>Coldly and efficiently she had pierced her own hymen, ending her virginity.

[SD-Justy]: "That spatula sure came in handy."
{SD-Frank}: "The big one or the little ones?"

>Every night since then she had masturbated. Except for the first night, she always stopped short of giving herself an orgasm; as if she did not quite deserve it.

{SD-Frank}: "Damn...this one really cuts to the chase...no BS, it seems..."
[SD-Justy]: "No shit."

> Tonight, though she wanted to be penetrated and she pulled Toshi down on top of her. The act of penetration almost brought to her orgasm, but after he was firmly inside her, she once again buried her lust and lay still. She responded when expected but gave no more of herself than she had already given.

{SD-Frank}: "That was probably the shortest sex scene I've ever seen...too bad there aren't any rewind buttons...either that, or he was a lousy lay..."
[SD-Justy]: "He's no Mr. Cuke"

>To say that Ukyou and Toshi were making love or even having sex was a grossly over romanticizing what she was doing. If she had thought that there was any hint of love in this act she would not be letting him fuck her.

{SD-Frank}: "A swear word! Ack!"
[SD-Justy]: *looks at Frank* "Oh yeah... hide the kiddies _now_ whydontchya!"
{SD-Frank}: "To make a long story short..."
{SD-Frank and Justy}: "TOO LATE!"

>But she knew better, the look in his eyes spoke of where his interest in her lay. If anyone had suggested to her that she was doing anything other than fucking she would have laughed out loud.

{SD-Frank}: "Oh yeah? ^_^ Well, you're _thinking_ right now, so that's something else..." *waiting for Ukyou to laugh at him*

> He came suddenly and Ukyou reacted by faking her own orgasm. She had to fake because she was nowhere near being excited, her juices having run dry shortly after penetration. His movement during the whole affair had only hurt her.

[SD-Justy]: "Why is 'When Harry Met Sally' coming to mind?"
{SD-Frank}: "Always the females that fake the orgasms....just once, there should be a male faking an orgasm, just to make it even for the sexes...^_-"

> Spent, he lay on top of her until she pushed him off.

{SD-Frank}: "Cool, this is where she turns into the lizard-alien and kills him....at least, that's what he seems to deserve...^_^"
[SD-Justy]: "YAY! BLOOD!!"

>She realized with some trepidation that they had not used protection and hoped that the idiot had not gotten her pregnant.

[SD-Justy]: "See kids... that's why sex is bad... remember to just say no."
{SD-Frank}: "It's the Trojan Man's night off, I guess..."

>Standing up she gathered her clothes and went to the bathroom to get dressed. From the bedroom she could hear him talking inanely, "That was great."
Ukyou rolled her eyes at his stupidity.
"Was it good for you?"
Ukyou said that the sex had been great and that he was the best lover she ever had. She pulled on her skirt and adjusted it. A quick glance in the mirror confirmed that she was still real.

{SD-Frank}: "Justy, are you _sure_ I'm not real? I mean, if _she_ has to check..."
[SD-Justy]: "Dammit NO! You deaf, boy?"
{SD-Frank}: "No, just in denial. ^_^"

> "Maybe we could do it again later tonight?" Toshi sounded like he had gotten up and was now moving around the bedroom, "What do you think?" She opened the door and stepped out fully dressed, "I think that if you want to come again tonight you are going to have to do it yourself." "Hey what the hell?" Toshi looked at her, surprise on his face; "You don't have to go."

[SD-Justy]: "This has the makings for a depressing ballad."

>She stopped him with a glare, then shrugged. "I'm not staying." She walked to the door and opened it. He caught her arm and she hoped that he would so something that would give her an excuse to hurt him.

{SD-Frank}: "Yeah, martial arts is missing in this one...and I _don't_ think that what they just did counts for an "Anything-Goes" one-on-one..O_o"

> "Don't I even get your number or something," he asked petulantly.

{SD-Frank}: *rolls his eyes* "Loser-O-Meter..wayyyy up.!" *raises his hand up, palm down, and shakes his head*
[SD-Justy]: "Looks like he's dating with Ms. Hand until another horny depressed 'other' woman comes along."
{SD-Frank}: "You mean Shampoo? Lord knows _she's_ in the dumps.."

> She smiled her practiced false smile at him, "Sorry." She pulled free of his grasp and shut the door quietly behind her. She held her breath until she reached the elevator. He apparently was not coming after her. The cool night air felt good on her face after the hot fever of the apartment.

{SD-Frank}: "Looks like the apartment got sick...needs Tylenol, maybe?"

> Once she was far enough away from Toshi's apartment she leaned over and puked. Grasping the lightpost near her she heaved until her stomach was empty then continued on her way home.

[SD-Justy]: "She just left it there on the sidewalk."
{SD-Frank}: "Ewwwww....^_^"
[SD-Justy]: "Wouldn't she feel like crap if Ranma came running by and slipped in it in the next scene."
{SD-Frank}: "Nah, she'd probably be _in_ her own crap trying to pull Ranma out of it.... :P"

> She quietly slipped inside and shut the door behind her. Konatsu was at the counter, having fallen asleep waiting for her. She smiled fondly at him and ran her hand through his hair, waking him up.
"Ukyou, I'm glad you are home. I was beginning to get worried about you. It's getting late." He looked up at her, the concern clearly etched on his face.

{SD-Frank}: "Neat! Konatsu's face is an Etch-a-Sketch in this story!"

> "I'm alright," she started to make her way up the stairs, "I'm tired, are you going to sleep now?" He nodded and followed her upstairs. Ukyou wished him a good night and retired to her own room. Her legs hurt and she felt raw between them.

[SD-Justy]: "Frank... Have you ever had that _not so fresh_ feeling?"
{SD-Frank}: "I did _not_ need to hear that...:p"

> The single mirror in the room anchored her to reality. Tomorrow she would have to get another one or maybe two more; there were too many bare walls in her room already.

[SD-Justy]: *nervous laugh* "Heh... mirrors... I thought she meant men."
{SD-Frank}: Hey, to her, men are probably like Kleenex. Soft, Strong, and Disposable...

> She crawled quietly into bed, curled herself into a ball and cried herself to sleep.

{SD-Frank}: "Maybe I'm being too insensitive, but...what kind of ball did she curl herself in? A basketball? Baseball? ^_^;;"
[SD-Justy]: "THE UKYO-BOMBER!!! ... That's what I can call the drink."

>Ukyou did her best not to dream and every night she failed. Failing was not uncommon to her, she had no choice in the matter, she understood failure, and success might have surprised her. As she lay in her bed, curled into a ball,

{SD-Frank}: "See? There's that ball, again! I wanna know what kind of ball...so I can visualize, right? Right?" *SD-Frank is pelted by popcorn*
[SD-Justy]: "Where the hell is this frickin popcorn coming from? Who else is in here?"
{SD-Frank}: "It's probably the Stock Footage/Cliche department..."

>her thighs hurting and sickness in her stomach, she dreamt. Thousand of faces surrounded her. Some she recognized immediately, others she had to concentrate on to make out. Still there are other nameless people who only pointed and chuckled. She picked out Ryouga standing to one side, his eyes avoiding hers, Akane held Ranma's hand and shook her head in disgust, Konatsu looked on with concern, Happosai glomped to Akane and buried his face between her breasts, Akane did not seem to mind the attention.

{SD-Frank}: *piku*
[SD-Justy]: "Well Akane has already _had_ Ranma by now, I guess there ain't anywhere to go but up."

> Around Ukyou a thousand faces laughed and pointed. Ukyou realized she was naked and tried to cover herself. Happosai glanced at her and laughed out loud. Despite her nudity and vulnerability, he made no move towards her.

[SD-Justy]: "Ouch... that hurt!"

>Ryouga walked up to her first, each night it was some one different. Ryouga faced her, a stern look in his eyes.

{SD-Frank}: "I feel an Ukyou/Ryouga fic coming on..."

> "Is this the best answer you have?" Ryouga whispered harshly, "I thought better of you."
"I tried." Ukyou whimpered as Ryouga faded before her. She picked out Shampoo standing apart from the chuckling crowd. Never had never before appeared in her dreams.

{SD-Frank}: "Never had never appeared? Weird..."
[SD-Justy]: "Never say never..."

>The Amazon shook her head at Ukyou and started to walk away. Before Ukyou could call out to Shampoo, Akane approached, "He picked me. Me! Me over you, and he called me uncute." She smirked, "Me!"

[SD-Justy]: "You go girl!"

>Ranma took Akane's hand, "Ucchan, thanks for helping me realize my love for Akane." Ranma and Akane slowly faded before her eyes. Ukyou did not move she merely sat before the crowd and awaited her next judgement. Happosai, without Akane to glomp on wandered towards her and passed right through her.

{SD-Frank}: "Damn, I wish I knew that trick..."

>Ukyou noticed that Shampoo had not left and had edged closer. "Save me," Ukyou whispered.
"Save yourself" the crowd laughed at her.
"I tried," she screamed.
"Not hard enough", the crowd roared with laughter.

{SD-Frank}: "Say, if everyone else had faded away except Shampoo, how can Shampoo be a crowd? One's a crowd? O_o"
[SD-Justy]: "No..No..No.. the amorphous blob of people are still there, its the popular ones that have left."
{SD-Frank}: "So the rest are, like, extras that get killed off in the next few seconds...I see now..."

>Suddenly, Shampoo stood beside her, "Go away!" Shampoo screamed at the crowd. Instantly, the laughter faded and the crowd disappeared.

{SD-Frank}: "See?"

> "Get up," Shampoo said harshly and yanked Ukyou to her feet. "Look at what you've become," Shampoo stood back, disgust evident in her eyes, "Look at yourself."

[SD-Justy]: "I guess Shampoo's been taking speech lessons."

> "I can't", Ukyou breathed and wrapped her arms around her naked body.
"Why not?" Shampoo demanded.
"I can't see myself."
"Exactly."

{SD-Frank}: "Well, it's not that hard to look at yourself. Get a mirror..."
[SD-Justy]: "She could just clone herself." ^_-

> Ukyou sat bolt upright in her bed. Unlike dreams she has previously had, this one included Shampoo. Never before had Shampoo appeared in her dreams. Her long time rival had seemed anxious and willing to help Ukyou. Her heart pounding, Ukyou scanned the room, her eyes seeking confirmation, they came to rest on the mirror.

{SD-Frank}: "See? I _told_ you that's all you had to do..! ^_^"

>When she saw she cast no reflection she started to scream.

{SD-Frank}: "Ok, maybe not..." *sweatdrop*
[SD-Justy]: "Ukyo's a vampire!!"

>The next morning Ukyou slept in. Her nightmares had left her exhausted. As the sun rose in the east, she began to make out sounds from below; Konatsu trying hard to keep the early customers satisfied.

[SD-Justy]: "Good ol' Konatsu, putting out for the Jons."
{SD-Frank}: O_o

> From experience, she knew that he would not be able to keep up for long and would need help shortly.

[SD-Justy]: "Poor Konatsu, you can't blame him, he hasn't been trained in using it correctly."
{SD-Frank}: o_O

>With trepidation she opened her eyes and caught her reflection in the mirror. Sighing with relief, she dragged herself out of bed. She noticed that she had not changed clothes when she had gone to sleep.

{SD-Frank}: "Frankly, Ukyou's sems to be the type to sleep in the buff...but maybe that's just _my_ impression...^_^"

> As she made her way to the shower, she made a mental list of things that she would have to buy later: two wall mirrors, perhaps a ceiling mirror,

{SD-Frank}: "See? Mirrors help...I was right after all..."

>some condoms,

{SD-Frank}: "I didn't expect to see _that_ on the list...O_o"

> aspirins, and extra bed sheets.

[SD-Justy]: "Some KY, benwa balls, 2 goats and a Bee Gees album."

> She turned the shower on and stepped in. The cold shocked her awake and made her feel alive enough to face the world for another day. Konatsu had done surprisingly well handling the customers this morning,

[SD-Justy]: "Come to Ucchan's - buy the special and get your orgasm on the house."
{SD-Frank}: O_O

> though she noted that several were pleased to see her cooking again. While many came to see the cute waitress, none considered Konatsu an excellent cook.

{SD-Frank}: "Why? Because she, I mean, he's, a male? Sexist! Sexist!"

>She noticed that there were fewer customers today then the day before. This had been a continuing trend for the past month. She wondered if her depression had affected her cooking. The morning sun streaming in through the windows hurt her eyes as she recounted the previous night's dream in her head, weighing Shampoo's significance in it. She did her cooking with actions she had come to know well over a lifetime of okonomiyaki.

[SD-Justy]: "Exactly how long a lifespan does okonomiyaki have?"
{SD-Frank}: "Actually, I'm surprised she's cooking _without_ a hangover...that has to be _some_ tolerance she's got.."

>She was friendly with her customers as needed and chatted quietly about the weather, the day's events, and the relative calmness that had settled over Nerima since Ranma's and Akane's wedding. Nobody would've guessed that she was not listening. She added another mirror to her list, one for inside the store.

{SD-Frank}: "You know, I only _suggested_ a mirror...I didn't mean, go overboard...but, whatever floats your boat..."
[SD-Justy]: *Ukyo mode* "Mirrors... must have more mirrors..."

> After the noon rush and before the evening patrons began to arrive, she took her leave of Konatsu. She wanted to get some of her errands done before night. She had plans tonight and she needed some of those items before she went out.

[SD-Justy]: "Ukyo's gonna be off , workin the corner, tonight."

> The summer sun beat down on her, leaving her wishing for the cool comfort of autumn or winter. She walked, practicing her smile as she went, nodding pleasantly to strangers.

{SD-Frank}: "Yeah, if you don't excercise those smile muscles they get fat and lazy and want to watch old NA Sailor Moon reruns... :p"

>Some smiled back others shied away. She liked it better when they shied away. She approached the street where the drug store was located, and looked both ways before crossing.

[SD-Justy]: "Loaf a bed, gallon a milk, stick a butter..."

>The traffic was not very bad at this time of the day, however she could see a car rushing down the street. She looked at the car and decided that it would not be a problem to cross in front of it. She stepped out in front of it, within seconds the car's brakes screeched. Ukyou continued walking across the street taking no notice of the car that had come to a stop a few feet beside her.

[SD-Justy]: "That driver just gave up a good 100 points... idiot." {SD-Frank}: "Hey, Rules of the Road...she's a pedestrian and gets right of way..."

>Walking into the drugstore, she did a quick circuit of the store, looking for anything that might catch her eye. Eventually, she came to the condom section.

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