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buffyfic-digest Saturday, April 4 1998 Volume 02 : Number 093
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Date: Sat, 4 Apr 1998 15:04:41 EST
From: Aglx <Aglx@aol.com>
Subject: BUFFYFIC: Sorry
I just sent out the first three parts of Lost & Found and there are probally a
lot of editing mistakes. My computer was all wigged!! Just ignor the mistakes.
Thanks.
- -Michelle
Author of "The Dark One," "Vengeance," and now "Lost & Found."
http://members.aol.com/aglx/main.html
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Date: Sat, 4 Apr 1998 15:06:42 EST
From: GothGirl77 <GothGirl77@aol.com>
Subject: BUFFYFIC: Memories Of You (1/2)
Title: Memories Of You (1/2)
Author: Nastassia
Email Addy: GothGirl77@aol.com
Rating: PG
Spoiler: Everything, but mainly Suprise/Innocence
Feedback: You know I want it!
Distribution: Just ask me first.
Disclaimer: Buffy the Vampire Slayer is not mine. Neither are Angel, Xander,
Giles, or Willow. The song "I'll Remember" belongs to Madonna, not me. I also
used quotes from "Welcome to the Hellmouth" "Lie To Me" "Angel" and "Surprise"
Please don't sue me, I'm already a lot in debt from buying this laptop, and
I'm still in high school!
Summary: Buffy remembers Angel. This is one solution to the problem of Angel's
missing soul, though I hope this will not be how it is solved.
WARNING: If you don't like sad, melancholy stories then you might want to skip
this one.
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Well, what can I say, I'm back for more! Fanfic stories based on songs are
some of my faves, and I'll probably send out some short ones while I'm working
on "Lily". Hope you guys enjoy this. :)
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Memories Of You(1/2)
by Nastassia
Say good-bye to not knowing when
The truth in my whole life began
Say good-bye to not knowing how to cry
You taught me that
Buffy stood alone in the graveyard, staring vacently at the place where she
had spent most of her nights in the two years she had known him. It seemed to
be the best place to say goodbye to him. This was where he had died, after
all.
This was where she had killed him.
The gold Claddagh ring laying on the blackened ground still marked the spot.
Buffy wondered absently why no one had stolen it. Part of her wanted to take
it with her, to lock it up in some secret place where no one but her could
touch it, but it seemed wrong to move the ring. Instead, she left it where it
had fallen, a memorial to the only person she would ever love.
Her beautiful Angel.
And I'll remember the strength that you gave me
Now that I'm standing on my own
I'll remember the way that you saved me
I'll remember
A single tear slipped out of Buffy's eye as she recalled what had happened
that fateful night. Giles had come to her saying he had found what could be a
cure for Angel. A cure that would not only restore his soul, but would also
make him human. She had hugged Giles and thanked him more times than she could
recall. Buffy had been so cerain that she would have him back by the next
morning.
'I was a fool,' she thought.
The so-called "cure" had worked. The demon had been driven out of Angel's
body. One look in his eyes had told her that. Angel's beautiful dark eyes
showed only love, not the hate and malice she had grown used to seeing there.
"Buffy."
"Angel."
They each spoke in a whisper, afraid that maybe this was a wonderful dream,
and if they moved or spoke they would wake up. They gazed at each other for
what could have been seconds or hours before Buffy ran into his arms.
Angel kissed her with a gentle passion, and they held each other, afraid to
let go. For a few moments all was right with the world.
Inside I was a child
That could not mend a broken wing
Outside I looked for a way
To teach my heart to sing
Angel let out a strangeled gasp and fell to his knees. Giles, Willow, and
Xander, who had been allowing the two lovers privacy for their reunion, rushed
towards them.
They found Buffy cradling Angel in her arms, as he coughed and gasped for air.
"Buffy, Buffy, I love you. I always will-"
"Angel, it'll be okay. Save your strength."
"I'm dying. It won't be okay." Angel cried out in pain and shuddered in
Buffy's arms. He looked at Giles through dimming eyes. "Thank you," he
whispered.
Angel turned back to Buffy. He took her hand and held it, their matching rings
almost glowing in the moonlight. "Thank you," he repeated. His words faded to
nothing as his eyes closed for the final time.
"No," Buffy sobbed, denying his fate, even as his body turned to ash in her
arms. "No. No, you can't do this to me." Buffy had stayed there, crying over
Angel's body until nothing remained of him save the gold ring that fell from
her hand onto the dust covered ground.
They had won. The demon was dead. They had also failed, by not remembering
that the demon was what kept Angel alive for two hundred and forty years. They
had killed him, and his last words had been those of thanks.
And I'll remember the love that you gave me
Now that I'm standing on my own
I'll remember the way that you changed me
I'll remember
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Date: Sat, 4 Apr 1998 15:18:33 EST
From: GothGirl77 <GothGirl77@aol.com>
Subject: BUFFYFIC: Memories Of YOu (2/2)
Title: Memories of You (2/2) <-----I think I forgot to put this last time
Author: Nastassia
Email Addy: GothGirl77@aol.com
Rating: PG
Spoiler: Everything, but mainly Suprise/Innocence
Feedback: You know I want it!
Distribution: Just ask me first.
Disclaimer: Buffy the Vampire Slayer is not mine. Neither are Angel, Xander,
Giles, or Willow. The song "I'll Remember" belongs to Madonna, not me. I also
used quotes from "Welcome to the Hellmouth" "Lie To Me" "Angel" and "Surprise"
Please don't sue me, I'm already a lot in debt from buying this laptop, and
I'm still in high school!
Summary: Buffy remembers Angel. This is one solution to the problem of Angel's
missing soul, though I hope this will not be how it is solved.
WARNING: If you don't like sad, melancholy stories then you might want to skip
this one.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Memories Of You (2/2)
by Nastassia
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
So now Buffy stood where Angel had drawn his last breath and died in her arms.
Five years had passed since that night, years filled with grief, tears, and
memories.
Images from the night they had first met echoed through her mind.
"Who are you?"
"Let's just say I'm a friend."
"And what if I don't want a friend?"
"I never said I was yours."
The first time she confessed her true feelings to him was never far from her
thoughts.
"Do you love me?"
"What?"
"Do you?"
"I love you, but I don't know if I trust you."
"Maybe you shouldn't do either."
Or the night the Three had attacked them, and the next night when they had
first kissed.
"I live nearby. I was just out walking."
"So, you weren't following me? I just had this feeling you were."
"Why would I do that?"
"You tell me. You're the mystery guy that appears out of nowhere. I'm not
saying that I'm not happy about it tonight, but...if you are hanging around
I'd like to know why."
"Maybe I like you."
"Maybe...."
Or the night they had shared their love for the first time..........
"I love you. I try not to, but I can't stop."
"Me too, I can't either."
The memories were all that had gotten Buffy through the last few years.
Anytime she got close to breaking down, Buffy thought of Angel-his eyes, his
smile, the feeling of his lips on hers. It was all she had left to remember
him by, memories, his jacket, the cross he'd given her, and the ring.
Buffy had left Sunnydale a month after Angel's death. She had left without a
word to anyone, leaving behind notes for her friends and family. The notes had
been more of a way of telling herself why she was leaving than explanations to
her loved ones. Buffy disappeared into the night, and this was the first time
she'd been back in half a decade.
I learned to let go of the illusion that we can possess
I learned to let go, I travel in stillness
And I'll remember happiness
I'll remember, I'll remember
"I miss you, Angel," she whispered, kneeling down on the grass, "I don't
really know why I left Sunnydale. I just couldn't stay. This was the place
where the best and worst things in my life hapened. Every place reminded me of
you, Angel. When I walked into the Broze, I expected to see you leaning
against the wall waiting for me. Or in the library, discussing some wiggy
prophecy with Giles. I'd see you outside my window at night. I couldn't even
walk down the street without expecting Mr. Cryptic Guy to come up behind me
and give me some weird message." Buffy bit her lip and lightly ran her fingers
over the ring laying on the grass. "I just had to get away."
"I know......"
Buffy jumped to her feet. "Angel?" she asked, turning around.
"Buffy......"
"Please, please let me see you!"
"I still love you......"
Then there was silence in the night. Buffy was certain it had been Angel,
showing her his love in the only way he was able to now. A few more tears
escaped from Buffy's eyes. "Don't leave me, Angel," she begged.
For the final time the familiar voice whispered, "I will always be with
you......"
No I've never been afraid to cry
Now I finally have a reason why
I'll remember, I'll remember
"Thank you," she said, "For everything. You gave me the strength to live my
life. I'll remember you forever, and I'll never ever stop loving you. You gave
me something I thought I could never have because I was the Slayer. You gave
me someone to trust and someone to love, even when I didn't deserve it. You
made my life worth living, Angel."
Without another word Buffy turned and walked away from the cemetary. She
walked towards the library, because she knew they would be there.
And I'll remember the love that you gave me
Now that I'm standing on my own
I'll remember the way that you changed me
I'll remember
*The End*
Was it good for you? (Innocence)
Nastassia
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