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- From: fippen@ux2.cso.uiuc.edu (J. Fippen)
- Subject: I knew I couldn't get married now.....
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- Organization: University of Illinois at Urbana
- Date: Thu, 21 Jan 1993 23:31:02 GMT
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- I really knew I couldn't get married now.
-
- It was 1947 and I was home living with my mother for the summer
- when the phone rang. It was Elizabeth, a girl I'd asked for a date a year
- earlier and she wouldn't date me because she was a UI employee and I was a
- student. I was delighted to hear from her (girls didn't generally call boys in
- those days), but I was going to school on the GI Bill, and during the summer
- I had no money at all; I told her this. So she said something to me I'll never
- forget: "You don't need any money to see me". I knew right then that if there
- was a heaven on earth, I had found it.
- I saw her every night that summerI could
- not marry her because I hadn't finished my education, no job, no money,
- nothmester, I thought only of HER. I nearly flunked out of school, and in those
- days jusjust 5 min before she got off work at the hospital. I asked her to take the
- nest to see me." She did. And on a warm September night, lying on the grass at the
- campus of UI, looking at the stars, I knew, urgently, positively, that I had to
- have her; this was not a temporary thing, just sexual, it camerom the heart
- and I knew intuitively that this feeling would never go away. She loved me and
- I knew that. My lust for her was unbearable; could I allow myself to have her
- now and marry her later? Then I asked myself, am I a human being or a lower
- annimal? Do I have the honor that my mother taught me? (if I don't have honor,
- I don't have anything) So with great pain, with love overwhelming me, with
- desire so strong my mind was nearly blank, I asked her to marry me.
- We were married when I graduated. I will never forget that night, nor
- will she. But all the agony was worth i because now we have a strong
- marriage, and I count her as my greatest blessing in life. My wish is that
- everone reading this post will have this same great experience.
-
- John Fippen fippen@ux2.cso.uiuc.edu
-