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Author's Note & Second Chapter from the book:
PROGRAMMING AND METAPROGRAMMING IN THE HUMAN BIOCOMPUTER
written in 1967, 1968 by John Lilly, M.D.
Published by The Julian Press, Inc., a member of the
Crown Publishing Group, distributed by Crown Publishers, Inc.,
225 Park Avenue South, New York, New York 10003 and represented
in Canada by the Canadian MANDA Group.
Library of Congress Catalog Number 72-189950
ISBN 0-517-52757-X
1987 Edition
John C. Lilly, M.D., has studied and conducted research
in the fields of biophysics, neurophysiology, electronics,
and neuroanatomy. Best known for his groundbreaking work
in human-dolphin relations, Dr. Lilly is the United States's
leading authority on the states of solitude, isolation, and
confinement and their psychological effects on the human mind.
^L
Author's Note
This work has a curious history. It was written as a final
summary report to a government agency (National Institute of
Mental Health) concerning five years of my life work. (The
agency paid my salary for the five years.)
It was conceived from a space rarer these days than it was
then: the laws suspending scientific interest, research,
involvement and decisions about d-lysergic acid di-ethyl
amide tartrate were passed just as this particular work was
completed; the researchers were inadequately consulted
(put down, in fact). The legislators composed laws in an
atmosphere of desperation. The national negative program
on LSD was launched; LSD was the big scare, on a par with
War, Pestilence, and Famine as the destroyer of young brains,
minds and fetuses.
In this atmosphere (1966-1967) Programming and Metaprogramming
in The Human Biocomputer was written. The work and its notes are
dated from 1964 to 1966. The conception was formed in 1949, when
I was first exposed to computer design ideas by Britton Chance.
I coupled these ideas back to my own software through the
atmosphere of my neurophysiological research on cerebral cortex.
It was more fully elaborated in the tank isolation solitude
and confinement work at NIMH from 1953 to 1958, run in parallel
with the neurophysiological research on the rewarding and
punishing systems in the brain. The dolphin research was
similarly born in the tank, with brain electrode results as
parents in the further conceptions.
While I was writing this work, I was a bit too fearful to
express candidly in writing the direct experience, uninterpreted.
I felt that a group of thirty persons' salaries, a large
research budget, a whole Institute's life depended on me and
what I wrote. If I wrote the data up straight, I would have
rocked the boats of several lives (colleagues and family)
beyond my own stabilizer effectiveness threshold, I hypothesized.
Despite my precautionary attitude, the circulation in 1967
of this work contributed to the withdrawal of research funds
in 1968 from the research program on dolphins by one government
agency. I heard several negative stories regarding my brain
and mind, altered by LSD. At this point I closed the Institute
and went to the Maryland Psychiatric Research Center to resume
LSD research under government auspices. I introduced the ideas
in work to the MPRC researchers and I left for the Esalen
Institute in 1969.
At Esalen my involvement in direct human gut-to-gut
communication and lack of involvement in administrative
responsibility brought my courage to the sticking place.
Meanwhile, Stewart Brand of the Whole Earth Truck Catalog
(Menlo Park, Calif.) reviewed the work in the Whole Earth
Catalog from a mimeographed copy I had given W.W. Harmon
of Stanford for his Sufic purposes. Stewart wrote me asking
for copies to sell. I had 300 printed photo-offset from
the typed copy. He sold them in a few weeks and asked
permission to reprint on newsprint an enlarged version
at a lower price. Sceptical about salability, I agreed.
Book People, Berkeley, arranged the reprinting. Several
thousand copies were sold.^L
I had written the report in such a way that its basic
messages were hidden behind a heavy long introduction
designed to stop the usual reader. Apparently once word
got out, this device no longer stalled the interested
readers. Somehow the basic messages were important enough
to enough readers so that the work acquired an unexpected
viability. Thus it seems appropriate to reprint it in full.
On several different occassions, I have been asked to rewrite
this work. One such start at rewrite ended up as another book.
(The Center of the Cyclone, The Julian Press, Inc., New York,
1972.) Another start is evolving into my book number five
(Simulations of God: A Science of Belief). It seems as if this
older work is a seminating source for other works and solidly
resists revision. To me it is a thing separate from me, a
record from a past space, a doorway into new spaces through
which I passed and cannot return.
J.C.L.
February 1972
Los Angeles, California
^L
'All human beings, all persons who reach adulthood in the
world today are programmed biocomputers. No one of us can
escape our own nature as programmable entities. Literally,
each of us may be our programs, nothing more, nothing less.'
Chapter 2.
SUMMARY OF EXPERIMENTS IN SELF-METAPROGRAMMING WITH LSD-25
In order to test the validity of some of the basic assumptions
implicit in the theory of the human computer, a series of
experiments were designed and carried out in the LSD-25 state,
in physical isolation, and solitude. One point of primary
interest during these experiments was to find out what level
of intensity of belief in a set of assumptions could be achieved.
The assumptions tested in this set of experiments are not those
of current science: they are not in the conscious working
repertory of this scientist; nor were they consciously acceptable
to him.
In this short account it is not intended to give all of the
details of either the self-metaprogramming language that was used
or the details of the elicited phenomena. The account is
purposely sparse, condensed, and compressed. Abstracted from
the complexity of the totality of the experiments and their
results are only those formal descriptions which may serve as
guide posts to others attempting to reproduce these or similar
experiments. It is not intended to complicate this account with
the personal aspects of the metaprogramming, the elicited
phenomena, or difficulties encountered. For those researchers
who are interested in this work's reproduction in themselves,
these assumptions (or similar ones) and these results can be
translated into their own metaprogramming language and such
workers can obtain their unique results.
To claim validity of details beyond myself is not my aim.
There probably are those men who are prepared well enough to
attempt reproducing what has been done here in themselves.
The descriptions are given so that the sources of the human
computer theory are available to professionals.
This particular set of existence theorems is selected for
experiment for a number of reasons. There are a number of
persons (Blum, 1964) who experimented with the LSD-25 state
who write as if they believe implicitly in the objective
reality of causes outside themselves for certain kinds of
experiences undergone with these particular beliefs.
I do not think it wise to espouse either the existence or
the non-existence theorem for this set of basic
supra-self-metaprograms (Fig. 1). To become impartial,
dispassionate, and general purpose, objective, and open-ended,
one must test and adjust the level of credence in each of his
sets of beliefs. If ever Man is to be faced with real organisms
with greater wisdom, greater intellect, greater minds than any
single man has, then we must be open, unbiased, sensitive,
general purpose, and dispassionate. Our needs for phantasies
must have been analyzed and seen for what they are and are not
or we will be in even graver troubles than we are today.
Our search for mentally healthy paths to human progress in
the innermost realities depends upon progress in this area.
Many men have floundered in this area of belief: I hope this
work can help to find a way through one of our stickiest
intellectual-emotional regions.^L
Most of these beliefs are ones which have been abandoned in
the fields of endeavor called science. Such beliefs continue
to be found in the field known as religion. Some of these beliefs
are labeled in modern psychiatric medicine and anthropology as
superstitions, psychotic beliefs, etc. Other persons present
these beliefs in the writings called science fiction.
This set of basic postulates (or beliefs) is conceived and
used to program several sessions with LSD-25 plus physical
isolation in solitude. Above all these metaprograms to be
experimented upon is one metaprogram of value to this subject:
his overall policy is the intent to explore, to observe, to
analyze. Hence there is an important additional basic
metaprogram: analyze self to understand one's thinking and
true motives more thoroughly. This is the conscious motivational
strategy. At times this metaprogram dominates the scene, at
times others do. The resolve exists, however, to generate
a net effect with this instruction uppermost in the computer
hierarchy.
EXPERIMENTS ON BASIC METAPROGRAMS OF EXISTENCE
Preliminary to the experiments in changing basic beliefs, many
experiments with the profound physical isolation and solitude
situation were carried out over a period of several years. These
experiences were followed by combining the LSD-25 state and the
physical isolation state in a second period of several years.
The minimum time between experiments was thirty days, the
maximum time several months. [Tables 1, 7 and 8]
Basic Belief No. 1
Basic Belief No. 1 was made possible by the early isolation
results: Assume that the subject's body and brain can operate
comfortably isolated without him paying any attention to it.
This belief expresses the faith that one has in one's experience
in the isolation situation, that one can consciously ignore the
necessities of breathing and other bodily functions, and that
they will take care of themselves automatically without detailed
attention on the part of one's self. This result allowed
existence metaprograms to be made in relative safety.
Succesful leaving of body and parking it in isolation for
periods of twenty minutes to two hours were succesful in sixteen
different experiments. This success, in turn, allowed other
basic beliefs to be experimented upon. The basic belief that
one could leave the body and explore new universes was
succesfully programmed in the first eight different experiments
lasting from five minutes to forty minutes; the later eight
experiments were on the cognitional multidimensional space
without the leaving the body metaprogram (see previous section
on Projection for the cognition space phenomenon).
^L
Basic Belief No. 2
The subject sought beings other than himself, not human, in
whom he existed and who control him and other human beings.
Thus the subject found whole new universes containing great
varieties of beings, some greater than himself, some equal to
himself, and some lesser than himself.
Those greater than himself were a set which was so huge in
space-time as to make the subject feel as a mere mote in their
sunbeam, a single microflash of energy in their time scale, my
forty-five years are but an instant in their lifetime, a single
thought in their vast computer, a mere particle in their
assemblages of living cognitive units. He felt he was in the
absolute unconscious of these beings. He experienced many more
sets all so much greater than himself that they were almost
inconceivable in their complexity, size and time scales.
Those beings which were close to the subject in
complexity-size-time were dichotomized into the evil ones and
good ones. The evil ones (subject said) were busy with purposes
so foreign to his own that he had many near-misses and almost
fatal accidents in encounters with them; they were almost
totally unaware of his existence and hence almost wiped him
out, apparently without knowing it. The subject says that the
good ones thought good thoughts to him, through him, and to one
another. They were at least conceivably human and humane. He
interpreted them as alien yet friendly. They were not so alien
as to be completely removed from human beings in regard to their
purposes and activities.
Some of these beings (the subject reported) are programming
us in the long term. They nurture us. They experiment on us.
They control the probability of our discovering and exploiting
new science. He reports that discoveries such as nuclear energy,
LSD-25, RNA-DNA, etc., are under probability control by these
beings. Further, humans are tested by some of these beings and
cared for by others. Some of them have programs which include
our survival and progress. Others have programs which include
oppositions to these good programs and include our ultimate
demise as a species. Thus the subject interpreted the evil ones
as willing to sacrifice us in their experiments; hence they are
alien and removed from us. The subject reported with this set
of beliefs that only limited choices are still available to
us as a species. We are an ant colony in their laboratory.
Basic Belief No. 3
The subject assumed the existence of beings in whom humans
exist and who directly control humans. This is a tighter control
program than the previous one and assumes continuous day and
night, second to second, control, as if each human being were a
cell in a larger organism. Such beings insist upon activities in
each human being totally under the control of the organism of
which each human being is a part. In this state there is no free
will and no freedom for an individual. This supra-self-metaprogram
was entered twice by the subject; each time he had to leave
it; for him it was too anxiety-provoking. In the first case he
became a part of a vast computer in which he was one element.
In the second case he was a thought in a much larger mind: being
modified rapidly, flexibly and plastically.
All of the above experiments were done looking upward in
Fig. 1 from the self-programmer to the supra-self-metaprograms.
A converse set of experiments was done in which the
self-metaprogrammer looked downward towards the metaprograms,
the programs and the lower levels of Fig. 1.
^L
Basic Belief No. 4
One set of basic beliefs can be subsumed under the directions
seek those beings whom we control and who exist in us. With this
program the subject found old models in himself (old programs,
old metaprograms, implanted by others, implanted by self,
injected by parents, by teachers, etc.) He found that these were
disparate and separate autonomous beings in himself. He
described them as noisy group. His incorporated parents, his
siblings, his own offspring, his teachers, his wife seemed to be
a disorganized crowd within him, each running and arguing a
program with him and in him. While he watched, battles took place
between these models during the experiment. He settled many
disparate and nonintegrated points between these beings and
gradually incorporated more of them into the self-metaprogram.
After many weeks of self-analysis outside the experimental
milieu (and some help with his former analyst), it was seen
that these beings within the self were also those other beings
outside self of the other experiments. The subject described
the projected as-if-outside beings to be cognitional carnivores
attempting to eat up his self-metaprogram and wrest control from
him. As the various levels of metaprograms became straightened
out in the subject, he was able to categorize and begin to
control the various levels as they were presented during these
experiments. As his apparently unconscious needs for credence in
these beliefs were attenuated with analytic work, his freedom to
move from one set of basic beliefs to another was increased and
the anxiety associated with this kind of movement gradually
disappeared.
A basic overall metaprogram was finally generated: For his own
intellectual satisfaction the subject found that he best assume
that all of the phenomena that took place existed only in his
own brain and in his own mind. Other assumptions about the
existence of these beings had become subjects suitable for
research rather than subjects for blind (unconscious, conscious)
belief for this person.
Basic Belief No. 5
Experiments also were done upon movements of self forward and
back in space-time. The results showed that when attempting
to go forward into the future the subject began to realize his
own goals for that future, and imagine wishful thinking solutions
to current problems. When he put in the metaprogram for going
back into his own childhood, real and phantasy memories were
evoked and integrated. When he pushed back through to the in
utero situation, he found an early nightmare which was reinvoked
and solved. Relying on his scientific knowledge, he pushed the
program back through previous generations, prehuman primates,
carnivores, fish and protozoa. He experienced a sperm-egg
explosion on the way through this past reinvocation of
imaginary experience.^L
The last set of experiments (see Use of Projection section)
was made possible by the results of the previous set. Progress
in controlling the projection metaprogram resulted from the other
universes experiments. Finally the subject understood and had
become familiar with his need for phantasied other universes.
Analytic work allowed him to bypass this need and penetrate
into the cognitional multidimensional projection spaces.
Experiments in programming in this innermost space showed
results quite satisfying to a high degree of credence in the
belief that all experiments in the series showed inner happenings
without needing the participation of outer causes. The need for
the constant use of outer causes was found to be a projected
outward metaprogram to avoid taking personal responsibility
for portions of the contents of his own mind. His dislike for
certain kinds of his own nonsensical programs caused him to
project them and thus avoid admitting they were his.
In summation, the subjectively apparent results of the
experiments were to straighten out a good deal of the "nonsense"
in this subject's computer. Through these experiments he was
able to examine some warded-off beliefs and defensive structures
accumulated throughout his life. The net result was a feeling of
greater integration of self and a feeling of positive affect for
the current structure of himself, combined with an improved
skepticism of the validity of subjective judging of events in
self.
Some objective testing of these essentially subjective
judgments have been initiated through cooperation with other
persons. Such objective testing is very difficult; this area
needs a great deal of future research work. We need better
investigative techniques, combining subjective and behavioral
(verbal) techniques. The major feeling that one has after such
experiences and experiments is that the fluidity and plasticity
of one's computer has certain limits to it, and that those limits
have been enlarged somewhat by the experiments. How long such
enlargement lasts and to what extent are still not known of
course. A certain amount of continued critical skepticism about
and in the self-metaprogram (and it its felt changes) is very
necessary for a scientist exploring these areas.
^L
METAPROGRAMMATIC RESULTS OF BELIEF EXPERIMENTS
The metatheoretical consideration of these experiments and the
the results are as follows: One supra-metaprogrammatic assumption
about these experiments is the formalistic view of the origins
of mathematics and of thinking. As was said in the preface, at
one extreme of the organization of human thinking is the formal
logical basic assumption set of metatheories. These experiments
were done with this view in mind and the results were interpreted
from this point of view.
Obviously this point of view does not test the "objective"
validity of the experiences. It merely assumes that, if one plugs
the proper beliefs into the metaprogrammatic levels of the
computer that, the computer will then construct (from the
myriads of elements in memory) those possible experiences that
fit this particular set of rules. Those programs will be run
off and those displays made, which are appropriate to the basic
assumptions and their stored programming.
Another way of looking at the results and at the metaprogramming
is that we start out with a basic set of beliefs, believe them
to be "objectively" valid (not just "formally" valid) and do the
experiments and interpret them with this point of view. If one
proceeds along these lines, one can quickly reach the end of
one's ability to interpret the results. One finds that one cannot
grasp conceptually the phenomena that ensue. With this metatheory,
this type of experience is not just the computer operating in
isolation, confinement and solitude on preprogrammed material
being elicited from memory, but is really in communication with
other beings, and the influence on one's self by them is real.
Thus in this case one is assuming the existence theorem in
regard to the basic assumptions, i.e., there is objective
validity to them quite outside of self and one's making the
assumptions. This epistemological position can also be
investigated by these methods. This is somewhat the position
that was taken by Aldous Huxley and by various other groups.
For example, pursuit of certain non-Western philosophies as
the Ultimate Truth was generated by these persons.
One cannot take sides on these two widely diverse
epistemological bases. On the one hand we have the basic
assumptions of the modern scientists and on the other hand
the basic assumptions of those interested in the religious
aspect of existence. If one is to remain philosophic and
objective in this field, one must dispassionately survey
both of these extreme metatheoretical positions.
One basic lesson learned from these experiments is that, in
general, one's preferences for various kinds of metatheoretical
positions are dictated by considerations other than one's ideals
of impartiality, objectivity, and a dispassionate view. The
metatheoretical position held by scientists in general is
espoused for purposes of defining the truth, for purposes of
understanding in their particular compartment of science, for
acceptance among other scientists and for each one's own internal
security operations with respect to his own unconscious programs.
It is to be expected that anxiety is engendered in some
scientists by making the above assumptions as if true (even
temporarily) in an experimental framework. One can easily be
panicked by the invasion of the self-metaprograms by automatic
existence programs from below the level of one's awareness,
programs which may strike at the existence of self, at the
control of self, at the origins of self, at the destinations
of self, and of the relations of self to a known external
reality.^L
Possibly one of the safest positions to take with regard to
all of these phenomena is that given in this paper, i.e., the
formalistic view in which one makes the assumption that the
computer itself generates all of the phenomena experienced.
This is an acceptable assumption of modern science. This is
the so-called common sense assumption. This is the assumption
acceptable to one's colleagues in science.
Such considerations, of course, do not touch upon nor prove
the validity of invalidity of the assumptions nor of the results
of the experiments. In order to leave this theory open-ended
and to allow for the presence of the unknown, it is necessary
to take the ontological and epistemological position that one
cannot know as a result of this kind of solitudinous experiment
whether or not the phenomena are explicable only by
non-biocomputer interventions or only by happenings within the
computer itself, or both.
I wish to emphasize that there is a necessity not to espouse
a truth because it is safe. Being driven to a set of assumptions
because one is afraid of another set and their consequences is
the most passionate and nonobjective kind of philosophy. Too
many intellectuals and scientists (almost unconsciously) use
basic assumptions as defences against their fears of other
assumptions and their consequences. Until we can train ourselves
to be dispassionate and accept both the assumptions and the
results of making them without arrogance, without pride, without
misplaced enthusiasm, without fear, without panic, whithout
anger, hence without emotional involvement in the results or
in the theories, we cannot advance this inner science of Man
very far.
Those who wish to embrace the truth of an alternative set of
assumptions as an escape from the basic assumptions of modern
science are equally at fault. Those who must find a communication
with other beings in this kind of experiment will apparently
find it. One must be aware that there are (as in the child)
needs within one's self for finding certain kinds of phenomena
and espousing them as the ultimate truth. Such childlike needs
needs dictate their own metaprograms.
I am not agreeing with any extreme group in interpreting
these results. It is convenient for me to assume, as of this time,
that these phenomena all occurred within the biocomputer. I
tend to assume that ESP cannot have played a role. At the
moment this is the position which I find to be most tenable in a
logical sense. I do not wish to be dogmatic about this. I wish to
indicate that this is where I stand as of the writing describing
this particular stage of the work. I await demonstrations of the
validity of alternative existence theorems.
If ever good, hard-nosed, common sense, unequivocal evidence
for the existence of currently unaccepted assumptions is
presented by those who have thoroughly attenuated their childish
needs for particular beliefs, I hope I am prepared to examine it
dispassionately and thoroughly. The pitfalls of group interlock
are quite as insidious as the pitfalls of one's own phantasizing.
Group acceptance of undemonstrated existence theorems and of
seductive beliefs adds no more validity to the theorems and to
the beliefs than one's own phantasizing can add. Anaclitic group
behavior is no better than solitudinous phantasies of the truth.
Where agreed-upon truth can exist in the science of the
innermost realities is not and cannot yet be settled. Beginnings
have been made by many men, satisfying proofs by one.
^L
FIGURE 1.
SCHEMA OF THE LEVELS OF THE FUNCTIONAL ORGANIZATION OF THE HUMAN BIOCOMPUTER
LEVELS
XI UNKNOWN (above and in Biocomputer)
X SUPRA-SPECIES-METAPROGRAM (beyond metaprogramming)
IX SUPRA-SELF-METAPROGRAMS (to be metaprogrammed)
VIII *SELF-METAPROGRAM* - awareness (to metaprogram)
VII METAPROGRAMS METAPROGRAM STORAGE (to program set of programs)
VI PROGRAMS PROGRAM STORAGE (detailed instructions)
V SUBROUTINES SUBROUTINE STORAGE (details of instruction)
IV BIOCHEMICAL ACTIVITY - NEURAL ACT. - GLIAL ACT. - VASCULAR ACT.
(signs of activity)
III BIOCHEMICAL BRAIN - NEURAL BRAIN - GLIAL BRAIN - VASCULAR BRAIN (brain)
II BIOCHEMICAL BODY - SENSORY BODY - MOTOR BODY - VASCULAR BODY (body)
I BIOCHEMICAL - CHEMICAL - PHYSICAL....EXTERNAL REALITY (external reality)
Each part of each level has feedback-control relations
with each part, indicated by the connecting lines. Each
level has feedback-control with each other level. For
the sake of schematic simplicity, many of these feedback
connections are not shown. One example is an important
connection between Levels VI through IX and X; some
built-in, survival programs have a representative at the
Supra-Self-metaprogram Level as follows: "These programs
are necessary for survival; do not attenuate or excite
them to extreme values; such extremes lead to non-computed
actions, penalties, illness, or death." After construction,
such a Metaprogram is transferred by the Self-metaprogram
to the Supra-selfmetaprograms and to the Supra-species-
metaprograms for future control purposes.
The boundaries between the body and the external reality
are between Levels I and II; certain energies and
materials pass this boundary in special places (heat,
light, sound, food, secretions, feces). Boundaries
between body and brain are between Levels II and III;
special structures pass this boundary (blood vessels,
nerve fibers, cerebro-spinal fluid). Levels IV through XI
are in the brain circuitry and are the software of the
Biocomputer. Levels above Level X are labeled "Unknown"
for the following purposes: (1) to maintain the openness
of the system, (2) to motivate future scientific research,
(3) to emphasize the necessity for unknown factors at all
levels, (4) to point out the heuristic nature of this
schema, (5) to emphasize unwillingness to subscribe to any
dogmatic belief without testable reproducible data, and
(6) to encourage creative courageous imaginative
investigation of unknwon influences on and in human
realities, inner and outer.
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