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- SARA CREWE
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- WHAT HAPPENED AT MISS MINCHIN'S
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- BY
- FRANCES HODGSON BURNETT
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- In the first place, Miss Minchin lived in London.
- Her home was a large, dull, tall one, in a large,
- dull square, where all the houses were alike,
- and all the sparrows were alike, and where all the
- door-knockers made the same heavy sound, and
- on still days--and nearly all the days were still--
- seemed to resound through the entire row in which
- the knock was knocked. On Miss Minchin's door there
- was a brass plate. On the brass plate there was
- inscribed in black letters,
-
- MISS MINCHIN'S
- SELECT SEMINARY FOR YOUNG LADIES
-
- Little Sara Crewe never went in or out of the house
- without reading that door-plate and reflecting upon it.
- By the time she was twelve, she had decided that
- all her trouble arose because, in the first place,
- she was not "Select," and in the second she was not
- a "Young Lady." When she was eight years old,
- she had been brought to Miss Minchin as a pupil,
- and left with her. Her papa had brought her all
- the way from India. Her mamma had died when she
- was a baby, and her papa had kept her with him as
- long as he could. And then, finding the hot climate
- was making her very delicate, he had brought her to
- England and left her with Miss Minchin, to be part
- of the Select Seminary for Young Ladies. Sara, who
- had always been a sharp little child, who remembered
- things, recollected hearing him say that he had
- not a relative in the world whom he knew of, and
- so he was obliged to place her at a boarding-school,
- and he had heard Miss Minchin's establishment
- spoken of very highly. The same day, he took Sara
- out and bought her a great many beautiful clothes--
- clothes so grand and rich that only a very young
- and inexperienced man would have bought them for
- a mite of a child who was to be brought up in a
- boarding-school. But the fact was that he was a rash,
- innocent young man, and very sad at the thought of
- parting with his little girl, who was all he had left
- to remind him of her beautiful mother, whom he had
- dearly loved. And he wished her to have everything
- the most fortunate little girl could have; and so,
- when the polite saleswomen in the shops said,
- "Here is our very latest thing in hats, the plumes
- are exactly the same as those we sold to Lady
- Diana Sinclair yesterday," he immediately bought
- what was offered to him, and paid whatever was asked.
- The consequence was that Sara had a most
- extraordinary wardrobe. Her dresses were silk
- and velvet and India cashmere, her hats and
- bonnets were covered with bows and plumes, her
- small undergarments were adorned with real lace,
- and she returned in the cab to Miss Minchin's
- with a doll almost as large as herself, dressed
- quite as grandly as herself, too.
-
- Then her papa gave Miss Minchin some money
- and went away, and for several days Sara would
- neither touch the doll, nor her breakfast, nor her
- dinner, nor her tea, and would do nothing but
- crouch in a small corner by the window and cry.
- She cried so much, indeed, that she made herself ill.
- She was a queer little child, with old-fashioned
- ways and strong feelings, and she had adored
- her papa, and could not be made to think that
- India and an interesting bungalow were not
- better for her than London and Miss Minchin's
- Select Seminary. The instant she had entered
- the house, she had begun promptly to hate Miss
- Minchin, and to think little of Miss Amelia
- Minchin, who was smooth and dumpy, and lisped,
- and was evidently afraid of her older sister.
- Miss Minchin was tall, and had large, cold, fishy
- eyes, and large, cold hands, which seemed fishy,
- too, because they were damp and made chills run
- down Sara's back when they touched her, as
- Miss Minchin pushed her hair off her forehead
- and said:
-
- "A most beautiful and promising little girl,
- Captain Crewe. She will be a favorite pupil;
- quite a favorite pupil, I see."
-
- For the first year she was a favorite pupil;
- at least she was indulged a great deal more than
- was good for her. And when the Select Seminary
- went walking, two by two, she was always decked
- out in her grandest clothes, and led by the hand
- at the head of the genteel procession, by Miss
- Minchin herself. And when the parents of any
- of the pupils came, she was always dressed and
- called into the parlor with her doll; and she used
- to hear Miss Minchin say that her father was a
- distinguished Indian officer, and she would be
- heiress to a great fortune. That her father had
- inherited a great deal of money, Sara had heard
- before; and also that some day it would be
- hers, and that he would not remain long in
- the army, but would come to live in London.
- And every time a letter came, she hoped it would
- say he was coming, and they were to live together again.
-
- But about the middle of the third year a letter
- came bringing very different news. Because he
- was not a business man himself, her papa had
- given his affairs into the hands of a friend
- he trusted. The friend had deceived and robbed him.
- All the money was gone, no one knew exactly where,
- and the shock was so great to the poor, rash young
- officer, that, being attacked by jungle fever
- shortly afterward, he had no strength to rally,
- and so died, leaving Sara, with no one to take care
- of her.
-
- Miss Minchin's cold and fishy eyes had never
- looked so cold and fishy as they did when Sara
- went into the parlor, on being sent for, a few days
- after the letter was received.
-
- No one had said anything to the child about
- mourning, so, in her old-fashioned way, she had
- decided to find a black dress for herself, and had
- picked out a black velvet she had outgrown, and
- came into the room in it, looking the queerest little
- figure in the world, and a sad little figure too.
- The dress was too short and too tight, her face
- was white, her eyes had dark rings around them,
- and her doll, wrapped in a piece of old black
- crape, was held under her arm. She was not a
- pretty child. She was thin, and had a weird,
- interesting little face, short black hair, and very
- large, green-gray eyes fringed all around with
- heavy black lashes.
-
- I am the ugliest child in the school," she had
- said once, after staring at herself in the glass for
- some minutes.
-
- But there had been a clever, good-natured little
- French teacher who had said to the music-master:
-
- "Zat leetle Crewe. Vat a child! A so ogly beauty!
- Ze so large eyes! ze so little spirituelle face.
- Waid till she grow up. You shall see!"
-
- This morning, however, in the tight, small
- black frock, she looked thinner and odder than
- ever, and her eyes were fixed on Miss Minchin
- with a queer steadiness as she slowly advanced
- into the parlor, clutching her doll.
-
- "Put your doll down!" said Miss Minchin.
-
- "No," said the child, I won't put her down;
- I want her with me. She is all I have. She has
- stayed with me all the time since my papa died."
-
- She had never been an obedient child. She had
- had her own way ever since she was born, and there
- was about her an air of silent determination under
- which Miss Minchin had always felt secretly uncomfortable.
- And that lady felt even now that perhaps it would be
- as well not to insist on her point. So she looked
- at her as severely as possible.
-
- "You will have no time for dolls in future,"
- she said; "you will have to work and improve
- yourself, and make yourself useful."
-
- Sara kept the big odd eyes fixed on her teacher
- and said nothing.
-
- "Everything will be very different now," Miss
- Minchin went on. "I sent for you to talk to
- you and make you understand. Your father
- is dead. You have no friends. You have
- no money. You have no home and no one to take
- care of you."
-
- The little pale olive face twitched nervously,
- but the green-gray eyes did not move from Miss
- Minchin's, and still Sara said nothing.
-
- "What are you staring at?" demanded Miss
- Minchin sharply. "Are you so stupid you don't
- understand what I mean? I tell you that you are
- quite alone in the world, and have no one to do
- anything for you, unless I choose to keep you here."
-
- The truth was, Miss Minchin was in her worst mood.
- To be suddenly deprived of a large sum of money
- yearly and a show pupil, and to find herself
- with a little beggar on her hands, was more than
- she could bear with any degree of calmness.
-
- "Now listen to me," she went on, "and remember
- what I say. If you work hard and prepare to make
- yourself useful in a few years, I shall let you
- stay here. You are only a child, but you are a
- sharp child, and you pick up things almost
- without being taught. You speak French very well,
- and in a year or so you can begin to help with the
- younger pupils. By the time you are fifteen you
- ought to be able to do that much at least."
-
- "I can speak French better than you, now," said
- Sara; "I always spoke it with my papa in India."
- Which was not at all polite, but was painfully true;
- because Miss Minchin could not speak French at all,
- and, indeed, was not in the least a clever person.
- But she was a hard, grasping business woman; and,
- after the first shock of disappointment, had seen
- that at very little expense to herself she might
- prepare this clever, determined child to be very
- useful to her and save her the necessity of paying
- large salaries to teachers of languages.
-
- "Don't be impudent, or you will be punished," she said.
- "You will have to improve your manners if you expect
- to earn your bread. You are not a parlor boarder now.
- Remember that if you don't please me, and I send you
- away, you have no home but the street. You can go now."
-
- Sara turned away.
-
- "Stay," commanded Miss Minchin, "don't you intend
- to thank me?"
-
- Sara turned toward her. The nervous twitch
- was to be seen again in her face, and she seemed
- to be trying to control it.
-
- "What for?" she said.
-
- For my kindness to you," replied Miss Minchin.
- "For my kindness in giving you a home."
-
- Sara went two or three steps nearer to her.
- Her thin little chest was heaving up and down,
- and she spoke in a strange, unchildish voice.
-
- "You are not kind," she said. "You are not kind."
- And she turned again and went out of the room,
- leaving Miss Minchin staring after her strange,
- small figure in stony anger.
-
- The child walked up the staircase, holding tightly
- to her doll; she meant to go to her bedroom,
- but at the door she was met by Miss Amelia.
-
- "You are not to go in there," she said. "That is
- not your room now."
-
- "Where is my room? " asked Sara.
-
- "You are to sleep in the attic next to the cook."
-
- Sara walked on. She mounted two flights more,
- and reached the door of the attic room, opened
- it and went in, shutting it behind her. She stood
- against it and looked about her. The room was
- slanting-roofed and whitewashed; there was a
- rusty grate, an iron bedstead, and some odd
- articles of furniture, sent up from better rooms
- below, where they had been used until they were
- considered to be worn out. Under the skylight
- in the roof, which showed nothing but an oblong
- piece of dull gray sky, there was a battered
- old red footstool.
-
- Sara went to it and sat down. She was a queer child,
- as I have said before, and quite unlike other children.
- She seldom cried. She did not cry now. She laid her
- doll, Emily, across her knees, and put her face down
- upon her, and her arms around her, and sat there,
- her little black head resting on the black crape,
- not saying one word, not making one sound.
-
-
- From that day her life changed entirely. Sometimes she
- used to feel as if it must be another life altogether,
- the life of some other child. She was a little
- drudge and outcast; she was given her lessons at
- odd times and expected to learn without being taught;
- she was sent on errands by Miss Minchin, Miss Amelia
- and the cook. Nobody took any notice of her except
- when they ordered her about. She was often kept busy
- all day and then sent into the deserted school-room
- with a pile of books to learn her lessons or practise
- at night. She had never been intimate with the
- other pupils, and soon she became so shabby that,
- taking her queer clothes together with her queer
- little ways, they began to look upon her as a being
- of another world than their own. The fact was that,
- as a rule, Miss Minchin's pupils were rather dull,
- matter-of-fact young people, accustomed to being rich
- and comfortable; and Sara, with her elfish cleverness,
- her desolate life, and her odd habit of fixing her
- eyes upon them and staring them out of countenance,
- was too much for them.
-
- "She always looks as if she was finding you out,"
- said one girl, who was sly and given to making mischief.
- "I am," said Sara promptly, when she heard of it.
- "That's what I look at them for. I like to know
- about people. I think them over afterward."
-
- She never made any mischief herself or interfered
- with any one. She talked very little, did as she
- was told, and thought a great deal. Nobody knew,
- and in fact nobody cared, whether she was unhappy
- or happy, unless, perhaps, it was Emily, who lived
- in the attic and slept on the iron bedstead at night.
- Sara thought Emily understood her feelings, though
- she was only wax and had a habit of staring herself.
- Sara used to talk to her at night.
-
- "You are the only friend I have in the world,"
- she would say to her. "Why don't you say something?
- Why don't you speak? Sometimes I am sure you could,
- if you would try. It ought to make you try,
- to know you are the only thing I have. If I were
- you, I should try. Why don't you try?"
-
- It really was a very strange feeling she had
- about Emily. It arose from her being so desolate.
- She did not like to own to herself that her
- only friend, her only companion, could feel and
- hear nothing. She wanted to believe, or to pretend
- to believe, that Emily understood and sympathized
- with her, that she heard her even though she did
- not speak in answer. She used to put her in a
- chair sometimes and sit opposite to her on the old
- red footstool, and stare at her and think and
- pretend about her until her own eyes would grow
- large with something which was almost like fear,
- particularly at night, when the garret was so still,
- when the only sound that was to be heard was the
- occasional squeak and scurry of rats in the wainscot.
- There were rat-holes in the garret, and Sara
- detested rats, and was always glad Emily was with
- her when she heard their hateful squeak and rush
- and scratching. One of her "pretends" was that
- Emily was a kind of good witch and could protect her.
- Poor little Sara! everything was "pretend" with her.
- She had a strong imagination; there was almost more
- imagination than there was Sara, and her whole forlorn,
- uncared-for child-life was made up of imaginings.
- She imagined and pretended things until she almost
- believed them, and she would scarcely have been surprised
- at any remarkable thing that could have happened.
- So she insisted to herself that Emily understood all
- about her troubles and was really her friend.
-
- "As to answering," she used to say, "I don't
- answer very often. I never answer when I can
- help it. When people are insulting you, there is
- nothing so good for them as not to say a word--
- just to look at them and think. Miss Minchin
- turns pale with rage when I do it. Miss Amelia
- looks frightened, so do the girls. They know you
- are stronger than they are, because you are strong
- enough to hold in your rage and they are not,
- and they say stupid things they wish they hadn't
- said afterward. There's nothing so strong as rage,
- except what makes you hold it in--that's stronger.
- It's a good thing not to answer your enemies.
- I scarcely ever do. Perhaps Emily is more like
- me than I am like myself. Perhaps she would
- rather not answer her friends, even. She keeps
- it all in her heart."
-
- But though she tried to satisfy herself with these
- arguments, Sara did not find it easy. When, after
- a long, hard day, in which she had been sent
- here and there, sometimes on long errands,
- through wind and cold and rain; and, when she
- came in wet and hungry, had been sent out again
- because nobody chose to remember that she was
- only a child, and that her thin little legs might be
- tired, and her small body, clad in its forlorn, too
- small finery, all too short and too tight, might be
- chilled; when she had been given only harsh
- words and cold, slighting looks for thanks, when
- the cook had been vulgar and insolent; when
- Miss Minchin had been in her worst moods, and
- when she had seen the girls sneering at her among
- themselves and making fun of her poor, outgrown
- clothes--then Sara did not find Emily quite all
- that her sore, proud, desolate little heart needed
- as the doll sat in her little old chair and stared.
-
- One of these nights, when she came up to the
- garret cold, hungry, tired, and with a tempest
- raging in her small breast, Emily's stare seemed
- so vacant, her sawdust legs and arms so limp and
- inexpressive, that Sara lost all control over herself.
-
- "I shall die presently!" she said at first.
-
- Emily stared.
-
- "I can't bear this!" said the poor child, trembling.
- "I know I shall die. I'm cold, I'm wet, I'm
- starving to death. I've walked a thousand miles
- to-day, and they have done nothing but scold me
- from morning until night. And because I could
- not find that last thing they sent me for, they
- would not give me any supper. Some men
- laughed at me because my old shoes made me
- slip down in the mud. I'm covered with mud now.
- And they laughed! Do you hear!"
-
- She looked at the staring glass eyes and complacent
- wax face, and suddenly a sort of heartbroken rage
- seized her. She lifted her little savage hand and
- knocked Emily off the chair, bursting into a passion
- of sobbing.
-
- You are nothing but a doll!" she cried.
-
- "Nothing but a doll-doll-doll! You care for nothing.
- You are stuffed with sawdust. You never had a heart.
- Nothing could ever make you feel. You are a doll!"
-
- Emily lay upon the floor, with her legs ignominiously
- doubled up over her head, and a new flat place on the
- end of her nose; but she was still calm, even dignified.
-
- Sara hid her face on her arms and sobbed. Some rats
- in the wall began to fight and bite each other,
- and squeak and scramble. But, as I have already
- intimated, Sara was not in the habit of crying.
- After a while she stopped, and when she stopped
- she looked at Emily, who seemed to be gazing at her
- around the side of one ankle, and actually with a
- kind of glassy-eyed sympathy. Sara bent and picked
- her up. Remorse overtook her.
-
- "You can't help being a doll," she said, with a
- resigned sigh, "any more than those girls downstairs
- can help not having any sense. We are not all alike.
- Perhaps you do your sawdust best."
-
- None of Miss Minchin's young ladies were very
- remarkable for being brilliant; they were select,
- but some of them were very dull, and some of them
- were fond of applying themselves to their lessons.
- Sara, who snatched her lessons at all sorts of
- untimely hours from tattered and discarded books,
- and who had a hungry craving for everything readable,
- was often severe upon them in her small mind.
- They had books they never read; she had no books
- at all. If she had always had something to read,
- she would not have been so lonely. She liked
- romances and history and poetry; she would
- read anything. There was a sentimental housemaid
- in the establishment who bought the weekly penny
- papers, and subscribed to a circulating library,
- from which she got greasy volumes containing stories
- of marquises and dukes who invariably fell in love
- with orange-girls and gypsies and servant-maids,
- and made them the proud brides of coronets; and
- Sara often did parts of this maid's work so that
- she might earn the privilege of reading these
- romantic histories. There was also a fat,
- dull pupil, whose name was Ermengarde St. John,
- who was one of her resources. Ermengarde had an
- intellectual father, who, in his despairing desire
- to encourage his daughter, constantly sent her
- valuable and interesting books, which were a
- continual source of grief to her. Sara had once
- actually found her crying over a big package of them.
-
- "What is the matter with you?" she asked her,
- perhaps rather disdainfully.
-
- And it is just possible she would not have
- spoken to her, if she had not seen the books.
- The sight of books always gave Sara a hungry feeling,
- and she could not help drawing near to them if
- only to read their titles.
-
- "What is the matter with you?" she asked.
-
- "My papa has sent me some more books,"
- answered Ermengarde woefully, "and he expects
- me to read them."
-
- "Don't you like reading?" said Sara.
-
- "I hate it!" replied Miss Ermengarde St. John.
- "And he will ask me questions when he sees me:
- he will want to know how much I remember; how
- would you like to have to read all those?"
-
- "I'd like it better than anything else in the world,"
- said Sara.
-
- Ermengarde wiped her eyes to look at such a prodigy.
-
- "Oh, gracious!" she exclaimed.
-
- Sara returned the look with interest. A sudden plan
- formed itself in her sharp mind.
-
- "Look here!" she said. "If you'll lend me those books,
- I'll read them and tell you everything that's in them
- afterward, and I'll tell it to you so that you will
- remember it. I know I can. The A B C children always
- remember what I tell them."
-
- "Oh, goodness!" said Ermengarde. "Do you
- think you could?"
-
- "I know I could," answered Sara. "I like to read,
- and I always remember. I'll take care of the books,
- too; they will look just as new as they do now,
- when I give them back to you."
-
- Ermengarde put her handkerchief in her pocket.
-
- "If you'll do that," she said, "and if you'll make
- me remember, I'll give you--I'll give you some money."
-
- "I don't want your money," said Sara. "I want
- your books--I want them." And her eyes grew
- big and queer, and her chest heaved once.
-
- "Take them, then," said Ermengarde; "I wish
- I wanted them, but I am not clever, and my father
- is, and he thinks I ought to be."
-
- Sara picked up the books and marched off with them.
- But when she was at the door, she stopped and turned around.
-
- "What are you going to tell your father?" she asked.
-
- "Oh," said Ermengarde, "he needn't know;
- he'll think I've read them."
-
- Sara looked down at the books; her heart really began
- to beat fast.
-
- "I won't do it," she said rather slowly, "if you are
- going to tell him lies about it--I don't like lies.
- Why can't you tell him I read them and then told you
- about them?"
-
- "But he wants me to read them," said Ermengarde.
-
- "He wants you to know what is in them," said Sara;
- and if I can tell it to you in an easy way and make
- you remember, I should think he would like that."
-
- "He would like it better if I read them myself,"
- replied Ermengarde.
-
- "He will like it, I dare say, if you learn anything in
- any way," said Sara. "I should, if I were your father."
-
- And though this was not a flattering way of
- stating the case, Ermengarde was obliged to
- admit it was true, and, after a little more
- argument, gave in. And so she used afterward
- always to hand over her books to Sara, and Sara
- would carry them to her garret and devour them;
- and after she had read each volume, she would return
- it and tell Ermengarde about it in a way of her own.
- She had a gift for making things interesting.
- Her imagination helped her to make everything
- rather like a story, and she managed this matter
- so well that Miss St. John gained more information
- from her books than she would have gained if she
- had read them three times over by her poor
- stupid little self. When Sara sat down by her
- and began to tell some story of travel or history,
- she made the travellers and historical people
- seem real; and Ermengarde used to sit and regard
- her dramatic gesticulations, her thin little flushed
- cheeks, and her shining, odd eyes with amazement.
-
- "It sounds nicer than it seems in the book," she
- would say. "I never cared about Mary, Queen
- of Scots, before, and I always hated the French
- Revolution, but you make it seem like a story."
-
- "It is a story," Sara would answer. "They are
- all stories. Everything is a story--everything in
- this world. You are a story--I am a story--Miss Minchin
- is a story. You can make a story out of anything."
-
- "I can't," said Ermengarde.
-
- Sara stared at her a minute reflectively.
-
- "No," she said at last. "I suppose you couldn't.
- You are a little like Emily."
-
- "Who is Emily?"
-
- Sara recollected herself. She knew she was
- sometimes rather impolite in the candor of her
- remarks, and she did not want to be impolite
- to a girl who was not unkind--only stupid.
- Notwithstanding all her sharp little ways she had
- the sense to wish to be just to everybody. In the
- hours she spent alone, she used to argue out a great
- many curious questions with herself. One thing
- she had decided upon was, that a person who was
- clever ought to be clever enough not to be unjust
- or deliberately unkind to any one. Miss Minchin
- was unjust and cruel, Miss Amelia was unkind
- and spiteful, the cook was malicious and hasty-
- tempered--they all were stupid, and made her
- despise them, and she desired to be as unlike them
- as possible. So she would be as polite as she
- could to people who in the least deserved politeness.
-
- "Emily is--a person--I know," she replied.
-
- "Do you like her?" asked Ermengarde.
-
- "Yes, I do," said Sara.
-
- Ermengarde examined her queer little face and
- figure again. She did look odd. She had on,
- that day, a faded blue plush skirt, which barely
- covered her knees, a brown Cloth sacque, and a
- pair of olive-green stockings which Miss Minchin
- had made her piece out with black ones, so that
- they would be long enough to be kept on. And yet
- Ermengarde was beginning slowly to admire her.
- Such a forlorn, thin, neglected little thing
- as that, who could read and read and remember
- and tell you things so that they did not tire you
- all out! A child who could speak French, and
- who had learned German, no one knew how! One could
- not help staring at her and feeling interested,
- particularly one to whom the simplest lesson was
- a trouble and a woe.
-
- "Do you like me?" said Ermengarde, finally, at
- the end of her scrutiny.
-
- Sara hesitated one second, then she answered:
-
- "I like you because you are not ill-natured--I
- like you for letting me read your books--I like
- you because you don't make spiteful fun of me for
- what I can't help. It's not your fault that--"
-
- She pulled herself up quickly. She had been
- going to say, "that you are stupid."
-
- "That what?" asked Ermengarde.
-
- "That you can't learn things quickly. If you
- can't, you can't. If I can, why, I can--that's all."
- She paused a minute, looking at the plump face
- before her, and then, rather slowly, one of her
- wise, old-fashioned thoughts came to her.
-
- "Perhaps," she said, "to be able to learn things
- quickly isn't everything. To be kind is worth a
- good deal to other people. If Miss Minchin knew
- everything on earth, which she doesn't, and if she
- was like what she is now, she'd still be a detestable
- thing, and everybody would hate her. Lots of clever
- people have done harm and been wicked. Look at Robespierre--"
-
- She stopped again and examined her companion's countenance.
-
- "Do you remember about him?" she demanded. "I believe
- you've forgotten."
-
- "Well, I don't remember all of it," admitted Ermengarde.
-
- "Well," said Sara, with courage and determination,
- "I'll tell it to you over again."
-
- And she plunged once more into the gory records of
- the French Revolution, and told such stories of it,
- and made such vivid pictures of its horrors, that
- Miss St. John was afraid to go to bed afterward,
- and hid her head under the blankets when she did go,
- and shivered until she fell asleep. But afterward
- she preserved lively recollections of the character
- of Robespierre, and did not even forget Marie Antoinette
- and the Princess de Lamballe.
-
- "You know they put her head on a pike and
- danced around it," Sara had said; "and she had
- beautiful blonde hair; and when I think of her, I
- never see her head on her body, but always on a
- pike, with those furious people dancing and howling."
-
- Yes, it was true; to this imaginative child
- everything was a story; and the more books she
- read, the more imaginative she became. One of
- her chief entertainments was to sit in her garret,
- or walk about it, and "suppose" things. On a
- cold night, when she had not had enough to eat,
- she would draw the red footstool up before the
- empty grate, and say in the most intense voice:
-
- "Suppose there was a grate, wide steel grate
- here, and a great glowing fire--a glowing fire--
- with beds of red-hot coal and lots of little dancing,
- flickering flames. Suppose there was a soft,
- deep rug, and this was a comfortable chair, all
- cushions and crimson velvet; and suppose I had
- a crimson velvet frock on, and a deep lace collar,
- like a child in a picture; and suppose all the rest
- of the room was furnished in lovely colors, and
- there were book-shelves full of books, which
- changed by magic as soon as you had read them;
- and suppose there was a little table here, with a
- snow-white cover on it, and little silver dishes,
- and in one there was hot, hot soup, and in another
- a roast chicken, and in another some raspberry-jam
- tarts with crisscross on them, and in another
- some grapes; and suppose Emily could speak,
- and we could sit and eat our supper, and then
- talk and read; and then suppose there was a soft,
- warm bed in the corner, and when we were tired
- we could go to sleep, and sleep as long as we liked."
-
- Sometimes, after she had supposed things like
- these for half an hour, she would feel almost
- warm, and would creep into bed with Emily and
- fall asleep with a smile on her face.
-
- "What large, downy pillows!" she would whisper.
- "What white sheets and fleecy blankets!" And she
- almost forgot that her real pillows had scarcely
- any feathers in them at all, and smelled musty,
- and that her blankets and coverlid were thin and
- full of holes.
-
- At another time she would "suppose" she was a
- princess, and then she would go about the house
- with an expression on her face which was a source
- of great secret annoyance to Miss Minchin, because
- it seemed as if the child scarcely heard the
- spiteful, insulting things said to her, or, if
- she heard them, did not care for them at all.
- Sometimes, while she was in the midst of some harsh
- and cruel speech, Miss Minchin would find the odd,
- unchildish eyes fixed upon her with something like
- a proud smile in them. At such times she did not
- know that Sara was saying to herself:
-
- "You don't know that you are saying these things
- to a princess, and that if I chose I could
- wave my hand and order you to execution. I only
- spare you because I am a princess, and you are
- a poor, stupid, old, vulgar thing, and don't
- know any better."
-
- This used to please and amuse her more than
- anything else; and queer and fanciful as it was,
- she found comfort in it, and it was not a bad
- thing for her. It really kept her from being
- made rude and malicious by the rudeness and
- malice of those about her.
-
- "A princess must be polite," she said to herself.
- And so when the servants, who took their tone
- from their mistress, were insolent and ordered
- her about, she would hold her head erect, and
- reply to them sometimes in a way which made
- them stare at her, it was so quaintly civil.
-
- "I am a princess in rags and tatters," she would
- think, "but I am a princess, inside. It would be
- easy to be a princess if I were dressed in cloth-of-
- gold; it is a great deal more of a triumph to be
- one all the time when no one knows it. There was
- Marie Antoinette; when she was in prison,
- and her throne was gone, and she had only a
- black gown on, and her hair was white, and they
- insulted her and called her the Widow Capet,--
- she was a great deal more like a queen then than
- when she was so gay and had everything grand.
- I like her best then. Those howling mobs of
- people did not frighten her. She was stronger
- than they were even when they cut her head off."
-
- Once when such thoughts were passing through
- her mind the look in her eyes so enraged Miss
- Minchin that she flew at Sara and boxed her ears.
-
- Sara awakened from her dream, started a little,
- and then broke into a laugh.
-
- "What are you laughing at, you bold, impudent child!"
- exclaimed Miss Minchin.
-
- It took Sara a few seconds to remember she was
- a princess. Her cheeks were red and smarting
- from the blows she had received.
-
- "I was thinking," she said.
-
- "Beg my pardon immediately," said Miss Minchin.
-
- "I will beg your pardon for laughing, if it was
- rude," said Sara; "but I won't beg your pardon
- for thinking."
-
- "What were you thinking?" demanded Miss Minchin.
- "How dare you think? What were you thinking?
-
- This occurred in the school-room, and all the
- girls looked up from their books to listen.
- It always interested them when Miss Minchin flew at
- Sara, because Sara always said something queer,
- and never seemed in the least frightened. She was
- not in the least frightened now, though her
- boxed ears were scarlet, and her eyes were as
- bright as stars.
-
- "I was thinking," she answered gravely and
- quite politely, "that you did not know what you
- were doing."
-
- "That I did not know what I was doing!"
- Miss Minchin fairly gasped.
-
- "Yes," said Sara, "and I was thinking what
- would happen, if I were a princess and you boxed
- my ears--what I should do to you. And I was
- thinking that if I were one, you would never dare
- to do it, whatever I said or did. And I was
- thinking how surprised and frightened you would
- be if you suddenly found out--"
-
- She had the imagined picture so clearly before her eyes,
- that she spoke in a manner which had an effect even
- on Miss Minchin. It almost seemed for the moment
- to her narrow, unimaginative mind that there must
- be some real power behind this candid daring.
-
- "What!" she exclaimed, "found out what?"
-
- "That I really was a princess," said Sara, "and
- could do anything--anything I liked."
-
- "Go to your room," cried Miss Minchin breathlessly,
- this instant. Leave the school-room. Attend to your
- lessons, young ladies."
-
- Sara made a little bow.
-
- "Excuse me for laughing, if it was impolite,"
- she said, and walked out of the room, leaving
- Miss Minchin in a rage and the girls whispering
- over their books.
-
- "I shouldn't be at all surprised if she did
- turn out to be something," said one of them.
- "Suppose she should!"
-
-
- That very afternoon Sara had an opportunity
- of proving to herself whether she was really a
- princess or not. It was a dreadful afternoon.
- For several days it had rained continuously, the
- streets were chilly and sloppy; there was mud
- everywhere--sticky London mud--and over
- everything a pall of fog and drizzle. Of course
- there were several long and tiresome errands to
- be done,--there always were on days like this,--
- and Sara was sent out again and again, until her
- shabby clothes were damp through. The absurd
- old feathers on her forlorn hat were more draggled
- and absurd than ever, and her down-trodden shoes
- were so wet they could not hold any more water.
- Added to this, she had been deprived of her dinner,
- because Miss Minchin wished to punish her. She was
- very hungry. She was so cold and hungry and tired
- that her little face had a pinched look, and now
- and then some kind-hearted person passing her in
- the crowded street glanced at her with sympathy.
- But she did not know that. She hurried on,
- trying to comfort herself in that queer way of
- hers by pretending and "supposing,"--but really
- this time it was harder than she had ever found it,
- and once or twice she thought it almost made her
- more cold and hungry instead of less so. But she
- persevered obstinately. "Suppose I had dry
- clothes on," she thought. "Suppose I had good
- shoes and a long, thick coat and merino stockings
- and a whole umbrella. And suppose--suppose, just
- when I was near a baker's where they sold hot buns,
- I should find sixpence--which belonged to nobody.
- Suppose, if I did, I should go into the shop and
- buy six of the hottest buns, and should eat them
- all without stopping."
-
- Some very odd things happen in this world sometimes.
- It certainly was an odd thing which happened
- to Sara. She had to cross the street just as
- she was saying this to herself--the mud was
- dreadful--she almost had to wade. She picked
- her way as carefully as she could, but she
- could not save herself much, only, in picking her
- way she had to look down at her feet and the mud,
- and in looking down--just as she reached the
- pavement--she saw something shining in the gutter.
- A piece of silver--a tiny piece trodden upon by
- many feet, but still with spirit enough to shine
- a little. Not quite a sixpence, but the next
- thing to it--a four-penny piece! In one second
- it was in her cold, little red and blue hand.
- "Oh!" she gasped. "It is true!"
-
- And then, if you will believe me, she looked
- straight before her at the shop directly facing her.
- And it was a baker's, and a cheerful, stout,
- motherly woman, with rosy cheeks, was just
- putting into the window a tray of delicious hot
- buns,--large, plump, shiny buns, with currants in them.
-
- It almost made Sara feel faint for a few seconds--the
- shock and the sight of the buns and the delightful
- odors of warm bread floating up through the baker's
- cellar-window.
-
- She knew that she need not hesitate to use the
- little piece of money. It had evidently been lying
- in the mud for some time, and its owner was
- completely lost in the streams of passing people
- who crowded and jostled each other all through
- the day.
-
- "But I'll go and ask the baker's woman if she
- has lost a piece of money," she said to herself,
- rather faintly.
-
- So she crossed the pavement and put her wet
- foot on the step of the shop; and as she did so
- she saw something which made her stop.
-
- It was a little figure more forlorn than her own
- --a little figure which was not much more than a
- bundle of rags, from which small, bare, red and
- muddy feet peeped out--only because the rags
- with which the wearer was trying to cover them
- were not long enough. Above the rags appeared
- a shock head of tangled hair and a dirty face,
- with big, hollow, hungry eyes.
-
- Sara knew they were hungry eyes the moment
- she saw them, and she felt a sudden sympathy.
-
- "This," she said to herself, with a little sigh,
- "is one of the Populace--and she is hungrier
- than I am."
-
- The child--this "one of the Populace"--stared up
- at Sara, and shuffled herself aside a little, so
- as to give her more room. She was used to being
- made to give room to everybody. She knew that if
- a policeman chanced to see her, he would tell her
- to "move on."
-
- Sara clutched her little four-penny piece, and
- hesitated a few seconds. Then she spoke to her.
-
- "Are you hungry?" she asked.
-
- The child shuffled herself and her rags a little more.
-
- "Ain't I jist!" she said, in a hoarse voice.
- "Jist ain't I!"
-
- "Haven't you had any dinner?" said Sara.
-
- "No dinner," more hoarsely still and with more
- shuffling, "nor yet no bre'fast--nor yet no supper
- --nor nothin'."
-
- "Since when?" asked Sara.
-
- "Dun'no. Never got nothin' to-day--nowhere.
- I've axed and axed."
-
- Just to look at her made Sara more hungry and faint.
- But those queer little thoughts were at work in her
- brain, and she was talking to herself though she was
- sick at heart.
-
- "If I'm a princess," she was saying--"if I'm
- a princess--! When they were poor and driven
- from their thrones--they always shared--with the
- Populace--if they met one poorer and hungrier.
- They always shared. Buns are a penny each.
- If it had been sixpence! I could have eaten six.
- It won't be enough for either of us--but it will
- be better than nothing."
-
- "Wait a minute," she said to the beggar-child.
- She went into the shop. It was warm and
- smelled delightfully. The woman was just going
- to put more hot buns in the window.
-
- "If you please," said Sara, "have you lost fourpence--
- a silver fourpence?" And she held the forlorn little
- piece of money out to her.
-
- The woman looked at it and at her--at her intense
- little face and draggled, once-fine clothes.
-
- "Bless us--no," she answered. "Did you find it?"
-
- "In the gutter," said Sara.
-
- "Keep it, then," said the woman. "It may have
- been there a week, and goodness knows who lost it.
- You could never find out."
-
- "I know that," said Sara, "but I thought I'd ask you."
-
- "Not many would," said the woman, looking puzzled
- and interested and good-natured all at once.
- "Do you want to buy something?" she added,
- as she saw Sara glance toward the buns.
-
- "Four buns, if you please," said Sara; "those
- at a penny each."
-
- The woman went to the window and put some in a
- paper bag. Sara noticed that she put in six.
-
- "I said four, if you please," she explained.
- "I have only the fourpence."
-
- "I'll throw in two for make-weight," said the
- woman, with her good-natured look. "I dare say
- you can eat them some time. Aren't you hungry?"
-
- A mist rose before Sara's eyes.
-
- "Yes," she answered. "I am very hungry, and
- I am much obliged to you for your kindness, and,"
- she was going to add, "there is a child outside
- who is hungrier than I am." But just at that
- moment two or three customers came in at once and
- each one seemed in a hurry, so she could only
- thank the woman again and go out.
-
- The child was still huddled up on the corner of
- the steps. She looked frightful in her wet and
- dirty rags. She was staring with a stupid look
- of suffering straight before her, and Sara saw her
- suddenly draw the back of her roughened, black
- hand across her eyes to rub away the tears which
- seemed to have surprised her by forcing their way
- from under her lids. She was muttering to herself.
-
- Sara opened the paper bag and took out one of
- the hot buns, which had already warmed her cold
- hands a little.
-
- "See," she said, putting the bun on the ragged lap,
- "that is nice and hot. Eat it, and you will not be
- so hungry."
-
- The child started and stared up at her; then
- she snatched up the bun and began to cram it
- into her mouth with great wolfish bites.
-
- "Oh, my! Oh, my!" Sara heard her say hoarsely,
- in wild delight.
-
- "Oh, my!"
-
- Sara took out three more buns and put them down.
-
- "She is hungrier than I am," she said to herself.
- "She's starving." But her hand trembled when she
- put down the fourth bun. "I'm not starving,"
- she said--and she put down the fifth.
-
- The little starving London savage was still
- snatching and devouring when she turned away.
- She was too ravenous to give any thanks, even if
- she had been taught politeness--which she had not.
- She was only a poor little wild animal.
-
- "Good-bye," said Sara.
-
- When she reached the other side of the street
- she looked back. The child had a bun in both
- hands, and had stopped in the middle of a bite to
- watch her. Sara gave her a little nod, and the
- child, after another stare,--a curious, longing
- stare,--jerked her shaggy head in response, and
- until Sara was out of sight she did not take
- another bite or even finish the one she had begun.
-
- At that moment the baker-woman glanced out
- of her shop-window.
-
- "Well, I never!" she exclaimed. "If that
- young'un hasn't given her buns to a beggar-child!
- It wasn't because she didn't want them, either--
- well, well, she looked hungry enough. I'd give
- something to know what she did it for." She stood
- behind her window for a few moments and pondered.
- Then her curiosity got the better of her. She went
- to the door and spoke to the beggar-child.
-
- "Who gave you those buns?" she asked her.
-
- The child nodded her head toward Sara's vanishing figure.
-
- "What did she say?" inquired the woman.
-
- "Axed me if I was 'ungry," replied the hoarse voice.
-
- "What did you say?"
-
- "Said I was jist!"
-
- "And then she came in and got buns and came out
- and gave them to you, did she?"
-
- The child nodded.
-
- "How many?"
-
- "Five."
-
- The woman thought it over. "Left just one for
- herself," she said, in a low voice. "And she could
- have eaten the whole six--I saw it in her eyes."
-
- She looked after the little, draggled, far-away
- figure, and felt more disturbed in her usually
- comfortable mind than she had felt for many a day.
-
- "I wish she hadn't gone so quick," she said.
- "I'm blest if she shouldn't have had a dozen."
-
- Then she turned to the child.
-
- "Are you hungry, yet?" she asked.
-
- "I'm allus 'ungry," was the answer; "but 'tain't
- so bad as it was."
-
- "Come in here," said the woman, and she held open
- the shop-door.
-
- The child got up and shuffled in. To be invited into
- a warm place full of bread seemed an incredible thing.
- She did not know what was going to happen; she did not
- care, even.
-
- "Get yourself warm," said the woman, pointing
- to a fire in a tiny back room. "And, look here,--
- when you're hard up for a bite of bread, you can
- come here and ask for it. I'm blest if I won't give
- it to you for that young un's sake."
-
-
- Sara found some comfort in her remaining bun. It was
- hot; and it was a great deal better than nothing.
- She broke off small pieces and ate them slowly to
- make it last longer.
-
- "Suppose it was a magic bun," she said, "and a bite
- was as much as a whole dinner. I should be over-
- eating myself if I went on like this."
-
- It was dark when she reached the square in which
- Miss Minchin's Select Seminary was situated; the
- lamps were lighted, and in most of the windows
- gleams of light were to be seen. It always
- interested Sara to catch glimpses of the rooms
- before the shutters were closed. She liked to
- imagine things about people who sat before the
- fires in the houses, or who bent over books at
- the tables. There was, for instance, the Large
- Family opposite. She called these people the Large
- Family--not because they were large, for indeed
- most of them were little,--but because there were
- so many of them. There were eight children in
- the Large Family, and a stout, rosy mother, and
- a stout, rosy father, and a stout, rosy grand-mamma,
- and any number of servants. The eight-}children
- were always either being taken out to walk,
- or to ride in perambulators, by comfortable
- nurses; or they were going to drive with their
- mamma; or they were flying to the door in the
- evening to kiss their papa and dance around him
- and drag off his overcoat and look for packages
- in the pockets of it; or they were crowding about
- the nursery windows and looking out and pushing
- ach other and laughing,--in fact they were
- always doing something which seemed enjoyable
- and suited to the tastes of a large family.
- Sara was quite attached to them, and had given
- them all names out of books. She called them
- the Montmorencys, when she did not call them the
- Large Family. The fat, fair baby with the lace
- cap was Ethelberta Beauchamp Montmorency;
- the next baby was Violet Cholmondely Montmorency;
- the little boy who could just stagger, and who had
- such round legs, was Sydney Cecil Vivian Montmorency;
- and then came Lilian Evangeline, Guy Clarence,
- Maud Marian, Rosalind Gladys, Veronica Eustacia,
- and Claude Harold Hector.
-
- Next door to the Large Family lived the Maiden Lady,
- who had a companion, and two parrots, and a King
- Charles spaniel; but Sara was not so very fond of her,
- because she did nothing in particular but talk to
- the parrots and drive out with the spaniel. The most
- interesting person of all lived next door to Miss
- Minchin herself. Sara called him the Indian Gentleman.
- He was an elderly gentleman who was said to have
- lived in the East Indies, and to be immensely rich
- and to have something the matter with his liver,--
- in fact, it had been rumored that he had no liver
- at all, and was much inconvenienced by the fact.
- At any rate, he was very yellow and he did not look
- happy; and when he went out to his carriage, he
- was almost always wrapped up in shawls and
- overcoats, as if he were cold. He had a native
- servant who looked even colder than himself, and
- he had a monkey who looked colder than the
- native servant. Sara had seen the monkey sitting
- on a table, in the sun, in the parlor window, and
- he always wore such a mournful expression that
- she sympathized with him deeply.
-
- "I dare say," she used sometimes to remark to
- herself, "he is thinking all the time of cocoanut
- trees and of swinging by his tail under a tropical sun.
- He might have had a family dependent on him too,
- poor thing!"
-
- The native servant, whom she called the Lascar,
- looked mournful too, but he was evidently very
- faithful to his master.
-
- "Perhaps he saved his master's life in the Sepoy
- rebellion," she thought. "They look as if they might
- have had all sorts of adventures. I wish I could
- speak to the Lascar. I remember a little Hindustani."
-
- And one day she actually did speak to him, and his
- start at the sound of his own language expressed
- a great deal of surprise and delight. He was
- waiting for his master to come out to the carriage,
- and Sara, who was going on an errand as usual,
- stopped and spoke a few words. She had a special
- gift for languages and had remembered enough
- Hindustani to make herself understood by him.
- When his master came out, the Lascar spoke to him
- quickly, and the Indian Gentleman turned and looked
- at her curiously. And afterward the Lascar always
- greeted her with salaams of the most profound description.
- And occasionally they exchanged a few words. She learned
- that it was true that the Sahib was very rich--that he
- was ill--and also that he had no wife nor children,
- and that England did not agree with the monkey.
-
- "He must be as lonely as I am," thought Sara.
- "Being rich does not seem to make him happy."
-
- That evening, as she passed the windows, the Lascar
- was closing the shutters, and she caught a glimpse of
- the room inside. There was a bright fire glowing in
- the grate, and the Indian Gentleman was sitting
- before it, in a luxurious chair. The room was richly
- furnished, and looked delightfully comfortable, but
- the Indian Gentleman sat with his head resting on his
- hand, and looked as lonely and unhappy as ever.
-
- "Poor man!" said Sara; "I wonder what you are `supposing'?"
-
- When she went into the house she met Miss Minchin
- in the hall.
-
- "Where have you wasted your time?" said
- Miss Minchin. "You have been out for hours!"
-
- "It was so wet and muddy," Sara answered.
- "It was hard to walk, because my shoes were so
- bad and slipped about so."
-
- "Make no excuses," said Miss Minchin, "and tell
- no falsehoods."
-
- Sara went downstairs to the kitchen.
-
- "Why didn't you stay all night?" said the cook.
-
- "Here are the things," said Sara, and laid her
- purchases on the table.
-
- The cook looked over them, grumbling. She was in
- a very bad temper indeed.
-
- "May I have something to eat?" Sara asked
- rather faintly.
-
- "Tea's over and done with," was the answer.
- "Did you expect me to keep it hot for you?
-
- Sara was silent a second.
-
- "I had no dinner," she said, and her voice was
- quite low. She made it low, because she was
- afraid it would tremble.
-
- "There's some bread in the pantry," said the cook.
- "That's all you'll get at this time of day."
-
- Sara went and found the bread. It was old and
- hard and dry. The cook was in too bad a humor
- to give her anything to eat with it. She had just
- been scolded by Miss Minchin, and it was always
- safe and easy to vent her own spite on Sara.
-
- Really it was hard for the child to climb the
- three long flights of stairs leading to her garret.
- She often found them long and steep when she
- was tired, but to-night it seemed as if she would
- never reach the top. Several times a lump rose
- in her throat and she was obliged to stop to rest.
-
- "I can't pretend anything more to-night," she
- said wearily to herself. "I'm sure I can't.
- I'll eat my bread and drink some water and then go
- to sleep, and perhaps a dream will come and pretend
- for me. I wonder what dreams are."
-
- Yes, when she reached the top landing there were
- tears in her eyes, and she did not feel like a
- princess--only like a tired, hungry, lonely, lonely child.
-
- "If my papa had lived," she said, "they would
- not have treated me like this. If my papa had
- lived, he would have taken care of me."
-
- Then she turned the handle and opened the garret-door.
-
- Can you imagine it--can you believe it? I find
- it hard to believe it myself. And Sara found it
- impossible; for the first few moments she thought
- something strange had happened to her eyes--to
- her mind--that the dream had come before she
- had had time to fall asleep.
-
- "Oh!" she exclaimed breathlessly. "Oh! it isn't true!
- I know, I know it isn't true!" And she slipped into
- the room and closed the door and locked it, and stood
- with her back against it, staring straight before her.
-
- Do you wonder? In the grate, which had been
- empty and rusty and cold when she left it, but
- which now was blackened and polished up quite
- respectably, there was a glowing, blazing fire.
- On the hob was a little brass kettle, hissing and
- boiling; spread upon the floor was a warm, thick
- rug; before the fire was a folding-chair, unfolded
- and with cushions on it; by the chair was a small
- folding-table, unfolded, covered with a white
- cloth, and upon it were spread small covered
- dishes, a cup and saucer, and a tea-pot; on the
- bed were new, warm coverings, a curious wadded
- silk robe, and some books. The little, cold,
- miserable room seemed changed into Fairyland.
- It was actually warm and glowing.
-
- "It is bewitched!" said Sara. "Or I am bewitched.
- I only think I see it all; but if I can only keep
- on thinking it, I don't care--I don't care--
- if I can only keep it up!"
-
- She was afraid to move, for fear it would melt away.
- She stood with her back against the door and looked
- and looked. But soon she began to feel warm, and
- then she moved forward.
-
- "A fire that I only thought I saw surely wouldn't
- feel warm," she said. "It feels real--real."
-
- She went to it and knelt before it. She touched
- the chair, the table; she lifted the cover of one
- of the dishes. There was something hot and savory
- in it--something delicious. The tea-pot had tea
- in it, ready for the boiling water from the little
- kettle; one plate had toast on it, another, muffins.
-
- "It is real," said Sara. "The fire is real enough
- to warm me; I can sit in the chair; the things are
- real enough to eat."
-
- It was like a fairy story come true--it was heavenly.
- She went to the bed and touched the blankets and the wrap.
- They were real too. She opened one book, and on the
- title-page was written in a strange hand, "The little
- girl in the attic."
-
- Suddenly--was it a strange thing for her to do?
- --Sara put her face down on the queer, foreign
- looking quilted robe and burst into tears.
-
- "I don't know who it is," she said, "but somebody
- cares about me a little--somebody is my friend."
-
- Somehow that thought warmed her more than the fire.
- She had never had a friend since those happy,
- luxurious days when she had had everything; and
- those days had seemed such a long way off--so far
- away as to be only like dreams--during these last
- years at Miss Minchin's.
-
- She really cried more at this strange thought of
- having a friend--even though an unknown one--
- than she had cried over many of her worst troubles.
-
- But these tears seemed different from the others,
- for when she had wiped them away they did not seem
- to leave her eyes and her heart hot and smarting.
-
- And then imagine, if you can, what the rest of
- the evening was like. The delicious comfort of
- taking off the damp clothes and putting on the
- soft, warm, quilted robe before the glowing fire--
- of slipping her cold feet into the luscious little
- wool-lined slippers she found near her chair.
- And then the hot tea and savory dishes, the
- cushioned chair and the books!
-
- It was just like Sara, that, once having found the
- things real, she should give herself up to the
- enjoyment of them to the very utmost. She had
- lived such a life of imagining, and had found her
- pleasure so long in improbabilities, that she was
- quite equal to accepting any wonderful thing
- that happened. After she was quite warm and
- had eaten her supper and enjoyed herself for an
- hour or so, it had almost ceased to be surprising
- to her that such magical surroundings should be hers.
- As to finding out who had done all this, she knew
- that it was out of the question. She did not know
- a human soul by whom it could seem in the least
- degree probable that it could have been done.
-
- "There is nobody," she said to herself, "nobody."
- She discussed the matter with Emily, it is true,
- but more because it was delightful to talk about it
- than with a view to making any discoveries.
-
- "But we have a friend, Emily," she said; "we have
- a friend."
-
- Sara could not even imagine a being charming enough
- to fill her grand ideal of her mysterious benefactor.
- If she tried to make in her mind a picture of him
- or her, it ended by being something glittering and
- strange--not at all like a real person, but bearing
- resemblance to a sort of Eastern magician, with
- long robes and a wand. And when she fell asleep,
- beneath the soft white blanket, she dreamed all
- night of this magnificent personage, and talked to
- him in Hindustani, and made salaams to him.
-
- Upon one thing she was determined. She would not
- speak to any one of her good fortune--it should
- be her own secret; in fact, she was rather
- inclined to think that if Miss Minchin knew,
- she would take her treasures from her or in
- some way spoil her pleasure. So, when she
- went down the next morning, she shut her door
- very tight and did her best to look as if nothing
- unusual had occurred. And yet this was rather
- hard, because she could not help remembering,
- every now and then, with a sort of start, and her
- heart would beat quickly every time she repeated
- to herself, "I have a friend!"
-
- It was a friend who evidently meant to continue
- to be kind, for when she went to her garret the
- next night--and she opened the door, it must be
- confessed, with rather an excited feeling--she
- found that the same hands had been again at work,
- and had done even more than before. The fire
- and the supper were again there, and beside
- them a number of other things which so altered
- the look of the garret that Sara quite lost
- her breath. A piece of bright, strange, heavy
- cloth covered the battered mantel, and on it
- some ornaments had been placed. All the bare,
- ugly things which could be covered with draperies
- had been concealed and made to look quite pretty.
- Some odd materials in rich colors had been
- fastened against the walls with sharp, fine
- tacks--so sharp that they could be pressed into
- the wood without hammering. Some brilliant
- fans were pinned up, and there were several
- large cushions. A long, old wooden box was covered
- with a rug, and some cushions lay on it, so that it
- wore quite the air of a sofa.
-
- Sara simply sat down, and looked, and looked again.
-
- "It is exactly like something fairy come true,"
- she said; "there isn't the least difference. I feel
- as if I might wish for anything--diamonds and bags
- of gold--and they would appear! That couldn't be
- any stranger than this. Is this my garret?
- Am I the same cold, ragged, damp Sara? And to
- think how I used to pretend, and pretend, and
- wish there were fairies! The one thing I always
- wanted was to see a fairy story come true. I am
- living in a fairy story! I feel as if I might be
- a fairy myself, and be able to turn things into
- anything else!"
-
- It was like a fairy story, and, what was best of all,
- it continued. Almost every day something new was
- done to the garret. Some new comfort or ornament
- appeared in it when Sara opened her door at night,
- until actually, in a short time it was a bright
- little room, full of all sorts of odd and
- luxurious things. And the magician had taken
- care that the child should not be hungry, and that
- she should have as many books as she could read.
- When she left the room in the morning, the remains
- of her supper were on the table, and when she
- returned in the evening, the magician had removed them,
- and left another nice little meal. Downstairs Miss
- Minchin was as cruel and insulting as ever, Miss
- Amelia was as peevish, and the servants were as vulgar.
- Sara was sent on errands, and scolded, and driven
- hither and thither, but somehow it seemed as if she
- could bear it all. The delightful sense of romance
- and mystery lifted her above the cook's temper
- and malice. The comfort she enjoyed and could
- always look forward to was making her stronger.
- If she came home from her errands wet and tired,
- she knew she would soon be warm, after she had
- climbed the stairs. In a few weeks she began
- to look less thin. A little color came into her
- cheeks, and her eyes did not seem much too big
- for her face.
-
- It was just when this was beginning to be so
- apparent that Miss Minchin sometimes stared at
- her questioningly, that another wonderful
- thing happened. A man came to the door and left
- several parcels. All were addressed (in large
- letters) to "the little girl in the attic."
- Sara herself was sent to open the door, and she
- took them in. She laid the two largest parcels
- down on the hall-table and was looking at the
- address, when Miss Minchin came down the stairs.
-
- "Take the things upstairs to the young lady to
- whom they belong," she said. "Don't stand there
- staring at them."
-
- "They belong to me," answered Sara, quietly.
-
- "To you!" exclaimed Miss Minchin. "What do you mean?"
-
- "I don't know where they came from," said Sara,
- "but they're addressed to me."
-
- Miss Minchin came to her side and looked at
- them with an excited expression.
-
- "What is in them?" she demanded.
-
- "I don't know," said Sara.
-
- "Open them!" she demanded, still more excitedly.
-
- Sara did as she was told. They contained pretty
- and comfortable clothing,--clothing of different
- kinds; shoes and stockings and gloves, a warm
- coat, and even an umbrella. On the pocket of
- the coat was pinned a paper on which was written,
- "To be worn every day--will be replaced by others
- when necessary."
-
- Miss Minchin was quite agitated. This was an
- incident which suggested strange things to her
- sordid mind. Could it be that she had made a
- mistake after all, and that the child so neglected
- and so unkindly treated by her had some powerful
- friend in the background? It would not be very
- pleasant if there should be such a friend,
- and he or she should learn all the truth about the
- thin, shabby clothes, the scant food, the hard work.
- She felt queer indeed and uncertain, and she gave a
- side-glance at Sara.
-
- "Well," she said, in a voice such as she had
- never used since the day the child lost her father
- --"well, some one is very kind to you. As you
- have the things and are to have new ones when
- they are worn out, you may as well go and put
- them on and look respectable; and after you are
- dressed, you may come downstairs and learn your
- lessons in the school-room."
-
- So it happened that, about half an hour afterward,
- Sara struck the entire school-room of pupils
- dumb with amazement, by making her appearance
- in a costume such as she had never worn since
- the change of fortune whereby she ceased to be
- a show-pupil and a parlor-boarder. She scarcely
- seemed to be the same Sara. She was neatly
- dressed in a pretty gown of warm browns and
- reds, and even her stockings and slippers were
- nice and dainty.
-
- "Perhaps some one has left her a fortune," one
- of the girls whispered. "I always thought something
- would happen to her, she is so queer."
-
- That night when Sara went to her room she carried
- out a plan she had been devising for some time.
- She wrote a note to her unknown friend. It ran
- as follows:
-
-
- "I hope you will not think it is not polite that I
- should write this note to you when you wish to keep
- yourself a secret, but I do not mean to be impolite,
- or to try to find out at all, only I want to thank
- you for being so kind to me--so beautiful kind, and
- making everything like a fairy story. I am so
- grateful to you and I am so happy! I used to be so
- lonely and cold and, hungry, and now, oh, just think
- what you have done for me! Please let me say just
- these words. It seems as if I ought to say them.
- Thank you--thank you--thank you!
-
- "THE LITTLE GIRL IN THE ATTIC."
-
-
- The next morning she left this on the little table,
- and it was taken away with the other things;
- so she felt sure the magician had received it,
- and she was happier for the thought.
-
- A few nights later a very odd thing happened.
- She found something in the room which she certainly
- would never have expected. When she came in as
- usual she saw something small and dark in her chair,--
- an odd, tiny figure, which turned toward her a little,
- weird-looking, wistful face.
-
- "Why, it's the monkey!" she cried. "It is the Indian
- Gentleman's monkey! Where can he have come from?"
-
- It was the monkey, sitting up and looking so
- like a mite of a child that it really was quite
- pathetic; and very soon Sara found out how he
- happened to be in her room. The skylight was
- open, and it was easy to guess that he had crept
- out of his master's garret-window, which was only
- a few feet away and perfectly easy to get in and
- out of, even for a climber less agile than a monkey.
- He had probably climbed to the garret on a tour of
- investigation, and getting out upon the roof,
- and being attracted by the light in Sara's attic,
- had crept in. At all events this seemed
- quite reasonable, and there he was; and when
- Sara went to him, he actually put out his queer,
- elfish little hands, caught her dress, and jumped
- into her arms.
-
- "Oh, you queer, poor, ugly, foreign little thing!"
- said Sara, caressing him. "I can't help
- liking you. You look like a sort of baby, but I
- am so glad you are not, because your mother
- could not be proud of you, and nobody would dare
- to say you were like any of your relations. But I
- do like you; you have such a forlorn little look
- in your face. Perhaps you are sorry you are so
- ugly, and it's always on your mind. I wonder if
- you have a mind?"
-
- The monkey sat and looked at her while she talked,
- and seemed much interested in her remarks, if one
- could judge by his eyes and his forehead, and the
- way he moved his head up and down, and held it
- sideways and scratched it with his little hand.
- He examined Sara quite seriously, and anxiously, too.
- He felt the stuff of her dress, touched her hands,
- climbed up and examined her ears, and then sat on
- her shoulder holding a lock of her hair, looking
- mournful but not at all agitated. Upon the whole,
- he seemed pleased with Sara.
-
- "But I must take you back," she said to him,
- "though I'm sorry to have to do it. Oh, the
- company you would be to a person!"
-
- She lifted him from her shoulder, set him on
- her knee, and gave him a bit of cake. He sat
- and nibbled it, and then put his head on one side,
- looked at her, wrinkled his forehead, and then
- nibbled again, in the most companionable manner.
-
- "But you must go home," said Sara at last; and
- she took him in her arms to carry him downstairs.
- Evidently he did not want to leave the room,
- for as they reached the door he clung to
- her neck and gave a little scream of anger.
-
- "You mustn't be an ungrateful monkey," said Sara.
- "You ought to be fondest of your own family.
- I am sure the Lascar is good to you."
-
- Nobody saw her on her way out, and very soon
- she was standing on the Indian Gentleman's front
- steps, and the Lascar had opened the door for her.
-
- "I found your monkey in my room," she said
- in Hindustani. "I think he got in through
- the window."
-
- The man began a rapid outpouring of thanks;
- but, just as he was in the midst of them, a fretful,
- hollow voice was heard through the open door of
- the nearest room. The instant he heard it the
- Lascar disappeared, and left Sara still holding
- the monkey.
-
- It was not many moments, however, before he came
- back bringing a message. His master had told
- him to bring Missy into the library. The Sahib
- was very ill, but he wished to see Missy.
-
- Sara thought this odd, but she remembered
- reading stories of Indian gentlemen who, having
- no constitutions, were extremely cross and full of
- whims, and who must have their own way. So she
- followed the Lascar.
-
- When she entered the room the Indian Gentleman was
- lying on an easy chair, propped up with pillows.
- He looked frightfully ill. His yellow face was thin,
- and his eyes were hollow. He gave Sara a rather
- curious look--it was as if she wakened in him some
- anxious interest.
-
- "You live next door?" he said.
-
- "Yes," answered Sara. "I live at Miss Minchin's."
-
- "She keeps a boarding-school?"
-
- "Yes," said Sara.
-
- "And you are one of her pupils?"
-
- Sara hesitated a moment.
-
- "I don't know exactly what I am," she replied.
-
- "Why not?" asked the Indian Gentleman.
-
- The monkey gave a tiny squeak, and Sara
- stroked him.
-
- "At first," she said, "I was a pupil and a parlor
- boarder; but now--"
-
- "What do you mean by `at first'?" asked the
- Indian Gentleman.
-
- "When I was first taken there by my papa."
-
- "Well, what has happened since then?" said the
- invalid, staring at her and knitting his brows
- with a puzzled expression.
-
- "My papa died," said Sara. "He lost all his money,
- and there was none left for me--and there was no
- one to take care of me or pay Miss Minchin, so--"
-
- "So you were sent up into the garret and
- neglected, and made into a half-starved little
- drudge!" put in the Indian Gentleman. That is
- about it, isn't it?"
-
- The color deepened on Sara's cheeks.
-
- "There was no one to take care of me, and no
- money," she said. "I belong to nobody."
-
- "What did your father mean by losing his money?"
- said the gentleman, fretfully.
-
- The red in Sara's cheeks grew deeper, and she
- fixed her odd eyes on the yellow face.
-
- "He did not lose it himself," she said. "He had a
- friend he was fond of, and it was his friend, who
- took his money. I don't know how. I don't understand.
- He trusted his friend too much."
-
- She saw the invalid start--the strangest start--
- as if he had been suddenly frightened. Then he
- spoke nervously and excitedly:
-
- "That's an old story," he said. "It happens
- every day; but sometimes those who are blamed
- --those who do the wrong--don't intend it, and
- are not so bad. It may happen through a mistake
- --a miscalculation; they may not be so bad."
-
- "No," said Sara, "but the suffering is just as
- bad for the others. It killed my papa."
-
- The Indian Gentleman pushed aside some of
- the gorgeous wraps that covered him.
-
- "Come a little nearer, and let me look at you,"
- he said.
-
- His voice sounded very strange; it had a more
- nervous and excited tone than before. Sara had
- an odd fancy that he was half afraid to look at her.
- She came and stood nearer, the monkey clinging to her
- and watching his master anxiously over his shoulder.
-
- The Indian Gentleman's hollow, restless eyes
- fixed themselves on her.
-
- "Yes," he said at last. "Yes; I can see it.
- Tell me your father's name."
-
- "His name was Ralph Crewe," said Sara. "Captain Crewe.
- Perhaps,"--a sudden thought flashing upon her,--
- "perhaps you may have heard of him? He died in India."
-
- The Indian Gentleman sank back upon his pillows.
- He looked very weak, and seemed out of breath.
-
- "Yes," he said, "I knew him. I was his friend.
- I meant no harm. If he had only lived he would
- have known. It turned out well after all. He was
- a fine young fellow. I was fond of him. I will
- make it right. Call--call the man."
-
- Sara thought he was going to die. But there
- was no need to call the Lascar. He must have
- been waiting at the door. He was in the room
- and by his master's side in an instant. He seemed
- to know what to do. He lifted the drooping head,
- and gave the invalid something in a small glass.
- The Indian Gentleman lay panting for a few minutes,
- and then he spoke in an exhausted but eager voice,
- addressing the Lascar in Hindustani:
-
- "Go for Carmichael," he said. Tell him to come
- here at once. Tell him I have found the child!"
-
- When Mr. Carmichael arrived (which occurred
- in a very few minutes, for it turned out that he
- was no other than the father of the Large Family
- across the street), Sara went home, and was allowed
- to take the monkey with her. She certainly did
- not sleep very much that night, though the monkey
- behaved beautifully, and did not disturb her in
- the least. It was not the monkey that kept her
- awake--it was her thoughts, and her wonders as to
- what the Indian Gentleman had meant when he said,
- "Tell him I have found the child." "What child?"
- Sara kept asking herself.
-
- "I was the only child there; but how had he
- found me, and why did he want to find me?
- And what is he going to do, now I am found?
- Is it something about my papa? Do I belong
- to somebody? Is he one of my relations?
- Is something going to happen?"
-
- But she found out the very next day, in the
- morning; and it seemed that she had been living
- in a story even more than she had imagined.
- First, Mr. Carmichael came and had an interview
- with Miss Minchin. And it appeared that Mr.
- Carmichael, besides occupying the important
- situation of father to the Large Family was a
- lawyer, and had charge of the affairs of Mr.
- Carrisford--which was the real name of the Indian
- Gentleman--and, as Mr. Carrisford's lawyer, Mr.
- Carmichael had come to explain something curious
- to Miss Minchin regarding Sara. But, being
- the father of the Large Family, he had a very
- kind and fatherly feeling for children; and so,
- after seeing Miss Minchin alone, what did he do
- but go and bring across the square his rosy,
- motherly, warm-hearted wife, so that she herself
- might talk to the little lonely girl, and tell
- her everything in the best and most motherly way.
-
- And then Sara learned that she was to be a poor
- little drudge and outcast no more, and that
- a great change had come in her fortunes; for all
- the lost fortune had come back to her, and a great
- deal had even been added to it. It was Mr. Carrisford
- who had been her father's friend, and who had made
- the investments which had caused him the apparent
- loss of his money; but it had so happened that
- after poor young Captain Crewe's death one of the
- investments which had seemed at the time the very
- worst had taken a sudden turn, and proved to be
- such a success that it had been a mine of wealth,
- and had more than doubled the Captain's lost
- fortune, as well as making a fortune for Mr.
- Carrisford himself. But Mr. Carrisford had
- been very unhappy. He had truly loved his poor,
- handsome, generous young friend, and the
- knowledge that he had caused his death
- had weighed upon him always, and broken both
- his health and spirit. The worst of it had been
- that, when first he thought himself and Captain
- Crewe ruined, he had lost courage and gone
- away because he was not brave enough to face
- the consequences of what he had done, and so he
- had not even known where the young soldier's
- little girl had been placed. When he wanted to
- find her, and make restitution, he could discover
- no trace of her; and the certainty that she was
- poor and friendless somewhere had made him
- more miserable than ever. When he had taken
- the house next to Miss Minchin's he had been
- so ill and wretched that he had for the time
- given up the search. His troubles and the Indian
- climate had brought him almost to death's door--
- indeed, he had not expected to live more than a
- few months. And then one day the Lascar had
- told him about Sara's speaking Hindustani, and
- gradually he had begun to take a sort of interest
- in the forlorn child, though he had only caught a
- glimpse of her once or twice and he had not
- connected her with the child of his friend,
- perhaps because he was too languid to think much
- about anything. But the Lascar had found out
- something of Sara's unhappy little life, and about
- the garret. One evening he had actually crept out
- of his own garret-window and looked into hers, which
- was a very easy matter, because, as I have said,
- it was only a few feet away--and he had told his
- master what he had seen, and in a moment of
- compassion the Indian Gentleman had told him to
- take into the wretched little room such comforts
- as he could carry from the one window to the other.
- And the Lascar, who had developed an interest in,
- and an odd fondness for, the child who had
- spoken to him in his own tongue, had been
- pleased with the work; and, having the silent
- swiftness and agile movements of many of his
- race, he had made his evening journeys across
- the few feet of roof from garret-window to garret-
- window, without any trouble at all. He had
- watched Sara's movements until he knew exactly
- when she was absent from her room and when
- she returned to it, and so he had been able to
- calculate the best times for his work. Generally he
- had made them in the dusk of the evening; but
- once or twice, when he had seen her go out on
- errands, he had dared to go over in the daytime,
- being quite sure that the garret was never entered
- by any one but herself. His pleasure in the work
- and his reports of the results had added to the
- invalid's interest in it, and sometimes the master
- had found the planning gave him something to
- think of, which made him almost forget his weariness
- and pain. And at last, when Sara brought home the
- truant monkey, he had felt a wish to see her,
- and then her likeness to her father had done the rest.
-
- "And now, my dear," said good Mrs. Carmichael,
- patting Sara's hand, "all your troubles are over,
- I am sure, and you are to come home with me and
- be taken care of as if you were one of my own
- little girls; and we are so pleased to think of
- having you with us until everything is settled,
- and Mr. Carrisford is better. The excitement of
- last night has made him very weak, but we really
- think he will get well, now that such a load is
- taken from his mind. And when he is stronger,
- I am sure he will be as kind to you as your own
- papa would have been. He has a very good heart,
- and he is fond of children--and he has no family
- at all. But we must make you happy and rosy,
- and you must learn to play and run about,
- as my little girls do--"
-
- "As your little girls do?" said Sara. "I wonder if
- I could. I used to watch them and wonder what it
- was like. Shall I feel as if I belonged to somebody?"
-
- "Ah, my love, yes!--yes!" said Mrs. Carmichael;
- "dear me, yes!" And her motherly blue eyes grew
- quite moist, and she suddenly took Sara in her
- arms and kissed her. That very night, before
- she went to sleep, Sara had made the acquaintance
- of the entire Large Family, and such excitement
- as she and the monkey had caused in that joyous
- circle could hardly be described. There was not
- a child in the nursery, from the Eton boy who
- was the eldest, to the baby who was the youngest,
- who had not laid some offering on her shrine.
- All the older ones knew something of her
- wonderful story. She had been born in India;
- she had been poor and lonely and unhappy, and
- had lived in a garret and been treated unkindly;
- and now she was to be rich and happy, and be
- taken care of. They were so sorry for her, and
- so delighted and curious about her, all at once.
- The girls wished to be with her constantly, and
- the little boys wished to be told about India;
- the second baby, with the short round legs, simply
- sat and stared at her and the monkey, possibly
- wondering why she had not brought a hand-organ
- with her.
-
- "I shall certainly wake up presently," Sara kept
- saying to herself. "This one must be a dream.
- The other one turned out to be real; but this
- couldn't be. But, oh! how happy it is!"
-
- And even when she went to bed, in the bright,
- pretty room not far from Mrs. Carmichael's own,
- and Mrs. Carmichael came and kissed her and
- patted her and tucked her in cozily, she was not
- sure that she would not wake up in the garret in
- the morning.
-
- "And oh, Charles, dear," Mrs. Carmichael said
- to her husband, when she went downstairs to him,
- "We must get that lonely look out of her eyes!
- It isn't a child's look at all. I couldn't bear to
- see it in one of my own children. What the poor
- little love must have had to bear in that dreadful
- woman's house! But, surely, she will forget it in time."
-
-
- But though the lonely look passed away from
- Sara's face, she never quite forgot the garret at
- Miss Minchin's; and, indeed, she always liked to
- remember the wonderful night when the tired
- princess crept upstairs, cold and wet, and opening
- the door found fairy-land waiting for her.
- And there was no one of the many stories she was
- always being called upon to tell in the nursery
- of the Large Family which was more popular than
- that particular one; and there was no one of
- whom the Large Family were so fond as of Sara.
- Mr. Carrisford did not die, but recovered, and
- Sara went to live with him; and no real princess
- could have been better taken care of than she was.
- It seemed that the Indian Gentleman could not
- do enough to make her happy, and to repay her for
- the past; and the Lascar was her devoted slave.
- As her odd little face grew brighter, it grew so
- pretty and interesting that Mr. Carrisford used
- to sit and watch it many an evening, as they
- sat by the fire together.
-
- They became great friends, and they used to
- spend hours reading and talking together; and,
- in a very short time, there was no pleasanter
- sight to the Indian Gentleman than Sara sitting
- in her big chair on the opposite side of the
- hearth, with a book on her knee and her soft,
- dark hair tumbling over her warm cheeks.
- She had a pretty habit of looking up at him
- suddenly, with a bright smile, and then he
- would often say to her:
-
- "Are you happy, Sara?"
-
- And then she would answer:
-
- "I feel like a real princess, Uncle Tom."
-
- He had told her to call him Uncle Tom.
-
- "There doesn't seem to be anything left to
- `suppose,'" she added.
-
- There was a little joke between them that he
- was a magician, and so could do anything he
- liked; and it was one of his pleasures to invent
- plans to surprise her with enjoyments she had not
- thought of. Scarcely a day passed in which he
- did not do something new for her. Sometimes she
- found new flowers in her room; sometimes a
- fanciful little gift tucked into some odd corner,
- sometimes a new book on her pillow;--once as
- they sat together in the evening they heard the
- scratch of a heavy paw on the door of the room,
- and when Sara went to find out what it was, there
- stood a great dog--a splendid Russian boar-hound
- with a grand silver and gold collar. Stooping to
- read the inscription upon the collar, Sara was
- delighted to read the words: "I am Boris; I serve
- the Princess Sara."
-
- Then there was a sort of fairy nursery arranged
- for the entertainment of the juvenile members of
- the Large Family, who were always coming to see
- Sara and the Lascar and the monkey. Sara was
- as fond of the Large Family as they were of her.
- She soon felt as if she were a member of it,
- and the companionship of the healthy, happy
- children was very good for her. All the children
- rather looked up to her and regarded her as the
- cleverest and most brilliant of creatures--
- particularly after it was discovered that she not
- only knew stories of every kind, and could invent
- new ones at a moment's notice, but that she could
- help with lessons, and speak French and German,
- and discourse with the Lascar in Hindustani.
-
- It was rather a painful experience for Miss
- Minchin to watch her ex-pupil's fortunes, as she
- had the daily opportunity to do, and to feel that
- she had made a serious mistake, from a business
- point of view. She had even tried to retrieve it
- by suggesting that Sara's education should be
- continued under her care, and had gone to the
- length of making an appeal to the child herself.
-
- "I have always been very fond of you," she said.
-
- Then Sara fixed her eyes upon her and gave her
- one of her odd looks.
-
- "Have you?" she answered.
-
- "Yes," said Miss Minchin. "Amelia and I have
- always said you were the cleverest child we had
- with us, and I am sure we could make you happy
- --as a parlor boarder."
-
- Sara thought of the garret and the day her ears
- were boxed,--and of that other day, that dreadful,
- desolate day when she had been told that she
- belonged to nobody; that she had no home and
- no friends,--and she kept her eyes fixed on Miss
- Minchin's face.
-
- "You know why I would not stay with you,"
- she said.
-
- And it seems probable that Miss Minchin did,
- for after that simple answer she had not the
- boldness to pursue the subject. She merely sent
- in a bill for the expense of Sara's education and
- support, and she made it quite large enough.
- And because Mr. Carrisford thought Sara would wish
- it paid, it was paid. When Mr. Carmichael paid
- it he had a brief interview with Miss Minchin in
- which he expressed his opinion with much clearness
- and force; and it is quite certain that Miss
- Minchin did not enjoy the conversation.
-
- Sara had been about a month with Mr. Carrisford,
- and had begun to realize that her happiness was not
- a dream, when one night the Indian Gentleman saw
- that she sat a long time with her cheek on her hand
- looking at the fire.
-
- "What are you `supposing,' Sara?" he asked.
- Sara looked up with a bright color on her cheeks.
-
- "I was `supposing,'" she said; "I was remembering
- that hungry day, and a child I saw."
-
- "But there were a great many hungry days,"
- said the Indian Gentleman, with a rather sad tone
- in his voice. "Which hungry day was it?"
-
- "I forgot you didn't know," said Sara. "It was
- the day I found the things in my garret."
-
- And then she told him the story of the bun-shop,
- and the fourpence, and the child who was hungrier
- than herself; and somehow as she told it, though
- she told it very simply indeed, the Indian Gentleman
- found it necessary to shade his eyes with his hand
- and look down at the floor.
-
- "And I was `supposing' a kind of plan," said
- Sara, when she had finished; "I was thinking I
- would like to do something."
-
- "What is it?" said her guardian in a low tone.
- "You may do anything you like to do, Princess."
-
- "I was wondering," said Sara,--"you know you
- say I have a great deal of money--and I was
- wondering if I could go and see the bun-woman
- and tell her that if, when hungry children--
- particularly on those dreadful days--come and
- sit on the steps or look in at the window, she
- would just call them in and give them something
- to eat, she might send the bills to me and I
- would pay them--could I do that?"
-
- "You shall do it to-morrow morning," said the
- Indian Gentleman.
-
- "Thank you," said Sara; "you see I know what it
- is to be hungry, and it is very hard when one
- can't even pretend it away."
-
- "Yes, yes, my dear," said the Indian Gentleman.
- "Yes, it must be. Try to forget it. Come and
- sit on this footstool near my knee, and only
- remember you are a princess."
-
- "Yes," said Sara, "and I can give buns and
- bread to the Populace." And she went and
- sat on the stool, and the Indian Gentleman (he
- used to like her to call him that, too, sometimes,
- --in fact very often) drew her small, dark head
- down upon his knee and stroked her hair.
-
- The next morning a carriage drew up before
- the door of the baker's shop, and a gentleman
- and a little girl got out,--oddly enough, just as
- the bun-woman was putting a tray of smoking
- hotbuns into the window. When Sara entered
- the shop the woman turned and looked at her and,
- leaving the buns, came and stood behind the counter.
- For a moment she looked at Sara very hard indeed,
- and then her good-natured face lighted up.
-
- "I'm that sure I remember you, miss," she said.
- "And yet--"
-
- "Yes," said Sara, "once you gave me six buns for
- fourpence, and--"
-
- "And you gave five of 'em to a beggar-child,"
- said the woman. "I've always remembered it.
- I couldn't make it out at first. I beg pardon,
- sir, but there's not many young people that
- notices a hungry face in that way, and I've
- thought of it many a time. Excuse the liberty,
- miss, but you look rosier and better than you did
- that day."
-
- "I am better, thank you," said Sara, "and--and
- I am happier, and I have come to ask you to do
- something for me."
-
- "Me, miss!" exclaimed the woman, "why, bless you,
- yes, miss! What can I do?"
-
- And then Sara made her little proposal, and the
- woman listened to it with an astonished face.
-
- "Why, bless me!" she said, when she had heard
- it all. "Yes, miss, it'll be a pleasure to me to
- do it. I am a working woman, myself, and can't
- afford to do much on my own account, and there's
- sights of trouble on every side; but if you'll
- excuse me, I'm bound to say I've given many a bit
- of bread away since that wet afternoon, just along
- o' thinkin' of you. An' how wet an' cold you was,
- an' how you looked,--an' yet you give away your
- hot buns as if you was a princess."
-
- The Indian Gentleman smiled involuntarily,
- and Sara smiled a little too. "She looked so
- hungry," she said. "She was hungrier than I was."
-
- "She was starving," said the woman. "Many's the
- time she's told me of it since--how she sat there
- in the wet, and felt as if a wolf was a-tearing at
- her poor young insides."
-
- "Oh, have you seen her since then?" exclaimed Sara.
- "Do you know where she is?"
-
- "I know!" said the woman. "Why, she's in
- that there back room now, miss, an' has been for
- a month, an' a decent, well-meaning girl she's
- going to turn out, an' such a help to me in the
- day shop, an' in the kitchen, as you'd scarce believe,
- knowing how she's lived."
-
- She stepped to the door of the little back parlor
- and spoke; and the next minute a girl came out
- and followed her behind the counter. And actually
- it was the beggar-child, clean and neatly clothed,
- and looking as if she had not been hungry for a
- long time. She looked shy, but she had a nice face,
- now that she was no longer a savage; and the wild
- look had gone from her eyes. And she knew Sara in
- an instant, and stood and looked at her as if she
- could never look enough.
-
- "You see," said the woman, "I told her to
- come here when she was hungry, and when she'd
- come I'd give her odd jobs to do, an' I found she
- was willing, an' somehow I got to like her; an'
- the end of it was I've given her a place an' a home,
- an' she helps me, an' behaves as well, an' is as
- thankful as a girl can be. Her name's Anne--she
- has no other."
-
- The two children stood and looked at each
- other a few moments. In Sara's eyes a new
- thought was growing.
-
- "I'm glad you have such a good home," she said.
- "Perhaps Mrs. Brown will let you give the buns
- and bread to the children--perhaps you would
- like to do it--because you know what it is to
- be hungry, too."
-
- "Yes, miss," said the girl.
-
- And somehow Sara felt as if she understood her,
- though the girl said nothing more, and only stood
- still and looked, and looked after her as she
- went out of the shop and got into the carriage
- and drove away.
-
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