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buffyfic-digest        Tuesday, August 4 1998        Volume 02 : Number 289



In this issue:

       BUFFYFIC: ADMIN:  List rules
       BUFFYFIC: ADMIN:  Subscribing a free email address policy
       BUFFYFIC: Libidinous 9/?
       BUFFYFIC: What Just Happened 7/?
       BUFFYFIC: What Just Happened1-5/?

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Date: Tue, 4 Aug 1998 13:01:59 -0400 (EDT)
From: sah <[e-mail]>
Subject: BUFFYFIC: ADMIN:  List rules

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Date: Tue, 4 Aug 1998 13:02:05 -0400 (EDT)
From: sah <[e-mail]>
Subject: BUFFYFIC: ADMIN:  Subscribing a free email address policy

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Date: Tue, 4 Aug 1998 18:27:59 EDT
From: <[e-mail]>
Subject: BUFFYFIC: Libidinous 9/?

Title~ Libidinous  9/?
Author~ Shani
Notes~ in psychoanalytlic theories, the libido is the driving force behind all
human actions
Summary~  A Buffy/Angel story with a few twists.  Involves characters from
General Hospital, but yoiu donÆt have to watch GH to understand this fic.  I
did change a thing or two around for you GH fans
Disclaimer~  All characters of Buffy the Vampire Slayer belong to Joss
Whendon, Mutant Enemy Productions, Kuzui Enterprises, Sandollar Productions,
and 20th Century Fox.  ôOne Moment In Timeö belongs to Whitney Houston.  All
characters of General hospital belong to ABC.

Chapter 9, One Moment In Time

< Each day I live
   I want to be
  A day to give
  The best of me
  I'm only one
  But not alone
  My finest day
  Is yet unknown>

    Buffy and Nikolas reached Wyndemere without further insident.  Giles and
Stefan were engaged in a convorsation on one end of the room, and on the
other, sat Xander and Willow.  They all looked up when they walked in, then
wrapped up their discussions.
    ôWhatÆs up?ö  Buffy asked anyone that was listening to her.
    ôIt seems that there has been another death.ö  Stefan reported to a shocked
Buffy and Nik.  ôValerie Easa, age 22, volunteer at General Hospital.  The
PCPD still says itÆs gang related.ö

< I broke my heart
   Fought every gain
   To taste the sweet
   I face the pain
   I rise and fall
  Yet through it all
  This much remains>

    Buffy sat down.  More deaths.  More casualties in her war.  She would not let
this go on.  She had once told herself she could kill Angelus, now she told
herself that she would kill Arcanus...even if it meant giving up Angel.  She
turned to look at Giles.  She just watched him for a moment, then finally
spoke.
    ôDid you find anything about how to kill Arcanus without killing his host?ö
    ôA spell must be performed.  Arcanus must be bound to a blessed object, then
to ensure that he cannot be freed, the object must be shattered.ö
    Buffy felt her hopes rise, that sounded easy enough.  ôGood.ö  Giles shook
his head.  ôNot good?  Why is this not good?ö
    ôNo one here can perform that kind of magic.ö
    The room was silent for a moment.  Willow was about to suggest she do it, she
had beem able to give Angel back his soul.  Someone beat her to it.  ôI can.ö
Buffy stated.

< I want one moment in time
   When I'm more than I thought I could be
  When all of my dreams are a heartbeat away
  And the answers are all up to me
  Give me one moment in time
  When I'm racing with destiny
  Then in that one moment of time
  I will feel
  I will feel eternity>

    ôNo.ö  Giles and Willow said at the same time.  ôLet me.  I performed the
spell tio give Angel his soul back.ö  Willow said.  Buffy shook her head.
    ôI wonÆt let you put yourself at risk again.  When I was looking for the book
that would get Angel out of Hell, I came across some other books.  IÆve read
about magic and Merik and I worked on it a little...before he was killed.ö
She added softly.
    Giles gave a stiff nod.  Willow was about to protest, but was silenced with a
look from Giles.  He knew his Slayer.  He knew her well.  He also knew that
once she had made up her mind, there was no point in getting her to change.
He looked over at her.  She was smiling, a smile that didnÆt quite reach her
eyes.  There was still work to be done.
    ôThere are things that we must do to prepare.  I think we should get
started.ö  He was surprised when no one argued.

< I've lived to be
  The very best
  I want it all
  No time for less
  I've laid the plans
  Now lay the chance
  Here in my hands>

    The sun had just come up.  Nikolas found that he wasnÆt even tired.  He was
watching Buffy and Giles work together, the Watcher trying to prepare his
Slayer.  Fortunately, Arcanus did not have to be present for the spell to
work.  He turned away from the pair for a moment.  Xander and Willow seemed to
be looking for something.  He felt completely useless, and decided the least
he could do was help them find what they needed.
    ôIs there something that you two need help finding?ö  He asked them.
    ôActually, yes.  We were given the job of finding some kind of stone cross
that your uncle told us was blessed by a Roman priest.  I think he said it was
given to you as a gift on a trip to Rome.  I hope you donÆt mind that we use
it...ö  Willow rambled.
    ôOf course not.  I think I may know where it is.  Come with me.ö  Nikolas led
Xander and Willow to the attic to find the blessed cross.

<Give me one moment in time
  When I'm more than I thought I could be
  When all of my dreams are a heartbeat away
  And the answers are all up to me
  Give me one moment in time
  When I'm racing with destiny
 Then in that one moment of time
 I will feel
 I will feel eternity
 You're a winner for a lifetime
 If you seize that one moment in time
 Make it shine>

    She took a deep breath.  She could do this, sheÆd do it for Angel.  Buffy
read over the spell again.  Giles had gone off to look for candles and herbs
and other spell things.  Xander and Willow were supossed to be finding some
blessed thing.  Nikolas was God knows where, and Stefan was watching her from
the other side of the room.  She could feel is eyes boring a hole into the
side of her head.  Finally, she stared him straight in the eye.
    ôCan I help you she said.ö  The annoyance seeping through her voice.  Stefan
said nothing.  ôWell are you staring at me for any special reason?ö
    ôJust noting your reaction to all of this.  You donÆt seem to enjoy your
work, but I see you have begun to take it seriously.ö  Stefan said.
    ôIt has serious consequences if I donÆt.  That was something I found out
*way* too young.ö  She turned back to her book.  She didnÆt want anything to
go wrong tonight.

< Give me one moment in time
   When I'm more than I thought I could be
   When all of my dreams are a heartbeat away
  And the answers are all up to me
  Give me one moment in time
  When I'm racing with destiny
  Then in that one moment of time
  I will be
  I will be
  I will be free
  I will be
  I will be free>

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Date: Tue, 4 Aug 1998 22:38:45 EDT
From: <[e-mail]>
Subject: BUFFYFIC: What Just Happened 7/?

TITLE: What Just Happened?
AUTHOR:  Azziel Savament
E-MAIL:  [e-mail]
FEEDBACK:  I need it to live.  PLEASE MORE!!!!  If  I don't get more feed back
soon, I'll kill a main character offà.HAHAHàI'm out of my mindà.so don't put
it past me!!!!!!!!!! Xander will Die!!!!!!!!
RATING:  PG-14 just to be safe.
CONTENT:  Angst, Confusion, the usual.
SPOILERS: The story is set after season two happened
SUMMARY: This is a Angel/Buffy what-if story. It starts off the morning after
her suprise party. What happens when Buffy wake's up to find out that all that
happened from the time of her birthday to the time she sent Angel to hell was
just a dream, or was it??????
DISCLAIMER: I do not own any of these, they belong to an evil man named Joss
Whedon.
NOTE: I have no idea what on earth that I am doing, all I know is that the
fanfic must go on!

Part 7: Sometime You Just Got to Think

Location:  Library

Zeal is wandering the room thumbing threw the shelves.  The only other people
in the room are Angel and Giles.  Giles had sent the gang home to wait for him
to call them when they had rescued Xander.

"Giles I'm sensing something bad, how do you know Zeal will leave Buffy's body
after she defeats the Judge?"  Angel was wearing a concerned look on him face,
and could not help but repeatedly look over his shoulder at Buffy. There was a
feeling inside of him that the spell might have gone wrong.

"Angel calm yourself, we will know the out come when it comes.  Right now our
concern is to destroy the Judge."  Giles said as he removed his glasses to
clean the again.  Anyone who would have seen him would have noticed that he
was completely stresses out, and losing faith in the spell that they had used
to ensure the return of Buffy.

"I hope you both realize that I can here every word that you are saying."
Zeal said as she walked between the two.  Then turned to Angel and looked into
his eyes seemingly peering into his soul.  "And every thing that your are
thinking.  Do you mine if I speak to you for a moment."  She never broke eye
contact with him.  It seemed to unnerved him for a moment, but he still
couldn't help to look upon her as if she was Buffy.  Finally when she broke
eye contact with him, she looked at Giles and spoke.  "Alone."

Giles gave a concerned look at Angel, but Angel soon waved away Giles doubts
about leaving the two alone with a few simple words.  "I'll be fine."  With
that Giles left, and entered his office.

"What do you want?"  Angel questioned.

"A little harsh don't you think.  I want to talk about us."

"There is no us.  There is only me and Buffy, you might be in her body, but
your not her."

"O but I am.  She is still inside here screaming to get control.  She doesn't
like me very much in here.  I don't blame her.  I know all of her thoughts,
all of her memories, and all about what you two did lasts night.  Even that
little nightmare she had, or was it.  Knowing this helps me greatly, it will
make it easier when I make my mark, and change things.  But it still seems to
piss her off greatly.  She knows what I want to do.  She knows who I want."
With that Zeal cupped his jaw slowly lowering his face to hers.

"What do you want?"  Angel whispered.

"You."  Slowly their lips came together, but just as quickly, Angel had a
moment of clarity.  <What am I thinking?  Buffy is not in control here, I
can't do this, this is wrong. >  But before he could respond to his own
thoughts the Library doors burst opened and Zeal pulled away for the kiss.

Behind the door was Annabel in full game face.  <Hell, if I'm going to die
delivering some stupid note I'm going out with a bang. >  Annabel could not
help but think as she lunged at Zeal.
With one quick movement Zeal slammed her fist into Annabel's face.  Zeal could
not help but smile at Annabel's thought.  This pitiful young vampire was not
her goal, and she had no intention to destroy her.  "Get up.  NOW!"  With an
amused look on her face she helped Annabel up.  "So, you think you have come
here to die.  You shouldn't worry about that.  I'm not going to kill you.
Just give me the note and leave.  Before I change my mind."

Both Annabel and Angel had confused looks on their faces.  Angel for the fact
that Zeal was never known to be merciful.  Annabel because she didn't even had
a clue to what was going on.  With that Annabel dropped the note on the ground
an halled ass in the other direction.  Just in case it was a trick she was not
going to stick around to find out.

Slowly walking over, Zeal kneeled down, and picked up the note. It read:

Slayer, so you will be joining us soon.  Wonderful,
Come to the factory with Angel tomorrow night at
Sundown.   Fail to come, and your boy Xander will
Die.
            Spike

"What does it say?" With that Zeal handed him the note.  With a quick glance
at the note he had another questioning.  "What are we going to do?"

"You see they are playing my game now.  The sun will be up soon. You should
go; I'll come for you right before sunset.  We will go there at sundown, and
we'll bring them the death that they have asked for." With one more glance
into Angel's eyes, then finished her answer.  "To all of them."  With that she
turned her back to Angel, and walked into Giles's office to tell him what was
going on.

End of part 7

Personal note:

You should never suffer for the sins that you have committed, but the good
deeds you could have or should have done.
Azziel Savament

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Date: Tue, 4 Aug 1998 22:40:43 EDT
From: <[e-mail]>
Subject: BUFFYFIC: What Just Happened1-5/?

TITLE: What Just Happened?
AUTHOR: Azziel Savament
E-MAIL:  [e-mail]
FEEDBACK:  Yes, please.
RATING: PG-14 just to be safe.
CONTENT: Angst.
SPOILERS: The story is set after season two happened
SUMMARY: This is a Angel/Buffy what-if story.  It starts off the morning after
her suprise party.  What happens when Buffy wake's up to find out that all
that happened from the time of her birthday to the time she sent angel to hell
was just a dream, or was it??????
DISCLAIMER: I do not own any of these, they belong to an evil man named Joss
Whedon.
NOTE: I have no idea what on earth that I am doing, all I know is that the
fanfic must go on!

What just Happened?
By:  Azziel

Part 1: What?

Buffy awoke suddenly crying.  She did not realize that she was in Angel's bed,
and that Angel was laying right next to her.  All she could do was sit there
and sob.  Angel quickly sat up and started to confert her.  The first words
out of Buffy's mouth were.

"O my god Angel I thought I had lost you forever."

"Don't worry It was just a dream," He said while caressing her hair.

"Angel don't ever leave me," She said with tears rolling down her face.  She
could not shake the feeling that the nightmare that she had just had was real.

 "Don't worry, I will never leave as long as I live," He smiled lightly at her
hoping it would lighten the saddening mood in the room.

     With all of her strength, she was able to muster up a half-smile, and
stopped crying.  It felt like an echo through her mind, as all the emotions
from her dream came back to her in full force.  Then the tears returned as she
rested her head on Angel's chest.  Angel could not help but feel like that
there was something more to this dream, then being a normal nightmare.  It was
true that Buffy had not been sleeping well the past couple of nights, but he
never realized that it was this bad.  He knew that when night fell he and
Buffy were going to have to go to Giles and the gang to explain what happen to
them.  They had neglected to call or stop back when they had gone to the
factory.  They had been a bit tide up, and rather liked the idea of staying
with each other.

"Tonight we are going to have to talk to Giles," He whispered into her ear.
She slowly stopped crying by then, but her eyes were still glazed over as if
one wrong word would have caused her to break down again.

"OK, tonight" Was all she could manage saying without busting into tears
again.

Part 2:  Where

    When the sun finally set Angel and Buffy went to the Library to see Giles,
and to check in.  They both hoped that no one did anything stupid, and went to
find them at the factory.  The problem was Xander did and now was a the mercy
of Spike and Drusilla.  The fact remained that Xander still did not
trust Angel, even after all the times that he saved his life.  He could not
just sit there and wait for their return and now he was stuck.

Location: Library, an hour after sunset.

    Buffy enters the Library with Angel right behind her.  Everyone was siting
around the table, still look for a way to stop the Judge.  All except Xander.

"What happened to you both, we where all worried, and Xander went after you.
"Giles said while cleaning his glasses.

"What!!  You have got to be kidding me, why didn't you stop him.  He is no
match for them.  The Judge is assembled, and we almost got killed going in
there.  Xander could be dead!"  Buffy's tone was becoming more anger filled as
the word came to her."We have to go after him he might be still alive, and I
am willing to take that change.  "Buffy had to put all of the emotions aside
that she was feeling from before.  Even if it hurt, right now she could not be
concerned with dreams, only with the fact she had to save Xander.

From behind Buffy, Angel finally spoke up, "I don't think you should just go
storming in there without knowing how to stop the Judge.  We nearly got killed
when we went in there, and we had a plan.  What do you think will happen when
we going in there again?  "By then Angel and Buffy were looking only at one
another, like they where the only to in the room.

"Angel, I can't just sit here waiting for something to happened," by then she
was whispering.  As Angel slowly lowered his head, and was about to kiss Buffy
in an attempt to dispel the pain that he knew she was feeling.

"Hello Guys!!," Cordelia started. " I don't mean to interrupt your Kodak
moment, but we still don't know how to stop the Judge, and if we don't stop
him soon everyone will be dead.  God you to are acting like you too slept
together," with that Buffy and Angel gave her a look that would kill.  "O, I
see how it is, while you should have been saving the world and stopping Xander
from going off and getting killed, you were......"Cordelia was starting to get
angary because they were off having their fun while Xander was getting killed.

"You what?"  Giles was getting a little worried about what they were about to
say.  He always minded a little that she was with a vampire, even if it was
Angel.

"That is not important right now, right now we worry about saving Xander and
stopping the Judge."Buffy stated firmly, since she really did not want to have
to deal with having a talk about sex with her Watcher."Do you have any ideas
on how to stop him?"

"Well, yes, but I don't think you are going to like it."  Giles did not know
where to start but he knew that it was the only way to stop the Judge.

End of Part 2


Part 3:  Who?

Location:  Factory

    The Judge is knelling at a makeshift altar gathering his strength for his
task at hand.  Xander is chain to the adjacent wall struggling to get lose,
but is failing miserably.  While Spike and Drusilla just sit back watching the
show before them.  Suddenly Drusilla falls to the ground in pain, and begins
talking incoherently.

"Dru, luv, what's wrong."  Spike knew that it one of her visions coming, but
was still a little concerned.  Well, as concerned as Spike could get.

"My mind is swimming, it's all black, and they are screaming.  The sound is so
lovely!"

"Dru, what do you see?"

"Spike she's coming, all of the shadows will come and she will lead them."

"Who's coming luv, The Slayer?"  Spike had such a questioning; he loved when
Drusilla did this.

"Yes," Dru slowly stood up, walk over, and took Spikes' hand.  "But she will
no longer be pure, she will be as evil as we.

"I knew she was coming, she'll never be evil, she'll stop you all once and for
all," unfortunately for Xander this did not just get the two vampires
attention, but also the Judge.

"Quiet your whining, I will put you out of your misery and make the world
clean of all its goodness."  As the Judge got up to burn Xander, Spike stepped
in and stopped him.  "Why are you stopping me, he must be cleaned."

"Don't touch the bate, mate.  You don't get to kill.  At least not yet."  With
that Spike grinned widely at the thought of the slayer being evil.  He also
knew that if she became evil Angel would soon follow.  "I have the feeling
that the fun has just began."

Part 4: Hu?

Location: Library

    Giles is pacing back and forth fumbling with him glasses look for the right
words to say.  "Well."  He wanted to start off slow to let everything that he
was going to tell Buffy would sink in.  "There is only one way to really stop
the Judge without getting burned to death. You have to be able to get close
enough to disembowel him, and to do that you will have to have no humanity
left in you."  He stops to wonder for a moment the idea that he was going to
propose, but before he could continue Buffy spoke up.

"What are you saying Giles."  With a very concerned look on her face Buffy let
Giles continue.  <This better be a good idea>she could not help but think to
herself.

"The only person that was able to ever get close enough to the Judge to
disembowel his was the leader of the last army that went against him, she was
said to be soulless even though she was mortal, and had no attachments to
witch craft.  She was the one that actually disemboweled him.  What I am
proposing is that we resurrect her and put her spirit into your body.  That
way without losing your soul, you can go fight the Judge without being
burned."

"Your right I don't like this idea.  What happens when the Judge is gone an
this leader, he wants to stay in my body."  By then Buffy was becoming a
little upset and from the look on Angel's face he agreed with her. Yet stayed
silent like the others in the room.

"First of all it is not a he but a she.  To the surprise of me she was the
only person strong enough to defeat him.  At first I though she might have
been a slayer, but it mention the reason that she did not get burned was
because she was soulless.  A slayer can never be that evil without a demon
inside of them, but a normal human can.  Her name was Zeal. I was able to find
a spell of resurrection that would place her spirit into your body until her
goal is finished."  Before Giles could finish Angel interjected.

"I hear of her before, to my recollection she has been resurrected several
times.  Each time from what I heard she would not leave the host until it was
dead.  Giles I don't think that you should let Buffy do this, I mean how can
you be sure that, that spell of yours will ex spell Zeal before she makes
Buffy her new home.  I just think it's to risky."  To Angel's surprise Buffy
was the next to speak up.

"Angel, I don't like this idea just as much as you do, but there are really no
other choices.  While we are sitting here trying to decide what to do their
out they're right now killing, and are looking for the easiest way to kill the
most people."  Buffy could no longer hold back her emotions; tears began to
roll down her face.  Everyone in the room, except Angel had a confused look on
their face.  None of the others knew what she had been going through the past
few days, and now she didn't really what them to let them know.

As soon as Buffy began to cry, Angel went over to her an hugged her close.  "
Shh it'll be ok," Angel looks up at Giles for some answers that he knew he
could give.  "How can you be sure this thing won't take over Buffy?"

"Well actually we don't.  You see Zeal is a very powerful spirit, and has been
known to take over its host.  But I think I have found a spell that will keep
that from happening.  It will only resurrect her until her goal is done, after
that her spirit will be forced to leave."<God I hope this works> Giles did not
want to show the fact that he also was having doubts about the spell, but he
knew he could not let that be known.  "We will only have to hope that it
works."

"OK, I'll do it."  Angel could not help but stare at Buffy while she said
those words.  He was still hoping for her to oppose it, even though deep down
inside he knew she had to do it. "Let's get started before I change my mind."


Part 5: How?

Angel wanted to speak to Buffy in private before she went threw with this.
They both decided that Giles's office would be the closest thing to privacy
that they would get.

Location: Giles's Office

"I still don't want you to do this.  You could get hurt, I could lose you."
Angel did not want to upset her, but he really did not know what to say.  So
he did the next best thing, he went over to her and hugged her close as he
could.

"Angel, I love you."  That was all that she could say.  By then the tear had
started to fall again.

"I love you."  Angel slowly lowered his hand, and their lips began to meet.
All of a sudden Buffy collapsed and almost fell to the ground with a small
whimper coming from her lips.  She would have fell if he had not been holding
her so closely. "Buffy! What's wrong?"  Angel was a bit shock, and slowly
brought her over to the couch.

"I-I don't know, It feels like.  O god not again.  It's the dream. I can't
even really remember it, but it feels like if being emotionally fucked."  By
then she had her arms around him sobbing into his chest.

"Why did this come so suddenly?"

"It was the way you just said 'I love you' it just trigger something in me,
like, I don't know, like in the dream."  She was slowly regaining composer.

"So you have been dream of me saying that I love you, then the dream can be
that bad."  Angel grinned lightly hoping that his words would confert her.

"It's nothing that I can't deal with.  Right now we have to take care of the
current problem.  Now all I have to do is go out there and say 'Let's do
this.'  Buffy got up and walked to the door followed by Angel.

"Did I happen to mentioned I don't want you to do this."

"Ya, but I still have to."

Location: Library

Buffy sat across from Giles as he handed her a white candle, "Light this when
I begin to chant, and blow it out when I stop.  That is when Zeal will enter
you, you will still be in there, but Zeal will be in control.  Ready."

"Ready as I'll ever be." As she said this she looked at Angel and her gave her
a weak smile.  That was the best he could do given the pain he knew she was
going through.

As soon as Giles was finished casting the spell, Buffy got up as if nothing
had happen.  But the look in her eyes told a different story.  They were
expecting Zeal to be a bit confused once she entered Buffy's body, but the
looks that she gave every one was not the look of confusion, but of
understanding.

She slowly walked towards Angel and began to explain.  "I should warn you,
even though this is not my body I carry with me telepathic abilities.  That
means you should be careful what you think around me."  As soon as she said
this she locked her eyes with Angel's.  It was the kind of look Buffy gave him
when she would not take no for an answer.  Once she was standing right in
front of him she continued to speak.  "A vampire and a slayer together," she
paused momentarily to grin, "Kinky."

Finally Giles began to speak up when he saw the on Angel's face that was just
screaming 'HELP.'

"Now what do you want us to call you?"  Giles really did not want to piss such
a powerful spirit off; past experiences showed him that.

"Zeal will be fine," she began to pace the room, as she watched the people in
the room encircle her, and then continued.  "I already know my propose.  Why
is that?"

"Because as soon as your propose is fulfilled you will be ex-spelled from
Buffy's body," Giles answered sheepishly.  He knew that the spell would force
her to do her task no matter what, and as soon as possible. <He hoped. >

"Keep hoping."  She answered with a large grin.


Ends of part Five.

Personal Note
"You should never suffer for the sins that you have committed, but for the
good deeds you failed to commit."
Azziel Savament

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