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- [ Suicidal Maniac's Shitty File ] [ By Suicidal Maniac ]
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- Suicidal Maniac's Shitty File
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- Introduction
- ------------
-
- Well, I'm sure that most of you folks are saying who the fuck is
- this guy. But, there are a few of you who are saying, hey, I know this
- guy. So let's talk about who I am.
- I'm a veteran to the p/h world, long since retired. My alias is
- Suicidal Maniac. I ran Condemned Reality BBS a few years ago, which in
- its time was one of the largest and busiest BBSes in the p/h world.
- The demise of an underground guru comes in one of two ways, he or
- his BBS gets busted or he burns out. I kept my shit straight and my
- BBS standing on the line between legal and illegal, so obviously, I
- ended up burning out.
- My history with uXu dates back from the very beginning of uXu. The
- Chief was a member in good standing on my BBS when he approached me
- about becoming the US HQ for uXu. I was at that time K-C0W board and
- the NoT HQ, but uXu looked really interesting to me. The Chief already
- had more than 20 releases in a very short time of existence. So, I
- took the chance on the new kids on the block (no offense, this isn't
- meant to be a pun), and put the uXu shit up and ready to go.
- Wouldn't you know that uXu started becoming a large enough force
- that I was getting new callers from all over the globe calling because
- they had gotten my number off of a uXu file.
- So, basically in this introduction I would like to give a hats off
- to The Chief for the enormous work he has done for the underground. I
- have to admit, before I saw these uXu guys come around, I thought the
- p/h underground was dying. Phearless and The Chief appeared on the
- scene with more enthusiasm than anyone in the underground.
- Although I do not directly participate in the underground anymore
- through the BBSes, I do get the files from the FTP sites. I can see
- just by looking at the number of files being produced that uXu has
- given the other underground groups a swift kick in the ass. It seems
- that everyone is producing now.
-
- To end this introduction, I would like to say that I would be
- interested in receiving mail over the internet from anyone that used to
- be on Condemned Reality that has access to the internet. And one other
- thing, Splice, if you are out there, try to contact me. My internet
- mail address is a360681362@sysa.c-engr1.siu.edu, so send me some mail
- and let me know what's new.
-
-
- Section I -
- ---------
-
- You may have seen some of my work published by the cDc, COD, AA, or
- NoT, but here's some things that are new, or old stuff that hasn't been
- published. This section is all poetry.
-
-
- Slice
-
- Iron clad maidens
- Falling in line.
- Entering a state of madness.
-
- Hysteria strikes....
- Wandering uterus,
- Migrating through
- the polluted systems.
-
- Symbol of life
- Out of control,
- Influenced behavior.
- The symbol of death.
-
- Vital functions blocked
- by its passage.
- Running through the blood.
-
- Morbid bodies, all with jobs.
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-
- The Mirror
-
- Looking out at another shapeless day
- I decided to take a walk.
-
- While pondering the pages of my mind,
- I ran into two friends of mine.
- One named conformity,
- The other named individuality.
-
- They asked if I may help them.
- A disagreement they were in.
- Fighting over expression through each other.
-
- They can see each other
- in themselves.
- A mirror.
-
-
- Enter into the world of my friend.
- Individuality strikes us all.
- For that brief moment,
- Entering into life from the womb.
- Our life is undetermined for a
- Fine fine hair of time.
- We are without identity.
- We are ourselves.
-
- The other friend, it's his world.
- A world of black and white television.
- Monaural sound, bells that do not ring.
- The smell of fresh air is non-existent.
- Conformity strikes us after birth.
- We are tagged so as not to get lost.
-
- While overviewing the disagreement I ran into another friend.
- His name is insanity.
- He claims he can walk through the mirror.
-
- Insanity is a hallucination.
- Seeing someone else
- In the mirror of life.
- Driving backwards through
- The lanes of the living highway.
- Running in the mirror,
- without a reflection.
-
- Throughout the disagreement we seem to have forgotten a friend.
- His name is society.
- Society says there is no mirror.
-
- Very well we all say.
- I never saw the mirror.
-
-
- Me, I'm superstition.
- I broke the mirror.
-
- Some may confuse me with insanity.
- Yes, we look much alike.
- I break all the mirrors I see.
- I tell you this, never trust the mirror.
- It lies.
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- The Ritual
-
- Come, let's join hands.
- Eat the paper
- It won't hurt you.
-
- The ground is spinning,
- Reality slips away.
-
- You feel a breeze,
- As your spirit leaves you.
- You're outside now,
- Floating in the air.
-
- Hold my hand tightly,
- We're beginning to merge.
- An orgasmic grip tightens
- Around your waist.
-
- Our souls are one now,
- Let's make the journey.
-
- Your body below us
- Slowly drifts away.
- We soar above the mountains,
- And into the desert.
-
- Everything flushes red.
- A voice calls, "I am lonely."
- The voice continues "Will you dance with me?"
-
- "Who are you, where are you?"
- "I am no one. Will you dance with me?"
- "Where am I? Where are you?"
- "You are nowhere."
- "Where are you?"
- "I am everywhere."
-
- Entering Nirvana you peak.
- The journey is set in reverse.
-
- Reality focuses in.
- The world is gray.
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- Section II -
- ----------
-
- Ok, a lot of files I've been seeing lately have been about what's
- cool and what's not. Well, I'd just like to say one thing, those are
- all opinions, and that's it. I'd like to express a few opinions myself
- in this section.
-
-
- II.a - Respect
- --------------
- It seems that some of the lamer 14 year old dorks that get on a few
- p/h boards like to brag about how they sent a virus to a local PD
- board. What I want to say about this is, you're a fucking dork. The
- only time that it should be acceptable to send somebody a virus is if
- they do something to you personally. Nobody should have the idea that
- PD boards must die. They have their niche in the computer world just
- as much as the underground. They also have every right to exist.
-
-
- II.b - Music
- ------------
- I've seen all kinds of shit in files about if you listen to a
- certain kind of music, you are a true dork. Only rap and alternative
- are cool now. Ok, I listen to alternative, but let's face it rap
- SUCKS! I'll take Ministry, Skinny Puppy, or STP anyday over Snoop
- Doggy Dog. I went through my rap phase. That was part of growing up.
- It was NWA, Public Enema, and the Geto Fags back then. Then I began
- to realize that all the gangsta rappers were a bunch of losers who made
- money that other people were more deserving of.
- I listen to a great variety of music. There's no law saying that
- it's only cool to listen to rave groups and shit like that. I listen
- to as much classic rock as I do metal and rave.
-
-
- II.c - How to tell if you are a dork
- ------------------------------------
- Ok, everybody stop writing these fucking files. I think that the
- last one of these files that was truly enjoyed was written in 1986 or
- 1987. The idea has gotten old. Everybody can tell a dork when they
- see one, and most likely, the person also knows they are a dork. There
- is no need for a fucking definition file.
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-
- Well folks, it's been interesting to put a file out again. Hopefully,
- I'll be able to do some more writing and either submit it to the cDc or
- uXu for publishing.
- I hope you liked this file, if you didn't, FUCK YOU!
-
- This is Suicidal Maniac saying, "If you can't sack 'em, slap 'em!"
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