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The following's copyrights are waved for
electronic text only. Any printed media
versions of all or part is a violation of
copyright law. Duplication of this text
by electronic means is restricted to
distribution with READDX (Scandere Reader)
as the primary viewer, even in such cases
where this program is not compatible with
other (non PC compatible) systems. The
purpose of this distribution is to
demonstrate attributes of the above
mentioned program with regards to certain
types of literature.
pentacle
By Jared P. DuBois
(c) Copyright 1990, 94 Jared P. DuBois
Contents
Part 1
- Starry-eyed and Boisterous - Plateau
- The Imposter - Never have I lived
- Outgrown Innocence - Temporarily Occupied
- In My prime - Regrets
- To Wit - Now is the time
- Aimed to Wander - What was then
- Contemplating Freedom
Part 2
- Waiting - My Country
- Distance Closes In - Askance Anew
- Waking - How Tastes Truth
- Ever unexpectedly, joy - Every Word
- Time Again - Tomorrow
- In Ignorance - The Sun
- Where within deceit
Part 3
-Falling through time
-Distant Shores
-Vestabur (Short Version)
Part 1
Starry-eyed and Boisterous
Starry-eyed and boisterous
I soar higher than my imagination flies
eagerly meeting heavenly surprises
before my tottering rationale and reasonings
are again able to catch up with me
Without a net I glide ever higher
without fear of ever again falling below
for fall I shall and fall I shall soon
as no bird or man can escape the dirt
which commands thee and me to return home
Plummeting is the only return left for me
as I have been away too long to long retain
the life of those bound to the ground
solid and stoic yet not without its advantages
such as never going beyond reaching safe returns
So soar I shall in my final few days
forever reaching after what is and isn't there
in the mists of clouds of mystery and wonder
rolling over the world that was never really mine
as seen from above in bewilderment and awe
The Imposter
Deftly weaving fact with fiction,
the charlatan spins a myth to life
filling the need for fools to be fooled
enthralling those who long for mystique
with a tale more vivid than truth itself
Pulling the many away from light of day
he entertains them in his twilight world
where shadows and that which casts them meet,
where one can forever take with none being taken,
and fortune and fate await the unfaithful
When sweeter yet comes the lies over bitter truths
the deceiver himself becomes a sheep within the herd
being swept along by tinder boxes of tarnished dreams
beaconing to the many to cherish false hopes
before plunging off the cliffs of denial at the obvious
From the graves rise all the victims of self deception
yet the soul of the imposter lies nowhere to be found,
so artful was he at convincing all eyes they did not see
with the vision needed to surmount the edges convolux
that he saw not himself by them nor they he by any morsel of the truth
Outgrown Innocence
Damned are they who damn us thus
wreaking havoc on our tranquil worlds
destroying the lives and the minds
of all those who cannot successfully oppose or accept them
while making us who can and do accept them
share the guilt of their bloody deeds
Standing still, looking the other way,
busying ourselves with our lives and children,
none of these things can absolve us
of the perpetuation of injustice and brutal viciousness
inherent in every facet of our 'peaceful' societies
for each part makes possible each atrocity
Survival but at what cost we wonder
while each day learning how high that cost climbs
for knowledge brings only more responsibilities
to be shunned if we are to continue on and prosper
in an ever more arid and poisonous environment
killing all those whose lives possess real value
In My Prime
I see myself in my minds eye
in my youth stout and strong
and in my prime
too untamed and too untried
not to think that all the world
could be bent towards my will
by my pride
Wary now, I seldom wander
to find fulfillment of futile goals
lying ever yonder
yet in my heart and in my dreams
I am still a fool eagerly awaiting
opportunity to cast away my wisdom
if sorrow it means
Is ignorance bliss, I wonder
debating whether incremental time
is some cosmic blunder
for when age brings us acquiescence
for lessening roles in lesser ambitions
we still believe we are more and have more
as we lose faith in our essence
To Wit
Yea, how the tables become turned
by the clever ones deftly defying criticism
for the abuses or misuses of their powers
by exalting the common man who succeeded
in helping others near or during their rein
thus 'proving' that goodness always flourishes
and those who cannot see it are blind
Shies, the contemptuous praises be
as the praiseworthy are owed their acclamation
to the very perpetrators whose life long wrongs
they sought with their very lives to undue,
fated to have the enemies of their passions
eulogize to all their struggles and erst
putting it in a perspective void of truth
Better they be not to be named or known
than to have their virtues so valiantly to be sung
when hence the very meanings they bestow
become tangled in minds by subversive retellings
and having their chaste deeds done for good and all
used to make good men doubt their own good will
removing aspersions aimed at more obvious targets
Aimed to Wander
Be it poetic justice
that they who give freely
and ask for nothing should receive nothing
enduring greater pains
and paler pleasures
Causes of dissention
so rigorously demeaning of trust
break the back of that which fosters them
for meaningless is he who rebels
once all the tyrants lay dead
Marks of virtue
show not upon the brow
of he who lies buried in his work
for rare is that he is even to been seen
and rarer still to be heard
Dead is that man
who loses himself so completely
into his quests he leaves no space to compass
what deeds may survive many a fortnight
and attain relevancy
Plateau
I stand in the same place in the same body
with only a few memories added or lost
and though nothing here is visibly different,
nothing here to me looks at all the same
A few opinions changed can change entire outlooks
as mine is not what it was, lest not what I remember it to be
Values added and naive buffoonery lost convince me
that what is lost has nothing over that which is gained
as maturity carries with it ingrained superiority
saving me from feeling now I am tomorrow's ignoramus
Standing still yet in the midst of my life as it was
drives home the fact that I see not with the same eyes
nor shall simple pleasures and simpler notions of purpose
again stall my timeless voyage into that elusive eternal beyond
Never have I lived
Never have I lived
strange as that is to say
yet never have I given myself
completely over to circumstance
and the happenings I endure detachedly
in a somewhat off-handed abstract way
I have cried
and endure heartache immeasurable
so to this misfortune I am indebted
for giving me what little vissitudes of life have I
but never would I dare romanticize this or life itself
for if pain is all that is real then reality is duly overrated
Can the unliving die
or have they any way to know
when it comes or how it is any different
than bidding ones time waiting for its arrival
not out of hope nor longing nor anger at the life
which makes one curious enough to live and recompentant enough to die
Temporarily Occupied
In an unwashed somewhat opaque window
a vacancy sign dangles as if anyone really cares
for out on the windswept streets
of this dusty dingy little town
it was a might rare when anyone cared to stay awhile
Yet even the most unlikely events will someday happen
and one day one particular woman decided she needed
one of those unwanted rooms
which waited day after day in vain
to serve any purpose other than taking up space gathering dust
The immensity of Texas looms larger ever yet
when viewed from a room only slightly bigger than closets
and such was her sight
as she awoke the very next day
to find herself where so few had longed to be
With an energy that seemed greatly out of place there
she bounded through her morning routine zestfully
eager to broach upon a new life
in a town more comfortable with slow death
languishing in the loss of industry, its youth, and interest
Though the spirit of the town was gravely ill
this deterred that young woman not one single bit
as she made haste to find the saloon
and declare to the owner its stark void
of a singer as beautiful and talented as she said of she
Having had her perform and seeing nothing new
he declined her offer with another one of his own,
that of waiting on tables
paying barely minimum wage
plus a percentage of her tips less what he kept himself
In too mean a disposition to refute his offer entirely
she accepted given the chance she could one day perform
before what here passed for a crowd
in a corner saloon where no one came
except when passing through save they who called it home
The regulars at that place were anything but
as each seemed a character frozen from another time
as a partial list included the likes
of an aged gangster from prohibition,
a box toting peddler of old, and a gypsy complete with ball
It was there the young siren came to be day to day
serving drinks to those who often wished to be elsewhere,
she included though on this fact
she knew better than to let her mind dwell
while doing her best to do what little was expected of her
On a busy night comprised of all of fifteen people
the owner gave her the chance to perform her songs
from a slightly out of tune piano
there for the occasional drunkard
to bang out a few poorly sung half-forgotten drinking songs
With a voice too fine for such a rough crowd
as the rowdies who dominate the place every Saturday night,
the lilting melody of true harmony
was drowned out by cat calls and jests
which shook the very core of her unflinching fortitude
With her spirit dimmed as bleak as her surroundings
she cried her heart out in that tiny lifeless hotel room
lit momentarily by the vigor of youth
driven to pursue necessary dreams,
hoping to rise above those personal straits surrounding them
Again empty the next day, the room was cleaned
now ready to begin that long wait for a tenant
to seek what little recompense
that such a barren room has to offer
set in the middle of whatever circumstances one finds oneself
Regrets
Looking back you say 'Hey,
things might have gone another way',
but could they or should they you wonder aloud
none to proud of having allowed the tragedy you see
by hiding or siding with those whose clothes
tell all that anyone needs to hear
Listening still until the thrill becomes a chill
you know that unless success is vested upon the best
this world has not any pearls to twirl
nor any freedom to hold
Holding yet to your regrets
you forget your mind finds only the times
you failed under the pale light of day
to say what of then only to beget again
those sorrows which you so justly feel
Giving way to the tide of lost pride
to yourself you confide that nothing can hide
your shame now aflame too tempting to tame
yet through your blaze's haze you now gaze upon
that dawn of knowing and growing while unknowingly sowing
those seeds beneath your feet upon which you shall reap
that heap of goodness remorse brings to life
Now is the time
Now is the time which threatens us all,
threatens to destroy the spirit within Man's soul,
poisoned by the raw bestiality unleashed
dished out to mankind and dished out by mankind
for despite all that we have and have done
we have not yet risen above indiscriminate vengeance
wrought because we suffer greater still yet
and only seemed destined to suffer ever more
Lest we see all hope lain bare
what reason have we not to pray the worst,
not to wish that this vicious vile end nearing
bests the eternal war without and within us
for no victory or loss can ever vanquish
our heartfelt desire to at last enjoy peace
grating sorely against the coarseness
of our predestined battles against our own nature
In the depths of our fears and angers
where the dank acrid air suffocates all joy,
may we pause to feel deep within our bones
that though life may no longer be worth living
we live still yet and still yet we dare
proclaim to the universe that we know better
how life should be and how good we can be
if ever again we regain the means to make it so
What was then
Looking back on life
who'd have ever thought
that I would be to say
what it was if I am not
now that the fullest sense of me
exists not or in some other way
Was it really real
I feel I cannot know
if I am to be what I've become
and master this new means to grow
as unfamiliar to me as I to myself
wondering if my past and future can live as one
Can meaning exist without facts
for those facts upon which I have relied
to tell me what and who I've been
exist not to me now if ever they lived and died
and if they never lived at all, then neither did I
yet somehow I am and maybe though not in me, in someone them
Contemplating Freedom
Wondering where wistfulness went
my mind briefly yet sagaciously moves
to a time when I thought not of myself
before doing and maybe, before being
letting not preconception deny experience
Why is it now inconceivable to me
to stand naked on the roof beneath the stars,
to run gaily through the fields rolling with life
and not think myself an ass for loving life
so much as to engage in harmless foolish fun
Where what becomes what for and why not why
is where who I have come to be has since lost me
in the trees whose protective leaves let no one see
the boy inside the man, the girl behind the woman,
loving what little spontaneity we're still graciously allowed
The constraints are mine to have or have not
and respect the invisible instigation to keep hold,
to keep in check that urge to burst out laughing
whenever we feel we've stepped into the absurd
yet absurdity lies at the heart of all around us
only now sorrow has replaced the joy
Part 2
Waiting
Waiting for the perfect moment
when all of the stars align
and rapture lies only just behind
that moment creeping up slowly
from the soul up into the mind
Waiting while thousands pass
before you though you are blind
seeing only what is yet to come,
seeing only that some-other time
which you might never live to find
Waiting while wondering why
you wait to live but not to die
leaving all of the living left behind
walking through today seeing only tomorrow
with yesterday's dreams still driving your eyes
Waiting without even knowing
or knowing but not caring, you die
each day a thousand deaths, a thousand lies
for perfection lay in each hour, each minute
with only your conception of it to give it its disguise
Distance Closes In
Distance closes in
and horizons once seemingly endless
become known, and being known, uninteresting
as the playpen to the room,
the room to the yard, the yard to the street, ad infinitum
The planet, being known
thus becomes to small to frame us
so we search out new limits to our view
and overlook the unknowns at home
in our cities, our streets, in our peoples, and in ourselves
Infinity itself collapses
under the weight of impressive stares
as if to say what else can I do, what more can I give
and we ourselves, not knowing, merely shrug
and walk away saying we only thought there'd be more
Seeking to know
yet with knowing, eventually disappointed
wondering why at all it is ever so important to know
though we know without need to learn
with truth we may still live in a cage, a playpen, but it becomes our own
Waking
Wherever went the mystery
upon waking each new day
enthralled by want and wonder
and fear and apprehension
moved to tears, then to bliss, then back again
as if each were one and the same
Clutching at the past for clues
as to what might go wrong or right today,
daring to court disappointment,
hoping against hope to hope yet again
for who or what is to say what is hopeless
when life itself is begun in dreams
Again alive the umpteenth thousandth time
you always wake to familiar surroundings
and even strangers hold fewer surprises,
not daring life for you know life too well,
holding fast to the civilist of paths
and leaving the wilderness to the wood
Yet life is not to be bargained with or upon
and false securities inevitably shatter
for the dangerousness, the uncertainty must prevail
for only they hold claim upon tomorrow's tomorrow
and with them whatever blessings go
for us to know would be to rob our dreams
Ever unexpectedly, joy
Without the fire in the belly,
the gleam in the eye,
the pensiveness of the mind
driving me ever to new heights
I revel in the quietude
seeking to master the sublime
Ever unexpectedly, joy
without cause or
without reason for celebration
comes crashing through the door
seeking to reinsinuate itself
as its own instigation
Ambition, easily confused
upon seeing the changing wind
seeks to shy away, to fade to the rear
sensing confrontation with elation too risky
for want is to contentment
too truly its greatest fear
Time again
Never is ever ever enough
for life itself is in the extreme
surpassing itself time and time again
for that it is
and for that must it always be
as this or that comes to rule
each moment becoming that time
while chaos itself reigns supreme
for all that may no matter what, no matter when
must bow to this
Time becomes time again
defining itself anew each resurgent light
as all of creation falls down to this
until it was
and then never again would it, could it be
paved over by insatiable lust for life
driving those others over that which drove it
seeking to become that moment, become that life
which by turns gives life and feeds off of it
living by giving what does
In Ignorance
In ignorance I look to the sky
sensing some higher order, some higher mind
as yet unknownst to me so I pass it by
enjoying peace and pleasure and like in kind
for place untold cannot bind
In ignorance I live each day without fear
oblivious to death omnipresently everywhere
in each potently deadly soul be they far or be they near
for life and death and consequence we each share
needing to be needing, being to dare
So to life leave to mystery and to death leave the facts
so cold and unchanging written in black upon black
for living is standing with the truth to our backs
facing the yet-to-be true, the ever changing track
surmounting the known with each little act
Thinking meaning existed then, or when, or ever
we see ourselves as lost and forever wandering blind
yet to see truth as evolving becoming full truly never
is to accept ignorance as a fact, a mean state of mind
knowing all knowing soon succumbs to time
My Country
Hail to thee, my country
Born as Athens, then again as Rome
never a nobler conqueror this world has known
engaging and enslaving others by ideals alone
hoping they may be as free as we may be
May our God be as forgiving of we
all too often led by our power gone astray
yet bold we must be for it is only our way
and only courageous assurance will rule this day
and make destiny bow to thee
Should all men be living free
may our many errors in their true light be shown
and be judged by those whose responsibilities for themselves match our own
for what we did, right or wrong, by it they will have grown
enough to see how better it should be
Askance Anew
Given in to taking,
demanding what is not offered,
for what in life will life give
to he who is not prepared to receive,
not ready to turn over every stone,
called forth by what fates might await
those who never will to settle
Receiving all that satisfies
serves only to whet ones appetite anew
for tastes as yet untried,
gains as yet ungarnered,
by those who long only to do
and by doing to be that which does,
having in using, gaining by spending
Taken in again
by the sorted thrill of the chase
to gain that which mystifies
before its novel facade fades
showing forth again what is true,
what is common, what is ever appealing,
what is why we need and what
How Tastes Truth
How tastes truth,
sweet or sour, bitter or bucolic,
so sayst he, so sayst thee,
but how sayst me
'Tis which truths
as well as which to whom
and when to whom which
which whethers tastes
What asketh truth,
acknowledgment or actions,
understandings of underachievements
or nothing save simply saying 'What hey,'
when passing before passing away
Every Word
Every word in every book
ever today or ever any other day
merely is another way to say
I am, we do, they were and will
and until we are not we shall
and we will know what we do
and we will remember what was done
and sometimes venture some reasons why
Tomorrow
Tomorrow I shall awake
to the dawn of a brand new day
unseen, unknown to any who live today
and think and dream and believe
that they know what with it will come or may
as I too asleep to it still yet hail its new way
and dare embrace, to touch, to taste
in haste that which casts today away
for the sake of forsaking this day that stays
too long making me gaze longingly toward unseen days
and praise that which may bring only greater pains,
to chance to lose, yes, but to chance to gain,
twice but chance to lose more of the same
The Sun
Beneath the sun I live
and by it I mark my way
measuring all my troubles to it,
yet coming no closer nor further away
It is to me what it is to you
and is to all what frames their day
ever unnoticed, ever singularly static,
as we beneath it change as we may
To have, to hold, to see,
to live, to run, and to play,
to all we have done and will do,
to all who will come, to all who've passed away,
to this sun, to this one light of day
we owe one singularly solitary praise
for though far below to different gods we may pray
we gain and lose all by this orb of infinite days
Where within deceit
Where within deceit lies profit,
over those few in whom trust is not yet dead,
over they who admit injury to claim understandings
false they may be, yet to them they are beholden
to follow, to love, to live all but in vain
losing not mere money nor pride nor innocence
but being verily robbed of life, of the right to believe
and give freely of oneself without compunction or regret,
who then can profit from this,
from this theft who can draw breath,
who can drink, who can feed, whose greed could this appease
for what by wanting could having be more hollow
Part 3
Falling through time
Falling through time
I pause to lose myself
deep within my mind
as each moment
fades into a blur
of what was and is
and things which never were
yet may be
if their voices are heard
as they clamor to me
to heed their call
to make their maybe worlds real
if they can be at all
Distant Shores
As I look to the open sea
I wonder what might await me
if I could force open fate's doors
and find myself on distant shores
I fancy I might soon set sail
away from my earthbound jail
toward a place where I can be free
and shun all the chains of duty
I would find a land of paradise
free from all malice and vice
where every action comes from love,
truly a model for any heaven above
Soon though, I must turn away
and return to the toils of my day
but I hope someday someone will find
that such a place lies not just in my mind
Vestabur
Of all the great legends
which ever were
no name rings truer
than that of the mighty Vestabur
who gave all for nothing
chasing humanity's forgotten cure
In the land of Vikings
during the most violent of ancient days
this strongest of warriors wept
for man's seemingly eternal malaise
which pitted man against man
and goodness against stronger selfish ways
Finding none who were worthy
of his inestimable prowess of force
he then sailed off alone
letting fate decide his course
driven by a sense of uneasiness
and determined to find its source
For fourteen lonely days
and fifteen turbulent nights
no glimpse of sunlight broke the clouds
and no sign of land reached his sights
until at last upon that final day
he saw mountains of astonishing heights
The mountains reached right to the sea
barren of any form of living thing,
so empty and gray and desolate
no comfort did its appearance bring
with such an endlessly imposing facade
that even the sea birds no longer did sing
Hungry and weary from his journey,
Vestabur hastened to go ashore
but little respite did he receive
as his hands became bloodied and sore
in trying to climb those rugged cliffs
which appeared to go on forever more
After what seemed an eternity,
he reached the top of a peak
only to be confronted
by a winged creature that could speak
which had hovered before him
and asked him what he seeked
A dragon some would call it
though dragons were not so small
for this scaly quite ugly sprite
stood no more than three feet tall
and because of its tiny wings,
one wondered how it flew at all
Vestabur thought for a bit
and then said, "To end my pain
for I am tired, cold, and hungry
and am quickly becoming lame
as I have traveled long and hard
only to find nothing gained."
After a long pause of suspicion
the creature looked wary and replied,
"A bed and shelter and food,
these things I can easily provide
but surely thou travels not for these
for everywhere these comforts reside."
The warrior let out a thunderous laugh
and said, "Thou art a wise sprite
for seeing deeper than I might wish
but thou art most certainly right
in that I seek relief of a deeper pain
than one can name or hold in sight."
He continued, "If thou wouldst comfort me
with the provisions that thou didst say
I would be in thy gravest debt
and shall be most eager to repay
by naming my pain as yet untold
if it pleaseth thee for me to say."
It was early the following morning
when Vestabur awoke invigorated and refreshed
that he told the sprite his woeful tale
of how the worst in Man destroyed the best
and it was then that he heard the prolific words
which would set him upon his greatest quest
The creature spoke in a low solemn tone,
"Thy vision is true and thy heart is pure
for there is a plague of greed upon the land
by which Man is poisoned and cannot long endure
but all hope has not yet been lost
for there is a place which covets the cure."
"Devils be damned and heavens praised,"
Vestabur abruptly and joyfully exclaimed,
"A thousand blessings be upon thee
if thou wouldst only speak the name
of that place which has come to possess
such an auspicious claim to fame."
"Mubarakk," the winged creature said
as it began to fly out of his sight,
"Sail in the direction of the setting sun
for a hundred days and nights,
turn back for no one and nothing
and never give into your fright."
Slowly Vestabur made his way down
the dangerous steep mountain's edge
working his way away from the house
that the creature had built upon a ledge
with his mind dwelling upon the words
the strange creature had last said
The fury of the seven seas
hath no fury like that of a man possessed
to achieve that one goal or reward
that he knows in his heart to be the best,
not for himself but for his whole world
and Vestabur was driven by nothing less
Through the harshest of storms he sailed
unrelentingly plodding on toward some place
where he knew he would be gravely taxed
in a test which could affect his whole race
so he bore the worst the sea could give
and he swore he would not act in haste
During a rare moment of peace and calm
he happened upon a lush tropical isle,
a garden of endless sensual delights
radiating a joy that could make the devil smile
so it was here that he stopped for more supplies
and a place where he could rest for awhile
Words cannot describe the beauty of that place
or of the friendliness people there had showed
upon the storied stranger weak and frail
half-starved and half-crazed by his chosen road
to rid the world of its evil and its pains
that some unseen demon or god ungraciously bestowed
But here there was no hate or selfishness
and the world he left behind seemed to fade away,
just a nightmare that lingered in some twilight time
forgotten but not leaving its importance betrayed
as it clamored to him in his restless troubled sleep
and its resolve in hope there too vice could be allayed
And the love that had been denied to him before
came to him in that wonderful enchanted place
in the guise of beauty Mirimaney Kondessay
who embodied the purest of virtue, love, and grace
with the glimmer of a thousand stars within her eyes
and a radiance as great as the sun within her face
Here was contentedness and here was untold joy
which he had never dreamt could be before
yet deep within he knew he'd never see again
for he knew that this place was merely a door
to be passed through and left behind forever
and that more pains of the past lay in store
Though this hurt was far deeper than any others,
Vestabur left quietly during one calm night
again sailing toward the land of the setting sun
cursing himself for being too weak to ignite
courage enough to bid farewell his new bride
and still be able to continue on with his plight
Five weeks hence, his supplies again exhausted
he found another island to look for food to eat
but no land of paradise was this evil isle
as death lay everywhere eager to meet
this giant of a man who dared enter the domain
of the Banu tribe with painted hands and feet
In the shank of the evening the blood bath erupted
as Vestabur awoke to them attacking him one by one
yet each time he triumphed, another foe lay vanquished,
and over a hundred lay dead before the dying was done
when ten men rushed him cracking his skull
for as the mighty Vestabur fell the battle was won
When he awoke he found himself tied
upon a yoke of precious metals lined with jewels
in the hall of a gigantic luxurious marble palace
among sculptures carved by the finest artisan's tools,
displayed along beside them atop a high ledge
being gawked at by a court filled with noble fools
From his perch he could look down and see
the story of the kingdom unfold beneath his eyes
as the monarch sat upon a throne of the finest jade
doling out the most incredulous of lies
eagerly consumed by a nation taught only obedience
caring not that they had no will to compromise
Thrice daily he would be washed and fed
serving no more purpose than that of a living statue
declaring to all the power of the emperor
which his bound and helpless state showed true
yet only his body lay confined and constrained
while his mind raced to uncover any opportunity cue
For the first time in his victory filled life
Vestabur was held prisoner like some animal in a cage
removed from the freedoms he had always known
and daily he held witness to his mounting rage
at the atrocious abuses of power going on below
which we affecting him more than he could ever gauge
As he saw even mere children condemned to die
for deeds done by their parents or other kin
he vowed he would rid this world of this tyrant
before resuming the task long ago did he begin
believing nothing he could do could ever surpass
this victory over viciousness which he had to win
After the trials which always ended up executions,
Emperor Kyrik would stand alone in this hall
admiring his statues and opulent ornaments
gloating over having the power of death over all
and one day he spoke to Vestabur shackled high above,
"Thy head from thy neck might as easily fall!"
"Thou wouldst suffer far more than me
for I knowst a place of untold treasure,"
Vestabur answered, "and beauty far greater
than could give such a beast as thee pleasure
for the wealth of this place surmounts all
that thou has is this hall or could measure."
"And all I must do to have this marvelous wealth
is to set thee free I supposeth," the emperor said,
"yet I be not the fool thou thinkst I am
for only moments later I wouldst surely be dead
though I thinkst thou speaketh the truth
so I shall send out my armies to search instead."
Moments later the emperor returned to the hall
where Vestabur stood consumed by his flaming hate
for the man who now predicted complete success
in plundering all wealth as his armies would devastate
all peoples weaker be they near or far away
and as he said so Vestabur realized it was too late
Suddenly he was struck with a vision
of the island of boundless beauty and grace
being raped of the riches it shone forth,
the kindness and the love too strong to erase
would doom them to be destroyed one and all
as the vipers poisoned that wondrous place
As the emperor laughed far below
Vestabur saw him directly beneath the ledge
and summoning all the strength left in him
he tipped the stone stockade using his foot as a wedge
tilting it forward inch by inch as his foot crushed
until at last the stone and he tumbled over the edge
He awoke upon a gallows before a crowd
shouting curses at him for killing the emperor,
no joy did they have for being set free
as they began to stone the mighty Vestabur
and the reasons why he craved that death
were so tainted by this he could no longer remember
"These fools shall never become free,"
Vestabur thought as he prepared to die,
"for they haveth no meaning or goals in life
save for those given by some ruler up high
and such as being as me wouldst never be
forced or force others to live out such a lie."
Bracing himself for the final yank nearing,
he felt proud for having the chance to have been
and he feared not death nor pain nor loss
for he knew that this was not his true end
because his quest was still not near resolution
meaning he still would be though knowing not when
He saw the coming events proceed in stills,
like photographs or like cards taken out of deck,
when the trapdoor fell and chaos ensued
while the rope snapped close around his strong neck
seeing lightening strike the crowd around him
then seeing the whole scene fall to a distant speck
End of Part One
Vestabur- Conclusion (middle parts missing)
How Vestabur had come to arrive there
I doubt that anyone could truly say
and where exactly there might have been
could easily go unknown for a million more days
so sadly I am left merely able to say
that at long last Vestabur had found his way
This isle was a perfect circle with a solitary peak
which rose forth from the center and ended in a cloud
but no joy came from his mighty heart as it raced
with a ferocity such that he thought it echoed out loud
and a solemn melancholy gripped his whole being
fearing the cloud above was his eternal shroud
Driven by forces too powerful to dare resist
he laughed as he pondered his very first fear,
that of reaching the end of his long troubled journey,
not of failing but of the success now drawing near
and that vague notion of a final resolution
made him shake violently as its meaning became clear
No more venturing would be should he succeed
in ridding the world of all ails and ills
as his meaning dissolved before the face of the resolve
that drove him here and would carry him up that hill
which cursed his success and dared him to leave
while he still knew who he was, knowing he could be still
But fear could have no hold over him
and he let the sensation run its course and go
as he slowly made his way toward the town
that his visions of forbearance quickly let him know
would await him at the foot of that mount
and would surprise him with an unexpected foe
Pleasant were the people of this remote town
eager to meet and greet this great stranger,
so accommodating and polite, he was so enthralled
and taken aback by this kindness he saw no danger
in dallying for a time to repay their generous hospitality
when asked to stay awhile and tend to their manger
Strange animals he found in that pristine barn
where he came to work to tend their stout stock,
healthy and boisterous and so uncannily attuned
to service that he had but to think to command a flock,
sheep which went daily to a meadow undistinguished
but for an eerily glowing pile of mountain rocks
There at dusk after a hard day's work
atop the rocks he felt free as never before
in command of his self and his destiny
so much so that the future he dreaded lay in store
now seemed amicable and even friendly to him
smiling down on him because he dreaded it no more
Day after day went past while he worked
without notice of the time or the passing seasons
that soon changed to years, then many years
but this seemed not to his goal to be of any treason
for this was but a temporary stop on his journey
and all must always be because of due reason
Four and forty years passed before he noticed
how those rocks that he sat upon for so long
were to be found in every house and every meeting place,
and how they glowed when the townsfolk would throng
for some festive event which celebrated each new day
as a new era never seeing how much that view was wrong
Time made no mark upon this forgotten place
as generation after generation came and passed
without making any innovation or any new creations
to distinguish one era from the next or truths from the mask
tradition builds to preserve all views from before
and strives to keep any questions from being asked
This is in all lands but nowhere else was it so clear
as here where there was no small task ever new
nor any thought different than those of the day before
for even as children learned and constantly grew
there was no dividing lines nor any individual patterns
setting them apart from each other in what they did or knew
Individuals had no meaning to be found here
as all worked to serve all others without thought
for themselves or for the betterment of others
who shared not their secluded seemingly ideal spot
yet they did not know of the horrors that lay
beyond their vision or of the wrongs elsewhere wrought
Yet Vestabur found his gift of inner visions
not to be strange nor did he find anyone astounded
by his presence nor did they ask of where he came
and when he spoke of the past, they were not dumbfounded
but would knowingly bow their head in acquiescence
whereupon the sorrows of the outside world were sounded
Longing to know just how much they knew
Vestabur questioned his friend Baynu without respite
until at last he admitted they all knew the truth
of the world from which he had long left in flight
and he too said the cure to all man's troubles
lay at the top of the mountain forever in their sight
Furious, Vestabur lashed out in utter condemnation
at the whole town knowingly just standing by
doing nothing while evil lay everywhere hurting all
while they did nothing to aid in its possible demise,
instead languishing in the luxury of goodwill
without the fortitude to make all of mankind so wise
"But what of thou," Baynu said in a forgiving way
"We cometh here by our forefathers searching like thee
and it was here that the stones lastly didst them comfort
letting them know from their demons they be free
not having to purge themselves of others shortcomings and sins
and giving them peace the world beyond wouldst not let be."
Again rekindling the fire that led him here,
he fled the town in a fit of unseemly haste
violently clawing his way up that mountainside
not allowing himself chance to rethink out of fear he'd waste
this one last chance to gain what he had come for,
to rid life of its bile and bitterness of taste
He climbed until he could climb no more
frozen by the winds chiding "Death is at hand,"
and there he most surely would have died
had it not been for the kindness of a man
who had made his camp near the top long ago
in the mists of a cloud high above the land
Small he was though he did not look frail
and his temperament was decidedly meek
yet Vestabur felt humbled and quite afraid
of this man who many might think to be weak
for the fire in his eyes and the weight of his words
left the giant too afraid to dare speak
Though this man did his best to reassure him,
Vestabur could not come to feel at ease here
for always was he the most powerful one
yet this tiny man somehow made him to fear
even though he knew this man meant him no harm
making him ever more uncomfortable when he came near
After a time he found the courage to speak
his irrational fear to this gentle little man
and he found himself being able to clearly express
notions that he did not even fully understand
while saying to this compassionate patron of help
how he feared himself no longer in command
The look on this stranger's face released him
from the fear that he felt within his heart
for Vestabur understood that this man knew
his fears and his need to feel apart,
to be bigger and better than all the rest
and how he had need for them all in his heart
"That thou wishst to serve thy people
is honorable is didst bring thou to me
here on thy mountain today," the man said,
"as my wish to serve my people faithfully
hast brought me here to await thee
and help thou learn what it is thou seeks."
Vestabur relayed his entire life's history
to this stranger upon a cliff high in the air
telling him of his joys and his loves lost
and how the whole world seemed in deep despair
hoping that when he ended his tales of the past
he might be told if his future lay there
Instead the man said nothing at all
of what Vestabur ought next to wish to do
as he motioned toward the top of the peak
saying, "The end is there to go if thou needst to
but what thou may find is within thee now
and will still be there when thy journey is through."
With great trepidations, Vestabur went outside
to gaze at the peak barely visible in the pall
seeming so near that he could be there now
without needing to have to go there at all
and without realizing it he was doing so,
climbing as if answering some inner call
Then it happened as the universe ended
without Vestabur or the snowy mountain top
because it all had come to an end long, long ago
before the beginning with no story now to stop
for he realized all he had lived for could never be
as his whole life fell like rain or a single teardrop
Wanting for everyone to live in joy,
knowing what it truly is like to live free
was to him then and is to us in our time now
forever to be more of a dream than a reality
as it can never be that for any who are free
not to be able and therefore not to do, us misery
Other poetry books by Jared P. DuBois
The Versatile Verse
repetition
Triumvirum
Quadranine
pentacle
(mini-book)
and Montage,
a collection taken from all above