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- .. < chapter xi 24 NIGHTGOWN >
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- We had lain thus in bed, chatting and
- napping at short intervals, and Queequeg now and then affectionately throwing
- his brown tattooed legs over mine, and then drawing them back; so entirely
- sociable and free and easy were we; when, at last, by reason of our
- confabulations, what little nappishness remained in us altogether departed,
- and we felt like getting up again, though day-break was yet some way down the
- future. Yes, we became very wakeful; so much so that our recumbent
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- position began to grow wearisome, and by little and little we found ourselves
- sitting up; the clothes well tucked around us, leaning against the
- head-board with our four knees drawn up close together, and our two noses
- bending over them, as if our knee-pans were warming-pans. We felt very nice
- and snug, the more so since it was so chilly out of doors; indeed out of
- bed-clothes too, seeing that there was no fire in the room. The more so, I
- say, because truly to enjoy bodily warmth, some small part of you must be
- cold, for there is no quality in this world that is not what it is merely by
- contrast. Nothing exists in itself. If you flatter yourself that you are all
- over comfortable, and have been so a long time, then you cannot be said to
- be comfortable any more. But if, like Queequeg and me in the bed, the tip
- of your nose or the crown of your head be slightly chilled, why then, indeed,
- in the general consciousness you feel most delightfully and unmistakably warm.
-
- For this reason a sleeping apartment should never be furnished with a fire,
- which is one of the luxurious discomforts of the rich. For the height of
- this sort of deliciousness is to have nothing but the blanket between you and
- your snugness and the cold of the outer air. Then there you lie like the one
- warm spark in the heart of an arctic crystal. We had been sitting in this
- crouching manner for some time, when all at once I thought I would open my
- eyes; for when between sheets, whether by day or by night, and whether
- asleep or awake, I have a way of always keeping my eyes shut, in order the
- more to concentrate the snugness of being in bed. Because no man can ever
- feel his own identity aright except his eyes be closed; as if darkness were
- indeed the proper element of our essences, though light be more congenial to
- our clayey part. Upon opening my eyes then, and coming out of my own pleasant
-
- and self-created darkness into the imposed and coarse outer gloom of the
- unilluminated twelve-o'clock-at-night, I experienced a disagreeable
- revulsion. Nor did I at all object to the hint from Queequeg that perhaps it
- were best to strike a light, seeing that we were so wide awake; and besides
- he felt a strong desire to have a few quiet puffs from his Tomahawk. Be it
- said, that though I had felt such a strong repugnance to his smoking in
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- the bed the night before, yet see how elastic our stiff prejudices grow when
- love once comes to bend them. For now I liked nothing better than to have
- Queequeg smoking by me, even in bed, because he seemed to be full of such
- serene household joy then. I no more felt unduly concerned for the landlord's
- policy of insurance. I was only alive to the condensed confidential
- comfortableness of sharing a pipe and a blanket with a real friend. With our
- shaggy jackets drawn about our shoulders, we now passed the Tomahawk from one
- to the other, till slowly there grew over us a blue hanging tester of smoke,
- illuminated by the flame of the new-lit lamp. Whether it was that this
- undulating tester rolled the savage away to far distant scenes, I know not,
- but he now spoke of his native island; and, eager to hear his history, I
- begged him to go on and tell it. He gladly complied. Though at the time I
- but ill comprehended not a few of his words, yet subsequent disclosures,
- when I had become more familiar with his broken phraseology, now enable me to
- present the whole story such as it may prove in the mere skeleton I give.
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