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buffyfic-digest         Monday, April 6 1998         Volume 02 : Number 099



In this issue:

       BUFFYFIC: "Reunion" (6/?) by Ingrid
       BUFFYFIC: Homecoming Pt. 2/?
       BUFFYFIC: Fallen (1/?)

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Date: Mon, 6 Apr 1998 03:23:01 -0400
From: [e-mail] (Ingrid E Stanton)
Subject: BUFFYFIC: "Reunion" (6/?) by Ingrid

DISCLAIMER: The characters of Angel, Buffy, Cordy
Willow, Xander, Jenny, Giles & company are the property
of Joss Whedon, Mutant Enemy, Sandollar Productions,
and The Warner Brothers Network, and are used without
permission. The author claims no rights to these characters.

SUMMARY: Hee hee! Guess what! It's 3:20 AM right now,
and I'm not finished with half of the work I have to do (even
though I've been working all weekend). Somedays, you
just want to kill the guy who invented honors english!

 Welcome to my new story. This one might
be a tad difficult to understand at first, since it takes place
ten years into the future, and IÆm not telling you whatÆs
happened in advance. IÆm going to reveal that as time
goes on in the story. I love to get feedback, except when
my mailbox explodes, which is often, but send it anyway!
My address is [e-mail]. If you donÆt get this,
thatÆs because you havenÆt read the other parts. If you want
to get this, ask me for them!

*********
"Reunion," by Ingrid
Part Six: "Hello, Goodbye"
*********

"Hello?"

"Giles? ItÆs Buffy. I need your help."

"Buffy?" With the pronouncement, everything he had been
trying to deny rushed back at him with blinding force. He
dropped onto a chair, and remained silent. The seconds
clicked away.

"Giles?" The voice on the other end was different, but
somehow he would have known it anywhere.

"Yes. Buffy, how have you been?" His response was
polite, but strangely detached.

"Well, fine, up until recently. ThatÆs why I need your help.
It was so difficult to track this number down."

"What did you say the problem was?"

"I didnÆt. I was just getting to that."

"Oh."

"Giles, IÆve been having dreams."

"What?"

"Dreams."

"Dreams- like the slayer dreams?"

"Yeah, how did you-"

"With Spike, and Willow?"

"Yeah."

"And  Jenny and Ang-"

He stopped suddenly.

"No," Buffy answered, "Not with them."

"Buffy, IÆve beenà having dreams like those you spoke
of. I donÆt think itÆs a coincidence. I think you should call
Cordelia."

"Cordelia? But sheÆs got her own-"

"I think it would be important for her to know." He didnÆt
say anything else, and she wondered if he was still listening.

"Goodbye," her voice nervously flitted and died. She hung up,
stumbled purposelessly into the kitchen and crumpled into
AngelÆs arms.
******
END, PART 6. Some feedback each day keeps the badfic
away! ([e-mail])

Ingrid: Author of many long Buffyfics (and some short
ones). "Return to Normalcy," "One Vampire's Headache...,"
 "This Fleeting Hope," "Ghost of a Chance," "Tragic
Sighs" and "Footsteps."

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Date: Mon, 6 Apr 1998 18:43:12 EDT
From: Daphne1784 <[e-mail]>
Subject: BUFFYFIC: Homecoming Pt. 2/?

Title: Homecoming Pt 2/?
Author: Aphrodite ( Just my pen name :P )
E-mail Addy: [e-mail]
Rating: It will vary so I will have them listed at the beginning of each part
Distribution: Sure just make sure you ask me first!
Summary:  This is going to be about Buffy/Angel mostly.
Spoilers: All the way up through "Killed by Death"
Disclaimer: Buffy and the gang belong to the television show "Buffy the
Vampire Slayer," Joss Whedon, FOX, Mutant Enemy, and Warner Brothers. The
Story and all characters that I decide to create are mine. Don't sue!
Feedback: Please send me some feedback, good or bad, so that I will know if I
should continue to write it. Also this is my very first fanfic so I want to
know how I'm doing.


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Homecoming
Part Two
Rating
P.G.
By:
Aphrodite
*********************************


            After Buffy and the slayerettes left the library, Giles decided to
take a trip to the cemetery to visit Jenny's grave. When he got there, he
noticed some beautiful
lilacs had already been placed upon it. *I wonder who put those there?* Giles
thought, while he added his roses to them. He didn't notice the old lady
sitting on the bench a few graves away.

          "Jenny," he started, "I needed some closure. The way we were parted
so abruptly left us with some unresolved feelings. I shouldn't have been so
cold and insensitive to you. I know that it wasn't your fault that you
couldn't tell us about this.  I felt the same way about Eyghon. I know that
experience was terrible for you but in the end you were able to forgive me. So
I just wanted to say that I . . . forgive you."

                There. He had finally said it, and he had meant it with all of
his heart. He hoped that this would let Jenny's spirit rest a little easier.

      "You must be Giles," an elderly voice from behind him said. Startled he
quickly turned around and saw the old woman.

         "May I ask who you are and how you know me?" Giles asked
suspiciously.

       "Let's just say I'm a friend who is here to do a little . . . soul
searching," the woman replied, a small smile playing over her lips.

         After walking Willow to class Buffy decided to roam around school for
a while to clear her head. *At least it's daylight and I don't have to worry
about Angelus trying to attack me or my friends,* Buffy thought. No matter how
hard she tried not to think about him, good or evil, it seemed as if her whole
life revolved around him. "Why won't he just leave me alone?" Buffy pleaded to
no one in particular, desperately trying to hold back tears. It seemed besides
thinking about Angel, all she ever did was cry recently.

          Buffy stared at the ring on her finger. It was the ring that Angel
had given to her.  She could still remember their conversation at the docks.
The day he had given her the beautiful claddagh ring for her birthday. The
ring had meant a lot to her. It symbolized their whole relationship. She still
wore it every day, with the heart pointing toward her. It gave her hope, that
just maybe, her Angel would come back to her. *Yeah right,* Buffy thought,
bitterly.

         Angel had told her to wear the heart pointing toward her meaning that
she belonged to somebody. Well she didn't belong to anybody now. Angel was
gone and she was just going to have to accept that. She couldn't hold back the
tears any longer. Before running to the bathroom she turned the ring with the
heart pointing toward her fingertips.

End of Part Two


Feedback: PLEASE tell me what you think! It is essential to a writer's health
to have feedback, good or bad. Just send it my way!

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Date: Mon, 6 Apr 1998 19:22:31 -0400
From: "Kirstin" <[e-mail]>
Subject: BUFFYFIC: Fallen (1/?)

title: Fallen (1/1)
rating: strictly G or PG here.  nothing anybody can't read.
disclaimer: these characters are joss's, the wb's, mutant enemy's, anyone
else who has a valid claim that i don't know about's property.  they aren't
mine.  neither is the stuff from Gone . . ., Anya's story, which this is a
sequel to.  the ideas here, however, are mine.  please don't steal them
distribution: ask and ye shall receive.
feedback: pretty please with a cherry on top.
comments: mad props and thanks to all of the people who beta-read for me
and sent me nice comments last time i sent this.  Leslie, Taygeta,
Michelle, Divine1798, and hjrobert, you are the best humans ever!  i adore
you!  well, that's the cookies talkin', but you rock!  :)

There is no statute of limitations on forever, she told herself.  You told
him you love him.  You have to honor that.  But it was getting harder.  So
much had changed, in the month since he had left, in the weeks since she
had.  Things were completely different; she was completely different.  And
maybe somewhere inside she would always love him, but a different kind of
love than she used to think.  She had grown up with him, no matter how far
apart they were, they would always be best friends.  But she was beginning
to see that distance really did matter, and that it wouldn't mean that she
loved him less, if she let herself love someone else more.

    Buffy.  How could she do this to Buffy?  That was a completely different
issue.  She knew that Xander had never loved her the way she loved him.
She wasn't betraying him.  But she was betraying Buffy.  In such a short
time, the girls had grown so close.  Buffy had opened her eyes, shown her
things that she never knew existed.  Willow had grown up a lot through
their friendship, but she had grown even more when it ended.  There was no
way she could justify this.  It was nothing but betrayal.  Even though
Angel and Buffy had never let themselves get too close, Willow knew that
Buffy was in love.  How could she do that to her best friend, even if Buffy
and Angel would never see each other again?  How could she ignore what she
knew was right?

    But maybe Buffy and Angel weren't meant to be, Willow thought.  After all,
isn't he everything she is fighting against?  It never would have worked
out in the long run.  They couldn't have had a future.  A vampire and the
slayer, that's practically the definition of star-crossed.  Willow, on the
other hand, knew exactly what Angel went through.  She knew the bloodlust,
and the guilt after.  She knew what it was to be everything that she hated
in the world, and together maybe they could make things work out.  Maybe
they did have a chance . . .

    Angel doesn't even want me, Willow decided.  There is no way we have a
chance.  Just because I decided to be an awful person and turn against all
of my friends doesn't mean that he has.  He loves Buffy.  I am just a
friend.  He wouldn't even have come with me, but he probably wanted to
watch me in case I went full out vamp.  Giles just made him come along to
stake me if I started any problems.  That's all it is.

    But when he looks at me now, it's different.  Softer.  It's like he has
noticed that I'm changing too.  I'm not the girl I used to be.  I feel
older, a lot less naive.  And when I see myself, what little of myself I
can still see in the mirror, I look different too.  There's something there
that wasn't there before.  And I like it.  I think I'm finally starting to
see myself as beautiful.  And someday maybe I'll find someone to love me
like I love him . . . maybe someday Angel might fall in love with me, like
I'm falling in love with him.

*****

    This hadn't just started.  It wasn't like he woke up last week and
thought, hmm, maybe Willow.  And it wasn't just because Buffy was gone, or
because Willow was a vampire.  There was more to it.  In a way, it had
always been there.  He and Willow had always gotten along.  She was the one
to stick up for him.  And she had always been beautiful.  That was
definite.  But there was something new.  Something in the way that she
carried herself, something behind her eyes.  She looked older, wiser, and a
little more sure of herself.  In the middle of all of her problems, she had
really grown up and found herself.  Willow could always make the best of a
bad situation.  She was smart, and fun, and he loved being around her.  He
had always known that, too.  What he hadn't always known though, what he
was beginning to discover, was that he was falling in love with her, with
Willow.

    If he really thought about it, he had probably started to notice sometime
just before Buffy and Xander had gone on their respective vacations.  He,
Willow, Giles, Jenny, and Cordelia had thrown a makeshift goodbye party for
the departing Slayer and Slayerette.  He remembered one point in the
evening when he was alone with Willow, setting up for the party.  They were
getting out the cake, setting up plates and glasses, the usual pre-party
fare.  At some point in their stream of idle conversation, Willow said
something that made him take notice.

    "I can't believe they're going to be gone for so long!  Xander is leaving
tomorrow, and Buffy just a few days after.  I guess I'll get good at doing
research, since I'll be all alone for a month, I can catch up on my
prophecies or something.  Bye-bye hanging out and having fun," Willow said
sadly.

    "Don't worry Willow; I promise a lot of hanging out and having fun this
summer.  As long as 241 year old dead guys are your style," Angel answered
with a laugh.

    "I guess that could be included in my definition of fun," she said,
brightening up.  "Maybe we could go Bronzing sometimes?" she asked
hopefully.

    "Sure," he answered, "I'd love to dance with you."

    I wonder if she saw then what I saw, Angel thought.  I wonder if the same
forbidden thoughts were running through her mind then, and later.  We spent
so much time together.  By day, she was Giles' research girl, but at night,
she was mine.  Did she feel it too?  When we did the rounds at night, did
the same feelings tug at her soul as tugged at mine?  I just wanted to be
with her, all the time.  She had to know.  God, I was so obvious sometimes!
 I acted like a sixteen-year-old, not a 241-year vampire.  It's a good
thing that vampires don't sweat.  She would have noticed my damp palms
dancing at the Bronze.  I love holding her close like that, her tiny body
folded into mine.  It was all I could do not to kiss her then, even before
everything happened and I knew I would never see Buffy again.  Even if this
had never happened, I would have had to end things with Buffy when she got
back.  I wouldn't have approached Willow, I couldn't put that strain on
their friendship, but I also couldn't allow myself to lead Buffy on like
that.  I knew even then that she wasn't the one I loved.
When Willow didn't answer my call the night they got her, I was trapped in
fear.  I ran through the city, looking everywhere I thought she might be.
Finally, I reached the Anointed One's lair.  I remember her, lying on the
ground.  She was passed out, sick.  She was so cold when I picked her up.
What if she had been dead?  Well, in a way, she was dead.  The fear raced
through me.  Thank god Giles was home when I got there.  He found a pulse,
a quiet low pulse.  So we waited.  I think he might have known how I feel
about her.  He could see it.

    I know that there is nothing for her in Europe.  There are no Rom to cure
her.  She is what she is forever.  I think Giles knows that too, but
neither of us could tell Willow.  This is her last hope.  Maybe there is
something there though, something that will reassure her, even if it won't
cure her.  She has a lot of fighting to do.  Together though, I know we can
get through it.  I can help her control her urges, and she can help me with
mine.  We're good for each other.  Sunnydale was bad for both of us.
That's why I filled her head with hopes of an anchor for her soul.  In
Sunnydale, she would have driven a stake into her heart eventually, or
forced Buffy to do it for her.  She couldn't have handled being what she
was, a Slayerette who should have been one of the slain.  Giles and I knew
that to keep her alive, we had to keep her away from home.  And so we're
going to Europe.  We're going together.  I hope that someday, we can truly
be together.  Maybe someday Willow might fall in love with me, like I've
fallen in love with her.







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