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- = F.U.C.K. - Fucked Up College Kids - Born Jan. 24th, 1993 - F.U.C.K. =
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- Why Do I Hate You So Much?
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- "What did I do to make you hate me so much?" You've asked that
- question at least 100 times. But the question isn't completely
- accurate, because you know damn well what you did. What you want to
- know is "Why did I react the way I did?" In other words, "Why do I hate
- you so much?"
- First of all, let me get things straight. It's not you that I hate, I
- love you with all my heart. I don't hate you, I hate what you did.
- You managed to hurt me more than I've ever allowed any other human
- being to do. You pushed me over an edge that no one else has ever been
- able to push me within a mile of. That's what I hate.
- But I can't do anything to change that. I can't do anything to
- anything that you've done. But you know that I'm a vindictive person.
- You know that anytime that anybody does anything to hurt me or piss me
- off that I strike back, that I force them to suffer twice as much as
- they made me suffer. You knew that before you never said you loved me.
- You knew that long before you lied.
- I can't do anything to what you did, so I target the next closest
- thing. I target you. Directing my hatred at what you did would
- accomplish nothing, but by directing it at you, I can see the results.
- I can see the pain. I can see the tears. And I like it.
- I like it because now it's my turn. My turn to make you suffer as
- much as you made me suffer. To hurt you like you hurt me. To make you want
- to die.
- The only thing that I can do to make myself feel better is to break
- you. And one night it finally happened. I pulled you over the edge
- with me and you finally felt all the pain and the fear and the
- devastation that I felt.
- Did I feel better? Yes. But I wasn't happy. Because the only thing
- that made me happy was you.
- Yes I wanted to wrap my hands around your throat and squeeze until
- your flesh turned a pale shade of blue, but I also wanted to wrap my arms
- around your waist, gaze into your eyes, and tell you I loved you.
- But you took that love away. And so, since I couldn't be happy, I
- decided to make you miserable as well.
- So now you know why I hate you so much. Now you know why I'm so
- "mean" to you. It's because I love you so much.
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- -InVerse
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