This takes place sometime after the kids have graduated. For some odd reason I felt the need to write something like this. I wasn't exactly sure who it was going to be until I typed her name below. Always love feedback! Lots of it 8)
DISCLAIMER:
The characters seen on the show BtVS belong to Joss "is a genius" Whedon. I mean no infringement. The title of this piece is taken off Tori Amos, Little Earthquakes album. The musical quote is by Velvet Chain and is lifted off their album 'Warm'
"A love came like a hurricane
Then left it's devastation."
-Velvet Chain
She awoke to the unusual feel of his embrace. As the sun slowly rose from it's sleep, her own eyes widened in horror at the memory of last night.
Dear God, what had they done?
There had been the announcement. Then there had been a party. And then there had been drinking.
Bringing her hand to her mouth Willow shook her head, "Oh God." She breathed, "No."
Looking over at the sleeping boy, he looked so peaceful. So full of hope, so full of promises for tomorrow. One night of unforgettable passion and she, the one they had all trusted, had killed that hope and promise for him.
Willow remembered all the thoughts she had, had when him and Cordelia announced their engagement. Xander would never be hers now. She had grown to accept that and had even moved on to other boys.
Oh God, Oz.
Tears formed in Willow's eyes. He will be so devastated and hurt. She could already see his reaction in her mind. His light hazel eyes turning dark as the realization hit them, then they would lower and he would nod saying he understood.
Xander groaned as the sun hit him in the face forcing him to turn away from the window.
"Cordy?" he mumbled.
Willow closed her eyes and then opened them.
Cordy? She had betrayed her. Cordelia had come to love and care for Willow, treating her as an equal after all the years of treating her like dirt.
A small part of Willow's conscious mumbled, 'That's what she deserves.'
No. Cordelia didn't deserve to be hurt like this. Not by her best friend and fiance.
She didn't deserve this.
Xander groaned again. Willow knew he would be alert soon and everything would come back to him. Then they would have to decide how to . . .
Willow wiped the tears that had fallen, angrily. Dammit. How could they have been so stupid?
Reaching over she shook his shoulder, noticing it's firmness, "Xander."
"mmmm?" He rolled back over facing her as his eyes opened. Blinking he took in her face and his eyebrows lowered, "Willow? What are. . .?"
Then it all came back to him. She watched as his eyes widened in the same horror hers had. He remembered telling the gang that him and Cordelia. . .oh god it hurt just to even think about her. . .were engaged to be married. He remembered Willow's sad look and her looking away with tears in her eyes as she whispered her 'Congratulations'
Then they had gone to that party at a College friends. Xander had watched as Willow drank more then her usual sip. He was just trying to walk her home safely when she had tripped. He caught her then just held her. His arms around her, comforting her. She had looked up at him with those eyes he had come to love and trust so many years ago, then he had lowered his mouth to hers. The kiss only lasted a few seconds but had changed everything. A few minutes later Willow had unlocked the door to hers and Buffy's apartment and led him to her room.
No words were spoken.
"Willow?" He sat up, his back now to her.
"Xander." She whispered his name again, the tears once again found a way down her cheeks.
He wanted to turn to her, to take her in his arms. to hold her. But he couldn't.
"No." he ripped the covers off as he jumped out of bed and threw on his clothes.
"Xander? What are you doing?"
He turned to her and she gasped. His eyes were black, full of anger and hate. But as they took in her look of fear on her face they softened.
"Will. . .I. . ." he reached out a hand and touched her face gently. She nodded, understanding. He regretted what they had done but he was sorry for regretting it.
He weakly smiled then turned to leave.
"Xander? What are you doing here?" Buffy questioned as he walked past her sitting on the couch.
"I, uh, um Willow got sick last night and I ended up crashing here. See ya later." With that he slammed out the door.
Buffy stood up and walked to Willow's doorway, "Willow you okay?"
Willow looked up at her friend, the tears not wanting to stop.
"Oh god, Will, what's wrong? What happened?"
Buffy rushed to her side taking the small red-head into her arms.
"Buffy. We've destroyed the people we love."
* * *
Oz left town a few days after I told him. He reacted exactly the way I had predicted. He told me he loved me and always would but that he couldn't stand to be second in my heart.
Cordelia came to me a few days later. I let her in the empty apartment and we sat on the couch together. Her face was hard but I could see the pain in her eyes.
She looked up at me and lowered her eyebrows, "Willow. . .I. . " her voice cracked which seemed to make her even more angry. I didn't know what to say, so I just waited.
Cordelia stood up, looking down on me, "I was supposed to come here today to ask you to be my maid of honor."
I looked away, tears were finding a way down my face again.
"But instead I am telling you how. . .you. How could you? I would have expected something like this from Harmony and her friends. . or. . .or even from Buffy," She swung her arm towards Buffy's room. "But from. . .you. You, Willow! Xander tells me not to blame you. But we both know you are more of a blame then he is."
I nodded.
"Well Willow, I can forgive but I can't forget. And I will never forget how you were the one person I had come to trust. You were the one person I thought was my true friend." Cordelia picked up her purse and opened the door to leave. "Willow, you were my only friend."
I watched her face soften as she turned to leave.
There may be demons and Vampires in this town but there are worse things then that.
