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- .. < chapter xxiii 28 THE LEE SHORE >
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- Some chapters back, one Bulkington was
- spoken of, a tall, new-landed mariner, encountered in New Bedford at the inn.
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- When on that shivering winter's night, the Pequod thrust her vindictive bows
- into the cold malicious waves, who should I see
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- standing at her helm but Bulkington! I looked with sympathetic awe and
- fearfulness upon the man, who in mid-winter just landed from a four years'
- dangerous voyage, could so unrestingly push off again for still another
- tempestuous term. The land seemed scorching to his feet. Wonderfullest
- things are ever the unmentionable; deep memories yield no epitaphs; this
- six-inch chapter is the stoneless grave of Bulkington. Let me only say that
- it fared with him as with the storm-tossed ship, that miserably drives along
- the leeward land. The port would fain give succor; the port is pitiful; in
- the port is safety, comfort, hearthstone, supper, warm blankets, friends,
- all that's kind to our mortalities. But in that gale, the port, the land, is
- that ship's direst jeopardy; she must fly all hospitality; one touch of
- land, though it but graze the keel, would make her shudder through and
- through. With all her might she crowds all sail off shore; in so doing,
- fights 'gainst the very winds that fain would blow her homeward; seeks all
- the lashed sea's landlessness again; for refuge's sake forlornly rushing into
- peril; her only friend her bitterest foe! Know ye, now, Bulkington?
- Glimpses do ye seem to see of that mortally intolerable truth; that all deep,
- earnest thinking is but the intrepid effort of the soul to keep the open
- independence of her sea; while the wildest winds of heaven and earth
- conspire to cast her on the treacherous, slavish shore? But as in landlessness
- alone resides the highest truth, shoreless, indefinite as God --so, better is
- it to perish in that howling infinite, than be ingloriously dashed upon the
- lee, even if that were safety! For worm-like, then, oh! who would craven
- crawl to land! Terrors of the terrible! is all this agony so vain? Take
- heart, take heart, O Bulkington! Bear thee grimly, demigod! Up from the spray
- of thy ocean-perishing --straight up, leaps thy apotheosis!
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