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- From: Wayne.Briggs@p3.f26.n392.z1.fidonet.org (Wayne Briggs)
- Newsgroups: misc.handicap
- Subject: Back in Abilene, Tx.
- Message-ID: <23177@handicap.news>
- Date: 21 Jul 92 15:28:46 GMT
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- [This is from the Amputee Conference]
-
- Today, 7-15-92 we returned to Abilene from El Paso. The throat
- infection I got from the last stellate gangilion block thru by neck
- at Parkland about three weeks agon hasn't cleared up despite some
- $150 a week antibiotic & then Augmentin. Because of this, I was
- unable to have surgery of any kind. The doctor at El Paso wan't to
- do some that three other orthopods told me to not have done because
- it proably would make better for a short whilw, then would have to
- be removd in 6-9 months with the results being more pain &
- additional problems. at A NEW MIDDLE SCHOOL in Abilene that will
- open August 17, 1992 with lots of new computers, softwerar, books &
- magazines in boxes.
-
- Dr. Mary Beth Ezcaki had seen me 7-6-92 and agreeed to do a
- shoulder disarticulation at PArkland August 17,1992 IF Parkland
- will give the OK. I had asked her thru her secretary to "put it on
- hold" until I could find out about an earlier date because of my
- wife's situation.
-
- Besidess Augut 92 being when she opens a new school; August 91 was
- about when our house caughton fire, she started having a major
- depression (since improved) & when her mom started encuraging her
- to divorce me; 8-12-90 was when I was attacked by the dog. I was
- trying to avoid overloading unpleasant annaversary dates &
- Charlotte having the major stress of opening & new school on the
- day my shoulder disarticulation was scheduled at Parkland. I was
- also wanting Charlotte to be there the day before, the day of, and
- the first day after surgery.
-
- Last week she had screaming nightmAres 3 nights in a row and then
- they stopped. She has been very supportive.
-
- I hope Dr. Ezcaki is able to help me August 17th or when ever. I5t
- is complicated because she no longer has her own upper extremity
- service at Parkland, must ask others for time & approval, and the
- senior person she want to assis is avaiable August 17th. Everr
- since she told us she would do the shoulder amputation, I've felt
- much better. I hope hope or either feeling better and perhaps going
- back to work.
-
- MENTAL STATUS IMPROVEMENTS: improved memory, can now remember a 7
- digit phone number long enough to either dial it or write it down,
- I've gone from crying 3 times a day to generally not crying, mood
- is improved, I'm less angry at the guy whose dog attacked e, & we
- are enjoying not just supporting each other but being with each
- other more. The only time I cried was whenm by surprize Chgarlotte
- ask what I missed most and I said "Having two hands to hold you.
- Nothing else matters.
-
- However, we had a lot of fun in El paso & took a midnight drive.
-
- I'm ready & after the disarticulation I'll be able to go on with my life.
-
- Charlotte has been very supportive and now thinks daily of adaptive
- things like a holder so I can take a drink of pop when stopped at a
- stop sign or driving with my thighs when there are no other cars
- around, etc. I really feel loved.
-
- We are both looking forward to August 17th & praying Dr. Ezacki
- does the disarticulation that day. The swelling of my arm continues
- to get worse even though I'm wearing the Varney sling that supports
- the bottom of my humerus & elevates my right hand to my left
- breast.
-
- I had a false pride about how I had been able to driver our 5 speed
- 740 Turbo with only my left arm working. Twice I broke off gear
- shift knobs & the mechanic said he had nbever seen 1 broken before
- and that I must be shigting some unusual way to put so much force
- to the knob & shift lever. Saturday we bought a 90 Tarus with an
- automatic. Now I think I had been desperately trying to prove to
- myself & others that I didn't need to adapt or bdo things
- differently and was being unusually macho.
-
- I had no idea back then, how scared I really was. I'm no longer
- scared and am glad to adaapt rather than creating problems for
- myself. EXAMPLE: Saturday I drove 400 miles round trip Abilene to
- Dallas & Sunday drove 180 miles to Midsland. My left shoulder was
- aching & the muscles or tendons were strained enough that when I
- coughed badly from the sore throat, my good left shoulder felt like
- it was starting to dislocate. I'm no longer going to push it and
- I'm no longer trying to see how much luggage I can carry. Nobody
- else really cares & I've just been being stupid. I now intend to
- take good care of my left arm. Besides, it is the oinly one that
- that works for being ffectionate with my wife, combing my hair, and
- wipping my fanny.
-
- I haven't been written in my journal even though I took the
- Macintosh with me. I did not intend tto say much except were back
- & praying the surgery is August 17th.
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