a very unusual way
One time I needed you
In a very unusual way
You were my friend
Maybe it lasted a day
Maybe it lasted an hour
But somehow it will never end"
Buffy started as she listened. The lyrics struck a painful cord deep
within her, bringing a tear to her eye. She couldn't listen to this.
Not right now. She turned to walk away, but the music seemed to follow
her.
"In a very unusual way
I think I'm in love with you
In a very unusual way
I want to cry
Something inside me goes weak
Something inside me surrenders
And you're the reason why, you're the reason why"
She started walking faster. Buffy wasn't exactly sure what drove her
away. All she knew that the words of the song continued to follow her
relentlessly, and that she had to get away from them.
"You don't know what you do to me
You don't have a clue
You don't know what it's like to be me looking at you
It scares me so that I can hardly speak
As Buffy continued to walk faster, away from the the song, she came to a
small maze of hedges. She walked in, turning this way and that. As she
did, she noticed that, while the music stayed with her, the haunting
sense that it had given her lessened.
"In a very unusual way
I owe what I am to you
Though at times it appears I won't stay
I'll never go
Special to me in my life
Since the first day that I met you
How could I ever forget you
Once you had touched my soul
Then, as she came to the center of the maze, she stopped dead in her
tracks. And she knew. It was staring her right in the face. She
walked towards the figure in the center of the maze and, as she did, the
end of the song seemed to echo off the figure. She sat down at the base
of the statue and cried.
"In a very unusual way
You've made me whole"
She woke up an hour later. It had to have been a dream. Then she
looked up and remembered what had happened. As Buffy wiped the dried
tears from her face, she looked up into the face of the stone angel
smiling down at her, she saw him, her Angel getting sucked into that
demon again. And she saw a part of herself being sucked in as well.
~Ende~
Comments?
The Black Fire | "Don't worry, I'm not here to eat."
Blackfire42@hotmail.com | -Angel (IG)
http://www.geocities.com/Area51/Shadowlands/4203
"But if they all forget me I will be here anyway, like an artifact
of some lost civilization" -Vlad Dracula _The Dracula Tape_
"I'll see you there, Jekyll." -Edward Hyde "Jekyll & Hyde"
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Date: Mon, 6 Jul 1998 22:58:00 EDT
From: <TruPhile@aol.com>
Subject: BUFFYFIC: DISCUSS: Help
Hi, I haven't received a digest for three days, and I know that they've been
sent out because I've had comments on my fic--BTW, thanks for the comments.
If you have any clue ('cause I don't) about how to fix this, please e-mail me
at TruPhile@aol.com Thanks much!
~Shani
------------------------------
Date: Tue, 7 Jul 1998 19:24:54 EDT
From: <TruPhile@aol.com>
Subject: BUFFYFIC: Libidinous 3/?
Title~ Libidinous 3/?
Author~ Shani
Notes~ in psychoanalytlic theories, the libido is the driving force behind all
human actions
Summary~ A Buffy/Angel story with a few twists. WeÆre taking a quick trip to
the Hellmouth to look at some of the people that BuffyÆs left behind
Disclaimer~ All characters of Buffy the Vampire Slayer belong to Joss
Whendon, Mutant Enemy Productions, Kuzui Enterprises, Sandollar Productions,
and 20th Century Fox. ôVanishingö belongs to Mariah Carey and can be found
on the cd entitled Mariah Carey.
Chapter 3, Vanishing
<If I could recapture
All of the memories
And bring them back to life
Surely I would
Hear the distant laughter>
She couldnÆt believe that she was gone. She wouldnÆt except it. When Joyce
Summers heard the message from her daughter on the answering machine, she had
hope that maybe she wouldnÆt have to. If only she had been home to talk with
Buffy. To tell her that she was welcome here anytime. That she hadnÆt meant
what she had said...that she needed her...
<WasnÆt it you and me
Surviving the night
YouÆre fading out of my sight
Swiftly
YouÆre vanishing
Drifting away
YouÆre vanishing>
Willow looked at a picture of Buffy every night, refusing to forget anything
about her friend. She would be back, she had to come back. æIÆm being
selfish.Æ
Turing to look at the moon, Willow whispered, ôBuffy, where ever you are,
please come back. I can hardly remember what your voice sounds like. I miss
your laugh and your strange way of making everything seem better than it
really is...ö her voice trailed off as her tears fell.
WillowÆs moment was ruined by the ring of the phone. ôHello?ö.... ôIÆll be
right overö she said into the phone.
<I was so enraptured
No sensibility
To open my eyes
I misunderstood
Now youÆre fading faster
ItÆs suddenly hard to see
YouÆre taking the light
Letting the shadows inside
Swiftly>
It took him three weeks to fully realize what he had done by not warning
Buffy that they were trying to recurse Angel. He knew Willow blamed herslf,
but he also knew that he was the one to blame. HeÆd do anything to take what
he did back. He was a coward, and now he couldnÆt even admitt to anyone that
he had lied to Buffy. The phone rang... ôWhat?ö he snapped. ôOn my way...ö
he said.
<YouÆre vanishing
Drifting away
YouÆre vanishing
Reaching out into the distance
Searching for spirits of the past
Just a trace of your existence to grasp
And if somehow I could recapture
All of the memories
And bring them to life
Lord knows I would>
He had never let himself think about what would happen if he lost Buffy. He
had never let himself admitt how much she meant to him. But now, all he would
let himself do is search. It was useless, he knew that. She was the Slayer,
if she wanted to remain hidden then he knew that she would. An annoying
ringing broke his thoughts. He considered disconnecting the phone..but what
if it was Buffy?
ôYes?ö ôI-IÆll be over there shortly.ö
* * *
They were all assembled. Xander, Cordy, Willow, Oz, and Giles, just as Buffy
had asked. Once they were situated, she got up to address the group.
ôThank you all for coming. Last night, I received a message from Buffy. She
said that she wanted you to hear it and I thought you all might want to...ö
She stopped, seeing the anxious looks on everyoneÆs face.
ôæHi. ItÆs Buffy. I just wanted you to know that IÆm ok. As soon as IÆm
done here, IÆll come home. Please get this message to Giles, Willow, Xander,
Cory, and Oz as soon as possible. Goodbye, mom. And...try not to worry.Æö
The message ended.
Everyone felt relieved that she was ok, but now more than ever wanted her
back.
<But youÆre fading faster
Getting so hard to see
Taking the light
Letting the darkness inside
Swiftly
YouÆre vanishing
Drifting away
YouÆre vanishing>
------------------------------
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