We’re doing some deals with some pretty high-level organized crime figures in the state and around the country. For instance, I would fly to Florida and have lunch with them. Pretty big-time guys, the kiss on the cheek and the whole bit.
In undercover work you come from this world of black and white into a world of “We don’t give a fuck and whatever happens, happens.” You’re living like that and it’s crazy. I never carried a gun when I was undercover. You only carried a gun when you wanted to do business with it. That’s a very disrespectful thing to do, carry a weapon into a meeting. Among criminals, they have their own code of ethics. If you and I are going to sit down and do a deal of stolen merchandise or dope and we’re just in the talking stages of it, why do I need to have a gun at the table? I am either a cop or extremely paranoid about my own survival or I’m out to do something to you. Then nobody will deal with me and how am I going to make my money?
So that’s the reason you don’t carry that weapon. —Cops
