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- Chapter 13
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- The remainder of Anne's time at Uppercross, comprehending only two days,
- was spent entirely at the Mansion House; and she had the satisfaction
- of knowing herself extremely useful there, both as an immediate companion,
- and as assisting in all those arrangements for the future, which,
- in Mr and Mrs Musgrove's distressed state of spirits, would have
- been difficulties.
-
- They had an early account from Lyme the next morning. Louisa was
- much the same. No symptoms worse than before had appeared.
- Charles came a few hours afterwards, to bring a later and
- more particular account. He was tolerably cheerful. A speedy cure
- must not be hoped, but everything was going on as well
- as the nature of the case admitted. In speaking of the Harvilles,
- he seemed unable to satisfy his own sense of their kindness,
- especially of Mrs Harville's exertions as a nurse. "She really left
- nothing for Mary to do. He and Mary had been persuaded to go early
- to their inn last night. Mary had been hysterical again this morning.
- When he came away, she was going to walk out with Captain Benwick,
- which, he hoped, would do her good. He almost wished she had been
- prevailed on to come home the day before; but the truth was,
- that Mrs Harville left nothing for anybody to do."
-
- Charles was to return to Lyme the same afternoon, and his father
- had at first half a mind to go with him, but the ladies could not consent.
- It would be going only to multiply trouble to the others,
- and increase his own distress; and a much better scheme followed
- and was acted upon. A chaise was sent for from Crewkherne,
- and Charles conveyed back a far more useful person in the old nursery-maid
- of the family, one who having brought up all the children,
- and seen the very last, the lingering and long-petted Master Harry,
- sent to school after his brothers, was now living in her deserted nursery
- to mend stockings and dress all the blains and bruises she could
- get near her, and who, consequently, was only too happy in being
- allowed to go and help nurse dear Miss Louisa. Vague wishes of
- getting Sarah thither, had occurred before to Mrs Musgrove and Henrietta;
- but without Anne, it would hardly have been resolved on,
- and found practicable so soon.
-
- They were indebted, the next day, to Charles Hayter, for all
- the minute knowledge of Louisa, which it was so essential to obtain
- every twenty-four hours. He made it his business to go to Lyme,
- and his account was still encouraging. The intervals of sense
- and consciousness were believed to be stronger. Every report agreed
- in Captain Wentworth's appearing fixed in Lyme.
-
- Anne was to leave them on the morrow, an event which they all dreaded.
- "What should they do without her? They were wretched comforters
- for one another." And so much was said in this way, that Anne thought
- she could not do better than impart among them the general inclination
- to which she was privy, and persuaded them all to go to Lyme at once.
- She had little difficulty; it was soon determined that they would go;
- go to-morrow, fix themselves at the inn, or get into lodgings,
- as it suited, and there remain till dear Louisa could be moved.
- They must be taking off some trouble from the good people she was with;
- they might at least relieve Mrs Harville from the care of her own children;
- and in short, they were so happy in the decision, that Anne was delighted
- with what she had done, and felt that she could not spend her
- last morning at Uppercross better than in assisting their preparations,
- and sending them off at an early hour, though her being left
- to the solitary range of the house was the consequence.
-
- She was the last, excepting the little boys at the cottage,
- she was the very last, the only remaining one of all that had filled
- and animated both houses, of all that had given Uppercross
- its cheerful character. A few days had made a change indeed!
-
- If Louisa recovered, it would all be well again. More than
- former happiness would be restored. There could not be a doubt,
- to her mind there was none, of what would follow her recovery.
- A few months hence, and the room now so deserted, occupied but by
- her silent, pensive self, might be filled again with all that was happy
- and gay, all that was glowing and bright in prosperous love,
- all that was most unlike Anne Elliot!
-
- An hour's complete leisure for such reflections as these,
- on a dark November day, a small thick rain almost blotting out
- the very few objects ever to be discerned from the windows, was enough
- to make the sound of Lady Russell's carriage exceedingly welcome;
- and yet, though desirous to be gone, she could not quit the Mansion House,
- or look an adieu to the Cottage, with its black, dripping and
- comfortless veranda, or even notice through the misty glasses
- the last humble tenements of the village, without a saddened heart.
- Scenes had passed in Uppercross which made it precious.
- It stood the record of many sensations of pain, once severe,
- but now softened; and of some instances of relenting feeling,
- some breathings of friendship and reconciliation, which could
- never be looked for again, and which could never cease to be dear.
- She left it all behind her, all but the recollection that
- such things had been.
-
- Anne had never entered Kellynch since her quitting Lady Russell's house
- in September. It had not been necessary, and the few occasions of
- its being possible for her to go to the Hall she had contrived to evade
- and escape from. Her first return was to resume her place in the modern
- and elegant apartments of the Lodge, and to gladden the eyes
- of its mistress.
-
- There was some anxiety mixed with Lady Russell's joy in meeting her.
- She knew who had been frequenting Uppercross. But happily,
- either Anne was improved in plumpness and looks, or Lady Russell
- fancied her so; and Anne, in receiving her compliments on the occasion,
- had the amusement of connecting them with the silent admiration
- of her cousin, and of hoping that she was to be blessed with
- a second spring of youth and beauty.
-
- When they came to converse, she was soon sensible of some mental change.
- The subjects of which her heart had been full on leaving Kellynch,
- and which she had felt slighted, and been compelled to smother
- among the Musgroves, were now become but of secondary interest.
- She had lately lost sight even of her father and sister and Bath.
- Their concerns had been sunk under those of Uppercross;
- and when Lady Russell reverted to their former hopes and fears,
- and spoke her satisfaction in the house in Camden Place,
- which had been taken, and her regret that Mrs Clay should still
- be with them, Anne would have been ashamed to have it known
- how much more she was thinking of Lyme and Louisa Musgrove,
- and all her acquaintance there; how much more interesting to her
- was the home and the friendship of the Harvilles and Captain Benwick,
- than her own father's house in Camden Place, or her own sister's intimacy
- with Mrs Clay. She was actually forced to exert herself
- to meet Lady Russell with anything like the appearance of equal solicitude,
- on topics which had by nature the first claim on her.
-
- There was a little awkwardness at first in their discourse
- on another subject. They must speak of the accident at Lyme.
- Lady Russell had not been arrived five minutes the day before,
- when a full account of the whole had burst on her; but still it must
- be talked of, she must make enquiries, she must regret the imprudence,
- lament the result, and Captain Wentworth's name must be mentioned by both.
- Anne was conscious of not doing it so well as Lady Russell.
- She could not speak the name, and look straight forward to
- Lady Russell's eye, till she had adopted the expedient of telling her
- briefly what she thought of the attachment between him and Louisa.
- When this was told, his name distressed her no longer.
-
- Lady Russell had only to listen composedly, and wish them happy,
- but internally her heart revelled in angry pleasure, in pleased contempt,
- that the man who at twenty-three had seemed to understand somewhat
- of the value of an Anne Elliot, should, eight years afterwards,
- be charmed by a Louisa Musgrove.
-
- The first three or four days passed most quietly, with no circumstance
- to mark them excepting the receipt of a note or two from Lyme,
- which found their way to Anne, she could not tell how, and brought
- a rather improving account of Louisa. At the end of that period,
- Lady Russell's politeness could repose no longer, and the fainter
- self-threatenings of the past became in a decided tone,
- "I must call on Mrs Croft; I really must call upon her soon.
- Anne, have you courage to go with me, and pay a visit in that house?
- It will be some trial to us both."
-
- Anne did not shrink from it; on the contrary, she truly felt as she said,
- in observing--
-
- "I think you are very likely to suffer the most of the two;
- your feelings are less reconciled to the change than mine.
- By remaining in the neighbourhood, I am become inured to it."
-
- She could have said more on the subject; for she had in fact
- so high an opinion of the Crofts, and considered her father
- so very fortunate in his tenants, felt the parish to be so sure
- of a good example, and the poor of the best attention and relief,
- that however sorry and ashamed for the necessity of the removal,
- she could not but in conscience feel that they were gone
- who deserved not to stay, and that Kellynch Hall had passed
- into better hands than its owners'. These convictions must unquestionably
- have their own pain, and severe was its kind; but they precluded
- that pain which Lady Russell would suffer in entering the house again,
- and returning through the well-known apartments.
-
- In such moments Anne had no power of saying to herself,
- "These rooms ought to belong only to us. Oh, how fallen
- in their destination! How unworthily occupied! An ancient family
- to be so driven away! Strangers filling their place!"
- No, except when she thought of her mother, and remembered where
- she had been used to sit and preside, she had no sigh of that description
- to heave.
-
- Mrs Croft always met her with a kindness which gave her the pleasure
- of fancying herself a favourite, and on the present occasion,
- receiving her in that house, there was particular attention.
-
- The sad accident at Lyme was soon the prevailing topic,
- and on comparing their latest accounts of the invalid, it appeared
- that each lady dated her intelligence from the same hour of yestermorn;
- that Captain Wentworth had been in Kellynch yesterday (the first time
- since the accident), had brought Anne the last note, which she had
- not been able to trace the exact steps of; had staid a few hours
- and then returned again to Lyme, and without any present intention
- of quitting it any more. He had enquired after her, she found,
- particularly; had expressed his hope of Miss Elliot's not being
- the worse for her exertions, and had spoken of those exertions as great.
- This was handsome, and gave her more pleasure than almost anything else
- could have done.
-
- As to the sad catastrophe itself, it could be canvassed only in one style
- by a couple of steady, sensible women, whose judgements had to work
- on ascertained events; and it was perfectly decided that it had been
- the consequence of much thoughtlessness and much imprudence;
- that its effects were most alarming, and that it was frightful to think,
- how long Miss Musgrove's recovery might yet be doubtful, and how liable
- she would still remain to suffer from the concussion hereafter!
- The Admiral wound it up summarily by exclaiming--
-
- "Ay, a very bad business indeed. A new sort of way this,
- for a young fellow to be making love, by breaking his mistress's head,
- is not it, Miss Elliot? This is breaking a head and giving a plaster,
- truly!"
-
- Admiral Croft's manners were not quite of the tone to suit Lady Russell,
- but they delighted Anne. His goodness of heart and simplicity
- of character were irresistible.
-
- "Now, this must be very bad for you," said he, suddenly rousing from
- a little reverie, "to be coming and finding us here. I had not
- recollected it before, I declare, but it must be very bad.
- But now, do not stand upon ceremony. Get up and go over all the rooms
- in the house if you like it."
-
- "Another time, Sir, I thank you, not now."
-
- "Well, whenever it suits you. You can slip in from the shrubbery
- at any time; and there you will find we keep our umbrellas hanging up
- by that door. A good place is not it? But," (checking himself),
- "you will not think it a good place, for yours were always kept
- in the butler's room. Ay, so it always is, I believe.
- One man's ways may be as good as another's, but we all like our own best.
- And so you must judge for yourself, whether it would be better for you
- to go about the house or not."
-
- Anne, finding she might decline it, did so, very gratefully.
-
- "We have made very few changes either," continued the Admiral,
- after thinking a moment. "Very few. We told you about the laundry-door,
- at Uppercross. That has been a very great improvement.
- The wonder was, how any family upon earth could bear with the inconvenience
- of its opening as it did, so long! You will tell Sir Walter
- what we have done, and that Mr Shepherd thinks it the greatest improvement
- the house ever had. Indeed, I must do ourselves the justice to say,
- that the few alterations we have made have been all very much
- for the better. My wife should have the credit of them, however.
- I have done very little besides sending away some of the large
- looking-glasses from my dressing-room, which was your father's.
- A very good man, and very much the gentleman I am sure:
- but I should think, Miss Elliot," (looking with serious reflection),
- "I should think he must be rather a dressy man for his time of life.
- Such a number of looking-glasses! oh Lord! there was no getting away
- from one's self. So I got Sophy to lend me a hand, and we soon
- shifted their quarters; and now I am quite snug, with my
- little shaving glass in one corner, and another great thing
- that I never go near."
-
- Anne, amused in spite of herself, was rather distressed for an answer,
- and the Admiral, fearing he might not have been civil enough,
- took up the subject again, to say--
-
- "The next time you write to your good father, Miss Elliot,
- pray give him my compliments and Mrs Croft's, and say that we are
- settled here quite to our liking, and have no fault at all to find
- with the place. The breakfast-room chimney smokes a little,
- I grant you, but it is only when the wind is due north and blows hard,
- which may not happen three times a winter. And take it altogether,
- now that we have been into most of the houses hereabouts and can judge,
- there is not one that we like better than this. Pray say so,
- with my compliments. He will be glad to hear it."
-
- Lady Russell and Mrs Croft were very well pleased with each other:
- but the acquaintance which this visit began was fated not to proceed
- far at present; for when it was returned, the Crofts announced
- themselves to be going away for a few weeks, to visit their connexions
- in the north of the county, and probably might not be at home again
- before Lady Russell would be removing to Bath.
-
- So ended all danger to Anne of meeting Captain Wentworth at Kellynch Hall,
- or of seeing him in company with her friend. Everything was safe enough,
- and she smiled over the many anxious feelings she had wasted
- on the subject.
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- Chapter 14
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- Though Charles and Mary had remained at Lyme much longer after
- Mr and Mrs Musgrove's going than Anne conceived they could have been
- at all wanted, they were yet the first of the family to be at home again;
- and as soon as possible after their return to Uppercross
- they drove over to the Lodge. They had left Louisa beginning to sit up;
- but her head, though clear, was exceedingly weak, and her nerves
- susceptible to the highest extreme of tenderness; and though
- she might be pronounced to be altogether doing very well,
- it was still impossible to say when she might be able to bear
- the removal home; and her father and mother, who must return
- in time to receive their younger children for the Christmas holidays,
- had hardly a hope of being allowed to bring her with them.
-
- They had been all in lodgings together. Mrs Musgrove had
- got Mrs Harville's children away as much as she could, every possible
- supply from Uppercross had been furnished, to lighten the inconvenience
- to the Harvilles, while the Harvilles had been wanting them
- to come to dinner every day; and in short, it seemed to have been
- only a struggle on each side as to which should be most disinterested
- and hospitable.
-
- Mary had had her evils; but upon the whole, as was evident
- by her staying so long, she had found more to enjoy than to suffer.
- Charles Hayter had been at Lyme oftener than suited her; and when
- they dined with the Harvilles there had been only a maid-servant to wait,
- and at first Mrs Harville had always given Mrs Musgrove precedence;
- but then, she had received so very handsome an apology from her
- on finding out whose daughter she was, and there had been so much
- going on every day, there had been so many walks between their lodgings
- and the Harvilles, and she had got books from the library,
- and changed them so often, that the balance had certainly been
- much in favour of Lyme. She had been taken to Charmouth too,
- and she had bathed, and she had gone to church, and there were a great many
- more people to look at in the church at Lyme than at Uppercross;
- and all this, joined to the sense of being so very useful,
- had made really an agreeable fortnight.
-
- Anne enquired after Captain Benwick, Mary's face was clouded directly.
- Charles laughed.
-
- "Oh! Captain Benwick is very well, I believe, but he is
- a very odd young man. I do not know what he would be at.
- We asked him to come home with us for a day or two: Charles undertook
- to give him some shooting, and he seemed quite delighted, and, for my part,
- I thought it was all settled; when behold! on Tuesday night,
- he made a very awkward sort of excuse; `he never shot' and he had
- `been quite misunderstood,' and he had promised this and he had
- promised that, and the end of it was, I found, that he did not mean to come.
- I suppose he was afraid of finding it dull; but upon my word
- I should have thought we were lively enough at the Cottage
- for such a heart-broken man as Captain Benwick."
-
- Charles laughed again and said, "Now Mary, you know very well
- how it really was. It was all your doing," (turning to Anne.)
- "He fancied that if he went with us, he should find you close by:
- he fancied everybody to be living in Uppercross; and when he discovered
- that Lady Russell lived three miles off, his heart failed him,
- and he had not courage to come. That is the fact, upon my honour,
- Mary knows it is."
-
- But Mary did not give into it very graciously, whether from
- not considering Captain Benwick entitled by birth and situation
- to be in love with an Elliot, or from not wanting to believe
- Anne a greater attraction to Uppercross than herself, must be
- left to be guessed. Anne's good-will, however, was not to be lessened
- by what she heard. She boldly acknowledged herself flattered,
- and continued her enquiries.
-
- "Oh! he talks of you," cried Charles, "in such terms--"
- Mary interrupted him. "I declare, Charles, I never heard him
- mention Anne twice all the time I was there. I declare, Anne,
- he never talks of you at all."
-
- "No," admitted Charles, "I do not know that he ever does, in a general
- way; but however, it is a very clear thing that he admires you exceedingly.
- His head is full of some books that he is reading upon your recommendation,
- and he wants to talk to you about them; he has found out something or other
- in one of them which he thinks--oh! I cannot pretend to remember it,
- but it was something very fine--I overheard him telling Henrietta
- all about it; and then `Miss Elliot' was spoken of in the highest terms!
- Now Mary, I declare it was so, I heard it myself, and you were
- in the other room. `Elegance, sweetness, beauty.' Oh! there was no end
- of Miss Elliot's charms."
-
- "And I am sure," cried Mary, warmly, "it was a very little to his credit,
- if he did. Miss Harville only died last June. Such a heart
- is very little worth having; is it, Lady Russell? I am sure
- you will agree with me."
-
- "I must see Captain Benwick before I decide," said Lady Russell, smiling.
-
- "And that you are very likely to do very soon, I can tell you, ma'am,"
- said Charles. "Though he had not nerves for coming away with us,
- and setting off again afterwards to pay a formal visit here,
- he will make his way over to Kellynch one day by himself,
- you may depend on it. I told him the distance and the road,
- and I told him of the church's being so very well worth seeing;
- for as he has a taste for those sort of things, I thought that would
- be a good excuse, and he listened with all his understanding and soul;
- and I am sure from his manner that you will have him calling here soon.
- So, I give you notice, Lady Russell."
-
- "Any acquaintance of Anne's will always be welcome to me,"
- was Lady Russell's kind answer.
-
- "Oh! as to being Anne's acquaintance," said Mary, "I think he is rather
- my acquaintance, for I have been seeing him every day this last fortnight."
-
- "Well, as your joint acquaintance, then, I shall be very happy
- to see Captain Benwick."
-
- "You will not find anything very agreeable in him, I assure you, ma'am.
- He is one of the dullest young men that ever lived. He has walked with me,
- sometimes, from one end of the sands to the other, without saying a word.
- He is not at all a well-bred young man. I am sure you will not like him."
-
- "There we differ, Mary," said Anne. "I think Lady Russell would like him.
- I think she would be so much pleased with his mind, that she would
- very soon see no deficiency in his manner."
-
- "So do I, Anne," said Charles. "I am sure Lady Russell would like him.
- He is just Lady Russell's sort. Give him a book, and he will
- read all day long."
-
- "Yes, that he will!" exclaimed Mary, tauntingly. "He will sit poring
- over his book, and not know when a person speaks to him, or when one
- drop's one's scissors, or anything that happens. Do you think
- Lady Russell would like that?"
-
- Lady Russell could not help laughing. "Upon my word," said she,
- "I should not have supposed that my opinion of any one could have
- admitted of such difference of conjecture, steady and matter of fact
- as I may call myself. I have really a curiosity to see the person
- who can give occasion to such directly opposite notions.
- I wish he may be induced to call here. And when he does, Mary,
- you may depend upon hearing my opinion; but I am determined
- not to judge him beforehand."
-
- "You will not like him, I will answer for it."
-
- Lady Russell began talking of something else. Mary spoke with animation
- of their meeting with, or rather missing, Mr Elliot so extraordinarily.
-
- "He is a man," said Lady Russell, "whom I have no wish to see.
- His declining to be on cordial terms with the head of his family,
- has left a very strong impression in his disfavour with me."
-
- This decision checked Mary's eagerness, and stopped her short
- in the midst of the Elliot countenance.
-
- With regard to Captain Wentworth, though Anne hazarded no enquiries,
- there was voluntary communication sufficient. His spirits had been
- greatly recovering lately as might be expected. As Louisa improved,
- he had improved, and he was now quite a different creature
- from what he had been the first week. He had not seen Louisa;
- and was so extremely fearful of any ill consequence to her
- from an interview, that he did not press for it at all; and,
- on the contrary, seemed to have a plan of going away for a week
- or ten days, till her head was stronger. He had talked of going
- down to Plymouth for a week, and wanted to persuade Captain Benwick
- to go with him; but, as Charles maintained to the last, Captain Benwick
- seemed much more disposed to ride over to Kellynch.
-
- There can be no doubt that Lady Russell and Anne were both
- occasionally thinking of Captain Benwick, from this time.
- Lady Russell could not hear the door-bell without feeling that it might
- be his herald; nor could Anne return from any stroll of solitary indulgence
- in her father's grounds, or any visit of charity in the village,
- without wondering whether she might see him or hear of him.
- Captain Benwick came not, however. He was either less disposed for it
- than Charles had imagined, or he was too shy; and after giving him
- a week's indulgence, Lady Russell determined him to be unworthy
- of the interest which he had been beginning to excite.
-
- The Musgroves came back to receive their happy boys and girls from school,
- bringing with them Mrs Harville's little children, to improve the noise
- of Uppercross, and lessen that of Lyme. Henrietta remained with Louisa;
- but all the rest of the family were again in their usual quarters.
-
- Lady Russell and Anne paid their compliments to them once,
- when Anne could not but feel that Uppercross was already quite alive again.
- Though neither Henrietta, nor Louisa, nor Charles Hayter,
- nor Captain Wentworth were there, the room presented as strong a contrast
- as could be wished to the last state she had seen it in.
-
- Immediately surrounding Mrs Musgrove were the little Harvilles,
- whom she was sedulously guarding from the tyranny of the two children
- from the Cottage, expressly arrived to amuse them. On one side
- was a table occupied by some chattering girls, cutting up silk
- and gold paper; and on the other were tressels and trays,
- bending under the weight of brawn and cold pies, where riotous boys
- were holding high revel; the whole completed by a roaring Christmas fire,
- which seemed determined to be heard, in spite of all the noise
- of the others. Charles and Mary also came in, of course,
- during their visit, and Mr Musgrove made a point of paying his respects
- to Lady Russell, and sat down close to her for ten minutes,
- talking with a very raised voice, but from the clamour of the children
- on his knees, generally in vain. It was a fine family-piece.
-
- Anne, judging from her own temperament, would have deemed
- such a domestic hurricane a bad restorative of the nerves,
- which Louisa's illness must have so greatly shaken. But Mrs Musgrove,
- who got Anne near her on purpose to thank her most cordially,
- again and again, for all her attentions to them, concluded
- a short recapitulation of what she had suffered herself by observing,
- with a happy glance round the room, that after all she had gone through,
- nothing was so likely to do her good as a little quiet cheerfulness
- at home.
-
- Louisa was now recovering apace. Her mother could even think of her
- being able to join their party at home, before her brothers and sisters
- went to school again. The Harvilles had promised to come with her
- and stay at Uppercross, whenever she returned. Captain Wentworth was gone,
- for the present, to see his brother in Shropshire.
-
- "I hope I shall remember, in future," said Lady Russell, as soon as
- they were reseated in the carriage, "not to call at Uppercross
- in the Christmas holidays."
-
- Everybody has their taste in noises as well as in other matters;
- and sounds are quite innoxious, or most distressing, by their sort
- rather than their quantity. When Lady Russell not long afterwards,
- was entering Bath on a wet afternoon, and driving through
- the long course of streets from the Old Bridge to Camden Place,
- amidst the dash of other carriages, the heavy rumble of carts and drays,
- the bawling of newspapermen, muffin-men and milkmen, and the ceaseless
- clink of pattens, she made no complaint. No, these were noises
- which belonged to the winter pleasures; her spirits rose
- under their influence; and like Mrs Musgrove, she was feeling,
- though not saying, that after being long in the country, nothing could be
- so good for her as a little quiet cheerfulness.
-
- Anne did not share these feelings. She persisted in a very determined,
- though very silent disinclination for Bath; caught the first dim view
- of the extensive buildings, smoking in rain, without any wish
- of seeing them better; felt their progress through the streets to be,
- however disagreeable, yet too rapid; for who would be glad to see her
- when she arrived? And looked back, with fond regret, to the bustles
- of Uppercross and the seclusion of Kellynch.
-
- Elizabeth's last letter had communicated a piece of news of some interest.
- Mr Elliot was in Bath. He had called in Camden Place; had called
- a second time, a third; had been pointedly attentive. If Elizabeth
- and her father did not deceive themselves, had been taking much pains
- to seek the acquaintance, and proclaim the value of the connection,
- as he had formerly taken pains to shew neglect. This was very wonderful
- if it were true; and Lady Russell was in a state of very agreeable
- curiosity and perplexity about Mr Elliot, already recanting the sentiment
- she had so lately expressed to Mary, of his being "a man whom she had
- no wish to see." She had a great wish to see him. If he really sought
- to reconcile himself like a dutiful branch, he must be forgiven
- for having dismembered himself from the paternal tree.
-
- Anne was not animated to an equal pitch by the circumstance,
- but she felt that she would rather see Mr Elliot again than not,
- which was more than she could say for many other persons in Bath.
-
- She was put down in Camden Place; and Lady Russell then drove
- to her own lodgings, in Rivers Street.
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- Sir Walter had taken a very good house in Camden Place,
- a lofty dignified situation, such as becomes a man of consequence;
- and both he and Elizabeth were settled there, much to their satisfaction.
-
- Anne entered it with a sinking heart, anticipating an imprisonment
- of many months, and anxiously saying to herself, "Oh! when shall I
- leave you again?" A degree of unexpected cordiality, however,
- in the welcome she received, did her good. Her father and sister
- were glad to see her, for the sake of shewing her the house and furniture,
- and met her with kindness. Her making a fourth, when they
- sat down to dinner, was noticed as an advantage.
-
- Mrs Clay was very pleasant, and very smiling, but her courtesies and smiles
- were more a matter of course. Anne had always felt that she would
- pretend what was proper on her arrival, but the complaisance of the others
- was unlooked for. They were evidently in excellent spirits,
- and she was soon to listen to the causes. They had no inclination
- to listen to her. After laying out for some compliments of being
- deeply regretted in their old neighbourhood, which Anne could not pay,
- they had only a few faint enquiries to make, before the talk must be
- all their own. Uppercross excited no interest, Kellynch very little:
- it was all Bath.
-
- They had the pleasure of assuring her that Bath more than answered
- their expectations in every respect. Their house was undoubtedly
- the best in Camden Place; their drawing-rooms had many decided advantages
- over all the others which they had either seen or heard of,
- and the superiority was not less in the style of the fitting-up,
- or the taste of the furniture. Their acquaintance was
- exceedingly sought after. Everybody was wanting to visit them.
- They had drawn back from many introductions, and still were
- perpetually having cards left by people of whom they knew nothing.
-
- Here were funds of enjoyment. Could Anne wonder that her father
- and sister were happy? She might not wonder, but she must sigh
- that her father should feel no degradation in his change, should see
- nothing to regret in the duties and dignity of the resident landholder,
- should find so much to be vain of in the littlenesses of a town;
- and she must sigh, and smile, and wonder too, as Elizabeth threw open
- the folding-doors and walked with exultation from one drawing-room
- to the other, boasting of their space; at the possibility of that woman,
- who had been mistress of Kellynch Hall, finding extent to be proud of
- between two walls, perhaps thirty feet asunder.
-
- But this was not all which they had to make them happy.
- They had Mr Elliot too. Anne had a great deal to hear of Mr Elliot.
- He was not only pardoned, they were delighted with him.
- He had been in Bath about a fortnight; (he had passed through Bath
- in November, in his way to London, when the intelligence of
- Sir Walter's being settled there had of course reached him,
- though only twenty-four hours in the place, but he had not been able
- to avail himself of it;) but he had now been a fortnight in Bath,
- and his first object on arriving, had been to leave his card
- in Camden Place, following it up by such assiduous endeavours to meet,
- and when they did meet, by such great openness of conduct,
- such readiness to apologize for the past, such solicitude to be received
- as a relation again, that their former good understanding
- was completely re-established.
-
- They had not a fault to find in him. He had explained away
- all the appearance of neglect on his own side. It had originated
- in misapprehension entirely. He had never had an idea of
- throwing himself off; he had feared that he was thrown off,
- but knew not why, and delicacy had kept him silent. Upon the hint
- of having spoken disrespectfully or carelessly of the family
- and the family honours, he was quite indignant. He, who had ever boasted
- of being an Elliot, and whose feelings, as to connection,
- were only too strict to suit the unfeudal tone of the present day.
- He was astonished, indeed, but his character and general conduct
- must refute it. He could refer Sir Walter to all who knew him;
- and certainly, the pains he had been taking on this, the first opportunity
- of reconciliation, to be restored to the footing of a relation
- and heir-presumptive, was a strong proof of his opinions on the subject.
-
- The circumstances of his marriage, too, were found to admit of
- much extenuation. This was an article not to be entered on by himself;
- but a very intimate friend of his, a Colonel Wallis, a highly
- respectable man, perfectly the gentleman, (and not an ill-looking man,
- Sir Walter added), who was living in very good style in Marlborough
- Buildings, and had, at his own particular request, been admitted
- to their acquaintance through Mr Elliot, had mentioned one or two things
- relative to the marriage, which made a material difference
- in the discredit of it.
-
- Colonel Wallis had known Mr Elliot long, had been well acquainted
- also with his wife, had perfectly understood the whole story.
- She was certainly not a woman of family, but well educated,
- accomplished, rich, and excessively in love with his friend.
- There had been the charm. She had sought him. Without that attraction,
- not all her money would have tempted Elliot, and Sir Walter was,
- moreover, assured of her having been a very fine woman.
- Here was a great deal to soften the business. A very fine woman
- with a large fortune, in love with him! Sir Walter seemed to admit it
- as complete apology; and though Elizabeth could not see the circumstance
- in quite so favourable a light, she allowed it be a great extenuation.
-
- Mr Elliot had called repeatedly, had dined with them once,
- evidently delighted by the distinction of being asked, for they
- gave no dinners in general; delighted, in short, by every proof
- of cousinly notice, and placing his whole happiness in being
- on intimate terms in Camden Place.
-
- Anne listened, but without quite understanding it. Allowances,
- large allowances, she knew, must be made for the ideas of those who spoke.
- She heard it all under embellishment. All that sounded extravagant
- or irrational in the progress of the reconciliation might have no origin
- but in the language of the relators. Still, however, she had
- the sensation of there being something more than immediately appeared,
- in Mr Elliot's wishing, after an interval of so many years,
- to be well received by them. In a worldly view, he had nothing to gain
- by being on terms with Sir Walter; nothing to risk by a state of variance.
- In all probability he was already the richer of the two,
- and the Kellynch estate would as surely be his hereafter as the title.
- A sensible man, and he had looked like a very sensible man,
- why should it be an object to him? She could only offer one solution;
- it was, perhaps, for Elizabeth's sake. There might really have been
- a liking formerly, though convenience and accident had drawn him
- a different way; and now that he could afford to please himself,
- he might mean to pay his addresses to her. Elizabeth was certainly
- very handsome, with well-bred, elegant manners, and her character
- might never have been penetrated by Mr Elliot, knowing her but in public,
- and when very young himself. How her temper and understanding
- might bear the investigation of his present keener time of life
- was another concern and rather a fearful one. Most earnestly did she wish
- that he might not be too nice, or too observant if Elizabeth
- were his object; and that Elizabeth was disposed to believe herself so,
- and that her friend Mrs Clay was encouraging the idea, seemed apparent
- by a glance or two between them, while Mr Elliot's frequent visits
- were talked of.
-
- Anne mentioned the glimpses she had had of him at Lyme, but without
- being much attended to. "Oh! yes, perhaps, it had been Mr Elliot.
- They did not know. It might be him, perhaps." They could not listen
- to her description of him. They were describing him themselves;
- Sir Walter especially. He did justice to his very gentlemanlike
- appearance, his air of elegance and fashion, his good shaped face,
- his sensible eye; but, at the same time, "must lament his being
- very much under-hung, a defect which time seemed to have increased;
- nor could he pretend to say that ten years had not altered
- almost every feature for the worse. Mr Elliot appeared to think
- that he (Sir Walter) was looking exactly as he had done when
- they last parted;" but Sir Walter had "not been able to return
- the compliment entirely, which had embarrassed him. He did not mean
- to complain, however. Mr Elliot was better to look at than most men,
- and he had no objection to being seen with him anywhere."
-
- Mr Elliot, and his friends in Marlborough Buildings, were talked of
- the whole evening. "Colonel Wallis had been so impatient to be
- introduced to them! and Mr Elliot so anxious that he should!"
- and there was a Mrs Wallis, at present known only to them by description,
- as she was in daily expectation of her confinement; but Mr Elliot
- spoke of her as "a most charming woman, quite worthy of being known
- in Camden Place," and as soon as she recovered they were to be acquainted.
- Sir Walter thought much of Mrs Wallis; she was said to be
- an excessively pretty woman, beautiful. "He longed to see her.
- He hoped she might make some amends for the many very plain faces
- he was continually passing in the streets. The worst of Bath was
- the number of its plain women. He did not mean to say that there were
- no pretty women, but the number of the plain was out of all proportion.
- He had frequently observed, as he walked, that one handsome face
- would be followed by thirty, or five-and-thirty frights; and once,
- as he had stood in a shop on Bond Street, he had counted
- eighty-seven women go by, one after another, without there being
- a tolerable face among them. It had been a frosty morning,
- to be sure, a sharp frost, which hardly one woman in a thousand
- could stand the test of. But still, there certainly were
- a dreadful multitude of ugly women in Bath; and as for the men!
- they were infinitely worse. Such scarecrows as the streets were full of!
- It was evident how little the women were used to the sight of anything
- tolerable, by the effect which a man of decent appearance produced.
- He had never walked anywhere arm-in-arm with Colonel Wallis
- (who was a fine military figure, though sandy-haired) without observing
- that every woman's eye was upon him; every woman's eye was sure to be
- upon Colonel Wallis." Modest Sir Walter! He was not allowed
- to escape, however. His daughter and Mrs Clay united in hinting
- that Colonel Wallis's companion might have as good a figure
- as Colonel Wallis, and certainly was not sandy-haired.
-
- "How is Mary looking?" said Sir Walter, in the height of his good humour.
- "The last time I saw her she had a red nose, but I hope that may not
- happen every day."
-
- "Oh! no, that must have been quite accidental. In general she has been
- in very good health and very good looks since Michaelmas."
-
- "If I thought it would not tempt her to go out in sharp winds,
- and grow coarse, I would send her a new hat and pelisse."
-
- Anne was considering whether she should venture to suggest that a gown,
- or a cap, would not be liable to any such misuse, when a knock at the door
- suspended everything. "A knock at the door! and so late!
- It was ten o'clock. Could it be Mr Elliot? They knew he was to dine
- in Lansdown Crescent. It was possible that he might stop in his way home
- to ask them how they did. They could think of no one else.
- Mrs Clay decidedly thought it Mr Elliot's knock." Mrs Clay was right.
- With all the state which a butler and foot-boy could give,
- Mr Elliot was ushered into the room.
-
- It was the same, the very same man, with no difference but of dress.
- Anne drew a little back, while the others received his compliments,
- and her sister his apologies for calling at so unusual an hour,
- but "he could not be so near without wishing to know that neither she
- nor her friend had taken cold the day before," &c. &c; which was
- all as politely done, and as politely taken, as possible, but her part
- must follow then. Sir Walter talked of his youngest daughter;
- "Mr Elliot must give him leave to present him to his youngest daughter"
- (there was no occasion for remembering Mary); and Anne, smiling and
- blushing, very becomingly shewed to Mr Elliot the pretty features
- which he had by no means forgotten, and instantly saw, with amusement
- at his little start of surprise, that he had not been at all aware
- of who she was. He looked completely astonished, but not more astonished
- than pleased; his eyes brightened! and with the most perfect alacrity
- he welcomed the relationship, alluded to the past, and entreated
- to be received as an acquaintance already. He was quite as good-looking
- as he had appeared at Lyme, his countenance improved by speaking,
- and his manners were so exactly what they ought to be, so polished,
- so easy, so particularly agreeable, that she could compare them
- in excellence to only one person's manners. They were not the same,
- but they were, perhaps, equally good.
-
- He sat down with them, and improved their conversation very much.
- There could be no doubt of his being a sensible man. Ten minutes
- were enough to certify that. His tone, his expressions,
- his choice of subject, his knowing where to stop; it was all
- the operation of a sensible, discerning mind. As soon as he could,
- he began to talk to her of Lyme, wanting to compare opinions
- respecting the place, but especially wanting to speak of the circumstance
- of their happening to be guests in the same inn at the same time;
- to give his own route, understand something of hers, and regret that
- he should have lost such an opportunity of paying his respects to her.
- She gave him a short account of her party and business at Lyme.
- His regret increased as he listened. He had spent his whole
- solitary evening in the room adjoining theirs; had heard voices,
- mirth continually; thought they must be a most delightful set of people,
- longed to be with them, but certainly without the smallest suspicion
- of his possessing the shadow of a right to introduce himself.
- If he had but asked who the party were! The name of Musgrove would
- have told him enough. "Well, it would serve to cure him of
- an absurd practice of never asking a question at an inn,
- which he had adopted, when quite a young man, on the principal
- of its being very ungenteel to be curious.
-
- "The notions of a young man of one or two and twenty," said he,
- "as to what is necessary in manners to make him quite the thing,
- are more absurd, I believe, than those of any other set of beings
- in the world. The folly of the means they often employ
- is only to be equalled by the folly of what they have in view."
-
- But he must not be addressing his reflections to Anne alone:
- he knew it; he was soon diffused again among the others,
- and it was only at intervals that he could return to Lyme.
-
- His enquiries, however, produced at length an account of the scene
- she had been engaged in there, soon after his leaving the place.
- Having alluded to "an accident," he must hear the whole.
- When he questioned, Sir Walter and Elizabeth began to question also,
- but the difference in their manner of doing it could not be unfelt.
- She could only compare Mr Elliot to Lady Russell, in the wish
- of really comprehending what had passed, and in the degree of concern
- for what she must have suffered in witnessing it.
-
- He staid an hour with them. The elegant little clock on the mantel-
- piece had struck "eleven with its silver sounds," and the watchman
- was beginning to be heard at a distance telling the same tale,
- before Mr Elliot or any of them seemed to feel that he had been there long.
-
- Anne could not have supposed it possible that her first evening in
- Camden Place could have passed so well!
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- There was one point which Anne, on returning to her family,
- would have been more thankful to ascertain even than Mr Elliot's
- being in love with Elizabeth, which was, her father's not being
- in love with Mrs Clay; and she was very far from easy about it,
- when she had been at home a few hours. On going down to breakfast
- the next morning, she found there had just been a decent pretence
- on the lady's side of meaning to leave them. She could imagine Mrs Clay
- to have said, that "now Miss Anne was come, she could not suppose herself
- at all wanted;" for Elizabeth was replying in a sort of whisper,
- "That must not be any reason, indeed. I assure you I feel it none.
- She is nothing to me, compared with you;" and she was in full time
- to hear her father say, "My dear madam, this must not be. As yet,
- you have seen nothing of Bath. You have been here only to be useful.
- You must not run away from us now. You must stay to be acquainted
- with Mrs Wallis, the beautiful Mrs Wallis. To your fine mind,
- I well know the sight of beauty is a real gratification."
-
- He spoke and looked so much in earnest, that Anne was not surprised
- to see Mrs Clay stealing a glance at Elizabeth and herself.
- Her countenance, perhaps, might express some watchfulness;
- but the praise of the fine mind did not appear to excite a thought
- in her sister. The lady could not but yield to such joint entreaties,
- and promise to stay.
-
- In the course of the same morning, Anne and her father chancing to be
- alone together, he began to compliment her on her improved looks;
- he thought her "less thin in her person, in her cheeks; her skin,
- her complexion, greatly improved; clearer, fresher. Had she been
- using any thing in particular?" "No, nothing." "Merely Gowland,"
- he supposed. "No, nothing at all." "Ha! he was surprised at that;"
- and added, "certainly you cannot do better than to continue as you are;
- you cannot be better than well; or I should recommend Gowland,
- the constant use of Gowland, during the spring months. Mrs Clay has been
- using it at my recommendation, and you see what it has done for her.
- You see how it has carried away her freckles."
-
- If Elizabeth could but have heard this! Such personal praise
- might have struck her, especially as it did not appear to Anne
- that the freckles were at all lessened. But everything must
- take its chance. The evil of a marriage would be much diminished,
- if Elizabeth were also to marry. As for herself, she might always
- command a home with Lady Russell.
-
- Lady Russell's composed mind and polite manners were put to some trial
- on this point, in her intercourse in Camden Place. The sight of Mrs Clay
- in such favour, and of Anne so overlooked, was a perpetual provocation
- to her there; and vexed her as much when she was away, as a person in Bath
- who drinks the water, gets all the new publications, and has
- a very large acquaintance, has time to be vexed.
-
- As Mr Elliot became known to her, she grew more charitable,
- or more indifferent, towards the others. His manners were
- an immediate recommendation; and on conversing with him she found
- the solid so fully supporting the superficial, that she was at first,
- as she told Anne, almost ready to exclaim, "Can this be Mr Elliot?"
- and could not seriously picture to herself a more agreeable
- or estimable man. Everything united in him; good understanding,
- correct opinions, knowledge of the world, and a warm heart.
- He had strong feelings of family attachment and family honour,
- without pride or weakness; he lived with the liberality of a man of fortune,
- without display; he judged for himself in everything essential,
- without defying public opinion in any point of worldly decorum.
- He was steady, observant, moderate, candid; never run away with by spirits
- or by selfishness, which fancied itself strong feeling; and yet,
- with a sensibility to what was amiable and lovely, and a value
- for all the felicities of domestic life, which characters of
- fancied enthusiasm and violent agitation seldom really possess.
- She was sure that he had not been happy in marriage. Colonel Wallis
- said it, and Lady Russell saw it; but it had been no unhappiness
- to sour his mind, nor (she began pretty soon to suspect) to prevent his
- thinking of a second choice. Her satisfaction in Mr Elliot
- outweighed all the plague of Mrs Clay.
-
- It was now some years since Anne had begun to learn that she
- and her excellent friend could sometimes think differently;
- and it did not surprise her, therefore, that Lady Russell
- should see nothing suspicious or inconsistent, nothing to require
- more motives than appeared, in Mr Elliot's great desire of a reconciliation.
- In Lady Russell's view, it was perfectly natural that Mr Elliot,
- at a mature time of life, should feel it a most desirable object,
- and what would very generally recommend him among all sensible people,
- to be on good terms with the head of his family; the simplest process
- in the world of time upon a head naturally clear, and only erring
- in the heyday of youth. Anne presumed, however, still to smile about it,
- and at last to mention "Elizabeth." Lady Russell listened, and looked,
- and made only this cautious reply:--"Elizabeth! very well;
- time will explain."
-
- It was a reference to the future, which Anne, after a little observation,
- felt she must submit to. She could determine nothing at present.
- In that house Elizabeth must be first; and she was in the habit
- of such general observance as "Miss Elliot," that any particularity
- of attention seemed almost impossible. Mr Elliot, too,
- it must be remembered, had not been a widower seven months.
- A little delay on his side might be very excusable. In fact,
- Anne could never see the crape round his hat, without fearing that
- she was the inexcusable one, in attributing to him such imaginations;
- for though his marriage had not been very happy, still it had existed
- so many years that she could not comprehend a very rapid recovery
- from the awful impression of its being dissolved.
-
- However it might end, he was without any question their
- pleasantest acquaintance in Bath: she saw nobody equal to him;
- and it was a great indulgence now and then to talk to him about Lyme,
- which he seemed to have as lively a wish to see again, and to see more of,
- as herself. They went through the particulars of their first meeting
- a great many times. He gave her to understand that he had
- looked at her with some earnestness. She knew it well;
- and she remembered another person's look also.
-
- They did not always think alike. His value for rank and connexion
- she perceived was greater than hers. It was not merely complaisance,
- it must be a liking to the cause, which made him enter warmly
- into her father and sister's solicitudes on a subject which
- she thought unworthy to excite them. The Bath paper one morning
- announced the arrival of the Dowager Viscountess Dalrymple,
- and her daughter, the Honourable Miss Carteret; and all the comfort
- of No.--, Camden Place, was swept away for many days; for the Dalrymples
- (in Anne's opinion, most unfortunately) were cousins of the Elliots;
- and the agony was how to introduce themselves properly.
-
- Anne had never seen her father and sister before in contact with nobility,
- and she must acknowledge herself disappointed. She had hoped
- better things from their high ideas of their own situation in life,
- and was reduced to form a wish which she had never foreseen;
- a wish that they had more pride; for "our cousins Lady Dalrymple
- and Miss Carteret;" "our cousins, the Dalrymples," sounded in her ears
- all day long.
-
- Sir Walter had once been in company with the late viscount,
- but had never seen any of the rest of the family; and the difficulties
- of the case arose from there having been a suspension of all intercourse
- by letters of ceremony, ever since the death of that said late viscount,
- when, in consequence of a dangerous illness of Sir Walter's
- at the same time, there had been an unlucky omission at Kellynch.
- No letter of condolence had been sent to Ireland. The neglect
- had been visited on the head of the sinner; for when poor Lady Elliot
- died herself, no letter of condolence was received at Kellynch,
- and, consequently, there was but too much reason to apprehend
- that the Dalrymples considered the relationship as closed.
- How to have this anxious business set to rights, and be admitted
- as cousins again, was the question: and it was a question which,
- in a more rational manner, neither Lady Russell nor Mr Elliot
- thought unimportant. "Family connexions were always worth preserving,
- good company always worth seeking; Lady Dalrymple had taken a house,
- for three months, in Laura Place, and would be living in style.
- She had been at Bath the year before, and Lady Russell had heard her
- spoken of as a charming woman. It was very desirable that
- the connexion should be renewed, if it could be done, without any
- compromise of propriety on the side of the Elliots."
-
- Sir Walter, however, would choose his own means, and at last wrote
- a very fine letter of ample explanation, regret, and entreaty,
- to his right honourable cousin. Neither Lady Russell nor Mr Elliot
- could admire the letter; but it did all that was wanted,
- in bringing three lines of scrawl from the Dowager Viscountess.
- "She was very much honoured, and should be happy in their acquaintance."
- The toils of the business were over, the sweets began. They visited
- in Laura Place, they had the cards of Dowager Viscountess Dalrymple,
- and the Honourable Miss Carteret, to be arranged wherever they might
- be most visible: and "Our cousins in Laura Place,"--"Our cousin,
- Lady Dalrymple and Miss Carteret," were talked of to everybody.
-
- Anne was ashamed. Had Lady Dalrymple and her daughter even been
- very agreeable, she would still have been ashamed of the agitation
- they created, but they were nothing. There was no superiority of manner,
- accomplishment, or understanding. Lady Dalrymple had acquired
- the name of "a charming woman," because she had a smile and a civil answer
- for everybody. Miss Carteret, with still less to say, was so plain
- and so awkward, that she would never have been tolerated in Camden Place
- but for her birth.
-
- Lady Russell confessed she had expected something better; but yet
- "it was an acquaintance worth having;" and when Anne ventured to speak
- her opinion of them to Mr Elliot, he agreed to their being nothing
- in themselves, but still maintained that, as a family connexion,
- as good company, as those who would collect good company around them,
- they had their value. Anne smiled and said,
-
- "My idea of good company, Mr Elliot, is the company of clever,
- well-informed people, who have a great deal of conversation;
- that is what I call good company."
-
- "You are mistaken," said he gently, "that is not good company;
- that is the best. Good company requires only birth, education,
- and manners, and with regard to education is not very nice.
- Birth and good manners are essential; but a little learning is
- by no means a dangerous thing in good company; on the contrary,
- it will do very well. My cousin Anne shakes her head.
- She is not satisfied. She is fastidious. My dear cousin"
- (sitting down by her), "you have a better right to be fastidious
- than almost any other woman I know; but will it answer?
- Will it make you happy? Will it not be wiser to accept the society
- of those good ladies in Laura Place, and enjoy all the advantages
- of the connexion as far as possible? You may depend upon it,
- that they will move in the first set in Bath this winter,
- and as rank is rank, your being known to be related to them
- will have its use in fixing your family (our family let me say)
- in that degree of consideration which we must all wish for."
-
- "Yes," sighed Anne, "we shall, indeed, be known to be related to them!"
- then recollecting herself, and not wishing to be answered, she added,
- "I certainly do think there has been by far too much trouble taken
- to procure the acquaintance. I suppose" (smiling) "I have more pride
- than any of you; but I confess it does vex me, that we should be
- so solicitous to have the relationship acknowledged, which we may
- be very sure is a matter of perfect indifference to them."
-
- "Pardon me, dear cousin, you are unjust in your own claims.
- In London, perhaps, in your present quiet style of living,
- it might be as you say: but in Bath; Sir Walter Elliot and his family
- will always be worth knowing: always acceptable as acquaintance."
-
- "Well," said Anne, "I certainly am proud, too proud to enjoy a welcome
- which depends so entirely upon place."
-
- "I love your indignation," said he; "it is very natural.
- But here you are in Bath, and the object is to be established here
- with all the credit and dignity which ought to belong to Sir Walter Elliot.
- You talk of being proud; I am called proud, I know, and I shall not wish
- to believe myself otherwise; for our pride, if investigated,
- would have the same object, I have no doubt, though the kind may seem
- a little different. In one point, I am sure, my dear cousin,"
- (he continued, speaking lower, though there was no one else in the room)
- "in one point, I am sure, we must feel alike. We must feel that
- every addition to your father's society, among his equals or superiors,
- may be of use in diverting his thoughts from those who are beneath him."
-
- He looked, as he spoke, to the seat which Mrs Clay had been
- lately occupying: a sufficient explanation of what he particularly meant;
- and though Anne could not believe in their having the same sort of pride,
- she was pleased with him for not liking Mrs Clay; and her conscience
- admitted that his wishing to promote her father's getting
- great acquaintance was more than excusable in the view of defeating her.
-
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-
- While Sir Walter and Elizabeth were assiduously pushing their
- good fortune in Laura Place, Anne was renewing an acquaintance
- of a very different description.
-
- She had called on her former governess, and had heard from her
- of there being an old school-fellow in Bath, who had the two strong claims
- on her attention of past kindness and present suffering. Miss Hamilton,
- now Mrs Smith, had shewn her kindness in one of those periods of her life
- when it had been most valuable. Anne had gone unhappy to school,
- grieving for the loss of a mother whom she had dearly loved,
- feeling her separation from home, and suffering as a girl of fourteen,
- of strong sensibility and not high spirits, must suffer at such a time;
- and Miss Hamilton, three years older than herself, but still from the want
- of near relations and a settled home, remaining another year at school,
- had been useful and good to her in a way which had considerably lessened
- her misery, and could never be remembered with indifference.
-
- Miss Hamilton had left school, had married not long afterwards,
- was said to have married a man of fortune, and this was all
- that Anne had known of her, till now that their governess's account
- brought her situation forward in a more decided but very different form.
-
- She was a widow and poor. Her husband had been extravagant;
- and at his death, about two years before, had left his affairs
- dreadfully involved. She had had difficulties of every sort
- to contend with, and in addition to these distresses had been afflicted
- with a severe rheumatic fever, which, finally settling in her legs,
- had made her for the present a cripple. She had come to Bath
- on that account, and was now in lodgings near the hot baths,
- living in a very humble way, unable even to afford herself
- the comfort of a servant, and of course almost excluded from society.
-
- Their mutual friend answered for the satisfaction which a visit
- from Miss Elliot would give Mrs Smith, and Anne therefore
- lost no time in going. She mentioned nothing of what she had heard,
- or what she intended, at home. It would excite no proper interest there.
- She only consulted Lady Russell, who entered thoroughly into her sentiments,
- and was most happy to convey her as near to Mrs Smith's lodgings
- in Westgate Buildings, as Anne chose to be taken.
-
- The visit was paid, their acquaintance re-established, their interest
- in each other more than re-kindled. The first ten minutes
- had its awkwardness and its emotion. Twelve years were gone
- since they had parted, and each presented a somewhat different person
- from what the other had imagined. Twelve years had changed Anne
- from the blooming, silent, unformed girl of fifteen, to the elegant
- little woman of seven-and-twenty, with every beauty except bloom,
- and with manners as consciously right as they were invariably gentle;
- and twelve years had transformed the fine-looking, well-grown Miss Hamilton,
- in all the glow of health and confidence of superiority, into a poor,
- infirm, helpless widow, receiving the visit of her former protegee
- as a favour; but all that was uncomfortable in the meeting had soon
- passed away, and left only the interesting charm of remembering
- former partialities and talking over old times.
-
- Anne found in Mrs Smith the good sense and agreeable manners which
- she had almost ventured to depend on, and a disposition to converse
- and be cheerful beyond her expectation. Neither the dissipations
- of the past--and she had lived very much in the world--nor the restrictions
- of the present, neither sickness nor sorrow seemed to have
- closed her heart or ruined her spirits.
-
- In the course of a second visit she talked with great openness,
- and Anne's astonishment increased. She could scarcely imagine
- a more cheerless situation in itself than Mrs Smith's. She had been
- very fond of her husband: she had buried him. She had been
- used to affluence: it was gone. She had no child to connect her
- with life and happiness again, no relations to assist in the arrangement
- of perplexed affairs, no health to make all the rest supportable.
- Her accommodations were limited to a noisy parlour, and a dark bedroom
- behind, with no possibility of moving from one to the other without
- assistance, which there was only one servant in the house to afford,
- and she never quitted the house but to be conveyed into the warm bath.
- Yet, in spite of all this, Anne had reason to believe that she had
- moments only of languor and depression, to hours of occupation
- and enjoyment. How could it be? She watched, observed, reflected,
- and finally determined that this was not a case of fortitude
- or of resignation only. A submissive spirit might be patient,
- a strong understanding would supply resolution, but here was something more;
- here was that elasticity of mind, that disposition to be comforted,
- that power of turning readily from evil to good, and of finding employment
- which carried her out of herself, which was from nature alone.
- It was the choicest gift of Heaven; and Anne viewed her friend
- as one of those instances in which, by a merciful appointment,
- it seems designed to counterbalance almost every other want.
-
- There had been a time, Mrs Smith told her, when her spirits
- had nearly failed. She could not call herself an invalid now,
- compared with her state on first reaching Bath. Then she had, indeed,
- been a pitiable object; for she had caught cold on the journey,
- and had hardly taken possession of her lodgings before she was again
- confined to her bed and suffering under severe and constant pain;
- and all this among strangers, with the absolute necessity of having
- a regular nurse, and finances at that moment particularly unfit
- to meet any extraordinary expense. She had weathered it, however,
- and could truly say that it had done her good. It had increased
- her comforts by making her feel herself to be in good hands.
- She had seen too much of the world, to expect sudden or disinterested
- attachment anywhere, but her illness had proved to her that her landlady
- had a character to preserve, and would not use her ill; and she had been
- particularly fortunate in her nurse, as a sister of her landlady,
- a nurse by profession, and who had always a home in that house
- when unemployed, chanced to be at liberty just in time to attend her.
- "And she," said Mrs Smith, "besides nursing me most admirably,
- has really proved an invaluable acquaintance. As soon as I could
- use my hands she taught me to knit, which has been a great amusement;
- and she put me in the way of making these little thread-cases,
- pin-cushions and card-racks, which you always find me so busy about,
- and which supply me with the means of doing a little good
- to one or two very poor families in this neighbourhood.
- She had a large acquaintance, of course professionally, among those
- who can afford to buy, and she disposes of my merchandize.
- She always takes the right time for applying. Everybody's heart is open,
- you know, when they have recently escaped from severe pain,
- or are recovering the blessing of health, and Nurse Rooke
- thoroughly understands when to speak. She is a shrewd, intelligent,
- sensible woman. Hers is a line for seeing human nature; and she has
- a fund of good sense and observation, which, as a companion, make her
- infinitely superior to thousands of those who having only received
- `the best education in the world,' know nothing worth attending to.
- Call it gossip, if you will, but when Nurse Rooke has half an hour's
- leisure to bestow on me, she is sure to have something to relate
- that is entertaining and profitable: something that makes one
- know one's species better. One likes to hear what is going on,
- to be au fait as to the newest modes of being trifling and silly.
- To me, who live so much alone, her conversation, I assure you, is a treat."
-
- Anne, far from wishing to cavil at the pleasure, replied,
- "I can easily believe it. Women of that class have great opportunities,
- and if they are intelligent may be well worth listening to.
- Such varieties of human nature as they are in the habit of witnessing!
- And it is not merely in its follies, that they are well read;
- for they see it occasionally under every circumstance that can be
- most interesting or affecting. What instances must pass before them
- of ardent, disinterested, self-denying attachment, of heroism, fortitude,
- patience, resignation: of all the conflicts and all the sacrifices
- that ennoble us most. A sick chamber may often furnish
- the worth of volumes."
-
- "Yes," said Mrs Smith more doubtingly, "sometimes it may,
- though I fear its lessons are not often in the elevated style you describe.
- Here and there, human nature may be great in times of trial;
- but generally speaking, it is its weakness and not its strength
- that appears in a sick chamber: it is selfishness and impatience
- rather than generosity and fortitude, that one hears of.
- There is so little real friendship in the world! and unfortunately"
- (speaking low and tremulously) "there are so many who forget
- to think seriously till it is almost too late."
-
- Anne saw the misery of such feelings. The husband had not been
- what he ought, and the wife had been led among that part of mankind
- which made her think worse of the world than she hoped it deserved.
- It was but a passing emotion however with Mrs Smith; she shook it off,
- and soon added in a different tone--
-
- "I do not suppose the situation my friend Mrs Rooke is in at present,
- will furnish much either to interest or edify me. She is only nursing
- Mrs Wallis of Marlborough Buildings; a mere pretty, silly, expensive,
- fashionable woman, I believe; and of course will have nothing to report
- but of lace and finery. I mean to make my profit of Mrs Wallis, however.
- She has plenty of money, and I intend she shall buy all
- the high-priced things I have in hand now."
-
- Anne had called several times on her friend, before the existence
- of such a person was known in Camden Place. At last, it became necessary
- to speak of her. Sir Walter, Elizabeth and Mrs Clay, returned one morning
- from Laura Place, with a sudden invitation from Lady Dalrymple
- for the same evening, and Anne was already engaged, to spend that evening
- in Westgate Buildings. She was not sorry for the excuse.
- They were only asked, she was sure, because Lady Dalrymple being
- kept at home by a bad cold, was glad to make use of the relationship
- which had been so pressed on her; and she declined on her own account
- with great alacrity--"She was engaged to spend the evening
- with an old schoolfellow." They were not much interested in anything
- relative to Anne; but still there were questions enough asked,
- to make it understood what this old schoolfellow was; and Elizabeth
- was disdainful, and Sir Walter severe.
-
- "Westgate Buildings!" said he, "and who is Miss Anne Elliot
- to be visiting in Westgate Buildings? A Mrs Smith. A widow Mrs Smith;
- and who was her husband? One of five thousand Mr Smiths whose names
- are to be met with everywhere. And what is her attraction?
- That she is old and sickly. Upon my word, Miss Anne Elliot,
- you have the most extraordinary taste! Everything that revolts
- other people, low company, paltry rooms, foul air, disgusting associations
- are inviting to you. But surely you may put off this old lady
- till to-morrow: she is not so near her end, I presume,
- but that she may hope to see another day. What is her age? Forty?"
-
- "No, sir, she is not one-and-thirty; but I do not think I can
- put off my engagement, because it is the only evening for some time
- which will at once suit her and myself. She goes into the warm bath
- to-morrow, and for the rest of the week, you know, we are engaged."
-
- "But what does Lady Russell think of this acquaintance?" asked Elizabeth.
-
- "She sees nothing to blame in it," replied Anne; "on the contrary,
- she approves it, and has generally taken me when I have
- called on Mrs Smith.
-
- "Westgate Buildings must have been rather surprised by the appearance
- of a carriage drawn up near its pavement," observed Sir Walter.
- "Sir Henry Russell's widow, indeed, has no honours to distinguish her arms,
- but still it is a handsome equipage, and no doubt is well known
- to convey a Miss Elliot. A widow Mrs Smith lodging in Westgate Buildings!
- A poor widow barely able to live, between thirty and forty;
- a mere Mrs Smith, an every-day Mrs Smith, of all people and all names
- in the world, to be the chosen friend of Miss Anne Elliot,
- and to be preferred by her to her own family connections among the nobility
- of England and Ireland! Mrs Smith! Such a name!"
-
- Mrs Clay, who had been present while all this passed, now thought it
- advisable to leave the room, and Anne could have said much,
- and did long to say a little in defense of her friend's
- not very dissimilar claims to theirs, but her sense of personal respect
- to her father prevented her. She made no reply. She left it
- to himself to recollect, that Mrs Smith was not the only widow
- in Bath between thirty and forty, with little to live on,
- and no sirname of dignity.
-
- Anne kept her appointment; the others kept theirs, and of course
- she heard the next morning that they had had a delightful evening.
- She had been the only one of the set absent, for Sir Walter
- and Elizabeth had not only been quite at her ladyship's service themselves,
- but had actually been happy to be employed by her in collecting others,
- and had been at the trouble of inviting both Lady Russell and Mr Elliot;
- and Mr Elliot had made a point of leaving Colonel Wallis early,
- and Lady Russell had fresh arranged all her evening engagements
- in order to wait on her. Anne had the whole history of all that
- such an evening could supply from Lady Russell. To her,
- its greatest interest must be, in having been very much talked of
- between her friend and Mr Elliot; in having been wished for, regretted,
- and at the same time honoured for staying away in such a cause.
- Her kind, compassionate visits to this old schoolfellow,
- sick and reduced, seemed to have quite delighted Mr Elliot.
- He thought her a most extraordinary young woman; in her temper, manners,
- mind, a model of female excellence. He could meet even Lady Russell
- in a discussion of her merits; and Anne could not be given to understand
- so much by her friend, could not know herself to be so highly rated
- by a sensible man, without many of those agreeable sensations
- which her friend meant to create.
-
- Lady Russell was now perfectly decided in her opinion of Mr Elliot.
- She was as much convinced of his meaning to gain Anne in time as of
- his deserving her, and was beginning to calculate the number of weeks
- which would free him from all the remaining restraints of widowhood,
- and leave him at liberty to exert his most open powers of pleasing.
- She would not speak to Anne with half the certainty she felt on the subject,
- she would venture on little more than hints of what might be hereafter,
- of a possible attachment on his side, of the desirableness of the alliance,
- supposing such attachment to be real and returned. Anne heard her,
- and made no violent exclamations; she only smiled, blushed,
- and gently shook her head.
-
- "I am no match-maker, as you well know," said Lady Russell,
- "being much too well aware of the uncertainty of all human events
- and calculations. I only mean that if Mr Elliot should some time hence
- pay his addresses to you, and if you should be disposed to accept him,
- I think there would be every possibility of your being happy together.
- A most suitable connection everybody must consider it, but I think
- it might be a very happy one."
-
- "Mr Elliot is an exceedingly agreeable man, and in many respects
- I think highly of him," said Anne; "but we should not suit."
-
- Lady Russell let this pass, and only said in rejoinder, "I own that
- to be able to regard you as the future mistress of Kellynch,
- the future Lady Elliot, to look forward and see you occupying
- your dear mother's place, succeeding to all her rights,
- and all her popularity, as well as to all her virtues, would be
- the highest possible gratification to me. You are your mother's self
- in countenance and disposition; and if I might be allowed to fancy you
- such as she was, in situation and name, and home, presiding and blessing
- in the same spot, and only superior to her in being more highly valued!
- My dearest Anne, it would give me more delight than is often felt
- at my time of life!"
-
- Anne was obliged to turn away, to rise, to walk to a distant table,
- and, leaning there in pretended employment, try to subdue the feelings
- this picture excited. For a few moments her imagination and her heart
- were bewitched. The idea of becoming what her mother had been;
- of having the precious name of "Lady Elliot" first revived in herself;
- of being restored to Kellynch, calling it her home again,
- her home for ever, was a charm which she could not immediately resist.
- Lady Russell said not another word, willing to leave the matter
- to its own operation; and believing that, could Mr Elliot at that moment
- with propriety have spoken for himself!--she believed, in short,
- what Anne did not believe. The same image of Mr Elliot speaking
- for himself brought Anne to composure again. The charm of Kellynch
- and of "Lady Elliot" all faded away. She never could accept him.
- And it was not only that her feelings were still adverse to any man
- save one; her judgement, on a serious consideration of the possibilities
- of such a case was against Mr Elliot.
-
- Though they had now been acquainted a month, she could not be satisfied
- that she really knew his character. That he was a sensible man,
- an agreeable man, that he talked well, professed good opinions,
- seemed to judge properly and as a man of principle, this was all
- clear enough. He certainly knew what was right, nor could she fix
- on any one article of moral duty evidently transgressed; but yet she would
- have been afraid to answer for his conduct. She distrusted the past,
- if not the present. The names which occasionally dropt
- of former associates, the allusions to former practices and pursuits,
- suggested suspicions not favourable of what he had been.
- She saw that there had been bad habits; that Sunday travelling
- had been a common thing; that there had been a period of his life
- (and probably not a short one) when he had been, at least,
- careless in all serious matters; and, though he might now think
- very differently, who could answer for the true sentiments of a clever,
- cautious man, grown old enough to appreciate a fair character?
- How could it ever be ascertained that his mind was truly cleansed?
-
- Mr Elliot was rational, discreet, polished, but he was not open.
- There was never any burst of feeling, any warmth of indignation or delight,
- at the evil or good of others. This, to Anne, was a decided imperfection.
- Her early impressions were incurable. She prized the frank,
- the open-hearted, the eager character beyond all others.
- Warmth and enthusiasm did captivate her still. She felt that she could
- so much more depend upon the sincerity of those who sometimes looked
- or said a careless or a hasty thing, than of those whose presence of mind
- never varied, whose tongue never slipped.
-
- Mr Elliot was too generally agreeable. Various as were the tempers
- in her father's house, he pleased them all. He endured too well,
- stood too well with every body. He had spoken to her with some
- degree of openness of Mrs Clay; had appeared completely to see
- what Mrs Clay was about, and to hold her in contempt; and yet
- Mrs Clay found him as agreeable as any body.
-
- Lady Russell saw either less or more than her young friend,
- for she saw nothing to excite distrust. She could not imagine
- a man more exactly what he ought to be than Mr Elliot; nor did she
- ever enjoy a sweeter feeling than the hope of seeing him receive
- the hand of her beloved Anne in Kellynch church, in the course of
- the following autumn.
-
-
-
- Chapter 18
-
-
- It was the beginning of February; and Anne, having been a month in Bath,
- was growing very eager for news from Uppercross and Lyme.
- She wanted to hear much more than Mary had communicated.
- It was three weeks since she had heard at all. She only knew
- that Henrietta was at home again; and that Louisa, though considered to be
- recovering fast, was still in Lyme; and she was thinking of them all
- very intently one evening, when a thicker letter than usual from Mary
- was delivered to her; and, to quicken the pleasure and surprise,
- with Admiral and Mrs Croft's compliments.
-
- The Crofts must be in Bath! A circumstance to interest her.
- They were people whom her heart turned to very naturally.
-
- "What is this?" cried Sir Walter. "The Crofts have arrived in Bath?
- The Crofts who rent Kellynch? What have they brought you?"
-
- "A letter from Uppercross Cottage, Sir."
-
- "Oh! those letters are convenient passports. They secure an introduction.
- I should have visited Admiral Croft, however, at any rate.
- I know what is due to my tenant."
-
- Anne could listen no longer; she could not even have told how
- the poor Admiral's complexion escaped; her letter engrossed her.
- It had been begun several days back.
-
-
- "February 1st.
-
- "My dear Anne,--I make no apology for my silence, because I know
- how little people think of letters in such a place as Bath.
- You must be a great deal too happy to care for Uppercross, which,
- as you well know, affords little to write about. We have had
- a very dull Christmas; Mr and Mrs Musgrove have not had one dinner party
- all the holidays. I do not reckon the Hayters as anybody.
- The holidays, however, are over at last: I believe no children ever had
- such long ones. I am sure I had not. The house was cleared yesterday,
- except of the little Harvilles; but you will be surprised to hear
- they have never gone home. Mrs Harville must be an odd mother
- to part with them so long. I do not understand it. They are
- not at all nice children, in my opinion; but Mrs Musgrove seems to
- like them quite as well, if not better, than her grandchildren.
- What dreadful weather we have had! It may not be felt in Bath,
- with your nice pavements; but in the country it is of some consequence.
- I have not had a creature call on me since the second week in January,
- except Charles Hayter, who had been calling much oftener than was welcome.
- Between ourselves, I think it a great pity Henrietta did not remain at Lyme
- as long as Louisa; it would have kept her a little out of his way.
- The carriage is gone to-day, to bring Louisa and the Harvilles to-morrow.
- We are not asked to dine with them, however, till the day after,
- Mrs Musgrove is so afraid of her being fatigued by the journey,
- which is not very likely, considering the care that will be taken of her;
- and it would be much more convenient to me to dine there to-morrow.
- I am glad you find Mr Elliot so agreeable, and wish I could be acquainted
- with him too; but I have my usual luck: I am always out of the way
- when any thing desirable is going on; always the last of my family
- to be noticed. What an immense time Mrs Clay has been staying
- with Elizabeth! Does she never mean to go away? But perhaps
- if she were to leave the room vacant, we might not be invited.
- Let me know what you think of this. I do not expect my children
- to be asked, you know. I can leave them at the Great House very well,
- for a month or six weeks. I have this moment heard that the Crofts
- are going to Bath almost immediately; they think the Admiral gouty.
- Charles heard it quite by chance; they have not had the civility
- to give me any notice, or of offering to take anything.
- I do not think they improve at all as neighbours. We see nothing of them,
- and this is really an instance of gross inattention. Charles joins me
- in love, and everything proper. Yours affectionately,
-
- "Mary M---.
-
- "I am sorry to say that I am very far from well; and Jemima has
- just told me that the butcher says there is a bad sore-throat
- very much about. I dare say I shall catch it; and my sore-throats,
- you know, are always worse than anybody's."
-
-
- So ended the first part, which had been afterwards put into an envelope,
- containing nearly as much more.
-
-
- "I kept my letter open, that I might send you word how Louisa
- bore her journey, and now I am extremely glad I did, having a great deal
- to add. In the first place, I had a note from Mrs Croft yesterday,
- offering to convey anything to you; a very kind, friendly note indeed,
- addressed to me, just as it ought; I shall therefore be able to
- make my letter as long as I like. The Admiral does not seem very ill,
- and I sincerely hope Bath will do him all the good he wants.
- I shall be truly glad to have them back again. Our neighbourhood
- cannot spare such a pleasant family. But now for Louisa.
- I have something to communicate that will astonish you not a little.
- She and the Harvilles came on Tuesday very safely, and in the evening
- we went to ask her how she did, when we were rather surprised
- not to find Captain Benwick of the party, for he had been invited
- as well as the Harvilles; and what do you think was the reason?
- Neither more nor less than his being in love with Louisa,
- and not choosing to venture to Uppercross till he had had an answer
- from Mr Musgrove; for it was all settled between him and her
- before she came away, and he had written to her father by Captain Harville.
- True, upon my honour! Are not you astonished? I shall be surprised
- at least if you ever received a hint of it, for I never did.
- Mrs Musgrove protests solemnly that she knew nothing of the matter.
- We are all very well pleased, however, for though it is not equal to her
- marrying Captain Wentworth, it is infinitely better than Charles Hayter;
- and Mr Musgrove has written his consent, and Captain Benwick
- is expected to-day. Mrs Harville says her husband feels a good deal
- on his poor sister's account; but, however, Louisa is a great favourite
- with both. Indeed, Mrs Harville and I quite agree that we love her
- the better for having nursed her. Charles wonders what Captain Wentworth
- will say; but if you remember, I never thought him attached to Louisa;
- I never could see anything of it. And this is the end, you see,
- of Captain Benwick's being supposed to be an admirer of yours.
- How Charles could take such a thing into his head was always
- incomprehensible to me. I hope he will be more agreeable now.
- Certainly not a great match for Louisa Musgrove, but a million times better
- than marrying among the Hayters."
-
-
- Mary need not have feared her sister's being in any degree prepared
- for the news. She had never in her life been more astonished.
- Captain Benwick and Louisa Musgrove! It was almost too wonderful
- for belief, and it was with the greatest effort that she could remain
- in the room, preserve an air of calmness, and answer the common questions
- of the moment. Happily for her, they were not many. Sir Walter
- wanted to know whether the Crofts travelled with four horses,
- and whether they were likely to be situated in such a part of Bath
- as it might suit Miss Elliot and himself to visit in; but had
- little curiosity beyond.
-
- "How is Mary?" said Elizabeth; and without waiting for an answer,
- "And pray what brings the Crofts to Bath?"
-
- "They come on the Admiral's account. He is thought to be gouty."
-
- "Gout and decrepitude!" said Sir Walter. "Poor old gentleman."
-
- "Have they any acquaintance here?" asked Elizabeth.
-
- "I do not know; but I can hardly suppose that, at Admiral Croft's
- time of life, and in his profession, he should not have many acquaintance
- in such a place as this."
-
- "I suspect," said Sir Walter coolly, "that Admiral Croft
- will be best known in Bath as the renter of Kellynch Hall.
- Elizabeth, may we venture to present him and his wife in Laura Place?"
-
- "Oh, no! I think not. Situated as we are with Lady Dalrymple, cousins,
- we ought to be very careful not to embarrass her with acquaintance
- she might not approve. If we were not related, it would not signify;
- but as cousins, she would feel scrupulous as to any proposal of ours.
- We had better leave the Crofts to find their own level.
- There are several odd-looking men walking about here, who,
- I am told, are sailors. The Crofts will associate with them."
-
- This was Sir Walter and Elizabeth's share of interest in the letter;
- when Mrs Clay had paid her tribute of more decent attention,
- in an enquiry after Mrs Charles Musgrove, and her fine little boys,
- Anne was at liberty.
-
- In her own room, she tried to comprehend it. Well might Charles wonder
- how Captain Wentworth would feel! Perhaps he had quitted the field,
- had given Louisa up, had ceased to love, had found he did not love her.
- She could not endure the idea of treachery or levity, or anything
- akin to ill usage between him and his friend. She could not endure
- that such a friendship as theirs should be severed unfairly.
-
- Captain Benwick and Louisa Musgrove! The high-spirited,
- joyous-talking Louisa Musgrove, and the dejected, thinking,
- feeling, reading, Captain Benwick, seemed each of them everything
- that would not suit the other. Their minds most dissimilar!
- Where could have been the attraction? The answer soon presented itself.
- It had been in situation. They had been thrown together several weeks;
- they had been living in the same small family party: since Henrietta's
- coming away, they must have been depending almost entirely on each other,
- and Louisa, just recovering from illness, had been in an interesting state,
- and Captain Benwick was not inconsolable. That was a point which Anne
- had not been able to avoid suspecting before; and instead of drawing
- the same conclusion as Mary, from the present course of events,
- they served only to confirm the idea of his having felt some
- dawning of tenderness toward herself. She did not mean, however,
- to derive much more from it to gratify her vanity, than Mary
- might have allowed. She was persuaded that any tolerably pleasing
- young woman who had listened and seemed to feel for him would have
- received the same compliment. He had an affectionate heart.
- He must love somebody.
-
- She saw no reason against their being happy. Louisa had fine
- naval fervour to begin with, and they would soon grow more alike.
- He would gain cheerfulness, and she would learn to be an enthusiast
- for Scott and Lord Byron; nay, that was probably learnt already;
- of course they had fallen in love over poetry. The idea of
- Louisa Musgrove turned into a person of literary taste,
- and sentimental reflection was amusing, but she had no doubt
- of its being so. The day at Lyme, the fall from the Cobb,
- might influence her health, her nerves, her courage, her character to
- the end of her life, as thoroughly as it appeared to have
- influenced her fate.
-
- The conclusion of the whole was, that if the woman who had been sensible
- of Captain Wentworth's merits could be allowed to prefer another man,
- there was nothing in the engagement to excite lasting wonder;
- and if Captain Wentworth lost no friend by it, certainly nothing
- to be regretted. No, it was not regret which made Anne's heart
- beat in spite of herself, and brought the colour into her cheeks
- when she thought of Captain Wentworth unshackled and free.
- She had some feelings which she was ashamed to investigate.
- They were too much like joy, senseless joy!
-
- She longed to see the Crofts; but when the meeting took place,
- it was evident that no rumour of the news had yet reached them.
- The visit of ceremony was paid and returned; and Louisa Musgrove
- was mentioned, and Captain Benwick, too, without even half a smile.
-
- The Crofts had placed themselves in lodgings in Gay Street,
- perfectly to Sir Walter's satisfaction. He was not at all ashamed
- of the acquaintance, and did, in fact, think and talk a great deal more
- about the Admiral, than the Admiral ever thought or talked about him.
-
- The Crofts knew quite as many people in Bath as they wished for,
- and considered their intercourse with the Elliots as a mere matter of form,
- and not in the least likely to afford them any pleasure.
- They brought with them their country habit of being almost always together.
- He was ordered to walk to keep off the gout, and Mrs Croft
- seemed to go shares with him in everything, and to walk
- for her life to do him good. Anne saw them wherever she went.
- Lady Russell took her out in her carriage almost every morning,
- and she never failed to think of them, and never failed to see them.
- Knowing their feelings as she did, it was a most attractive picture
- of happiness to her. She always watched them as long as she could,
- delighted to fancy she understood what they might be talking of,
- as they walked along in happy independence, or equally delighted
- to see the Admiral's hearty shake of the hand when he encountered
- an old friend, and observe their eagerness of conversation
- when occasionally forming into a little knot of the navy, Mrs Croft
- looking as intelligent and keen as any of the officers around her.
-
- Anne was too much engaged with Lady Russell to be often walking herself;
- but it so happened that one morning, about a week or ten days
- after the Croft's arrival, it suited her best to leave her friend,
- or her friend's carriage, in the lower part of the town,
- and return alone to Camden Place, and in walking up Milsom Street
- she had the good fortune to meet with the Admiral. He was standing
- by himself at a printshop window, with his hands behind him,
- in earnest contemplation of some print, and she not only might have
- passed him unseen, but was obliged to touch as well as address him
- before she could catch his notice. When he did perceive and
- acknowledge her, however, it was done with all his usual frankness
- and good humour. "Ha! is it you? Thank you, thank you.
- This is treating me like a friend. Here I am, you see,
- staring at a picture. I can never get by this shop without stopping.
- But what a thing here is, by way of a boat! Do look at it.
- Did you ever see the like? What queer fellows your fine painters must be,
- to think that anybody would venture their lives in such a shapeless
- old cockleshell as that? And yet here are two gentlemen
- stuck up in it mightily at their ease, and looking about them at the rocks
- and mountains, as if they were not to be upset the next moment,
- which they certainly must be. I wonder where that boat was built!"
- (laughing heartily); "I would not venture over a horsepond in it.
- Well," (turning away), "now, where are you bound? Can I go anywhere
- for you, or with you? Can I be of any use?"
-
- "None, I thank you, unless you will give me the pleasure of your company
- the little way our road lies together. I am going home."
-
-
- "That I will, with all my heart, and farther, too. Yes, yes
- we will have a snug walk together, and I have something to tell you
- as we go along. There, take my arm; that's right; I do not
- feel comfortable if I have not a woman there. Lord! what a boat it is!"
- taking a last look at the picture, as they began to be in motion.
-
- "Did you say that you had something to tell me, sir?"
-
- "Yes, I have, presently. But here comes a friend, Captain Brigden;
- I shall only say, `How d'ye do?' as we pass, however. I shall not stop.
- `How d'ye do?' Brigden stares to see anybody with me but my wife.
- She, poor soul, is tied by the leg. She has a blister on one of her heels,
- as large as a three-shilling piece. If you look across the street,
- you will see Admiral Brand coming down and his brother. Shabby fellows,
- both of them! I am glad they are not on this side of the way.
- Sophy cannot bear them. They played me a pitiful trick once:
- got away with some of my best men. I will tell you the whole story
- another time. There comes old Sir Archibald Drew and his grandson.
- Look, he sees us; he kisses his hand to you; he takes you for my wife.
- Ah! the peace has come too soon for that younker. Poor old Sir Archibald!
- How do you like Bath, Miss Elliot? It suits us very well.
- We are always meeting with some old friend or other; the streets
- full of them every morning; sure to have plenty of chat;
- and then we get away from them all, and shut ourselves in our lodgings,
- and draw in our chairs, and are snug as if we were at Kellynch,
- ay, or as we used to be even at North Yarmouth and Deal.
- We do not like our lodgings here the worse, I can tell you,
- for putting us in mind of those we first had at North Yarmouth.
- The wind blows through one of the cupboards just in the same way."
-
- When they were got a little farther, Anne ventured to press again
- for what he had to communicate. She hoped when clear of Milsom Street
- to have her curiosity gratified; but she was still obliged to wait,
- for the Admiral had made up his mind not to begin till they had
- gained the greater space and quiet of Belmont; and as she was
- not really Mrs Croft, she must let him have his own way.
- As soon as they were fairly ascending Belmont, he began--
-
- "Well, now you shall hear something that will surprise you.
- But first of all, you must tell me the name of the young lady
- I am going to talk about. That young lady, you know, that we have
- all been so concerned for. The Miss Musgrove, that all this has been
- happening to. Her Christian name: I always forget her Christian name."
-
- Anne had been ashamed to appear to comprehend so soon as she really
- did; but now she could safely suggest the name of "Louisa."
-
- "Ay, ay, Miss Louisa Musgrove, that is the name. I wish young ladies
- had not such a number of fine Christian names. I should never be out
- if they were all Sophys, or something of that sort. Well,
- this Miss Louisa, we all thought, you know, was to marry Frederick.
- He was courting her week after week. The only wonder was,
- what they could be waiting for, till the business at Lyme came;
- then, indeed, it was clear enough that they must wait till her brain
- was set to right. But even then there was something odd in their
- way of going on. Instead of staying at Lyme, he went off to Plymouth,
- and then he went off to see Edward. When we came back from Minehead
- he was gone down to Edward's, and there he has been ever since.
- We have seen nothing of him since November. Even Sophy could
- not understand it. But now, the matter has take the strangest turn of all;
- for this young lady, the same Miss Musgrove, instead of being
- to marry Frederick, is to marry James Benwick. You know James Benwick."
-
- "A little. I am a little acquainted with Captain Benwick."
-
- "Well, she is to marry him. Nay, most likely they are married already,
- for I do not know what they should wait for."
-
- "I thought Captain Benwick a very pleasing young man," said Anne,
- "and I understand that he bears an excellent character."
-
- "Oh! yes, yes, there is not a word to be said against James Benwick.
- He is only a commander, it is true, made last summer, and these are
- bad times for getting on, but he has not another fault that I know of.
- An excellent, good-hearted fellow, I assure you; a very active,
- zealous officer too, which is more than you would think for, perhaps,
- for that soft sort of manner does not do him justice."
-
- "Indeed you are mistaken there, sir; I should never augur want of spirit
- from Captain Benwick's manners. I thought them particularly pleasing,
- and I will answer for it, they would generally please."
-
- "Well, well, ladies are the best judges; but James Benwick is rather too
- piano for me; and though very likely it is all our partiality,
- Sophy and I cannot help thinking Frederick's manners better than his.
- There is something about Frederick more to our taste."
-
- Anne was caught. She had only meant to oppose the too common idea
- of spirit and gentleness being incompatible with each other,
- not at all to represent Captain Benwick's manners as the very best
- that could possibly be; and, after a little hesitation,
- she was beginning to say, "I was not entering into any comparison
- of the two friends," but the Admiral interrupted her with--
-
- "And the thing is certainly true. It is not a mere bit of gossip.
- We have it from Frederick himself. His sister had a letter
- from him yesterday, in which he tells us of it, and he had just had it
- in a letter from Harville, written upon the spot, from Uppercross.
- I fancy they are all at Uppercross."
-
- This was an opportunity which Anne could not resist; she said, therefore,
- "I hope, Admiral, I hope there is nothing in the style of Captain
- Wentworth's letter to make you and Mrs Croft particularly uneasy.
- It did seem, last autumn, as if there were an attachment between him
- and Louisa Musgrove; but I hope it may be understood to have worn out
- on each side equally, and without violence. I hope his letter
- does not breathe the spirit of an ill-used man."
-
- "Not at all, not at all; there is not an oath or a murmur
- from beginning to end."
-
- Anne looked down to hide her smile.
-
- "No, no; Frederick is not a man to whine and complain; he has
- too much spirit for that. If the girl likes another man better,
- it is very fit she should have him."
-
- "Certainly. But what I mean is, that I hope there is nothing
- in Captain Wentworth's manner of writing to make you suppose
- he thinks himself ill-used by his friend, which might appear,
- you know, without its being absolutely said. I should be very sorry
- that such a friendship as has subsisted between him and Captain Benwick
- should be destroyed, or even wounded, by a circumstance of this sort."
-
- "Yes, yes, I understand you. But there is nothing at all of that nature
- in the letter. He does not give the least fling at Benwick;
- does not so much as say, `I wonder at it, I have a reason of my own
- for wondering at it.' No, you would not guess, from his way of writing,
- that he had ever thought of this Miss (what's her name?) for himself.
- He very handsomely hopes they will be happy together; and there is
- nothing very unforgiving in that, I think."
-
- Anne did not receive the perfect conviction which the Admiral meant
- to convey, but it would have been useless to press the enquiry farther.
- She therefore satisfied herself with common-place remarks or quiet
- attention, and the Admiral had it all his own way.
-
- "Poor Frederick!" said he at last. "Now he must begin all over again
- with somebody else. I think we must get him to Bath. Sophy must write,
- and beg him to come to Bath. Here are pretty girls enough, I am sure.
- It would be of no use to go to Uppercross again, for that other
- Miss Musgrove, I find, is bespoke by her cousin, the young parson.
- Do not you think, Miss Elliot, we had better try to get him to Bath?"
-
-
-
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-
-
- While Admiral Croft was taking this walk with Anne, and expressing
- his wish of getting Captain Wentworth to Bath, Captain Wentworth
- was already on his way thither. Before Mrs Croft had written,
- he was arrived, and the very next time Anne walked out, she saw him.
-
- Mr Elliot was attending his two cousins and Mrs Clay. They were
- in Milsom Street. It began to rain, not much, but enough to
- make shelter desirable for women, and quite enough to make it
- very desirable for Miss Elliot to have the advantage of being
- conveyed home in Lady Dalrymple's carriage, which was seen waiting
- at a little distance; she, Anne, and Mrs Clay, therefore,
- turned into Molland's, while Mr Elliot stepped to Lady Dalrymple,
- to request her assistance. He soon joined them again, successful,
- of course; Lady Dalrymple would be most happy to take them home,
- and would call for them in a few minutes.
-
- Her ladyship's carriage was a barouche, and did not hold
- more than four with any comfort. Miss Carteret was with her mother;
- consequently it was not reasonable to expect accommodation
- for all the three Camden Place ladies. There could be no doubt
- as to Miss Elliot. Whoever suffered inconvenience, she must suffer none,
- but it occupied a little time to settle the point of civility
- between the other two. The rain was a mere trifle, and Anne was
- most sincere in preferring a walk with Mr Elliot. But the rain was also
- a mere trifle to Mrs Clay; she would hardly allow it even to drop at all,
- and her boots were so thick! much thicker than Miss Anne's;
- and, in short, her civility rendered her quite as anxious to be left
- to walk with Mr Elliot as Anne could be, and it was discussed between them
- with a generosity so polite and so determined, that the others were
- obliged to settle it for them; Miss Elliot maintaining that Mrs Clay
- had a little cold already, and Mr Elliot deciding on appeal,
- that his cousin Anne's boots were rather the thickest.
-
- It was fixed accordingly, that Mrs Clay should be of the party
- in the carriage; and they had just reached this point, when Anne,
- as she sat near the window, descried, most decidedly and distinctly,
- Captain Wentworth walking down the street.
-
- Her start was perceptible only to herself; but she instantly felt that
- she was the greatest simpleton in the world, the most unaccountable
- and absurd! For a few minutes she saw nothing before her;
- it was all confusion. She was lost, and when she had scolded
- back her senses, she found the others still waiting for the carriage,
- and Mr Elliot (always obliging) just setting off for Union Street
- on a commission of Mrs Clay's.
-
- She now felt a great inclination to go to the outer door;
- she wanted to see if it rained. Why was she to suspect herself
- of another motive? Captain Wentworth must be out of sight.
- She left her seat, she would go; one half of her should not be always
- so much wiser than the other half, or always suspecting the other
- of being worse than it was. She would see if it rained.
- She was sent back, however, in a moment by the entrance of
- Captain Wentworth himself, among a party of gentlemen and ladies,
- evidently his acquaintance, and whom he must have joined
- a little below Milsom Street. He was more obviously struck
- and confused by the sight of her than she had ever observed before;
- he looked quite red. For the first time, since their renewed acquaintance,
- she felt that she was betraying the least sensibility of the two.
- She had the advantage of him in the preparation of the last few moments.
- All the overpowering, blinding, bewildering, first effects
- of strong surprise were over with her. Still, however,
- she had enough to feel! It was agitation, pain, pleasure,
- a something between delight and misery.
-
- He spoke to her, and then turned away. The character of his manner
- was embarrassment. She could not have called it either cold or friendly,
- or anything so certainly as embarrassed.
-
- After a short interval, however, he came towards her, and spoke again.
- Mutual enquiries on common subjects passed: neither of them, probably,
- much the wiser for what they heard, and Anne continuing fully sensible
- of his being less at ease than formerly. They had by dint of being
- so very much together, got to speak to each other with a considerable
- portion of apparent indifference and calmness; but he could not do it now.
- Time had changed him, or Louisa had changed him. There was consciousness
- of some sort or other. He looked very well, not as if he had been
- suffering in health or spirits, and he talked of Uppercross,
- of the Musgroves, nay, even of Louisa, and had even a momentary look
- of his own arch significance as he named her; but yet it was
- Captain Wentworth not comfortable, not easy, not able to feign that he was.
-
- It did not surprise, but it grieved Anne to observe that Elizabeth
- would not know him. She saw that he saw Elizabeth, that Elizabeth saw him,
- that there was complete internal recognition on each side;
- she was convinced that he was ready to be acknowledged as an acquaintance,
- expecting it, and she had the pain of seeing her sister turn away
- with unalterable coldness.
-
- Lady Dalrymple's carriage, for which Miss Elliot was growing
- very impatient, now drew up; the servant came in to announce it.
- It was beginning to rain again, and altogether there was a delay,
- and a bustle, and a talking, which must make all the little crowd
- in the shop understand that Lady Dalrymple was calling to convey
- Miss Elliot. At last Miss Elliot and her friend, unattended but
- by the servant, (for there was no cousin returned), were walking off;
- and Captain Wentworth, watching them, turned again to Anne,
- and by manner, rather than words, was offering his services to her.
-
- "I am much obliged to you," was her answer, "but I am not going with them.
- The carriage would not accommodate so many. I walk: I prefer walking."
-
- "But it rains."
-
- "Oh! very little, Nothing that I regard."
-
- After a moment's pause he said: "Though I came only yesterday,
- I have equipped myself properly for Bath already, you see,"
- (pointing to a new umbrella); "I wish you would make use of it,
- if you are determined to walk; though I think it would be more prudent
- to let me get you a chair."
-
- She was very much obliged to him, but declined it all, repeating
- her conviction, that the rain would come to nothing at present,
- and adding, "I am only waiting for Mr Elliot. He will be here in a moment,
- I am sure."
-
- She had hardly spoken the words when Mr Elliot walked in.
- Captain Wentworth recollected him perfectly. There was no difference
- between him and the man who had stood on the steps at Lyme,
- admiring Anne as she passed, except in the air and look and manner
- of the privileged relation and friend. He came in with eagerness,
- appeared to see and think only of her, apologised for his stay,
- was grieved to have kept her waiting, and anxious to get her away
- without further loss of time and before the rain increased;
- and in another moment they walked off together, her arm under his,
- a gentle and embarrassed glance, and a "Good morning to you!"
- being all that she had time for, as she passed away.
-
- As soon as they were out of sight, the ladies of Captain Wentworth's party
- began talking of them.
-
- "Mr Elliot does not dislike his cousin, I fancy?"
-
- "Oh! no, that is clear enough. One can guess what will happen there.
- He is always with them; half lives in the family, I believe.
- What a very good-looking man!"
-
- "Yes, and Miss Atkinson, who dined with him once at the Wallises,
- says he is the most agreeable man she ever was in company with."
-
- "She is pretty, I think; Anne Elliot; very pretty, when one comes
- to look at her. It is not the fashion to say so, but I confess
- I admire her more than her sister."
-
- "Oh! so do I."
-
- "And so do I. No comparison. But the men are all wild after Miss Elliot.
- Anne is too delicate for them."
-
- Anne would have been particularly obliged to her cousin, if he would have
- walked by her side all the way to Camden Place, without saying a word.
- She had never found it so difficult to listen to him, though nothing
- could exceed his solicitude and care, and though his subjects
- were principally such as were wont to be always interesting:
- praise, warm, just, and discriminating, of Lady Russell,
- and insinuations highly rational against Mrs Clay. But just now
- she could think only of Captain Wentworth. She could not understand
- his present feelings, whether he were really suffering much
- from disappointment or not; and till that point were settled,
- she could not be quite herself.
-
- She hoped to be wise and reasonable in time; but alas! alas!
- she must confess to herself that she was not wise yet.
-
- Another circumstance very essential for her to know, was how long
- he meant to be in Bath; he had not mentioned it, or she could not
- recollect it. He might be only passing through. But it was more probable
- that he should be come to stay. In that case, so liable as every body was
- to meet every body in Bath, Lady Russell would in all likelihood
- see him somewhere. Would she recollect him? How would it all be?
-
- She had already been obliged to tell Lady Russell that Louisa Musgrove
- was to marry Captain Benwick. It had cost her something to encounter
- Lady Russell's surprise; and now, if she were by any chance
- to be thrown into company with Captain Wentworth, her imperfect knowledge
- of the matter might add another shade of prejudice against him.
-
- The following morning Anne was out with her friend, and for the first hour,
- in an incessant and fearful sort of watch for him in vain; but at last,
- in returning down Pulteney Street, she distinguished him
- on the right hand pavement at such a distance as to have him in view
- the greater part of the street. There were many other men about him,
- many groups walking the same way, but there was no mistaking him.
- She looked instinctively at Lady Russell; but not from any mad idea
- of her recognising him so soon as she did herself. No, it was
- not to be supposed that Lady Russell would perceive him till they
- were nearly opposite. She looked at her however, from time to time,
- anxiously; and when the moment approached which must point him out,
- though not daring to look again (for her own countenance she knew
- was unfit to be seen), she was yet perfectly conscious of
- Lady Russell's eyes being turned exactly in the direction for him--
- of her being, in short, intently observing him. She could thoroughly
- comprehend the sort of fascination he must possess over Lady Russell's mind,
- the difficulty it must be for her to withdraw her eyes, the astonishment
- she must be feeling that eight or nine years should have passed over him,
- and in foreign climes and in active service too, without robbing him
- of one personal grace!
-
- At last, Lady Russell drew back her head. "Now, how would she
- speak of him?"
-
- "You will wonder," said she, "what has been fixing my eye so long;
- but I was looking after some window-curtains, which Lady Alicia and
- Mrs Frankland were telling me of last night. They described
- the drawing-room window-curtains of one of the houses on this
- side of the way, and this part of the street, as being the handsomest
- and best hung of any in Bath, but could not recollect the exact number,
- and I have been trying to find out which it could be; but I confess
- I can see no curtains hereabouts that answer their description."
-
- Anne sighed and blushed and smiled, in pity and disdain,
- either at her friend or herself. The part which provoked her most,
- was that in all this waste of foresight and caution, she should have
- lost the right moment for seeing whether he saw them.
-
- A day or two passed without producing anything. The theatre or the rooms,
- where he was most likely to be, were not fashionable enough
- for the Elliots, whose evening amusements were solely in the
- elegant stupidity of private parties, in which they were getting
- more and more engaged; and Anne, wearied of such a state of stagnation,
- sick of knowing nothing, and fancying herself stronger because
- her strength was not tried, was quite impatient for the concert evening.
- It was a concert for the benefit of a person patronised by Lady Dalrymple.
- Of course they must attend. It was really expected to be a good one,
- and Captain Wentworth was very fond of music. If she could only have
- a few minutes conversation with him again, she fancied she should
- be satisfied; and as to the power of addressing him, she felt all over
- courage if the opportunity occurred. Elizabeth had turned from him,
- Lady Russell overlooked him; her nerves were strengthened
- by these circumstances; she felt that she owed him attention.
-
- She had once partly promised Mrs Smith to spend the evening with her;
- but in a short hurried call she excused herself and put it off,
- with the more decided promise of a longer visit on the morrow.
- Mrs Smith gave a most good-humoured acquiescence.
-
- "By all means," said she; "only tell me all about it, when you do come.
- Who is your party?"
-
- Anne named them all. Mrs Smith made no reply; but when she was
- leaving her said, and with an expression half serious, half arch,
- "Well, I heartily wish your concert may answer; and do not fail me
- to-morrow if you can come; for I begin to have a foreboding
- that I may not have many more visits from you."
-
- Anne was startled and confused; but after standing in a moment's suspense,
- was obliged, and not sorry to be obliged, to hurry away.
-
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-
-
- Sir Walter, his two daughters, and Mrs Clay, were the earliest
- of all their party at the rooms in the evening; and as Lady Dalrymple
- must be waited for, they took their station by one of the fires
- in the Octagon Room. But hardly were they so settled, when the door
- opened again, and Captain Wentworth walked in alone. Anne was
- the nearest to him, and making yet a little advance, she instantly spoke.
- He was preparing only to bow and pass on, but her gentle "How do you do?"
- brought him out of the straight line to stand near her, and make enquiries
- in return, in spite of the formidable father and sister in the back ground.
- Their being in the back ground was a support to Anne; she knew nothing
- of their looks, and felt equal to everything which she believed
- right to be done.
-
- While they were speaking, a whispering between her father and Elizabeth
- caught her ear. She could not distinguish, but she must guess the subject;
- and on Captain Wentworth's making a distant bow, she comprehended
- that her father had judged so well as to give him that
- simple acknowledgement of acquaintance, and she was just in time
- by a side glance to see a slight curtsey from Elizabeth herself.
- This, though late, and reluctant, and ungracious, was yet
- better than nothing, and her spirits improved.
-
- After talking, however, of the weather, and Bath, and the concert,
- their conversation began to flag, and so little was said at last,
- that she was expecting him to go every moment, but he did not;
- he seemed in no hurry to leave her; and presently with renewed spirit,
- with a little smile, a little glow, he said--
-
- "I have hardly seen you since our day at Lyme. I am afraid you must have
- suffered from the shock, and the more from its not overpowering you
- at the time."
-
- She assured him that she had not.
-
- "It was a frightful hour," said he, "a frightful day!" and he
- passed his hand across his eyes, as if the remembrance were still
- too painful, but in a moment, half smiling again, added,
- "The day has produced some effects however; has had some consequences
- which must be considered as the very reverse of frightful.
- When you had the presence of mind to suggest that Benwick would be
- the properest person to fetch a surgeon, you could have little idea
- of his being eventually one of those most concerned in her recovery."
-
- "Certainly I could have none. But it appears--I should hope it would be
- a very happy match. There are on both sides good principles
- and good temper."
-
- "Yes," said he, looking not exactly forward; "but there, I think,
- ends the resemblance. With all my soul I wish them happy, and rejoice
- over every circumstance in favour of it. They have no difficulties
- to contend with at home, no opposition, no caprice, no delays.
- The Musgroves are behaving like themselves, most honourably and kindly,
- only anxious with true parental hearts to promote their daughter's comfort.
- All this is much, very much in favour of their happiness;
- more than perhaps--"
-
- He stopped. A sudden recollection seemed to occur, and to give him
- some taste of that emotion which was reddening Anne's cheeks
- and fixing her eyes on the ground. After clearing his throat, however,
- he proceeded thus--
-
- "I confess that I do think there is a disparity, too great a disparity,
- and in a point no less essential than mind. I regard Louisa Musgrove
- as a very amiable, sweet-tempered girl, and not deficient in understanding,
- but Benwick is something more. He is a clever man, a reading man;
- and I confess, that I do consider his attaching himself to her
- with some surprise. Had it been the effect of gratitude,
- had he learnt to love her, because he believed her to be preferring him,
- it would have been another thing. But I have no reason to suppose it so.
- It seems, on the contrary, to have been a perfectly spontaneous,
- untaught feeling on his side, and this surprises me. A man like him,
- in his situation! with a heart pierced, wounded, almost broken!
- Fanny Harville was a very superior creature, and his attachment to her
- was indeed attachment. A man does not recover from such
- a devotion of the heart to such a woman. He ought not; he does not."
-
- Either from the consciousness, however, that his friend had recovered,
- or from other consciousness, he went no farther; and Anne who,
- in spite of the agitated voice in which the latter part had been uttered,
- and in spite of all the various noises of the room, the almost ceaseless
- slam of the door, and ceaseless buzz of persons walking through,
- had distinguished every word, was struck, gratified, confused,
- and beginning to breathe very quick, and feel an hundred things
- in a moment. It was impossible for her to enter on such a subject;
- and yet, after a pause, feeling the necessity of speaking,
- and having not the smallest wish for a total change, she only deviated
- so far as to say--
-
- "You were a good while at Lyme, I think?"
-
- "About a fortnight. I could not leave it till Louisa's doing well
- was quite ascertained. I had been too deeply concerned in the mischief
- to be soon at peace. It had been my doing, solely mine.
- She would not have been obstinate if I had not been weak.
- The country round Lyme is very fine. I walked and rode a great deal;
- and the more I saw, the more I found to admire."
-
- "I should very much like to see Lyme again," said Anne.
-
- "Indeed! I should not have supposed that you could have found
- anything in Lyme to inspire such a feeling. The horror and distress
- you were involved in, the stretch of mind, the wear of spirits!
- I should have thought your last impressions of Lyme must have been
- strong disgust."
-
- "The last hours were certainly very painful," replied Anne;
- "but when pain is over, the remembrance of it often becomes a pleasure.
- One does not love a place the less for having suffered in it,
- unless it has been all suffering, nothing but suffering, which was
- by no means the case at Lyme. We were only in anxiety and distress
- during the last two hours, and previously there had been a great deal
- of enjoyment. So much novelty and beauty! I have travelled so little,
- that every fresh place would be interesting to me; but there is real beauty
- at Lyme; and in short" (with a faint blush at some recollections),
- "altogether my impressions of the place are very agreeable."
-
- As she ceased, the entrance door opened again, and the very party appeared
- for whom they were waiting. "Lady Dalrymple, Lady Dalrymple,"
- was the rejoicing sound; and with all the eagerness compatible
- with anxious elegance, Sir Walter and his two ladies stepped forward
- to meet her. Lady Dalrymple and Miss Carteret, escorted by Mr Elliot
- and Colonel Wallis, who had happened to arrive nearly at the same instant,
- advanced into the room. The others joined them, and it was
- a group in which Anne found herself also necessarily included.
- She was divided from Captain Wentworth. Their interesting,
- almost too interesting conversation must be broken up for a time,
- but slight was the penance compared with the happiness which brought it on!
- She had learnt, in the last ten minutes, more of his feelings
- towards Louisa, more of all his feelings than she dared to think of;
- and she gave herself up to the demands of the party, to the needful
- civilities of the moment, with exquisite, though agitated sensations.
- She was in good humour with all. She had received ideas which
- disposed her to be courteous and kind to all, and to pity every one,
- as being less happy than herself.
-
- The delightful emotions were a little subdued, when on stepping back
- from the group, to be joined again by Captain Wentworth, she saw
- that he was gone. She was just in time to see him turn into
- the Concert Room. He was gone; he had disappeared, she felt
- a moment's regret. But "they should meet again. He would look for her,
- he would find her out before the evening were over, and at present,
- perhaps, it was as well to be asunder. She was in need of
- a little interval for recollection."
-
- Upon Lady Russell's appearance soon afterwards, the whole party
- was collected, and all that remained was to marshal themselves,
- and proceed into the Concert Room; and be of all the consequence
- in their power, draw as many eyes, excite as many whispers,
- and disturb as many people as they could.
-
- Very, very happy were both Elizabeth and Anne Elliot as they walked in.
- Elizabeth arm in arm with Miss Carteret, and looking on the broad back
- of the dowager Viscountess Dalrymple before her, had nothing to wish for
- which did not seem within her reach; and Anne--but it would be
- an insult to the nature of Anne's felicity, to draw any comparison
- between it and her sister's; the origin of one all selfish vanity,
- of the other all generous attachment.
-
- Anne saw nothing, thought nothing of the brilliancy of the room.
- Her happiness was from within. Her eyes were bright and her cheeks glowed;
- but she knew nothing about it. She was thinking only of
- the last half hour, and as they passed to their seats, her mind took
- a hasty range over it. His choice of subjects, his expressions,
- and still more his manner and look, had been such as she could see
- in only one light. His opinion of Louisa Musgrove's inferiority,
- an opinion which he had seemed solicitous to give, his wonder
- at Captain Benwick, his feelings as to a first, strong attachment;
- sentences begun which he could not finish, his half averted eyes
- and more than half expressive glance, all, all declared that he had
- a heart returning to her at least; that anger, resentment, avoidance,
- were no more; and that they were succeeded, not merely by friendship
- and regard, but by the tenderness of the past. Yes, some share of
- the tenderness of the past. She could not contemplate the change
- as implying less. He must love her.
-
- These were thoughts, with their attendant visions, which occupied
- and flurried her too much to leave her any power of observation;
- and she passed along the room without having a glimpse of him,
- without even trying to discern him. When their places were determined on,
- and they were all properly arranged, she looked round to see
- if he should happen to be in the same part of the room, but he was not;
- her eye could not reach him; and the concert being just opening,
- she must consent for a time to be happy in a humbler way.
-
- The party was divided and disposed of on two contiguous benches:
- Anne was among those on the foremost, and Mr Elliot had manoeuvred so well,
- with the assistance of his friend Colonel Wallis, as to have a seat by her.
- Miss Elliot, surrounded by her cousins, and the principal object
- of Colonel Wallis's gallantry, was quite contented.
-
- Anne's mind was in a most favourable state for the entertainment
- of the evening; it was just occupation enough: she had feelings for
- the tender, spirits for the gay, attention for the scientific,
- and patience for the wearisome; and had never liked a concert better,
- at least during the first act. Towards the close of it,
- in the interval succeeding an Italian song, she explained
- the words of the song to Mr Elliot. They had a concert bill between them.
-
- "This," said she, "is nearly the sense, or rather the meaning of the words,
- for certainly the sense of an Italian love-song must not be talked of,
- but it is as nearly the meaning as I can give; for I do not pretend
- to understand the language. I am a very poor Italian scholar."
-
- "Yes, yes, I see you are. I see you know nothing of the matter.
- You have only knowledge enough of the language to translate at sight
- these inverted, transposed, curtailed Italian lines, into clear,
- comprehensible, elegant English. You need not say anything more
- of your ignorance. Here is complete proof."
-
- "I will not oppose such kind politeness; but I should be sorry to be
- examined by a real proficient."
-
- "I have not had the pleasure of visiting in Camden Place so long,"
- replied he, "without knowing something of Miss Anne Elliot;
- and I do regard her as one who is too modest for the world in general
- to be aware of half her accomplishments, and too highly accomplished
- for modesty to be natural in any other woman."
-
- "For shame! for shame! this is too much flattery. I forget what we are
- to have next," turning to the bill.
-
- "Perhaps," said Mr Elliot, speaking low, "I have had a longer acquaintance
- with your character than you are aware of."
-
- "Indeed! How so? You can have been acquainted with it only since
- I came to Bath, excepting as you might hear me previously spoken of
- in my own family."
-
- "I knew you by report long before you came to Bath. I had heard you
- described by those who knew you intimately. I have been acquainted
- with you by character many years. Your person, your disposition,
- accomplishments, manner; they were all present to me."
-
- Mr Elliot was not disappointed in the interest he hoped to raise.
- No one can withstand the charm of such a mystery. To have been
- described long ago to a recent acquaintance, by nameless people,
- is irresistible; and Anne was all curiosity. She wondered,
- and questioned him eagerly; but in vain. He delighted in being asked,
- but he would not tell.
-
- "No, no, some time or other, perhaps, but not now. He would mention
- no names now; but such, he could assure her, had been the fact.
- He had many years ago received such a description of Miss Anne Elliot
- as had inspired him with the highest idea of her merit, and excited
- the warmest curiosity to know her."
-
- Anne could think of no one so likely to have spoken with
- partiality of her many years ago as the Mr Wentworth of Monkford,
- Captain Wentworth's brother. He might have been in Mr Elliot's company,
- but she had not courage to ask the question.
-
- "The name of Anne Elliot," said he, "has long had an interesting sound to me.
- Very long has it possessed a charm over my fancy; and, if I dared,
- I would breathe my wishes that the name might never change."
-
- Such, she believed, were his words; but scarcely had she
- received their sound, than her attention was caught by other sounds
- immediately behind her, which rendered every thing else trivial.
- Her father and Lady Dalrymple were speaking.
-
- "A well-looking man," said Sir Walter, "a very well-looking man."
-
- "A very fine young man indeed!" said Lady Dalrymple. "More air
- than one often sees in Bath. Irish, I dare say."
-
- "No, I just know his name. A bowing acquaintance. Wentworth;
- Captain Wentworth of the navy. His sister married my tenant
- in Somersetshire, the Croft, who rents Kellynch."
-
- Before Sir Walter had reached this point, Anne's eyes had caught
- the right direction, and distinguished Captain Wentworth standing
- among a cluster of men at a little distance. As her eyes fell on him,
- his seemed to be withdrawn from her. It had that appearance.
- It seemed as if she had been one moment too late; and as long as she
- dared observe, he did not look again: but the performance
- was recommencing, and she was forced to seem to restore her attention
- to the orchestra and look straight forward.
-
- When she could give another glance, he had moved away. He could not have
- come nearer to her if he would; she was so surrounded and shut in:
- but she would rather have caught his eye.
-
- Mr Elliot's speech, too, distressed her. She had no longer
- any inclination to talk to him. She wished him not so near her.
-
- The first act was over. Now she hoped for some beneficial change;
- and, after a period of nothing-saying amongst the party, some of them
- did decide on going in quest of tea. Anne was one of the few who
- did not choose to move. She remained in her seat, and so did Lady Russell;
- but she had the pleasure of getting rid of Mr Elliot; and she did not mean,
- whatever she might feel on Lady Russell's account, to shrink from
- conversation with Captain Wentworth, if he gave her the opportunity.
- She was persuaded by Lady Russell's countenance that she had seen him.
-
- He did not come however. Anne sometimes fancied she discerned him
- at a distance, but he never came. The anxious interval
- wore away unproductively. The others returned, the room filled again,
- benches were reclaimed and repossessed, and another hour of pleasure
- or of penance was to be sat out, another hour of music was to give
- delight or the gapes, as real or affected taste for it prevailed.
- To Anne, it chiefly wore the prospect of an hour of agitation.
- She could not quit that room in peace without seeing Captain Wentworth
- once more, without the interchange of one friendly look.
-
- In re-settling themselves there were now many changes, the result of which
- was favourable for her. Colonel Wallis declined sitting down again,
- and Mr Elliot was invited by Elizabeth and Miss Carteret, in a manner
- not to be refused, to sit between them; and by some other removals,
- and a little scheming of her own, Anne was enabled to place herself
- much nearer the end of the bench than she had been before,
- much more within reach of a passer-by. She could not do so,
- without comparing herself with Miss Larolles, the inimitable Miss Larolles;
- but still she did it, and not with much happier effect;
- though by what seemed prosperity in the shape of an early abdication
- in her next neighbours, she found herself at the very end of the bench
- before the concert closed.
-
- Such was her situation, with a vacant space at hand, when Captain Wentworth
- was again in sight. She saw him not far off. He saw her too;
- yet he looked grave, and seemed irresolute, and only by very slow degrees
- came at last near enough to speak to her. She felt that something
- must be the matter. The change was indubitable. The difference
- between his present air and what it had been in the Octagon Room
- was strikingly great. Why was it? She thought of her father,
- of Lady Russell. Could there have been any unpleasant glances?
- He began by speaking of the concert gravely, more like the Captain
- Wentworth of Uppercross; owned himself disappointed, had expected singing;
- and in short, must confess that he should not be sorry when it was over.
- Anne replied, and spoke in defense of the performance so well,
- and yet in allowance for his feelings so pleasantly, that his countenance
- improved, and he replied again with almost a smile. They talked
- for a few minutes more; the improvement held; he even looked down
- towards the bench, as if he saw a place on it well worth occupying;
- when at that moment a touch on her shoulder obliged Anne to turn round.
- It came from Mr Elliot. He begged her pardon, but she must be applied to,
- to explain Italian again. Miss Carteret was very anxious to have
- a general idea of what was next to be sung. Anne could not refuse;
- but never had she sacrificed to politeness with a more suffering spirit.
-
- A few minutes, though as few as possible, were inevitably consumed;
- and when her own mistress again, when able to turn and look
- as she had done before, she found herself accosted by Captain Wentworth,
- in a reserved yet hurried sort of farewell. "He must wish her good night;
- he was going; he should get home as fast as he could."
-
- "Is not this song worth staying for?" said Anne, suddenly struck
- by an idea which made her yet more anxious to be encouraging.
-
- "No!" he replied impressively, "there is nothing worth my staying for;"
- and he was gone directly.
-
- Jealousy of Mr Elliot! It was the only intelligible motive.
- Captain Wentworth jealous of her affection! Could she have believed it
- a week ago; three hours ago! For a moment the gratification was exquisite.
- But, alas! there were very different thoughts to succeed.
- How was such jealousy to be quieted? How was the truth to reach him?
- How, in all the peculiar disadvantages of their respective situations,
- would he ever learn of her real sentiments? It was misery to think
- of Mr Elliot's attentions. Their evil was incalculable.
-
-
-
- Chapter 21
-
-
- Anne recollected with pleasure the next morning her promise
- of going to Mrs Smith, meaning that it should engage her from home
- at the time when Mr Elliot would be most likely to call; for to avoid
- Mr Elliot was almost a first object.
-
- She felt a great deal of good-will towards him. In spite of
- the mischief of his attentions, she owed him gratitude and regard,
- perhaps compassion. She could not help thinking much of the extraordinary
- circumstances attending their acquaintance, of the right which
- he seemed to have to interest her, by everything in situation,
- by his own sentiments, by his early prepossession. It was altogether
- very extraordinary; flattering, but painful. There was much to regret.
- How she might have felt had there been no Captain Wentworth in the case,
- was not worth enquiry; for there was a Captain Wentworth;
- and be the conclusion of the present suspense good or bad,
- her affection would be his for ever. Their union, she believed,
- could not divide her more from other men, than their final separation.
-
- Prettier musings of high-wrought love and eternal constancy,
- could never have passed along the streets of Bath, than Anne
- was sporting with from Camden Place to Westgate Buildings.
- It was almost enough to spread purification and perfume all the way.
-
- She was sure of a pleasant reception; and her friend seemed this morning
- particularly obliged to her for coming, seemed hardly to have expected her,
- though it had been an appointment.
-
- An account of the concert was immediately claimed; and Anne's recollections
- of the concert were quite happy enough to animate her features
- and make her rejoice to talk of it. All that she could tell
- she told most gladly, but the all was little for one who had been there,
- and unsatisfactory for such an enquirer as Mrs Smith, who had
- already heard, through the short cut of a laundress and a waiter,
- rather more of the general success and produce of the evening
- than Anne could relate, and who now asked in vain for several particulars
- of the company. Everybody of any consequence or notoriety in Bath
- was well know by name to Mrs Smith.
-
- "The little Durands were there, I conclude," said she, "with their mouths
- open to catch the music, like unfledged sparrows ready to be fed.
- They never miss a concert."
-
- "Yes; I did not see them myself, but I heard Mr Elliot say they were
- in the room."
-
- "The Ibbotsons, were they there? and the two new beauties,
- with the tall Irish officer, who is talked of for one of them."
-
- "I do not know. I do not think they were."
-
- "Old Lady Mary Maclean? I need not ask after her. She never misses,
- I know; and you must have seen her. She must have been in your own circle;
- for as you went with Lady Dalrymple, you were in the seats of grandeur,
- round the orchestra, of course."
-
- "No, that was what I dreaded. It would have been very unpleasant to me
- in every respect. But happily Lady Dalrymple always chooses
- to be farther off; and we were exceedingly well placed, that is,
- for hearing; I must not say for seeing, because I appear to have seen
- very little."
-
- "Oh! you saw enough for your own amusement. I can understand.
- There is a sort of domestic enjoyment to be known even in a crowd,
- and this you had. You were a large party in yourselves,
- and you wanted nothing beyond."
-
- "But I ought to have looked about me more," said Anne, conscious
- while she spoke that there had in fact been no want of looking about,
- that the object only had been deficient.
-
- "No, no; you were better employed. You need not tell me that you
- had a pleasant evening. I see it in your eye. I perfectly see
- how the hours passed: that you had always something agreeable
- to listen to. In the intervals of the concert it was conversation."
-
- Anne half smiled and said, "Do you see that in my eye?"
-
- "Yes, I do. Your countenance perfectly informs me that you were
- in company last night with the person whom you think the most agreeable
- in the world, the person who interests you at this present time
- more than all the rest of the world put together."
-
- A blush overspread Anne's cheeks. She could say nothing.
-
- "And such being the case," continued Mrs Smith, after a short pause,
- "I hope you believe that I do know how to value your kindness
- in coming to me this morning. It is really very good of you
- to come and sit with me, when you must have so many pleasanter demands
- upon your time."
-
- Anne heard nothing of this. She was still in the astonishment and
- confusion excited by her friend's penetration, unable to imagine
- how any report of Captain Wentworth could have reached her.
- After another short silence--
-
- "Pray," said Mrs Smith, "is Mr Elliot aware of your acquaintance with me?
- Does he know that I am in Bath?"
-
- "Mr Elliot!" repeated Anne, looking up surprised. A moment's reflection
- shewed her the mistake she had been under. She caught it instantaneously;
- and recovering her courage with the feeling of safety, soon added,
- more composedly, "Are you acquainted with Mr Elliot?"
-
- "I have been a good deal acquainted with him," replied Mrs Smith, gravely,
- "but it seems worn out now. It is a great while since we met."
-
- "I was not at all aware of this. You never mentioned it before.
- Had I known it, I would have had the pleasure of talking to him about you."
-
- "To confess the truth," said Mrs Smith, assuming her usual
- air of cheerfulness, "that is exactly the pleasure I want you to have.
- I want you to talk about me to Mr Elliot. I want your interest with him.
- He can be of essential service to me; and if you would have the goodness,
- my dear Miss Elliot, to make it an object to yourself,
- of course it is done."
-
- "I should be extremely happy; I hope you cannot doubt my willingness
- to be of even the slightest use to you," replied Anne; "but I suspect
- that you are considering me as having a higher claim on Mr Elliot,
- a greater right to influence him, than is really the case.
- I am sure you have, somehow or other, imbibed such a notion.
- You must consider me only as Mr Elliot's relation. If in that light
- there is anything which you suppose his cousin might fairly ask of him,
- I beg you would not hesitate to employ me."
-
- Mrs Smith gave her a penetrating glance, and then, smiling, said--
-
- "I have been a little premature, I perceive; I beg your pardon.
- I ought to have waited for official information, But now, my dear
- Miss Elliot, as an old friend, do give me a hint as to when I may speak.
- Next week? To be sure by next week I may be allowed to
- think it all settled, and build my own selfish schemes on
- Mr Elliot's good fortune."
-
- "No," replied Anne, "nor next week, nor next, nor next.
- I assure you that nothing of the sort you are thinking of
- will be settled any week. I am not going to marry Mr Elliot.
- I should like to know why you imagine I am?"
-
- Mrs Smith looked at her again, looked earnestly, smiled,
- shook her head, and exclaimed--
-
- "Now, how I do wish I understood you! How I do wish I knew
- what you were at! I have a great idea that you do not design to be cruel,
- when the right moment occurs. Till it does come, you know,
- we women never mean to have anybody. It is a thing of course among us,
- that every man is refused, till he offers. But why should you be cruel?
- Let me plead for my--present friend I cannot call him, but for
- my former friend. Where can you look for a more suitable match?
- Where could you expect a more gentlemanlike, agreeable man?
- Let me recommend Mr Elliot. I am sure you hear nothing but good of him
- from Colonel Wallis; and who can know him better than Colonel Wallis?"
-
- "My dear Mrs Smith, Mr Elliot's wife has not been dead much above
- half a year. He ought not to be supposed to be paying his addresses
- to any one."
-
- "Oh! if these are your only objections," cried Mrs Smith, archly,
- "Mr Elliot is safe, and I shall give myself no more trouble about him.
- Do not forget me when you are married, that's all. Let him know me to be
- a friend of yours, and then he will think little of the trouble required,
- which it is very natural for him now, with so many affairs and engagements
- of his own, to avoid and get rid of as he can; very natural, perhaps.
- Ninety-nine out of a hundred would do the same. Of course,
- he cannot be aware of the importance to me. Well, my dear Miss Elliot,
- I hope and trust you will be very happy. Mr Elliot has sense
- to understand the value of such a woman. Your peace will not be
- shipwrecked as mine has been. You are safe in all worldly matters,
- and safe in his character. He will not be led astray; he will not be
- misled by others to his ruin."
-
- "No," said Anne, "I can readily believe all that of my cousin.
- He seems to have a calm decided temper, not at all open
- to dangerous impressions. I consider him with great respect.
- I have no reason, from any thing that has fallen within my observation,
- to do otherwise. But I have not known him long; and he is not a man,
- I think, to be known intimately soon. Will not this manner
- of speaking of him, Mrs Smith, convince you that he is nothing to me?
- Surely this must be calm enough. And, upon my word, he is nothing to me.
- Should he ever propose to me (which I have very little reason to imagine
- he has any thought of doing), I shall not accept him. I assure you
- I shall not. I assure you, Mr Elliot had not the share which
- you have been supposing, in whatever pleasure the concert
- of last night might afford: not Mr Elliot; it is not Mr Elliot that--"
-
- She stopped, regretting with a deep blush that she had implied so much;
- but less would hardly have been sufficient. Mrs Smith would hardly
- have believed so soon in Mr Elliot's failure, but from the perception
- of there being a somebody else. As it was, she instantly submitted,
- and with all the semblance of seeing nothing beyond; and Anne,
- eager to escape farther notice, was impatient to know why Mrs Smith
- should have fancied she was to marry Mr Elliot; where she could have
- received the idea, or from whom she could have heard it.
-
- "Do tell me how it first came into your head."
-
- "It first came into my head," replied Mrs Smith, "upon finding how much
- you were together, and feeling it to be the most probable thing
- in the world to be wished for by everybody belonging to either of you;
- and you may depend upon it that all your acquaintance have disposed of you
- in the same way. But I never heard it spoken of till two days ago."
-
- "And has it indeed been spoken of?"
-
- "Did you observe the woman who opened the door to you when
- you called yesterday?"
-
- "No. Was not it Mrs Speed, as usual, or the maid? I observed
- no one in particular."
-
- "It was my friend Mrs Rooke; Nurse Rooke; who, by-the-bye,
- had a great curiosity to see you, and was delighted to be in the way
- to let you in. She came away from Marlborough Buildings only on Sunday;
- and she it was who told me you were to marry Mr Elliot.
- She had had it from Mrs Wallis herself, which did not seem bad authority.
- She sat an hour with me on Monday evening, and gave me the whole history."
- "The whole history," repeated Anne, laughing. "She could not make
- a very long history, I think, of one such little article
- of unfounded news."
-
- Mrs Smith said nothing.
-
- "But," continued Anne, presently, "though there is no truth in my having
- this claim on Mr Elliot, I should be extremely happy to be of use to you
- in any way that I could. Shall I mention to him your being in Bath?
- Shall I take any message?"
-
- "No, I thank you: no, certainly not. In the warmth of the moment,
- and under a mistaken impression, I might, perhaps, have endeavoured
- to interest you in some circumstances; but not now. No, I thank you,
- I have nothing to trouble you with."
-
- "I think you spoke of having known Mr Elliot many years?"
-
- "I did."
-
- "Not before he was married, I suppose?"
-
- "Yes; he was not married when I knew him first."
-
- "And--were you much acquainted?"
-
- "Intimately."
-
- "Indeed! Then do tell me what he was at that time of life.
- I have a great curiosity to know what Mr Elliot was as a very young man.
- Was he at all such as he appears now?"
-
- "I have not seen Mr Elliot these three years," was Mrs Smith's answer,
- given so gravely that it was impossible to pursue the subject farther;
- and Anne felt that she had gained nothing but an increase of curiosity.
- They were both silent: Mrs Smith very thoughtful. At last--
-
- "I beg your pardon, my dear Miss Elliot," she cried, in her
- natural tone of cordiality, "I beg your pardon for the short answers
- I have been giving you, but I have been uncertain what I ought to do.
- I have been doubting and considering as to what I ought to tell you.
- There were many things to be taken into the account. One hates
- to be officious, to be giving bad impressions, making mischief.
- Even the smooth surface of family-union seems worth preserving,
- though there may be nothing durable beneath. However, I have determined;
- I think I am right; I think you ought to be made acquainted
- with Mr Elliot's real character. Though I fully believe that,
- at present, you have not the smallest intention of accepting him,
- there is no saying what may happen. You might, some time or other,
- be differently affected towards him. Hear the truth, therefore,
- now, while you are unprejudiced. Mr Elliot is a man without heart
- or conscience; a designing, wary, cold-blooded being, who thinks
- only of himself; whom for his own interest or ease, would be guilty
- of any cruelty, or any treachery, that could be perpetrated without
- risk of his general character. He has no feeling for others.
- Those whom he has been the chief cause of leading into ruin,
- he can neglect and desert without the smallest compunction.
- He is totally beyond the reach of any sentiment of justice or compassion.
- Oh! he is black at heart, hollow and black!"
-
- Anne's astonished air, and exclamation of wonder, made her pause,
- and in a calmer manner, she added,
-
- "My expressions startle you. You must allow for an injured, angry woman.
- But I will try to command myself. I will not abuse him.
- I will only tell you what I have found him. Facts shall speak.
- He was the intimate friend of my dear husband, who trusted and loved him,
- and thought him as good as himself. The intimacy had been formed
- before our marriage. I found them most intimate friends; and I, too,
- became excessively pleased with Mr Elliot, and entertained
- the highest opinion of him. At nineteen, you know, one does not
- think very seriously; but Mr Elliot appeared to me quite as good as others,
- and much more agreeable than most others, and we were almost
- always together. We were principally in town, living in very good style.
- He was then the inferior in circumstances; he was then the poor one;
- he had chambers in the Temple, and it was as much as he could do
- to support the appearance of a gentleman. He had always a home
- with us whenever he chose it; he was always welcome; he was like a brother.
- My poor Charles, who had the finest, most generous spirit in the world,
- would have divided his last farthing with him; and I know that his purse
- was open to him; I know that he often assisted him."
-
- "This must have been about that very period of Mr Elliot's life,"
- said Anne, "which has always excited my particular curiosity.
- It must have been about the same time that he became known to
- my father and sister. I never knew him myself; I only heard of him;
- but there was a something in his conduct then, with regard to
- my father and sister, and afterwards in the circumstances of his marriage,
- which I never could quite reconcile with present times. It seemed
- to announce a different sort of man."
-
- "I know it all, I know it all," cried Mrs Smith. "He had been
- introduced to Sir Walter and your sister before I was acquainted with him,
- but I heard him speak of them for ever. I know he was invited
- and encouraged, and I know he did not choose to go. I can satisfy you,
- perhaps, on points which you would little expect; and as to his marriage,
- I knew all about it at the time. I was privy to all the fors and againsts;
- I was the friend to whom he confided his hopes and plans; and though
- I did not know his wife previously, her inferior situation in society,
- indeed, rendered that impossible, yet I knew her all her life afterwards,
- or at least till within the last two years of her life, and can answer
- any question you may wish to put."
-
- "Nay," said Anne, "I have no particular enquiry to make about her.
- I have always understood they were not a happy couple. But I should
- like to know why, at that time of his life, he should slight
- my father's acquaintance as he did. My father was certainly disposed
- to take very kind and proper notice of him. Why did Mr Elliot draw back?"
-
- "Mr Elliot," replied Mrs Smith, "at that period of his life,
- had one object in view: to make his fortune, and by a rather quicker
- process than the law. He was determined to make it by marriage.
- He was determined, at least, not to mar it by an imprudent marriage;
- and I know it was his belief (whether justly or not, of course
- I cannot decide), that your father and sister, in their civilities
- and invitations, were designing a match between the heir
- and the young lady, and it was impossible that such a match
- should have answered his ideas of wealth and independence.
- That was his motive for drawing back, I can assure you.
- He told me the whole story. He had no concealments with me.
- It was curious, that having just left you behind me in Bath,
- my first and principal acquaintance on marrying should be your cousin;
- and that, through him, I should be continually hearing of your father
- and sister. He described one Miss Elliot, and I thought
- very affectionately of the other."
-
- "Perhaps," cried Anne, struck by a sudden idea, "you sometimes
- spoke of me to Mr Elliot?"
-
- "To be sure I did; very often. I used to boast of my own Anne Elliot,
- and vouch for your being a very different creature from--"
-
- She checked herself just in time.
-
- "This accounts for something which Mr Elliot said last night,"
- cried Anne. "This explains it. I found he had been used to hear of me.
- I could not comprehend how. What wild imaginations one forms where
- dear self is concerned! How sure to be mistaken! But I beg your pardon;
- I have interrupted you. Mr Elliot married then completely for money?
- The circumstances, probably, which first opened your eyes
- to his character."
-
- Mrs Smith hesitated a little here. "Oh! those things are too common.
- When one lives in the world, a man or woman's marrying for money
- is too common to strike one as it ought. I was very young,
- and associated only with the young, and we were a thoughtless,
- gay set, without any strict rules of conduct. We lived for enjoyment.
- I think differently now; time and sickness and sorrow have given me
- other notions; but at that period I must own I saw nothing reprehensible
- in what Mr Elliot was doing. `To do the best for himself,'
- passed as a duty."
-
- "But was not she a very low woman?"
-
- "Yes; which I objected to, but he would not regard. Money, money,
- was all that he wanted. Her father was a grazier, her grandfather
- had been a butcher, but that was all nothing. She was a fine woman,
- had had a decent education, was brought forward by some cousins,
- thrown by chance into Mr Elliot's company, and fell in love with him;
- and not a difficulty or a scruple was there on his side,
- with respect to her birth. All his caution was spent in being secured
- of the real amount of her fortune, before he committed himself.
- Depend upon it, whatever esteem Mr Elliot may have for his own situation
- in life now, as a young man he had not the smallest value for it.
- His chance for the Kellynch estate was something, but all the honour
- of the family he held as cheap as dirt. I have often heard him declare,
- that if baronetcies were saleable, anybody should have his
- for fifty pounds, arms and motto, name and livery included;
- but I will not pretend to repeat half that I used to hear him say
- on that subject. It would not be fair; and yet you ought to have proof,
- for what is all this but assertion, and you shall have proof."
-
- "Indeed, my dear Mrs Smith, I want none," cried Anne. "You have asserted
- nothing contradictory to what Mr Elliot appeared to be some years ago.
- This is all in confirmation, rather, of what we used to hear and believe.
- I am more curious to know why he should be so different now."
-
- "But for my satisfaction, if you will have the goodness to ring for Mary;
- stay: I am sure you will have the still greater goodness of
- going yourself into my bedroom, and bringing me the small inlaid box
- which you will find on the upper shelf of the closet."
-
- Anne, seeing her friend to be earnestly bent on it, did as she was desired.
- The box was brought and placed before her, and Mrs Smith, sighing over it
- as she unlocked it, said--
-
- "This is full of papers belonging to him, to my husband;
- a small portion only of what I had to look over when I lost him.
- The letter I am looking for was one written by Mr Elliot to him
- before our marriage, and happened to be saved; why, one can hardly imagine.
- But he was careless and immethodical, like other men, about those things;
- and when I came to examine his papers, I found it with others
- still more trivial, from different people scattered here and there,
- while many letters and memorandums of real importance had been destroyed.
- Here it is; I would not burn it, because being even then very little
- satisfied with Mr Elliot, I was determined to preserve every document
- of former intimacy. I have now another motive for being glad
- that I can produce it."
-
- This was the letter, directed to "Charles Smith, Esq. Tunbridge Wells,"
- and dated from London, as far back as July, 1803: --
-
- "Dear Smith,--I have received yours. Your kindness almost overpowers me.
- I wish nature had made such hearts as yours more common, but I have
- lived three-and-twenty years in the world, and have seen none like it.
- At present, believe me, I have no need of your services,
- being in cash again. Give me joy: I have got rid of Sir Walter and Miss.
- They are gone back to Kellynch, and almost made me swear to visit them
- this summer; but my first visit to Kellynch will be with a surveyor,
- to tell me how to bring it with best advantage to the hammer.
- The baronet, nevertheless, is not unlikely to marry again;
- he is quite fool enough. If he does, however, they will leave me in peace,
- which may be a decent equivalent for the reversion. He is worse
- than last year.
-
- "I wish I had any name but Elliot. I am sick of it. The name of Walter
- I can drop, thank God! and I desire you will never insult me
- with my second W. again, meaning, for the rest of my life,
- to be only yours truly,--Wm. Elliot."
-
- Such a letter could not be read without putting Anne in a glow;
- and Mrs Smith, observing the high colour in her face, said--
-
- "The language, I know, is highly disrespectful. Though I have forgot
- the exact terms, I have a perfect impression of the general meaning.
- But it shows you the man. Mark his professions to my poor husband.
- Can any thing be stronger?"
-
- Anne could not immediately get over the shock and mortification
- of finding such words applied to her father. She was obliged to recollect
- that her seeing the letter was a violation of the laws of honour,
- that no one ought to be judged or to be known by such testimonies,
- that no private correspondence could bear the eye of others,
- before she could recover calmness enough to return the letter
- which she had been meditating over, and say--
-
- "Thank you. This is full proof undoubtedly; proof of every thing
- you were saying. But why be acquainted with us now?"
-
- "I can explain this too," cried Mrs Smith, smiling.
-
- "Can you really?"
-
- "Yes. I have shewn you Mr Elliot as he was a dozen years ago,
- and I will shew him as he is now. I cannot produce written proof again,
- but I can give as authentic oral testimony as you can desire, of what
- he is now wanting, and what he is now doing. He is no hypocrite now.
- He truly wants to marry you. His present attentions to your family
- are very sincere: quite from the heart. I will give you my authority:
- his friend Colonel Wallis."
-
- "Colonel Wallis! you are acquainted with him?"
-
- "No. It does not come to me in quite so direct a line as that;
- it takes a bend or two, but nothing of consequence. The stream
- is as good as at first; the little rubbish it collects in the turnings
- is easily moved away. Mr Elliot talks unreservedly to Colonel Wallis
- of his views on you, which said Colonel Wallis, I imagine to be,
- in himself, a sensible, careful, discerning sort of character;
- but Colonel Wallis has a very pretty silly wife, to whom
- he tells things which he had better not, and he repeats it all to her.
- She in the overflowing spirits of her recovery, repeats it all
- to her nurse; and the nurse knowing my acquaintance with you,
- very naturally brings it all to me. On Monday evening, my good friend
- Mrs Rooke let me thus much into the secrets of Marlborough Buildings.
- When I talked of a whole history, therefore, you see I was
- not romancing so much as you supposed."
-
- "My dear Mrs Smith, your authority is deficient. This will not do.
- Mr Elliot's having any views on me will not in the least account
- for the efforts he made towards a reconciliation with my father.
- That was all prior to my coming to Bath. I found them on
- the most friendly terms when I arrived."
-
- "I know you did; I know it all perfectly, but--"
-
- "Indeed, Mrs Smith, we must not expect to get real information
- in such a line. Facts or opinions which are to pass through the hands
- of so many, to be misconceived by folly in one, and ignorance in another,
- can hardly have much truth left."
-
- "Only give me a hearing. You will soon be able to judge of
- the general credit due, by listening to some particulars
- which you can yourself immediately contradict or confirm.
- Nobody supposes that you were his first inducement. He had seen you
- indeed, before he came to Bath, and admired you, but without
- knowing it to be you. So says my historian, at least. Is this true?
- Did he see you last summer or autumn, `somewhere down in the west,'
- to use her own words, without knowing it to be you?"
-
- "He certainly did. So far it is very true. At Lyme.
- I happened to be at Lyme."
-
- "Well," continued Mrs Smith, triumphantly, "grant my friend the credit
- due to the establishment of the first point asserted. He saw you then
- at Lyme, and liked you so well as to be exceedingly pleased
- to meet with you again in Camden Place, as Miss Anne Elliot,
- and from that moment, I have no doubt, had a double motive
- in his visits there. But there was another, and an earlier,
- which I will now explain. If there is anything in my story which you know
- to be either false or improbable, stop me. My account states,
- that your sister's friend, the lady now staying with you,
- whom I have heard you mention, came to Bath with Miss Elliot and Sir Walter
- as long ago as September (in short when they first came themselves),
- and has been staying there ever since; that she is a clever, insinuating,
- handsome woman, poor and plausible, and altogether such in situation
- and manner, as to give a general idea, among Sir Walter's acquaintance,
- of her meaning to be Lady Elliot, and as general a surprise
- that Miss Elliot should be apparently, blind to the danger."
-
- Here Mrs Smith paused a moment; but Anne had not a word to say,
- and she continued--
-
- "This was the light in which it appeared to those who knew the family,
- long before you returned to it; and Colonel Wallis had his eye
- upon your father enough to be sensible of it, though he did not then
- visit in Camden Place; but his regard for Mr Elliot gave him an interest
- in watching all that was going on there, and when Mr Elliot came to Bath
- for a day or two, as he happened to do a little before Christmas,
- Colonel Wallis made him acquainted with the appearance of things,
- and the reports beginning to prevail. Now you are to understand,
- that time had worked a very material change in Mr Elliot's opinions
- as to the value of a baronetcy. Upon all points of blood and connexion
- he is a completely altered man. Having long had as much money
- as he could spend, nothing to wish for on the side of avarice
- or indulgence, he has been gradually learning to pin his happiness
- upon the consequence he is heir to. I thought it coming on
- before our acquaintance ceased, but it is now a confirmed feeling.
- He cannot bear the idea of not being Sir William. You may guess,
- therefore, that the news he heard from his friend could not be
- very agreeable, and you may guess what it produced; the resolution
- of coming back to Bath as soon as possible, and of fixing himself here
- for a time, with the view of renewing his former acquaintance,
- and recovering such a footing in the family as might give him the means
- of ascertaining the degree of his danger, and of circumventing the lady
- if he found it material. This was agreed upon between the two friends
- as the only thing to be done; and Colonel Wallis was to assist
- in every way that he could. He was to be introduced, and Mrs Wallis
- was to be introduced, and everybody was to be introduced.
- Mr Elliot came back accordingly; and on application was forgiven,
- as you know, and re-admitted into the family; and there it was
- his constant object, and his only object (till your arrival
- added another motive), to watch Sir Walter and Mrs Clay.
- He omitted no opportunity of being with them, threw himself in their way,
- called at all hours; but I need not be particular on this subject.
- You can imagine what an artful man would do; and with this guide,
- perhaps, may recollect what you have seen him do."
-
- "Yes," said Anne, "you tell me nothing which does not accord with
- what I have known, or could imagine. There is always something offensive
- in the details of cunning. The manoeuvres of selfishness and duplicity
- must ever be revolting, but I have heard nothing which really surprises me.
- I know those who would be shocked by such a representation of Mr Elliot,
- who would have difficulty in believing it; but I have never been satisfied.
- I have always wanted some other motive for his conduct than appeared.
- I should like to know his present opinion, as to the probability
- of the event he has been in dread of; whether he considers the danger
- to be lessening or not."
-
- "Lessening, I understand," replied Mrs Smith. "He thinks Mrs Clay
- afraid of him, aware that he sees through her, and not daring to proceed
- as she might do in his absence. But since he must be absent
- some time or other, I do not perceive how he can ever be secure
- while she holds her present influence. Mrs Wallis has an amusing idea,
- as nurse tells me, that it is to be put into the marriage articles
- when you and Mr Elliot marry, that your father is not to marry Mrs Clay.
- A scheme, worthy of Mrs Wallis's understanding, by all accounts;
- but my sensible nurse Rooke sees the absurdity of it. `Why, to be sure,
- ma'am,' said she, `it would not prevent his marrying anybody else.'
- And, indeed, to own the truth, I do not think nurse, in her heart,
- is a very strenuous opposer of Sir Walter's making a second match.
- She must be allowed to be a favourer of matrimony, you know;
- and (since self will intrude) who can say that she may not have
- some flying visions of attending the next Lady Elliot, through
- Mrs Wallis's recommendation?"
-
- "I am very glad to know all this," said Anne, after a little
- thoughtfulness. "It will be more painful to me in some respects
- to be in company with him, but I shall know better what to do.
- My line of conduct will be more direct. Mr Elliot is evidently
- a disingenuous, artificial, worldly man, who has never had
- any better principle to guide him than selfishness."
-
- But Mr Elliot was not done with. Mrs Smith had been carried away
- from her first direction, and Anne had forgotten, in the interest
- of her own family concerns, how much had been originally implied
- against him; but her attention was now called to the explanation
- of those first hints, and she listened to a recital which,
- if it did not perfectly justify the unqualified bitterness of Mrs Smith,
- proved him to have been very unfeeling in his conduct towards her;
- very deficient both in justice and compassion.
-
- She learned that (the intimacy between them continuing unimpaired
- by Mr Elliot's marriage) they had been as before always together,
- and Mr Elliot had led his friend into expenses much beyond his fortune.
- Mrs Smith did not want to take blame to herself, and was most tender
- of throwing any on her husband; but Anne could collect that their income
- had never been equal to their style of living, and that from the first
- there had been a great deal of general and joint extravagance.
- From his wife's account of him she could discern Mr Smith to have been
- a man of warm feelings, easy temper, careless habits, and not strong
- understanding, much more amiable than his friend, and very unlike him,
- led by him, and probably despised by him. Mr Elliot, raised by
- his marriage to great affluence, and disposed to every gratification
- of pleasure and vanity which could be commanded without involving himself,
- (for with all his self-indulgence he had become a prudent man),
- and beginning to be rich, just as his friend ought to have found himself
- to be poor, seemed to have had no concern at all for that friend's
- probable finances, but, on the contrary, had been prompting and
- encouraging expenses which could end only in ruin; and the Smiths
- accordingly had been ruined.
-
- The husband had died just in time to be spared the full knowledge of it.
- They had previously known embarrassments enough to try the friendship
- of their friends, and to prove that Mr Elliot's had better not be tried;
- but it was not till his death that the wretched state of his affairs
- was fully known. With a confidence in Mr Elliot's regard,
- more creditable to his feelings than his judgement, Mr Smith had
- appointed him the executor of his will; but Mr Elliot would not act,
- and the difficulties and distress which this refusal had heaped on her,
- in addition to the inevitable sufferings of her situation, had been such
- as could not be related without anguish of spirit, or listened to
- without corresponding indignation.
-
- Anne was shewn some letters of his on the occasion, answers to
- urgent applications from Mrs Smith, which all breathed the same
- stern resolution of not engaging in a fruitless trouble, and,
- under a cold civility, the same hard-hearted indifference
- to any of the evils it might bring on her. It was a dreadful picture
- of ingratitude and inhumanity; and Anne felt, at some moments,
- that no flagrant open crime could have been worse. She had a great deal
- to listen to; all the particulars of past sad scenes, all the minutiae
- of distress upon distress, which in former conversations had been
- merely hinted at, were dwelt on now with a natural indulgence.
- Anne could perfectly comprehend the exquisite relief, and was only
- the more inclined to wonder at the composure of her friend's
- usual state of mind.
-
- There was one circumstance in the history of her grievances
- of particular irritation. She had good reason to believe
- that some property of her husband in the West Indies, which had been
- for many years under a sort of sequestration for the payment of
- its own incumbrances, might be recoverable by proper measures;
- and this property, though not large, would be enough to make her
- comparatively rich. But there was nobody to stir in it.
- Mr Elliot would do nothing, and she could do nothing herself,
- equally disabled from personal exertion by her state of bodily weakness,
- and from employing others by her want of money. She had no
- natural connexions to assist her even with their counsel,
- and she could not afford to purchase the assistance of the law.
- This was a cruel aggravation of actually streightened means.
- To feel that she ought to be in better circumstances, that a little trouble
- in the right place might do it, and to fear that delay might be
- even weakening her claims, was hard to bear.
-
- It was on this point that she had hoped to engage Anne's good offices
- with Mr Elliot. She had previously, in the anticipation
- of their marriage, been very apprehensive of losing her friend by it;
- but on being assured that he could have made no attempt of that nature,
- since he did not even know her to be in Bath, it immediately occurred,
- that something might be done in her favour by the influence of the woman
- he loved, and she had been hastily preparing to interest Anne's feelings,
- as far as the observances due to Mr Elliot's character would allow,
- when Anne's refutation of the supposed engagement changed
- the face of everything; and while it took from her the new-formed hope
- of succeeding in the object of her first anxiety, left her at least
- the comfort of telling the whole story her own way.
-
- After listening to this full description of Mr Elliot, Anne could not but
- express some surprise at Mrs Smith's having spoken of him so favourably
- in the beginning of their conversation. "She had seemed to recommend
- and praise him!"
-
- "My dear," was Mrs Smith's reply, "there was nothing else to be done.
- I considered your marrying him as certain, though he might not yet
- have made the offer, and I could no more speak the truth of him,
- than if he had been your husband. My heart bled for you,
- as I talked of happiness; and yet he is sensible, he is agreeable,
- and with such a woman as you, it was not absolutely hopeless.
- He was very unkind to his first wife. They were wretched together.
- But she was too ignorant and giddy for respect, and he had never loved her.
- I was willing to hope that you must fare better."
-
- Anne could just acknowledge within herself such a possibility
- of having been induced to marry him, as made her shudder at the idea
- of the misery which must have followed. It was just possible that
- she might have been persuaded by Lady Russell! And under such
- a supposition, which would have been most miserable, when time had
- disclosed all, too late?
-
- It was very desirable that Lady Russell should be no longer deceived;
- and one of the concluding arrangements of this important conference,
- which carried them through the greater part of the morning,
- was, that Anne had full liberty to communicate to her friend
- everything relative to Mrs Smith, in which his conduct was involved.
-
-
-
- Chapter 22
-
-
- Anne went home to think over all that she had heard. In one point,
- her feelings were relieved by this knowledge of Mr Elliot.
- There was no longer anything of tenderness due to him. He stood as
- opposed to Captain Wentworth, in all his own unwelcome obtrusiveness;
- and the evil of his attentions last night, the irremediable mischief
- he might have done, was considered with sensations unqualified, unperplexed.
- Pity for him was all over. But this was the only point of relief.
- In every other respect, in looking around her, or penetrating forward,
- she saw more to distrust and to apprehend. She was concerned
- for the disappointment and pain Lady Russell would be feeling;
- for the mortifications which must be hanging over her father and sister,
- and had all the distress of foreseeing many evils, without knowing
- how to avert any one of them. She was most thankful for her own
- knowledge of him. She had never considered herself as entitled to reward
- for not slighting an old friend like Mrs Smith, but here was
- a reward indeed springing from it! Mrs Smith had been able to tell her
- what no one else could have done. Could the knowledge have
- been extended through her family? But this was a vain idea.
- She must talk to Lady Russell, tell her, consult with her,
- and having done her best, wait the event with as much composure
- as possible; and after all, her greatest want of composure would be
- in that quarter of the mind which could not be opened to Lady Russell;
- in that flow of anxieties and fears which must be all to herself.
-
-
- She found, on reaching home, that she had, as she intended,
- escaped seeing Mr Elliot; that he had called and paid them
- a long morning visit; but hardly had she congratulated herself,
- and felt safe, when she heard that he was coming again in the evening.
-
- "I had not the smallest intention of asking him," said Elizabeth,
- with affected carelessness, "but he gave so many hints;
- so Mrs Clay says, at least."
-
- "Indeed, I do say it. I never saw anybody in my life spell harder
- for an invitation. Poor man! I was really in pain for him;
- for your hard-hearted sister, Miss Anne, seems bent on cruelty."
-
- "Oh!" cried Elizabeth, "I have been rather too much used to the game
- to be soon overcome by a gentleman's hints. However, when I found
- how excessively he was regretting that he should miss my father
- this morning, I gave way immediately, for I would never really omit
- an opportunity of bring him and Sir Walter together. They appear to
- so much advantage in company with each other. Each behaving so pleasantly.
- Mr Elliot looking up with so much respect."
-
- "Quite delightful!" cried Mrs Clay, not daring, however,
- to turn her eyes towards Anne. "Exactly like father and son!
- Dear Miss Elliot, may I not say father and son?"
-
- "Oh! I lay no embargo on any body's words. If you will have such
- ideas! But, upon my word, I am scarcely sensible of his attentions
- being beyond those of other men."
-
- "My dear Miss Elliot!" exclaimed Mrs Clay, lifting her hands and eyes,
- and sinking all the rest of her astonishment in a convenient silence.
-
- "Well, my dear Penelope, you need not be so alarmed about him.
- I did invite him, you know. I sent him away with smiles.
- When I found he was really going to his friends at Thornberry Park
- for the whole day to-morrow, I had compassion on him."
-
- Anne admired the good acting of the friend, in being able to shew
- such pleasure as she did, in the expectation and in the actual arrival
- of the very person whose presence must really be interfering with
- her prime object. It was impossible but that Mrs Clay must hate
- the sight of Mr Elliot; and yet she could assume a most obliging,
- placid look, and appear quite satisfied with the curtailed license
- of devoting herself only half as much to Sir Walter as she would have
- done otherwise.
-
- To Anne herself it was most distressing to see Mr Elliot enter the room;
- and quite painful to have him approach and speak to her.
- She had been used before to feel that he could not be always quite sincere,
- but now she saw insincerity in everything. His attentive deference
- to her father, contrasted with his former language, was odious;
- and when she thought of his cruel conduct towards Mrs Smith,
- she could hardly bear the sight of his present smiles and mildness,
- or the sound of his artificial good sentiments.
-
- She meant to avoid any such alteration of manners as might provoke
- a remonstrance on his side. It was a great object to her to escape
- all enquiry or eclat; but it was her intention to be as decidedly cool
- to him as might be compatible with their relationship; and to retrace,
- as quietly as she could, the few steps of unnecessary intimacy she had
- been gradually led along. She was accordingly more guarded,
- and more cool, than she had been the night before.
-
- He wanted to animate her curiosity again as to how and where
- he could have heard her formerly praised; wanted very much
- to be gratified by more solicitation; but the charm was broken:
- he found that the heat and animation of a public room was necessary
- to kindle his modest cousin's vanity; he found, at least, that it was
- not to be done now, by any of those attempts which he could hazard
- among the too-commanding claims of the others. He little surmised
- that it was a subject acting now exactly against his interest,
- bringing immediately to her thoughts all those parts of his conduct
- which were least excusable.
-
- She had some satisfaction in finding that he was really going out of Bath
- the next morning, going early, and that he would be gone the greater part
- of two days. He was invited again to Camden Place the very evening of
- his return; but from Thursday to Saturday evening his absence was certain.
- It was bad enough that a Mrs Clay should be always before her;
- but that a deeper hypocrite should be added to their party,
- seemed the destruction of everything like peace and comfort.
- It was so humiliating to reflect on the constant deception practiced
- on her father and Elizabeth; to consider the various sources
- of mortification preparing for them! Mrs Clay's selfishness was
- not so complicate nor so revolting as his; and Anne would have compounded
- for the marriage at once, with all its evils, to be clear of Mr Elliot's
- subtleties in endeavouring to prevent it.
-
- On Friday morning she meant to go very early to Lady Russell,
- and accomplish the necessary communication; and she would have gone
- directly after breakfast, but that Mrs Clay was also going out
- on some obliging purpose of saving her sister trouble, which
- determined her to wait till she might be safe from such a companion.
- She saw Mrs Clay fairly off, therefore, before she began to talk
- of spending the morning in Rivers Street.
-
- "Very well," said Elizabeth, "I have nothing to send but my love.
- Oh! you may as well take back that tiresome book she would lend me,
- and pretend I have read it through. I really cannot be plaguing myself
- for ever with all the new poems and states of the nation that come out.
- Lady Russell quite bores one with her new publications.
- You need not tell her so, but I thought her dress hideous the other night.
- I used to think she had some taste in dress, but I was ashamed of her
- at the concert. Something so formal and arrange in her air!
- and she sits so upright! My best love, of course."
-
- "And mine," added Sir Walter. "Kindest regards. And you may say,
- that I mean to call upon her soon. Make a civil message;
- but I shall only leave my card. Morning visits are never fair
- by women at her time of life, who make themselves up so little.
- If she would only wear rouge she would not be afraid of being seen;
- but last time I called, I observed the blinds were let down immediately."
-
- While her father spoke, there was a knock at the door. Who could it be?
- Anne, remembering the preconcerted visits, at all hours, of Mr Elliot,
- would have expected him, but for his known engagement seven miles off.
- After the usual period of suspense, the usual sounds of approach were heard,
- and "Mr and Mrs Charles Musgrove" were ushered into the room.
-
- Surprise was the strongest emotion raised by their appearance;
- but Anne was really glad to see them; and the others were not so sorry
- but that they could put on a decent air of welcome; and as soon
- as it became clear that these, their nearest relations, were not arrived
- with an views of accommodation in that house, Sir Walter and Elizabeth
- were able to rise in cordiality, and do the honours of it very well.
- They were come to Bath for a few days with Mrs Musgrove, and were
- at the White Hart. So much was pretty soon understood;
- but till Sir Walter and Elizabeth were walking Mary into
- the other drawing-room, and regaling themselves with her admiration,
- Anne could not draw upon Charles's brain for a regular history
- of their coming, or an explanation of some smiling hints
- of particular business, which had been ostentatiously dropped by Mary,
- as well as of some apparent confusion as to whom their party consisted of.
-
- She then found that it consisted of Mrs Musgrove, Henrietta,
- and Captain Harville, beside their two selves. He gave her a very plain,
- intelligible account of the whole; a narration in which she saw
- a great deal of most characteristic proceeding. The scheme
- had received its first impulse by Captain Harville's wanting to
- come to Bath on business. He had begun to talk of it a week ago;
- and by way of doing something, as shooting was over, Charles had proposed
- coming with him, and Mrs Harville had seemed to like the idea of it
- very much, as an advantage to her husband; but Mary could not bear
- to be left, and had made herself so unhappy about it, that for a day or two
- everything seemed to be in suspense, or at an end. But then,
- it had been taken up by his father and mother. His mother had
- some old friends in Bath whom she wanted to see; it was thought
- a good opportunity for Henrietta to come and buy wedding-clothes
- for herself and her sister; and, in short, it ended in being
- his mother's party, that everything might be comfortable and easy
- to Captain Harville; and he and Mary were included in it
- by way of general convenience. They had arrived late the night before.
- Mrs Harville, her children, and Captain Benwick, remained with
- Mr Musgrove and Louisa at Uppercross.
-
- Anne's only surprise was, that affairs should be in forwardness enough
- for Henrietta's wedding-clothes to be talked of. She had imagined
- such difficulties of fortune to exist there as must prevent
- the marriage from being near at hand; but she learned from Charles that,
- very recently, (since Mary's last letter to herself), Charles Hayter
- had been applied to by a friend to hold a living for a youth
- who could not possibly claim it under many years; and that
- on the strength of his present income, with almost a certainty
- of something more permanent long before the term in question,
- the two families had consented to the young people's wishes,
- and that their marriage was likely to take place in a few months,
- quite as soon as Louisa's. "And a very good living it was,"
- Charles added: "only five-and-twenty miles from Uppercross,
- and in a very fine country: fine part of Dorsetshire.
- In the centre of some of the best preserves in the kingdom,
- surrounded by three great proprietors, each more careful and jealous
- than the other; and to two of the three at least, Charles Hayter might get
- a special recommendation. Not that he will value it as he ought,"
- he observed, "Charles is too cool about sporting. That's the worst of him."
-
- "I am extremely glad, indeed," cried Anne, "particularly glad
- that this should happen; and that of two sisters, who both deserve
- equally well, and who have always been such good friends,
- the pleasant prospect of one should not be dimming those of the other--
- that they should be so equal in their prosperity and comfort.
- I hope your father and mother are quite happy with regard to both."
-
- "Oh! yes. My father would be well pleased if the gentlemen were richer,
- but he has no other fault to find. Money, you know, coming down with
- money--two daughters at once--it cannot be a very agreeable operation,
- and it streightens him as to many things. However, I do not mean to say
- they have not a right to it. It is very fit they should have
- daughters' shares; and I am sure he has always been a very kind,
- liberal father to me. Mary does not above half like Henrietta's match.
- She never did, you know. But she does not do him justice,
- nor think enough about Winthrop. I cannot make her attend to
- the value of the property. It is a very fair match, as times go;
- and I have liked Charles Hayter all my life, and I shall not leave off now."
-
- "Such excellent parents as Mr and Mrs Musgrove," exclaimed Anne,
- "should be happy in their children's marriages. They do everything
- to confer happiness, I am sure. What a blessing to young people
- to be in such hands! Your father and mother seem so totally free
- from all those ambitious feelings which have led to so much misconduct
- and misery, both in young and old. I hope you think Louisa
- perfectly recovered now?"
-
- He answered rather hesitatingly, "Yes, I believe I do; very much recovered;
- but she is altered; there is no running or jumping about, no laughing
- or dancing; it is quite different. If one happens only to shut the door
- a little hard, she starts and wriggles like a young dab-chick in the water;
- and Benwick sits at her elbow, reading verses, or whispering to her,
- all day long."
-
- Anne could not help laughing. "That cannot be much to your taste,
- I know," said she; "but I do believe him to be an excellent young man."
-
- "To be sure he is. Nobody doubts it; and I hope you do not think
- I am so illiberal as to want every man to have the same objects and
- pleasures as myself. I have a great value for Benwick; and when one can
- but get him to talk, he has plenty to say. His reading has done him
- no harm, for he has fought as well as read. He is a brave fellow.
- I got more acquainted with him last Monday than ever I did before.
- We had a famous set-to at rat-hunting all the morning in
- my father's great barns; and he played his part so well
- that I have liked him the better ever since."
-
- Here they were interrupted by the absolute necessity of Charles's
- following the others to admire mirrors and china; but Anne had
- heard enough to understand the present state of Uppercross,
- and rejoice in its happiness; and though she sighed as she rejoiced,
- her sigh had none of the ill-will of envy in it. She would certainly
- have risen to their blessings if she could, but she did not want
- to lessen theirs.
-
- The visit passed off altogether in high good humour. Mary was
- in excellent spirits, enjoying the gaiety and the change,
- and so well satisfied with the journey in her mother-in-law's carriage
- with four horses, and with her own complete independence of Camden Place,
- that she was exactly in a temper to admire everything as she ought,
- and enter most readily into all the superiorities of the house,
- as they were detailed to her. She had no demands on her father or sister,
- and her consequence was just enough increased by their handsome
- drawing-rooms.
-
- Elizabeth was, for a short time, suffering a good deal.
- She felt that Mrs Musgrove and all her party ought to be asked
- to dine with them; but she could not bear to have the difference of style,
- the reduction of servants, which a dinner must betray, witnessed by those
- who had been always so inferior to the Elliots of Kellynch.
- It was a struggle between propriety and vanity; but vanity got the better,
- and then Elizabeth was happy again. These were her internal persuasions:
- "Old fashioned notions; country hospitality; we do not profess
- to give dinners; few people in Bath do; Lady Alicia never does;
- did not even ask her own sister's family, though they were here a month:
- and I dare say it would be very inconvenient to Mrs Musgrove;
- put her quite out of her way. I am sure she would rather not come;
- she cannot feel easy with us. I will ask them all for an evening;
- that will be much better; that will be a novelty and a treat.
- They have not seen two such drawing rooms before. They will be delighted
- to come to-morrow evening. It shall be a regular party, small,
- but most elegant." And this satisfied Elizabeth: and when the invitation
- was given to the two present, and promised for the absent,
- Mary was as completely satisfied. She was particularly asked
- to meet Mr Elliot, and be introduced to Lady Dalrymple and Miss Carteret,
- who were fortunately already engaged to come; and she could not
- have received a more gratifying attention. Miss Elliot was to have
- the honour of calling on Mrs Musgrove in the course of the morning;
- and Anne walked off with Charles and Mary, to go and see her
- and Henrietta directly.
-
- Her plan of sitting with Lady Russell must give way for the present.
- They all three called in Rivers Street for a couple of minutes;
- but Anne convinced herself that a day's delay of the intended communication
- could be of no consequence, and hastened forward to the White Hart,
- to see again the friends and companions of the last autumn,
- with an eagerness of good-will which many associations contributed to form.
-
- They found Mrs Musgrove and her daughter within, and by themselves,
- and Anne had the kindest welcome from each. Henrietta was exactly
- in that state of recently-improved views, of fresh-formed happiness,
- which made her full of regard and interest for everybody she had
- ever liked before at all; and Mrs Musgrove's real affection had been won
- by her usefulness when they were in distress. It was a heartiness,
- and a warmth, and a sincerity which Anne delighted in the more,
- from the sad want of such blessings at home. She was entreated
- to give them as much of her time as possible, invited for every day
- and all day long, or rather claimed as part of the family; and, in return,
- she naturally fell into all her wonted ways of attention and assistance,
- and on Charles's leaving them together, was listening to Mrs Musgrove's
- history of Louisa, and to Henrietta's of herself, giving opinions
- on business, and recommendations to shops; with intervals of every help
- which Mary required, from altering her ribbon to settling her accounts;
- from finding her keys, and assorting her trinkets, to trying
- to convince her that she was not ill-used by anybody; which Mary,
- well amused as she generally was, in her station at a window
- overlooking the entrance to the Pump Room, could not but have
- her moments of imagining.
-
- A morning of thorough confusion was to be expected. A large party
- in an hotel ensured a quick-changing, unsettled scene. One five minutes
- brought a note, the next a parcel; and Anne had not been there
- half an hour, when their dining-room, spacious as it was,
- seemed more than half filled: a party of steady old friends
- were seated around Mrs Musgrove, and Charles came back with
- Captains Harville and Wentworth. The appearance of the latter
- could not be more than the surprise of the moment. It was impossible
- for her to have forgotten to feel that this arrival of their
- common friends must be soon bringing them together again.
- Their last meeting had been most important in opening his feelings;
- she had derived from it a delightful conviction; but she feared
- from his looks, that the same unfortunate persuasion, which had
- hastened him away from the Concert Room, still governed.
- He did not seem to want to be near enough for conversation.
-
- She tried to be calm, and leave things to take their course,
- and tried to dwell much on this argument of rational dependence:--
- "Surely, if there be constant attachment on each side, our hearts
- must understand each other ere long. We are not boy and girl,
- to be captiously irritable, misled by every moment's inadvertence,
- and wantonly playing with our own happiness." And yet,
- a few minutes afterwards, she felt as if their being in company
- with each other, under their present circumstances, could only be
- exposing them to inadvertencies and misconstructions of the most
- mischievous kind.
-
- "Anne," cried Mary, still at her window, "there is Mrs Clay,
- I am sure, standing under the colonnade, and a gentleman with her.
- I saw them turn the corner from Bath Street just now. They seemed
- deep in talk. Who is it? Come, and tell me. Good heavens! I recollect.
- It is Mr Elliot himself."
-
- "No," cried Anne, quickly, "it cannot be Mr Elliot, I assure you.
- He was to leave Bath at nine this morning, and does not come back
- till to-morrow."
-
- As she spoke, she felt that Captain Wentworth was looking at her,
- the consciousness of which vexed and embarrassed her, and made her regret
- that she had said so much, simple as it was.
-
- Mary, resenting that she should be supposed not to know her own cousin,
- began talking very warmly about the family features, and protesting
- still more positively that it was Mr Elliot, calling again upon Anne
- to come and look for herself, but Anne did not mean to stir,
- and tried to be cool and unconcerned. Her distress returned,
- however, on perceiving smiles and intelligent glances pass between
- two or three of the lady visitors, as if they believed themselves
- quite in the secret. It was evident that the report concerning her
- had spread, and a short pause succeeded, which seemed to ensure
- that it would now spread farther.
-
- "Do come, Anne" cried Mary, "come and look yourself. You will be too late
- if you do not make haste. They are parting; they are shaking hands.
- He is turning away. Not know Mr Elliot, indeed! You seem to have
- forgot all about Lyme."
-
- To pacify Mary, and perhaps screen her own embarrassment,
- Anne did move quietly to the window. She was just in time to ascertain
- that it really was Mr Elliot, which she had never believed,
- before he disappeared on one side, as Mrs Clay walked quickly off
- on the other; and checking the surprise which she could not but feel
- at such an appearance of friendly conference between two persons
- of totally opposite interest, she calmly said, "Yes, it is Mr Elliot,
- certainly. He has changed his hour of going, I suppose, that is all,
- or I may be mistaken, I might not attend;" and walked back to her chair,
- recomposed, and with the comfortable hope of having acquitted herself well.
-
- The visitors took their leave; and Charles, having civilly seen them off,
- and then made a face at them, and abused them for coming, began with--
-
- "Well, mother, I have done something for you that you will like.
- I have been to the theatre, and secured a box for to-morrow night.
- A'n't I a good boy? I know you love a play; and there is room for us all.
- It holds nine. I have engaged Captain Wentworth. Anne will
- not be sorry to join us, I am sure. We all like a play.
- Have not I done well, mother?"
-
- Mrs Musgrove was good humouredly beginning to express her perfect readiness
- for the play, if Henrietta and all the others liked it, when Mary
- eagerly interrupted her by exclaiming--
-
- "Good heavens, Charles! how can you think of such a thing?
- Take a box for to-morrow night! Have you forgot that we are engaged
- to Camden Place to-morrow night? and that we were most particularly asked
- to meet Lady Dalrymple and her daughter, and Mr Elliot, and all
- the principal family connexions, on purpose to be introduced to them?
- How can you be so forgetful?"
-
- "Phoo! phoo!" replied Charles, "what's an evening party?
- Never worth remembering. Your father might have asked us to dinner,
- I think, if he had wanted to see us. You may do as you like,
- but I shall go to the play."
-
- "Oh! Charles, I declare it will be too abominable if you do,
- when you promised to go."
-
- "No, I did not promise. I only smirked and bowed, and said the word
- `happy.' There was no promise."
-
- "But you must go, Charles. It would be unpardonable to fail.
- We were asked on purpose to be introduced. There was always
- such a great connexion between the Dalrymples and ourselves.
- Nothing ever happened on either side that was not announced immediately.
- We are quite near relations, you know; and Mr Elliot too,
- whom you ought so particularly to be acquainted with! Every attention
- is due to Mr Elliot. Consider, my father's heir: the future
- representative of the family."
-
- "Don't talk to me about heirs and representatives," cried Charles.
- "I am not one of those who neglect the reigning power to bow
- to the rising sun. If I would not go for the sake of your father,
- I should think it scandalous to go for the sake of his heir.
- What is Mr Elliot to me?" The careless expression was life to Anne,
- who saw that Captain Wentworth was all attention, looking and
- listening with his whole soul; and that the last words brought
- his enquiring eyes from Charles to herself.
-
- Charles and Mary still talked on in the same style; he, half serious
- and half jesting, maintaining the scheme for the play, and she,
- invariably serious, most warmly opposing it, and not omitting
- to make it known that, however determined to go to Camden Place herself,
- she should not think herself very well used, if they went to the play
- without her. Mrs Musgrove interposed.
-
- "We had better put it off. Charles, you had much better go back
- and change the box for Tuesday. It would be a pity to be divided,
- and we should be losing Miss Anne, too, if there is a party at her father's;
- and I am sure neither Henrietta nor I should care at all for the play,
- if Miss Anne could not be with us."
-
- Anne felt truly obliged to her for such kindness; and quite as much
- so for the opportunity it gave her of decidedly saying--
-
- "If it depended only on my inclination, ma'am, the party at home
- (excepting on Mary's account) would not be the smallest impediment.
- I have no pleasure in the sort of meeting, and should be too happy
- to change it for a play, and with you. But, it had better
- not be attempted, perhaps." She had spoken it; but she trembled
- when it was done, conscious that her words were listened to,
- and daring not even to try to observe their effect.
-
- It was soon generally agreed that Tuesday should be the day;
- Charles only reserving the advantage of still teasing his wife,
- by persisting that he would go to the play to-morrow if nobody else would.
-
- Captain Wentworth left his seat, and walked to the fire-place;
- probably for the sake of walking away from it soon afterwards,
- and taking a station, with less bare-faced design, by Anne.
-
- "You have not been long enough in Bath," said he, "to enjoy
- the evening parties of the place."
-
- "Oh! no. The usual character of them has nothing for me.
- I am no card-player."
-
- "You were not formerly, I know. You did not use to like cards;
- but time makes many changes."
-
- "I am not yet so much changed," cried Anne, and stopped, fearing she
- hardly knew what misconstruction. After waiting a few moments
- he said, and as if it were the result of immediate feeling,
- "It is a period, indeed! Eight years and a half is a period."
-
- Whether he would have proceeded farther was left to Anne's imagination
- to ponder over in a calmer hour; for while still hearing the sounds
- he had uttered, she was startled to other subjects by Henrietta,
- eager to make use of the present leisure for getting out,
- and calling on her companions to lose no time, lest somebody else
- should come in.
-
- They were obliged to move. Anne talked of being perfectly ready,
- and tried to look it; but she felt that could Henrietta have known
- the regret and reluctance of her heart in quitting that chair,
- in preparing to quit the room, she would have found, in all her own
- sensations for her cousin, in the very security of his affection,
- wherewith to pity her.
-
- Their preparations, however, were stopped short. Alarming sounds
- were heard; other visitors approached, and the door was thrown open
- for Sir Walter and Miss Elliot, whose entrance seemed to give
- a general chill. Anne felt an instant oppression, and wherever she looked
- saw symptoms of the same. The comfort, the freedom, the gaiety
- of the room was over, hushed into cold composure, determined silence,
- or insipid talk, to meet the heartless elegance of her father and sister.
- How mortifying to feel that it was so!
-
- Her jealous eye was satisfied in one particular. Captain Wentworth
- was acknowledged again by each, by Elizabeth more graciously than before.
- She even addressed him once, and looked at him more than once.
- Elizabeth was, in fact, revolving a great measure. The sequel
- explained it. After the waste of a few minutes in saying
- the proper nothings, she began to give the invitation which
- was to comprise all the remaining dues of the Musgroves.
- "To-morrow evening, to meet a few friends: no formal party."
- It was all said very gracefully, and the cards with which she had
- provided herself, the "Miss Elliot at home," were laid on the table,
- with a courteous, comprehensive smile to all, and one smile and
- one card more decidedly for Captain Wentworth. The truth was,
- that Elizabeth had been long enough in Bath to understand
- the importance of a man of such an air and appearance as his.
- The past was nothing. The present was that Captain Wentworth
- would move about well in her drawing-room. The card was pointedly given,
- and Sir Walter and Elizabeth arose and disappeared.
-
- The interruption had been short, though severe, and ease and animation
- returned to most of those they left as the door shut them out,
- but not to Anne. She could think only of the invitation she had
- with such astonishment witnessed, and of the manner in which
- it had been received; a manner of doubtful meaning, of surprise rather
- than gratification, of polite acknowledgement rather than acceptance.
- She knew him; she saw disdain in his eye, and could not venture to believe
- that he had determined to accept such an offering, as an atonement
- for all the insolence of the past. Her spirits sank. He held the card
- in his hand after they were gone, as if deeply considering it.
-
- "Only think of Elizabeth's including everybody!" whispered Mary
- very audibly. "I do not wonder Captain Wentworth is delighted!
- You see he cannot put the card out of his hand."
-
- Anne caught his eye, saw his cheeks glow, and his mouth form itself
- into a momentary expression of contempt, and turned away,
- that she might neither see nor hear more to vex her.
-
- The party separated. The gentlemen had their own pursuits,
- the ladies proceeded on their own business, and they met no more while
- Anne belonged to them. She was earnestly begged to return and dine,
- and give them all the rest of the day, but her spirits had been
- so long exerted that at present she felt unequal to more,
- and fit only for home, where she might be sure of being as silent
- as she chose.
-
- Promising to be with them the whole of the following morning, therefore,
- she closed the fatigues of the present by a toilsome walk to Camden Place,
- there to spend the evening chiefly in listening to the busy arrangements
- of Elizabeth and Mrs Clay for the morrow's party, the frequent enumeration
- of the persons invited, and the continually improving detail of all
- the embellishments which were to make it the most completely elegant
- of its kind in Bath, while harassing herself with the never-ending
- question, of whether Captain Wentworth would come or not? They were
- reckoning him as certain, but with her it was a gnawing solicitude
- never appeased for five minutes together. She generally thought
- he would come, because she generally thought he ought; but it was a case
- which she could not so shape into any positive act of duty or discretion,
- as inevitably to defy the suggestions of very opposite feelings.
-
- She only roused herself from the broodings of this restless agitation,
- to let Mrs Clay know that she had been seen with Mr Elliot
- three hours after his being supposed to be out of Bath,
- for having watched in vain for some intimation of the interview
- from the lady herself, she determined to mention it, and it seemed to her
- there was guilt in Mrs Clay's face as she listened. It was transient:
- cleared away in an instant; but Anne could imagine she read there
- the consciousness of having, by some complication of mutual trick,
- or some overbearing authority of his, been obliged to attend
- (perhaps for half an hour) to his lectures and restrictions on her designs
- on Sir Walter. She exclaimed, however, with a very tolerable
- imitation of nature: --
-
- "Oh! dear! very true. Only think, Miss Elliot, to my great surprise
- I met with Mr Elliot in Bath Street. I was never more astonished.
- He turned back and walked with me to the Pump Yard. He had been prevented
- setting off for Thornberry, but I really forget by what;
- for I was in a hurry, and could not much attend, and I can only answer
- for his being determined not to be delayed in his return.
- He wanted to know how early he might be admitted to-morrow.
- He was full of `to-morrow,' and it is very evident that I have been
- full of it too, ever since I entered the house, and learnt the extension
- of your plan and all that had happened, or my seeing him could never have
- gone so entirely out of my head."
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- Chapter 23
-
-
- One day only had passed since Anne's conversation with Mrs Smith;
- but a keener interest had succeeded, and she was now so little touched
- by Mr Elliot's conduct, except by its effects in one quarter,
- that it became a matter of course the next morning, still to defer
- her explanatory visit in Rivers Street. She had promised to be
- with the Musgroves from breakfast to dinner. Her faith was plighted,
- and Mr Elliot's character, like the Sultaness Scheherazade's head,
- must live another day.
-
- She could not keep her appointment punctually, however;
- the weather was unfavourable, and she had grieved over the rain
- on her friends' account, and felt it very much on her own,
- before she was able to attempt the walk. When she reached the White Hart,
- and made her way to the proper apartment, she found herself
- neither arriving quite in time, nor the first to arrive.
- The party before her were, Mrs Musgrove, talking to Mrs Croft,
- and Captain Harville to Captain Wentworth; and she immediately heard
- that Mary and Henrietta, too impatient to wait, had gone out the moment
- it had cleared, but would be back again soon, and that the strictest
- injunctions had been left with Mrs Musgrove to keep her there
- till they returned. She had only to submit, sit down,
- be outwardly composed, and feel herself plunged at once
- in all the agitations which she had merely laid her account of
- tasting a little before the morning closed. There was no delay,
- no waste of time. She was deep in the happiness of such misery,
- or the misery of such happiness, instantly. Two minutes after
- her entering the room, Captain Wentworth said--
-
- "We will write the letter we were talking of, Harville, now,
- if you will give me materials."
-
- Materials were at hand, on a separate table; he went to it,
- and nearly turning his back to them all, was engrossed by writing.
-
- Mrs Musgrove was giving Mrs Croft the history of her eldest
- daughter's engagement, and just in that inconvenient tone of voice
- which was perfectly audible while it pretended to be a whisper.
- Anne felt that she did not belong to the conversation, and yet,
- as Captain Harville seemed thoughtful and not disposed to talk,
- she could not avoid hearing many undesirable particulars; such as,
- "how Mr Musgrove and my brother Hayter had met again and again
- to talk it over; what my brother Hayter had said one day,
- and what Mr Musgrove had proposed the next, and what had occurred
- to my sister Hayter, and what the young people had wished, and what
- I said at first I never could consent to, but was afterwards persuaded
- to think might do very well," and a great deal in the same style
- of open-hearted communication: minutiae which, even with every advantage
- of taste and delicacy, which good Mrs Musgrove could not give,
- could be properly interesting only to the principals. Mrs Croft
- was attending with great good-humour, and whenever she spoke at all,
- it was very sensibly. Anne hoped the gentlemen might each be
- too much self-occupied to hear.
-
- "And so, ma'am, all these thing considered," said Mrs Musgrove,
- in her powerful whisper, "though we could have wished it different,
- yet, altogether, we did not think it fair to stand out any longer,
- for Charles Hayter was quite wild about it, and Henrietta was
- pretty near as bad; and so we thought they had better marry at once,
- and make the best of it, as many others have done before them.
- At any rate, said I, it will be better than a long engagement."
-
- "That is precisely what I was going to observe," cried Mrs Croft.
- "I would rather have young people settle on a small income at once,
- and have to struggle with a few difficulties together, than be
- involved in a long engagement. I always think that no mutual--"
-
- "Oh! dear Mrs Croft," cried Mrs Musgrove, unable to let her
- finish her speech, "there is nothing I so abominate for young people
- as a long engagement. It is what I always protested against
- for my children. It is all very well, I used to say, for young people
- to be engaged, if there is a certainty of their being able to marry
- in six months, or even in twelve; but a long engagement--"
-
- "Yes, dear ma'am," said Mrs Croft, "or an uncertain engagement,
- an engagement which may be long. To begin without knowing
- that at such a time there will be the means of marrying,
- I hold to be very unsafe and unwise, and what I think all parents
- should prevent as far as they can."
-
- Anne found an unexpected interest here. She felt its application
- to herself, felt it in a nervous thrill all over her; and at the same
- moment that her eyes instinctively glanced towards the distant table,
- Captain Wentworth's pen ceased to move, his head was raised, pausing,
- listening, and he turned round the next instant to give a look,
- one quick, conscious look at her.
-
- The two ladies continued to talk, to re-urge the same admitted truths,
- and enforce them with such examples of the ill effect of
- a contrary practice as had fallen within their observation,
- but Anne heard nothing distinctly; it was only a buzz of words in her ear,
- her mind was in confusion.
-
- Captain Harville, who had in truth been hearing none of it,
- now left his seat, and moved to a window, and Anne seeming to watch him,
- though it was from thorough absence of mind, became gradually sensible
- that he was inviting her to join him where he stood. He looked at her
- with a smile, and a little motion of the head, which expressed,
- "Come to me, I have something to say;" and the unaffected,
- easy kindness of manner which denoted the feelings of an older acquaintance
- than he really was, strongly enforced the invitation. She roused herself
- and went to him. The window at which he stood was at the other end
- of the room from where the two ladies were sitting, and though nearer
- to Captain Wentworth's table, not very near. As she joined him,
- Captain Harville's countenance re-assumed the serious, thoughtful
- expression which seemed its natural character.
-
- "Look here," said he, unfolding a parcel in his hand, and displaying
- a small miniature painting, "do you know who that is?"
-
- "Certainly: Captain Benwick."
-
- "Yes, and you may guess who it is for. But," (in a deep tone,)
- "it was not done for her. Miss Elliot, do you remember our
- walking together at Lyme, and grieving for him? I little thought then--
- but no matter. This was drawn at the Cape. He met with
- a clever young German artist at the Cape, and in compliance with a promise
- to my poor sister, sat to him, and was bringing it home for her;
- and I have now the charge of getting it properly set for another!
- It was a commission to me! But who else was there to employ?
- I hope I can allow for him. I am not sorry, indeed, to make it
- over to another. He undertakes it;" (looking towards Captain Wentworth,)
- "he is writing about it now." And with a quivering lip he wound up
- the whole by adding, "Poor Fanny! she would not have forgotten him so soon!"
-
- "No," replied Anne, in a low, feeling voice. "That I can easily believe."
-
- "It was not in her nature. She doted on him."
-
- "It would not be the nature of any woman who truly loved."
-
- Captain Harville smiled, as much as to say, "Do you claim that
- for your sex?" and she answered the question, smiling also,
- "Yes. We certainly do not forget you as soon as you forget us.
- It is, perhaps, our fate rather than our merit. We cannot help ourselves.
- We live at home, quiet, confined, and our feelings prey upon us.
- You are forced on exertion. You have always a profession, pursuits,
- business of some sort or other, to take you back into the world immediately,
- and continual occupation and change soon weaken impressions."
-
- "Granting your assertion that the world does all this so soon for men
- (which, however, I do not think I shall grant), it does not apply
- to Benwick. He has not been forced upon any exertion. The peace
- turned him on shore at the very moment, and he has been living with us,
- in our little family circle, ever since."
-
- "True," said Anne, "very true; I did not recollect; but what shall
- we say now, Captain Harville? If the change be not from
- outward circumstances, it must be from within; it must be nature,
- man's nature, which has done the business for Captain Benwick."
-
- "No, no, it is not man's nature. I will not allow it to be more
- man's nature than woman's to be inconstant and forget those they do love,
- or have loved. I believe the reverse. I believe in a true analogy
- between our bodily frames and our mental; and that as our bodies are
- the strongest, so are our feelings; capable of bearing most rough usage,
- and riding out the heaviest weather."
-
- "Your feelings may be the strongest," replied Anne, "but the same spirit
- of analogy will authorise me to assert that ours are the most tender.
- Man is more robust than woman, but he is not longer lived;
- which exactly explains my view of the nature of their attachments.
- Nay, it would be too hard upon you, if it were otherwise.
- You have difficulties, and privations, and dangers enough to struggle with.
- You are always labouring and toiling, exposed to every risk and hardship.
- Your home, country, friends, all quitted. Neither time, nor health,
- nor life, to be called your own. It would be hard, indeed"
- (with a faltering voice), "if woman's feelings were to be
- added to all this."
-
- "We shall never agree upon this question," Captain Harville
- was beginning to say, when a slight noise called their attention
- to Captain Wentworth's hitherto perfectly quiet division of the room.
- It was nothing more than that his pen had fallen down; but Anne was
- startled at finding him nearer than she had supposed, and half inclined
- to suspect that the pen had only fallen because he had been
- occupied by them, striving to catch sounds, which yet she did not think
- he could have caught.
-
- "Have you finished your letter?" said Captain Harville.
-
- "Not quite, a few lines more. I shall have done in five minutes."
-
- "There is no hurry on my side. I am only ready whenever you are.
- I am in very good anchorage here," (smiling at Anne,) "well supplied,
- and want for nothing. No hurry for a signal at all. Well, Miss Elliot,"
- (lowering his voice,) "as I was saying we shall never agree,
- I suppose, upon this point. No man and woman, would, probably.
- But let me observe that all histories are against you--all stories,
- prose and verse. If I had such a memory as Benwick, I could bring you
- fifty quotations in a moment on my side the argument, and I do not think
- I ever opened a book in my life which had not something to say
- upon woman's inconstancy. Songs and proverbs, all talk
- of woman's fickleness. But perhaps you will say, these were all
- written by men."
-
- "Perhaps I shall. Yes, yes, if you please, no reference to examples
- in books. Men have had every advantage of us in telling their own story.
- Education has been theirs in so much higher a degree; the pen has
- been in their hands. I will not allow books to prove anything."
-
- "But how shall we prove anything?"
-
- "We never shall. We never can expect to prove any thing upon such a point.
- It is a difference of opinion which does not admit of proof.
- We each begin, probably, with a little bias towards our own sex;
- and upon that bias build every circumstance in favour of it
- which has occurred within our own circle; many of which circumstances
- (perhaps those very cases which strike us the most) may be precisely such
- as cannot be brought forward without betraying a confidence,
- or in some respect saying what should not be said."
-
- "Ah!" cried Captain Harville, in a tone of strong feeling,
- "if I could but make you comprehend what a man suffers when he takes
- a last look at his wife and children, and watches the boat
- that he has sent them off in, as long as it is in sight,
- and then turns away and says, `God knows whether we ever meet again!'
- And then, if I could convey to you the glow of his soul when he does
- see them again; when, coming back after a twelvemonth's absence,
- perhaps, and obliged to put into another port, he calculates how soon
- it be possible to get them there, pretending to deceive himself,
- and saying, `They cannot be here till such a day,' but all the while
- hoping for them twelve hours sooner, and seeing them arrive at last,
- as if Heaven had given them wings, by many hours sooner still!
- If I could explain to you all this, and all that a man can bear and do,
- and glories to do, for the sake of these treasures of his existence!
- I speak, you know, only of such men as have hearts!" pressing his own
- with emotion.
-
- "Oh!" cried Anne eagerly, "I hope I do justice to all that is felt by you,
- and by those who resemble you. God forbid that I should undervalue
- the warm and faithful feelings of any of my fellow-creatures!
- I should deserve utter contempt if I dared to suppose that true attachment
- and constancy were known only by woman. No, I believe you capable
- of everything great and good in your married lives. I believe you equal
- to every important exertion, and to every domestic forbearance,
- so long as--if I may be allowed the expression--so long as you have
- an object. I mean while the woman you love lives, and lives for you.
- All the privilege I claim for my own sex (it is not a very enviable one;
- you need not covet it), is that of loving longest, when existence
- or when hope is gone."
-
- She could not immediately have uttered another sentence; her heart
- was too full, her breath too much oppressed.
-
- "You are a good soul," cried Captain Harville, putting his hand
- on her arm, quite affectionately. "There is no quarreling with you.
- And when I think of Benwick, my tongue is tied."
-
- Their attention was called towards the others. Mrs Croft was taking leave.
-
- "Here, Frederick, you and I part company, I believe," said she.
- "I am going home, and you have an engagement with your friend.
- To-night we may have the pleasure of all meeting again at your party,"
- (turning to Anne.) "We had your sister's card yesterday,
- and I understood Frederick had a card too, though I did not see it;
- and you are disengaged, Frederick, are you not, as well as ourselves?"
-
- Captain Wentworth was folding up a letter in great haste, and either
- could not or would not answer fully.
-
- "Yes," said he, "very true; here we separate, but Harville and I
- shall soon be after you; that is, Harville, if you are ready,
- I am in half a minute. I know you will not be sorry to be off.
- I shall be at your service in half a minute."
-
- Mrs Croft left them, and Captain Wentworth, having sealed his letter
- with great rapidity, was indeed ready, and had even a hurried,
- agitated air, which shewed impatience to be gone. Anne know not how
- to understand it. She had the kindest "Good morning, God bless you!"
- from Captain Harville, but from him not a word, nor a look!
- He had passed out of the room without a look!
-
- She had only time, however, to move closer to the table where
- he had been writing, when footsteps were heard returning;
- the door opened, it was himself. He begged their pardon,
- but he had forgotten his gloves, and instantly crossing the room
- to the writing table, he drew out a letter from under the scattered paper,
- placed it before Anne with eyes of glowing entreaty fixed on her
- for a time, and hastily collecting his gloves, was again out of the room,
- almost before Mrs Musgrove was aware of his being in it:
- the work of an instant!
-
- The revolution which one instant had made in Anne, was almost
- beyond expression. The letter, with a direction hardly legible,
- to "Miss A. E.--," was evidently the one which he had been folding
- so hastily. While supposed to be writing only to Captain Benwick,
- he had been also addressing her! On the contents of that letter
- depended all which this world could do for her. Anything was possible,
- anything might be defied rather than suspense. Mrs Musgrove had
- little arrangements of her own at her own table; to their protection
- she must trust, and sinking into the chair which he had occupied,
- succeeding to the very spot where he had leaned and written,
- her eyes devoured the following words:
-
-
- "I can listen no longer in silence. I must speak to you by such means
- as are within my reach. You pierce my soul. I am half agony,
- half hope. Tell me not that I am too late, that such precious feelings
- are gone for ever. I offer myself to you again with a heart
- even more your own than when you almost broke it, eight years
- and a half ago. Dare not say that man forgets sooner than woman,
- that his love has an earlier death. I have loved none but you.
- Unjust I may have been, weak and resentful I have been,
- but never inconstant. You alone have brought me to Bath.
- For you alone, I think and plan. Have you not seen this?
- Can you fail to have understood my wishes? I had not waited even
- these ten days, could I have read your feelings, as I think you must have
- penetrated mine. I can hardly write. I am every instant hearing
- something which overpowers me. You sink your voice, but I can
- distinguish the tones of that voice when they would be lost on others.
- Too good, too excellent creature! You do us justice, indeed.
- You do believe that there is true attachment and constancy among men.
- Believe it to be most fervent, most undeviating, in F. W.
-
- "I must go, uncertain of my fate; but I shall return hither,
- or follow your party, as soon as possible. A word, a look,
- will be enough to decide whether I enter your father's house
- this evening or never."
-
-
- Such a letter was not to be soon recovered from. Half and hour's solitude
- and reflection might have tranquillized her; but the ten minutes only
- which now passed before she was interrupted, with all the restraints
- of her situation, could do nothing towards tranquillity. Every moment
- rather brought fresh agitation. It was overpowering happiness.
- And before she was beyond the first stage of full sensation,
- Charles, Mary, and Henrietta all came in.
-
- The absolute necessity of seeming like herself produced then
- an immediate struggle; but after a while she could do no more.
- She began not to understand a word they said, and was obliged
- to plead indisposition and excuse herself. They could then see
- that she looked very ill, were shocked and concerned, and would not
- stir without her for the world. This was dreadful. Would they only
- have gone away, and left her in the quiet possession of that room
- it would have been her cure; but to have them all standing or
- waiting around her was distracting, and in desperation,
- she said she would go home.
-
- "By all means, my dear," cried Mrs Musgrove, "go home directly,
- and take care of yourself, that you may be fit for the evening.
- I wish Sarah was here to doctor you, but I am no doctor myself.
- Charles, ring and order a chair. She must not walk."
-
- But the chair would never do. Worse than all! To lose the possibility
- of speaking two words to Captain Wentworth in the course of her quiet,
- solitary progress up the town (and she felt almost certain of meeting him)
- could not be borne. The chair was earnestly protested against,
- and Mrs Musgrove, who thought only of one sort of illness,
- having assured herself with some anxiety, that there had been no fall
- in the case; that Anne had not at any time lately slipped down,
- and got a blow on her head; that she was perfectly convinced of having
- had no fall; could part with her cheerfully, and depend on
- finding her better at night.
-
- Anxious to omit no possible precaution, Anne struggled, and said--
-
- "I am afraid, ma'am, that it is not perfectly understood.
- Pray be so good as to mention to the other gentlemen that we hope
- to see your whole party this evening. I am afraid there had been
- some mistake; and I wish you particularly to assure Captain Harville
- and Captain Wentworth, that we hope to see them both."
-
- "Oh! my dear, it is quite understood, I give you my word.
- Captain Harville has no thought but of going."
-
- "Do you think so? But I am afraid; and I should be so very sorry.
- Will you promise me to mention it, when you see them again?
- You will see them both this morning, I dare say. Do promise me."
-
- "To be sure I will, if you wish it. Charles, if you see Captain Harville
- anywhere, remember to give Miss Anne's message. But indeed, my dear,
- you need not be uneasy. Captain Harville holds himself quite engaged,
- I'll answer for it; and Captain Wentworth the same, I dare say."
-
- Anne could do no more; but her heart prophesied some mischance
- to damp the perfection of her felicity. It could not be very lasting,
- however. Even if he did not come to Camden Place himself,
- it would be in her power to send an intelligible sentence
- by Captain Harville. Another momentary vexation occurred.
- Charles, in his real concern and good nature, would go home with her;
- there was no preventing him. This was almost cruel. But she could not
- be long ungrateful; he was sacrificing an engagement at a gunsmith's,
- to be of use to her; and she set off with him, with no feeling
- but gratitude apparent.
-
- They were on Union Street, when a quicker step behind, a something
- of familiar sound, gave her two moments' preparation for the sight
- of Captain Wentworth. He joined them; but, as if irresolute
- whether to join or to pass on, said nothing, only looked.
- Anne could command herself enough to receive that look,
- and not repulsively. The cheeks which had been pale now glowed,
- and the movements which had hesitated were decided. He walked by her side.
- Presently, struck by a sudden thought, Charles said--
-
- "Captain Wentworth, which way are you going? Only to Gay Street,
- or farther up the town?"
-
- "I hardly know," replied Captain Wentworth, surprised.
-
- "Are you going as high as Belmont? Are you going near Camden Place?
- Because, if you are, I shall have no scruple in asking you
- to take my place, and give Anne your arm to her father's door.
- She is rather done for this morning, and must not go so far without help,
- and I ought to be at that fellow's in the Market Place.
- He promised me the sight of a capital gun he is just going to send off;
- said he would keep it unpacked to the last possible moment,
- that I might see it; and if I do not turn back now, I have no chance.
- By his description, a good deal like the second size double-barrel of mine,
- which you shot with one day round Winthrop."
-
- There could not be an objection. There could be only the most
- proper alacrity, a most obliging compliance for public view;
- and smiles reined in and spirits dancing in private rapture.
- In half a minute Charles was at the bottom of Union Street again,
- and the other two proceeding together: and soon words enough had passed
- between them to decide their direction towards the comparatively quiet
- and retired gravel walk, where the power of conversation would make
- the present hour a blessing indeed, and prepare it for all
- the immortality which the happiest recollections of their own future lives
- could bestow. There they exchanged again those feelings
- and those promises which had once before seemed to secure everything,
- but which had been followed by so many, many years of division
- and estrangement. There they returned again into the past,
- more exquisitely happy, perhaps, in their re-union, than when
- it had been first projected; more tender, more tried, more fixed
- in a knowledge of each other's character, truth, and attachment;
- more equal to act, more justified in acting. And there, as they slowly
- paced the gradual ascent, heedless of every group around them,
- seeing neither sauntering politicians, bustling housekeepers,
- flirting girls, nor nursery-maids and children, they could indulge in
- those retrospections and acknowledgements, and especially in
- those explanations of what had directly preceded the present moment,
- which were so poignant and so ceaseless in interest. All the little
- variations of the last week were gone through; and of yesterday
- and today there could scarcely be an end.
-
- She had not mistaken him. Jealousy of Mr Elliot had been
- the retarding weight, the doubt, the torment. That had begun to operate
- in the very hour of first meeting her in Bath; that had returned,
- after a short suspension, to ruin the concert; and that had influenced him
- in everything he had said and done, or omitted to say and do,
- in the last four-and-twenty hours. It had been gradually yielding
- to the better hopes which her looks, or words, or actions
- occasionally encouraged; it had been vanquished at last by
- those sentiments and those tones which had reached him while she talked
- with Captain Harville; and under the irresistible governance of which
- he had seized a sheet of paper, and poured out his feelings.
-
- Of what he had then written, nothing was to be retracted or qualified.
- He persisted in having loved none but her. She had never been supplanted.
- He never even believed himself to see her equal. Thus much indeed
- he was obliged to acknowledge: that he had been constant unconsciously,
- nay unintentionally; that he had meant to forget her, and believed it
- to be done. He had imagined himself indifferent, when he had only
- been angry; and he had been unjust to her merits, because he had been
- a sufferer from them. Her character was now fixed on his mind
- as perfection itself, maintaining the loveliest medium of fortitude
- and gentleness; but he was obliged to acknowledge that only at Uppercross
- had he learnt to do her justice, and only at Lyme had he begun
- to understand himself. At Lyme, he had received lessons
- of more than one sort. The passing admiration of Mr Elliot
- had at least roused him, and the scenes on the Cobb and at
- Captain Harville's had fixed her superiority.
-
- In his preceding attempts to attach himself to Louisa Musgrove
- (the attempts of angry pride), he protested that he had for ever
- felt it to be impossible; that he had not cared, could not care,
- for Louisa; though till that day, till the leisure for reflection
- which followed it, he had not understood the perfect excellence
- of the mind with which Louisa's could so ill bear a comparison,
- or the perfect unrivalled hold it possessed over his own.
- There, he had learnt to distinguish between the steadiness of principle
- and the obstinacy of self-will, between the darings of heedlessness
- and the resolution of a collected mind. There he had seen everything
- to exalt in his estimation the woman he had lost; and there begun
- to deplore the pride, the folly, the madness of resentment,
- which had kept him from trying to regain her when thrown in his way.
-
- From that period his penance had become severe. He had no sooner
- been free from the horror and remorse attending the first few days
- of Louisa's accident, no sooner begun to feel himself alive again,
- than he had begun to feel himself, though alive, not at liberty.
-
- "I found," said he, "that I was considered by Harville an engaged man!
- That neither Harville nor his wife entertained a doubt of our
- mutual attachment. I was startled and shocked. To a degree,
- I could contradict this instantly; but, when I began to reflect
- that others might have felt the same--her own family, nay,
- perhaps herself--I was no longer at my own disposal. I was hers in honour
- if she wished it. I had been unguarded. I had not thought seriously
- on this subject before. I had not considered that my excessive intimacy
- must have its danger of ill consequence in many ways; and that I had
- no right to be trying whether I could attach myself to either of the girls,
- at the risk of raising even an unpleasant report, were there no other
- ill effects. I had been grossly wrong, and must abide the consequences."
-
- He found too late, in short, that he had entangled himself;
- and that precisely as he became fully satisfied of his not caring
- for Louisa at all, he must regard himself as bound to her,
- if her sentiments for him were what the Harvilles supposed.
- It determined him to leave Lyme, and await her complete recovery elsewhere.
- He would gladly weaken, by any fair means, whatever feelings or
- speculations concerning him might exist; and he went, therefore,
- to his brother's, meaning after a while to return to Kellynch,
- and act as circumstances might require.
-
- "I was six weeks with Edward," said he, "and saw him happy.
- I could have no other pleasure. I deserved none. He enquired after you
- very particularly; asked even if you were personally altered,
- little suspecting that to my eye you could never alter."
-
- Anne smiled, and let it pass. It was too pleasing a blunder
- for a reproach. It is something for a woman to be assured,
- in her eight-and-twentieth year, that she has not lost one charm
- of earlier youth; but the value of such homage was inexpressibly increased
- to Anne, by comparing it with former words, and feeling it to be
- the result, not the cause of a revival of his warm attachment.
-
- He had remained in Shropshire, lamenting the blindness of his own pride,
- and the blunders of his own calculations, till at once released from Louisa
- by the astonishing and felicitous intelligence of her engagement
- with Benwick.
-
- "Here," said he, "ended the worst of my state; for now I could at least
- put myself in the way of happiness; I could exert myself;
- I could do something. But to be waiting so long in inaction,
- and waiting only for evil, had been dreadful. Within the first
- five minutes I said, `I will be at Bath on Wednesday,' and I was.
- Was it unpardonable to think it worth my while to come? and to arrive
- with some degree of hope? You were single. It was possible that
- you might retain the feelings of the past, as I did; and one encouragement
- happened to be mine. I could never doubt that you would be loved and
- sought by others, but I knew to a certainty that you had refused one man,
- at least, of better pretensions than myself; and I could not help
- often saying, `Was this for me?'"
-
- Their first meeting in Milsom Street afforded much to be said,
- but the concert still more. That evening seemed to be made up
- of exquisite moments. The moment of her stepping forward
- in the Octagon Room to speak to him: the moment of Mr Elliot's appearing
- and tearing her away, and one or two subsequent moments,
- marked by returning hope or increasing despondency, were dwelt on
- with energy.
-
- "To see you," cried he, "in the midst of those who could not be
- my well-wishers; to see your cousin close by you, conversing and smiling,
- and feel all the horrible eligibilities and proprieties of the match!
- To consider it as the certain wish of every being who could hope
- to influence you! Even if your own feelings were reluctant or indifferent,
- to consider what powerful supports would be his! Was it not enough
- to make the fool of me which I appeared? How could I look on
- without agony? Was not the very sight of the friend who sat behind you,
- was not the recollection of what had been, the knowledge of her influence,
- the indelible, immoveable impression of what persuasion had once done--
- was it not all against me?"
-
- "You should have distinguished," replied Anne. "You should not have
- suspected me now; the case is so different, and my age is so different.
- If I was wrong in yielding to persuasion once, remember that
- it was to persuasion exerted on the side of safety, not of risk.
- When I yielded, I thought it was to duty, but no duty could be called
- in aid here. In marrying a man indifferent to me, all risk
- would have been incurred, and all duty violated."
-
- "Perhaps I ought to have reasoned thus," he replied, "but I could not.
- I could not derive benefit from the late knowledge I had acquired
- of your character. I could not bring it into play; it was overwhelmed,
- buried, lost in those earlier feelings which I had been smarting under
- year after year. I could think of you only as one who had yielded,
- who had given me up, who had been influenced by any one rather than by me.
- I saw you with the very person who had guided you in that year of misery.
- I had no reason to believe her of less authority now. The force of habit
- was to be added."
-
- "I should have thought," said Anne, "that my manner to yourself
- might have spared you much or all of this."
-
- "No, no! your manner might be only the ease which your engagement
- to another man would give. I left you in this belief; and yet,
- I was determined to see you again. My spirits rallied with the morning,
- and I felt that I had still a motive for remaining here."
-
- At last Anne was at home again, and happier than any one in that house
- could have conceived. All the surprise and suspense, and every other
- painful part of the morning dissipated by this conversation,
- she re-entered the house so happy as to be obliged to find an alloy
- in some momentary apprehensions of its being impossible to last.
- An interval of meditation, serious and grateful, was the best corrective
- of everything dangerous in such high-wrought felicity; and she went
- to her room, and grew steadfast and fearless in the thankfulness
- of her enjoyment.
-
- The evening came, the drawing-rooms were lighted up, the company assembled.
- It was but a card party, it was but a mixture of those who had
- never met before, and those who met too often; a commonplace business,
- too numerous for intimacy, too small for variety; but Anne had never found
- an evening shorter. Glowing and lovely in sensibility and happiness,
- and more generally admired than she thought about or cared for,
- she had cheerful or forbearing feelings for every creature around her.
- Mr Elliot was there; she avoided, but she could pity him.
- The Wallises, she had amusement in understanding them. Lady Dalrymple
- and Miss Carteret--they would soon be innoxious cousins to her.
- She cared not for Mrs Clay, and had nothing to blush for in
- the public manners of her father and sister. With the Musgroves,
- there was the happy chat of perfect ease; with Captain Harville,
- the kind-hearted intercourse of brother and sister; with Lady Russell,
- attempts at conversation, which a delicious consciousness cut short;
- with Admiral and Mrs Croft, everything of peculiar cordiality and
- fervent interest, which the same consciousness sought to conceal;
- and with Captain Wentworth, some moments of communications
- continually occurring, and always the hope of more, and always
- the knowledge of his being there.
-
- It was in one of these short meetings, each apparently occupied
- in admiring a fine display of greenhouse plants, that she said--
-
- "I have been thinking over the past, and trying impartially
- to judge of the right and wrong, I mean with regard to myself;
- and I must believe that I was right, much as I suffered from it,
- that I was perfectly right in being guided by the friend whom
- you will love better than you do now. To me, she was in the place
- of a parent. Do not mistake me, however. I am not saying
- that she did not err in her advice. It was, perhaps, one of those cases
- in which advice is good or bad only as the event decides;
- and for myself, I certainly never should, in any circumstance
- of tolerable similarity, give such advice. But I mean, that I was right
- in submitting to her, and that if I had done otherwise, I should have
- suffered more in continuing the engagement than I did even in giving it up,
- because I should have suffered in my conscience. I have now,
- as far as such a sentiment is allowable in human nature, nothing
- to reproach myself with; and if I mistake not, a strong sense of duty
- is no bad part of a woman's portion."
-
- He looked at her, looked at Lady Russell, and looking again at her,
- replied, as if in cool deliberation--
-
- "Not yet. But there are hopes of her being forgiven in time.
- I trust to being in charity with her soon. But I too have been
- thinking over the past, and a question has suggested itself,
- whether there may not have been one person more my enemy
- even than that lady? My own self. Tell me if, when I returned
- to England in the year eight, with a few thousand pounds,
- and was posted into the Laconia, if I had then written to you,
- would you have answered my letter? Would you, in short,
- have renewed the engagement then?"
-
- "Would I!" was all her answer; but the accent was decisive enough.
-
- "Good God!" he cried, "you would! It is not that I did not think of it,
- or desire it, as what could alone crown all my other success;
- but I was proud, too proud to ask again. I did not understand you.
- I shut my eyes, and would not understand you, or do you justice.
- This is a recollection which ought to make me forgive every one
- sooner than myself. Six years of separation and suffering
- might have been spared. It is a sort of pain, too, which is new to me.
- I have been used to the gratification of believing myself to earn
- every blessing that I enjoyed. I have valued myself on honourable toils
- and just rewards. Like other great men under reverses," he added,
- with a smile. "I must endeavour to subdue my mind to my fortune.
- I must learn to brook being happier than I deserve."
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- Chapter 24
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- Who can be in doubt of what followed? When any two young people
- take it into their heads to marry, they are pretty sure by perseverance
- to carry their point, be they ever so poor, or ever so imprudent,
- or ever so little likely to be necessary to each other's ultimate comfort.
- This may be bad morality to conclude with, but I believe it to be truth;
- and if such parties succeed, how should a Captain Wentworth and
- an Anne Elliot, with the advantage of maturity of mind,
- consciousness of right, and one independent fortune between them,
- fail of bearing down every opposition? They might in fact,
- have borne down a great deal more than they met with, for there was
- little to distress them beyond the want of graciousness and warmth.
- Sir Walter made no objection, and Elizabeth did nothing worse
- than look cold and unconcerned. Captain Wentworth, with five-and-twenty
- thousand pounds, and as high in his profession as merit and activity
- could place him, was no longer nobody. He was now esteemed quite worthy
- to address the daughter of a foolish, spendthrift baronet,
- who had not had principle or sense enough to maintain himself
- in the situation in which Providence had placed him, and who could
- give his daughter at present but a small part of the share
- of ten thousand pounds which must be hers hereafter.
-
- Sir Walter, indeed, though he had no affection for Anne,
- and no vanity flattered, to make him really happy on the occasion,
- was very far from thinking it a bad match for her. On the contrary,
- when he saw more of Captain Wentworth, saw him repeatedly by daylight,
- and eyed him well, he was very much struck by his personal claims,
- and felt that his superiority of appearance might be not unfairly balanced
- against her superiority of rank; and all this, assisted by
- his well-sounding name, enabled Sir Walter at last to prepare his pen,
- with a very good grace, for the insertion of the marriage
- in the volume of honour.
-
- The only one among them, whose opposition of feeling could excite
- any serious anxiety was Lady Russell. Anne knew that Lady Russell
- must be suffering some pain in understanding and relinquishing Mr Elliot,
- and be making some struggles to become truly acquainted with,
- and do justice to Captain Wentworth. This however was what
- Lady Russell had now to do. She must learn to feel that she had
- been mistaken with regard to both; that she had been unfairly influenced
- by appearances in each; that because Captain Wentworth's manners
- had not suited her own ideas, she had been too quick in suspecting them
- to indicate a character of dangerous impetuosity; and that because
- Mr Elliot's manners had precisely pleased her in their propriety
- and correctness, their general politeness and suavity, she had been
- too quick in receiving them as the certain result of the most correct
- opinions and well-regulated mind. There was nothing less
- for Lady Russell to do, than to admit that she had been
- pretty completely wrong, and to take up a new set of opinions
- and of hopes.
-
- There is a quickness of perception in some, a nicety in the discernment
- of character, a natural penetration, in short, which no experience
- in others can equal, and Lady Russell had been less gifted
- in this part of understanding than her young friend. But she was
- a very good woman, and if her second object was to be sensible
- and well-judging, her first was to see Anne happy. She loved Anne
- better than she loved her own abilities; and when the awkwardness
- of the beginning was over, found little hardship in attaching herself
- as a mother to the man who was securing the happiness of her other child.
-
- Of all the family, Mary was probably the one most immediately gratified
- by the circumstance. It was creditable to have a sister married,
- and she might flatter herself with having been greatly instrumental
- to the connexion, by keeping Anne with her in the autumn;
- and as her own sister must be better than her husband's sisters,
- it was very agreeable that Captain Wentworth should be a richer man than
- either Captain Benwick or Charles Hayter. She had something to suffer,
- perhaps, when they came into contact again, in seeing Anne restored
- to the rights of seniority, and the mistress of a very pretty landaulette;
- but she had a future to look forward to, of powerful consolation.
- Anne had no Uppercross Hall before her, no landed estate,
- no headship of a family; and if they could but keep Captain Wentworth
- from being made a baronet, she would not change situations with Anne.
-
- It would be well for the eldest sister if she were equally satisfied
- with her situation, for a change is not very probable there.
- She had soon the mortification of seeing Mr Elliot withdraw,
- and no one of proper condition has since presented himself to raise
- even the unfounded hopes which sunk with him.
-
- The news of his cousins Anne's engagement burst on Mr Elliot
- most unexpectedly. It deranged his best plan of domestic happiness,
- his best hope of keeping Sir Walter single by the watchfulness
- which a son-in-law's rights would have given. But, though discomfited
- and disappointed, he could still do something for his own interest
- and his own enjoyment. He soon quitted Bath; and on Mrs Clay's
- quitting it soon afterwards, and being next heard of as established
- under his protection in London, it was evident how double a game
- he had been playing, and how determined he was to save himself
- from being cut out by one artful woman, at least.
-
- Mrs Clay's affections had overpowered her interest, and she had sacrificed,
- for the young man's sake, the possibility of scheming longer
- for Sir Walter. She has abilities, however, as well as affections;
- and it is now a doubtful point whether his cunning, or hers,
- may finally carry the day; whether, after preventing her from being
- the wife of Sir Walter, he may not be wheedled and caressed at last
- into making her the wife of Sir William.
-
- It cannot be doubted that Sir Walter and Elizabeth were shocked
- and mortified by the loss of their companion, and the discovery of
- their deception in her. They had their great cousins, to be sure,
- to resort to for comfort; but they must long feel that to flatter
- and follow others, without being flattered and followed in turn,
- is but a state of half enjoyment.
-
- Anne, satisfied at a very early period of Lady Russell's meaning
- to love Captain Wentworth as she ought, had no other alloy
- to the happiness of her prospects than what arose from the consciousness
- of having no relations to bestow on him which a man of sense could value.
- There she felt her own inferiority very keenly. The disproportion
- in their fortune was nothing; it did not give her a moment's regret;
- but to have no family to receive and estimate him properly,
- nothing of respectability, of harmony, of good will to offer
- in return for all the worth and all the prompt welcome which met her
- in his brothers and sisters, was a source of as lively pain
- as her mind could well be sensible of under circumstances of otherwise
- strong felicity. She had but two friends in the world to add to his list,
- Lady Russell and Mrs Smith. To those, however, he was very well disposed
- to attach himself. Lady Russell, in spite of all her former transgressions,
- he could now value from his heart. While he was not obliged to say
- that he believed her to have been right in originally dividing them,
- he was ready to say almost everything else in her favour,
- and as for Mrs Smith, she had claims of various kinds to recommend her
- quickly and permanently.
-
- Her recent good offices by Anne had been enough in themselves,
- and their marriage, instead of depriving her of one friend,
- secured her two. She was their earliest visitor in their settled life;
- and Captain Wentworth, by putting her in the way of recovering
- her husband's property in the West Indies, by writing for her,
- acting for her, and seeing her through all the petty difficulties
- of the case with the activity and exertion of a fearless man
- and a determined friend, fully requited the services which
- she had rendered, or ever meant to render, to his wife.
-
- Mrs Smith's enjoyments were not spoiled by this improvement of income,
- with some improvement of health, and the acquisition of such friends
- to be often with, for her cheerfulness and mental alacrity did not
- fail her; and while these prime supplies of good remained, she might have
- bid defiance even to greater accessions of worldly prosperity.
- She might have been absolutely rich and perfectly healthy,
- and yet be happy. Her spring of felicity was in the glow
- of her spirits, as her friend Anne's was in the warmth of her heart.
- Anne was tenderness itself, and she had the full worth of it
- in Captain Wentworth's affection. His profession was all that could ever
- make her friends wish that tenderness less, the dread of a future war
- all that could dim her sunshine. She gloried in being a sailor's wife,
- but she must pay the tax of quick alarm for belonging to that profession
- which is, if possible, more distinguished in its domestic virtues
- than in its national importance.
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