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- Chapter 23
- EXPERIMENTS
-
- "Joe, could you escort Dr. Krell, and whoever he has with him into the
- building?" Jim asked.
-
- "Sure." Joe replied. He quickly left the room and walked back to the
- entrance.
-
- By now Joe was at home enough with his new physique and the feel of his
- clothes that he sometimes forgot, if only for just a moment, that his
- appearance had changed significantly. As he traveled the familure hallways,
- he absent-mindedly attempted to move along with the long, easy stride he
- always used. When did, he felt the restricting hem of the skirt at his knees.
- He looked down, and was instantly reminded that some things were quite
- different now. He could feel the slight bounce of his breasts moving, and
- hear the gentle rustle of his pantyhose when his thighs sometimes rubbed
- together as he walked. He placed his hand on his hip just to feel the satiny
- slickness of the slip against his stockings. He liked the sensation and kept
- his hand there, letting it gently brush the side his leg as he walked. There
- were so many interesting things about being this way...wearing clothes like
- these...always some new feeling or sensation to experience. To be like this
- forever wouldn't be so bad at all, he thought.
-
- When he arrived at the entrance, Joe recognized Dr. Krell, Karen Simpson,
- and two other people...both men, probably doctors or lab technicians. He
- didn't recognize either of them. Dr. Krell smiled in recognition when he
- spotted Joe. Karen raised her hand in greeting.
-
- "Good morning Dr. Krell." Joe said. "Hi Karen." He added.
-
- "Good morning." Dr. Krell repeated. "How are you doing this fine day,
- Joe."
-
- "Just fine, I guess." Joe said, smiling.
-
- "You're certainly are looking good." Karen said.
-
- "Thanks. You are too." Joe said.
-
- They all signed the log, and Dr. Krell introduced the other two men.
-
- "Joe Bates, I'd like you to meet Dr. John Schwab, and Dr. Richard
- Roberts. Among their talents, they're associates of mine. John is into
- genetics research, and Dick's specialty is urology, and they're both very
- interested in what's happened here. If it turns out our research continues
- very long, I'm sure we'll have others wanting to get involved on it too." The
- little doctor said.
-
- "I've heard all about you." Dr. Schwab said holding out his hand to Joe.
-
- Somewhat embarrased, Joe shook his hand, and then took the hand of Dr.
- Roberts.
-
- "I've got to talk with you." The big, friendly looking guy said. "What
- has happened to you is almost unbelievable. I can hardly believe my eyes."
- Dick Roberts said.
-
- "Well believe me, nobody's having a harder time believing I'm like this
- than I am myself." Joe said.
-
- "If you'll follow me, I'll take you to the others." Joe continued. "Jim
- Matheney, he's our Certification Manager...and my boss, and I guess he's your
- primary contact here at Honeybone." Joe told them as they walked along.
-
- "This is quite an impressive complex." Dr. Roberts said. "I've always
- wanted to see how avionics are designed."
-
- "Do you have an interest in aviation?" Joe asked.
-
- "Yeah, I guess I do. Dr. Roberts said. "I've got my commercial ticket,
- and a five year old, A-36 Bonanza."
-
- "That's a pretty good plane." Joe said truthfully.
-
- "I guess you get all kinds of interesting hardware around here." The
- doctor said.
-
- "Well, sometimes we get a new airframe to use, but usually we gotta use
- our test aircraft, and they're hardly new." Joe said. "But, we do work with
- the latest in avionics, of course."
-
- "I have King gear in mine." Dr. Roberts said. "I have to admit, except
- for the DME, I haven't had any real trouble with any of it yet."
-
- They arrived at the Certification Section offices, and Joe led them into
- Jim's office, where the others were waiting. He introduced them to each
- other, noting that the two new doctors carefully eyed Mike, Dave, and Tim
- carefully as they were introduced.
-
- "All of you were together when this happened?" Dr. Schwab asked, looking
- at Mike.
-
- "Well, we were pretty near each other for some of the time." Mike
- answered. "Three of use were in the Lear, and Tim here, he came over to fuel
- us, and stayed around to watch us calibrate. I guess that's really the only
- time we were actually together for any length of time."
-
- "And this GPS transmitter...was it on all the time?" Dr. Roberts asked.
-
- "Once we turn it on, it stays on all the time. We were real close to the
- "A". The "B" was located at the other side of the airport. Me and Joe
- were the only ones really close to that one while it was turned on." Mike
- explained.
-
- "What kind of power do those transmitters operate at?" Dr. Roberts
- queried.
-
- "Well, it's adjustable over a considerable range." Mike said. I've got
- records of the settings used last thursday, or any other day, for that
- matter."
-
- "So this thing has been used before?" Dr. Roberts asked.
-
- "Oh, sure. We've been testing recievers for more than a month." Joe
- chimed in.
-
- "But you've only now had a problem?" the doctor asked.
-
- "If there was anything happening to me before last week, I certainly
- didn't realize it." Joe said. "Friday morning came as a complete suprize,
- that's for sure." He added.
-
- "Same here." Dave said.
-
- "Like wise." Mike added. "In fact, when when I first realized something
- strange was happening...that I was changing, or whatever...I hadn't really
- changed very much yet, but I could feel something, like an itch or something,
- before I could see any change. Actually, I'm pretty sure I'm still changing,
- but its happening slower now."
-
- "Yeah. Same here." Tim said. "When I got home Thursday night, I felt
- really terrible. I couldn't sleep, my chest felt so strange, and I had a
- really bad upset stomach. I was just laying there, in bed, when I first
- realized that something really peculiar was happening. First, I just had to go
- to the bathroom really bad. I went to pee and that's when I saw that my
- cock...er, my penis was shrinking or something...anyway, it was really hard to
- go...to pee with it pulled in like that, but it felt like I really had to, so
- I did. Afterwards, I went back to bed, but I could still feel it...it was
- sort if tingling and felt really strange, like it was trying to pull up
- further inside me. It continued that way until it was completely gone, it
- feels like its up inside...changed to the way it is now. I guess I can still
- feel it there when I think about it. But I suppose I am sort of getting used
- to it this way."
-
- Tim started to touch himself, but then he realized everyone was watching
- and stopped, looked embarrassed, but then continued speaking.
-
- "I really didn't know what the hell was going on...I mean...it couldn't
- be real...maybe I was just dreaming. I didn't realize I was...I guess...
- turning into a girl until I got up again, early in the morning, and saw just
- what I looked like in the mirror. Of course, even then I didn't completely
- realize what had happened. My boobs hadn't grown that much by then, and I
- guess I didn't realize the full extent of what had happened to me until
- sometime the next morning...I mean...its easy to look and see what's happened
- now, but...I'm telling you...there is no way to prepare yourself for something
- like this...I mean, I never heard of anything like it before." His soft voice
- raised and fell as he described what it was like to watch his body undergo the
- changes that had affected each of them.
-
- As Joe listened to the Tim describe what had happened to him, he decided
- that maybe it was better to go through the change like he did, sleeping
- through the whole thing. He didn't even know that anything had happened until
- he woke up. To actually see it happening...to feel it...no wonder Tim hid in
- his apartment for days rather than face other people the way he was. How do
- you explain something like that happening to you?
-
- The doctors listened to Tim's story with interest.
-
- "I've read you're file." Dr. Schwab said. "But your description of the
- experience really brings out the trauma. I'm not sure what has happened
- exactly...and I'm certainly amazed that something like this could happen
- overnight...much less at all."
-
- "As long as you guys can figure a way to get us back, I don't care if you
- can explain it or not." Dave said.
-
- "Why don't we go and look over the test cage?" Jim suggested. "We have
- everything that was used on Thursday set up, and we're ready for whatever
- experiments you might want to try."
-
- "Good idea." Dr. Krell answered, and looked at Joe to lead them to the
- lab.
-
- Joe looked at the little doctor.
-
- "Follow me." He said.
-
- He lead them down the hall, and opened the double doors, holding them
- open while the others went inside.
-
- "It's larger than I thought it would be." Dr. Schwab exclaimed. "We
- could try a number of experiments at the same time with this much room."
-
- "How will we know how much power to use at this close range?" Dr. Roberts
- wondered aloud.
-
- "I suggest we start with very low power, then increase it in small
- increments, never exceeding the settings used outdoors. The whole system can
- take full transmitter power, but maybe it wouldn't be a good idea to use it
- all, no matter if we get the desired results or not. It's really close
- quarters for that much power, and I doubt that it would help anyway." Jim
- suggested. He was always concerned about safety, since he was responsable for
- safety in the lab.
-
- "We will defer to your judgment on that, Mr. Matheney." Dr. Krell said.
-
- "Please call me Jim, doctor." Jim said.
-
- "Sure Jim, and of course, please feel free to call me Ben." Dr. Krell
- said, smiling.
-
- "I'll try to remember that." Jim said. He was very serious about work,
- but liked informality among professionals during operations like this. Of
- course, there had never been operations like this before.
-
- "What do you have planned?" Mike asked, his curiosity hard to contain.
-
- "Well, now that we know what we have to work with I think we have room
- for primates. I thought we would have to use mice, but this is much better.
- We could even use human volunteers, when we get to that point." Dr. Roberts
- said.
-
- "I volunteer for that whenever you want to try it." Dave chimed in.
-
- "I'm afraid that we would need a control subject for the first attempt."
- Dr. Roberts said. "But you will probably get your chance too." He smiled.
-
- "It can't be too soon." Dave said.
-
- The men looked over the equipment, and at the lab in general, appearing
- to be concerned about the size of the unused space. They murmered to
- themselves, and then walked over to where Jim and Joe were standing and
- watching.
-
- "I think this will be enough room." Dr. Krell said. "We'll need room for
- some cages, if we are to bring some lab animals in. I think we can have some
- of what we need here by this afternoon, tomorrow for sure."
-
- "What will we need to do today?" Joe asked. He was curious what they
- would be doing.
-
- "Well, I think these two gentlemen would like to interview each of you."
- Dr. Krell said. "Perhaps you could come over to Hillcrest, to my office
- there, for a while this morning?"
-
- "Sure. I can do that." Joe said. Oh damn, more hospital, he thought.
- He was anxious to see what they would be doing in the lab, not answering
- questions, or getting examined.
-
- "I think we need to get to a telephone." Dr. Krell said.
-
- "Right here." Jim said. "This desk, and this phone is available for your
- use. Please make yourself at home."
-
- Dr. Krell sat down, picked up the handset. Dr. Roberts walked over to
- Joe and the others.
-
- "Do you all think you could meet me over at Hillcrest in about two
- hours?" He asked. "It shouldn't take very long, but I do have some
- things...some questions to ask. I think it would be best to do that over
- there."
-
- "A couple of hours? Sure." Dave responded. "Will we be coming back here
- then?" He was impatient with the seemingly slow progress.
-
- "I don't think there will be any need for that." Dr. Roberts said.
- "Maybe tomorrow afternoon, but not before. We have a lot of setting up to do
- in here till then. There is no reason for any of you to get involved with
- that. We'll have a number of assistants taking care of it."
-
- Joe was hoping to get some "hands on" of the equipment himself, but he
- was beginning to see that the plan was to sort of let them "be involved," but
- probably not use their expertise. They were now simply part of the
- experiment, as far as the doctors were concerned.
-
- They went back to the offices, and Joe went directly to his desk. Karen
- was with them and Tim, since he had no where else to go, followed Joe and
- Dave. Joe looked at Karen, trying to tell if she had any idea of what was
- happening.
-
- "So what now?" He asked. "Do we just sit and wait till they call us?"
-
- "I suppose that's all there is to do." Karen said. "Of course, it's only
- about an hour and forty five minutes till you need to be at Hillcrest."
-
- "Oh yeah. I almost forgot about that." Joe replied. "I wonder what
- that's going to be about?"
-
- "I'm not sure really." Karen surmised. "But I overheard the discussion,
- and I think they are still trying to determine the full extent of the changes
- your chromosomes have undergone. They can't understand how this could have
- happened in such a short time period. It's starting to become obvious that it
- isn't really over yet, since you all seem to be still changing, at least a
- little, don't you agree?"
-
- Joe looked at Karen. "I didn't know it was that obvious. How can you
- tell?"
-
- Karen smiled. "I'm not sure really. Mike of course is the most
- noticeable, it's easy to see that he's still developing."
-
-
- "Joe, you and Tim, I guess it's different...not so physical, or
- something, more in the way you act...the way you talk. I can tell you both
- becoming more familure with what has happened." Karen said.
-
- "I guess I am getting a little used to it." Joe said. "But it's more
- than that, I can't explain it...it's like my brain is changed or
- something...Hell, I think I'm even beginning to like being like this, like
- it's the way I'm supposed to be. Until a couple of days ago, all I could do
- was think about figuring out how to get back, try to hold on to my
- masculinity...I guess. Now, I don't care about that anymore. I guess its
- taken over my head or something. I can't really explain it."
-
- "Yeah. I think it's the same for me, at least a little." Tim said. "At
- first I hated this, but I guess I'm beginning to accept it all now."
-
- "How about you, Dave?" Karen asked.
-
- "Is is really important how I feel?" Dave said sullenly. "I can't just
- decide that I'm gonna be a girl, even if I happen look like one, or whatever."
-
- "Even you can't change what's happened." Karen said. "If you try to go
- against your feelings, it will just make you unhappy and hard to be around,
- and won't change a thing. I'm speaking from personal experience."
-
- Just then Jim Matheney walked from his office and came over to Tim.
-
- "Can you come with me for a few minutes?" He asked.
-
- "Sure." Tim answered, and followed Jim back to his office. Jim closed
- the door.
-
- "This has all just got to be temporary." Dave said. "Even if I would get
- used to this, I still have to change back."
-
- "Maybe you do." Joe said. "But before that, why don't you try to lighten
- up?" He tried to cheer up his pal, who seemed to be depressed.
-
- "What do you want me to do, Joe?" Dave asked. "Buy a bunch of dresses,
- or something?"
-
- "Hey, I don't know what you want, but you must have something you'd like
- to try, I mean, I know your curious, why don't you kick back a little, and try
- to enjoy what has happened, rather that fight it all the way. LIke Karen
- said, you've become a Sad Sack, and it ain't helping you, or your family.
- What ever happens tomorrow, why don't you try to enjoy today?" Joe tried to
- sum up what he had wanted to say to Dave for some time.
-
- Dave grinned at his friend.
-
- "I'm sorry if I've become a pain in the ass." He said. "You know that's
- not the way I am."
-
- "Yeah, I know that." Joe replied, grinning. "That's why I've put up with
- it till now."
-
- "So what should I do?" Dave asked.
-
- "What would you like to do?" Joe asked. "How do you feel about
- yourself?"
-
- "I don't know exactly." Dave answered. "I guess I'm having some of the
- same feelings you are, I don't know. It's hard to know what I feel like."
-
- Joe knew what his friend meant. Even if he was starting to except
- himself the way he was, Joe also experienced the strange paradox. Sure, he
- looked like a female now, and he was even beginning to like how he looked, as
- well as the feminine feelings he was experiencing, at least that's what he
- figured they were, he didn't really know what it was supposed to feel like to
- be female, he only knew what HE felt like. But even though he liked it...a
- lot, he still felt like he was male...deep inside. There was just no way he
- could change his past. Until a week ago, everything he did, his every
- thought, was naturally from the male perspective. That was hard...maybe
- impossible to change. The sensation was sometimes as if his changed body was
- somehow not really his, that he was inside somebody else, even though he knew
- that was not the case. Sometimes, he still felt pretty much like a guy, and
- sometimes the new feeling of femininity almost overwhelmed him.
-
-
- Karen Simpson joined them. "It looks like they won't need you guy's here
- today. When you leave for Hillcrest, let me know. I need to go over there
- too."
-
- Joe looked at Dave. "Are we ready to go over there?" He asked.
-
- "Yeah, I guess so...not that I'm looking forward to getting prodded and
- poked again." Dave said.
-
- "I don't think there will be much of that." Karen said. "Then again, I
- don't know what Dr. Roberts might have on his mind."
-
- "Let's go find Mike." Joe said.
-
- I guess Tim is getting a job offer, Joe thought.
-
- "We can wait for Tim." Joe said. "I'll try to track Mike down."
-
- Joe went out in the hallway. He wondered were the big woman might be.
- He was with them in the lab, and came back out with them, bu then he was
- suddenly gone. He looked into the offices and cubicals along the way as he
- toured the hallways. When he came to the word processing area, he could see
- Mike's new hairpiece over the top of the partition. What was he doing in
- here? He thought. He went over to Mike, who was engaged in conversation with
- an attractive young woman, Melody Meyers, who he recognized as having gone out
- with Mike in the past. Mike must have seen her in the hall, and is trying to
- explain. Joe thought. It was hard...Yeah, sure...its still me... Joe had
- gone through the same thing with Linda. It was impossible not to be
- embarrassed to have to try to explain to your girl friend that something like
- this had happened to you. First they didn't believe it, and then' if you
- could convince them, they felt sorry for you and wanted to help. At least
- thats the way it had been for him and Linda. He didn't really know the extent
- of the relationship that Mike had with Melody.
-
- Mike saw him when he turned the corner.
-
- "Hi Joe." Mike said. "Here Mel, see...this is Joe Bates, you know him
- too. He's had the same thing happen too." Mike explained to a wide eyed
- Melody.
-
- "Oh God. I heard the rumors that something like this had happened...but
- I thought it was a strange joke. But I see its really true." Melody said,
- leaning back in her swivel chair.
-
- "Yeah, I guess its really true." Joe said, smiling at the attractive
- young woman. He didn't really know her, but he had often noticed her in the
- hall. She was easily one of the best looking girls in word processing, and he
- always noticed the good looking girls. As he eyed her, he realized that they
- were probably almost the same size now...even their figures were very similer.
- Hell, they could probably share clothes.
-
- "Well, I'm sorry for you both...and the others too." Melody said. "Are
- you having problems, or anything?"
-
- Joe looked at her. "I don't know about the others, but I guess I'm
- getting used to it...the best I can anyway. It's a heck of a change to wake
- up looking like this." He smiled.
-
- "I just can't believe it." Melody said. "You both look so natural...you
- look just like real women. That skirt looks positively marvelous on you,
- Joe."
-
- "We've been told that we more than LOOK like 'real' woman." Joe added. I
- think we have all the required parts...inside and out. It certainly feels
- like we do anyway." He grinned at Melody as he rubbed his hand along the soft
- curve of his right breast. Even though he looked, and now felt, quite female,
- he still had a weakness for pretty girls. Perhaps not like before. It was
- much more subtle now. But it was making for strange conversation. He tried
- to change the subject.
-
- "We're going to go over to Hillcrest now." Joe told Mike. "Are you
- ready?"
-
- "Yeah, I guess so." Mike said. He looked back at Melody. "I'll call you
- tonight, all right?" he asked. "We can talk about it."
-
- "Ok. Sure." Melody answered. "Good luck. You too, Joe."
-
- "Thanks." Joe said as he turned, and began to walk away. He was aware
- that the other women were looking at him and Mike as they walked passed them.
- He understood their curiosity, and smiled at them as he passed. So these are
- my new peers. He thought to himself. I think this is gonna take some time....
-
- When Joe and Mike arrived back at Joe's desk, Tim was sitting in the
- chair beside it. He was obviously pleased about something. He and Dave were
- engaged in conversation, and Dave continued to speak as Joe arrived at his
- desk and sat down.
-
- "Yeah, but I'll be willing to bet that over the course of your entire
- life, you'll find your earning power reduced. I don't care who you end up
- working for." Dave said.
-
- Dave was giving the young man, who like him, was now a young woman, his
- opinion of life as a female. Tim obviously did not completely agree with his
- older friend.
-
- "I think it depends on the individual." Tim objected. "If I'm qualified
- to do the same work, I should earn the same income."
-
- "Let me know when you arrive on earth." Dave said sarcasticly.
-
- "Joe, what's your opinion?" Tim asked. "Dave thinks that our lifetime
- earning power will be reduced if we decide to stay this way."
-
- "Hell, I don't have any idea." Joe said. "I suppose women do earn less,
- on the average than men, but I think there are many reasons for that. I'm not
- sure that all those reasons would ever apply to us, considering our unusual
- backgrounds."
-
- "Well lets get going." Karen said as she came walking down the hall, and
- saw them all together.
-
- "Do you want to ride with me?" Joe asked her. "No need to take both
- cars, is there?" He didn't mind company on the short drive to the hospital.
-
- "Ok. I'll be glad to." Karen said. I don't know if we'll need to come
- back here or not, but its mor or less on the way anyway, isn't it."
-
- "No problem." Joe replied as they walked down the hall.
-
- They got in his car and buckled in. Joe drove to the hospital and didn't
- say a word. Karen spoke first.
-
- "I was listening to them discuss your problem." She said. "I don't think
- they have any idea as to what has happened to you guys, or what to do about
- it."
-
- "Do you think that means we're stuck like this?" Joe asked.
-
- "Its hard to say." Karen replied. She looked over at Joe. "Would you
- mind?"
-
- Joe grinned. It must really be obvious that he was beginning to enjoy
- his new gender.
-
- "I don't know how I should answer that." He said. "Sure, it seems to be
- getting easier each day. I have to admit, I guess I'm starting to like it.
- But I really haven't experienced everything yet, have I?" He gave Karen a
- questioning look.
-
- "You are more female than I will ever be." Karen said. "I'd give
- anything to have what you were given by accident."
-
- "And I wish I could give it all to you." Joe said honestly. "I guess I'm
- getting used to it, maybe even starting to like it, but I really hadn't
- figured I'd be spending my whole life as a girl...a woman. Maybe I'm just
- starting to realize what it all might mean."
-
- "Joe, its hard to change your gender, even when that's what you want more
- than anything else in the world. I am impressed at how your dealing with this
- all. All of you are simply amazing in how well you all are handling it."
- Karen said, the admiration in her voice showing through.
-
- If it was as hard as the first day, I know I wouldn't be taking it this
- well." Joe admitted. "But something...some chemical or hormonal change or
- something is affecting me...my head. Thats actually making it all pretty
- easy. I'm actually starting to like it now. I really can't explain what I
- mean."
-
- "When I started hormone therapy I noticed a feeling like that too." Karen
- said. "I thought I wanted to be female more than anything else, but when I
- started therapy, in a few months I KNEW I was female. I felt like a woman,
- even before I started to look like one. Of course, after the surgury, the
- feelings really kicked in. I guess you got both barrels at once." She grinned.
-
- "I don't know." Joe said. "But right now, I don't know if I could even
- handle being a man anymore. It just feels too good this way."
-
- "Yeah. Yeah, it does doesn't it." Karen said with a knowing smile.
-
- They arrived at Hillcrest Hospital and Joe drove into the parking area.
- They quickly walked the short distance to the office that Dr. Krell maintained
- there. Karen went to her desk, and Joe sat down in one of the seats nearby.
- Soon the others followed, taking seats next to Joe.
-
- "I wonder what they want now?" Tim asked.
-
- "I don't have any idea." Joe said. "But I guess the more doctors we have
- working with us the faster we'll find the answer."
-
- "Yeah, but what will it be?" Dave asked, speaking to no one in
- particular.
-
- They were sitting only about fifteen minutes when Joe heard his name
- called. He went up to the window, where Karen was standing, talking with the
- nurse, or receptionist, who she obviously knew quite well.
-
- "Joe, Karen will take you to one of the examination rooms." the nurse
- said.
-
- Karen began walking down the hall, and Joe followed. When she came to a
- door, she knocked, and when there was no answer, she opened it and motioned
- for Joe to go inside.
-
- "Go in and have a seat." She said. "I don't think this will take very
- long."
-
- "Whats going on?" Joe asked.
-
- "Well, I think Dr. Roberts would like to examine you himself." Karen
- said. "I don't think it will be much, or take long."
-
- She closed the door behind Joe, and he was alone in the room.
-
- Great, he thought. Another examination. Since he had undergone the
- change a week ago, Joe felt he had undergone more physical examinations than
- he could remember. And they were very different than he was used to...it was
- bad enough to have to get used to his new body, without persons prodding and
- probing it in areas he was just learning he had. He looked around the small
- room. The examination table was there, a little partition to undress behind,
- and a door, probably a small room for a toilet. He wondered if he should
- undress. Karen hadn't told him to, and he certainly didn't want to go through
- the process if he didn't have to. He just sat there, waiting for orders.
-
- A quick knock on the door was followed by Dr. Roberts poking his head in.
- He handed Joe a small plastic container.
-
- "There is a restroom in there." He said pointing to the door at the back
- of the room. Please fill this cup, and then remove your clothing. There is a
- gown on the hook. I' be with you in a few minutes." He closed the door behind
- him.
-
- Joe looked down at the little plastic cup in his hand. Sure, fill this,
- he thought. Easy for you to say.
-
- Though after almost a week of living with it, Joe was familure with
- urinating with his feminized genitalia...feels like peeing with your butt, he
- thought to himself the first time he did it. He had never attempted to aim the
- urine stream as it came out. When he first realized that he couldn't go as he
- always had, from a standing position, he had automaticly adapted what he
- considered was the female...sitting...position. Of course it worked, you
- didn't have to do aything but sit there and let it happen. But now, he had to
- pee into this tiny cup. How would he do that? He went into the small
- restroom. There was a stool in there, a sink, and a mirror, nothing else. He
- would have to get the skirt off, and the pantyhose...maybe he should he
- undress first.
-
- Joe went back out into the examination room, and looked behind the
- dressing curtain. There were hangers for his clothes. He sat the cup on a
- little stand and began to unbutton his blouse. He slipped it off, carefully
- placed it on a hanger, then kicked off his shoes. As Linda had showed him, he
- spun the skirt around to the side, and then easily unzipped it. He stepped
- out of the little skirt and then pulled the slip over his head. He felt the
- chill of the room as he stood wearing only the bra, panty hose and panties.
- Joe carefully removed the sheer hose, being careful not to snag it with his
- fingernails. A quick flick on the clasp between his breasts and his bra lay
- with the hose. He then pulled the panties down his legs, examining the short,
- matted hair which covered his greatly changed genitalia. His appearance was
- all still new to him, and every time he saw himself, the way he was now, he
- just had to look. He tossed his underpants with the bra, and slowly ran his
- hand between his legs, feeling the damp hair, enjoying his own touch. No time
- for fooling around now, he thought to himself.
-
- Joe took the short hospital gown and put his arms through the sleeves,
- and attempted to tie the little strings behind his back. Luckily, there were
- also small velcro tabs, and he satisfied himself with rubbing two of those
- together, which at least kept the little gown from opening in back and falling
- off. Not that it covered much but his boobs anyway. Joe found that his butt
- was exposed, and though the fabric covered his front, if he happened to sit
- down, his bottom would certainly be exposed. What the heck, he decided,
- they're going to be looking at all that stuff anyway. He picked up the plastic
- cup, and went into the restroom, and from habit, shut the door.
-
- Joe eyed the cup, and went over to the toilet. He stood in front of the
- stool like a guy, holding the cup below his crotch. No, I don't think so, he
- considered, and spread his legs apart, attempting to straddle the stool.
- Holding that position, he positioned the cup between his legs, in the
- approximate spot he guessed the pee would come out. He wasn't exactly sure
- where that spot was, however. He tried to relax his muscles, in a attempt to
- start the urine flow. Nothing would come...he was just too nervous. He tried
- to think about something else, but it was almost impossible. What an strange
- position for a guy to be in he thought, and started to giggle. Jay would
- probably die laughing if he could see him like this.
-
- Holding the cup with one hand, Joe rubbed the area around his clitoris.
- Although the tissues which were now his clitoris still felt amazingly similar
- to the tip of his penis, though much more sensitive, it had none of the
- sensations his penis had when he used that to pee. Now of course, his urinary
- opening was located much further down, sort of between what had become the
- inner lips of his vaginal area, but to Joe still felt somewhat like the shaft
- of his penis, or maybe his scrotum. It was hard to be definite, the nerves in
- the area seemed to sort of blend together. Sometimes now, he could feel a
- slight burning sensation from there as he urinated, and he could tell that
- that was where the pee was coming from.
-
- Using the fingers of one hand, Joe separated folds which formed the lips
- of his vulva, attempting to expose the opening of his urethra. He rubbed
- around the area where he figured it would be, and could feel the little bump
- with his finger near the bottom of his pubic bone. He could certainly tell
- when he touched the right spot. Keeping his lips spread apart as well as he
- could, he held the cup to his crotch, and again tried to relax. This time he
- felt the urine start to come, and was ready to reposition the cup if his guess
- was wrong. As the warm flow arrived, it trickled into the cup, over his
- fingers, and to his dismay, a small amount even ran down his leg. He carefully
- moved his fingers around in an attempt to get it all to go only into the cup.
-
- Joe finally captured about half a cup full, and decided that it was
- probably enough. His bladder was empty, in any case. He put the cup down,
- grabbed some toilet paper and quickly wiped the wetness from his hands and
- legs. After carefully drying off, he threw the wet tissue into the toilet in
- disgust. There just had to be a better way to do this. Women couldn't
- possibly have this much difficulty doing this, could they? He would ask Linda,
- if he could think of a way to bring up the subject. All cleaned up, Joe took
- the cup back out and placed it on the work stand. He then sat down on the
- edge of the examination table, to wait for the embarrasment which he knew was
- to come.
-
- He had been sitting for about ten minutes, at least it seemed that long,
- when there was a knock on the door. Before Joe could answer, Dr. Roberts poked
- his head in.
-
- "Are you ready to go?" Dr. Roberts asked.
-
- "Ready as I'll ever be." Joe replied. He wasn't looking forward to any
- of this.
-
- Dr. Roberts entered the room, and went over to the stand. He looked at
- the sample, then turned and looked at Joe. He had a little device with a
- light on the end that Joe recognized was used to examine ears and eyes. He
- came over to where Joe was now standing next to the examination table.
-
- "Dr. Krell and Dr. Schwab will be here soon." He said. "Just relax."
-
- "That's easier to say than do." Joe said, smiling nervously.
-
- "Yeah, I guess it is." Dr. Roberts said. "I imagine it is a little hard
- to get used to all this."
-
- "That's sure an understatement." Joe exclaimed.
-
- Dr. Roberts took the light, and peered into Joes eyes, shining the light
- into his pupils. Joe wondered what he was looking for, and asked.
-
- "Oh nothing really." Dr. Roberts answered. It's just routine when
- checking on a patient to check the eyes. I guess you might say they're sort
- of a window to the brain."
-
- "Oh yeah?" Joe said. "And how does my brain look?"
-
- "Do you think there's a problem with it?" Dr. Roberts asked, grinning.
-
- "I don't know." Joe said truthfully. "I know there sure have been some
- strange thoughts in there the last few days."
-
- "I'll bet." Dr. Roberts replied. "I guess this must be hard to take, I
- mean I haven't seen you any other way, and you look perfectly normal to me,
- but of course, you are actually a man...at least you were." He smiled.
-
- "Yeah." Joe said. "I really was. Now, I don't know what I am.
-
- "Sometimes, I still feel like I'm still a guy, believe it or not, I can
- actually forget what what I look like now." Joe went on. "But just moving
- around, or have something touch me, then it's all back again. Of course, I
- guess it isn't really that bad though. Actually, sometimes, maybe even most of
- the time lately, I guess I kinda like being this way. Is that wierd? I don't
- know if maybe my brain is changing too, or what, but its starting to feel
- kinda normal, even kinda good. Do you have any idea what I'm trying to say?"
- He looked at the doctor, who had a puzzled look on his face.
-
- "Well, I'm trying to understand. As far as I know, there have never been
- any other cases like yours. You guys are writing new chapters in the books."
- Dr. Roberts said.
-
- There was another quick knock, and Dr.'s Krell and Schwab came in
- followed by Karen, who was now wearing a white nursing outfit. Dr. Krell was
- engaged in conversation with Dr. Schwab.
-
- "Yes, and the hormone levels are different each time we check." Dr. Krell
- said. Dr. Schwab only rubbed his chin thoughtfully.
-
- Dr. Krell greeted everyone, and then looked at Joe.
-
- "Joe, would you remove that gown for a moment and show these doctors just
- what has happened to you?" Dr. Krell asked.
-
- Feeling a flush come to his face, Joe reached behind his back, and pulled
- the velcro apart, letting the little gown slip down his arms. He lay it on
- the table, and stood naked in front of the three doctors and Karen.
-
- "There seems to be normal skeletal and breast development." Dr. Schwab
- said. "And you say this all occured overnight?"
-
- That's what was reported." Dr. Krell answered. "One of the others, Mike,
- seemed to develop secondary characteristics much more slowly."
-
- They were talking about him and his condition as if he wasn't even in the
- room. Joe wondered if there was a reason for acting in this detached way. He
- had noticed it before. When two or more of them would get into a discussion,
- they seemed to ignore him, even if he was there and could hear everything
- being said. It was a strange, somewhat degrading thing for him to experience,
- as if they felt he was incapable of comprehending what was they were talking
- about.
-
- "You can put the gown back on." Dr. Krell said. "And then please lay down
- on the table."
-
- Joe quickly pulled the gown over his shoulders, and hopped up on the
- table. Karen helped him get into position, and covered him with a sheet.
-
- Joe saw Dr. Roberts go to the cabinet and watched him retrieve a dreaded
- speculum. He held the metal ends in his surgical gloved hands to warm them.
-
- Joe waited in expectation for what was to happen.
-
- In a moment he felt the sheet being pulled back, exposing his bottom. He
- felt someone touching him, examining his external genitalia. Dr. Krell began
- talking.
-
- "As you see, there appear to be scar tissue surrounding the clitoris. It
- seems to be more exposed than is typical. From questioning, I discovered that
- he was subjected to circumcision as an infant. That is perhaps the source of
- the scar tissue."
-
- As he was heard Dr. Krell speak, Joe could feel someone examining that
- part of his body. Then he felt his lips being spread apart. He wondered of
- Dr. Krell would notice the change in his hymen. If he did, he wasn't saying
- anything.
-
- Joe heard a metalic clicking sound, and then felt the strange sensation
- of something being inserted into his crotch. Unlike the last time, it went in
- easily, and wasn't really uncomfortable like before. When he felt the device
- spread his vaginal opening, he did feel some minor discomfort, but it wasn't
- bad, and he tried to take his mind off of it by listening to what they were
- saying.
-
- "Amazing. It all appears perfectly normal." He heard Dr. Roberts say.
- "There is normal distention of the cervix, and the upper vagina is fully
- developed. Have you performed a CAT scan?"
-
- "Certainly." Dr. Krell answered. "Completely normal in appearance...for a
- biological female."
-
- "Have any of them experenced menses?"
-
- "No. Not yet, but I suspect it to happen."
-
- The speculum collapsed and was withdrawn. Joe had to fight the urge to
- reach over the sheet and rub his crotch. Dr. Krell spoke to him again.
-
- "You can clean up and get dressed now Joe."
-
- The doctors left the room. Karen stayed and helped Joe, taking the sheet
- away. As soon as she did, Joe put his legs down and spun around, sitting on
- the edge of the table.
-
- "You can wipe off with these." Karen said. She didn't leave the room,
- but watched as Joe wiped the traces of K-Y jelly from his genitalia. Having
- someone watch him do something so personal was embarrasing, and Joe wondered
- why Karen was doing it. He quickly finished, and went over to his clothes to
- dress.
-
- "I was watching when they examined you." Karen said. "You really are
- female, aren't you."
-
- "What did you think? That they were making it all up?" Joe replied. "Of
- course I am. I thought you watched the last time."
-
- "I was there, but I didn't really look that closely." Karen replied. "Now
- I know you better, and know more about you. I guess the real facts of just
- what has happened to you guy's just hit home."
-
- Joe looked at the big friendly nurse and grinned. "It hit home for me
- last friday. I guess I'm getting used to it now."
-
- Joe pulled his underwear up, and put the bra back on. His firm breasts
- didn't really need the support, but he somehow felt better with it on. He
- could now put it on with out even thinking about it. Much had change in only
- a few days. Joe sat in a chair, and pulled the pantyhose on, then the slip,
- and then he put the outerwear on. When he was dressed, he looked in the
- mirror, and straightened his hair. Throughout it all, Karen watched in
- silence. When Joe was ready to leave the room, she spoke.
-
- "You are so atrtractive, I find it hard to believe you were a guy." She
- said. "I wish something like that could have happened to me. I have to admit,
- I'm feeling a little jealous of you."
-
- "But you're a woman now too." Joe said, refering to Karens gender
- reasignment surgury. "And you're certainly good looking. What is there about
- me to be for you to be jealous about?"
-
- "I may look like a woman, but you ARE one...you heard Dr. Krell. He
- expects that you'll menstruate. I'll never be able to do that." Karen
- lamented.
-
- "Well, I don't know if I would be envious of that." Joe said. Of course,
- even as he spoke the words, he knew that the ability to become a mother was an
- important part of being female. That element of his condition was only
- recently becoming something he could bear to think about.
-
- "Just don't ever forget how lucky you are, Joe Bates." Karen said, and
- went out the door.
-
- Before he went out Joe looked at himself in the mirror one last time, and
- thought about what Karen said. He adjusted the hairpiece, and wondered about
- Karen. He had ever seen her act this way. Apparently, she was not as happy
- with her situatiuon as she appeared. He felt sorry for her. Maybe his
- changed body didn't match his brain either, but he was finding that he was
- enjoying it more every day. Maybe his brain had changed too, and the only
- thing about him that was still masculine were his memories. He knew one
- thing, he sure wouldn't want to change his body back to male surgicly, that
- was sure. In fact, he didn't know if he would want to go back, no matter how
- easy, or complete the doctors might make it.
-
- Joe went into the waiting area and took a seat. Apparently, each of the
- others had been called too, and were in the examination rooms. He had
- apparently been the first. He sat there about five minutes, when Mike came
- out and took a seat next to him.
-
- At first Mike didn't say anything, but then he looked at Joe and asked.
-
- "Did you have to pee into a cup?"
-
- Joe looked at Mike and grinned. "It was a bitch, wasn't it."
-
- "How are we supposed to do that now?" He asked.
-
- "Don't ask me." Joe said. "I'm going to ask Linda about it, if I can
- figure a way to bring it up."
-
- "There's gotta be an easier way...I mean...the damn stuff seems to come
- out all over." Mike went on.
-
- He had apparently tried something like Joe did. Both former men were
- quickly learning how to live with a feminized body.
-
- Soon all the others came out too, and when they were all out there, Karen
- came out, Dr. Krell followed her. He spoke.
-
- "We are finished with you. Thank you for your patience. I'll see you all
- at nine tomorrow, at Honeybone."
-
- Karen looked at Joe.
-
- "I'll call you tonight." She said. "I'll have to stay and work this
- afternoon."
-
- "But your car is over at Honeybone." Joe retorted.
-
- "I know." Karen said. "Dr. Krell will drop me off to pick it up later."
-
- They all left the hospital. Joe wondered if he should return to
- Honeybone, or if he should go home. He decided to go home, stopping at his
- apartment before going to Linda's.
-
- Joe drove to his apartment. He parked in the lot, and went up the walk,
- stopping at his stuffed mailbox before going to his door. He got his key from
- his small handbag, and went inside.
-
- It had been days since he had last been there, and he felt a certain
- familurarity when he entered the room. He put the stack of bills, magazines
- and junk mail on the table, and went to set the thermostat to a more
- comfortable temprature. He had turned it up when he left, and it was very
- stuffy now.
-
- Joe went to his bedroom, looking, seeing all the things of his male
- world. He realized that even though he was starting get accustomed to his
- situation, he was beginning to miss the more carefree life of a single male.
- He wanted to find Jay and play a game of racquetball. Sure he could still do
- that, but it was different now. Maybe, after the other night, a lot
- different.
-
- Stepping into his walk in closet, Joe saw the clothes hanging there.
- Clothes he might never wear again. Along with the change he had experienced,
- he was now an inch or two shorter...he hadn't measured...and of course, his
- shape was very different. His trim, muscular, masculine body had metamorphosed
- to a feminine softness. It was still trim...but during the last week Joe had
- acquired the light layer of fat under his skin that makes females so soft.
- That, his changed skeletal structure...his hips were a bit wider...his
- shoulders narrower, and a still decreasing upper body muscle mass, made him
- look much different now. If he even tried, his male clothing would just hang
- on him.
-
- Suddenly Joe was overcome with emotion. He wasn't sure what it was
- caused by...he just felt a flush come to his face, and tears well in his eyes.
- He went over to his bed, lay down, and put his arms over his eyes. What was
- happening to him? He could tell that something...hormones or the changes in
- his brain...he didn't know, was making him feel more emotional now. He had
- noticed it often, it was often very difficult to avoid tears now, usually for
- what he considered were the most trivial things. It must be part of being
- female, he considered. At home alone now, he had no reason to hide his
- emotions, and he began to sob. The tears ran down his face, and he knew that
- he was messing up his face. Too bad, he thought, I'm just going to let this
- one go, and not even try to stop it. Was this what it was to be like from now
- on...breaking into tears for the smallest things? He didn't know if he would
- ever really get used to acting like this. He wished he could go to sleep, and
- wake up with his male body, and brain, again. Maybe for just a day. Yeah,
- that would be great. He'd call Jay, they'd maybe go flying for an hour, and
- then go to the club and play a few games. Yeah. He just wanted to sweat...to
- feel like a guy again. He rubbed his hand across the softness of his breasts.
- Sure, it was kind of interesting, even fun sometimes, being a girl, but he
- knew that still, down deep, he was still really a guy. He realized that he
- longed to do things like a guy again. Maybe he really should call Jay. Jay
- always had an idea. Some of them were even pretty good.
-
- Joe looked at the time. It was almost three thirty. Jay would still be
- at his office...probably. He reached for the phone...picking up the handset.
- Should he dial? He lingered for a moment, then dialed the number for Jay's
- office. His secretary answered, and he asked for Jay, using his own name when
- the secretary asked who was calling. Jay's secretary knew Joe as a man, but
- she didn't recognize his feminine voice. Too bad, Joe thought, she might as
- well get used to it, if this was how it was going to be from now on. Finally,
- Jay came to the phone.
-
- "Hi Joe. What can I do for you?" He asked cheerfully.
-
- "God Jay, I'm sorry to be calling you at work." Joe said, sniffling, and
- rubbing his nose with his hand. "I just had to talk with you...with somebody."
-
- "What's the matter Joe?" Jay asked. He could tell that something was
- wrong. It sounded like Joe was crying His friends now soft feminine voice was
- more husky than normal.
-
- "I don't know...I don't know...I'm just getting so tired of all this
- female stuff all day long." Joe answered. "I just gotta get back on some
- familure ground. I didn't know what to do, so I called you."
-
- Jay wondered what was happening with his best buddy. He seemed to be
- handling it all so well.
-
- "What do you want me to do Joe?" He asked.
-
- "When will you be getting through for the day?" Joe asked. "I was
- wondering if you'd want to get some hood time?"
-
- Joe was Jay's instructor, and Jay was working on his instrument ticket.
-
- "Fly? Well, yeah, I guess I could get away...maybe in an hour." Jay
- answered. "Where are you? I'll pick you up."
-
- "I'm at my apartment now." Joe said. "But I have to go change clothes at
- Linda's. None of the stuff here will fit me anymore."
-
- "Ok. I'll pick you up at Linda's...say in little over an hour?" Jay
- said.
-
- "Ok. I'll be ready." Joe answered. "Thanks Jay...thanks a lot."
-
- "No problem Joe...for you...anytime. In an hour." He hung up the phone.
-
- Joe hung up the handset. He had done it. He was meeting Jay, and they
- would go flying. That would take his mind off all this...or would it. He
- thought about Jay, how they had been together only a few nights ago. They had
- slept together...made love...it wasn't...it couldn't ever be like it was
- before. He could even tell by the way Jay talked to him...sort of gentle or
- something...Jay would ever acted like that before. And why did he insist on
- picking Joe up? He had never done that before. They had always driven thier
- own cars to the airport. Now, Jay wanted to come over and pick him up. He
- hadn't thought about it while on the phone, but it seemed a little strange
- now, as he thought about it. Joe bent his knees, and in doing so saw his
- shiny, hairless, hose covered legs, and the short little skirt he was wearing.
- Could he really blame Jay for treating him like a girl? Wasn't that really
- what he really was now?
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