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- Your hand comes to immediate and reassuring rest upon the small of my
- back, as it unfailingly does whenever you are lying next to me as I stir
- into awakening. We have shared this moment many times over the years, and
- this familiar yet ever unexpected gesture continues to move me. I
- sometimes ponder how a subtle, unabated desire for you has remained so
- alive and flame-like within me; familiarity so often dulls our sensitivity
- to the changing beauty of those we love.
-
- We don't sleep like spoons and our shared time is as sporadic and
- imperfect as the paradoxical creatures we ourselves are. We part for a
- time but always come back to each other to share the intimacy again.
-
- Your hand knows (whether you yourself do or not) that I need its
- warmth, its current, its solidity, to bring my body to life. I have lived
- much without it, given our penchant for separations, but it is still the
- current of life to me, that hand on my back; it is my food, my desire, my
- reason. From your palm to the small of my bark and out through my belly,
- which rests flat on the surface of the bed, your solar glow begins its slow
- radiance, suffusing my heart with its warmth, flowing downward like molten
- lava over my Venusian mound, down farther, down the insides of my legs,
- stirring like lights the inner spaces below my ankles.
-
- Perhaps you are still dreaming, unaware of this journey we have begun.
- It is as though your instinct is ahead of you, moving you toward me,
- drawing you from your solitary flight in the boundless universe of
- dreamland. I don't know -- can we ever know another's experience directly?
- Still, my imagination seeks images of explanation; what is it at your
- deepest core that knows me? I don't ask, I feel the current travel from
- you through me and out again; our molecules, heedless of our possible
- intent, begin their rhythmic intimate dance.
-
- I listen to the sound of birds outside our room, then the sound of our
- breathing, now in unison, all of my senses coming alive. This time, this
- unique and unrepeatable time, I hear the rustling of the sheets as you
- stir. Moments pass. Your hand changes pressure ever so slightly. Our
- breathing is slow, rhythmic, relaxed, yet deeper.
-
- My eyes, resisting morning, are still closed and I am awake within
- that light-darkness. You are wordlessly aware that I am awake; our ritual
- is silence. We are orphan-close, so far away in this moment from the day
- which will soon press in upon us. We are farther still from our
- differences, our troubles, far from who we often pretend we are, even to
- each other. Do we really even know each other? I think not. Yet, our
- intimacy is so complete that we are like one being in this quiet time of
- shared arousal.
-
- You withdraw your hand as you turn on your side toward me. I feel a
- momentary emptiness, a longing, as the current subsides. As you replace
- your hand on my body, softly stroking, the current begins again. Past
- images come to me like dreams as you move closer to me. You, on your
- knees, gripping my arms as I sit, blocked from you by fear yet pulling you
- down to meet me, your eyes calling me out from my defenses where we can
- touch ... a San Francisco street corner and your arm encircling my waist,
- drawing me into you as I am about to obediently follow a green light. The
- light; the crowd; the sounds; stopped then, as the world has now. You,
- sweet surprising you, moving toward me pantherlike, unexpected, with the
- grace of your full presence. I have lived without knowing if you desire me
- until these moments, coming without warning, taking me from who I thought
- we were; freeing me.
-
- I open to you as your hand moves up from the sacred grove, up the
- center of my spine, so slow, so unhesitating. I feel lank morning strands
- of my hair being caressed into beauty, tousled farther across the broad
- flushed plains of my face. We are quiet and strange to each other,
- private. I feel your face close over my hair, my ear; we are still and
- new. I cannot breathe enough and am afraid to breathe, to break this
- timeless solitude.
-
- I am all liquid -- no bones, no muscle, no resistance, as I turn to
- you; our legs cross-stitching themselves into patterns they know,
- independent of our effort. My face finds the cave of your throat where it
- can hide. My tongue sneaks out to lick the salty taste of your skin, my
- lips nibbling ever so lightly that it would take conscious thought to know
- if I were grasping your skin or not. My breasts mold against your chest,
- swaying under the pressure, ripples caused by the rising and lowering of
- your chest as you breathe. The nipples are taut, stretched to two small
- peaks jutting up from the white mountains below them; pressing into you,
- rubbing your nipples as we merge closer to each other.
-
- My hand moves up, gently grasping the lobe of your ear, my fingers
- softly stroking the tender skin that knows my arousing touch; a touch that
- quickly banishes any divas that might be dancing in your imagination,
- freeing you to concentrate only on my sexuality and the innate desire to
- find our shared sexual rhapsody. My hand, having made its familiar
- connection, slides down your chest and snakes around your man's curve of
- waist, around farther to that plateau-like center signifying your spine's
- end, your serpent's tail. My center finger circles that bony terrain,
- gently pressing, pulling you inextricably to me. It slips down the gully,
- sliding downwards towards the hidden cavern, still drawing you ever closer
- to me as my own body presses forward to meet you.
-
- We are old friends and new territory, each merging affording new
- opportunities to explore the others depths of passion and sensitivity.
- Finding new ways to ignite the soaring experiences of sexual spontaneity.
- We are deep cavernous lovers; celebrants of the mystery of the ages. We
- begin to kiss, if such tentative brushes of our lips could be called
- kisses. OUr lips, seemingly negligent parties to our increasing heat, take
- their time with casual random meetings. Our bodies cling to each other for
- the promise of some ultimate home, while our mouths impudently enact their
- own rituals of tasting, biting, cajoling, inspiring deeper breaths and
- tender urgency.
-
- You have confessed to me that you feel fear just before our
- lovemaking, that you think you always will. It must be now that this
- primal near-terror begins; now, when you are so vulnerable. I am some dark
- chasm you cannot enter without risk of somehow becoming lost and changed,
- without becoming something of a stranger to yourself. For you to pass
- through to fulfillment, you have to become totally vulnerable, unable to
- defend yourself from attack. Those moments of thrusting obsession centers
- all of your being on the staff plunging into the dark, damp orifice between
- my thighs. Subtly I draw you closer, to reassure you that we each travel
- towards that total vulnerability together and in our unity we are strength
- that can not be defeated. That our bodies will sing and throb and from
- that climax we will emerge with new energies that makes the world new and
- vibrant. We move toward that universe together, each separate and
- wandering in the other, uncontrollably pulled and mastered by a need so
- intense it defies our most holy conventions, our deepest resistances; so
- humbling that it makes us completely visible, nothing can be hidden. Even
- our sounds no longer belong to us, but come from some ancient region we
- inhabited long before our learned expressions.
-
- We are floating like phantoms, I am between what I was and what I am
- becoming. We cannot separate now. Our joining is a threshold where we are
- no longer alone in the aching way we've know. We are a movement, a
- pulsation, nothing else. Something at once foreign and remembered. Our
- bodies clamor now for the ultimate release of the sensations that flood
- through our veins and seize our every cell.
-
- Our hands know their respective paths, even though they meander like
- it is wilderness territory. Seeking. Stroking. Stimulating. Striving to
- arouse each other, and ourselves. Is the feel of my hand sliding over your
- cock as thrilling to you as the sensations being telegraphed from my
- fingertips to my mind to my genitals? Each stroke down the length of your
- swollen member pumps more liquid from within my well. Your hands are
- igniting the heat from my core, rising it to an inferno of stimuli that
- engulfs me. A trembling starts from somewhere within the very core of my
- body. It ripples through me, each wave cresting over the one that seeps
- out the vaginal channel.
-
- Rolling together, your hands steadily guiding me to position atop you,
- our bodies grinding together, rotating, pushing. Mounted, I hover over
- your cock. Imperceptibly I lower my body until the silken head of your
- crown is brushing my tangled hairs. My juices coating you, running down
- the length of your stiff member. Lower. Lower I sink, allowing the crown
- to slide just into the opening. Hovering there, my body signals the
- muscles to clench, grasp, draw on you. With your crown just into the
- entrance, my muscles squeeze and nibble at your cock-head. Teasing. My
- breasts sway above you as you reach up to grasp the erect nipples between
- your fingers. You tweak them causing torrents to flood through me.
-
- I lower my body onto you, impaling myself on your pulsing shaft. Oh!
- how I love the feel of you sliding into me. My muscles clench tightly
- while your strength pushes its way through the moist chamber. You push
- upwards with your hips, driving yourself fully into me. Tremors!
- Shockwaves of sheer excitement claw and suck at you. More juices soak your
- skin as you merge with me. Our breaths fill the room with soft wind.
-
- I rotate my hips, back and forth; up and down; side to side. Rocking
- gently on the pivotal point. Always drawing on you, sucking at your balls.
- Reaching behind moving hips, my fingers caress your balls, sliding downward
- to stroke the bridge behind them. My breasts jauntily dancing before your
- eyes. You watch my face, the glow spreading across it as my body screams
- for more. I am lost. The driving forces are pulling at me to go faster,
- my body wanting this moment to last to eternity. I can actually feel each
- rise and hollow of your cock as it thrusts into me. The pliable lip of the
- crest as it moves back and forth thrusting itself into me like a pile-
- driver.
-
- My heart pounding within my chest sets up a rhythm section to which my
- hips dance. Pound. Thrust. Pound. Plunge. Pound. Pound. Thrust.
- Thrust. Faster and faster the drums beat as we merge our bodies on the
- link of the universe. My face glimmers with the ecstasy flowing through my
- body as it erupts into a quivering mass of juices and electrical currents
- that curl my toes behind me as my cunt grips you in staccato clinches.
- Your cock can not resist and begins to thrust in for the final plunges
- before spilling the fluids that threaten to burst your balls. Your legs
- helping to drive you into me with a force. Your moans fill my ear driving
- me even faster to meet your surging body. How that sound carries me to
- oblivion as my own voice harmonizes. Hair swinging wildly about my face as
- we grind and roll until there are no juices remaining and our strength
- leaves us weak as newborn kittens. I collapse against you, your strong
- arms holding me on top while we linger in no-man's land together.
-
- I roll to the side, your arms still holding me. Soft mews of pleasure
- emanate from within, unbidden. Softly you whisper, "Good morning, My Dear,
- time to awaken."
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