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From: owner-buffyfic@lists.xmission.com (Buffyfic-digest)
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Subject: Buffyfic-digest V2 #89
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Buffyfic-digest Thursday, April 2 1998 Volume 02 : Number 089
In this issue:
BUFFYFIC: The Ties That Bind (9/10)
Re: BUFFYFIC: DISCUSS:
BUFFYFIC: Date: Thu, 2 Apr 1998 10:20:53 +1000
RE: BUFFYFIC: DISCUSS: FORMATTING GUIDELINES
Re: BUFFYFIC: That Was The Day 2/2
BUFFYFIC: Enough, (1/3) by Andrea
BUFFYFIC: Enough (2/3) by Andrea
BUFFYFIC: Enough, (3/3) by Andrea
BUFFYFIC: DISCUSS: Answer this challenge, everybody!
Re: BUFFYFIC: DISCUSS: Answer this challenge, everybody!
BUFFYFIC: Re: Discussion: Challenge
BUFFYFIC: BUFFYFIC
Re: BUFFYFIC: BUFFYFIC
BUFFYFIC: Thanks
Re: BUFFYFIC: I Dreamed A Dream (1/1)
See the end of the digest for information on subscribing to the buffyfic
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Date: Wed, 1 Apr 1998 17:23:34 EST
From: Anexsin <Anexsin@aol.com>
Subject: BUFFYFIC: The Ties That Bind (9/10)
Title: The Ties That Bind (9/10)
Author: Melinda Frango
Email Addy: Anexsin@aol.com
Rating: PG
Spoiler: All episodes before Passion.
Distribution: Ask first
Feedback: Greatly appreciated.
Disclaimer: Buffy and the gang belong to Joss Whedon, the WB, etc.
Only the story is mine, and whatever characters never seen or mentioned
on the show.
Summary: Buffy and the gang get help from an unexpected source in
restoring Angel's soul.
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
Caitlin remained silent for another long moment before
speaking. Angel simply watched her, knowing full well
what this conversation was going to be about.
'I know what you are going to say," he offered
breaking the silence.
"Oh, you do?" Caitlin asked slightly amused.
"Yeah, you're going to tell me not to feel guilty, that it
wasn't my fault, that it wasn't me."
"Well, sort of. What I was really going to say was that
she needs you," Cailtin informed him.
"Who? Buffy?" he asked already knowing the answer.
Caitlin nodded her head and continued.
"She loves you," she said simply.
"She deserves better, and I doubt she still loves me after everything
I did to her," Angel explained sadly.
"Angelus did those things, but she loves Angel. She doesn't want
anyone else but you," Caitlin paused to take a deep breath. "She's
that girl you always dreamed about meeting. Someone independent,
strong, loving, don't give up on her so easily."
Now Angel was staring at the ceiling. "I just need some time to deal
with everything that has happened, and I don't know how long that
will take."
"You should've seen her face when I told her I was here to return
your soul," Caitlin smiled slightly. "I've never seen a smile as big
as hers. She wants to help you through this. To be there for you
like you've been there for her," she explained.
When Angel didn't respond or even glance at her, she spoke more firmly.
"Look! I happen to know for a fact that none of them hate you. It's
just hard for them to accept that a friend of theirs that was so nice
and caring one day could turn into a evil, demonic creature the next.
You and the demon are two different beings sharing the same body,
you are not the same person!"
"Fine believe what you want, but I'm the one feeling the pain and the
guilt of his actions. He lurks right beneath my skin, and he's always
there, reminding of what I am," Angel almost shouted.
"Like I said before your soul is permanently housed in
your body. It can't leave again, but the demon can. That's
what I've been doing since that day you....well you know.
I've been searching for a cure for vampirism, and I promise
you that if it takes me 1000 years I'll find it, and you know
I always keep my promises," Caitlin choked out.
"Why do you want to waste your life looking for something that
doesn't exist. If no one's found it by now, no one ever will," Angel
said quietly.
"I'm going to find it," she implied sternly.
Angel's eyes glazed over and he drew her into hug.
"I missed you so much," he whispered into her hair.
"I missed you to. Oh, Xander says to tell you, that he doesn't
hate you despite the window incident." Caitlin repeated.
Angel looked at her skeptically for a moment, until realization
dawned on him. Angel smiled and started laughing.
"Xander doesn't hate me? That has got to be a first. I thought
he'd be happy because he actually does have a reason to hate
me now."
"Now tell me something, if Xander does't hate you do you really
think the rest of them do?" Caitlin asked.
"I don't know. Like I said I need to deal with this in my own way.
I don't want to put any of them in danger ever again, especially Buffy."
"Think of it this way, Angelus is the evil twin, and Angel is the
good twin. Blame the guilt on him, it was his fault after all,"
Caitlin smirked.
"You never did cease to amaze me," Angel smiled. "Even
when things are so horrible that laughter seems miles away,
you can always make me laugh."
"Stop, or you'll make me cry." Caitlin pretended to sob.
"Now you have some explaining to do, sister dear. How did
you come to be here, as in not dead."
"Oh, boy. It's a good thing we have forever to live because
this may just take that long."
"Well like you said I have forever, let's hear it," Angel persisted
while taking a comfortable seat on his couch, glad to have
persuaded his sister from continuing their recent conversation.
"But I do have something to do when your done," he added with
a cryptic smile.
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
Buffy was sitting on her bed silently staring at her open math
book, until the ringing of the telephone broke her out of her daze.
"Hello," she greeted.
"Hey, it's Willow. I just wanted to see how you were doing,"
Willow stated concerned.
"I'm doing alright, I guess."
"Has he showed up or called?" she asked.
"No, I think he's avoiding me. You don't know how bad I want
to go see him," Buffy answered.
"I think I do," Willow smiled to herself.
"I'm just glad he's back, and Angelus won't be back to
terrorize us anytime soon," Buffy breathed a sigh of relief.
"Believe me so am I." Willow hurriedly added. "Why don't you
get some sleep, you sound like you could use it, and don't worry
everything will turn out fine. It's just a feeling I have."
"Thanks Will, you're a great friend. Goodnight," Buffy supressed
a yawn.
"Goodnight, Buffy. Sleep tight," Willow responded before
placing the telephone back on its cradle.
Buffy hung up the phone, and slipped into a pair pajamas.
Before laying down in bed she opened her window and glanced
out feeling as if someone was watching her. She smiled slightly
and shook her head. "No, I'm daydreaming again," she whispered
to herself. The past few weeks were finally taking their toll on her,
exhaustion overcame her and she was asleep as soon as her head
hit the pillow.
Little did she know of the lone figure hiding in the shadows
watching her bedroom window, waiting for the lights to go out.
As soon as it did the figure climbed onto the roof and seated
himself outside of her window. The figure stood vigil over her
as she slept, and took comfort in the fact that she was alive
and safe.
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
End of part 9.......to be continued.
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Date: Wed, 01 Apr 1998 18:35:50 EST
From: "Clare H." <teddybartcbh@hotmail.com>
Subject: Re: BUFFYFIC: DISCUSS:
I can also relate. I'm on three (it used to be four) lists, I get a
newsletter once a week, and I used to get three jokes a day, not to
mention my e-mail crazy friends...(but of course I *love* all the
attention!)
Clare
teddybartcbh@hotmail.com
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From: GothGirl77 <GothGirl77@aol.com>
Date: Mon, 30 Mar 1998 19:44:16 EST
To: buffyfic@xmission.com
Subject: Re: BUFFYFIC: DISCUSS:
Reply-To: buffyfic@xmission.com
In a message dated 98-03-29 23:59:15 EST, you write:
<< Ingrid, I'd LOVE the challenge...but unfortunetly I'm already in the
middle of Three Lists, 9 Fanfics plus stuff on the side...do you have
any idea how much e-mail a day you get from 3 Lists? It's HELL, Hehehe.
>>
You know how much mail you get from 3 lists? Try 4 lists! Plus I'm on
the FK
War loop and 8 newsgroups. The amount of messages I read each night is
incredible. Why do I read so many. Cause it's fun!!!!!
Nastassia
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Date: Wed, 1 Apr 1998 17:23:37 -0700
From: "Bernie Baguley" <bbaguley@vic.ozland.net.au>
Subject: BUFFYFIC: Date: Thu, 2 Apr 1998 10:20:53 +1000
unsubscribe
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Date: Thu, 2 Apr 98 01:41:43
From: tabbylink@patrol.i-way.co.uk
Subject: RE: BUFFYFIC: DISCUSS: FORMATTING GUIDELINES
- --- On Tue, 31 Mar 1998 20:40:11 PST "Leslie S."
<leslie_s_@hotmail.com> wrote:
>I am sure that I as well as most of the list
subscribers ignores the
>re-issuance of the list rules on its regular basis.
But I wanted to
>point out that #7 is really important!!!
Yep, this is the one that'll mean I'll need heaps of
help when it comes to posting my story. I'm gonna be
begging more intelligent people to count lines for me!
I'm real stupid when it comes to numbers.
>It is very hard to read a story with irregular line
breaks, so much so
>that often times I will not finish a story.
>
>PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE take a moment to check your
format when sending
>stories to the list.
I am *so* relieved I'm not the only one with this
problem. :) But even more than that I'm incredibly
relieved that I haven't been suspended for forgetting
to put DISCUSS in my headers <blush>. I promise I'll
try to be a model citizen in future. :)
Betzi
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Date: Wed, 1 Apr 1998 20:09:31 EST
From: GothGirl77 <GothGirl77@aol.com>
Subject: Re: BUFFYFIC: That Was The Day 2/2
That was so funny! Xander in a bunny suit! Oh man, they have to do an April
Fool's episode of Buffy. It would be hilarious! This would be perfect for it.
Xander in a bunny suit, man, my face hurts from laughing.
Nastassia
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Date: Wed, 01 Apr 1998 18:43:33 PST
From: "Andrea Newbery" <anewbery@hotmail.com>
Subject: BUFFYFIC: Enough, (1/3) by Andrea
Title:Enough
Author: Andrea Newbery
e-mail: anewbery@hotmail.com
Distribution: sure, as long as I know where.
Rating: PG-13
Spoilers: everything up to KbD
Summary: Definitly a Buffy/Angel story. A resolution to the events of
Innocence though not exactly how I wanted it to go.
Disclaimer: The characters of Angel, Buffy et al. are the property of
Joss Whedon, Mutant Enemy, the WB and whoever elseà No copyright
infringement intended. Please donÆt sue me IÆm already up to my neck in
debt!
Feedback: Please...good, bad, whatever!
Kill him Buffy please. It ran through his head continually, a mantra
of pain. He remembered it so clearly, the demon breaking through, his
soul coming loose from his body. He knew in those few seconds how much
of a mistake it had been to get close to her. The demon would hate her
for that, for the love he felt for her. He expected to disappear thenà
to float without thought like he had the first time. Oh God, the first
time, before heÆd been summoned back and known in an instant the horror
the demon had committed in his name. The crimes he was responsible for,
crimes the demon had enjoyed committing. This time he hadnÆt gone very
far, still floated without form, had to watch the pain the demon
inflicted on her. The words he said to her, the torture the demon put
her and her friends through. These people, good people, who were now
paying for his sins.
Every harsh word she said about him, to him, gave him hope, but thenà
nothing. His body still walked, still torturedàstill killed. The demon
had killed Jenny. This pain was too new, too fresh, he didn't know how
to deal with it. The only thing he understood was that she had to kill
his body. He had thought that the first moments after the gypsy curse
had been painful. They were nothing compared to this; this was his Buffy
the demon was torturing. He did thisà knew it, accepted that the blame
was his, but he hadnÆt known the cost of this love would be so high for
her. It wasnÆt right; he should be the only one to suffer.
The love was fading from her eyes, but not quickly enough. Angelusà heà
would destroy her before that happened. Now that the demon had killed
Jenny, the deaths would only come quicker, giving her less time to
recover, to overcome the guilt. If only he could help her, show her that
it wasnÆt him, that the body held no relation to the man she had loved.
It had to be soon, the demon was working much quicker than he had
thought he would. He should have done this sooner but he had held on to
the hope she would find a way to get back, to re-curse him. That had
died with Jenny. She had to kill the demonà soon.
He thought about trying to appear in her dreams but she was already
using him to explain things for herself.
He needed to summon every last ounce of his strength, his will and most
of all his love for her, to get his message through. A message through
the watcher, the person she trusted most, given during the day, by the
window. He knew it would be hard for Giles to see his face but he had no
choice. A voice without form was to easily explained away.
ôGiles...ö He formed a vision of himself, a hologram with no real
substance. He hoped it would be enough.
ôAngel... itÆs daytime... how?ö
He had to come in the day. To make sure they would now it was him and
that he was separate; so Giles could believe it was he and not the demon
who had killed his love.
ôShe has to understand Giles, IÆm not in that body, IÆm already gone. He
has to die, please Giles, he has to die.ö His words came out in a rush
tripping over each other in his hurry to make him understand before time
ran out. He had to make him understand, so he could help her, so she
could know it was okay. He wanted her to kill his body, needed her to
kill it. The watcher had to convince her. It had to be enough.
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Date: Wed, 01 Apr 1998 18:45:25 PST
From: "Andrea Newbery" <anewbery@hotmail.com>
Subject: BUFFYFIC: Enough (2/3) by Andrea
Title:Enough
Author: Andrea Newbery
e-mail: anewbery@hotmail.com
Distribution: sure, as long as I know where.
Rating: PG-13
Spoilers: everything up to KbD
Summary: Definitly a Buffy/Angel story. A resolution to the events of
Innocence though not exactly how I wanted it to go.
Disclaimer: The characters of Angel, Buffy et al. are the property of
Joss Whedon, Mutant Enemy, the WB and whoever elseà No copyright
infringement intended. Please donÆt sue me IÆm already up to my neck in
debt!
Feedback: Please...good, bad, whatever!
He felt her first, the love, then the fear.
ôGet away from himö So cold, to feel hate from her.
ôBuffy, itÆsàitÆs our Angel, itÆs daytime, itÆs his soul.ö
She collapsed thenà oh God what had he done? He only wanted to help and
he couldnÆt even touch her, he was just a vision, an apparition. He had
no body to pull hers off the floor with. She was here now and maybe that
was for the best. Since she had seen him, maybe he could convince her it
had to be done, she had to let him go. Oh God, he would never touch her
again, hold her again, the pain rocketed through his whole being as the
enormity of what they had lost took hold. He missed her so much but
there was no way back, to undo what had been done. He had to make her
see, help her to forgive herself. She had to understand that all blame
was his alone.
ôAngelö her voiceà.
ôIÆm here, IÆm free now Buffy. IÆm sorry, I didnÆt want to leave you, I
never want to leave you but he has to die. I have to die, please; heÆll
only get worse. He wants to destroy you, kill everyone you know. Now
that heÆs started heÆll kill quicker, be more evil, please, kill himö
ôButàö
ôNo, Buffy, there is no buts, no escape clause for us, remember how much
I love you, how happy we were, that night. One hundred years of torture
were worth it, for me, in that moment. DonÆt blame yourself, itÆs my
fault; it always was. I had no right to be loved and I let you do it
anyway and IÆm sorry.ö
Was he getting through to her, he was weakening, only his love, his
determination that she would not pay anymore for his sins held him
there, visible.
ô Let me carry the burden Buffy, you kill him. ItÆs not me, IÆm gone and
there is no way backà I couldnÆt go back.ö
ôButà Angel, I love you, if we could re-curse you, restore your soul, we
could à.ö
ôNO! Buffy, youÆve seen the demon, he has to be stopped. There is no
time for anything else, heÆs already killed Jenny, heÆll go after the
rest of them soon, pleaseà.ö
ôAngelàö
She was weakening now, seeing the truth, coming to know as he had that
hope for them was gone now, they would not be together again. His
thoughts screamed at him, how could he have done this to her, what right
did he have to love, but later, he would hate himself later. For now, he
had to finish it, convince her, however he could.
ôBuffy, please I see everything he does, I feel what he feels, he is
pure evil, but IÆm tethered to him until my body is gone. I have to
watch what he does, who he kills, what he says to you. It hurts me as
much as it hurts you, Iàö
ôO.K.ö Thank you God, Thank you.
ôI will love you foreverö He was fading now, his sense of relief so
strong.
ôIÆll never forget you Angel, never forget how much I love you, IÆll
always belong to youö
ôBuffy, you gave me love, acceptance and trust when I deserve nothing,
you gave me hope in an existence of doom and now you are giving me
freedom, I am yours.ö
ôAngel, donÆt go yetàö He was invisible to her now, and he waited to see
if she could do it, if she understoodà if he had killed her last ray of
hope.
He watched her, realizing it was the first time he had seen her in the
sunlight, his soul ached for her, for the completeness she gave him. He
knew and accepted that some crimes can never be forgiven. When his body
died he would be dragged into hell along with the demon that inhabited
his body. It would be enough for the moments of love, to see the love in
her eyes, the faith in him, vampire, killer of his family. He deserved
his fate, wanted it, to free her from the demon's torture and the fate
that awaited her if his body lived. Whatever torture could be devised
for him could never be worse than her suffering. She had loved him, saw
the good in him, gave herself to him; the wonder of it still awed him.
She would not pay anymore for the love she had given him.
She smiled then and looked to where he had appeared. ôIÆll do itö she
whispered ôIÆll free you from him because I love you to much to try to
bring you back to pay for his crimes, to feel guilt for him.ö
Even now her only thoughts were of his pain, could he have been given a
greater gift?
ôAnd when itÆs over, my tour of duty as the slayer, when it ends as we
all know it will, in the way we all know it will, youÆd better be there
waiting for me. I got gypped in this life but IÆm going to get eternity
with you. I still believe we are meant to be togetherö
Oh Buffy, I wishàbut I have to pay for my crimes.
ôI know youÆre probably thinking that youÆll be going to hell, but why?
You are you and the demon is the demon, youÆre not him and youÆve
suffered more than enough for a choice you made as a young man. I
believe that we will be together again and that will get me throughö
With that she collapsed into the chair. He watched Giles comfort her
and prayed to a God he had betrayed to keep her safe. She was quiet
until just before dusk and then she got up grim-faced and turned to
Giles, ôTonight Giles, I have to free him tonight, while IÆm still
strong enough to let him go.ö
Please God, give her the strength to kill him. Let this afternoon be
enough to convince her that I can never go back, we can never go back.
He felt the tugging start then like he was a kite being pulled in. The
demon was waking. He couldnÆt get very far from him when he was awake,
was forced to watch his body kill, torture, another punishment for the
choice he had made as a young man. Sometimes it felt so unfair, he
hadnÆt known what the consequences would be, this torture would never
end for him. For Buffy, though, it could end tonight, she could stop
paying for his crimes along side him.
He waited in the factory hoping she would do it tonight. Angelus was
alone with Spike and Spike was in no condition to help him. The demon
would never expect her to go on the offensive, to seek him out, to come
to his lair. He thought she was still held back by the memory of her
Angel.
ôAngelö She stood in the doorway, a vision in white, sending him off
with style. He watched as she fought him, completely focused on
finishing it, on killing him. The demon had been caught off guard; heÆd
had no intention of killing her anytime soon. She fought well, clean,
quick, no emotion. This was the last thing she could do for her love. He
knew it as the demon felt the first stirring of fear, as his taunts of
her had no effect.
He smiled, so proud of her courage and sacrifice. She pushed the stake
in finally, with little fanfare and watched as the body of the man she
loved turn to dust. She was free... his punishment was no longer hers.
The string was broken and for the first time in over 200 years his soul
was completely free. With all his strength he reached out and touched
her face, ôI love you." She cried then, he watched as she released
every hidden hope she had for a reprieve from fate or God or whoever. He
waited as she calmed down and stood up, "IÆll see you again Angel,
remember I love youö. She walked out of the factory, a vision in white,
his angel, the only one he would ever see.
He waited, for the demons to come and carry him off to hell, happy that
his body, his voice wouldnÆt torture her anymore. He followed her to her
home, into her bedroom, still waiting to be taken away.
He watched as she put the cross he gave her on, then the ring. She
smiled, a sad smile for a lost love, but no longer full of guilt and
pain. She spoke to him then; ôWe had something special Angel, something
worth having. It will go on, someday, somewhere, we will be together
again. I know this with all my soul. I may love again in this world,
but my soul belongs to yours for all eternityö.
He cried then his whole soul aching for what they had and what it had
cost them, cost her. He cried for the love that burned so steadily in
her eyes, the same love that seared itself onto his very being. He
barely noticed as the room filled with a wonderful light. He slowly
became aware of a presence, another spirit, full of goodness and hope.
He watched as it approached him, taking the form of a man as it did. A
vision of a perfectly good man, with such kindness shining through he
could barely look. This vision was talking to him, without words,
telling him it was okay. Telling him the guilt wasnÆt his, it never had
been, he had made a wrong choice as a young man but he didnÆt have to
pay for eternity. None of the cruel acts committed by the demon were
his. Oh, if only it were true, and this vision was saying it was and
that he had to go with him, it would all be okay now. He had to leave
Buffy.
He turned and saw her watching him, them, in awe. She smiled and sent
him off freely with a love so pure it rolled into his soul like waves
traveling through him, never leaving. He reached out to her and gained
enough form to hold her close, smooth back her hair and kiss her
good-bye.
It was enough.
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Date: Wed, 01 Apr 1998 18:47:35 PST
From: "Andrea Newbery" <anewbery@hotmail.com>
Subject: BUFFYFIC: Enough, (3/3) by Andrea
Title:Enough
Author: Andrea Newbery
e-mail: anewbery@hotmail.com
Distribution: sure, as long as I know where.
Rating: PG-13
Spoilers: everything up to KbD
Summary: Definitly a Buffy/Angel story. A resolution to the events of
Innocence though not exactly how I wanted it to go.
Disclaimer: The characters of Angel, Buffy et al. are the property of
Joss Whedon, Mutant Enemy, the WB and whoever elseà No copyright
infringement intended. Please donÆt sue me IÆm already up to my neck in
debt!
Feedback: Please...good, bad, whatever!
She walked through the graveyard, sure-footed, secure in her abilities.
In the five years since Angel she had become more committed to her
destiny. Seeing it not only as ridding the world of evil but also of
rescuing the souls of the bodies the demons had stolen. Freeing them as
she knew Angel was free. She felt his presence close to her tonight, she
always did when she was in real danger. He still tried to protect her,
still gave his strength to her, so she could live, continue to fulfill
her destiny.
She talked to him often, telling him of her life. There was so much he
had missed, Xander and Cordelia's wedding, Oz and Willow's new Computer
Company. She told him of Giles and his new love, and how happy they
were. She told him of her parents rediscovering one another. There was
so much happiness in her life, so much love. She didnÆt regret, couldnÆt
regret, loving him, even now, when she was alone, his presence still too
large in her life to have room for anyone else. She was happy with her
life, her friends, even her duty, but her soul wouldnÆt be complete
until she was with him again.
It was her birthday tonight, twenty-two, the same age as Angel was when
he died, was made a vampire. Five years since they joined together as
one, it was all fitting somehow.
It was over for her tonight, this life. She had accomplished a lot in
the five years since she had lost him.
Spike and Drusilla were long dead along with the majority of the
vampires who had called Sunnydale home. She had killed countless other
demons and even had two years of college under her belt. She hadnÆt been
afraid when Giles had read the prophecy that foretold her death on her
twenty-second birthday. Since seeing Angel go into the light, for lack
of a better description, she had known everything would be okay. If she
died tonight Angel would be waiting for her, if she lived he would still
wait. They had eternity to be together, she didnÆt have to rush.
She prepared though, told everyone what she needed to, finished writing
up her version of the slayer diaries.
She prayed for the strength to do her duty and then she proudly went to
face her death.
It came in the form of a group of the MasterÆs minions who had been
planning this revenge for six years. She fought well, killed them all
but the damage to her body was more than it could recover from. Giles,
Willow and Xander all gathered around and said their final good-byes.
Her Angel came then, a vision of himself surrounded by light and her
soul lifted to stand beside him, öDonÆt be sad, please, IÆm finally
complete again. Rejoice in my life, our accomplishments, and the evil we
erased from this earth. Remember our friendship and how much we love
each other. IÆm with Angel now, enjoy your lives, your loves as much as
I enjoy the love I have."
She turned to him then, reached out her hand and he folded her into him.
Such love from him, it filled every inch of who she was, as her love had
filled him. He smiled at her, a full smile with no guilt, no regrets,
just joy and love.
They all heard them laughing as their light faded away and disappeared.
It floated lightly on the air surrounding them and they sat together and
listened.
It was enough.
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Date: Wed, 1 Apr 1998 20:49:11 -0500
From: ingrid29@juno.com (Ingrid E Stanton)
Subject: BUFFYFIC: DISCUSS: Answer this challenge, everybody!
To whom it may concern-
Since Aurelia is busy with her many in-progress Buffyfics, I would like
to present my challenge to anyone who feels up to it. Here goes...
CHALLENGE: How 'bout some Angel/Willow fic? Sure, I know it's weird, but
so was Spike/Willow. If a good writer gets hold of this, the impossible
becomes a really cool story. I call it experimentation.
- -Ingrid: Author of many long Buffyfics (and some short ones). "Return to
Normalcy,"
"One Vampire's Headache...," "This Fleeting Hope," "Ghost of a Chance,"
"Tragic
Sighs" and "Footsteps."
Oh! BTW, I've been working on my "ten years into the future" story, in
case anyone was wondering. I'm working on the fourth part right now, but
I want to get well into it before I start sending it to the list. Can you
say 'pressure?' =)
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Date: Wed, 1 Apr 1998 22:58:36 -0800
From: taygeta@juno.com (Charity C Tran)
Subject: Re: BUFFYFIC: DISCUSS: Answer this challenge, everybody!
On Wed, 1 Apr 1998 20:49:11 -0500 ingrid29@juno.com (Ingrid E Stanton)
writes:
>To whom it may concern-
>Since Aurelia is busy with her many in-progress Buffyfics, I would
>like to present my challenge to anyone who feels up to it. Here
>goes...
>
>CHALLENGE: How 'bout some Angel/Willow fic? Sure, I know it's weird,
>but so was Spike/Willow. If a good writer gets hold of this, the
>impossible becomes a really cool story. I call it experimentation.
>-Ingrid: Author of many long Buffyfics (and some short ones). "Return
>to Normalcy,"
>"One Vampire's Headache...," "This Fleeting Hope," "Ghost of a
>Chance," "Tragic
>Sighs" and "Footsteps."
>
>Oh! BTW, I've been working on my "ten years into the future" story, in
>case anyone was wondering. I'm working on the fourth part right now,
>but I want to get well into it before I start sending it to the list.
>Can you say 'pressure?' =)
I'll take the challenge, but whether it will be good fanfic or totally
reek to no end is debatable. I'm brainstorming as I type.
Taygeta 8~) (Taygeta@juno.com)
Writer of "The Chronicles of the White Knight"
Writer of "Capeside: the Hellmouth"
Writer of "Beyond the Creek"
"Xander's lips met hers, softly and gently, and all Buffy could think
about was that this was wow and a whole lot more." - from "Chronicles of
the White Knight #5 In the Hands of Astarte
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Date: Thu, 2 Apr 1998 06:47:08 -0800
From: taygeta@juno.com (Charity C Tran)
Subject: BUFFYFIC: Re: Discussion: Challenge
On Wed, 1 Apr 1998 20:49:11 -0500 ingrid29@juno.com (Ingrid E Stanton)
writes:
>
>CHALLENGE: How 'bout some Angel/Willow fic?
I'll take the challenge, but whether it will be good fanfic or totally
reek to no end is debatable. I'm brainstorming as I type.
Taygeta 8~) (Taygeta@juno.com)
Writer of "The Chronicles of the White Knight"
Writer of "Capeside: the Hellmouth"
Writer of "Beyond the Creek"
"Xander's lips met hers, softly and gently, and all Buffy could think
about was that this was wow and a whole lot more." - from "Chronicles of
the White Knight #5 In the Hands of Astarte
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Date: Thu, 2 Apr 1998 18:06:37 EST
From: Jaclyn Amy <JaclynAmy@aol.com>
Subject: BUFFYFIC: BUFFYFIC
I Dreamed A Dream (1/1)
by Jaclyn Amy
TITLE: I Dreamed A Dream
AUTHOR: Jaclyn Amy
DISCLAIMER: I do not own the rights or characters to Buffy the Vampire Slayer
or Les Miserables. Buffy the Vampire Slayer is owned by Joss Wheden, 20th
Century Fox, Sandollar Productions, etc. "I Dreamed a Dream" is owned by Alain
Boublil, Claude-Michael Schonberg, etc. No infringement intended.
DISTRIBUTION: Ask me first.
RATING: PG
SPOILERS: None.
SUMMARY: AngelÆs soul has been taken from him, and he is now Angelus. He has
killed Ms. Calendar and caused Buffy a great deal of pain. Buffy is upset and
distressed at his torture.
FEEDBACK: Please!!! This is my first fanfic, so be nice.
Well, here it goesà..
There was a time when men were kind
When their voices were soft
And their words inviting
There was a time when love was blind
And the world was a song
And the song was exciting
There was a time
Then it all went wrong
It has been three years, and I still sometimes wakeup and think Angel is
here. I can still feel his arms around me, and when I close my eyes, I can
still see his face. I play his voice in my head over and over until tears fill
my eyes. It shouldÆve gotten easier over time. The pain shouldÆve left. As the
Slayer, I should not still be mourning. But I canÆt help but think of when he
and I were a couple, madly in love. When everything was wonderful. When I
counted the minutes until I saw him. But that is gone.
I dreamed a dream in times gone by
When hope was high
And life worth living
I dreamed that love would never die
I dreamed that God would be forgiving
Then I was young and unafraid
And dreams were made and used and wasted
There was no ransom to be paid
No song unsung
No wine untasted
I remember when I thought that nothing could separate us. I was so young and
blind. I never imagined what kind of pain that life could put you through. I
thought my duty was such a terrible fate. I thought love would last forever;
we would be together forever. I dreamed that I would spend every night in his
bed. I dreamed that he would always be there to help me solve a problem or
kiss my tears away. I was so oblivious of lifeÆs cruelties. I took for granted
the fact that I could see him every day. Life was perfect.
But the tigers come at night
With their voices soft as thunder
As they tear your hope apart
And they turn your dream to shame
He slept a summer by my side
He filled my days with endless wonder
He took my childhood in his stride
But he was gone when autumn came
But it couldnÆt last. No, life had to take him away. Life took my dreams
away. I couldnÆt live a life of happines. I remember my seventeen birthday
night so vividly. We had run through the rain to his appartment after facing
the Judge. The pain of a cut I had was emence. "Take off you shirt," he had
ordered. I followed his command. "ItÆs already closed up." We kissed the most
passionate kiss. "Buffy, maybe we shouldnÆt-"
"Just kiss me." He did just thatàand more. It was the best experience of my
life, and by far the most memorable. His sweet kisses, his gentle hands, the
words "I love you." I do not regret making love to him; only the unknown
consequences that had come with it. I had lay in his arms all night, but when
I awoke, he was gone. Little did I know, it would be forever.
And still I dream he'll come to me
That we will live the years together
But there are dreams that cannot be
And there are storms we cannot weather
I had a dream my life would be
So different from this hell I'm living
So different now from what it seemed
Now life has killed
The dream I dreamed
My first instinct when there is a problem still is to run to him. I hope that
one day, he will come back and we will finish our lives together. But that
canÆt and wonÆt ever happen. I know that Angel is gone, and there isnÆt
anything I can do to bring him back. I can still hope, though. I think hope is
the only thing that keeps me alive. Hope and love. Though my life is so
different from the way I desired, I canÆt let it affect my future. Life is
bitch; IÆve learned to accept it. But IÆll never accept that he is gone. I
love him, but IÆm on my own. Life has killed the dream I dream.
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I Dreamed A Dream
There was a time when men were kind
When their voices were soft
And their words inviting
There was a time when love was blind
And the world was a song
And the song was exciting
There was a time
Then it all went wrong
I dreamed a dream in times gone by
When hope was high
And life worth living
I dreamed that love would never die
I dreamed that God would be forgiving
Then I was young and unafraid
And dreams were made and used and wasted
There was no ransom to be paid
No song unsung
No wine untasted
But the tigers come at night
With their voices soft as thunder
As they tear your hope apart
And they turn your dream to shame
He slept a summer by my side
He filled my days with endless wonder
He took my childhood in his stride
But he was gone when autumn came
And still I dream he'll come to me
That we will live the years together
But there are dreams that cannot be
And there are storms we cannot weather
I had a dream my life would be
So different from this hell I'm living
So different now from what it seemed
Now life has killed
The dream I dreamed
The End
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Date: Thu, 2 Apr 1998 18:14:43 EST
From: G90210 <G90210@aol.com>
Subject: Re: BUFFYFIC: BUFFYFIC
this was really good, it had me on the verge of tears. i think, you should do
a follow up to that, where you have Angel come back(can never get enough of
thoughs) because you seem very good with telling how she was feeling.
~mInDy
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Date: Thu, 2 Apr 1998 18:27:23 EST
From: Jaclyn Amy <JaclynAmy@aol.com>
Subject: BUFFYFIC: Thanks
Thanks, mInDy. I don't think I'm going to do a follow up on that one, but I'm
starting a new one called Star-Crossed Lovers that will definately show
Buffy's feelings. But reader beware, it's going to be pretty sad.
- -Jaclyn
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Date: Thu, 2 Apr 1998 20:22:13 EST
From: GothGirl77 <GothGirl77@aol.com>
Subject: Re: BUFFYFIC: I Dreamed A Dream (1/1)
This was great! I love stories that use song lyrics, and yours was very well
written. From one fanfic newbie to another, keep it up! It's fun and all the
feedback is a total ego boost!
Nastassia
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