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- .. < chapter xlix 15 THE HYENA >
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- There are certain queer times and occasions
- in this strange mixed affair we call life when a man takes this whole universe
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- for a vast practical joke, though the wit thereof he but dimly discerns,
- and more than suspects that the joke is at nobody's expense but his own.
- However, nothing dispirits, and nothing seems worth while disputing. He bolts
- down all events, all creeds, and beliefs, and persuasions, all hard things
- visible and invisible, never mind how knobby; as an ostrich of potent
- digestion gobbles down bullets and gun flints. And as for small difficulties
- and worryings, prospects of sudden disaster, peril of life and limb; all
- these, and death itself, seem to him only sly, good-natured hits, and jolly
- punches in the side bestowed by the unseen and unaccountable old joker. That
- odd sort of wayward mood I am speaking of, comes over a man only in some time
- of extreme tribulation; it comes in the very midst of his earnestness, so
- that what just before might have seemed to him a thing most momentous, now
- seems but a part of the general
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- joke. There is nothing like the perils of whaling to breed this free and easy
- sort of genial, desperado philosophy; and with it I now regarded this whole
- voyage of the Pequod, and the great White Whale its object. Queequeg, said
- I, when they had dragged me, the last man, to the deck, and I was still
- shaking myself in my jacket to fling off the water; Queequeg, my fine
- friend, does this sort of thing often happen? Without much emotion, though
- soaked through just like me, he gave me to understand that such things did
- often happen. Mr. Stubb, said I, turning to that worthy, who, buttoned up
- in his oil-jacket, was now calmly smoking his pipe in the rain; Mr. Stubb,
- I think I have heard you say that of all whalemen you ever met, our chief
- mate, Mr. Starbuck, is by far the most careful and prudent. I suppose then,
- that going plump on a flying whale with your sail set in a foggy squall is the
- height of a whaleman's discretion? Certain. I've lowered for whales from a
- leaking ship in a gale off Cape Horn. Mr. Flask, said I, turning to
- little King-Post, who was standing close by; you are experienced in these
- things, and I am not. Will you tell me whether it is an unalterable law in
- this fishery, Mr. Flask, for an oarsman to break his own back pulling himself
- back-foremost into death's jaws? Can't you twist that smaller? said Flask.
-
- Yes, that's the law. I should like to see a boat's crew backing water up to a
- whale face foremost. Ha, ha! the whale would give them squint for squint,
- mind that! here then, from three impartial witnesses, i had a deliberate
- statement of the entire case. Considering, therefore, that squalls and
- capsizings in the water and consequent bivouacks on the deep, were matters
- of common occurrence in this kind of life; considering that at the
- superlatively critical instant of going on to the whale I must resign my life
- into the hands of him who steered the boat --oftentimes a fellow who at that
- very moment is in his impetuousness upon the point of scuttling the craft
- with his own frantic stampings; considering that the particular disaster to
- our own particular boat was chiefly to be
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- imputed to Starbuck's driving on to his whale almost in the teeth of a squall,
-
- and considering that Starbuck, notwithstanding, was famous for his great
- heedfulness in the fishery; considering that I belonged to this uncommonly
- prudent Starbuck's boat; and finally considering in what a devil's chase I was
- implicated, touching the White Whale: taking all things together, I say, I
- thought I might as well go below and make a rough draft of my will.
-
- Queequeg, said I, come along, you shall be my lawyer, executor, and
- legatee. It may seem strange that of all men sailors should be tinkering at
- their last wills and testaments, but there are no people in the world more
- fond of that diversion. This was the fourth time in my nautical life that I
- had done the same thing. After the ceremony was concluded upon the present
- occasion, I felt all the easier; a stone was rolled away from my heart.
- Besides, all the days I should now live would be as good as the days that
- Lazarus lived after his resurrection; a supplementary clean gain of so many
- months or weeks as the case might be. I survived myself; my death and burial
- were locked up in my chest. I looked round me tranquilly and contentedly,
- like a quiet ghost with a clean conscience sitting inside the bars of a snug
- family vault. now then, thought i, unconsciously rolling up the sleeves of
- my frock, here goes a cool, collected dive at death and destruction, and the
- devil fetch the hindmost.
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