Organization: HAC - Johns Hopkins University, Baltimore
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Can anyone out there help me in this healing process? It looks as though
I'm about to end a wonderful 5 month LDR with my girlfriend from New York.
It seems that the idea of a future together no longer exists. The reasons
are many.. with her parents being the biggest. If you don't remember, I was
the guy who got hooked up with a Jewish girl and was wondering about her
parents reactions. Well it seems I'm not even going to get a chance to find
out what her parents reactions will be.. She thinks that if they find out now,
they'll still throw her out of the house and not trust her anymore. She also
say's she's very confused right now and don't feel the same as she did before.
She doesn't know what exactly made her feel this way. Right now, I am crying
my eyes out over her loss. EVERYTHING I look at reminds me of her. I am
feeling VERY helpless! This all started when she decided she didn't want
to come here and spend a few days.. (She was supposed to come down for three
days and have me come back up to New York for the week.) (Her parents are out
of town). Well anyway, she decides that she can't come down for the whole time
and wanted to come down just Christmas day and leave that night. I didn't thinkthat was a good idea and didn't understand her reasoning.. I still don't.
Anyway, near as I could tell, one thing led to another and I was told she
doesn't feel the same as she did (that is, she doesn't see marriage in our
future). She says she still loves me, but can't risk losing her entire
family over me. I am so hurt and numb.. I feel very empty inside! All I've
been doing today was thinking about her and trying to figure this out. I'm
at a lost. I honestly believe it's over and that we'll probably drag it out
a couple of weeks over the phone crying. She doesn't respond to reason and
seems not to know what to do. I can't decide for her but I'm affraid that
if she decides for herself, I'm out of the picture. HOW can something like
this happen to two people who say they still love each other? Can someone
explain this? I can't bear the thought of being without her, she was my life
my love and my livelyhood! What should I do? What should I expect of her?
