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- Sherry found herself in La Crosse, Wisconsin. The routine was
- similicity itself: She would fly as co-pilot for a DC-3 to
- Madison, Janesville, Rockford, IL and into Midway, . At each
- point, part of the cargo would be loaded on so that when they
- arrived in Chicago they normally had a full load. The cargo (which
- was in containers) would be transferred to a cargo jet and taken
- to the national sorting center. Christa Welles (the DC-3's
- Captain) and Sherry would try to catch a few winks in the female
- bunkroom until the outbound cargo was delivered. Then they would
- fly the DC-3 back to La Crosse.
- Sherry, who had grown up reading the stories of Ernest Gann,
- was in high heaven. Ok, so they were using VORs and loran, not
- low-freqency ranges, but it didn't take much imagination on her
- part to believe they were flying AM-21. She could see why the old
- airline pilots loved the DC-3; easy to fly, easy to land, and about
- as forgiving a taildragger as was ever made.
- Christa didn't see it that way, but she was a short-timer.
- In three weeks she would be going to United's new pilot school.
- In baseball terms, she had made it to "the show." United had sent
- her some advance course material and she was spending every bit of
- free time studying it.
- Sherry's other studies weren't neglected. She had a
- subscription to two weekly newsmagazines in Portugese and Spanish.
- The school called her twice a week for progress reports and to
- gently quiz her on current events. The calls were made in one or
- the other languages. A case officer dropped by every three weeks;
- again the discussions weren't in English.
- When Christa left, Sherry was promoted to the left seat of the
- DC-3. Another woman took over the co-pilot slot. Sherry flew as
- a DC-3 captain for six months. It seemed to her as if things were
- going very slowly, but there was a reason to it. The program that
- was training her incurred no major costs while Sherry was flying
- the cargo planes. While her military pay was continuing, the money
- for that came from the Navy. As far as they were concerned, Sherry
- was an asset that was in safe-keeping. Sherry was living on her
- flying pay. Her military pay kept accumulating in a combination
- money market and mutual fund account.
- Doris called her one morning and told her to stop taking the
- hormones, that there would be more surgery in three weeks. Sherry
- asked what surgery, but Doris wouldn't tell her. Sherry sighed at
- all the "need to know" bullshit, but that's the way they did
- things.
- Right on time, Doris showed up three weeks later at the La
- Crosse airport as Sherry came back from a cargo run. There was a
- new pilot for the -3, Doris led Sherry to a Gulfstream III that had
- its cabin windows covered over.
- "Where are we going," Sherry asked.
- Doris led the way onto the jet and closed the door. She
- knocked on the cockpit door (also shut) and then sat down. Janet
- was there, too. "We are going for the final surgery," Doris said.
- She nodded to Janet.
- Janet pulled out a briefcase as the jet taxiied to the active
- runway. "We have a lot of material to go over, first. Read these,
- and sign at the bottom where the `x' is if you agree. We'll
- countersign."
- Sherry started to read. Most of it was legalese about the
- risks of sexual reassignment surgery. There was a lengthy consent
- form and a very stark explaination that the surgery was not
- reversible with any current or foreseen technique. She barely
- noticed the takeoff roll and climbout as she waded through the
- forms. There were a few she had to reread to make sure she
- understood them. But there was no question in her mind that this
- was what she wanted. Each time she signed a document, Doris and
- Janet would countersign it and Doris would notarize it.
- Finally, she finished the last form. She handed it to Janet,
- who signed it. Doris used the embossing stamp and signed it. "Now
- what," Sherry asked.
- "Any last minute qualms," inquired Janet.
- "About being operated on? Yes. About why? No."
- "All right," Janet sighed. "Just sit back and enjoy the ride.
- You'll find some books in the bin next to your right knee." Janet
- was relieved. She had to ask Sherry that question out of
- professional duty, but nobody wanted her to back out. A likely
- mission was on the planning table and there was no one better
- qyalified than Sherry for it.
- Sherry found a Portugese version of Louis L'amour's "The
- Sacketts." It was easy reading.
-
- The jet landed and taxiied into a hangar. Sherry wasn't
- allowed to leave the airplane until the hangar doors were shut.
- The three women then got into a limosine with blackened windows
- that was in the hangar. Even the license plate was covered up.
- The limo went to a hospital; they got out in an empty parking
- garage. Two orderlies waited with a gurney. They had Sherry lie
- on it, then they strapped her in. One orderly covered her to the
- neck with a blanket, the other wrapped a bandage around her eyes.
- They wheeled her up to a private room. As she expected, the
- windows were opaque. Doris showed her that the TV set worked,
- although it only had generic cable stations on it, nothing that
- would identify the city or state they were in. Sherry unpacked and
- settled in.
- What Sherry wanted to do now was sleep, but that was not to
- be. Two different doctors came by to do a physical examination,
- followed by another doctor who identified himself as the
- anesthesiologist. All three wore surgical greens and masks,
- presumably to minimize any chances of Sherry identifying them.
- The dinner was light, it was followed by one nurse who gave
- Sherry an enema (which was no fun as Sherry wasn't into water
- sports), and another who shaved her pubic area. Finally a third
- nurse came by, woke her up, and gave her a sleeping pill.
- An orderly woke her up early the next morning and gave her a
- shot to make her drowsy. "Great, just what I needed," Sherry
- thought and she went to sleep again. She thought she remembered
- somebody talking to her in the OR, but she wasn't sure.
- The next thing she knew is that she woke up with a burning
- sensation in her groin. Sherry groped for the call button, a nurse
- came in and gave her a shot. She went back to sleep.
-
- Sherry was confined to bed for five days, although she felt
- strong enough to get up after three. One of the doctors told her
- it was "because you're in great shape, young lady" and ordered her
- to stay in bed anyway. Sherry whiled away the time watching CNN
- and HBO. Doris and Janet visited every day, they brought her
- copies of the NY Times. That meant nothing, as Sherry knew the
- paper was distributed nationally.
- When they let her out of bed, Sherry started to get some
- exercise walking up and down the hall. She was surprised to see
- that most of the rooms were empty. The others had closed doors,
- they only let her go out when the other patients were out of sight.
- She was in the hospital for ten days. The return trip was
- made the same way, except this time the airplane was a Lear 31 and
- the flight ended at the training base. There Sherry recuperated
- for a few weeks and did whatever she felt like. To her joy, one
- of the airplanes on the flight line was a Stearman; she arranged
- for a checkout and flew the big biplane as much as she could.
- There was a T-28 on the line; Sherry checked out in it but didn't
- fly it very much. To her, it wasn't as much fun as the biplane.
- They ran her through a series of refresher courses-- language,
- defense, and flying. The emphasis in the flying was in terrain
- folowing and rough-field operations. Sherry was also given
- extensive training in loran, omega, and GPS navigation systems.
- Loran was familiar, but they ran her through it anyway. Omega sets
- in aircraft were rare to start with and hardly anyone still used
- them, but on the off-chance that one would be there, she had to
- learn it. GPS (Global Positioning Satellites) was the lastest
- system, supposedly accurate to less than 50 meters in three
- dimensions.
-
- After Sherry was checked by a team of doctors and judged to
- have recovered, she went back to La Crosse and resumed flying the
- DC-3 on the cargo runs. Doris told her that "completely recovered"
- didn't mean that all the scars had healed. They wanted time for
- the scars from the surgery to fade before making a final evaluation
- of Sherry's fitness for a mission.
- Her co-pilot was an average-sized woman named Julia Waldowski.
- Julia and Sherry became pretty good friends, hard to avoid when one
- spends five days a week flying together. After verifying that
- Julia knew what she was about, Sherry let her fly the alternate
- legs of the runs. There wasn't much to it. If the weather was
- good enough, they'd fly VFR to avoid the delays caused by the ATC
- system.
- Julia was a bit of an exercise nut. While most of the other
- pilots were trying to catch a little sleep between the inbound and
- outbound legs, she would go for a run around the cargo area. One
- night she forgot to pack any deoderant, so she asked Sherry if
- there was any in her bag (almost all the pilots had a small bag
- with a change of clothing and toiletries in case they were
- weathered in). Sherry was asleep and mumbled something like "sure"
- and went back to sleep.
- The return flight was in good weather; they cancelled IFR and
- flew out of Midway VFR. Sherry flew the leg and noticed that Julia
- was being really quiet.
- "Did you hurt yourself running tonight," she asked.
- "No, it was a good five miles."
- "Then what's wrong?" Sherry glanced over, although it wasn't
- necessary to look with the headests and the intercom.
- Julia was silent for a minute, then said: "When I borrowed
- your deodorant, I found a dialator in your bag."
- That rang a few bells in Sherry's mind. Most people would
- have called it a `dildo,' but she called it a `dialator.' "Okay.
- So?"
- "`So?' We've been flying together for a few months now. I
- mean," Julia stopped, at a loss for words. She reached for her
- purse and took her wallet out. She drew a photo from one of the
- plastic pockets and handed it to Sherry. She then put her hand on
- the control wheel. "I have the airplane."
- "Your airplane," Sherry replied. She pulled a small
- flashlight out and shielded the light, then she looked at the
- photo. The picture showed Julia standing next to a taller woman,
- one who was almost half a foot taller. She was pretty good
- looking, though, and appeared to be about the same age as Julia.
- There was some slight resemblance between the two women, especially
- in the way a slight smile was on their lips. Sherry put away the
- flashlight, handed the photo back, and said: "I have the
- airplane."
- "Your airplane."
- "Who is she?"
- Julia was putting the photo back into her wallet. "That's
- Michelle, my big sister."
- In more ways than one, Sherry thought. "How much older is
- she?"
- "Depends on how you look at it. She's either three years
- older than I am or she's 23 years younger."
- Sherry did some quick figuring; she knew Julia was 25, so
- Michelle was 28..uh, oh. "Spell it out."
- "She was born as Michael. She had a sexual reassignment
- operation two years ago. Most people wouldn't know it to look at
- her. But when she travels, she had a dialator in her suitcase; she
- uses it to make sure her vagina stays open. Her dialator looks
- just like yours."
- Sherry made a note of that; she'd better replace the damn
- thing with a regular dildo. It'd be better to have someone assume
- she was just weird. "How do you feel about having a sister who's
- a transsexual?"
- Julia made a noncommittal gesture in the dim red light of the
- Doug's cockpit. She looked out to the right, where the headlights
- of the cars on I-90 were visible. "Michael never fit in as a boy.
- I think I knew he wanted to be a girl a long time ago. She's a big
- woman, now, but she's very happy. Michelle has a sort of inner
- peace that most people don't. I think it comes from knowing that
- she has done what she needed to do.
- "I don't know, it's strange sometimes. But when I'm around
- her, I forget sometimes that she used to be a he. My parents
- aren't very happy, but they've realized that it was the best
- thing."
- Sherry tuned the number 1 navcom to the Rockford tower
- frequency, 118.3 mHz. The tower was closed, so she listened to see
- if anyone else was in the area. Nobody was there, so she tried
- calling Hartzog on their frequency to find which way the windsock
- was pointing. The lineman looked out the door and let her know.
- She pulled back on the throttles lsightly and started a shallow
- descent, then switched back to the tower frequency.
- Julia didn't let it drop. "When did you have your surgery?"
- "You're making a pretty big assumption, aren't you?"
- "No, I don't think so. Even for a tall woman, you have large
- hands and feet. Whoever worked on you did an excellent job;
- there's no scarring from the tracheal shave. I can see a few
- pockmarks that probably came from electrolysis, but everyone else
- is going to assume they're acne scars."
- Sherry sighed. "A few months ago. I came back from recovery
- when we started flying together."
- "Does the line know?" Julia was referring to the cargo
- airline.
- "No. How would they? They don't do physicals, my paperwork
- all says `female.'"
- "How did you get the time off?"
- "I put in for a leave of absence without pay."
- "Does the FAA know? How did you get a medical?"
- Sherry smiled slightly. She announced her position over the
- radio, then answered Julia. "There are ways. The FAA knows all
- about me. It's not exactly an unknown thing for them to see.
- Karen Ulane did us a big favor."
- "I guess so. That was too bad, though," Julia commented,
- referring to the crash that killed Ulane.
- "Yeah. Gear down."
- Julia pushed the lever down. "Coming down...down and locked."
- "Tailwheel locked."
- "Tailwheel locked."
- Sherry pulled the throttles back. "Flaps ten."
- "Flaps ten. Mixture to full rich."
- "Full rich." She pushed the prop controls forward, ensuring
- they'd be set if she had to go-around. Nobody else was in the
- pattern, Sherry flew a tight approach with minimal power. When she
- knew she had the field made, she called for full flaps. She landed
- the DC-3 a little tail low, then let the tail settle. One the tail
- was down, Sherry moved the control column all the way back to hold
- it. She unlocked the tailwheel once they had slowed to taxi speed.
- Julia commented. "Michelle'll be so thrilled to know."
- "Julia, don't tell her. Please."
- Julia looked over. "You're on of the ones who want to
- disappear afterwards, then."
- "Yes. Please don't tell anyone."
- "Okay, Sherry."
- They didn't talk much for the rest of the flight.
-
- Julia did ask Sherry a couple days later if she wanted to get
- together for dinner and some drinks on Saturday night. Sherry
- didn't have any plans, so she agreed. "You have any ideas," she
- asked.
- Julia shrugged. "There's a decent Chinese place not too far
- away from the field. We can go there."
- "Sounds good. What should we wear?"
- "I'm tired of wearing pants all the time," Julia declared.
- "I'm going to dress up a little."
- "Ok by me. Where should we meet?"
- "We both live near the field, so let's meet in the line
- parking lot at seven."
- "Sure. See you then."
-
- They were both there at seven. That may have been a little
- surprising to a casual observer, but both women were pilots and
- were used to showing up on time. Julia was wearing a dark floral
- print dress that was flowing and came to just below the knee. The
- dress apparently was made of rayon, tan hose, and black pumps with
- 3" heels. Sherry had a black knee-length dress with a polo shirt
- type of collar. She also had on black pumps but with a little
- lower heel. They decided to take Sherry's Honda; that way Julia
- didn't have to clean off the passenger seat of her Tercel.
- There was a wait for the restuarant, but not much of one.
- They shared food, like most peole do when they're eating Chinese,
- and giggled over the fortune cookies. Sherry's said "You are about
- to take a long journey."
- Julia knew a nice lounge not very far away. Over a couple
- drinks, the two women talked; mainly about flying. Like most
- pilots, they used their hands a lot. The bartender listened in as
- much as he could, he seemed fascinated by two women discussing
- aviation in a way that only pilots could. They did switch to diet
- soda after the second drink; neither one wanted to risk a drunken-
- driving beef. (The FAA's been going after pilots who drink and
- drive.)
- The crowd had lessed out, it was getting late, so they left
- the bar. Two men followed them out, ambling behind them as their
- heels clicked faster across the parking lot. Sherry fished her
- keys out and had them in her hand when the two men caught up to
- them.
- One of them grabbed Sherry by the right wrist from behind.
- "What's your hurry, little lady," he asked in a tone that chilled
- Sherry to the core.
- The other one had grabbed Julia. "We only want to party a
- little. Come with us, you won't get hurt and we'll show you a real
- good time." Both men laughed.
- Sherry exploded into motion. She pivoted and drove her left
- fist into the man's midsection with all the power she could muster.
- The breath whooshed out of his lungs, he let go of her wrist and
- started to double over. Sherry pulled back, then swung the edge
- of her right fist into his nose, smashing it to a bloody ruin. She
- wasn't finished, but he was when she kicked his left kneecap out
- of alighnment. He fell to the pavement a bleeding groaning ruin.
- The goon holding Julia was frozen in shock as he gaped at his
- devastated friend. He came alert when he heard a metallic
- clicking; he looked up and saw Sherry pointing a small black
- automatic pistol at his head. From her stance and her expression,
- he knew he was very close to dying.
- "Let her go," Sherry commanded. The man did so instantly.
- "Put your hands on top of your head. You move without me telling
- you to and you're a dead man. Julia, get the phone from my car."
- Julia did. "Dial this number-" Sherry told her what number "-
- come around on my left side and hand it to me."
- Julia did as she was told; she was almost as stunned as the
- man who Sherry had the gun on. Sherry took the phone and when it
- was answered, explained the situation. She was told to stay where
- she was. She handed the phone back to Julia, who took it and stood
- there uncertainly.
- A police car with no lights drove up three minutes later. It
- stopped so that the headlights illuminated the scene. The cop got
- out and came over. His pistol was drawn, but wasn't aimed at
- anyone. "You Anderson," he asked.
- "Yes."
- "Ok." He holstered the gun, grabbed the guy standing up and
- tossed him against the Honda. "Assume the position, asshole." The
- man did. The cop frisked and cuffed him, then he marched him over
- to the cruiser and threw him in the back seat. Sherry put her
- pistol away, the cop came back and frisked and cuffed the guy on
- the ground with a heavy-duty cable tie. Sherry helped him drag the
- man to the cruiser and stuffed him in next to his buddy. The cop
- siad: "We'll be in touch" to Sherry and drove away with the two
- would-be rapists.
- Julia was still a little dazed. Sherry walked her over to the
- passenger's side of the car and helped her get in. Sherry walked
- back around and got in. She looked over at Julia. "Are you all
- right?"
- "I've never seen anything like that. It was so quick. All
- of a sudden he was on the ground and you had a gun."
- Sherry nodded, but didn't say anything.
- "Where did you learn do do that?"
- "I was taught. Where and why, I can't tell you."
- "Were you in the service before-"
- "Yes." Sherry let Julia draw her own conclusions, even though
- she knew they'd be the wrong ones.
- "And the gun. I grew up in Chicago. The only guns I've ever
- seen belonged to the cops. Is it yours?"
- "Yes."
- "Do you have a permit for it?"
- Sherry nodded.
- "Do you carry it wtih you all the time?"
- "I can't answer that. I will say I carry it when I need to."
- Julia looked over at her. "Why did you have it tonight?"
- "I needed to, evidently."
- Julia sighed. "I think I want to go home." Sherry drove her
- back to the airport and parked next to Julia's car. Julia got out
- without saying a word; Sherry stayed there until Julia had started
- to drive away.
- Sherry sighed. She didn't know what would happen now, but
- there wasn't much she could do about it.
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