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- The cabin; by the stern windows;
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- Ahab sitting alone, and gazing out. I leave a white and turbid wake;
- pale waters, paler cheeks, where'er I sail. The envious billows sidelong
- swell to whelm my track; let them; but first I pass. Yonder, by the
- ever-brimming goblet's rim, the warm waves blush like wine. The gold brow
- plumbs the blue. The diver sun --slow dived from noon, --goes down; my soul
- mounts up! she wearies with her endless hill. Is, then, the crown too heavy
- that I wear? this Iron Crown of Lombardy. Yet is it bright with many a gem;
- i, the wearer, see not its far flashings; but darkly feel that i wear that,
- that dazzlingly confounds. 'Tis iron --that I know--not gold. 'Tis split, too
- --that I feel; the jagged edge galls me so, my brain seems to beat against
- the solid metal; aye, steel skull, mine; the sort that needs no helmet in the
- most brain-battering fight! Dry heat upon my brow? Oh! time was, when as the
- sunrise nobly spurred me, so the sunset soothed. No more. This lovely
- light, it lights not me; all loveliness is anguish to me, since I can ne'er
- enjoy. Gifted with the high perception, I lack the low, enjoying power;
- damned, most subtly and most malignantly! damned in the midst of Paradise!
- Good night --good night! ( waving his hand, he moves from the window.)
- 'Twas not so hard a task. I thought to find one stubborn, at
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- the least; but my one cogged circle fits into all their various wheels, and
- they revolve. Or, if you will, like so many ant-hills of powder, they all
- stand before me; and I their match. Oh, hard! that to fire others, the
- match itself must needs be wasting! What I've dared, I've willed; and what
- I've willed, I'll do! They think me mad --Starbuck does; but I'm demoniac, I
- am madness maddened! That wild madness that's only calm to comprehend
- itself! The prophecy was that I should be dismembered; and--Aye! I lost this
- leg. I now prophesy that I will dismember my dismemberer. Now, then, be the
- prophet and the fulfiller one. That's more than ye, ye great gods, ever
- were. I laugh and hoot at ye, ye cricket-players, ye pugilists, ye deaf
- Burkes and blinded Bendigoes! I will not say as school-boys do to bullies,
- --Take some one of your own size; don't pommel me! No, ye've knocked me
- down, and I am up again; but ye have run and hidden. Come forth from behind
- your cotton bags! I have no long gun to reach ye. Come, Ahab's compliments
- to ye; come and see if ye can swerve me. Swerve me? ye cannot swerve me,
- else ye swerve yourselves! man has ye there. Swerve me? The path to my
- fixed purpose is laid with iron rails, whereon my soul is grooved to run.
- Over unsounded gorges, through the rifled hearts of mountains, under
- torrents' beds, unerringly I rush! Naught's an obstacle, naught's an angle
- to the iron way!
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