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- [ A Man In Need ] [ By Joseph ]
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- [A man in need]
-
-
- And as I looked up I could see how it all was supposed to
- be. How it was formed and shaped. It was all there.
- Everything had been taken care of. Except for the humans.
-
-
- Starting out
-
- The first time I saw her was at the local store a couple of
- blocks from my house. I was stunned, I realized immediately
- that she was something special. Not like them whores I
- usually met at the pub or in some shabby disco. She was
- really something. Her hair was sort of brownish and barely
- reached down to her neck. She moved with grace and looked
- right at me. Our eyes met and I blushed. I guess I thought
- that she, in some strange way, knew what I was imagining
- about her. She walked past me and paid her milk at
- the counter. She didn't look back when she left the
- store. I strolled around the store for about 2-3 minutes
- and then went out after her. She was about two hundred
- meters away from me when I got out. Her hair floated in the
- wind. It was a warm day and I felt very good. I imagined
- that I ran up to her and asked her who she was or
- something. That wouldn't work. It never did. My personality
- and my body is strongly repellent to women. No, this time
- there would be no picking up or trying to confront her.
- This time I was the one in charge. This time I was not
- going to be let down. She kept on walking and walking.
- I think we walked three or four kilometers before she
- stopped outside a house. She did not turn back once as we
- walked. She had no idea that I was following her. It was a
- small house with three floors. Perhaps there could be
- around twelve apartments in there. I went over to the other
- side of the street to see what floor she lived on. It took
- a while but after five minutes the lights went on and I saw
- her in what must have been her kitchen. I was satisfied
- when I started to walk home.
-
-
- Getting ready
-
- Now what? I thought to myself. Damn it man, you never get
- anything done! It was 2 a.m. in the morning and my head
- was spinning with ideas as to what I should do next. She
- had probably never even noticed me when I met her that
- afternoon. I poured another drink of whiskey and lit a
- cigarette. She was not all that beautiful either. But with
- this one there was something different. My hands began to
- shake as I got more and more angry. I am never going to be
- able to confront her or anything. I'm just going to sit
- here and get more and more drunk. I stood up and put my
- coat on. I put the bottle in my coat and walked out. It had
- been a long walk back from her apartment this afternoon.
- But man! Going back there was even longer. Could be that I
- also was heavily drunk perhaps. The whole house was dark
- when I arrived. I just stood there like an idiot. Watching
- her window. Hoping that she would show herself. I walked in
- to the stairwell and went up the three floors to her
- apartment. On the door was a small sign saying `here lives
- Jessica Tibblin and Rufus'. Rufus must be a dog I thought
- in my blurred brain. No one names a child Rufus. Naahh, it
- is a dog all right. From inside I could even hear it growl
- and chew on something. Perhaps it was chewing on her. I
- walked down and out on the street. It was now about 3 a.m.
- in the morning and I was feeling very tired. I went home
- and got to bed.
- When I woke up I had a terrible hangover, but through the
- fog in my brain I remembered that her name was Jessica
- Tibblin and that she had a dog. I was on summer vacation so
- I did not have anything special to do. I decided there and
- then that this was to be my project for the summer -
- getting her. Nothing else mattered. Never since have I felt
- such a strong devotion to a project. I spent the following
- two weeks planning it. When I was done I had the perfect
- plan. Not much could go wrong. And even if it did, I had
- several backup plans memorized. All that was left was to do
- it.
-
-
- Surprise!
-
- First of all I had to watch her for a couple of days to get
- to know her habits. I found a really good place opposite
- her house, to watch her from. It was about the most boring
- thing I had ever done. She went up at around 7 a.m., made
- herself some coffee, showered and went to work. At 5 p.m.
- she came back with a bag or something. Probably with
- groceries in it. When I saw her come out around 10 p.m. one
- night I was surprised. But most of all, I was pleased. She
- was not fat or anything. But she probably liked to walk
- around in the evenings. Her life must be quite boring, I
- thought to myself. She walked around for some time and I
- followed her at a safe distance. I was somewhat puzzled by
- the fact that she did not have the dog with her though.
- It was hot and her pace was kind of fast, so she took her
- sweater off. Beneath it she had a tight T-shirt that showed
- almost everything. My body went berserk, my mind too, I
- must say. To the right there was a small park with bushes
- and birds and all that shit. Luckily she walked in there.
- I moved faster and came closer to her. I could smell her
- scent. I put my mask on. We must have been in the middle of
- the park when I got hold of her and dragged her into some
- bushes. It was all quiet and the park was empty, except for
- some birds. She tried to scream but I held my hand over her
- mouth and was quick to get some tape over it. All that came
- out of her were silent growling noises. No one would hear
- her. I laid her down on the ground and started to undo her
- pants. She tried to kick me and fought around a lot with
- her arms. I banged her head once or twice to shut her up.
- It worked. My adrenaline was pumping and I felt my ears
- getting warm. I took my dick out and showed it to her
- before I put on a condom. Her eyes widened. I may be a
- rapist but I am not stupid.
- I took her pants off and put it in her. It was all over in
- around four or five minutes. I got dressed and showed her
- where her pants were. I also left her a letter that I had
- written to her the other night.
-
- "Dear Jessica,
-
- I am so sorry that I had to put you through this. I am a
- very lonely and desperate man. I know that whatever I write
- in this letter will never make your pain less hard to
- deal with. I will never bother you again. I just wanted you
- to know, for whatever it is worth, that I am truly sorry!
-
-
- Kind regards
-
- Marty
-
- Ps I am not stupid so do not bother looking for DNA or
- fingerprints on this letter. Ds "
-
- I could not give her my real name so I had to come up with
- some kind of handle. I got the name Marty from a friend
- I used to have some years ago. When I left her I felt great
- satisfaction.
-
-
- Guilt
-
- When I woke up the next day I could hardly manage to get
- up. I turned on the radio and heard about a woman who had
- been raped last night. It was a major news-story because
- the perpetrator had left a note by the victim. It was even
- on the TV. They had named me The Gentle Rapist. I had
- enormous feelings of guilt as I heard her statement from
- the hospital. For a while I thought about sending some
- flowers or something. But that would only be stupid.
- Though, I think it was a nice idea. I finally got out of
- bed and got dressed. It was a pity that I had rushed things
- this much. It was stupid and dangerous. Now I had to keep a
- really low profile for a couple of weeks. Not showing
- myself much in the city. And most of all, avoiding police
- cars and police officers as much as I could. That would not
- be a problem I thought. School was out and I could do my
- shopping in another part of the town.
- I walked by Jessica's house a week later. Perhaps it was
- not such a good idea, but I had to see her once more. I saw
- her standing in the kitchen with a robe on. Obviously she
- had called in sick. It looked as if though she was crying.
- I felt really low the next couple of days and then decided
- to get over it.
-
-
- Another and another and another
-
- As time went by, I felt more and more frustrated. I had
- dreams about Jessica and could not get rid of them. I even
- started to hear voices. They never said much. Mostly it was
- just `ehrm, naughty boy!' or `you shouldn't have done it
- man!'. Sometimes the voices got nasty though and said
- things like `Hey man, fuck her', `fuck her!, fuck her!,
- fuck her!, fuck her in the ass man!'. I knew that I could
- never go anywhere near her but I had to do something.
- Otherwise I would definitely lose my mind - if it was not
- lost already that is.
- My search for another woman began. I spent a lot of time on
- the beach watching possible victims. I knew what I was
- doing all the time and I always knew there was a good
- chance I would get caught. That did not seem to matter much
- though. I had to get another woman, no matter what.
- One day I stayed a bit longer on the beach. It became
- darker and darker and most people packed up and went home.
- I stayed at the usual site. I was too lazy to move after a
- whole day in the sun. After two hours there was only me and
- two other girls left on the beach. I packed up my things
- and moved farther away from them. I did not want them or
- anyone else to notice me. Most of all I did not want anyone
- to remember or recognize me. They started to drink. I
- waited patiently for my chance. They got more and more
- drunk and they laughed and giggled a lot. Then one of them
- apparently decided to go for a swim. That is a very stupid
- thing to do when drunk. But I sure as hell was not going to
- stop her. That only made things easier for me. As she got
- in the water I pulled out my mask and made sure all my
- things were packed and ready to go. She was a good swimmer
- although she was drunk, she swam around a small island and
- I lost sight of her. I decided this was my chance. I put my
- mask on and ran up to the other girl who was more or less
- dozing of. She was really terrified when I put the tape
- over her mouth and started to drag her into some nearby
- bushes. I tied up her arms really tight. She only had a
- bathing suit so I got her naked in no-time. I introduced
- myself as Marty and told her to shut up or I would kill
- her. That did not work so I had to bang her head a couple
- of times before she got quiet. I put my condom on and
- started to fuck her. And boy was this a tight woman! It
- didn't take me more than a couple of minutes to finish my
- intercourse with her. I left her another of my letters as I
- said goodbye and ran off.
-
- "Dear -Insert your name here-,
-
- When I first saw you I could not believe my eyes. You were
- so beautiful I could hardly believe it. I am a very lonely
- and desperate man and I knew I was never going to make love
- to you. The reason I raped you is not because I want to be
- evil to women or anything. It is just that I never get to
- sleep with anyone. I know that it is really not an excuse
- for my very rude and bad behavior. But I hope perhaps you
- can understand why. Please feel safe that I will never
- touch you or even come near you again. Once again, I am
- truly sorry that I had to put you through this!
-
- Kind regards
-
- Marty
-
- Ps I am not stupid so do not bother looking for DNA or
- fingerprints on this letter. Ds "
-
- As I ran off I could hear her friend shouting and crying as
- she found her. That did not matter to me at all. I was
- completely cold. That did not surprise me much though.
- Because I had already stepped over the line and I knew
- there was no turning back. There was no reason to have
- feelings of guilt or second thoughts. That would only make
- me feel bad.
-
- I think I must have raped about 10 to 15 women the
- following months. Once I barely escaped when two
- police officers heard the silent sounds from a woman I
- was raping. I probably ran about 5 kilometers before I
- stopped. I was really afraid and lurked in some bushes for
- two hours before I dared to go home. I left my letters to
- every single one of the women. Except for the one that I
- didn't finish with. I made big news with my serial-raping.
- Experts from all over the country gathered to make a
- psychological profile of me. They found out that I was in
- my late thirties and that I probably had had a terrible
- youth. A small dick and an IQ below 90. They could not have
- been further from the truth. I was 19 years old and was
- still in school. My IQ was about 120-130 and my dick about
- 20 centimeters. Probably bigger than anyone's in that
- fucking expert-group.
-
-
- It's getting warm in here don't you think?
-
- Media decided to focus on me. I believe that they must have
- had around ten news reports and talk shows about me. I was
- flattered but also very, very scared. What had started out
- as a way for me to get rid of some of my frustration had
- now turned in to a media circus. I decided to give them a
- little something to chew on. "Svart eller Vitt" (talk show)
- seemed to be a good place to start out with so I sent a
- long letter to them explaining why I was doing it. I could
- not help myself, so I wrote a lot of crap about my
- "political" motives. I explained to them that if the
- Swedish government did not release a dozen of the worst
- criminals, I had to go on raping women. Of course I was
- just pulling their leg, but there was a huge debate whether
- they should do it or not. That gave them something to think
- about for a while. I tried to calm down and kept a low
- profile for a couple of weeks. After five weeks the police
- and media was wondering if I perhaps had fled the country
- or if I was dead. I was not.
-
- That, they noticed on the 14th of August.
-
- During my "sleeping" period I suppressed a lot of feelings.
- I felt insecure and was always looking behind myself to see
- if someone was following me. In the beginning of August I
- was in very bad shape and was basically very angry all the
- time. I could not sleep and I had terrible nervous
- shakings. School had begun but I did not dare to go there
- because I was afraid someone would recognize me. My anger
- focused more and more on the people around me. Then, on the
- 12th of August I bought a sniper-rifle and a Glock 17 on
- the black market. It was not cheap and it all felt very
- weird. The rifle I got was a fine piece of art with
- silencer and laser aiming. It had beautiful magnification
- and I could get a very clear view of just about anything
- that moved within a two-hundred meter range. Somewhere in
- the back of my mind I knew what was about to happen but I
- did not care. My paranoia got worse. I could no longer walk
- downtown or go to a shop. I had to get my groceries
- delivered to my door. I did not dare to look anyone in
- the eyes. It became clear to me that there was only one
- thing left to do. That last thing had to be one hell of a
- nasty deed. It was time for me to leave. This time with a
- bang and not with the tail between my legs running off into
- the bushes.
-
-
- 14th of August
-
- When I woke up that day I was sure. This was the day.
- I cleaned and loaded my weapons. I made sure I had enough
- ammunition for a day or two in the city. I had some serious
- hunting to do now. I put my rifle in a bag and my Glock 17
- in a holster under my arm. I put my jacket on and went out.
- No one noticed me. No one cared and it all felt so calm. I
- walked around in the city for a while watching the people
- with a new sense of awareness. These were the people who
- had drived me crazy. They were the ones guilty of what was
- considered to be my crimes. Well, this time you will all
- have to pay, I thought to myself.
- Almost in the center of the city lies a tall office
- building which houses just about everything from insurance
- companies to dentists. I went in and took the elevator to
- the top floor. Of course they had locked the door to the
- roof, so I had to kick it open before I could get out.
- As I laid down on the roof, my hands stopped shaking. Down
- there, people were walking about in the most happy way you
- could imagine. They did not know what was coming. With the
- first shot I got a middle aged man. He was probably waiting
- for his bus or something harmless like that. He deserved it
- though. The second bullet hit a ten year old girl in the
- middle of the forehead. Her head exploded like a
- watermelon. Her mummy went berserk and started to run
- around screaming like crazy. I got her with the third
- bullet. Now people started to notice that something was
- seriously wrong. It was OK if one person lied down all of a
- sudden and did not move. But if three persons lay down in
- the same time, in the middle of the city, people tend to
- get kind of nervous. A lot of people started to run around
- making funny sounds and looking weird. I must have got
- around six or seven people with my rifle when I heard the
- sirens.
- I quickly reloaded my rifle and put it back in my bag. It
- always took the police too long to figure anything out so
- why would they succeed this time, I thought to myself. I
- left the roof and started to make my way down.
-
-
- Burger King
-
- As I got out of the building the police actually noticed me
- and yelled at me to stop. I gave them the finger and turned
- around the corner. Not far from the office building there
- was a Burger King restaurant. I got my Glock out and ran
- in. If you are going to take a hostage - do it in a place
- where there is plenty of food. People more or less went
- berserk when they saw me.
-
- 'It is alright!, I am a police officer!'
-
- Most people settled down and stopped screaming. Bham. I
- shot a waitress just to surprise them. I jumped over the
- counter and told everyone to stay calm, and to get me a
- Whopper, or they would end up like that waitress. It is
- really amazing how fast they can make Whoppers under
- gun threat!
- I managed to get five people to stay with me in the
- kitchen. They were scared shitless and they were all
- shaking like hell. One of the girls fainted when I showed
- her my gun up close. I laughed at her and told one of the
- boys to get her undressed. He refused. I shot him in the
- knee. After that he was very cooperative - until he dried
- up, that is. So, there I was with two boys and three girls,
- one of them naked. She had great tits. Police cars drove up
- in front of the restaurant with their sirens hurting my
- ears. A S.W.A.T team arrived and tried to organize the
- liberating of the hostages and the killing of me. After ten
- minutes, the phone began to ring. I picked it up.
-
- 'Burger King, what can I do for you sir?'
-
- 'Ehrm, ehhr, are you one of the hostages?'
-
- 'Hostage? No can't say I am sir!'
-
- 'Oh dear.'
-
- 'Although I have heard a lot of sounds from the
- restaurant behind your back sir!'
-
- 'Shit.'
-
- He hung up. I almost laughed my jaws out when I saw all the
- police officers turning 180 degrees starting to shout and
- aiming their guns at the other restaurant. The S.W.A.T team
- immediately reconfigured their plan and diverted their
- snipers to the other restaurant. This was a perfect time to
- get rid of the naked girl. I wrote a large note which I
- taped onto her tits saying `Just kidding - I'm having
- Whoppers now!'. I poured some cold water on her face and
- told her there was a fire and that she had to get out as
- quickly as possible. She did not look around or question
- anything. She just ran out butt-naked screaming `fire,
- fire!'. They had to do another 180 degree turn. This time
- they looked as if they were very serious.
- The phone started to ring again.
-
- 'Hostages 'R Us, what can I do for you sir?'
-
- 'Yeah, yeah, really funny.'
-
- 'You won't catch me alive you know.'
-
- 'We don't care.'
-
- They said that they would give me ten minutes to surrender
- or they would come in. No negotiations here. But I had no
- thoughts about surrendering. They would not get me alive,
- and put me in some nut house. I took out one of the
- officers with a well-aimed shot in the stomach. The S.W.A.T
- team panicked and started shooting at me. All the windows
- collapsed as they poured lead into the restaurant. The cash
- registers got blown away, creating an unbearable noise, but
- they did not hit anyone of us behind the counter, though.
- Fucking amateurs.
- From outside I could hear a loud voice declaring that if I
- did not come out within the next five minutes they would
- shoot tear gas into the place and move in.
-
- So this is it, I thought to myself as I reloaded my Glock.
-
-
- Payback
-
- A deafening fanfare almost cracked my ears and a thick
- white fog swept in. I thought that they had used the tear
- gas but that was not it - this was something far worse.
- I could hardly believe my eyes when I saw the man standing
- in front of the counter, completely surrounded by white
- fog. This had to be some hell of a S.W.A.T team if they
- were so good that they only had to send in one man to get
- me. But this man was not from the S.W.A.T team, at least
- not an earthly one. He lifted his hand to greet me and I
- automatically aimed my gun at him. His face showed no signs
- of surprise when he saw the barrel of my gun pointing right
- at him. He simply looked at it as one looks at a harmless
- puppy showing its teeth. I looked him in the eyes and asked
- him what the fuck was going on.
-
- 'My son, you have wronged. Please do the right thing now
- and I will lead you to the gates of hell where you will
- repent for a couple of years. We have been watching you
- from up there and we all know that deep down you are a good
- soul. So please come with me and things will work out just
- fine.'
-
- 'So... you are Jesus incarnated huh? Well you'll have to
- do more than to throw a smoke grenade to convince me of
- that. And about that good soul crap; that's bullshit! I'm
- evil as hell and I love it.'
-
- His eyes darkened when I questioned his authenticity. He
- reached for something in his robe. Before he could get it
- out I screamed at him to stop. 'How do I know that's not a
- gun?' 'Well my son, you will just have to trust me on this
- one'. I lowered my Glock and nodded, telling him to
- proceed. When he got the object out, I was stunned. It was
- a small model of the earth. It almost glowed and looked
- more real than the photos I had seen from the shuttles. He
- held it up to me and told me to get a good look. I jumped
- over the counter and walked up to him. The small model
- actually looked as if someone had taken earth and shrunk it
- to the size of a grape.
-
- 'OK, you are one hell of a model-builder. But what's so
- great with this one?'
-
- 'Observe!'
-
- He focused his eyes on the continent of Europe. It began to
- grow. After a while the model was still the size of a grape
- but it was all filled with Europe. One could see small
- cities and small tiny dots of people running around down
- there. He focused on Sweden and then Uppsala. I could see
- the whole city. Full with life and police cars of course.
-
- 'Now my son, pick one of the police officers out there.'
-
- 'Sure, take that sniper on the roof.'
-
- 'Look, as I now remove him from the face of the earth.'
-
- He moved his fingers over the model. First nothing
- happened. Then he slowly started to dissolve in a funny
- way. After five seconds he was gone.
-
- 'Man!, that was awesome! You really are Jesus.'
-
- 'Yes, and I want you to follow me now.'
-
- 'I can't do that you know. Mankind has treated me so bad
- and I really have no choice but to try to get even with
- some of them. They have followed me all my life. Nothing I
- have done could change that. There's always been school and
- a lot of unnecessary shit they have told me to do. Just to
- keep me busy and to keep my mind away from these thoughts
- of freedom.'
-
- 'But you still have your free will you know. You can't
- blame these people for being ignorant and stupid. Besides,
- I really can't believe that all of these people are
- stupid.'
-
- 'Well, maybe you haven't watched all that carefully from
- upstairs but this is the way things actually happen.
- All over the western world people are slowly becoming more
- and more like zombies. I never wanted to have anything to
- do with them. I told the people 'in charge' lots of times,
- but no one cares. I just want to leave this shit and grow
- my plants and write poems to beautiful women. I never
- wanted to do anyone any harm. Can't you see it man? My
- crimes are fucking symptoms of a social disease!'
-
- Jesus went silent for a couple of seconds.
-
- 'Indeed, very good arguments,' he suddenly said. 'Let's
- go get them all.'
-
- Jesus jumped over the counter and told me to get back there
- with him. I was kind of surprised by the way he was acting.
- But, what the hell! I have always had a way with words. I
- tried to give him my rifle but he would not accept it. He
- just smiled a hellish grin at me. Pointed his finger out
- the window and started blasting away all the fuckers out
- there. It did not take long for us to remove every living
- soul within a 200 meter radius.
-
-
- Hey, Bonsai!
-
- When we were done he looked at me and smiled. He told me
- that he had not had this much fun in a thousand years.
-
- 'So, my son. How can I help you now?'
-
- 'Please give me a life Jesus. It would be most kind of
- you if you set me up in perhaps Japan or something and give
- me some peace.'
-
- 'So be it!'
-
- He snapped his fingers. The surroundings more or less
- melted down and it all went black. When I woke up I was
- lying in a small bed with a really beautiful Japanese woman
- standing over me. She asked me in bad English how I liked
- my Tea. There was not much that could surprise me anymore
- so I told her I wanted it "black". I stood up and looked
- around. It was a small house but it was nice. In front of
- me stood two beautiful bonsai-trees. I looked out through
- the small window. A huge mountain rose a few miles from my
- house. I recognized it as the Fuji mountain. I heard what I
- supposed to be my woman talking to me from the kitchen.
-
- 'Darling, when are you going to work on your bonsai-
- trees?'
-
- 'I'll start right after Tea dear!'
-
- Calmness.
-
- Written by Joseph <josef@kuai.se>
-
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