If you are scared that you may commit suicide, and you don’t want to, there may be more options than you realize. Even if, like me, you distrust mental health services, it’s worth calling Suicide Prevention—where anonymous volunteers who have undergone rigorous, compassionate training will talk with you about your problems and possible alternatives to suicide. They’re listed under that name in the phone book white pages, or call the American Association of Suicidology at (303) 692-0985.