04.07.2013 23:07 This day I had a lot of work to do.
I have made all work by the time.
My neighbour came to my grandmother this morning, 05 July 2013, 10:00 - 10:20.
My neighbour is a female kazakh, She is very hostile against me.
She has relatives from military unit in Temirtau.
They put me to Temirtau's psychiatristic dispensary to kill at winter 16 - 18 December 2009,
19:00 - 21:00.
What do you mean by fried eggs? 05 July 2013, 17:11.
Just finished to write AnsiToInt procedure in masm32 for Windows to covert
ansi string to integer. Masm32 is from www.masm32.com. 05 July 2013, 22:50.
Today I rush across the town and make photos of buildings and cars.
The man in blue jeanse blocked email for a few hours. 06 July 2013, 19:55
They try to fear me to put to Temirtau Psychiatristic dispensary.
Then, my mother bought expired food to take to Psychiatristic dispensary for me. 9 July 2013, 23:30.
My grandmother tried to deceive me. She left the flat when I listen to the music in earphones.
She took no keys to shitf on me that I am mentally ill and refused to open the door. 11 July 2013, 19:13.
I just listen to Depeche Mode song The Things you said 2009. 11 July 2013, 19:30.
Listened to Aha Take On Me 1984. 11 July 2013, 20:04.
I recorded my voice, I, He and so on. 11 July 2013, 20:35.
I was walking around Temirtau today. Then I walked to the steel plant and
made shots of it and the place where I saw the steel mill. 13 July 2013, 20:50.
Nothing to do today, just to write code for a new application.
My grandmother spoilt the cook salt. 15 July 2013, 23:11.
It was on the other planet. A young white man in a white shirt and black trousers walked along
the street with the tall steel buildings. There were green trees and small food robots.
He walked along the steel pavement looking around. That was the dog planet and they walk there.
He stopped and looked at the dog that pressed the food robot button. He thought asking the dog about
the HE. "I don't know. We've never met him. But HE is somewhere here. He disappointed in people
and lives here alone. He made these machines for us.", thought back the dog.
"But how can I find him?", he thought looking at the dog. "Walk around and think of him. He will
give you an idea how to meet him.", thought back the dog.
"What does it mean?", thought the man looking around in the blue steel skyscraper.
"......around,....here.", he felt in his head. 16 July 2013, 23:27.
Watched Warlock 2 The armageddon today. 17 July 2013, 23:22.
My grandmother made me nervous a little today. 19 July 2013, 0:12.
I was made nervous today, but suppressed myself from aggressiveness. 19 July 2013, 23:25.
I walked today around Temirtau. They changed the buildings. I saw turkey men in the building, SANATORIUM,
in 2011 winter. 20 July 2013, 20:32.
I have just watched warlock 1. 22 July 2013, 23:48.
My grandmother overloaded electricity power switch on purpose today. I did not help her to turn it on in
the electricity switchboard. 23 July 2013, 23:28.
I felt nervous yesterday because of ultrasound devices on the roofs of the nearby houses. 26 July 2013, 12:34.
Kill them all!!! 27 July 2013, 18:40.
Today I examined floating point CPU instructions to code new conversion procedure. 29 July 2013, 23:51.
Today was a very tense day. 01 August 2013, 0:43.
The whole day I suppressed myself of any fits of passion. My grandmother tried to irritate me in any way.
She cooked smelly meat soup and the rag, in the kitchen washing basin smelt infectious. 01 August 2013, 23:01.
There was no cold water at home today. It was got by the evening. 02 August 2013, 23:46.
EVK03183.PDF I have to repair my toilet flush tank. The fill valve was broken. Water was leaking out. 05 August 2013, 0:08.
The whole day my grandmother and mother tried to make me nervous. My grandmother also walked to the nearby village to get wild apples today. 05 August 2013, 23:14.
Watched True lies movie today. 06 August 2013, 23:41.
Today I was very nervous. My old light yellow shirt Comserve was stolen. I also took shower in the morning. 07 August 2013, 23:12.
The pretty girl took of her panties and lied on the bed. He took her beautiful legs aside to touch her woman part by his lips.
She fell with the feelings of weakness he gave her. The sweet moment with no shame. I will give you the same.
My vulgarity, my smell, my warmness, the sense I bring you with my body to caress all of you. Take off everything,
don't hide. Don't feel shame and show it. I want to touch. I want to lick. I want to kiss. I want you to feel that you
forever will be mine. Little part in my endless universe which no one will be able to break because I will never
reveal my secret. 08 August 2013, 23:35.
This was a cloudy day. 09 August 2013, 23:50.
Walked around the town and outskirts today. 10 August 2013, 18:57.
Girl lover, "Kill all necrofiles". 11 August 2013, 22:51.
Today I masturbated on fair haired girl I saw on the stairs of the house where I live a few years ago. 12 August 2013, 22:46.
This is a nightmare. My mother, Lidiya Victorovna Efimova and grandmother, Galina Alekseevna Efimova prepared me by irritation to Temirtau Psychiatristic Dispensary. I could hardly suppress my nervousness. They have just bought food to test on me. 13 August 2013, 17:54.
The situation is again very tense. My mother has retuned from her work unusually early. She prepared something to get me put to Temirtau Psychiatristic Dispensary. 14 August 2013, 17:30.
I watched two movies today. First is Vehrnie Druzya which is an old USSR movie and the second is Terminator. 15 August 2013, 23:21.
This was a relatively calm day. 16 August 2013, 22:51.
Since morning my mother has been trying to irritate me to put to Temirtau Psychiatristic Dispensary. Today also I walked on the streets and Uzbeks mocked at me because of my grandmother's gossips. 17 August 2013, 19:33.
This was yesterday. A few hours ago I washed my briefs with Tide detergent. I want to write a story that came to me a few years ago when I was walking home. It was winter or march, there was a frosty day, between sixteen or seventeen hours I was returning to a place that now I can hardly call home. It was a science fiction story. I walked through the supermarket. I remember the trade rows with meat. 19 August 2013, 23:52.
Long strict metallic car rushing through the clean empty streets with tall simply designed buildings. The gray day gives no sunlight reflection from the gray steel buildings and brings only sound of the car engine to get the mental bricks into some forms. The car motion pushed the man in the backseat back with his mental tension to think it out. "Oh No, That is the hell. You live, You tnink of something to get, shool, University, Work, achieve something, be better. That young girl, she is mad. I can do nothing. They mock at me. Fool, You have anything, money, social status. What else do you need? Oh No, she will be shot dead with the others. New technologies, people go mad of them. There is no psychology to solve it. And from time to time they must do cleansing. As usual, not like on paper. Why? We are better? Something wrong was in the past life? She is so young, why...... Food made of people. They are so. You can do nothing. My mother... I hate her. Don't call me mother. You are stupid fool. Oh....... No, I
want it to be. You will do nothing. Great, Sleep with her or she will put you to doctors. But you are safe.... What could I do? I was so young at that time. I want to shoot her dead. I have no choice... She knows. That's why she does so. They always will do anything for her, not for me. This life............". 20 August 2013, 23:13.
I watched Jewrassic park movie today. 21 August 2013, 22:50.
Today I watched Alien movie, 1979. 22 August 2013, 22:53.
Today My parents made everything to irritate me to fit of passion. My grandmother bought a box of Orion choco pies that smelt with rotten meat. 23 August 2013, 23:29.
This day is very tense since morning. I nearly made a mistake to shout in the street of Temirtau when I saw a woman with a brown rubber medical injection pillow. That was definitely a hint to me. The Temirtau town still plays a show that this is just a game and I am just a mad man. 24 August 2013, 18:00.
I had another tense day today since morning. My grandmother hid a small kitchen knife. That knife was in my hands when Kazah's police came into the flat where I live back in 2010, in winter. They had Kalashnikov gun that a young kazah policeman poited at me. My mother was in the flat with me at that time. It was she and neighbours that called the police to put me to Temirtau Psychiatristic Dispensary. 25 August 2013, 23:21.