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     My head hurts.  Hurts?  It shouldn't hurt; for that matter, I
shouldn't have a head.  At least, I shouldn't feel like I have one.

     Let's try this again.  Do I have eyes?  Scan left, right.  Yes, I
have eyes, physical ones, so I try the eyelids. They open.  Interesting.
Apparently I'm not deceased, not yet.  Typical.  Failure.  So what am I
looking at?

     Eyes aren't focussing.  Not surprised.  Wait.  Close them again.
Do a few exercises, like Trill taught me all those years ago.  Try the
eyes again.  Open.  Okay?

     Okay, better.  Look around.  Wooden roof, couple of crossbeams.
Good construction, but not typically Pendorian.  Hmm.  Turn my head to
see the rest of the room.

     Doesn't work.  Neck's stiff as hell.  Wait.  Practice again. One
muscle, two, two, three... again and again.  Force the fire.  Try
something easier.  A hand.  Toes move, good.  Try some more.  Ankles.
I'm getting on my feet, at least.  How long was I out, that I feel this
bad?

     Wait a minute.  This is familiar.  Think.  Where have I felt this?

     Cryo.  Check.  Yes!  A dead monkey has been sleeping on my tongue.
At least, that's the way it tastes.  I was in cryogenic suspension.
Odd, the last thing I remember was...

     I tried to kill myself.  Yes, that was it.  Brain is NOT, repeat,
NOT online.  Okay.  Acceptance.  I tried the old fashioned way,
too...slit wrists and bath.  Stupid.  Should have realized that Dave
would call for help the moment I was out.  Didn't try hard enough.
Okay.

     Why did I try?  Think.

     Nothing.

     That's idiotic.  Got to be something.  Think.  Nothing comes.  No
reason for the suicide.  Other than.

     Depression.  Depression of the conceptual artist.  There is nothing
left to live for, not because I've done it all, but because I know I
can.  That's stupid.

     Is it?  I don't know, it is true.  I can do virtually anything.
Hmm.  Frustrated.

     Let's try this again.  May as well get on my feet.  I'm not going
to try again, at least not until I determine what's going on, where I
am, and who saved me, and should I hate them or thank   them, or both?

     Slowly.  OUCH!  Shit, I'm stiff, I hate cryo.  If there's anything
worse than waking up from coldsleep, I'm not sure what it could be.  The
effort of sitting up makes my head spin, but I do it.  The band of
muscle that attaches left shoulder to skull is tighter than anything,
hurts like a hot poker.  I want to concentrate, banish the pain, but I
can't summon the strength.

     I stand... and fall to my knees.  Much better.  Can't stand, may as
well crawl towards the door.

     There is a door here.  Okay, crawl towards it.  Locked.  Is there
another door?  Yes.  Okay, let me get my bearings.  There's   a locked
door, a rather simple bed, a desk, a mirror, another door, and a big
window.  Outside the window I see sunlight, a big tree, a willow, and
beyond that, the cliff face of a mountain, not to distant, either.  Nice
place.  Willow's cold, the leaves yellowing, although it's still early
in its season, mostly green. I crawl for the other door, which is ajar,
and peek in around the jamb.  It's a bathroom, pretty old-fashioned too.
Only thing even remotely unusual is the bidet, but that's an
architectural preference.  My bladder screams in recognition, and I
manage to gradually haul myself up, sit down on the damned commode and
relieve myself.

     My head swims, clears, and I see a glass on the sink.  Fill glass
from sink, drink.  Cold, clear, feels wonderful going down.  Gods, then,
it hurts!  Throat's raw!

     Stupid.  Cryo.  Forgot that thick syrupy shit I'm supposed to drink
afterwards.  Oh, forget it, who cares if my electrolytes are balanced?

     Drink more, ignoring for the most part the pain signals. Try to
rise, steady myself on sink and towel bar.  Look in mirror.

     Gods I am a mess.  No beard, so I wasn't in cryo long.  Look at
wrists.  Nothing, not even scars.  Good healing job, but there's a pain
in the crux of my elbow.  Oh.  Intravenous scarring, they were taking
care of me, in a serious way.  It'll go away, I'm familiar with it.

     Walk, unsteady towards window.  Look out.  Same assesment.  More
trees, again in the beginning of Firith, the season of fading.  And
there's...

     What the?  I didn't design those!

     And who's she?  Whoever, she's beautiful.  Thick, small blond
curls, big frame, high sweet breasts, naked, freckles, looking Irish
almost.

     And who built her unicorn?  If it's a 'droid, it's from Grand
Design, nobody else on Pendor makes them that well.  If it's not, I'm
impressed, I thought nobody had reached my talent yet, at least not with
mammals.

     She vanished out of sight almost as soon as I got a good look at
her.  She rode with just a blanket.  I looked.  I was on the second
floor, but the window wouldn't open.  I pressed my hand to the glass,
and it was warm to the touch, so I assume it was warm outside.

     I began an intensive search of the room.  The bed was simple, as
I'd said.  Small, but comfortable, nothing fancy.  Tried the desk...Hmm,
interesting.  The top flips over, keyboard.  Okay, where's the...neat,
the screen is in the mirror.  Good effect, hides a lot, but takes
refocussing, it's like looking into a head's-up display.  Drawer's got a
pen, paper.  Try the bathroom.  No razor in the medicine chest, in fact
nothing at all in there.  Soap in the bathtub.  I smiled.  I could slip
and fall and kill myself.

     Do failed suicides always think this way?

     What's the vidmirror hooked to?  Try it.  Standard input, but no
email output, apparently.  Look at the date.  57!  It's been FIVE
YEARS!?  Where the Hell have I been?

     Frozen solid.

     Oh, yeah.  Waitaminute!  Run to the window.  Look.  Yeah, sun's
overhead, can't see much otherwise, damned mountain in the way.  Assume
for the time being I'm on Pendor.  Newslines Pendorian, at least.  Try a
music program.

     Nothing.  No audio throughput at all.  I guess I wait for my
hostess.  I went and lay down on the bed.



     "Ken?"  Soft voice, sweet and high pitched, with a middlin'
southern accent, like from north Georgia on Earth somewhere.  I come to
conciousness suddenly, flailing.

     "Wha?..." I said.  "Easy, easy," she said.  My eyes came to rest on
the young woman I'd seen before.  A better look at her face.  High
cheekbones, soft, definitely Irish eyes.  But that accent!

     "Who are you?" I demanded of my...captor?  Saviour?

     "Are you feeling alright, Ken?  Hungry?"

     "Who are you?"

     "My name's Brieanna Flanders.  Call me Brie."

     "Brieanna Flanders?  There weren't any Flanders in my designs."

     "I know.  I'm not anyone you know, or made."  Her voice was
infinitely patient with me.

     "That's impossible.  The year said it was '57."

     "It is."

     "Then we're still in the Pocket Realm.  You can't be from outside,
yet, there is no contact with the outside.  The Gate is closed, and will
be until '94."

     "I'm from here.  I'm just not anyone you ever worked on."

     I looked at her.  "Then where did you come from.  Everyone here is
someone I worked on, except for one person, and you are not she."

     "Oh, no?  Why couldn't I be Oenone?"

     "Because Oenone reeks of magic, and you, my dear, are exactly what
I see in front of me, nothing more, nothing less.  You are not Paris'
paramour."

     "That's true.  Stupid bastard, she should have killed him when she
had the chance."

     "Brie...where am I?"

     "The mansion."

     "Sounds ominous, like number 2 pronouncing I'm in 'The Village.'"

     "Not that bad, but the maps won't tell you where you are, and
there's no place to go beyond the mountains, anyway."

     "Then I am in 'The Village,' at least in that I'm not leaving
anytime soon.  Am I number 6?"

     "No, no, nothing like that.  You're Ken, and that's all."

     "Are we alone?"

     "For the most part, it's just you and me in this house.  There's an
SI, too."

     "Not an AI?"

     "Nope.  The only person you have to talk to is me.  Sorry."

     "Don't be sorry.  It's okay.  So."  I sat up, slowly.  "Are you
going to tell me where you're from?"

     "No.  And I probably won't for a while.  Just take it for granted
that I'm here, and that I'm a friend of a friend of yours, and I'm your
friend as well."

     "So.  Why am I here?"

     "I'm not sure about that.  I think that's for you to decide."

     "And you're here to help me make that decision."

     "Well... yes."

     "Are you going to help me make my own decision, or the 'right'
decision, in the eyes of your... friend."

     "Your own.  At least, I hope I can.  We're pretty independent out
here.  It's just you and me.  And the animals down in the stable."

     "Yeah, I saw that.  Is that a 'ganic, or what?"

     "It's a real unicorn, trust me."

     I looked at her face again.   The words and the accent went
together pretty well.  So I've never worked on you in any way, eh, Miss
Brieanna Flanders?  Then who made you?

     What are you?


     "Are you hungry?" she asked, after a few minutes that I spent
studying her face and she spent patiently waiting for me to finish.

     "Actually, yeah, I am."

     "Then let's go eat.  Drac, dinner in the dining hall."

     A new voice, this one well modulated, but unless it was conciously
blocked, obviously SI, said, "Yes, Brieanna."

     I looked at her.  "Drac?  Your computer's named Dracula?"

     "Sure, why not?  It's not AI, it's just a machine."

     I suppose.  "Well, then, lead on to dinner."  She opened the
previously locked exit to the bedroom, into what apparently was a main
hallway and foyer.  There was a railing opposite the door, and below was
a huge room, apparently the main room of the estate.  There were a
couple of stuffed chairs, and some bookshelves.  The place had an air of
age, but it couldnt' be that old... could it?  And she did not belong,
other than it was obviously a southern plantation design, from the
inside.  There was that wonderful smell of cured, aged wood.

     She led on down the single staircase, and when we reached the
bottom I look around.  The carpet was oriental.  There was a grand piano
in one corner, a saxophone next to it.  I couldn't play either, so I
assumed they were both hers, but then she may have lied about being
alone.  She led me through a pair of swinging doors into a room with a
small square table with two chairs and candles.  She sat me, and then
seated herself.

     "So."

     "So," she repeated.  "What do you want to know?"

     "Where am I?"

     "On Pendor."

     "I know that!  That's more square klickage than all of the rest of
the inhabited galaxy together, so that doesn't do me much good.  So,
where am I?"

     "Why don't you step outside and take a look?"

     The old Shardik came on-line.  "Because I've been invited to dinner
by a beautiful young lady, and I'm not about to step out on her to see
the weather."

     She smiled.  "You probably won't recognize it.  We're pretty far
from either of the major inhabited sectors, and we're not close to the
Farside colony, either."

     At that moment, a kitchen droid, real old-fashioned type on wheels,
no less, came out and began to distribute dinner to the two of us.  It
was a well done bird, turkey, I'd have guessed, and was quite delicious.
We continued the conversation as we ate.

     "So you're not going to tell me where I am?"

     "Nope.  I'm not even going to give you the sector number."

     "Oh well.  So, am I a prisoner here?"

     "A guest.  You've got free rein to the place."

     "Even access to the kitchen?"

     She smiled, a small, wan, smile.  "Yes, even access to the kitchen.
And I won't hide the knives."

     "I appreciate the gesture, but I don't think that's necessary."

     "Then you won't try again?"  There was a sudden hope in her eyes,
like a flash.

     "I didn't say that.  But remember, you said your job was to let me
make my own decisions.  Tell me, Brieanna, are you my savior?"

     She smiled, thinly.  "Nothing like that.  Your... savior... simply
thought that you'd made a rash decision and decided to let you try and
look at whatever questions and problem you had again."

     I sat there and stared at her, trying to absorb what she'd said,
and still trying to figure out who and what she was.  Dinner was
apparently over.  I excused myself, asking for directions to a washroom
and permission for leave.  She gave both graciously.



     Dark fell as suddenly as it always does, and a wild wind whipped
past the house as I sat in my room.  There was a knock on the door.
Startled, I went to answer it.  It was my warden.

     "May I come in?" she asked.

     "I suppose, don't see why not."

     She entered and leaned against the wall of the closet.  "Are you
upset that you're here?"

     "Upset?  No, not really.  Why should I be?  I'm alive, after all."

     "That's not funny, Ken.  Don't be bitter."

     "WHY THE HELL NOT?  The most precious and personal decision one can
make is to take their own life, and when the time in my mind came for me
to exercise that right, you take that power away from me and imprison me
somewhere on my own homeworld?  My warden is a beautiful young women who
won't answer any of my questions, impossibly claims to not be a
Pendorian, and won't tell me the way home!"

     "I didn't say I wasn't Pendorian."

     "You said you were nobody I worked on, and you weren't the child of
anybody I worked on.  The only way that's possible is if you're Oenone,
and you are so out of character with her, you don't even smell like her.
You're a human, that's obvious, and you aren't any sort of android I
know, your scent is too perfect. You aren't Pendorian."

     "I am, trust me.  Just nobody you ever worked on."

     "Okay, say that you are, it's a stupid argument.  You still won't
tell me how to leave."

     "You could walk."

     "Oh, great.  And how far away are we from the nearest town or
village?  That distance could be measured in light-minutes!"

     "Actually, the nearest town or village would involve a considerable
swim, walking in either direction."

     "We're on the aspinward side?"

     "Yes."

     "Wonderful.  Nobody lives out here.  My best chance is waiting for
Maha Oren to find his way by."

     "Doubtful, his team is headed the other way, anyway."

     "Oh, great.  Look, Miss Flanders, I'd really like to go to sleep,
alone, if I may."

     "Okay.  Will I see you in the morning?"

     "If I feel like seeing you, maybe."  I led her to the door, and,
admittedly, slammed it on her as she left.


     I awoke the next day sometime after daylight, and began to look
around for something to wear.  The less-than-comfortable clothes I'd had
on yesterday were on the chair, but I had no desire to wear them, so I
opened the closet and examined its contents.

     Seems somebody knows what I like to wear, at least.  There were a
lot of t-shirts, collared simple shirts, a few heavier, nicely-cut
shirts, two vests with what looked like a million pockets, and several
pairs of jeans.  I hoped silently that they fit.  In the drawers I found
appropriate shorts and socks, and dressed myself comfortably.

     I tried the window again.  It opened.  Figures.  Outside was cool
and comfortable, and I took one of the vests along, the blue one.

     I left the room and headed downstairs.  I realized that I had no
idea what this house was like, and the mistress thereof was nowhere to
be seen so I decided to look around.  The first room I headed for was
where I assumed was the kitchen, and I was right.  The kitchen was
incongrous.  It was done in a lot of stonework, and not many windows,
like that of a medieval castle, and the robobutler looked so out of
place I laughed.  I examined the drawers, and sure enough, she was true
to her word.  I could find the knives if I wanted.

     I examined the cold room and the larder,and found the supplies
adequate.  I found some grains, some brown sugar, and some milk, so I
assumed that that was breakfast.  Not bad.

     I continued around, finding that a lot of the house was empty.
Empty rooms, empty basement, empty hallways.  And everything was old,
older than it should have been, older than it could have been.  There
were a few truly Pendorian characteristics to the place, like the fact
that there was power, but no outlets.  Everything had it's own power
source, even the kitchen blender, or the electric keyboard I found in
one room, complete with two speakers.  I got it to squeal a few notes.

     I found a few locked doors, and I figured that there were good
reasons they were locked, so I left them alone.  Even though, I thought,
they could hold the stepping disk out of here. Then again, they could
simply be her bedroom doors.  They did concentrate towards the center
back of the first floor.

     But there were other weird rooms that I didn't understand.  If they
were trying to keep me from trying again, they were doing a lousy job of
it, whoever 'they' were.  I found a room with a couple of brass-enclosed
chests, unlocked, and when I opened one I found... guns?  All sorts of
guns, rifles, pistols, even one of my person favorites, a .45 Army Colt.
And there was ammunition for them,too.  I took the .45, and, after
checking the slide and action, loaded seven-plus-one and put it into a
belt holster I'd found in the chest as well.

     There was a wine cellar, again with very Pendorian wines in it,
including varieties I did not recognize, although they were all dated
some time ago.  This was all so weird, like I'd fallen into another,
different reality from my own, yet almost like my own.

     I found another room with an easel in it, and a half-done portrait
of myself, apparently done by my captor.  It was a fair likeness, I
decided, but it obviously needed work, since only half was done, the
other in pencil sketch on canvas.  On an impulse, I fast-drew the
pistol, but I decided against shooting my image.  Didn't want to put a
hole in Brieanna's work, not yet, at least.

     I decided, then, that it was time to try the front door, so I
headed out that way, but on the way I passed the piano.  Actually, it
was a full Pianoforte, and it was well-tuned.  I can't play piano worth
a damn, never did learn anything beyond a few simple melodies.  I've
always been openly envious of people who can play.  And the saxophone,
forget it.  I might be able to get a sound out of it, halfway between a
squeal and a sneeze.

     So the front door it was.  I opened it and stepped out.  The ground
of the house stopped very short of the door, so I stepped out into the
long grass and walked away from the house.  After about five minute, I
turned around.  The house was in one corner of a large, grassy field,
three edges of which were of huge primeval forest, and the final edge
was a mountain cliff.  It was a good-sized mountain, and the cliff ran
vertical for almost, oh, I'd say about four hundred meters.  Then I saw
the joke.

     When I realized what I was looking at, I almost died laughing.
Most people probably wouldn't have gotten it, but it was funny.  The
house was an American southern plantation-style design on the outside.
What's funny is that there is nowhere in America where the mountain and
the building exists together.  There is nowhere in Dixie where you'll
find mountains like that.  Whoever built this had an interesting and
subtle sense of comedy.

     And a good knowledge of Terra's history.  Again, it pointed to
Brieanna's lying to me somewhere.

     Odd.  I haven't decided what I'm going to call my prison guard yet.
Brie is too common, but do I then call her Brieanna or Miss Flanders?
Gods, Miss Flanders sounds like an old school teacher.  Brieanna it is,
then.

     I looked up, then, along the ring.  Ring it was, so at least I was
on a ringworld, although confirming that it was indeed Pendor would take
some doing.  Although, I thought with a smile, there were no other
ringworlds around, at least as far as I knew.

     Glancing up, I watched for a few seconds to register the direction
of the shadows and figure my concepts of 'east' and 'west', and, true to
her word, I figured we were aspinward of the ocean, and if that was the
Vinyare' sea, then we were pretty far away from any inhabited region.
Great.

     I walked around the side of the house, and as I did so something
caught my eye.  The touchstone of the building was there, and engraved
on it was "Paul Lewis, '54."  Okay, that confirms something else.  Paul
at least had a hand in this.  Figures, my first son doing this to me.
Do I kill him yet, or what?

     I continued on my walk.  Behind and slightly to the left of the
house were a pair of buildings, one of which was open, the other of
which had a large door on it.  I tried the one with the door first, as
it was closest, and it opened.

     Okay, this was not funny, anymore.  Lying on the cement floor of
what appeared to be a garage was a full high-suit of Shirow powered
armor, and it looked like garbage.  Pieces were torn out and the
upholstery of the harness was shredded.  Whoever allowed this to happen
to their armor was really ignorant and shouldn't be allowed near a
vehicle again in his life.  There were servos scattered about the floor
and covered with grease.  If Hitomi'd seen this, she'd have screamed.
She virtually worships her armor.

     I walked into the dark little garage and looked into the gutted
armor.  There were cracks in the outer shell, too, and the faceplate was
garbage.  The S.L.A. lenses were all missing, and one of the ears was
snapped off.  I looked for one of the power switches in the lower arm,
and found it.  Nothing.  I'm more partial to Stark or Haam armor,
myself, but Hitomi swears the maintainence efforts is worth the power of
Shirow.  I tried some of the alternate power sources, and they were
dead, too.  I looked at the back, and both battery pods were missing,
and the two PFusion tubes were cracked and drained.  I climbed over the
chestplate and tried to get in.  Whoever wore this armor was a little
shorter than I was, and a little heavier, but if I could find some
stuffing, I could sew a new harness that would fit me.

     Wait a minute.  I have no intention of wearing this armor.  It
doesn't work.  I climbed back out and headed towards the other building.

     Horses.  It was a stable, again with a robot Maintenance Unit.  I
asked the MU where its mistress was, but there was no answer.  Damned
SI, it's not programmed to respond to my voice.  Oh well.  There were
three stalls, but only two had horses in them, one a grey stallion, the
other a brown mare.  Not knowing much about horses, that's all I could
tell you.  Except that they seemed to be in excellent condition, with
good muscle tone and pelt color.  They were shoed, and their teeth were
whole and healthy.

     So what was the point of all this?  Was it some sort of amusement
park for suicidal Shardiks?  If it was, it was a very poor job, I was
not amused.  So what then?

     The answer was right there, in front of my face.  It would be some
time before I figured it out, though.  The pistol, the horses, the
piano, the shredded powered armor, the beautiful girl.  All pieces of a
puzzle.  Even the mountain.


     Time passes quickly when there's very little to measure it against
other than the time of days.  Of course, children grow up quickly,
classes come to an end, even projects and spells have their durations,
but when you're doing none of those things, but instead merely existing
on a day-to-day basis, you don't notice the passage of time.

     In any event, the newsline from the outside informed me of said
passage, and it meant little.  About five weeks had passed, and the
weather had gone from pleasant Autumn to cold Winter, and the first
snows had come.  It wasn't sticking well, but at least it was very white
where it did stick.  I had taken to daily walks, but these were going to
be difficult soon.

     My captor, Brieanna, is still here, and I see her daily.  We've
gone to the point of being informal around each other, seeing as
apparently I have to put up with her; either that or take a hike, and
I've nowhere to go.

     Speaking of hiking, I did find a pair of good walking boots and a
backpack, apparently suggestive that I can leave if I want to, but I no
longer do.  There's a mystery here, and I want to solve it.  Of course,
the mystery surrounds me.  Why am I here?  I don't think I'm going to
end up being told by Brieanna, but maybe I will.

     I've also taken over some of the duties of the household.  Brieanna
suggested a fire in the living room, so I cut down a few trees and split
some logs the other day.  Funny how doing physical work like that
changes attitudes.  There was something more... more real... in doing
things like that.  In cutting down a tree.

     Not that I'm going to become a lumberjack, mind you.  But I've read
a lot of books in Brieanna's library, almost to the point of saturation,
and I'm becoming bored.  The other day I set up a holography set I found
in one of the rooms, a room that had been empty a few weeks ago.  It was
an enourmous set of gear, and it took me all day to set it up in the
field in front of the house.  I kept glancing up and praying for it to
not rain.  It was overcast, but I hoped for the best.  Actually it
started snowing the next morning.

     But after about seven hours in the sun, I waited for nightfall.
And when it came, I stuck in a laserdisc of a holographic realization of
Shakespeare's King Richard.  About halfway through I began to do some of
the parts myself, standing up and mimicking the actors on the video.
Well, since it was a holographic realizations, the images filled a good
deal of the field.  About halfway through Richard's curse to the King, I
heard a giggle behind me.  Somewhat aghast at having been found out, I
turned around.

     Of course, It was Brieanna.  She said, "Don't stop, you were doing
wonderfully."

     "I don't do public performances," I replied, somewhat angrily.

     "But why not?  You do an excellent Richard."

     "You like Shakespeare?"  The fact that she spoke Anglic was
something I already knew;  Her library was full of the stuff.  I was
suprised, however, that she also spoke some Arabic, a language I don't
know.

     "Of course.  He's fascinating, don't you think?"

     "Well, yeah, but..."  The play continued on.  I hit the PAUSE
button on the VHR.  The actors came to a dead stop, in mid-argument.

     "Why don't you continue?" she asked again.

     "Look, if you want to watch the play with me, sit down, but there
is no way in Hell you're going to get me to continue."

     "But I thought all humans like to copy their heroes.  I saw a movie
some time ago, from your collection.  Risky Business?  Same thing."

     "Yeah, well.  Notice Cruse did that scene alone?  It's... well..."

     "You're embarassed.  Afraid that if you make a mistake, someone
somewhere is laughing at you."

     "Well, sure, wouldn't you be?"

     "I don't know.  I've never really been in that position."  Her eyes
were dreamy for a moment, and then she said, "Ken, tell me...  You made
all of this.  I mean, the Ring, the people, the whole thing.  Well,
okay, you didn't make the life on it, but you changed it..."

     "That's what a genetic engineer does."

     "Yes, I know.  What I mean is, how can you be embarassed about
stumbling in something so simple as a line in a play when you so boldly
set out to make all this?"  She gestured around her.

     "Brieanna, I did not make all this.  These trees, that grass, the
mountain, are all just natural products, spread out after they were
imported from Terra.  As for the sentients, well, they're... You know,
sometimes you are a pain, especially for a prison warden."

     "I've told you, you can leave anytime you want."

     "Yeah, right, and where am going to go?  Walk forever?"

     "You could.  I know your capabilities."

     "Oh, thanks.  Look, can I watch the rest of the play?"

     "Oh, sorry.  Sure, go ahead."

     I hit the PAUSE button and the play resumed.  We watched in
silence, and when the play was over, we parted in silence, as well.

Captivity, Week 12.

     It's snowing out again.  The snow is now feet deep, and getting to
my latest project is a task and a half unto and of itself.  I decided
that, to stave off the insanity that boredom brings, it was time to work
on the Shirow armor.

     Well, damn, I hate Shirow's designs!  Alright, so the man is
talented beyond words when it comes to conceptual designs in powered
armor.  But, hell, that doesn't mean maintaining one of these hunks of
garbage is any fun.

     The first thing was to check the PFusion tubes.  The compression
rods were intact, and there was a reservoir, so, assuming I could
reeassemble the parts accurately, I could get full power into the suit.
So that was first.

     Disassembled the power plant, tried to fix the reaction chamber.
Okay, so, after examining the thing, I find the muon reactor is trash.
Great.  Biggest problem is getting a laser and carbon short for this
thing.

     Found the laser.  Oh, well, no more Shakespeare.  Disassembled the
laser-disc player.  PFusions plants don't need a whole lot of laser
power, just something to start the ionization process that contributes
to muon release.  As for the carbon short, well, there's one less
floodlight on the outside of the house.  Broke it to get the carbon rod.
Spent hours with a micrometer and a nailfile getting it to the right
size.

     Reassembled the whole mess, hoping against the odds that everything
was right.  Eventually, the hydrogen nuclei would fuse.  Hopefully.

     In the mean time, I was feeding power to the suit through a
disassembled power receiver I stole from some servobot.  The garage is
also cold as a seal's teat, but that's okay.  I've got some heavy
clothing.

     Computer's okay, but the memory's wiped.  Means I'm going to have
to write some serious learn-by-doing routines and then try to maneuver
in a suit that doesn't want to maneuver.

     Made a kiln, too, to compress the ceramics I needed for the outer
hull of the thing.  Also spent a few hours sewing a new harness.

     All in all, it took me about four weeks of heavy, constant physical
work to get it nearly done.  I walked out with a small lasertape player
and proceeded to feed my new software routines into the computer through
an interface in the main cabin.  First mistake.

     Second mistake was kneeling across the upper arm section.  See,
Shirow armor has four arms;  Each pair on a side responds according to
the way you move your arms inside the lower set;  Those are more heavily
shielded, but they slide open to expose your hands if you want to do
delicate work;  In this case the upper arms are rotated out of the way.
The upper arms are for combat, like picking up and throwing cars and
other suits of armor.  Oh, and in case you're wondering, if I keep
referring to this thing as a 'suit' don't be put out;  Truth is, the
damn thing's a vehicle, three meters tall.  That it's vaguely shaped
like a man has nothing to do with its classification.

     In any event, the program went in rather quietly and I hit the red
reboot button to bring the processor online.  The upper right arm
shuddered underneath me, and pain exploded across my right leg and my
chest.  I went flying until I hit the wall of the garage, where my left
shoulder and head received equal treatment.  Then I fell to the ground,
doing just a little more damage to my already hurting body.

     After a few seconds of intense concentration, I looked up.  The
right arm had slammed against the ground, and was shuddering violently.
Damn.  I tried to right myself.  I was suddenly very hot, and I felt
something wet against my cheek.  Great, my head was bleeding.  I got
into a sitting position, only to realize... Oh, shit, at least three
ribs are floating free.  I'm a mess.  I suddenly noticed how much it
hurt to breathe.

     But I kept breathing.  I'm damned cussed about something like
breathing;  I'm rather fond of it.  I found, to my pleasure, that I
hadn't penetrated the lung lining;  Cardio-vascular system was still
intact.  Great.

     So what did this mean?  I could wait until Brieanna noted that I
hadn't shown up for dinner.  Not really an option.  I could think of a
dozen nasty things that could happen before then, not the least of which
was losing bladder control.  Never mind; That's already happened.

     That's when I heard Brieanna;  She was heading for her horses,
probably to exercise them.  I gathered my breath; Oh, Gods! that hurt!
and shouted, once "Brie!"  The effort made my head spin.

     I heard her shout back, but I didn't understand the words.  I heard
her footsteps crunch a little closer through the snow, and I heard her
say, "Ken?"

     "Brieanna?" I panted, barely above a whisper.

     She must not have heard me, as she came closer.  "Ken?  Are you
okay?"  She must have been right outside.

     "Brieanna?  I'm hurt."  Now that's an understatement.

     She opened the side door, and when she saw how much of a mess I
was, she ran to my side.  "Don't touch me, yet!" I screamed.

     "What?"

     I coughed.  "Broke...broke a few ribs.  Maybe a leg, maybe the
shoulder.  Definitely concussed; don't let me pass out.  Talk... talk to
me."  I hacked again, but no blood came up.  I was at least somewhat
intact, internally.

     "Stay right here."  She was suddenly business-like.  It occurred to
me that whoever set her here had made sure she was qualified to keep me
alive, if I so chose.  So she had to have medical training.

     She disappeared out into the snow, and returned in about eight long
minutes, with two of her maintenance units.

     "I'm going to load you onto a stretcher."  And she did, with me
screaming in absolute agony.  She ignored me.  They trundled me towards
the mansion, I assume.  I don't know.  Somewhere along the way, despite
my warning to her, I passed out anyway.

     So much for my theory.



     When I awoke, I was indeed in a different room, and an IV was
in my arm, with a couple of bags hanging from it.  How quaint, I
thought, IV.  My ribs were wrapped, and I was doped to the gills on some
sort of painkiller, probably a somewhat addictive opiate.

     Wonderful.  After I get out of bed, I get to go through withdrawl.
I thanked Osiris that I'm not the addictive type personality.  I checked
my motion.

     Great.  I've got my right arm.  And that's about it.

     I sat and contemplated my condition.  What was I going to do in my
present condition?  And where was I?

     Well, the scent of place told me I was in the mansion, still, so my
medical emergency hadn't gotten me out of whatever prison it was
intended to be.  But, there was a strong presence of Brieanna's here, so
I assumed I was in one of her private rooms.

     That's when I saw it.  I'd been avoiding the idea for sometime.
But there on the table was a cyberinterface net, but not one like I use;
this one was an induction cyber-cyber link.  Brieanna was an android.

     That's impossible.  You can make AI's that size, and you can stuff
them into android bodies that are virtually indistinguishable from
human, but there are always things that give an android away.

     Like their scent.  Can't make an android smell exactly like a
human, no way, no how.  Like their body temperature.  I'd seen
Brieanna's IR signature once, through a rifle scope I'd been tinkering
with (No, I did NOT point a rifle at Brieanna), and she was human.  Even
a 'terminator' type design tends to be too cool to be perfect, and
terminator's breath is never even close.  Like her aura.  I'll never be
a competent mage; It's too much effort and tech can do ninety-nine
percent of what magic can, so why bother?  But I knew enough; she was
human.

     So what was that link for?  My mysterious savior?  Unlikely; I was
convinced that this was a plot by Dave, Carrol and Paul.  An agent?  Why
bother, Brieanna could just make her own reports?

     So what was the damned link for?  I decided it wasn't worth
bothering about in my doped condition, and fell back into dark slumber.


     When I awoke, a few hours later, I was pleased to find my warden
sitting on the bed next to me.  "Hi," I managed to croak.

     "Hi yourself.  You had me frightened."

     "Thanks.  I guess it'd have been bad to lose your best prisoner."

     "You're still bitter about being here."

     "No, not really.  Just the drugs, the pain, and the frustration
talking.  I'm sorry, Brie, but it hurts like Hell to be slammed up
against the wall by a Shirow PAPA."  Personal Assault Powered Armor.

     "I imagine.  Well, I'll tell you the prognosis, above and beyond
the fact that you're going to live.  You broke four ribs, and I had to
set one surgically, so under that wrap is a lot of scarring, but in your
case that'll fade away.  The right leg is also shattered, and it's set
as well.  The ceramics are chemically coded, so I can take them out
almost at will, but you'll be needing them for a few weeks, at least.
The shoulder is also torn up, but not so bad.  You should have both arms
back in about a week.  In the mean time, you sit right where you are."

     "And where am I?"  I asked.

     "The bedroom next to mine.  I've moved your stuff down, and I've
given Drac a limited set of instructions to follow to your voice."

     "Thanks" I said, dryly.  That the SI she had responded only to her
annoyed me.

     "I've got my reasons.  It's violating my paramters just to give you
control of one maintenance unit.  But I figure this is an emergency.
I'd hate for you to be bedridden AND bored, and I've got work of my own
to do."

     "Brieanna."  I reached out to touch her, but she was out of reach.

     "Hmm?"

     "I won't ask what your work is, you probably won't tell me.   But,
thank you.  In your own special way, you're doing a great job."

     She smiled.  "Thanks.  I appreciate that.  Now get some sleep."
She rose.  "Or at least, settle down and accept the fact that you're
going to be in there for a few weeks."

     "I will."

     "Bye."
--
"Brieanna"
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