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- I'm not sure young girls today can afford to have early
- sexual experiences. Not with all the crazy people around.
- People don't seem to be as nice as they used to be. It just
- isn't safe anymore. My girls are now 11 and 14 and I sure
- wouldn't want them to go looking for anything like what I found
- when I was 12. I don't see how they could do it safely. Even if
- they could have a good learning experience, it would turn all bad
- as soon as some others found out about it.
- This country just isn't the same as it was twenty years ago!
- We now live in Florida, but I grew up in Ohio. Florida seems so
- conservative and bent on censoring everything, but it's not just
- here. Friends back in Ohio tell me it is even worse there.
- When I was growing up, our family was a nudist family, but
- we sure didn't call ourselves that. It was just the way we were.
- The best we've been able to do for our girls has been to
- visit several nudist parks a few times each year since they were
- born. Those visits have helped them, I'm sure. But it is just
- not as good, nor as innocent, as when I was growing up. We've
- talked with them often about sexual things, mostly just me and
- the girls. I hope they haven't had any real or serious sexual
- contacts, it just is not safe today.
- Even in a nudist park, and it's a shame, because, today,
- that might be the worst place of all -- the type of people who go
- seem to be changing, and I've seen the way the men (and some
- women!) look at my daughters and me. Ten or so years ago, when
- we started visiting nudist parks and beaches with friends, there
- were many good people, families, but now the people are not the
- same. Many now are downright sexually gross and crude and I'm
- not just talking about the men. They are also paranoid and
- suspect everyone else of the worst because they think the worst
- of themselves. We cannot see any future in nudist parks or
- beaches (which are even worse, for sure). It would be best to
- know some other families, locally, who feel the same way we do,
- and then we might be able to find some secluded places to enjoy
- the out-of-doors like it was meant to be enjoyed.
-
- I have always loved swimming naturally! And running!
- We really had it good when I was growing up. We lived on a
- farm that wasn't really a farm anymore. My Grandpa built the
- original white farmhouse long ago. My Mom and Dad had a more
- modern house built for themselves at the other end of farm, on
- another road. It wasn't really that far, not more than half a
- mile, and the path between the two houses was well worn. The
- barn hadn't been used in years, but it was a great place to play
- on Sundays with the other kids.
- My Grandpa and Grandma both died the same year, when I was
- about 10. There weren't any animals left except for the chickens
- and I had been Grandpa's "Number 1 chicken helper," as he called
- me. On school days, I'd often run to their house, help him with
- the chickens, and then catch the school bus. Saturdays, I'd
- usually spend all day helping Grandpa and Grandma. She taught me
- how to bake bread and it was almost as good as hers, or so my Dad
- liked to brag. Sundays, we'd all go to church, my Grandpa and
- Dad always wanted to be the first ones there, and the last to
- leave. Then we'd spend the rest of the Sunday at the old house,
- and there was always a big feast in the early evening. Mom and I
- did most of the cooking. Grandma did most of the deciding, and
- Grandpa was always inviting friends and new people in the church
- for dinner. There was always plenty for dinner and plenty of
- people to eat it.
- Grandpa made the dining room table the year Dad was born and
- it could seat 20 people, easily. The biggest room in the house
- should be for eating Grandpa always said, and in their house, it
- was. The living room was very cozy, but smaller than the
- kitchen. I think that old kitchen was the second biggest room in
- the house. It was such a good kitchen, it had so much space and
- room. If friends weren't visiting at the dining table, they were
- visiting in the kitchen. I still love that house. But there
- were only two small bedrooms upstairs, and the bathroom,
- downstairs, was just big enough for that huge old tub. You could
- sit on the rim while washing your hands in the sink. Those are
- all the rooms there were, so maybe it wasn't such a big house
- after all.
- It was Grandpa, years ago when my Dad was a boy, who first
- put the big rocks across the creek to make a dam and the swimming
- hole. Dad started swimming nude with Grandpa and Grandma just
- after he was born, so did all his brothers and sisters. Can you
- believe that four children grew up in that two-bedroom house?
- Saturday afternoon was the traditional time for swimming,
- when the weather was warm enough, even though the water usually
- wasn't.
- When Dad first started going with Mom, she wouldn't hear of
- skinny-dipping, especially not with other people around. They
- knew each other in high school and started going steady in tenth
- grade. Most every Sunday she went to church with my Dad's family
- and then stayed for dinner and helped Grandma. Just before they
- started 12th grade, she finally went swimming nude. First with
- Dad, only, and then with the whole family. She still loves to
- tell that story, and does as often as she can, to anyone who will
- sit still long enough. They got married right after graduation
- and I was born two years later, I'm the oldest.
- I don't know if Grandma or Grandpa were virgins when they
- got married, my Dad always says he thinks they weren't, and I
- know my parents enjoyed sex with each other long before they were
- married. Mom told me all about it and Dad has told me many
- things, also. Mom and Grandma are the two most decent, loving
- women I've ever known, and Dad and Grandpa are the two best men
- on the face of the earth. The whole town feels that way about
- them, too. You couldn't find four more honest and caring people
- if you tried. I sure miss them.
- After Grandpa passed away, Dad didn't know what to do with
- the old house. None of us wanted to see it sold and we couldn't
- live in it, much as we all loved it. And I didn't want to see
- the chickens go. It sat empty for the rest of the winter.
- In the Spring, Dad rented it to our new Minister for next to
- nothing, and I knew I would not like the man. Dad promised I
- could keep the chickens, if I could take good care of them each
- day by myself, without help from him or the new Minister. I knew
- I could and promised I would.
- That next Sunday, I met our new Minister for the first time
- and he was too young to be a Minister, for sure. Before Service,
- he had a special meeting for all the kids and he told us that we
- should call him "Reverend Dale" (his first name). Adults called
- him by his last name. A few days later, I also found out that he
- was going to be the high school coach.
- I was nervous the first week, but each morning I'd run to
- the old house, take care of the chickens and catch the bus as I
- always had. A few times I saw Reverend Dale at the kitchen table
- and he'd wave.
- That first Saturday, I didn't go over until later in the
- morning and he was out working on his car, in shorts and no
- shirt. I can still recall how strong he looked, and how filthy
- dirty he was. But he was very pleasant and watched while I did
- what I came to do. Then we talked and he asked if I'd like a
- cold drink. Well, the lemonade he made was horrid and I almost
- couldn't drink it.
- The next Saturday, I brought some lemons from home and
- offered to make him some like Grandma had taught me. He accepted
- my offer, but I couldn't find anything in the kitchen, anymore.
- The place just wasn't the same. My sadness must have shown
- because he suggested that we sit outside. As we talked, I told
- him I'd bake him some really good bread next Saturday, if he'd
- get what I needed and that he didn't have.
- By several Saturdays later, I was really feeling comfortable
- in that old kitchen again. He was always very nice, and he knew
- enough to stay out of my way.
- Soon, I was making his Saturday dinners for him. Mom told
- Dad it was good practice for me, and I really felt good and
- grown-up doing it. Then one Sunday, I heard him tell Dad how
- pleased and proud he was to have me as his "little homemaker."
- "Little," indeed! I was so angry, I didn't make his dinner the
- following Saturday.
- But soon, it was high-Summer, and I'd forgotten what he'd
- called me. We were very good friends by then, and I could talk
- to him about everything. We hauled a bunch of junk out of the
- barn to burn, and we were both dusty dirty, and tired; so I asked
- him if he'd ever made use of the swimming hole. I hadn't even
- been there, myself, in almost a year.
- When he asked "what swimming hole?" I walked him behind the
- barn and showed him the pond. It needed work. Some rocks had
- moved and the water wasn't as deep as it used to be. But I ran
- up to the edge and jumped out of all my clothes as I had always
- done (not even thinking about him), and I was in the water before
- I noticed him still on shore, just looking at me.
- I called several times for him to come in, and told him not
- to be chicken of some cold water. I was getting used to it, but
- he was still just sitting there.
- So, I explained how all of us enjoyed swimming nude and that
- we had for years. But he said that he really wasn't part of the
- family and that he was sure all the church people would never
- understand if anyone found out that he'd gone swimming nude with
- me. I assured him that I'd seen my Dad and Grandpa naked many
- times and that there was nothing to be ashamed of. I added that
- I'd also seen any number of older and younger, male relatives,
- and that I was sure he didn't have anything that they didn't
- have.
- Then he laughed as I'd never heard him laugh before, and
- that was when I first realized how much I really liked him.
- Well, he was just like the other men, not much bigger and
- not much smaller, but he sure had some really white skin on his
- butt. And he sure had a nice looking body.
- As we were leaving the water, he reminded me that we didn't
- have any towels. I told him that we never needed them, that we'd
- run back to the house and that the sun would dry us, completely,
- before we got there.
- He sure could run fast. He was in the house before I got
- there, sitting in the kitchen and breathing hard. So, I zipped
- into the living room to get an old blanket out of the chest and
- was half-way surprised to find they were still there. I ran out
- back and spread it on the grass. The sun was so warm and felt so
- good!
- But he wouldn't join me. He said it wouldn't be right if
- someone came and caught us naked. I told him not to worry, that
- we'd be able to hear anyone coming from miles away. And that we
- always laid outside afterwards, to enjoy the nice warm sun. He
- was hesitant, but he was soon next to me.
- Then, I noticed that he was not circumcised. I asked him
- why he wasn't and he asked me what I thought of it. I told him
- that I liked the looks of his uncircumcised penis better. Just
- as I was about to lay on my tummy, I remembered his white butt.
- So I ran back into the house and went looking in one of the
- kitchen closets for some suntan lotion.
- When I got on my knees beside him, he pulled back and
- wondered what I wanted. So I told him that he had to have some
- protection and that I had just the thing. I got some in my hand,
- but he refused and said he'd do it, himself. I told him not to
- be silly and that, besides, I wanted to do it.
- He had big shoulders and big arms, but he sure had a small
- rear end, and as hard as two big rocks. It took me longer to rub
- it in than was needed, but I really liked touching him. I'd done
- the same thing, many times before for others in my family, and
- thought nothing of it. But now, for the first time, it was very
- different and I was feeling very warm and nervous -- almost
- giggly.
- I'd seen erections before, even my Dad's, sometimes, when he
- was laying in the sun on the blanket with Mom. I'd never really
- paid any mind, but now, Reverend Dale was trying to hide his from
- me and that just made me more interested. So, I asked him what
- an uncircumcised penis looked like when it was erect, and he
- turned beet-red. I told him that I didn't want to hurt him, that
- I just wanted to see him. I almost even begged. I even promised
- that I wouldn't tell anyone that he was uncircumcised. So he
- finally turned over and I liked the way it looked -- like he was
- still wearing a hat!
- I didn't know why I did it at the time, but then I threw my
- arms around his neck and gave him a great big hug. He pushed me
- away much too soon, and told me that he liked me very much, that
- he liked being with me, but that there was a limit as to how we
- should behave.
- I asked him what limit.
- He asked me why I liked to be naked and I told him that I
- just did, and that I especially liked it with him.
- He asked me what I knew about sex and I told him that I knew
- all about it.
- Then, he asked me again what I knew about sex and I told him
- that sex was what people did when they loved each other. He left
- it at that and I was glad, because I really didn't know much more
- than that, then.
- He asked me if I was going to tell anyone about our swimming
- and being naked. I asked him if he wanted me to keep it a
- secret. He told me that he did want me to keep it a secret and I
- promised that I would, just so long as we could go swimming again
- next Saturday.
- We went swimming again, and I was happy to see him again,
- and it was good to rub suntan oil on him, again. He didn't try
- to hide himself from me, and that made me feel even better.
- The next couple of Saturdays, I didn't bother to get dressed
- until after I'd fixed his dinner and was ready to go back home.
- Each time, he sat at the kitchen table, naked himself. It was
- now very natural for us and I enjoyed looking at him, especially
- because he was always erect. My Dad was often naked, but I never
- saw him with an erection while he was just sitting in a chair,
- and somehow I knew this was different. He was not the same as my
- Dad, and I didn't feel towards him like I felt about my Dad. I
- loved my Dad, and my Mom, and my brother and sister. I enjoyed
- hugging my Mom and Dad, and I enjoyed it when my Mom or Dad
- kissed me. But I wanted to hug Reverend Dale and I wanted to
- kiss him and I wanted to do that forever.
- One Saturday, when I was about ready to dress and leave, I
- knew he was standing behind me. I didn't say anything. I didn't
- turn around. Then, I felt his strong hands on my shoulders, and
- it was he who turned me around.
- Just that quick, I locked my arms around him and buried my
- face just above his belly. His hands were holding my head tight
- and stroking my hair, when I felt his hard erection against my
- tummy. I couldn't help it, I started crying, and I didn't know
- why.
- He picked me up.
- I locked my arms around his neck and he kissed me deeper
- than I'd ever been kissed before and I locked my legs around his
- waist to keep from sliding further and I felt his whole entire
- body turn rock-hard and his chest was suddenly three times bigger
- and with violent shudders the whole room shook because, like a
- wild wounded bull, he snorted masterfully, and I felt rapid
- sudden warm, liquid spurtings striking my butt-cheeks, and
- dripping down my bare back while his whole body grew softer and
- less tall and, as the room was turning slowly, I could feel him
- breath again and the loud strong steady pounding of his heart,
- sending shock-wave after shock-wave deep into my chest.
- I had become part of him in the most wonderful way.
- Then, I saw the dining room pass by, then the living room,
- and then I knew that we were on the stairs and going higher. He
- was so strong and I felt so very safe and small.
- The bed didn't make a sound as he laid me gently down on it.
- But I refused to let go of his neck and he didn't say a thing as
- he let me feel his body lay down beside me, all warm.
- He was so tender with his strong, silent fingers quietly
- being slow between my thighs that couldn't open far enough with
- wanting his kneading there, where the whole world now existed for
- only me and the warm timid air from his delicious mouth on the
- new, young, yearning of me right there in that small, narrow,
- wet, slit, knowing his lips would hasten the small waves from
- inside and rolling like the tide found by his tongue licking
- lower and deeper still to lift that fountain of desire higher
- past all things gone past and past all darkness to that bight
- light that burns ever so slowly in us all until the flame is
- kindled with more thrashing for deeper breathing that comes
- faster with more loudness whose release with moaning is heard by
- no one and by all that know this rushing river as it crashes over
- the highest and most heavenly peak above the clouds in private
- with only his mouth and only his hands lifting my hard behind
- into himself all the way until the clouds burst wide open and the
- thunder bursts out all the way from deep inside to rolling tide
- now slower with his gentle rocking to a music heard by only us
- there at the center of everything growing smaller and more slowly
- just past the point where everything finally rests and is at
- peace, and is, forever quiet and gone.
-
- I was looking at the ceiling and looking through the
- ceiling, past the roof at the big, snow-soft clouds turning in
- the sky-blue everything away slowly as the roof closed and saw
- the ceiling once again because he was lifting his face up from
- between my legs as I lowered my knees to see the beauty of it all
- over him and his mouth that now wasn't saying anything but a
- smile so full of love, tender with the soft wetness of my release
- through him.
- And it was all so funny.
- "Look at your head, your hair is a mess..."
- "Which one are you talking about?" He smiled so sweetly.
- "Which what?"
- "Never mind, its a dumb thing to say, now." And, as he
- moved towards the top of the bed, elbow on the pillow next to
- mine, he asked me, "Do you know what that was?"
- "Do I know what that was? Yes."
- "Are you afraid?"
- "No, I loved it."
- "Do you know what you loved?"
- "Yes, I loved what you did to me with your mouth and
- tongue."
- "Do you know what that is called?"
- "Yes, it's called making love."
- "No, it's called sex. It's called cunnilingus."
- "What does that mean?"
- "It means that I use my mouth to give you very good feelings
- there."
- "Why?"
- "Because you're really not big enough for anything else,
- yet."
- "What happened to me?"
- "That, my precious Sweet One, was an orgasm."
- "You mean I didn't really break anything."
- "No, I had one, too. A very good one, in the kitchen."
- "Is that what's half-dry and sticky on my back and rear?"
- "That's me."
- "Did you break something?"
- "No, I loved it, it has been so long."
- "Then what's this stuff stuck on my rear?"
- "From me, men ejaculate when they orgasm."
- "Do girls?"
- "No, not really, just a little, not like a male."
-
- He lowered his head onto his pillow, and with one hand I
- pushed him easily so he rolled from his side to his back and me
- on my tummy, I put my chin on his chest, and listened to him try
- to explain everything that I didn't understand and still didn't,
- even when he was finished, because my fingers were playing in the
- thick, stuck hairs at the base of him, big and hard, and I asked
- him if I could hold him, and he said I could, and he was alive
- with the beating of a heart that belonged only to him, but that I
- knew with my hand and could feel in my heart pounding like his
- when I held on tighter and wouldn't let go.
- He pulled me up to lay on his chest, my legs on his legs,
- stronger and longer as my whole world went higher and lower with
- his breathing, I made myself heavy to push on him each time
- harder there where the thick length of him lay between his hard
- belly and me there where I wanted the pushing pressing harder
- with moanings coming from within me from nowhere and him saying
- "SHHHHHH" while I felt his powerful open hands, fingers clutching
- each smallness that were my butt-cheeks going up and down with my
- thrusting harder down helped with his pushing up to feel him
- better, pressing with my fingers firm hold on either side of his
- hair buried deep and hanging on to keep from falling off and to
- pull myself higher because I felt his chest suddenly three times
- bigger and both bodies hard like a rider and a wild horse
- screaming down that sudden steep sloop of the bursting forth
- waterfall over the thunder and full-power out of his throbbing
- wet shootings up between us pressed tight and held by his arms of
- his raging sea, like a small tiny boat that was crashed by huge
- breakers onto the shore and now slowly carried back to that vast
- smooth stillness in his open hands and the sea of his chest and
- mine now going level and softer, stuck together and made into one
- with his violent offering, thick with the same whiteness that
- lasts as the bond between our bellies now soft with release, his
- hands falling from my cheeks and my fingers releasing the hair
- around his ears, that hear me saying, without me speaking, that I
- will love him forever.
-
- "We must wash ourselves."
- "Will you carry me?"
- "If you promise to keep your hands to yourself and let me
- watch while I wash you."
- "Okay, and I will wash you."
- Him standing up in the big bath tub and me with my legs
- inside and my cheeks on the rim, holding him, soaping him thick,
- my fingers love it, and so does he, uplifting and defying gravity
- the soap makes him smoother than slippery, and that feels even
- better when he is bigger. The grin on his face and his flagpole
- at full-stiff attention and just standing there defiant and
- loaded with soap. As he bends to his knees and with mine apart,
- he with a small towel warm with soft water, brushes and cleans
- that small narrow, tender, the response of his touching worship,
- all with all loving, and all remembered forever!
-
- Forgive me for getting so flowery. Just remembering it
- brings me such warm pleasure, and my mind goes all ga-ga. I
- can't write about that afternoon any other way.
-
- So, at 12, I became Reverend Dale's mistress. Neither he
- nor I could wait very long to try and see if I was "big enough."
- I was.
- My time spent with him, in that old house, was time spent
- naked and touching, and licking and probing, sucking and kissing,
- and loving. He was amazing the way he could get hard, time after
- time. And, he said I was amazing because I was always ready and
- anxious.
-
- I grew -- 13, 14, 15, 16, 17 -- and I stayed his mistress.
- Young women at church wondered why no one was "turning his head."
- Marrying a minister was a challenge, and Reverend Dale seemed to
- make it an impossible task. I always sniggered when I heard them
- gossiping about him -- because I knew. It was MY body, MY mouth,
- MY loving that made him so uninterested in them.
- I look back, and wonder how I ever kept it a secret from my
- family, but I did. I didn't date in high school -- I didn't have
- to, because I had him. There were questions, but I always said I
- just hadn't met anyone at school I really liked.
- I got a full scholarship to college, and hated leaving him.
- We talked about starting a "proper courtship" during my breaks,
- and getting married when I came home for my first Summer. I was
- so happy.
- In November, even before I came home for my first break, at
- Thanksgiving, he married the banker's daughter and accepted a
- posting in another town. I never saw him again.
-
- I was shattered. Devastated. Crushed. Humiliated.
- I got over him, but not quickly. Not before ruining my
- reputation at my small college, by going to bed with every man
- who asked, including the professors. I spent the next three-
- and-a-half years on my back or on my knees, seldom with the same
- man for more than one night.
- Finally, I got it all back together, again. I went home,
- found a job, went back to Church, met a dear man and married him,
- and had my two beautiful daughters. I couldn't ask for any more
- in my life.
- But, I still think about Reverend Dale.
-
- -- edited by Sleazy Liz, 4/92
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