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- Wharton, Edith. "Bunner Sisters." Scribner's Magazine 60
- (Oct. 1916): 439-58; 60 (Nov. 1916): 575-96.
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- BUNNER SISTERS
-
- BY EDITH WHARTON
-
- PART I
-
-
- I
-
- In the days when New York's traffic moved at the pace of the
- drooping horse-car, when society applauded Christine Nilsson at the
- Academy of Music and basked in the sunsets of the Hudson River
- School on the walls of the National Academy of Design, an
- inconspicuous shop with a single show-window was intimately and
- favourably known to the feminine population of the quarter
- bordering on Stuyvesant Square.
-
- It was a very small shop, in a shabby basement, in a side-
- street already doomed to decline; and from the miscellaneous
- display behind the window-pane, and the brevity of the sign
- surmounting it (merely "Bunner Sisters" in blotchy gold on a black
- ground) it would have been difficult for the uninitiated to guess
- the precise nature of the business carried on within. But that was
- of little consequence, since its fame was so purely local that the
- customers on whom its existence depended were almost congenitally
- aware of the exact range of "goods" to be found at Bunner Sisters'.
-
- The house of which Bunner Sisters had annexed the basement was
- a private dwelling with a brick front, green shutters on weak
- hinges, and a dress-maker's sign in the window above the shop. On
- each side of its modest three stories stood higher buildings, with
- fronts of brown stone, cracked and blistered, cast-iron balconies
- and cat-haunted grass-patches behind twisted railings. These
- houses too had once been private, but now a cheap lunchroom filled
- the basement of one, while the other announced itself, above the
- knotty wistaria that clasped its central balcony, as the Mendoza
- Family Hotel. It was obvious from the chronic cluster of refuse-
- barrels at its area-gate and the blurred surface of its curtainless
- windows, that the families frequenting the Mendoza Hotel were not
- exacting in their tastes; though they doubtless indulged in as much
- fastidiousness as they could afford to pay for, and rather more
- than their landlord thought they had a right to express.
-
- These three houses fairly exemplified the general character of
- the street, which, as it stretched eastward, rapidly fell from
- shabbiness to squalor, with an increasing frequency of projecting
- sign-boards, and of swinging doors that softly shut or opened at
- the touch of red-nosed men and pale little girls with broken jugs.
- The middle of the street was full of irregular depressions, well
- adapted to retain the long swirls of dust and straw and twisted
- paper that the wind drove up and down its sad untended length; and
- toward the end of the day, when traffic had been active, the
- fissured pavement formed a mosaic of coloured hand-bills, lids of
- tomato-cans, old shoes, cigar-stumps and banana skins, cemented
- together by a layer of mud, or veiled in a powdering of dust, as
- the state of the weather determined.
-
- The sole refuge offered from the contemplation of this
- depressing waste was the sight of the Bunner Sisters' window. Its
- panes were always well-washed, and though their display of
- artificial flowers, bands of scalloped flannel, wire hat-frames,
- and jars of home-made preserves, had the undefinable greyish tinge
- of objects long preserved in the show-case of a museum, the window
- revealed a background of orderly counters and white-washed walls in
- pleasant contrast to the adjoining dinginess.
-
- The Bunner sisters were proud of the neatness of their shop
- and content with its humble prosperity. It was not what they had
- once imagined it would be, but though it presented but a shrunken
- image of their earlier ambitions it enabled them to pay their rent
- and keep themselves alive and out of debt; and it was long
- since their hopes had soared higher.
-
- Now and then, however, among their greyer hours there came one
- not bright enough to be called sunny, but rather of the silvery
- twilight hue which sometimes ends a day of storm. It was such an
- hour that Ann Eliza, the elder of the firm, was soberly enjoying as
- she sat one January evening in the back room which served as
- bedroom, kitchen and parlour to herself and her sister Evelina. In
- the shop the blinds had been drawn down, the counters cleared and
- the wares in the window lightly covered with an old sheet; but the
- shop-door remained unlocked till Evelina, who had taken a parcel to
- the dyer's, should come back.
-
- In the back room a kettle bubbled on the stove, and Ann Eliza
- had laid a cloth over one end of the centre table, and placed near
- the green-shaded sewing lamp two tea-cups, two plates, a sugar-bowl
- and a piece of pie. The rest of the room remained in a greenish
- shadow which discreetly veiled the outline of an old-fashioned
- mahogany bedstead surmounted by a chromo of a young lady in a
- night-gown who clung with eloquently-rolling eyes to a crag
- described in illuminated letters as the Rock of Ages; and against
- the unshaded windows two rocking-chairs and a sewing-machine were
- silhouetted on the dusk.
-
- Ann Eliza, her small and habitually anxious face smoothed to
- unusual serenity, and the streaks of pale hair on her veined
- temples shining glossily beneath the lamp, had seated herself at
- the table, and was tying up, with her usual fumbling deliberation,
- a knobby object wrapped in paper. Now and then, as she struggled
- with the string, which was too short, she fancied she heard the
- click of the shop-door, and paused to listen for her sister; then,
- as no one came, she straightened her spectacles and entered into
- renewed conflict with the parcel. In honour of some event of
- obvious importance, she had put on her double-dyed and triple-
- turned black silk. Age, while bestowing on this garment a
- patine worthy of a Renaissance bronze, had deprived it of
- whatever curves the wearer's pre-Raphaelite figure had once been
- able to impress on it; but this stiffness of outline gave it an air
- of sacerdotal state which seemed to emphasize the importance of the
- occasion.
-
- Seen thus, in her sacramental black silk, a wisp of lace
- turned over the collar and fastened by a mosaic brooch, and her
- face smoothed into harmony with her apparel, Ann Eliza looked ten
- years younger than behind the counter, in the heat and burden of
- the day. It would have been as difficult to guess her approximate
- age as that of the black silk, for she had the same worn and glossy
- aspect as her dress; but a faint tinge of pink still lingered on
- her cheek-bones, like the reflection of sunset which sometimes
- colours the west long after the day is over.
-
- When she had tied the parcel to her satisfaction, and laid it
- with furtive accuracy just opposite her sister's plate, she sat
- down, with an air of obviously-assumed indifference, in one of the
- rocking-chairs near the window; and a moment later the shop-door
- opened and Evelina entered.
-
- The younger Bunner sister, who was a little taller than her
- elder, had a more pronounced nose, but a weaker slope of mouth and
- chin. She still permitted herself the frivolity of waving her pale
- hair, and its tight little ridges, stiff as the tresses of an
- Assyrian statue, were flattened under a dotted veil which ended at
- the tip of her cold-reddened nose. In her scant jacket and skirt
- of black cashmere she looked singularly nipped and faded; but it
- seemed possible that under happier conditions she might still warm
- into relative youth.
-
- "Why, Ann Eliza," she exclaimed, in a thin voice pitched to
- chronic fretfulness, "what in the world you got your best silk on
- for?"
-
- Ann Eliza had risen with a blush that made her steel-browed
- spectacles incongruous.
-
- "Why, Evelina, why shouldn't I, I sh'ld like to know? Ain't
- it your birthday, dear?" She put out her arms with the awkwardness
- of habitually repressed emotion.
-
- Evelina, without seeming to notice the gesture, threw back the
- jacket from her narrow shoulders.
-
- "Oh, pshaw," she said, less peevishly. "I guess we'd better
- give up birthdays. Much as we can do to keep Christmas nowadays."
-
- "You hadn't oughter say that, Evelina. We ain't so badly off
- as all that. I guess you're cold and tired. Set down while I take
- the kettle off: it's right on the boil."
-
- She pushed Evelina toward the table, keeping a sideward eye on
- her sister's listless movements, while her own hands were busy with
- the kettle. A moment later came the exclamation for which she
- waited.
-
- "Why, Ann Eliza!" Evelina stood transfixed by the sight of
- the parcel beside her plate.
-
- Ann Eliza, tremulously engaged in filling the teapot, lifted
- a look of hypocritical surprise.
-
- "Sakes, Evelina! What's the matter?"
-
- The younger sister had rapidly untied the string, and drawn
- from its wrappings a round nickel clock of the kind to be bought
- for a dollar-seventy-five.
-
- "Oh, Ann Eliza, how could you?" She set the clock down, and
- the sisters exchanged agitated glances across the table.
-
- "Well," the elder retorted, "AIN'T it your birthday?"
-
- "Yes, but--"
-
- "Well, and ain't you had to run round the corner to the Square
- every morning, rain or shine, to see what time it was, ever since
- we had to sell mother's watch last July? Ain't you, Evelina?"
-
- "Yes, but--"
-
- "There ain't any buts. We've always wanted a clock and now
- we've got one: that's all there is about it. Ain't she a beauty,
- Evelina?" Ann Eliza, putting back the kettle on the stove, leaned
- over her sister's shoulder to pass an approving hand over the
- circular rim of the clock. "Hear how loud she ticks. I was afraid
- you'd hear her soon as you come in."
-
- "No. I wasn't thinking," murmured Evelina.
-
- "Well, ain't you glad now?" Ann Eliza gently reproached her.
- The rebuke had no acerbity, for she knew that Evelina's seeming
- indifference was alive with unexpressed scruples.
-
- "I'm real glad, sister; but you hadn't oughter. We could have
- got on well enough without."
-
- "Evelina Bunner, just you sit down to your tea. I guess I
- know what I'd oughter and what I'd hadn't oughter just as well as
- you do--I'm old enough!"
-
- "You're real good, Ann Eliza; but I know you've given up
- something you needed to get me this clock."
-
- "What do I need, I'd like to know? Ain't I got a best black
- silk?" the elder sister said with a laugh full of nervous pleasure.
-
- She poured out Evelina's tea, adding some condensed milk from
- the jug, and cutting for her the largest slice of pie; then she
- drew up her own chair to the table.
-
- The two women ate in silence for a few moments before Evelina
- began to speak again. "The clock is perfectly lovely and I don't
- say it ain't a comfort to have it; but I hate to think what it must
- have cost you."
-
- "No, it didn't, neither," Ann Eliza retorted. "I got it dirt
- cheap, if you want to know. And I paid for it out of a little
- extra work I did the other night on the machine for Mrs. Hawkins."
-
- "The baby-waists?"
-
- "Yes."
-
- "There, I knew it! You swore to me you'd buy a new pair of
- shoes with that money."
-
- "Well, and s'posin' I didn't want 'em--what then? I've
- patched up the old ones as good as new--and I do declare, Evelina
- Bunner, if you ask me another question you'll go and spoil all my
- pleasure."
-
- "Very well, I won't," said the younger sister.
-
- They continued to eat without farther words. Evelina yielded
- to her sister's entreaty that she should finish the pie, and poured
- out a second cup of tea, into which she put the last lump of sugar;
- and between them, on the table, the clock kept up its sociable
- tick.
-
- "Where'd you get it, Ann Eliza?" asked Evelina, fascinated.
-
- "Where'd you s'pose? Why, right round here, over acrost the
- Square, in the queerest little store you ever laid eyes on. I saw
- it in the window as I was passing, and I stepped right in and asked
- how much it was, and the store-keeper he was real pleasant about
- it. He was just the nicest man. I guess he's a German. I told
- him I couldn't give much, and he said, well, he knew what hard
- times was too. His name's Ramy--Herman Ramy: I saw it
- written up over the store. And he told me he used to work at
- Tiff'ny's, oh, for years, in the clock-department, and three years
- ago he took sick with some kinder fever, and lost his place, and
- when he got well they'd engaged somebody else and didn't want him,
- and so he started this little store by himself. I guess he's real
- smart, and he spoke quite like an educated man--but he looks sick."
-
- Evelina was listening with absorbed attention. In the narrow
- lives of the two sisters such an episode was not to be under-rated.
-
- "What you say his name was?" she asked as Ann Eliza paused.
-
- "Herman Ramy."
-
- "How old is he?"
-
- "Well, I couldn't exactly tell you, he looked so sick--but I
- don't b'lieve he's much over forty."
-
- By this time the plates had been cleared and the teapot
- emptied, and the two sisters rose from the table. Ann Eliza, tying
- an apron over her black silk, carefully removed all traces of the
- meal; then, after washing the cups and plates, and putting them
- away in a cupboard, she drew her rocking-chair to the lamp and sat
- down to a heap of mending. Evelina, meanwhile, had been roaming
- about the room in search of an abiding-place for the clock. A
- rosewood what-not with ornamental fret-work hung on the wall beside
- the devout young lady in dishabille, and after much weighing of
- alternatives the sisters decided to dethrone a broken china vase
- filled with dried grasses which had long stood on the top shelf,
- and to put the clock in its place; the vase, after farther
- consideration, being relegated to a small table covered with blue
- and white beadwork, which held a Bible and prayer-book, and an
- illustrated copy of Longfellow's poems given as a school-prize to
- their father.
-
- This change having been made, and the effect studied from
- every angle of the room, Evelina languidly put her pinking-machine
- on the table, and sat down to the monotonous work of pinking a heap
- of black silk flounces. The strips of stuff slid slowly to the
- floor at her side, and the clock, from its commanding altitude,
- kept time with the dispiriting click of the instrument under her
- fingers.
-
-
- II
-
-
- The purchase of Evelina's clock had been a more important
- event in the life of Ann Eliza Bunner than her younger sister could
- divine. In the first place, there had been the demoralizing
- satisfaction of finding herself in possession of a sum of money
- which she need not put into the common fund, but could spend as she
- chose, without consulting Evelina, and then the excitement of her
- stealthy trips abroad, undertaken on the rare occasions when she
- could trump up a pretext for leaving the shop; since, as a rule, it
- was Evelina who took the bundles to the dyer's, and delivered the
- purchases of those among their customers who were too genteel to be
- seen carrying home a bonnet or a bundle of pinking--so that, had it
- not been for the excuse of having to see Mrs. Hawkins's teething
- baby, Ann Eliza would hardly have known what motive to allege for
- deserting her usual seat behind the counter.
-
- The infrequency of her walks made them the chief events of her
- life. The mere act of going out from the monastic quiet of the
- shop into the tumult of the streets filled her with a subdued
- excitement which grew too intense for pleasure as she was swallowed
- by the engulfing roar of Broadway or Third Avenue, and began to do
- timid battle with their incessant cross-currents of humanity.
- After a glance or two into the great show-windows she usually
- allowed herself to be swept back into the shelter of a side-street,
- and finally regained her own roof in a state of breathless
- bewilderment and fatigue; but gradually, as her nerves were soothed
- by the familiar quiet of the little shop, and the click of
- Evelina's pinking-machine, certain sights and sounds would detach
- themselves from the torrent along which she had been swept, and she
- would devote the rest of the day to a mental reconstruction of the
- different episodes of her walk, till finally it took shape in her
- thought as a consecutive and highly-coloured experience, from
- which, for weeks afterwards, she would detach some fragmentary
- recollection in the course of her long dialogues with her sister.
-
- But when, to the unwonted excitement of going out, was added
- the intenser interest of looking for a present for Evelina,
- Ann Eliza's agitation, sharpened by concealment, actually preyed
- upon her rest; and it was not till the present had been given, and
- she had unbosomed herself of the experiences connected with its
- purchase, that she could look back with anything like composure to
- that stirring moment of her life. From that day forward, however,
- she began to take a certain tranquil pleasure in thinking of Mr.
- Ramy's small shop, not unlike her own in its countrified obscurity,
- though the layer of dust which covered its counter and shelves made
- the comparison only superficially acceptable. Still, she did not
- judge the state of the shop severely, for Mr. Ramy had told her
- that he was alone in the world, and lone men, she was aware, did
- not know how to deal with dust. It gave her a good deal of
- occupation to wonder why he had never married, or if, on the other
- hand, he were a widower, and had lost all his dear little children;
- and she scarcely knew which alternative seemed to make him the more
- interesting. In either case, his life was assuredly a sad one; and
- she passed many hours in speculating on the manner in which he
- probably spent his evenings. She knew he lived at the back of his
- shop, for she had caught, on entering, a glimpse of a dingy room
- with a tumbled bed; and the pervading smell of cold fry suggested
- that he probably did his own cooking. She wondered if he did not
- often make his tea with water that had not boiled, and asked
- herself, almost jealously, who looked after the shop while he went
- to market. Then it occurred to her as likely that he bought his
- provisions at the same market as Evelina; and she was fascinated by
- the thought that he and her sister might constantly be meeting in
- total unconsciousness of the link between them. Whenever she
- reached this stage in her reflexions she lifted a furtive glance to
- the clock, whose loud staccato tick was becoming a part of her
- inmost being.
-
- The seed sown by these long hours of meditation germinated at
- last in the secret wish to go to market some morning in Evelina's
- stead. As this purpose rose to the surface of Ann Eliza's thoughts
- she shrank back shyly from its contemplation. A plan so steeped in
- duplicity had never before taken shape in her crystalline soul.
- How was it possible for her to consider such a step? And, besides,
- (she did not possess sufficient logic to mark the downward trend of
- this "besides"), what excuse could she make that would not excite
- her sister's curiosity? From this second query it was an easy
- descent to the third: how soon could she manage to go?
-
- It was Evelina herself, who furnished the necessary pretext by
- awaking with a sore throat on the day when she usually went to
- market. It was a Saturday, and as they always had their bit of
- steak on Sunday the expedition could not be postponed, and it
- seemed natural that Ann Eliza, as she tied an old stocking around
- Evelina's throat, should announce her intention of stepping round
- to the butcher's.
-
- "Oh, Ann Eliza, they'll cheat you so," her sister wailed.
-
- Ann Eliza brushed aside the imputation with a smile, and a few
- minutes later, having set the room to rights, and cast a last
- glance at the shop, she was tying on her bonnet with fumbling
- haste.
-
- The morning was damp and cold, with a sky full of sulky clouds
- that would not make room for the sun, but as yet dropped only an
- occasional snow-flake. In the early light the street looked its
- meanest and most neglected; but to Ann Eliza, never greatly
- troubled by any untidiness for which she was not responsible, it
- seemed to wear a singularly friendly aspect.
-
- A few minutes' walk brought her to the market where Evelina
- made her purchases, and where, if he had any sense of topographical
- fitness, Mr. Ramy must also deal.
-
- Ann Eliza, making her way through the outskirts of potato-
- barrels and flabby fish, found no one in the shop but the gory-
- aproned butcher who stood in the background cutting chops.
-
- As she approached him across the tesselation of fish-scales,
- blood and saw-dust, he laid aside his cleaver and not
- unsympathetically asked: "Sister sick?"
-
- "Oh, not very--jest a cold," she answered, as guiltily as if
- Evelina's illness had been feigned. "We want a steak as usual,
- please--and my sister said you was to be sure to give me jest as
- good a cut as if it was her," she added with child-like candour.
-
- "Oh, that's all right." The butcher picked up his weapon with
- a grin. "Your sister knows a cut as well as any of us," he
- remarked.
-
- In another moment, Ann Eliza reflected, the steak would be cut
- and wrapped up, and no choice left her but to turn her disappointed
- steps toward home. She was too shy to try to delay the butcher by
- such conversational arts as she possessed, but the approach of a
- deaf old lady in an antiquated bonnet and mantle gave her her
- opportunity.
-
- "Wait on her first, please," Ann Eliza whispered. "I ain't in
- any hurry."
-
- The butcher advanced to his new customer, and Ann Eliza,
- palpitating in the back of the shop, saw that the old lady's
- hesitations between liver and pork chops were likely to be
- indefinitely prolonged. They were still unresolved when she was
- interrupted by the entrance of a blowsy Irish girl with a basket on
- her arm. The newcomer caused a momentary diversion, and when she
- had departed the old lady, who was evidently as intolerant of
- interruption as a professional story-teller, insisted on returning
- to the beginning of her complicated order, and weighing anew, with
- an anxious appeal to the butcher's arbitration, the relative
- advantages of pork and liver. But even her hesitations, and the
- intrusion on them of two or three other customers, were of no
- avail, for Mr. Ramy was not among those who entered the shop; and
- at last Ann Eliza, ashamed of staying longer, reluctantly claimed
- her steak, and walked home through the thickening snow.
-
- Even to her simple judgment the vanity of her hopes was plain,
- and in the clear light that disappointment turns upon our actions
- she wondered how she could have been foolish enough to suppose
- that, even if Mr. Ramy DID go to that particular market, he
- would hit on the same day and hour as herself.
-
-
- There followed a colourless week unmarked by farther incident.
- The old stocking cured Evelina's throat, and Mrs. Hawkins dropped
- in once or twice to talk of her baby's teeth; some new orders for
- pinking were received, and Evelina sold a bonnet to the lady with
- puffed sleeves. The lady with puffed sleeves--a resident of "the
- Square," whose name they had never learned, because she always
- carried her own parcels home--was the most distinguished and
- interesting figure on their horizon. She was youngish, she was
- elegant (as the title they had given her implied), and she had a
- sweet sad smile about which they had woven many histories; but even
- the news of her return to town--it was her first apparition that
- year--failed to arouse Ann Eliza's interest. All the small daily
- happenings which had once sufficed to fill the hours now appeared
- to her in their deadly insignificance; and for the first time in
- her long years of drudgery she rebelled at the dullness of her
- life. With Evelina such fits of discontent were habitual and
- openly proclaimed, and Ann Eliza still excused them as one of the
- prerogatives of youth. Besides, Evelina had not been intended by
- Providence to pine in such a narrow life: in the original plan of
- things, she had been meant to marry and have a baby, to wear silk
- on Sundays, and take a leading part in a Church circle. Hitherto
- opportunity had played her false; and for all her superior
- aspirations and carefully crimped hair she had remained as obscure
- and unsought as Ann Eliza. But the elder sister, who had long
- since accepted her own fate, had never accepted Evelina's. Once a
- pleasant young man who taught in Sunday-school had paid the younger
- Miss Bunner a few shy visits. That was years since, and he had
- speedily vanished from their view. Whether he had carried with him
- any of Evelina's illusions, Ann Eliza had never discovered; but his
- attentions had clad her sister in a halo of exquisite
- possibilities.
-
- Ann Eliza, in those days, had never dreamed of allowing
- herself the luxury of self-pity: it seemed as much a personal right
- of Evelina's as her elaborately crinkled hair. But now she began
- to transfer to herself a portion of the sympathy she had so long
- bestowed on Evelina. She had at last recognized her right to set
- up some lost opportunities of her own; and once that dangerous
- precedent established, they began to crowd upon her memory.
-
- It was at this stage of Ann Eliza's transformation that
- Evelina, looking up one evening from her work, said suddenly: "My!
- She's stopped."
-
- Ann Eliza, raising her eyes from a brown merino seam, followed
- her sister's glance across the room. It was a Monday, and they
- always wound the clock on Sundays.
-
- "Are you sure you wound her yesterday, Evelina?"
-
- "Jest as sure as I live. She must be broke. I'll go and
- see."
-
- Evelina laid down the hat she was trimming, and took the clock
- from its shelf.
-
- "There--I knew it! She's wound jest as TIGHT--what you
- suppose's happened to her, Ann Eliza?"
-
- "I dunno, I'm sure," said the elder sister, wiping her
- spectacles before proceeding to a close examination of the clock.
-
- With anxiously bent heads the two women shook and turned it,
- as though they were trying to revive a living thing; but it
- remained unresponsive to their touch, and at length Evelina laid it
- down with a sigh.
-
- "Seems like somethin' DEAD, don't it, Ann Eliza? How
- still the room is!"
-
- "Yes, ain't it?"
-
- "Well, I'll put her back where she belongs," Evelina
- continued, in the tone of one about to perform the last offices for
- the departed. "And I guess," she added, "you'll have to step round
- to Mr. Ramy's to-morrow, and see if he can fix her."
-
- Ann Eliza's face burned. "I--yes, I guess I'll have to," she
- stammered, stooping to pick up a spool of cotton which had rolled
- to the floor. A sudden heart-throb stretched the seams of her flat
- alpaca bosom, and a pulse leapt to life in each of her temples.
-
- That night, long after Evelina slept, Ann Eliza lay awake in
- the unfamiliar silence, more acutely conscious of the nearness of
- the crippled clock than when it had volubly told out the minutes.
- The next morning she woke from a troubled dream of having carried
- it to Mr. Ramy's, and found that he and his shop had vanished; and
- all through the day's occupations the memory of this dream
- oppressed her.
-
- It had been agreed that Ann Eliza should take the clock to be
- repaired as soon as they had dined; but while they were still at
- table a weak-eyed little girl in a black apron stabbed with
- innumerable pins burst in on them with the cry: "Oh, Miss Bunner,
- for mercy's sake! Miss Mellins has been took again."
-
- Miss Mellins was the dress-maker upstairs, and the weak-eyed
- child one of her youthful apprentices.
-
- Ann Eliza started from her seat. "I'll come at once. Quick,
- Evelina, the cordial!"
-
- By this euphemistic name the sisters designated a bottle of
- cherry brandy, the last of a dozen inherited from their
- grandmother, which they kept locked in their cupboard against such
- emergencies. A moment later, cordial in hand, Ann Eliza was
- hurrying upstairs behind the weak-eyed child.
-
- Miss Mellins' "turn" was sufficiently serious to detain Ann
- Eliza for nearly two hours, and dusk had fallen when she took up
- the depleted bottle of cordial and descended again to the shop. It
- was empty, as usual, and Evelina sat at her pinking-machine in the
- back room. Ann Eliza was still agitated by her efforts to restore
- the dress-maker, but in spite of her preoccupation she was struck,
- as soon as she entered, by the loud tick of the clock, which still
- stood on the shelf where she had left it.
-
- "Why, she's going!" she gasped, before Evelina could question
- her about Miss Mellins. "Did she start up again by herself?"
-
- "Oh, no; but I couldn't stand not knowing what time it was,
- I've got so accustomed to having her round; and just after you went
- upstairs Mrs. Hawkins dropped in, so I asked her to tend the store
- for a minute, and I clapped on my things and ran right round to Mr.
- Ramy's. It turned out there wasn't anything the matter with her--
- nothin' on'y a speck of dust in the works--and he fixed her for me
- in a minute and I brought her right back. Ain't it lovely to hear
- her going again? But tell me about Miss Mellins, quick!"
-
- For a moment Ann Eliza found no words. Not till she learned
- that she had missed her chance did she understand how many hopes
- had hung upon it. Even now she did not know why she had wanted so
- much to see the clock-maker again.
-
- "I s'pose it's because nothing's ever happened to me," she
- thought, with a twinge of envy for the fate which gave
- Evelina every opportunity that came their way. "She had the
- Sunday-school teacher too," Ann Eliza murmured to herself; but she
- was well-trained in the arts of renunciation, and after a scarcely
- perceptible pause she plunged into a detailed description of the
- dress-maker's "turn."
-
- Evelina, when her curiosity was roused, was an insatiable
- questioner, and it was supper-time before she had come to the end
- of her enquiries about Miss Mellins; but when the two sisters had
- seated themselves at their evening meal Ann Eliza at last found a
- chance to say: "So she on'y had a speck of dust in her."
-
- Evelina understood at once that the reference was not to Miss
- Mellins. "Yes--at least he thinks so," she answered, helping
- herself as a matter of course to the first cup of tea.
-
- "On'y to think!" murmured Ann Eliza.
-
- "But he isn't SURE," Evelina continued, absently
- pushing the teapot toward her sister. "It may be something wrong
- with the--I forget what he called it. Anyhow, he said he'd call
- round and see, day after to-morrow, after supper."
-
- "Who said?" gasped Ann Eliza.
-
- "Why, Mr. Ramy, of course. I think he's real nice, Ann Eliza.
- And I don't believe he's forty; but he DOES look sick. I
- guess he's pretty lonesome, all by himself in that store. He as
- much as told me so, and somehow"--Evelina paused and bridled--"I
- kinder thought that maybe his saying he'd call round about the
- clock was on'y just an excuse. He said it just as I was going out
- of the store. What you think, Ann Eliza?"
-
- "Oh, I don't har'ly know." To save herself, Ann Eliza could
- produce nothing warmer.
-
- "Well, I don't pretend to be smarter than other folks," said
- Evelina, putting a conscious hand to her hair, "but I guess Mr.
- Herman Ramy wouldn't be sorry to pass an evening here, 'stead of
- spending it all alone in that poky little place of his."
-
- Her self-consciousness irritated Ann Eliza.
-
- "I guess he's got plenty of friends of his own," she said,
- almost harshly.
-
- "No, he ain't, either. He's got hardly any."
-
- "Did he tell you that too?" Even to her own ears there was a
- faint sneer in the interrogation.
-
- "Yes, he did," said Evelina, dropping her lids with a smile.
- "He seemed to be just crazy to talk to somebody--somebody
- agreeable, I mean. I think the man's unhappy, Ann Eliza."
-
- "So do I," broke from the elder sister.
-
- "He seems such an educated man, too. He was reading the paper
- when I went in. Ain't it sad to think of his being reduced to that
- little store, after being years at Tiff'ny's, and one of the head
- men in their clock-department?"
-
- "He told you all that?"
-
- "Why, yes. I think he'd a' told me everything ever happened
- to him if I'd had the time to stay and listen. I tell you he's
- dead lonely, Ann Eliza."
-
- "Yes," said Ann Eliza.
-
-
- III
-
-
- Two days afterward, Ann Eliza noticed that Evelina, before
- they sat down to supper, pinned a crimson bow under her collar; and
- when the meal was finished the younger sister, who seldom concerned
- herself with the clearing of the table, set about with nervous
- haste to help Ann Eliza in the removal of the dishes.
-
- "I hate to see food mussing about," she grumbled. "Ain't it
- hateful having to do everything in one room?"
-
- "Oh, Evelina, I've always thought we was so comfortable," Ann
- Eliza protested.
-
- "Well, so we are, comfortable enough; but I don't suppose
- there's any harm in my saying I wisht we had a parlour, is there?
- Anyway, we might manage to buy a screen to hide the bed."
-
- Ann Eliza coloured. There was something vaguely embarrassing
- in Evelina's suggestion.
-
- "I always think if we ask for more what we have may be taken
- from us," she ventured.
-
- "Well, whoever took it wouldn't get much," Evelina retorted
- with a laugh as she swept up the table-cloth.
-
- A few moments later the back room was in its usual flawless
- order and the two sisters had seated themselves near the lamp. Ann
- Eliza had taken up her sewing, and Evelina was preparing to make
- artificial flowers. The sisters usually relegated this
- more delicate business to the long leisure of the summer months;
- but to-night Evelina had brought out the box which lay all winter
- under the bed, and spread before her a bright array of muslin
- petals, yellow stamens and green corollas, and a tray of little
- implements curiously suggestive of the dental art. Ann Eliza made
- no remark on this unusual proceeding; perhaps she guessed why, for
- that evening her sister had chosen a graceful task.
-
- Presently a knock on the outer door made them look up; but
- Evelina, the first on her feet, said promptly: "Sit still. I'll
- see who it is."
-
- Ann Eliza was glad to sit still: the baby's petticoat that she
- was stitching shook in her fingers.
-
- "Sister, here's Mr. Ramy come to look at the clock," said
- Evelina, a moment later, in the high drawl she cultivated before
- strangers; and a shortish man with a pale bearded face and upturned
- coat-collar came stiffly into the room.
-
- Ann Eliza let her work fall as she stood up. "You're very
- welcome, I'm sure, Mr. Ramy. It's real kind of you to call."
-
- "Nod ad all, ma'am." A tendency to illustrate Grimm's law in
- the interchange of his consonants betrayed the clockmaker's
- nationality, but he was evidently used to speaking English, or at
- least the particular branch of the vernacular with which the Bunner
- sisters were familiar. "I don't like to led any clock go out of my
- store without being sure it gives satisfaction," he added.
-
- "Oh--but we were satisfied," Ann Eliza assured him.
-
- "But I wasn't, you see, ma'am," said Mr. Ramy looking slowly
- about the room, "nor I won't be, not till I see that clock's going
- all right."
-
- "May I assist you off with your coat, Mr. Ramy?" Evelina
- interposed. She could never trust Ann Eliza to remember these
- opening ceremonies.
-
- "Thank you, ma'am," he replied, and taking his thread-bare
- over-coat and shabby hat she laid them on a chair with the gesture
- she imagined the lady with the puffed sleeves might make use of on
- similar occasions. Ann Eliza's social sense was roused, and she
- felt that the next act of hospitality must be hers. "Won't you
- suit yourself to a seat?" she suggested. "My sister will reach
- down the clock; but I'm sure she's all right again. She's went
- beautiful ever since you fixed her."
-
- "Dat's good," said Mr. Ramy. His lips parted in a smile which
- showed a row of yellowish teeth with one or two gaps in it; but in
- spite of this disclosure Ann Eliza thought his smile extremely
- pleasant: there was something wistful and conciliating in it which
- agreed with the pathos of his sunken cheeks and prominent eyes. As
- he took the lamp, the light fell on his bulging forehead and wide
- skull thinly covered with grayish hair. His hands were pale and
- broad, with knotty joints and square finger-tips rimmed with grime;
- but his touch was as light as a woman's.
-
- "Well, ladies, dat clock's all right," he pronounced.
-
- "I'm sure we're very much obliged to you," said Evelina,
- throwing a glance at her sister.
-
- "Oh," Ann Eliza murmured, involuntarily answering the
- admonition. She selected a key from the bunch that hung at her
- waist with her cutting-out scissors, and fitting it into the lock
- of the cupboard, brought out the cherry brandy and three old-
- fashioned glasses engraved with vine-wreaths.
-
- "It's a very cold night," she said, "and maybe you'd like a
- sip of this cordial. It was made a great while ago by our
- grandmother."
-
- "It looks fine," said Mr. Ramy bowing, and Ann Eliza filled
- the glasses. In her own and Evelina's she poured only a few drops,
- but she filled their guest's to the brim. "My sister and I seldom
- take wine," she explained.
-
- With another bow, which included both his hostesses, Mr. Ramy
- drank off the cherry brandy and pronounced it excellent.
-
- Evelina meanwhile, with an assumption of industry intended to
- put their guest at ease, had taken up her instruments and was
- twisting a rose-petal into shape.
-
- "You make artificial flowers, I see, ma'am," said Mr. Ramy
- with interest. "It's very pretty work. I had a lady-vriend in
- Shermany dat used to make flowers." He put out a square finger-tip
- to touch the petal.
-
- Evelina blushed a little. "You left Germany long ago, I
- suppose?"
-
- "Dear me yes, a goot while ago. I was only ninedeen when I
- come to the States."
-
- After this the conversation dragged on intermittently till Mr.
- Ramy, peering about the room with the short-sighted glance of his
- race, said with an air of interest: "You're pleasantly fixed here;
- it looks real cosy." The note of wistfulness in his voice was
- obscurely moving to Ann Eliza.
-
- "Oh, we live very plainly," said Evelina, with an affectation
- of grandeur deeply impressive to her sister. "We have very simple
- tastes."
-
- "You look real comfortable, anyhow," said Mr. Ramy. His
- bulging eyes seemed to muster the details of the scene with a
- gentle envy. "I wisht I had as good a store; but I guess no blace
- seems home-like when you're always alone in it."
-
- For some minutes longer the conversation moved on at this
- desultory pace, and then Mr. Ramy, who had been obviously nerving
- himself for the difficult act of departure, took his leave with an
- abruptness which would have startled anyone used to the subtler
- gradations of intercourse. But to Ann Eliza and her sister there
- was nothing surprising in his abrupt retreat. The long-drawn
- agonies of preparing to leave, and the subsequent dumb plunge
- through the door, were so usual in their circle that they would
- have been as much embarrassed as Mr. Ramy if he had tried to put
- any fluency into his adieux.
-
- After he had left both sisters remained silent for a while;
- then Evelina, laying aside her unfinished flower, said: "I'll go
- and lock up."
-
-
-
- IV
-
-
- Intolerably monotonous seemed now to the Bunner sisters the
- treadmill routine of the shop, colourless and long their evenings
- about the lamp, aimless their habitual interchange of words to the
- weary accompaniment of the sewing and pinking machines.
-
- It was perhaps with the idea of relieving the tension of their
- mood that Evelina, the following Sunday, suggested inviting Miss
- Mellins to supper. The Bunner sisters were not in a position to be
- lavish of the humblest hospitality, but two or three times in the
- year they shared their evening meal with a friend; and Miss
- Mellins, still flushed with the importance of her "turn," seemed
- the most interesting guest they could invite.
-
- As the three women seated themselves at the supper-table,
- embellished by the unwonted addition of pound cake and sweet
- pickles, the dress-maker's sharp swarthy person stood out vividly
- between the neutral-tinted sisters. Miss Mellins was a small woman
- with a glossy yellow face and a frizz of black hair bristling with
- imitation tortoise-shell pins. Her sleeves had a fashionable cut,
- and half a dozen metal bangles rattled on her wrists. Her voice
- rattled like her bangles as she poured forth a stream of anecdote
- and ejaculation; and her round black eyes jumped with acrobatic
- velocity from one face to another. Miss Mellins was always having
- or hearing of amazing adventures. She had surprised a burglar in
- her room at midnight (though how he got there, what he robbed her
- of, and by what means he escaped had never been quite clear to her
- auditors); she had been warned by anonymous letters that her grocer
- (a rejected suitor) was putting poison in her tea; she had a
- customer who was shadowed by detectives, and another (a very
- wealthy lady) who had been arrested in a department store for
- kleptomania; she had been present at a spiritualist seance where an
- old gentleman had died in a fit on seeing a materialization of his
- mother-in-law; she had escaped from two fires in her night-gown,
- and at the funeral of her first cousin the horses attached to the
- hearse had run away and smashed the coffin, precipitating her
- relative into an open man-hole before the eyes of his distracted
- family.
-
- A sceptical observer might have explained Miss Mellins's
- proneness to adventure by the fact that she derived her chief
- mental nourishment from the Police Gazette and the
- Fireside Weekly; but her lot was cast in a circle where such
- insinuations were not likely to be heard, and where the title-role
- in blood-curdling drama had long been her recognized right.
-
- "Yes," she was now saying, her emphatic eyes on Ann Eliza,
- "you may not believe it, Miss Bunner, and I don't know's I
- should myself if anybody else was to tell me, but over a year
- before ever I was born, my mother she went to see a gypsy fortune-
- teller that was exhibited in a tent on the Battery with the green-
- headed lady, though her father warned her not to--and what you
- s'pose she told her? Why, she told her these very words--says she:
- 'Your next child'll be a girl with jet-black curls, and she'll
- suffer from spasms.'"
-
- "Mercy!" murmured Ann Eliza, a ripple of sympathy running down
- her spine.
-
- "D'you ever have spasms before, Miss Mellins?" Evelina asked.
-
- "Yes, ma'am," the dress-maker declared. "And where'd you
- suppose I had 'em? Why, at my cousin Emma McIntyre's wedding, her
- that married the apothecary over in Jersey City, though her mother
- appeared to her in a dream and told her she'd rue the day she done
- it, but as Emma said, she got more advice than she wanted from the
- living, and if she was to listen to spectres too she'd never be
- sure what she'd ought to do and what she'd oughtn't; but I will say
- her husband took to drink, and she never was the same woman after
- her fust baby--well, they had an elegant church wedding, and what
- you s'pose I saw as I was walkin' up the aisle with the wedding
- percession?"
-
- "Well?" Ann Eliza whispered, forgetting to thread her needle.
-
- "Why, a coffin, to be sure, right on the top step of the
- chancel--Emma's folks is 'piscopalians and she would have a church
- wedding, though HIS mother raised a terrible rumpus over it-
- -well, there it set, right in front of where the minister stood
- that was going to marry 'em, a coffin covered with a black velvet
- pall with a gold fringe, and a 'Gates Ajar' in white camellias atop
- of it."
-
- "Goodness," said Evelina, starting, "there's a knock!"
-
- "Who can it be?" shuddered Ann Eliza, still under the spell of
- Miss Mellins's hallucination.
-
- Evelina rose and lit a candle to guide her through the shop.
- They heard her turn the key of the outer door, and a gust of night
- air stirred the close atmosphere of the back room; then there was
- a sound of vivacious exclamations, and Evelina returned with Mr.
- Ramy.
-
- Ann Eliza's heart rocked like a boat in a heavy sea, and the
- dress-maker's eyes, distended with curiosity, sprang eagerly from
- face to face.
-
- "I just thought I'd call in again," said Mr. Ramy, evidently
- somewhat disconcerted by the presence of Miss Mellins. "Just to
- see how the clock's behaving," he added with his hollow-cheeked
- smile.
-
- "Oh, she's behaving beautiful," said Ann Eliza; "but we're
- real glad to see you all the same. Miss Mellins, let me make you
- acquainted with Mr. Ramy."
-
- The dress-maker tossed back her head and dropped her lids in
- condescending recognition of the stranger's presence; and Mr. Ramy
- responded by an awkward bow. After the first moment of constraint
- a renewed sense of satisfaction filled the consciousness of the
- three women. The Bunner sisters were not sorry to let Miss Mellins
- see that they received an occasional evening visit, and Miss
- Mellins was clearly enchanted at the opportunity of pouring her
- latest tale into a new ear. As for Mr. Ramy, he adjusted himself
- to the situation with greater ease than might have been expected,
- and Evelina, who had been sorry that he should enter the room while
- the remains of supper still lingered on the table, blushed with
- pleasure at his good-humored offer to help her "glear away."
-
- The table cleared, Ann Eliza suggested a game of cards; and it
- was after eleven o'clock when Mr. Ramy rose to take leave. His
- adieux were so much less abrupt than on the occasion of his first
- visit that Evelina was able to satisfy her sense of etiquette by
- escorting him, candle in hand, to the outer door; and as the two
- disappeared into the shop Miss Mellins playfully turned to Ann
- Eliza.
-
- "Well, well, Miss Bunner," she murmured, jerking her chin in
- the direction of the retreating figures, "I'd no idea your sister
- was keeping company. On'y to think!"
-
- Ann Eliza, roused from a state of dreamy beatitude, turned her
- timid eyes on the dress-maker.
-
- "Oh, you're mistaken, Miss Mellins. We don't har'ly know Mr.
- Ramy."
-
- Miss Mellins smiled incredulously. "You go 'long, Miss
- Bunner. I guess there'll be a wedding somewheres round
- here before spring, and I'll be real offended if I ain't asked to
- make the dress. I've always seen her in a gored satin with
- rooshings."
-
- Ann Eliza made no answer. She had grown very pale, and her
- eyes lingered searchingly on Evelina as the younger sister re-
- entered the room. Evelina's cheeks were pink, and her blue eyes
- glittered; but it seemed to Ann Eliza that the coquettish tilt of
- her head regrettably emphasized the weakness of her receding chin.
- It was the first time that Ann Eliza had ever seen a flaw in her
- sister's beauty, and her involuntary criticism startled her like a
- secret disloyalty.
-
- That night, after the light had been put out, the elder sister
- knelt longer than usual at her prayers. In the silence of the
- darkened room she was offering up certain dreams and aspirations
- whose brief blossoming had lent a transient freshness to her days.
- She wondered now how she could ever have supposed that Mr. Ramy's
- visits had another cause than the one Miss Mellins suggested. Had
- not the sight of Evelina first inspired him with a sudden
- solicitude for the welfare of the clock? And what charms but
- Evelina's could have induced him to repeat his visit? Grief held
- up its torch to the frail fabric of Ann Eliza's illusions, and with
- a firm heart she watched them shrivel into ashes; then, rising from
- her knees full of the chill joy of renunciation, she laid a kiss on
- the crimping pins of the sleeping Evelina and crept under the
- bedspread at her side.
-
-
- V
-
-
- During the months that followed, Mr. Ramy visited the sisters
- with increasing frequency. It became his habit to call on them
- every Sunday evening, and occasionally during the week he would
- find an excuse for dropping in unannounced as they were settling
- down to their work beside the lamp. Ann Eliza noticed that Evelina
- now took the precaution of putting on her crimson bow every evening
- before supper, and that she had refurbished with a bit of carefully
- washed lace the black silk which they still called new because it
- had been bought a year after Ann Eliza's.
-
- Mr. Ramy, as he grew more intimate, became less
- conversational, and after the sisters had blushingly accorded him
- the privilege of a pipe he began to permit himself long stretches
- of meditative silence that were not without charm to his hostesses.
- There was something at once fortifying and pacific in the sense of
- that tranquil male presence in an atmosphere which had so long
- quivered with little feminine doubts and distresses; and the
- sisters fell into the habit of saying to each other, in moments of
- uncertainty: "We'll ask Mr. Ramy when he comes," and of accepting
- his verdict, whatever it might be, with a fatalistic readiness that
- relieved them of all responsibility.
-
- When Mr. Ramy drew the pipe from his mouth and became, in his
- turn, confidential, the acuteness of their sympathy grew almost
- painful to the sisters. With passionate participation they
- listened to the story of his early struggles in Germany, and of the
- long illness which had been the cause of his recent misfortunes.
- The name of the Mrs. Hochmuller (an old comrade's widow) who had
- nursed him through his fever was greeted with reverential sighs and
- an inward pang of envy whenever it recurred in his biographical
- monologues, and once when the sisters were alone Evelina called a
- responsive flush to Ann Eliza's brow by saying suddenly, without
- the mention of any name: "I wonder what she's like?"
-
- One day toward spring Mr. Ramy, who had by this time become as
- much a part of their lives as the letter-carrier or the milkman,
- ventured the suggestion that the ladies should accompany him to an
- exhibition of stereopticon views which was to take place at
- Chickering Hall on the following evening.
-
- After their first breathless "Oh!" of pleasure there was a
- silence of mutual consultation, which Ann Eliza at last broke by
- saying: "You better go with Mr. Ramy, Evelina. I guess we don't
- both want to leave the store at night."
-
- Evelina, with such protests as politeness demanded, acquiesced
- in this opinion, and spent the next day in trimming a white chip
- bonnet with forget-me-nots of her own making. Ann Eliza brought
- out her mosaic brooch, a cashmere scarf of their mother's was taken
- from its linen cerements, and thus adorned Evelina
- blushingly departed with Mr. Ramy, while the elder sister sat down
- in her place at the pinking-machine.
-
- It seemed to Ann Eliza that she was alone for hours, and she
- was surprised, when she heard Evelina tap on the door, to find that
- the clock marked only half-past ten.
-
- "It must have gone wrong again," she reflected as she rose to
- let her sister in.
-
- The evening had been brilliantly interesting, and several
- striking stereopticon views of Berlin had afforded Mr. Ramy the
- opportunity of enlarging on the marvels of his native city.
-
- "He said he'd love to show it all to me!" Evelina declared as
- Ann Eliza conned her glowing face. "Did you ever hear anything so
- silly? I didn't know which way to look."
-
- Ann Eliza received this confidence with a sympathetic murmur.
-
- "My bonnet IS becoming, isn't it?" Evelina went on
- irrelevantly, smiling at her reflection in the cracked glass above
- the chest of drawers.
-
- "You're jest lovely," said Ann Eliza.
-
-
- Spring was making itself unmistakably known to the distrustful
- New Yorker by an increased harshness of wind and prevalence of
- dust, when one day Evelina entered the back room at supper-time
- with a cluster of jonquils in her hand.
-
- "I was just that foolish," she answered Ann Eliza's wondering
- glance, "I couldn't help buyin' 'em. I felt as if I must have
- something pretty to look at right away."
-
- "Oh, sister," said Ann Eliza, in trembling sympathy. She felt
- that special indulgence must be conceded to those in Evelina's
- state since she had had her own fleeting vision of such mysterious
- longings as the words betrayed.
-
- Evelina, meanwhile, had taken the bundle of dried grasses out
- of the broken china vase, and was putting the jonquils in their
- place with touches that lingered down their smooth stems and blade-
- like leaves.
-
- "Ain't they pretty?" she kept repeating as she gathered the
- flowers into a starry circle. "Seems as if spring was really here,
- don't it?"
-
- Ann Eliza remembered that it was Mr. Ramy's evening.
-
- When he came, the Teutonic eye for anything that blooms made
- him turn at once to the jonquils.
-
- "Ain't dey pretty?" he said. "Seems like as if de spring was
- really here."
-
- "Don't it?" Evelina exclaimed, thrilled by the coincidence of
- their thought. "It's just what I was saying to my sister."
-
- Ann Eliza got up suddenly and moved away; she remembered that
- she had not wound the clock the day before. Evelina was sitting at
- the table; the jonquils rose slenderly between herself and Mr.
- Ramy.
-
- "Oh," she murmured with vague eyes, "how I'd love to get away
- somewheres into the country this very minute--somewheres where it
- was green and quiet. Seems as if I couldn't stand the city another
- day." But Ann Eliza noticed that she was looking at Mr. Ramy, and
- not at the flowers.
-
- "I guess we might go to Cendral Park some Sunday," their
- visitor suggested. "Do you ever go there, Miss Evelina?"
-
- "No, we don't very often; leastways we ain't been for a good
- while." She sparkled at the prospect. "It would be lovely,
- wouldn't it, Ann Eliza?"
-
- "Why, yes," said the elder sister, coming back to her seat.
-
- "Well, why don't we go next Sunday?" Mr. Ramy continued. "And
- we'll invite Miss Mellins too--that'll make a gosy little party."
-
- That night when Evelina undressed she took a jonquil from the
- vase and pressed it with a certain ostentation between the leaves
- of her prayer-book. Ann Eliza, covertly observing her, felt that
- Evelina was not sorry to be observed, and that her own acute
- consciousness of the act was somehow regarded as magnifying its
- significance.
-
- The following Sunday broke blue and warm. The Bunner sisters
- were habitual church-goers, but for once they left their prayer-
- books on the what-not, and ten o'clock found them, gloved and
- bonneted, awaiting Miss Mellins's knock. Miss Mellins presently
- appeared in a glitter of jet sequins and spangles, with a tale of
- having seen a strange man prowling under her windows till he was
- called off at dawn by a confederate's whistle; and shortly
- afterward came Mr. Ramy, his hair brushed with more than
- usual care, his broad hands encased in gloves of olive-green kid.
-
- The little party set out for the nearest street-car, and a
- flutter of mingled gratification and embarrassment stirred Ann
- Eliza's bosom when it was found that Mr. Ramy intended to pay their
- fares. Nor did he fail to live up to this opening liberality; for
- after guiding them through the Mall and the Ramble he led the way
- to a rustic restaurant where, also at his expense, they fared
- idyllically on milk and lemon-pie.
-
- After this they resumed their walk, strolling on with the
- slowness of unaccustomed holiday-makers from one path to another--
- through budding shrubberies, past grass-banks sprinkled with lilac
- crocuses, and under rocks on which the forsythia lay like sudden
- sunshine. Everything about her seemed new and miraculously lovely
- to Ann Eliza; but she kept her feelings to herself, leaving it to
- Evelina to exclaim at the hepaticas under the shady ledges, and to
- Miss Mellins, less interested in the vegetable than in the human
- world, to remark significantly on the probable history of the
- persons they met. All the alleys were thronged with promenaders
- and obstructed by perambulators; and Miss Mellins's running
- commentary threw a glare of lurid possibilities over the placid
- family groups and their romping progeny.
-
- Ann Eliza was in no mood for such interpretations of life;
- but, knowing that Miss Mellins had been invited for the sole
- purpose of keeping her company she continued to cling to the dress-
- maker's side, letting Mr. Ramy lead the way with Evelina. Miss
- Mellins, stimulated by the excitement of the occasion, grew more
- and more discursive, and her ceaseless talk, and the kaleidoscopic
- whirl of the crowd, were unspeakably bewildering to Ann Eliza. Her
- feet, accustomed to the slippered ease of the shop, ached with the
- unfamiliar effort of walking, and her ears with the din of the
- dress-maker's anecdotes; but every nerve in her was aware of
- Evelina's enjoyment, and she was determined that no weariness of
- hers should curtail it. Yet even her heroism shrank from the
- significant glances which Miss Mellins presently began to cast at
- the couple in front of them: Ann Eliza could bear to connive at
- Evelina's bliss, but not to acknowledge it to others.
-
- At length Evelina's feet also failed her, and she turned to
- suggest that they ought to be going home. Her flushed face had
- grown pale with fatigue, but her eyes were radiant.
-
- The return lived in Ann Eliza's memory with the persistence of
- an evil dream. The horse-cars were packed with the returning
- throng, and they had to let a dozen go by before they could push
- their way into one that was already crowded. Ann Eliza had never
- before felt so tired. Even Miss Mellins's flow of narrative ran
- dry, and they sat silent, wedged between a negro woman and a pock-
- marked man with a bandaged head, while the car rumbled slowly down
- a squalid avenue to their corner. Evelina and Mr. Ramy sat
- together in the forward part of the car, and Ann Eliza could catch
- only an occasional glimpse of the forget-me-not bonnet and the
- clock-maker's shiny coat-collar; but when the little party got out
- at their corner the crowd swept them together again, and they
- walked back in the effortless silence of tired children to the
- Bunner sisters' basement. As Miss Mellins and Mr. Ramy turned to
- go their various ways Evelina mustered a last display of smiles;
- but Ann Eliza crossed the threshold in silence, feeling the
- stillness of the little shop reach out to her like consoling arms.
-
- That night she could not sleep; but as she lay cold and rigid
- at her sister's side, she suddenly felt the pressure of Evelina's
- arms, and heard her whisper: "Oh, Ann Eliza, warn't it heavenly?"
-
-
- VI
-
-
- For four days after their Sunday in the Park the Bunner
- sisters had no news of Mr. Ramy. At first neither one betrayed her
- disappointment and anxiety to the other; but on the fifth morning
- Evelina, always the first to yield to her feelings, said, as she
- turned from her untasted tea: "I thought you'd oughter take that
- money out by now, Ann Eliza."
-
- Ann Eliza understood and reddened. The winter had been a
- fairly prosperous one for the sisters, and their slowly accumulated
- savings had now reached the handsome sum of two hundred
- dollars; but the satisfaction they might have felt in this unwonted
- opulence had been clouded by a suggestion of Miss Mellins's that
- there were dark rumours concerning the savings bank in which their
- funds were deposited. They knew Miss Mellins was given to vain
- alarms; but her words, by the sheer force of repetition, had so
- shaken Ann Eliza's peace that after long hours of midnight counsel
- the sisters had decided to advise with Mr. Ramy; and on Ann Eliza,
- as the head of the house, this duty had devolved. Mr. Ramy, when
- consulted, had not only confirmed the dress-maker's report, but had
- offered to find some safe investment which should give the sisters
- a higher rate of interest than the suspected savings bank; and Ann
- Eliza knew that Evelina alluded to the suggested transfer.
-
- "Why, yes, to be sure," she agreed. "Mr. Ramy said if he was
- us he wouldn't want to leave his money there any longer'n he could
- help."
-
- "It was over a week ago he said it," Evelina reminded her.
-
- "I know; but he told me to wait till he'd found out for sure
- about that other investment; and we ain't seen him since then."
-
- Ann Eliza's words released their secret fear. "I wonder
- what's happened to him," Evelina said. "You don't suppose he could
- be sick?"
-
- "I was wondering too," Ann Eliza rejoined; and the sisters
- looked down at their plates.
-
- "I should think you'd oughter do something about that money
- pretty soon," Evelina began again.
-
- "Well, I know I'd oughter. What would you do if you was me?"
-
- "If I was YOU," said her sister, with perceptible
- emphasis and a rising blush, "I'd go right round and see if Mr.
- Ramy was sick. YOU could."
-
- The words pierced Ann Eliza like a blade. "Yes, that's so,"
- she said.
-
- "It would only seem friendly, if he really IS sick. If
- I was you I'd go to-day," Evelina continued; and after dinner Ann
- Eliza went.
-
- On the way she had to leave a parcel at the dyer's, and having
- performed that errand she turned toward Mr. Ramy's shop. Never
- before had she felt so old, so hopeless and humble. She knew she
- was bound on a love-errand of Evelina's, and the knowledge seemed
- to dry the last drop of young blood in her veins. It took from
- her, too, all her faded virginal shyness; and with a brisk
- composure she turned the handle of the clock-maker's door.
-
- But as she entered her heart began to tremble, for she saw Mr.
- Ramy, his face hidden in his hands, sitting behind the counter in
- an attitude of strange dejection. At the click of the latch he
- looked up slowly, fixing a lustreless stare on Ann Eliza. For a
- moment she thought he did not know her.
-
- "Oh, you're sick!" she exclaimed; and the sound of her voice
- seemed to recall his wandering senses.
-
- "Why, if it ain't Miss Bunner!" he said, in a low thick tone;
- but he made no attempt to move, and she noticed that his face was
- the colour of yellow ashes.
-
- "You ARE sick," she persisted, emboldened by his
- evident need of help. "Mr. Ramy, it was real unfriendly of you not
- to let us know."
-
- He continued to look at her with dull eyes. "I ain't been
- sick," he said. "Leastways not very: only one of my old turns."
- He spoke in a slow laboured way, as if he had difficulty in getting
- his words together.
-
- "Rheumatism?" she ventured, seeing how unwillingly he seemed
- to move.
-
- "Well--somethin' like, maybe. I couldn't hardly put a name to
- it."
-
- "If it WAS anything like rheumatism, my grandmother
- used to make a tea--" Ann Eliza began: she had forgotten, in the
- warmth of the moment, that she had only come as Evelina's
- messenger.
-
- At the mention of tea an expression of uncontrollable
- repugnance passed over Mr. Ramy's face. "Oh, I guess I'm getting
- on all right. I've just got a headache to-day."
-
- Ann Eliza's courage dropped at the note of refusal in his
- voice.
-
- "I'm sorry," she said gently. "My sister and me'd have been
- glad to do anything we could for you."
-
- "Thank you kindly," said Mr. Ramy wearily; then, as she turned
- to the door, he added with an effort: "Maybe I'll step round to-
- morrow."
-
- "We'll be real glad," Ann Eliza repeated. Her eyes were fixed
- on a dusty bronze clock in the window. She was unaware of looking
- at it at the time, but long afterward she remembered that it
- represented a Newfoundland dog with his paw on an open book.
-
- When she reached home there was a purchaser in the shop,
- turning over hooks and eyes under Evelina's absent-minded
- supervision. Ann Eliza passed hastily into the back room, but in
- an instant she heard her sister at her side.
-
- "Quick! I told her I was goin' to look for some smaller
- hooks--how is he?" Evelina gasped.
-
- "He ain't been very well," said Ann Eliza slowly, her eyes on
- Evelina's eager face; "but he says he'll be sure to be round to-
- morrow night."
-
- "He will? Are you telling me the truth?"
-
- "Why, Evelina Bunner!"
-
- "Oh, I don't care!" cried the younger recklessly, rushing back
- into the shop.
-
- Ann Eliza stood burning with the shame of Evelina's self-
- exposure. She was shocked that, even to her, Evelina should lay
- bare the nakedness of her emotion; and she tried to turn her
- thoughts from it as though its recollection made her a sharer in
- her sister's debasement.
-
- The next evening, Mr. Ramy reappeared, still somewhat sallow
- and red-lidded, but otherwise his usual self. Ann Eliza consulted
- him about the investment he had recommended, and after it had been
- settled that he should attend to the matter for her he took up the
- illustrated volume of Longfellow--for, as the sisters had learned,
- his culture soared beyond the newspapers--and read aloud, with a
- fine confusion of consonants, the poem on "Maidenhood." Evelina
- lowered her lids while he read. It was a very beautiful evening,
- and Ann Eliza thought afterward how different life might have been
- with a companion who read poetry like Mr. Ramy.
-
-
- VII
-
-
- During the ensuing weeks Mr. Ramy, though his visits were as
- frequent as ever, did not seem to regain his usual spirits. He
- complained frequently of headache, but rejected Ann Eliza's
- tentatively proffered remedies, and seemed to shrink from any
- prolonged investigation of his symptoms. July had come, with a
- sudden ardour of heat, and one evening, as the three sat together
- by the open window in the back room, Evelina said: "I dunno what I
- wouldn't give, a night like this, for a breath of real country
- air."
-
- "So would I," said Mr. Ramy, knocking the ashes from his pipe.
- "I'd like to be setting in an arbour dis very minute."
-
- "Oh, wouldn't it be lovely?"
-
- "I always think it's real cool here--we'd be heaps hotter up
- where Miss Mellins is," said Ann Eliza.
-
- "Oh, I daresay--but we'd be heaps cooler somewhere else," her
- sister snapped: she was not infrequently exasperated by Ann Eliza's
- furtive attempts to mollify Providence.
-
- A few days later Mr. Ramy appeared with a suggestion which
- enchanted Evelina. He had gone the day before to see his friend,
- Mrs. Hochmuller, who lived in the outskirts of Hoboken, and Mrs.
- Hochmuller had proposed that on the following Sunday he should
- bring the Bunner sisters to spend the day with her.
-
- "She's got a real garden, you know," Mr. Ramy explained, "wid
- trees and a real summer-house to set in; and hens and chickens too.
- And it's an elegant sail over on de ferry-boat."
-
- The proposal drew no response from Ann Eliza. She was still
- oppressed by the recollection of her interminable Sunday in the
- Park; but, obedient to Evelina's imperious glance, she finally
- faltered out an acceptance.
-
- The Sunday was a very hot one, and once on the ferry-boat Ann
- Eliza revived at the touch of the salt breeze, and the spectacle of
- the crowded waters; but when they reached the other shore, and
- stepped out on the dirty wharf, she began to ache with anticipated
- weariness. They got into a street-car, and were jolted from one
- mean street to another, till at length Mr. Ramy pulled the
- conductor's sleeve and they got out again; then they stood in the
- blazing sun, near the door of a crowded beer-saloon, waiting for
- another car to come; and that carried them out to a thinly settled
- district, past vacant lots and narrow brick houses standing
- in unsupported solitude, till they finally reached an almost rural
- region of scattered cottages and low wooden buildings that looked
- like village "stores." Here the car finally stopped of its own
- accord, and they walked along a rutty road, past a stone-cutter's
- yard with a high fence tapestried with theatrical advertisements,
- to a little red house with green blinds and a garden paling.
- Really, Mr. Ramy had not deceived them. Clumps of dielytra and
- day-lilies bloomed behind the paling, and a crooked elm hung
- romantically over the gable of the house.
-
- At the gate Mrs. Hochmuller, a broad woman in brick-brown
- merino, met them with nods and smiles, while her daughter Linda, a
- flaxen-haired girl with mottled red cheeks and a sidelong stare,
- hovered inquisitively behind her. Mrs. Hochmuller, leading the way
- into the house, conducted the Bunner sisters the way to her
- bedroom. Here they were invited to spread out on a mountainous
- white featherbed the cashmere mantles under which the solemnity of
- the occasion had compelled them to swelter, and when they had given
- their black silks the necessary twitch of readjustment, and Evelina
- had fluffed out her hair before a looking-glass framed in pink-
- shell work, their hostess led them to a stuffy parlour smelling of
- gingerbread. After another ceremonial pause, broken by polite
- enquiries and shy ejaculations, they were shown into the kitchen,
- where the table was already spread with strange-looking spice-cakes
- and stewed fruits, and where they presently found themselves seated
- between Mrs. Hochmuller and Mr. Ramy, while the staring Linda
- bumped back and forth from the stove with steaming dishes.
-
- To Ann Eliza the dinner seemed endless, and the rich fare
- strangely unappetizing. She was abashed by the easy intimacy of
- her hostess's voice and eye. With Mr. Ramy Mrs. Hochmuller was
- almost flippantly familiar, and it was only when Ann Eliza pictured
- her generous form bent above his sick-bed that she could forgive
- her for tersely addressing him as "Ramy." During one of the pauses
- of the meal Mrs. Hochmuller laid her knife and fork against the
- edges of her plate, and, fixing her eyes on the clock-maker's face,
- said accusingly: "You hat one of dem turns again, Ramy."
-
- "I dunno as I had," he returned evasively.
-
- Evelina glanced from one to the other. "Mr. Ramy HAS
- been sick," she said at length, as though to show that she also was
- in a position to speak with authority. "He's complained very
- frequently of headaches."
-
- "Ho!--I know him," said Mrs. Hochmuller with a laugh, her eyes
- still on the clock-maker. "Ain't you ashamed of yourself, Ramy?"
-
- Mr. Ramy, who was looking at his plate, said suddenly one word
- which the sisters could not understand; it sounded to Ann Eliza
- like "Shwike."
-
- Mrs. Hochmuller laughed again. "My, my," she said, "wouldn't
- you think he'd be ashamed to go and be sick and never dell me, me
- that nursed him troo dat awful fever?"
-
- "Yes, I SHOULD," said Evelina, with a spirited glance
- at Ramy; but he was looking at the sausages that Linda had just put
- on the table.
-
- When dinner was over Mrs. Hochmuller invited her guests to
- step out of the kitchen-door, and they found themselves in a green
- enclosure, half garden, half orchard. Grey hens followed by golden
- broods clucked under the twisted apple-boughs, a cat dozed on the
- edge of an old well, and from tree to tree ran the network of
- clothes-line that denoted Mrs. Hochmuller's calling. Beyond the
- apple trees stood a yellow summer-house festooned with scarlet
- runners; and below it, on the farther side of a rough fence, the
- land dipped down, holding a bit of woodland in its hollow. It was
- all strangely sweet and still on that hot Sunday afternoon, and as
- she moved across the grass under the apple-boughs Ann Eliza thought
- of quiet afternoons in church, and of the hymns her mother had sung
- to her when she was a baby.
-
- Evelina was more restless. She wandered from the well to the
- summer-house and back, she tossed crumbs to the chickens and
- disturbed the cat with arch caresses; and at last she expressed a
- desire to go down into the wood.
-
- "I guess you got to go round by the road, then," said Mrs.
- Hochmuller. "My Linda she goes troo a hole in de fence,
- but I guess you'd tear your dress if you was to dry."
-
- "I'll help you," said Mr. Ramy; and guided by Linda the pair
- walked along the fence till they reached a narrow gap in its
- boards. Through this they disappeared, watched curiously in their
- descent by the grinning Linda, while Mrs. Hochmuller and Ann Eliza
- were left alone in the summer-house.
-
- Mrs. Hochmuller looked at her guest with a confidential smile.
- "I guess dey'll be gone quite a while," she remarked, jerking her
- double chin toward the gap in the fence. "Folks like dat don't
- never remember about de dime." And she drew out her knitting.
-
- Ann Eliza could think of nothing to say.
-
- "Your sister she thinks a great lot of him, don't she?" her
- hostess continued.
-
- Ann Eliza's cheeks grew hot. "Ain't you a teeny bit lonesome
- away out here sometimes?" she asked. "I should think you'd be
- scared nights, all alone with your daughter."
-
- "Oh, no, I ain't," said Mrs. Hochmuller. "You see I take in
- washing--dat's my business--and it's a lot cheaper doing it out
- here dan in de city: where'd I get a drying-ground like dis in
- Hobucken? And den it's safer for Linda too; it geeps her outer de
- streets."
-
- "Oh," said Ann Eliza, shrinking. She began to feel a distinct
- aversion for her hostess, and her eyes turned with involuntary
- annoyance to the square-backed form of Linda, still inquisitively
- suspended on the fence. It seemed to Ann Eliza that Evelina and
- her companion would never return from the wood; but they came at
- length, Mr. Ramy's brow pearled with perspiration, Evelina pink and
- conscious, a drooping bunch of ferns in her hand; and it was clear
- that, to her at least, the moments had been winged.
-
- "D'you suppose they'll revive?" she asked, holding up the
- ferns; but Ann Eliza, rising at her approach, said stiffly: "We'd
- better be getting home, Evelina."
-
- "Mercy me! Ain't you going to take your coffee first?" Mrs.
- Hochmuller protested; and Ann Eliza found to her dismay that
- another long gastronomic ceremony must intervene before politeness
- permitted them to leave. At length, however, they found themselves
- again on the ferry-boat. Water and sky were grey, with a dividing
- gleam of sunset that sent sleek opal waves in the boat's wake. The
- wind had a cool tarry breath, as though it had travelled over miles
- of shipping, and the hiss of the water about the paddles was as
- delicious as though it had been splashed into their tired faces.
-
- Ann Eliza sat apart, looking away from the others. She had
- made up her mind that Mr. Ramy had proposed to Evelina in the wood,
- and she was silently preparing herself to receive her sister's
- confidence that evening.
-
- But Evelina was apparently in no mood for confidences. When
- they reached home she put her faded ferns in water, and after
- supper, when she had laid aside her silk dress and the forget-me-
- not bonnet, she remained silently seated in her rocking-chair near
- the open window. It was long since Ann Eliza had seen her in so
- uncommunicative a mood.
-
-
- The following Saturday Ann Eliza was sitting alone in the shop
- when the door opened and Mr. Ramy entered. He had never before
- called at that hour, and she wondered a little anxiously what had
- brought him.
-
- "Has anything happened?" she asked, pushing aside the
- basketful of buttons she had been sorting.
-
- "Not's I know of," said Mr. Ramy tranquilly. "But I always
- close up the store at two o'clock Saturdays at this season, so I
- thought I might as well call round and see you."
-
- "I'm real glad, I'm sure," said Ann Eliza; "but Evelina's
- out."
-
- "I know dat," Mr. Ramy answered. "I met her round de corner.
- She told me she got to go to dat new dyer's up in Forty-eighth
- Street. She won't be back for a couple of hours, har'ly, will
- she?"
-
- Ann Eliza looked at him with rising bewilderment. "No, I
- guess not," she answered; her instinctive hospitality prompting her
- to add: "Won't you set down jest the same?"
-
- Mr. Ramy sat down on the stool beside the counter, and Ann
- Eliza returned to her place behind it.
-
- "I can't leave the store," she explained.
-
- "Well, I guess we're very well here." Ann Eliza had become
- suddenly aware that Mr. Ramy was looking at her with
- unusual intentness. Involuntarily her hand strayed to the thin
- streaks of hair on her temples, and thence descended to straighten
- the brooch beneath her collar.
-
- "You're looking very well to-day, Miss Bunner," said Mr. Ramy,
- following her gesture with a smile.
-
- "Oh," said Ann Eliza nervously. "I'm always well in health,"
- she added.
-
- "I guess you're healthier than your sister, even if you are
- less sizeable."
-
- "Oh, I don't know. Evelina's a mite nervous sometimes, but
- she ain't a bit sickly."
-
- "She eats heartier than you do; but that don't mean nothing,"
- said Mr. Ramy.
-
- Ann Eliza was silent. She could not follow the trend of his
- thought, and she did not care to commit herself farther about
- Evelina before she had ascertained if Mr. Ramy considered
- nervousness interesting or the reverse.
-
- But Mr. Ramy spared her all farther indecision.
-
- "Well, Miss Bunner," he said, drawing his stool closer to the
- counter, "I guess I might as well tell you fust as last what I come
- here for to-day. I want to get married."
-
- Ann Eliza, in many a prayerful midnight hour, had sought to
- strengthen herself for the hearing of this avowal, but now that it
- had come she felt pitifully frightened and unprepared. Mr. Ramy
- was leaning with both elbows on the counter, and she noticed that
- his nails were clean and that he had brushed his hat; yet even
- these signs had not prepared her!
-
- At last she heard herself say, with a dry throat in which her
- heart was hammering: "Mercy me, Mr. Ramy!"
-
- "I want to get married," he repeated. "I'm too lonesome. It
- ain't good for a man to live all alone, and eat noding but cold
- meat every day."
-
- "No," said Ann Eliza softly.
-
- "And the dust fairly beats me."
-
- "Oh, the dust--I know!"
-
- Mr. Ramy stretched one of his blunt-fingered hands toward her.
- "I wisht you'd take me."
-
- Still Ann Eliza did not understand. She rose hesitatingly
- from her seat, pushing aside the basket of buttons which lay
- between them; then she perceived that Mr. Ramy was trying to take
- her hand, and as their fingers met a flood of joy swept over her.
- Never afterward, though every other word of their interview was
- stamped on her memory beyond all possible forgetting, could she
- recall what he said while their hands touched; she only knew that
- she seemed to be floating on a summer sea, and that all its waves
- were in her ears.
-
- "Me--me?" she gasped.
-
- "I guess so," said her suitor placidly. "You suit me right
- down to the ground, Miss Bunner. Dat's the truth."
-
- A woman passing along the street paused to look at the shop-
- window, and Ann Eliza half hoped she would come in; but after a
- desultory inspection she went on.
-
- "Maybe you don't fancy me?" Mr. Ramy suggested,
- discountenanced by Ann Eliza's silence.
-
- A word of assent was on her tongue, but her lips refused it.
- She must find some other way of telling him.
-
- "I don't say that."
-
- "Well, I always kinder thought we was suited to one another,"
- Mr. Ramy continued, eased of his momentary doubt. "I always liked
- de quiet style--no fuss and airs, and not afraid of work." He
- spoke as though dispassionately cataloguing her charms.
-
- Ann Eliza felt that she must make an end. "But, Mr. Ramy, you
- don't understand. I've never thought of marrying."
-
- Mr. Ramy looked at her in surprise. "Why not?"
-
- "Well, I don't know, har'ly." She moistened her twitching
- lips. "The fact is, I ain't as active as I look. Maybe I couldn't
- stand the care. I ain't as spry as Evelina--nor as young," she
- added, with a last great effort.
-
- "But you do most of de work here, anyways," said her suitor
- doubtfully.
-
- "Oh, well, that's because Evelina's busy outside; and where
- there's only two women the work don't amount to much. Besides, I'm
- the oldest; I have to look after things," she hastened on, half
- pained that her simple ruse should so readily deceive him.
-
- "Well, I guess you're active enough for me," he persisted.
- His calm determination began to frighten her; she trembled lest her
- own should be less staunch.
-
- "No, no," she repeated, feeling the tears on her lashes. "I
- couldn't, Mr. Ramy, I couldn't marry. I'm so surprised.
- I always thought it was Evelina--always. And so did everybody
- else. She's so bright and pretty--it seemed so natural."
-
- "Well, you was all mistaken," said Mr. Ramy obstinately.
-
- "I'm so sorry."
-
- He rose, pushing back his chair.
-
- "You'd better think it over," he said, in the large tone of a
- man who feels he may safely wait.
-
- "Oh, no, no. It ain't any sorter use, Mr. Ramy. I don't
- never mean to marry. I get tired so easily--I'd be afraid of the
- work. And I have such awful headaches." She paused, racking her
- brain for more convincing infirmities.
-
- "Headaches, do you?" said Mr. Ramy, turning back.
-
- "My, yes, awful ones, that I have to give right up to.
- Evelina has to do everything when I have one of them headaches.
- She has to bring me my tea in the mornings."
-
- "Well, I'm sorry to hear it," said Mr. Ramy.
-
- "Thank you kindly all the same," Ann Eliza murmured. "And
- please don't--don't--" She stopped suddenly, looking at him
- through her tears.
-
- "Oh, that's all right," he answered. "Don't you fret, Miss
- Gunner. Folks have got to suit themselves." She thought his tone
- had grown more resigned since she had spoken of her headaches.
-
- For some moments he stood looking at her with a hesitating
- eye, as though uncertain how to end their conversation; and at
- length she found courage to say (in the words of a novel she had
- once read): "I don't want this should make any difference between
- us."
-
- "Oh, my, no," said Mr. Ramy, absently picking up his hat.
-
- "You'll come in just the same?" she continued, nerving herself
- to the effort. "We'd miss you awfully if you didn't. Evelina,
- she--" She paused, torn between her desire to turn his thoughts to
- Evelina, and the dread of prematurely disclosing her sister's
- secret.
-
- "Don't Miss Evelina have no headaches?" Mr. Ramy suddenly
- asked.
-
- "My, no, never--well, not to speak of, anyway. She ain't had
- one for ages, and when Evelina IS sick she won't never give
- in to it," Ann Eliza declared, making some hurried adjustments with
- her conscience.
-
- "I wouldn't have thought that," said Mr. Ramy.
-
- "I guess you don't know us as well as you thought you did."
-
- "Well, no, that's so; maybe I don't. I'll wish you good day,
- Miss Bunner"; and Mr. Ramy moved toward the door.
-
- "Good day, Mr. Ramy," Ann Eliza answered.
-
- She felt unutterably thankful to be alone. She knew the
- crucial moment of her life had passed, and she was glad that she
- had not fallen below her own ideals. It had been a wonderful
- experience; and in spite of the tears on her cheeks she was not
- sorry to have known it. Two facts, however, took the edge from its
- perfection: that it had happened in the shop, and that she had not
- had on her black silk.
-
- She passed the next hour in a state of dreamy ecstasy.
- Something had entered into her life of which no subsequent
- empoverishment could rob it: she glowed with the same rich sense of
- possessorship that once, as a little girl, she had felt when her
- mother had given her a gold locket and she had sat up in bed in the
- dark to draw it from its hiding-place beneath her night-gown.
-
- At length a dread of Evelina's return began to mingle with
- these musings. How could she meet her younger sister's eye without
- betraying what had happened? She felt as though a visible glory
- lay on her, and she was glad that dusk had fallen when Evelina
- entered. But her fears were superfluous. Evelina, always self-
- absorbed, had of late lost all interest in the simple happenings of
- the shop, and Ann Eliza, with mingled mortification and relief,
- perceived that she was in no danger of being cross-questioned as to
- the events of the afternoon. She was glad of this; yet there was
- a touch of humiliation in finding that the portentous secret in her
- bosom did not visibly shine forth. It struck her as dull, and even
- slightly absurd, of Evelina not to know at last that they were
- equals.
-
-
-
- PART II
-
-
- VIII
-
- Mr. Ramy, after a decent interval, returned to the shop; and Ann
- Eliza, when they met, was unable to detect whether the emotions
- which seethed under her black alpaca found an echo in his bosom.
- Outwardly he made no sign. He lit his pipe as placidly as ever and
- seemed to relapse without effort into the unruffled intimacy of
- old. Yet to Ann Eliza's initiated eye a change became gradually
- perceptible. She saw that he was beginning to look at her sister
- as he had looked at her on that momentous afternoon: she even
- discerned a secret significance in the turn of his talk with
- Evelina. Once he asked her abruptly if she should like to travel,
- and Ann Eliza saw that the flush on Evelina's cheek was reflected
- from the same fire which had scorched her own.
-
- So they drifted on through the sultry weeks of July. At that
- season the business of the little shop almost ceased, and one
- Saturday morning Mr. Ramy proposed that the sisters should lock up
- early and go with him for a sail down the bay in one of the Coney
- Island boats.
-
- Ann Eliza saw the light in Evelina's eye and her resolve was
- instantly taken.
-
- "I guess I won't go, thank you kindly; but I'm sure my sister
- will be happy to."
-
- She was pained by the perfunctory phrase with which Evelina
- urged her to accompany them; and still more by Mr. Ramy's silence.
-
- "No, I guess I won't go," she repeated, rather in answer to
- herself than to them. "It's dreadfully hot and I've got a kinder
- headache."
-
- "Oh, well, I wouldn't then," said her sister hurriedly.
- "You'd better jest set here quietly and rest."
-
-
- *** A summary of Part I of "Bunner Sisters" appears on page 4
- of the advertising pages.
-
-
- "Yes, I'll rest," Ann Eliza assented.
-
- At two o'clock Mr. Ramy returned, and a moment later he and
- Evelina left the shop. Evelina had made herself another new bonnet
- for the occasion, a bonnet, Ann Eliza thought, almost too youthful
- in shape and colour. It was the first time it had ever occurred to
- her to criticize Evelina's taste, and she was frightened at the
- insidious change in her attitude toward her sister.
-
- When Ann Eliza, in later days, looked back on that afternoon
- she felt that there had been something prophetic in the quality of
- its solitude; it seemed to distill the triple essence of loneliness
- in which all her after-life was to be lived. No purchasers came;
- not a hand fell on the door-latch; and the tick of the clock in the
- back room ironically emphasized the passing of the empty hours.
-
- Evelina returned late and alone. Ann Eliza felt the coming
- crisis in the sound of her footstep, which wavered along as if not
- knowing on what it trod. The elder sister's affection had so
- passionately projected itself into her junior's fate that at such
- moments she seemed to be living two lives, her own and Evelina's;
- and her private longings shrank into silence at the sight of the
- other's hungry bliss. But it was evident that Evelina, never
- acutely alive to the emotional atmosphere about her, had no idea
- that her secret was suspected; and with an assumption of unconcern
- that would have made Ann Eliza smile if the pang had been less
- piercing, the younger sister prepared to confess herself.
-
- "What are you so busy about?" she said impatiently, as Ann
- Eliza, beneath the gas-jet, fumbled for the matches. "Ain't you
- even got time to ask me if I'd had a pleasant day?"
-
- Ann Eliza turned with a quiet smile. "I guess I don't have
- to. Seems to me it's pretty plain you have."
-
- "Well, I don't know. I don't know HOW I feel--
- it's all so queer. I almost think I'd like to scream."
-
- "I guess you're tired."
-
- "No, I ain't. It's not that. But it all happened so
- suddenly, and the boat was so crowded I thought everybody'd hear
- what he was saying.--Ann Eliza," she broke out, "why on earth don't
- you ask me what I'm talking about?"
-
- Ann Eliza, with a last effort of heroism, feigned a fond
- incomprehension.
-
- "What ARE you?"
-
- "Why, I'm engaged to be married--so there! Now it's out! And
- it happened right on the boat; only to think of it! Of course I
- wasn't exactly surprised--I've known right along he was going to
- sooner or later--on'y somehow I didn't think of its happening to-
- day. I thought he'd never get up his courage. He said he was so
- 'fraid I'd say no--that's what kep' him so long from asking me.
- Well, I ain't said yes YET--leastways I told him I'd have to
- think it over; but I guess he knows. Oh, Ann Eliza, I'm so happy!"
- She hid the blinding brightness of her face.
-
- Ann Eliza, just then, would only let herself feel that she was
- glad. She drew down Evelina's hands and kissed her, and they held
- each other. When Evelina regained her voice she had a tale to tell
- which carried their vigil far into the night. Not a syllable, not
- a glance or gesture of Ramy's, was the elder sister spared; and
- with unconscious irony she found herself comparing the details of
- his proposal to her with those which Evelina was imparting with
- merciless prolixity.
-
- The next few days were taken up with the embarrassed
- adjustment of their new relation to Mr. Ramy and to each other.
- Ann Eliza's ardour carried her to new heights of self-effacement,
- and she invented late duties in the shop in order to leave Evelina
- and her suitor longer alone in the back room. Later on, when she
- tried to remember the details of those first days, few came back to
- her: she knew only that she got up each morning with the sense of
- having to push the leaden hours up the same long steep of pain.
-
- Mr. Ramy came daily now. Every evening he and his betrothed
- went out for a stroll around the Square, and when Evelina came in
- her cheeks were always pink. "He's kissed her under that tree at
- the corner, away from the lamp-post," Ann Eliza said to herself,
- with sudden insight into unconjectured things. On Sundays they
- usually went for the whole afternoon to the Central Park, and Ann
- Eliza, from her seat in the mortal hush of the back room, followed
- step by step their long slow beatific walk.
-
- There had been, as yet, no allusion to their marriage, except
- that Evelina had once told her sister that Mr. Ramy wished them to
- invite Mrs. Hochmuller and Linda to the wedding. The mention of
- the laundress raised a half-forgotten fear in Ann Eliza, and she
- said in a tone of tentative appeal: "I guess if I was you I
- wouldn't want to be very great friends with Mrs. Hochmuller."
-
- Evelina glanced at her compassionately. "I guess if you was
- me you'd want to do everything you could to please the man you
- loved. It's lucky," she added with glacial irony, "that I'm not
- too grand for Herman's friends."
-
- "Oh," Ann Eliza protested, "that ain't what I mean--and you
- know it ain't. Only somehow the day we saw her I didn't think she
- seemed like the kinder person you'd want for a friend."
-
- "I guess a married woman's the best judge of such matters,"
- Evelina replied, as though she already walked in the light of her
- future state.
-
- Ann Eliza, after that, kept her own counsel. She saw that
- Evelina wanted her sympathy as little as her admonitions, and that
- already she counted for nothing in her sister's scheme of life. To
- Ann Eliza's idolatrous acceptance of the cruelties of fate this
- exclusion seemed both natural and just; but it caused her the most
- lively pain. She could not divest her love for Evelina of its
- passionate motherliness; no breath of reason could lower it to the
- cool temperature of sisterly affection.
-
- She was then passing, as she thought, through the novitiate of
- her pain; preparing, in a hundred experimental ways, for the
- solitude awaiting her when Evelina left. It was true that it would
- be a tempered loneliness. They would not be far apart. Evelina
- would "run in" daily from the clock-maker's; they would doubtless
- take supper with her on Sundays. But already Ann Eliza guessed
- with what growing perfunctoriness her sister would fulfill
- these obligations; she even foresaw the day when, to get news of
- Evelina, she should have to lock the shop at nightfall and go
- herself to Mr. Ramy's door. But on that contingency she would not
- dwell. "They can come to me when they want to--they'll always find
- me here," she simply said to herself.
-
- One evening Evelina came in flushed and agitated from her
- stroll around the Square. Ann Eliza saw at once that something had
- happened; but the new habit of reticence checked her question.
-
- She had not long to wait. "Oh, Ann Eliza, on'y to think what
- he says--" (the pronoun stood exclusively for Mr. Ramy). "I
- declare I'm so upset I thought the people in the Square would
- notice me. Don't I look queer? He wants to get married right
- off--this very next week."
-
- "Next week?"
-
- "Yes. So's we can move out to St. Louis right away."
-
- "Him and you--move out to St. Louis?"
-
- "Well, I don't know as it would be natural for him to want to
- go out there without me," Evelina simpered. "But it's all so
- sudden I don't know what to think. He only got the letter this
- morning. DO I look queer, Ann Eliza?" Her eye was roving
- for the mirror.
-
- "No, you don't," said Ann Eliza almost harshly.
-
- "Well, it's a mercy," Evelina pursued with a tinge of
- disappointment. "It's a regular miracle I didn't faint right out
- there in the Square. Herman's so thoughtless--he just put the
- letter into my hand without a word. It's from a big firm out
- there--the Tiff'ny of St. Louis, he says it is--offering him a
- place in their clock-department. Seems they heart of him through
- a German friend of his that's settled out there. It's a splendid
- opening, and if he gives satisfaction they'll raise him at the end
- of the year."
-
- She paused, flushed with the importance of the situation,
- which seemed to lift her once for all above the dull level of her
- former life.
-
- "Then you'll have to go?" came at last from Ann Eliza.
-
- Evelina stared. "You wouldn't have me interfere with his
- prospects, would you?"
-
- "No--no. I on'y meant--has it got to be so soon?"
-
- "Right away, I tell you--next week. Ain't it awful?" blushed
- the bride.
-
- Well, this was what happened to mothers. They bore it, Ann
- Eliza mused; so why not she? Ah, but they had their own chance
- first; she had had no chance at all. And now this life which she
- had made her own was going from her forever; had gone, already, in
- the inner and deeper sense, and was soon to vanish in even its
- outward nearness, its surface-communion of voice and eye. At that
- moment even the thought of Evelina's happiness refused her its
- consolatory ray; or its light, if she saw it, was too remote to
- warm her. The thirst for a personal and inalienable tie, for pangs
- and problems of her own, was parching Ann Eliza's soul: it seemed
- to her that she could never again gather strength to look her
- loneliness in the face.
-
- The trivial obligations of the moment came to her aid. Nursed
- in idleness her grief would have mastered her; but the needs of the
- shop and the back room, and the preparations for Evelina's
- marriage, kept the tyrant under.
-
- Miss Mellins, true to her anticipations, had been called on to
- aid in the making of the wedding dress, and she and Ann Eliza were
- bending one evening over the breadths of pearl-grey cashmere which
- in spite of the dress-maker's prophetic vision of gored satin, had
- been judged most suitable, when Evelina came into the room alone.
-
- Ann Eliza had already had occasion to notice that it was a bad
- sign when Mr. Ramy left his affianced at the door. It generally
- meant that Evelina had something disturbing to communicate, and Ann
- Eliza's first glance told her that this time the news was grave.
-
- Miss Mellins, who sat with her back to the door and her head
- bent over her sewing, started as Evelina came around to the
- opposite side of the table.
-
- "Mercy, Miss Evelina! I declare I thought you was a ghost,
- the way you crep' in. I had a customer once up in Forty-ninth
- Street--a lovely young woman with a thirty-six bust and a waist you
- could ha' put into her wedding ring--and her husband, he crep' up
- behind her that way jest for a joke, and frightened her
- into a fit, and when she come to she was a raving maniac, and had
- to be taken to Bloomingdale with two doctors and a nurse to hold
- her in the carriage, and a lovely baby on'y six weeks old--and
- there she is to this day, poor creature."
-
- "I didn't mean to startle you," said Evelina.
-
- She sat down on the nearest chair, and as the lamp-light fell
- on her face Ann Eliza saw that she had been crying.
-
- "You do look dead-beat," Miss Mellins resumed, after a pause
- of soul-probing scrutiny. "I guess Mr. Ramy lugs you round that
- Square too often. You'll walk your legs off if you ain't careful.
- Men don't never consider--they're all alike. Why, I had a cousin
- once that was engaged to a book-agent--"
-
- "Maybe we'd better put away the work for to-night, Miss
- Mellins," Ann Eliza interposed. "I guess what Evelina wants is a
- good night's rest."
-
- "That's so," assented the dress-maker. "Have you got the back
- breadths run together, Miss Bunner? Here's the sleeves. I'll pin
- 'em together." She drew a cluster of pins from her mouth, in which
- she seemed to secrete them as squirrels stow away nuts. "There,"
- she said, rolling up her work, "you go right away to bed, Miss
- Evelina, and we'll set up a little later to-morrow night. I guess
- you're a mite nervous, ain't you? I know when my turn comes I'll
- be scared to death."
-
- With this arch forecast she withdrew, and Ann Eliza, returning
- to the back room, found Evelina still listlessly seated by the
- table. True to her new policy of silence, the elder sister set
- about folding up the bridal dress; but suddenly Evelina said in a
- harsh unnatural voice: "There ain't any use in going on with that."
-
- The folds slipped from Ann Eliza's hands.
-
- "Evelina Bunner--what you mean?"
-
- "Jest what I say. It's put off."
-
- "Put off--what's put off?"
-
- "Our getting married. He can't take me to St. Louis. He
- ain't got money enough." She brought the words out in the
- monotonous tone of a child reciting a lesson.
-
- Ann Eliza picked up another breadth of cashmere and began to
- smooth it out. "I don't understand," she said at length.
-
- "Well, it's plain enough. The journey's fearfully expensive,
- and we've got to have something left to start with when we get out
- there. We've counted up, and he ain't got the money to do it--
- that's all."
-
- "But I thought he was going right into a splendid place."
-
- "So he is; but the salary's pretty low the first year, and
- board's very high in St. Louis. He's jest got another letter from
- his German friend, and he's been figuring it out, and he's afraid
- to chance it. He'll have to go alone."
-
- "But there's your money--have you forgotten that? The hundred
- dollars in the bank."
-
- Evelina made an impatient movement. "Of course I ain't
- forgotten it. On'y it ain't enough. It would all have to go into
- buying furniture, and if he was took sick and lost his place again
- we wouldn't have a cent left. He says he's got to lay by another
- hundred dollars before he'll be willing to take me out there."
-
- For a while Ann Eliza pondered this surprising statement; then
- she ventured: "Seems to me he might have thought of it before."
-
- In an instant Evelina was aflame. "I guess he knows what's
- right as well as you or me. I'd sooner die than be a burden to
- him."
-
- Ann Eliza made no answer. The clutch of an unformulated doubt
- had checked the words on her lips. She had meant, on the day of
- her sister's marriage, to give Evelina the other half of their
- common savings; but something warned her not to say so now.
-
- The sisters undressed without farther words. After they had
- gone to bed, and the light had been put out, the sound of Evelina's
- weeping came to Ann Eliza in the darkness, but she lay motionless
- on her own side of the bed, out of contact with her sister's shaken
- body. Never had she felt so coldly remote from Evelina.
-
- The hours of the night moved slowly, ticked off with wearisome
- insistence by the clock which had played so prominent a part in
- their lives. Evelina's sobs still stirred the bed at gradually
- lengthening intervals, till at length Ann Eliza thought she slept.
- But with the dawn the eyes of the sisters met, and Ann Eliza's
- courage failed her as she looked in Evelina's face.
-
- She sat up in bed and put out a pleading hand.
-
- "Don't cry so, dearie. Don't."
-
- "Oh, I can't bear it, I can't bear it," Evelina moaned.
-
- Ann Eliza stroked her quivering shoulder. "Don't, don't," she
- repeated. "If you take the other hundred, won't that be enough?
- I always meant to give it to you. On'y I didn't want to tell you
- till your wedding day."
-
-
- IX
-
-
- Evelina's marriage took place on the appointed day. It was
- celebrated in the evening, in the chantry of the church which the
- sisters attended, and after it was over the few guests who had been
- present repaired to the Bunner Sisters' basement, where a wedding
- supper awaited them. Ann Eliza, aided by Miss Mellins and Mrs.
- Hawkins, and consciously supported by the sentimental interest of
- the whole street, had expended her utmost energy on the decoration
- of the shop and the back room. On the table a vase of white
- chrysanthemums stood between a dish of oranges and bananas and an
- iced wedding-cake wreathed with orange-blossoms of the bride's own
- making. Autumn leaves studded with paper roses festooned the what-
- not and the chromo of the Rock of Ages, and a wreath of yellow
- immortelles was twined about the clock which Evelina revered as the
- mysterious agent of her happiness.
-
- At the table sat Miss Mellins, profusely spangled and bangled,
- her head sewing-girl, a pale young thing who had helped with
- Evelina's outfit, Mr. and Mrs. Hawkins, with Johnny, their eldest
- boy, and Mrs. Hochmuller and her daughter.
-
- Mrs. Hochmuller's large blonde personality seemed to pervade
- the room to the effacement of the less amply-proportioned guests.
- It was rendered more impressive by a dress of crimson poplin that
- stood out from her in organ-like folds; and Linda, whom Ann Eliza
- had remembered as an uncouth child with a sly look about the eyes,
- surprised her by a sudden blossoming into feminine grace such as
- sometimes follows on a gawky girlhood. The Hochmullers, in fact,
- struck the dominant note in the entertainment. Beside them
- Evelina, unusually pale in her grey cashmere and white bonnet,
- looked like a faintly washed sketch beside a brilliant chromo; and
- Mr. Ramy, doomed to the traditional insignificance of the
- bridegroom's part, made no attempt to rise above his situation.
- Even Miss Mellins sparkled and jingled in vain in the shadow of
- Mrs. Hochmuller's crimson bulk; and Ann Eliza, with a sense of
- vague foreboding, saw that the wedding feast centred about the two
- guests she had most wished to exclude from it. What was said or
- done while they all sat about the table she never afterward
- recalled: the long hours remained in her memory as a whirl of high
- colours and loud voices, from which the pale presence of Evelina
- now and then emerged like a drowned face on a sunset-dabbled sea.
-
- The next morning Mr. Ramy and his wife started for St. Louis,
- and Ann Eliza was left alone. Outwardly the first strain of
- parting was tempered by the arrival of Miss Mellins, Mrs. Hawkins
- and Johnny, who dropped in to help in the ungarlanding and tidying
- up of the back room. Ann Eliza was duly grateful for their
- kindness, but the "talking over" on which they had evidently
- counted was Dead Sea fruit on her lips; and just beyond the
- familiar warmth of their presences she saw the form of Solitude at
- her door.
-
- Ann Eliza was but a small person to harbour so great a guest,
- and a trembling sense of insufficiency possessed her. She had no
- high musings to offer to the new companion of her hearth. Every
- one of her thoughts had hitherto turned to Evelina and shaped
- itself in homely easy words; of the mighty speech of silence she
- knew not the earliest syllable.
-
- Everything in the back room and the shop, on the second day
- after Evelina's going, seemed to have grown coldly unfamiliar. The
- whole aspect of the place had changed with the changed conditions
- of Ann Eliza's life. The first customer who opened the shop-door
- startled her like a ghost; and all night she lay tossing on her
- side of the bed, sinking now and then into an uncertain doze from
- which she would suddenly wake to reach out her hand for Evelina.
- In the new silence surrounding her the walls and furniture found
- voice, frightening her at dusk and midnight with strange sighs
- and stealthy whispers. Ghostly hands shook the window shutters or
- rattled at the outer latch, and once she grew cold at the sound of
- a step like Evelina's stealing through the dark shop to die out on
- the threshold. In time, of course, she found an explanation for
- these noises, telling herself that the bedstead was warping, that
- Miss Mellins trod heavily overhead, or that the thunder of passing
- beer-waggons shook the door-latch; but the hours leading up to
- these conclusions were full of the floating terrors that harden
- into fixed foreboding. Worst of all were the solitary meals, when
- she absently continued to set aside the largest slice of pie for
- Evelina, and to let the tea grow cold while she waited for her
- sister to help herself to the first cup. Miss Mellins, coming in
- on one of these sad repasts, suggested the acquisition of a cat;
- but Ann Eliza shook her head. She had never been used to animals,
- and she felt the vague shrinking of the pious from creatures
- divided from her by the abyss of soullessness.
-
- At length, after ten empty days, Evelina's first letter came.
-
- "My dear Sister," she wrote, in her pinched Spencerian hand,
- "it seems strange to be in this great City so far from home alone
- with him I have chosen for life, but marriage has its solemn duties
- which those who are not can never hope to understand, and happier
- perhaps for this reason, life for them has only simple tasks and
- pleasures, but those who must take thought for others must be
- prepared to do their duty in whatever station it has pleased the
- Almighty to call them. Not that I have cause to complain, my dear
- Husband is all love and devotion, but being absent all day at his
- business how can I help but feel lonesome at times, as the poet
- says it is hard for they that love to live apart, and I often
- wonder, my dear Sister, how you are getting along alone in the
- store, may you never experience the feelings of solitude I have
- underwent since I came here. We are boarding now, but soon expect
- to find rooms and change our place of Residence, then I shall have
- all the care of a household to bear, but such is the fate of those
- who join their Lot with others, they cannot hope to escape from the
- burdens of Life, nor would I ask it, I would not live alway but
- while I live would always pray for strength to do my duty. This
- city is not near as large or handsome as New York, but had my lot
- been cast in a Wilderness I hope I should not repine, such never
- was my nature, and they who exchange their independence for the
- sweet name of Wife must be prepared to find all is not gold that
- glitters, nor I would not expect like you to drift down the stream
- of Life unfettered and serene as a Summer cloud, such is not my
- fate, but come what may will always find in me a resigned and
- prayerful Spirit, and hoping this finds you as well as it leaves
- me, I remain, my dear Sister,
-
- "Yours truly,
-
- "EVELINA B. RAMY."
-
-
- Ann Eliza had always secretly admired the oratorical and
- impersonal tone of Evelina's letters; but the few she had
- previously read, having been addressed to school-mates or distant
- relatives, had appeared in the light of literary compositions
- rather than as records of personal experience. Now she could not
- but wish that Evelina had laid aside her swelling periods for a
- style more suited to the chronicling of homely incidents. She read
- the letter again and again, seeking for a clue to what her sister
- was really doing and thinking; but after each reading she emerged
- impressed but unenlightened from the labyrinth of Evelina's
- eloquence.
-
- During the early winter she received two or three more letters
- of the same kind, each enclosing in its loose husk of rhetoric a
- smaller kernel of fact. By dint of patient interlinear study, Ann
- Eliza gathered from them that Evelina and her husband, after
- various costly experiments in boarding, had been reduced to a
- tenement-house flat; that living in St. Louis was more expensive
- than they had supposed, and that Mr. Ramy was kept out late at
- night (why, at a jeweller's, Ann Eliza wondered?) and found his
- position less satisfactory than he had been led to expect. Toward
- February the letters fell off; and finally they ceased to come.
-
- At first Ann Eliza wrote, shyly but persistently, entreating
- for more frequent news; then, as one appeal after another was
- swallowed up in the mystery of Evelina's protracted
- silence, vague fears began to assail the elder sister. Perhaps
- Evelina was ill, and with no one to nurse her but a man who could
- not even make himself a cup of tea! Ann Eliza recalled the layer
- of dust in Mr. Ramy's shop, and pictures of domestic disorder
- mingled with the more poignant vision of her sister's illness. But
- surely if Evelina were ill Mr. Ramy would have written. He wrote
- a small neat hand, and epistolary communication was not an
- insuperable embarrassment to him. The too probable alternative was
- that both the unhappy pair had been prostrated by some disease
- which left them powerless to summon her--for summon her they surely
- would, Ann Eliza with unconscious cynicism reflected, if she or her
- small economies could be of use to them! The more she strained her
- eyes into the mystery, the darker it grew; and her lack of
- initiative, her inability to imagine what steps might be taken to
- trace the lost in distant places, left her benumbed and helpless.
-
- At last there floated up from some depth of troubled memory
- the name of the firm of St. Louis jewellers by whom Mr. Ramy was
- employed. After much hesitation, and considerable effort, she
- addressed to them a timid request for news of her brother-in-law;
- and sooner than she could have hoped the answer reached her.
-
- "DEAR MADAM,
-
- "In reply to yours of the 29th ult. we beg to state the party
- you refer to was discharged from our employ a month ago. We are
- sorry we are unable to furnish you wish his address.
-
- "Yours Respectfully,
-
- "LUDWIG AND HAMMERBUSCH."
-
-
- Ann Eliza read and re-read the curt statement in a stupor of
- distress. She had lost her last trace of Evelina. All that night
- she lay awake, revolving the stupendous project of going to St.
- Louis in search of her sister; but though she pieced together her
- few financial possibilities with the ingenuity of a brain used to
- fitting odd scraps into patch-work quilts, she woke to the cold
- daylight fact that she could not raise the money for her fare. Her
- wedding gift to Evelina had left her without any resources beyond
- her daily earnings, and these had steadily dwindled as the winter
- passed. She had long since renounced her weekly visit to the
- butcher, and had reduced her other expenses to the narrowest
- measure; but the most systematic frugality had not enabled her to
- put by any money. In spite of her dogged efforts to maintain the
- prosperity of the little shop, her sister's absence had already
- told on its business. Now that Ann Eliza had to carry the bundles
- to the dyer's herself, the customers who called in her absence,
- finding the shop locked, too often went elsewhere. Moreover, after
- several stern but unavailing efforts, she had had to give up the
- trimming of bonnets, which in Evelina's hands had been the most
- lucrative as well as the most interesting part of the business.
- This change, to the passing female eye, robbed the shop window of
- its chief attraction; and when painful experience had convinced the
- regular customers of the Bunner Sisters of Ann Eliza's lack of
- millinery skill they began to lose faith in her ability to curl a
- feather or even "freshen up" a bunch of flowers. The time came
- when Ann Eliza had almost made up her mind to speak to the lady
- with puffed sleeves, who had always looked at her so kindly, and
- had once ordered a hat of Evelina. Perhaps the lady with puffed
- sleeves would be able to get her a little plain sewing to do; or
- she might recommend the shop to friends. Ann Eliza, with this
- possibility in view, rummaged out of a drawer the fly-blown
- remainder of the business cards which the sisters had ordered in
- the first flush of their commercial adventure; but when the lady
- with puffed sleeves finally appeared she was in deep mourning, and
- wore so sad a look that Ann Eliza dared not speak. She came in to
- buy some spools of black thread and silk, and in the doorway she
- turned back to say: "I am going away to-morrow for a long time. I
- hope you will have a pleasant winter." And the door shut on her.
-
- One day not long after this it occurred to Ann Eliza to go to
- Hoboken in quest of Mrs. Hochmuller. Much as she shrank from
- pouring her distress into that particular ear, her anxiety had
- carried her beyond such reluctance; but when she began to
- think the matter over she was faced by a new difficulty. On the
- occasion of her only visit to Mrs. Hochmuller, she and Evelina had
- suffered themselves to be led there by Mr. Ramy; and Ann Eliza now
- perceived that she did not even know the name of the laundress's
- suburb, much less that of the street in which she lived. But she
- must have news of Evelina, and no obstacle was great enough to
- thwart her.
-
- Though she longed to turn to some one for advice she disliked
- to expose her situation to Miss Mellins's searching eye, and at
- first she could think of no other confidant. Then she remembered
- Mrs. Hawkins, or rather her husband, who, though Ann Eliza had
- always thought him a dull uneducated man, was probably gifted with
- the mysterious masculine faculty of finding out people's addresses.
- It went hard with Ann Eliza to trust her secret even to the mild
- ear of Mrs. Hawkins, but at least she was spared the cross-
- examination to which the dress-maker would have subjected her. The
- accumulating pressure of domestic cares had so crushed in Mrs.
- Hawkins any curiosity concerning the affairs of others that she
- received her visitor's confidence with an almost masculine
- indifference, while she rocked her teething baby on one arm and
- with the other tried to check the acrobatic impulses of the next in
- age.
-
- "My, my," she simply said as Ann Eliza ended. "Keep still
- now, Arthur: Miss Bunner don't want you to jump up and down on her
- foot to-day. And what are you gaping at, Johnny? Run right off
- and play," she added, turning sternly to her eldest, who, because
- he was the least naughty, usually bore the brunt of her wrath
- against the others.
-
- "Well, perhaps Mr. Hawkins can help you," Mrs. Hawkins
- continued meditatively, while the children, after scattering at her
- bidding, returned to their previous pursuits like flies settling
- down on the spot from which an exasperated hand has swept them.
- "I'll send him right round the minute he comes in, and you can tell
- him the whole story. I wouldn't wonder but what he can find that
- Mrs. Hochmuller's address in the d'rectory. I know they've got one
- where he works."
-
- "I'd be real thankful if he could," Ann Eliza murmured, rising
- from her seat with the factitious sense of lightness that comes
- from imparting a long-hidden dread.
-
-
- X
-
-
- Mr. Hawkins proved himself worthy of his wife's faith in his
- capacity. He learned from Ann Eliza as much as she could tell him
- about Mrs. Hochmuller and returned the next evening with a scrap of
- paper bearing her address, beneath which Johnny (the family scribe)
- had written in a large round hand the names of the streets that led
- there from the ferry.
-
- Ann Eliza lay awake all that night, repeating over and over
- again the directions Mr. Hawkins had given her. He was a kind man,
- and she knew he would willingly have gone with her to Hoboken;
- indeed she read in his timid eye the half-formed intention of
- offering to accompany her--but on such an errand she preferred to
- go alone.
-
- The next Sunday, accordingly, she set out early, and without
- much trouble found her way to the ferry. Nearly a year had passed
- since her previous visit to Mrs. Hochmuller, and a chilly April
- breeze smote her face as she stepped on the boat. Most of the
- passengers were huddled together in the cabin, and Ann Eliza shrank
- into its obscurest corner, shivering under the thin black mantle
- which had seemed so hot in July. She began to feel a little
- bewildered as she stepped ashore, but a paternal policeman put her
- into the right car, and as in a dream she found herself retracing
- the way to Mrs. Hochmuller's door. She had told the conductor the
- name of the street at which she wished to get out, and presently
- she stood in the biting wind at the corner near the beer-saloon,
- where the sun had once beat down on her so fiercely. At length an
- empty car appeared, its yellow flank emblazoned with the name of
- Mrs. Hochmuller's suburb, and Ann Eliza was presently jolting past
- the narrow brick houses islanded between vacant lots like giant
- piles in a desolate lagoon. When the car reached the end of its
- journey she got out and stood for some time trying to remember
- which turn Mr. Ramy had taken. She had just made up her mind to
- ask the car-driver when he shook the reins on the backs of his lean
- horses, and the car, still empty, jogged away toward Hoboken.
-
- Ann Eliza, left alone by the roadside, began to move
- cautiously forward, looking about for a small red house with a
- gable overhung by an elm-tree; but everything about her seemed
- unfamiliar and forbidding. One or two surly looking men slouched
- past with inquisitive glances, and she could not make up her mind
- to stop and speak to them.
-
- At length a tow-headed boy came out of a swinging door
- suggestive of illicit conviviality, and to him Ann Eliza ventured
- to confide her difficulty. The offer of five cents fired him with
- an instant willingness to lead her to Mrs. Hochmuller, and he was
- soon trotting past the stone-cutter's yard with Ann Eliza in his wake.
-
- Another turn in the road brought them to the little red house,
- and having rewarded her guide Ann Eliza unlatched the gate and
- walked up to the door. Her heart was beating violently, and she
- had to lean against the door-post to compose her twitching lips:
- she had not known till that moment how much it was going to hurt
- her to speak of Evelina to Mrs. Hochmuller. As her agitation
- subsided she began to notice how much the appearance of the house
- had changed. It was not only that winter had stripped the elm, and
- blackened the flower-borders: the house itself had a debased and
- deserted air. The window-panes were cracked and dirty, and one or
- two shutters swung dismally on loosened hinges.
-
- She rang several times before the door was opened. At length
- an Irish woman with a shawl over her head and a baby in her arms
- appeared on the threshold, and glancing past her into the narrow
- passage Ann Eliza saw that Mrs. Hochmuller's neat abode had
- deteriorated as much within as without.
-
- At the mention of the name the woman stared. "Mrs. who, did
- ye say?"
-
- "Mrs. Hochmuller. This is surely her house?"
-
- "No, it ain't neither," said the woman turning away.
-
- "Oh, but wait, please," Ann Eliza entreated. "I can't be
- mistaken. I mean the Mrs. Hochmuller who takes in washing. I came
- out to see her last June."
-
- "Oh, the Dutch washerwoman is it--her that used to live here?
- She's been gone two months and more. It's Mike McNulty lives here
- now. Whisht!" to the baby, who had squared his mouth for a howl.
-
- Ann Eliza's knees grew weak. "Mrs. Hochmuller gone? But
- where has she gone? She must be somewhere round here. Can't you
- tell me?"
-
- "Sure an' I can't," said the woman. "She wint away before
- iver we come."
-
- "Dalia Geoghegan, will ye bring the choild in out av the
- cowld?" cried an irate voice from within.
-
- "Please wait--oh, please wait," Ann Eliza insisted. "You see
- I must find Mrs. Hochmuller."
-
- "Why don't ye go and look for her thin?" the woman returned,
- slamming the door in her face.
-
- She stood motionless on the door-step, dazed by the immensity
- of her disappointment, till a burst of loud voices inside the house
- drove her down the path and out of the gate.
-
- Even then she could not grasp what had happened, and pausing
- in the road she looked back at the house, half hoping that Mrs.
- Hochmuller's once detested face might appear at one of the grimy
- windows.
-
- She was roused by an icy wind that seemed to spring up
- suddenly from the desolate scene, piercing her thin dress like
- gauze; and turning away she began to retrace her steps. She
- thought of enquiring for Mrs. Hochmuller at some of the
- neighbouring houses, but their look was so unfriendly that she
- walked on without making up her mind at which door to ring. When
- she reached the horse-car terminus a car was just moving off toward
- Hoboken, and for nearly an hour she had to wait on the corner in
- the bitter wind. Her hands and feet were stiff with cold when the
- car at length loomed into sight again, and she thought of stopping
- somewhere on the way to the ferry for a cup of tea; but before the
- region of lunch-rooms was reached she had grown so sick and dizzy
- that the thought of food was repulsive. At length she found
- herself on the ferry-boat, in the soothing stuffiness of the
- crowded cabin; then came another interval of shivering on a
- street-corner, another long jolting journey in a "cross-town" car that
- smelt of damp straw and tobacco; and lastly, in the cold spring dusk,
- she unlocked her door and groped her way through the shop to her
- fireless bedroom.
-
- The next morning Mrs. Hawkins, dropping in to hear the result
- of the trip, found Ann Eliza sitting behind the counter wrapped in
- an old shawl.
-
- "Why, Miss Bunner, you're sick! You must have fever--your
- face is just as red!"
-
- "It's nothing. I guess I caught cold yesterday on the ferry-
- boat," Ann Eliza acknowledged.
-
- "And it's jest like a vault in here!" Mrs. Hawkins rebuked
- her. "Let me feel your hand--it's burning. Now, Miss Bunner,
- you've got to go right to bed this very minute."
-
- "Oh, but I can't, Mrs. Hawkins." Ann Eliza attempted a wan
- smile. "You forget there ain't nobody but me to tend the store."
-
- "I guess you won't tend it long neither, if you ain't
- careful," Mrs. Hawkins grimly rejoined. Beneath her placid
- exterior she cherished a morbid passion for disease and death, and
- the sight of Ann Eliza's suffering had roused her from her habitual
- indifference. "There ain't so many folks comes to the store
- anyhow," she went on with unconscious cruelty, "and I'll go right
- up and see if Miss Mellins can't spare one of her girls."
-
- Ann Eliza, too weary to resist, allowed Mrs. Hawkins to put
- her to bed and make a cup of tea over the stove, while Miss
- Mellins, always good-naturedly responsive to any appeal for help,
- sent down the weak-eyed little girl to deal with hypothetical
- customers.
-
- Ann Eliza, having so far abdicated her independence, sank into
- sudden apathy. As far as she could remember, it was the first time
- in her life that she had been taken care of instead of taking care,
- and there was a momentary relief in the surrender. She swallowed
- the tea like an obedient child, allowed a poultice to be applied to
- her aching chest and uttered no protest when a fire was kindled in
- the rarely used grate; but as Mrs. Hawkins bent over to "settle"
- her pillows she raised herself on her elbow to whisper: "Oh, Mrs.
- Hawkins, Mrs. Hochmuller warn't there." The tears rolled down her
- cheeks.
-
- "She warn't there? Has she moved?"
-
- "Over two months ago--and they don't know where she's gone.
- Oh what'll I do, Mrs. Hawkins?"
-
- "There, there, Miss Bunner. You lay still and don't fret.
- I'll ask Mr. Hawkins soon as ever he comes home."
-
- Ann Eliza murmured her gratitude, and Mrs. Hawkins, bending
- down, kissed her on the forehead. "Don't you fret," she repeated,
- in the voice with which she soothed her children.
-
- For over a week Ann Eliza lay in bed, faithfully nursed by her
- two neighbours, while the weak-eyed child, and the pale sewing girl
- who had helped to finish Evelina's wedding dress, took turns in
- minding the shop. Every morning, when her friends appeared, Ann
- Eliza lifted her head to ask: "Is there a letter?" and at their
- gentle negative sank back in silence. Mrs. Hawkins, for several
- days, spoke no more of her promise to consult her husband as to the
- best way of tracing Mrs. Hochmuller; and dread of fresh
- disappointment kept Ann Eliza from bringing up the subject.
-
- But the following Sunday evening, as she sat for the first
- time bolstered up in her rocking-chair near the stove, while Miss
- Mellins studied the Police Gazette beneath the lamp, there
- came a knock on the shop-door and Mr. Hawkins entered.
-
- Ann Eliza's first glance at his plain friendly face showed her
- he had news to give, but though she no longer attempted to hide her
- anxiety from Miss Mellins, her lips trembled too much to let her
- speak.
-
- "Good evening, Miss Bunner," said Mr. Hawkins in his dragging
- voice. "I've been over to Hoboken all day looking round for Mrs.
- Hochmuller."
-
- "Oh, Mr. Hawkins--you HAVE?"
-
- "I made a thorough search, but I'm sorry to say it was no use.
- She's left Hoboken--moved clear away, and nobody seems to know
- where."
-
- "It was real good of you, Mr. Hawkins." Ann Eliza's voice
- struggled up in a faint whisper through the submerging tide of her
- disappointment.
-
- Mr. Hawkins, in his embarrassed sense of being the bringer of
- bad news, stood before her uncertainly; then he turned to go. "No
- trouble at all," he paused to assure her from the doorway.
-
- She wanted to speak again, to detain him, to ask him
- to advise her; but the words caught in her throat and she lay back
- silent.
-
- The next day she got up early, and dressed and bonneted
- herself with twitching fingers. She waited till the weak-eyed
- child appeared, and having laid on her minute instructions as to
- the care of the shop, she slipped out into the street. It had
- occurred to her in one of the weary watches of the previous night
- that she might go to Tiffany's and make enquiries about Ramy's
- past. Possibly in that way she might obtain some information that
- would suggest a new way of reaching Evelina. She was guiltily
- aware that Mrs. Hawkins and Miss Mellins would be angry with her
- for venturing out of doors, but she knew she should never feel any
- better till she had news of Evelina.
-
- The morning air was sharp, and as she turned to face the wind
- she felt so weak and unsteady that she wondered if she should ever
- get as far as Union Square; but by walking very slowly, and
- standing still now and then when she could do so without being
- noticed, she found herself at last before the jeweller's great
- glass doors.
-
- It was still so early that there were no purchasers in the
- shop, and she felt herself the centre of innumerable unemployed
- eyes as she moved forward between long lines of show-cases
- glittering with diamonds and silver.
-
- She was glancing about in the hope of finding the clock-
- department without having to approach one of the impressive
- gentlemen who paced the empty aisles, when she attracted the
- attention of one of the most impressive of the number.
-
- The formidable benevolence with which he enquired what he
- could do for her made her almost despair of explaining herself; but
- she finally disentangled from a flurry of wrong beginnings the
- request to be shown to the clock-department.
-
- The gentleman considered her thoughtfully. "May I ask what
- style of clock you are looking for? Would it be for a wedding-
- present, or--?"
-
- The irony of the allusion filled Ann Eliza's veins with sudden
- strength. "I don't want to buy a clock at all. I want to see the
- head of the department."
-
- "Mr. Loomis?" His stare still weighed her--then he seemed to
- brush aside the problem she presented as beneath his notice. "Oh,
- certainly. Take the elevator to the second floor. Next aisle to
- the left." He waved her down the endless perspective of show-
- cases.
-
- Ann Eliza followed the line of his lordly gesture, and a swift
- ascent brought her to a great hall full of the buzzing and booming
- of thousands of clocks. Whichever way she looked, clocks stretched
- away from her in glittering interminable vistas: clocks of all
- sizes and voices, from the bell-throated giant of the hallway to
- the chirping dressing-table toy; tall clocks of mahogany and brass
- with cathedral chimes; clocks of bronze, glass, porcelain, of every
- possible size, voice and configuration; and between their serried
- ranks, along the polished floor of the aisles, moved the languid
- forms of other gentlemanly floor-walkers, waiting for their duties
- to begin.
-
- One of them soon approached, and Ann Eliza repeated her
- request. He received it affably.
-
- "Mr. Loomis? Go right down to the office at the other end."
- He pointed to a kind of box of ground glass and highly polished
- panelling.
-
- As she thanked him he turned to one of his companions and said
- something in which she caught the name of Mr. Loomis, and which was
- received with an appreciative chuckle. She suspected herself of
- being the object of the pleasantry, and straightened her thin
- shoulders under her mantle.
-
- The door of the office stood open, and within sat a gray-
- bearded man at a desk. He looked up kindly, and again she asked
- for Mr. Loomis.
-
- "I'm Mr. Loomis. What can I do for you?"
-
- He was much less portentous than the others, though she
- guessed him to be above them in authority; and encouraged by his
- tone she seated herself on the edge of the chair he waved her to.
-
- "I hope you'll excuse my troubling you, sir. I came to ask if
- you could tell me anything about Mr. Herman Ramy. He was employed
- here in the clock-department two or three years ago."
-
- Mr. Loomis showed no recognition of the name.
-
- "Ramy? When was he discharged?"
-
- "I don't har'ly know. He was very sick, and when he
- got well his place had been filled. He married my sister last
- October and they went to St. Louis, I ain't had any news of them
- for over two months, and she's my only sister, and I'm most crazy
- worrying about her."
-
- "I see." Mr. Loomis reflected. "In what capacity was Ramy
- employed here?" he asked after a moment.
-
- "He--he told us that he was one of the heads of the clock-
- department," Ann Eliza stammered, overswept by a sudden doubt.
-
- "That was probably a slight exaggeration. But I can tell you
- about him by referring to our books. The name again?"
-
- "Ramy--Herman Ramy."
-
- There ensued a long silence, broken only by the flutter of
- leaves as Mr. Loomis turned over his ledgers. Presently he looked
- up, keeping his finger between the pages.
-
- "Here it is--Herman Ramy. He was one of our ordinary workmen,
- and left us three years and a half ago last June."
-
- "On account of sickness?" Ann Eliza faltered.
-
- Mr. Loomis appeared to hesitate; then he said: "I see no
- mention of sickness." Ann Eliza felt his compassionate eyes on her
- again. "Perhaps I'd better tell you the truth. He was discharged
- for drug-taking. A capable workman, but we couldn't keep him
- straight. I'm sorry to have to tell you this, but it seems fairer,
- since you say you're anxious about your sister."
-
- The polished sides of the office vanished from Ann Eliza's
- sight, and the cackle of the innumerable clocks came to her like
- the yell of waves in a storm. She tried to speak but could not;
- tried to get to her feet, but the floor was gone.
-
- "I'm very sorry," Mr. Loomis repeated, closing the ledger. "I
- remember the man perfectly now. He used to disappear every now and
- then, and turn up again in a state that made him useless for days."
-
- As she listened, Ann Eliza recalled the day when she had come
- on Mr. Ramy sitting in abject dejection behind his counter. She
- saw again the blurred unrecognizing eyes he had raised to her, the
- layer of dust over everything in the shop, and the green bronze
- clock in the window representing a Newfoundland dog with his paw on
- a book. She stood up slowly.
-
- "Thank you. I'm sorry to have troubled you."
-
- "It was no trouble. You say Ramy married your sister last
- October?"
-
- "Yes, sir; and they went to St. Louis right afterward. I
- don't know how to find her. I thought maybe somebody here might
- know about him."
-
- "Well, possibly some of the workmen might. Leave me your name
- and I'll send you word if I get on his track."
-
- He handed her a pencil, and she wrote down her address; then
- she walked away blindly between the clocks.
-
-
- XI
-
-
- Mr. Loomis, true to his word, wrote a few days later that he
- had enquired in vain in the work-shop for any news of Ramy; and as
- she folded this letter and laid it between the leaves of her Bible,
- Ann Eliza felt that her last hope was gone. Miss Mellins, of
- course, had long since suggested the mediation of the police, and
- cited from her favourite literature convincing instances of the
- supernatural ability of the Pinkerton detective; but Mr. Hawkins,
- when called in council, dashed this project by remarking that
- detectives cost something like twenty dollars a day; and a vague
- fear of the law, some half-formed vision of Evelina in the clutch
- of a blue-coated "officer," kept Ann Eliza from invoking the aid of
- the police.
-
- After the arrival of Mr. Loomis's note the weeks followed each
- other uneventfully. Ann Eliza's cough clung to her till late in
- the spring, the reflection in her looking-glass grew more bent and
- meagre, and her forehead sloped back farther toward the twist of
- hair that was fastened above her parting by a comb of black India-
- rubber.
-
- Toward spring a lady who was expecting a baby took up her
- abode at the Mendoza Family Hotel, and through the friendly
- intervention of Miss Mellins the making of some of the baby-clothes
- was entrusted to Ann Eliza. This eased her of anxiety for the
- immediate future; but she had to rouse herself to feel any sense of
- relief. Her personal welfare was what least concerned her.
- Sometimes she thought of giving up the shop altogether; and
- only the fear that, if she changed her address, Evelina might not
- be able to find her, kept her from carrying out this plan.
-
- Since she had lost her last hope of tracing her sister, all
- the activities of her lonely imagination had been concentrated on
- the possibility of Evelina's coming back to her. The discovery of
- Ramy's secret filled her with dreadful fears. In the solitude of
- the shop and the back room she was tortured by vague pictures of
- Evelina's sufferings. What horrors might not be hidden beneath her
- silence? Ann Eliza's great dread was that Miss Mellins should worm
- out of her what she had learned from Mr. Loomis. She was sure Miss
- Mellins must have abominable things to tell about drug-fiends--
- things she did not have the strength to hear. "Drug-fiend"--the
- very word was Satanic; she could hear Miss Mellins roll it on her
- tongue. But Ann Eliza's own imagination, left to itself, had begun
- to people the long hours with evil visions. Sometimes, in the
- night, she thought she heard herself called: the voice was her
- sister's, but faint with a nameless terror. Her most peaceful
- moments were those in which she managed to convince herself that
- Evelina was dead. She thought of her then, mournfully but more
- calmly, as thrust away under the neglected mound of some unknown
- cemetery, where no headstone marked her name, no mourner with
- flowers for another grave paused in pity to lay a blossom on hers.
- But this vision did not often give Ann Eliza its negative relief;
- and always, beneath its hazy lines, lurked the dark conviction that
- Evelina was alive, in misery and longing for her.
-
- So the summer wore on. Ann Eliza was conscious that Mrs.
- Hawkins and Miss Mellins were watching her with affectionate
- anxiety, but the knowledge brought no comfort. She no longer cared
- what they felt or thought about her. Her grief lay far beyond
- touch of human healing, and after a while she became aware that
- they knew they could not help her. They still came in as often as
- their busy lives permitted, but their visits grew shorter, and Mrs.
- Hawkins always brought Arthur or the baby, so that there should be
- something to talk about, and some one whom she could scold.
-
- The autumn came, and the winter. Business had fallen off
- again, and but few purchasers came to the little shop in the
- basement. In January Ann Eliza pawned her mother's cashmere scarf,
- her mosaic brooch, and the rosewood what-not on which the clock had
- always stood; she would have sold the bedstead too, but for the
- persistent vision of Evelina returning weak and weary, and not
- knowing where to lay her head.
-
- The winter passed in its turn, and March reappeared with its
- galaxies of yellow jonquils at the windy street corners, reminding
- Ann Eliza of the spring day when Evelina had come home with a bunch
- of jonquils in her hand. In spite of the flowers which lent such
- a premature brightness to the streets the month was fierce and
- stormy, and Ann Eliza could get no warmth into her bones.
- Nevertheless, she was insensibly beginning to take up the healing
- routine of life. Little by little she had grown used to being
- alone, she had begun to take a languid interest in the one or two
- new purchasers the season had brought, and though the thought of
- Evelina was as poignant as ever, it was less persistently in the
- foreground of her mind.
-
- Late one afternoon she was sitting behind the counter, wrapped
- in her shawl, and wondering how soon she might draw down the blinds
- and retreat into the comparative cosiness of the back room. She
- was not thinking of anything in particular, except perhaps in a
- hazy way of the lady with the puffed sleeves, who after her long
- eclipse had reappeared the day before in sleeves of a new cut, and
- bought some tape and needles. The lady still wore mourning, but
- she was evidently lightening it, and Ann Eliza saw in this the hope
- of future orders. The lady had left the shop about an hour before,
- walking away with her graceful step toward Fifth Avenue. She had
- wished Ann Eliza good day in her usual affable way, and Ann Eliza
- thought how odd it was that they should have been acquainted so
- long, and yet that she should not know the lady's name. From this
- consideration her mind wandered to the cut of the lady's new
- sleeves, and she was vexed with herself for not having noted it
- more carefully. She felt Miss Mellins might have liked to know
- about it. Ann Eliza's powers of observation had never been
- as keen as Evelina's, when the latter was not too self-absorbed to
- exert them. As Miss Mellins always said, Evelina could "take
- patterns with her eyes": she could have cut that new sleeve out of
- a folded newspaper in a trice! Musing on these things, Ann Eliza
- wished the lady would come back and give her another look at the
- sleeve. It was not unlikely that she might pass that way, for she
- certainly lived in or about the Square. Suddenly Ann Eliza
- remarked a small neat handkerchief on the counter: it must have
- dropped from the lady's purse, and she would probably come back to
- get it. Ann Eliza, pleased at the idea, sat on behind the counter
- and watched the darkening street. She always lit the gas as late
- as possible, keeping the box of matches at her elbow, so that if
- any one came she could apply a quick flame to the gas-jet. At
- length through the deepening dusk she distinguished a slim dark
- figure coming down the steps to the shop. With a little warmth of
- pleasure about her heart she reached up to light the gas. "I do
- believe I'll ask her name this time," she thought. She raised the
- flame to its full height, and saw her sister standing in the door.
-
- There she was at last, the poor pale shade of Evelina, her
- thin face blanched of its faint pink, the stiff ripples gone from
- her hair, and a mantle shabbier than Ann Eliza's drawn about her
- narrow shoulders. The glare of the gas beat full on her as she
- stood and looked at Ann Eliza.
-
- "Sister--oh, Evelina! I knowed you'd come!"
-
- Ann Eliza had caught her close with a long moan of triumph.
- Vague words poured from her as she laid her cheek against
- Evelina's--trivial inarticulate endearments caught from Mrs.
- Hawkins's long discourses to her baby.
-
- For a while Evelina let herself be passively held; then she
- drew back from her sister's clasp and looked about the shop. "I'm
- dead tired. Ain't there any fire?" she asked.
-
- "Of course there is!" Ann Eliza, holding her hand fast, drew
- her into the back room. She did not want to ask any questions yet:
- she simply wanted to feel the emptiness of the room brimmed full
- again by the one presence that was warmth and light to her.
-
- She knelt down before the grate, scraped some bits of coal and
- kindling from the bottom of the coal-scuttle, and drew one of the
- rocking-chairs up to the weak flame. "There--that'll blaze up in
- a minute," she said. She pressed Evelina down on the faded
- cushions of the rocking-chair, and, kneeling beside her, began to
- rub her hands.
-
- "You're stone-cold, ain't you? Just sit still and warm
- yourself while I run and get the kettle. I've got something you
- always used to fancy for supper." She laid her hand on Evelina's
- shoulder. "Don't talk--oh, don't talk yet!" she implored. She
- wanted to keep that one frail second of happiness between herself
- and what she knew must come.
-
- Evelina, without a word, bent over the fire, stretching her
- thin hands to the blaze and watching Ann Eliza fill the kettle and
- set the supper table. Her gaze had the dreamy fixity of a half-
- awakened child's.
-
- Ann Eliza, with a smile of triumph, brought a slice of custard
- pie from the cupboard and put it by her sister's plate.
-
- "You do like that, don't you? Miss Mellins sent it down to me
- this morning. She had her aunt from Brooklyn to dinner. Ain't it
- funny it just so happened?"
-
- "I ain't hungry," said Evelina, rising to approach the table.
-
- She sat down in her usual place, looked about her with the
- same wondering stare, and then, as of old, poured herself out the
- first cup of tea.
-
- "Where's the what-not gone to?" she suddenly asked.
-
- Ann Eliza set down the teapot and rose to get a spoon from the
- cupboard. With her back to the room she said: "The what-not? Why,
- you see, dearie, living here all alone by myself it only made one
- more thing to dust; so I sold it."
-
- Evelina's eyes were still travelling about the familiar room.
- Though it was against all the traditions of the Bunner family to
- sell any household possession, she showed no surprise at her
- sister's answer.
-
- "And the clock? The clock's gone too."
-
- "Oh, I gave that away--I gave it to Mrs. Hawkins. She's kep'
- awake so nights with that last baby."
-
- "I wish you'd never bought it," said Evelina harshly.
-
- Ann Eliza's heart grew faint with fear. Without answering,
- she crossed over to her sister's seat and poured her out a second
- cup of tea. Then another thought struck her, and she went back to
- the cupboard and took out the cordial. In Evelina's absence
- considerable draughts had been drawn from it by invalid neighbours;
- but a glassful of the precious liquid still remained.
-
- "Here, drink this right off--it'll warm you up quicker than
- anything," Ann Eliza said.
-
- Evelina obeyed, and a slight spark of colour came into her
- cheeks. She turned to the custard pie and began to eat with a
- silent voracity distressing to watch. She did not even look to see
- what was left for Ann Eliza.
-
- "I ain't hungry," she said at last as she laid down her fork.
- "I'm only so dead tired--that's the trouble."
-
- "then you'd better get right into bed. Here's my old plaid
- dressing-gown--you remember it, don't you?" Ann Eliza laughed,
- recalling Evelina's ironies on the subject of the antiquated
- garment. With trembling fingers she began to undo her sister's
- cloak. The dress beneath it told a tale of poverty that Ann Eliza
- dared not pause to note. She drew it gently off, and as it slipped
- from Evelina's shoulders it revealed a tiny black bag hanging on a
- ribbon about her neck. Evelina lifted her hand as though to screen
- the bag from Ann Eliza; and the elder sister, seeing the gesture,
- continued her task with lowered eyes. She undressed Evelina as
- quickly as she could, and wrapping her in the plaid dressing-gown
- put her to bed, and spread her own shawl and her sister's cloak
- above the blanket.
-
- "Where's the old red comfortable?" Evelina asked, as she sank
- down on the pillow.
-
- "The comfortable? Oh, it was so hot and heavy I never used it
- after you went--so I sold that too. I never could sleep under much
- clothes."
-
- She became aware that her sister was looking at her more
- attentively.
-
- "I guess you've been in trouble too," Evelina said.
-
- "Me? In trouble? What do you mean, Evelina?"
-
- "You've had to pawn the things, I suppose," Evelina continued
- in a weary unmoved tone. "Well, I've been through worse than that.
- I've been to hell and back."
-
- "Oh, Evelina--don't say it, sister!" Ann Eliza implored,
- shrinking from the unholy word. She knelt down and began to rub
- her sister's feet beneath the bedclothes.
-
- "I've been to hell and back--if I AM back," Evelina
- repeated. She lifted her head from the pillow and began to talk
- with a sudden feverish volubility. "It began right away, less than
- a month after we were married. I've been in hell all that time,
- Ann Eliza." She fixed her eyes with passionate intentness on Ann
- Eliza's face. "He took opium. I didn't find it out till long
- afterward--at first, when he acted so strange, I thought he drank.
- But it was worse, much worse than drinking."
-
- "Oh, sister, don't say it--don't say it yet! It's so sweet
- just to have you here with me again."
-
- "I must say it," Evelina insisted, her flushed face burning
- with a kind of bitter cruelty. "You don't know what life's like--
- you don't know anything about it--setting here safe all the while
- in this peaceful place."
-
- "Oh, Evelina--why didn't you write and send for me if it was
- like that?"
-
- "That's why I couldn't write. Didn't you guess I was
- ashamed?"
-
- "How could you be? Ashamed to write to Ann Eliza?"
-
- Evelina raised herself on her thin elbow, while Ann Eliza,
- bending over, drew a corner of the shawl about her shoulder.
-
- "Do lay down again. You'll catch your death."
-
- "My death? That don't frighten me! You don't know what I've
- been through." And sitting upright in the old mahogany bed, with
- flushed cheeks and chattering teeth, and Ann Eliza's trembling arm
- clasping the shawl about her neck, Evelina poured out her story.
- It was a tale of misery and humiliation so remote from the elder
- sister's innocent experiences that much of it was hardly
- intelligible to her. Evelina's dreadful familiarity with it all,
- her fluency about things which Ann Eliza half-guessed and quickly
- shuddered back from, seemed even more alien and terrible than
- the actual tale she told. It was one thing--and heaven knew
- it was bad enough!--to learn that one's sister's husband was a
- drug-fiend; it was another, and much worse thing, to learn from
- that sister's pallid lips what vileness lay behind the word.
-
- Evelina, unconscious of any distress but her own, sat upright,
- shivering in Ann Eliza's hold, while she piled up, detail by
- detail, her dreary narrative.
-
- "The minute we got out there, and he found the job wasn't as
- good as he expected, he changed. At first I thought he was sick--I
- used to try to keep him home and nurse him. Then I saw it was
- something different. He used to go off for hours at a time, and
- when he came back his eyes kinder had a fog over them. Sometimes
- he didn't har'ly know me, and when he did he seemed to hate me.
- Once he hit me here." She touched her breast. "Do you remember,
- Ann Eliza, that time he didn't come to see us for a week--the time
- after we all went to Central Park together--and you and I thought
- he must be sick?"
-
- Ann Eliza nodded.
-
- "Well, that was the trouble--he'd been at it then. But
- nothing like as bad. After we'd been out there about a month he
- disappeared for a whole week. They took him back at the store, and
- gave him another chance; but the second time they discharged him,
- and he drifted round for ever so long before he could get another
- job. We spent all our money and had to move to a cheaper place.
- Then he got something to do, but they hardly paid him anything, and
- he didn't stay there long. When he found out about the baby--"
-
- "The baby?" Ann Eliza faltered.
-
- "It's dead--it only lived a day. When he found out about it,
- he got mad, and said he hadn't any money to pay doctors' bills, and
- I'd better write to you to help us. He had an idea you had money
- hidden away that I didn't know about." She turned to her sister
- with remorseful eyes. "It was him that made me get that hundred
- dollars out of you."
-
- "Hush, hush. I always meant it for you anyhow."
-
- "Yes, but I wouldn't have taken it if he hadn't been at me the
- whole time. He used to make me do just what he wanted. Well, when
- I said I wouldn't write to you for more money he said I'd better
- try and earn some myself. That was when he struck me. . . . Oh,
- you don't know what I'm talking about yet! . . . I tried to get
- work at a milliner's, but I was so sick I couldn't stay. I was
- sick all the time. I wisht I'd ha' died, Ann Eliza."
-
- "No, no, Evelina."
-
- "Yes, I do. It kept getting worse and worse. We pawned the
- furniture, and they turned us out because we couldn't pay the rent;
- and so then we went to board with Mrs. Hochmuller."
-
- Ann Eliza pressed her closer to dissemble her own tremor.
- "Mrs. Hochmuller?"
-
- "Didn't you know she was out there? She moved out a month
- after we did. She wasn't bad to me, and I think she tried to keep
- him straight--but Linda--"
-
- "Linda--?"
-
- "Well, when I kep' getting worse, and he was always off, for
- days at a time, the doctor had me sent to a hospital."
-
- "A hospital? Sister--sister!"
-
- "It was better than being with him; and the doctors were real
- kind to me. After the baby was born I was very sick and had to
- stay there a good while. And one day when I was laying there Mrs.
- Hochmuller came in as white as a sheet, and told me him and Linda
- had gone off together and taken all her money. That's the last I
- ever saw of him." She broke off with a laugh and began to cough
- again.
-
- Ann Eliza tried to persuade her to lie down and sleep, but the
- rest of her story had to be told before she could be soothed into
- consent. After the news of Ramy's flight she had had brain fever,
- and had been sent to another hospital where she stayed a long
- time--how long she couldn't remember. Dates and days meant nothing
- to her in the shapeless ruin of her life. When she left the
- hospital she found that Mrs. Hochmuller had gone too. She was
- penniless, and had no one to turn to. A lady visitor at the
- hospital was kind, and found her a place where she did housework;
- but she was so weak they couldn't keep her. Then she got a job as
- waitress in a down-town lunch-room, but one day she fainted while
- she was handing a dish, and that evening when they paid her
- they told her she needn't come again.
-
- "After that I begged in the streets"--(Ann Eliza's grasp again
- grew tight)--"and one afternoon last week, when the matinees was
- coming out, I met a man with a pleasant face, something like Mr.
- Hawkins, and he stopped and asked me what the trouble was. I told
- him if he'd give me five dollars I'd have money enough to buy a
- ticket back to New York, and he took a good look at me and said,
- well, if that was what I wanted he'd go straight to the station
- with me and give me the five dollars there. So he did--and he
- bought the ticket, and put me in the cars."
-
- Evelina sank back, her face a sallow wedge in the white cleft
- of the pillow. Ann Eliza leaned over her, and for a long time they
- held each other without speaking.
-
- They were still clasped in this dumb embrace when there was a
- step in the shop and Ann Eliza, starting up, saw Miss Mellins in
- the doorway.
-
- "My sakes, Miss Bunner! What in the land are you doing? Miss
- Evelina--Mrs. Ramy--it ain't you?"
-
- Miss Mellins's eyes, bursting from their sockets, sprang from
- Evelina's pallid face to the disordered supper table and the heap
- of worn clothes on the floor; then they turned back to Ann Eliza,
- who had placed herself on the defensive between her sister and the
- dress-maker.
-
- "My sister Evelina has come back--come back on a visit. she
- was taken sick in the cars on the way home--I guess she caught
- cold--so I made her go right to bed as soon as ever she got here."
-
- Ann Eliza was surprised at the strength and steadiness of her
- voice. Fortified by its sound she went on, her eyes on Miss
- Mellins's baffled countenance: "Mr. Ramy has gone west on a trip--a
- trip connected with his business; and Evelina is going to stay with
- me till he comes back."
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-
- XII
-
-
- What measure of belief her explanation of Evelina's return
- obtained in the small circle of her friends Ann Eliza did not pause
- to enquire. Though she could not remember ever having told a lie
- before, she adhered with rigid tenacity to the consequences of her
- first lapse from truth, and fortified her original statement with
- additional details whenever a questioner sought to take her
- unawares.
-
- But other and more serious burdens lay on her startled
- conscience. For the first time in her life she dimly faced the
- awful problem of the inutility of self-sacrifice. Hitherto she had
- never thought of questioning the inherited principles which had
- guided her life. Self-effacement for the good of others had always
- seemed to her both natural and necessary; but then she had taken it
- for granted that it implied the securing of that good. Now she
- perceived that to refuse the gifts of life does not ensure their
- transmission to those for whom they have been surrendered; and her
- familiar heaven was unpeopled. She felt she could no longer trust
- in the goodness of God, and there was only a black abyss above the
- roof of Bunner Sisters.
-
- But there was little time to brood upon such problems. The
- care of Evelina filled Ann Eliza's days and nights. The hastily
- summoned doctor had pronounced her to be suffering from pneumonia,
- and under his care the first stress of the disease was relieved.
- But her recovery was only partial, and long after the doctor's
- visits had ceased she continued to lie in bed, too weak to move,
- and seemingly indifferent to everything about her.
-
- At length one evening, about six weeks after her return, she
- said to her sister: "I don't feel's if I'd ever get up again."
-
- Ann Eliza turned from the kettle she was placing on the stove.
- She was startled by the echo the words woke in her own breast.
-
- "Don't you talk like that, Evelina! I guess you're on'y tired
- out--and disheartened."
-
- "Yes, I'm disheartened," Evelina murmured.
-
- A few months earlier Ann Eliza would have met the confession
- with a word of pious admonition; now she accepted it in silence.
-
- "Maybe you'll brighten up when your cough gets better," she
- suggested.
-
- "Yes--or my cough'll get better when I brighten up," Evelina
- retorted with a touch of her old tartness.
-
- "Does your cough keep on hurting you jest as much?"
-
- "I don't see's there's much difference."
-
- "Well, I guess I'll get the doctor to come round again," Ann
- Eliza said, trying for the matter-of-course tone in which one might
- speak of sending for the plumber or the gas-fitter.
-
- "It ain't any use sending for the doctor--and who's going to
- pay him?"
-
- "I am," answered the elder sister. "Here's your tea, and a
- mite of toast. Don't that tempt you?"
-
- Already, in the watches of the night, Ann Eliza had been
- tormented by that same question--who was to pay the doctor?--and a
- few days before she had temporarily silenced it by borrowing twenty
- dollars of Miss Mellins. The transaction had cost her one of the
- bitterest struggles of her life. She had never borrowed a penny of
- any one before, and the possibility of having to do so had always
- been classed in her mind among those shameful extremities to which
- Providence does not let decent people come. But nowadays she no
- longer believed in the personal supervision of Providence; and had
- she been compelled to steal the money instead of borrowing it, she
- would have felt that her conscience was the only tribunal before
- which she had to answer. Nevertheless, the actual humiliation of
- having to ask for the money was no less bitter; and she could
- hardly hope that Miss Mellins would view the case with the same
- detachment as herself. Miss Mellins was very kind; but she not
- unnaturally felt that her kindness should be rewarded by according
- her the right to ask questions; and bit by bit Ann Eliza saw
- Evelina's miserable secret slipping into the dress-maker's
- possession.
-
- When the doctor came she left him alone with Evelina, busying
- herself in the shop that she might have an opportunity of seeing
- him alone on his way out. To steady herself she began to sort a
- trayful of buttons, and when the doctor appeared she was reciting
- under her breath: "Twenty-four horn, two and a half cards fancy
- pearl . . ." She saw at once that his look was grave.
-
- He sat down on the chair beside the counter, and her mind
- travelled miles before he spoke.
-
- "Miss Bunner, the best thing you can do is to let me get a bed
- for your sister at St. Luke's."
-
- "The hospital?"
-
- "Come now, you're above that sort of prejudice, aren't you?"
- The doctor spoke in the tone of one who coaxes a spoiled child. "I
- know how devoted you are--but Mrs. Ramy can be much better cared
- for there than here. You really haven't time to look after her and
- attend to your business as well. There'll be no expense, you
- understand--"
-
- Ann Eliza made no answer. "You think my sister's going to be
- sick a good while, then?" she asked.
-
- "Well, yes--possibly."
-
- "You think she's very sick?"
-
- "Well, yes. She's very sick."
-
- His face had grown still graver; he sat there as though he had
- never known what it was to hurry.
-
- Ann Eliza continued to separate the pearl and horn buttons.
- Suddenly she lifted her eyes and looked at him. "Is she going to
- die?"
-
- The doctor laid a kindly hand on hers. "We never say that,
- Miss Bunner. Human skill works wonders--and at the hospital Mrs.
- Ramy would have every chance."
-
- "What is it? What's she dying of?"
-
- The doctor hesitated, seeking to substitute a popular phrase
- for the scientific terminology which rose to his lips.
-
- "I want to know," Ann Eliza persisted.
-
- "Yes, of course; I understand. Well, your sister has had a
- hard time lately, and there is a complication of causes, resulting
- in consumption--rapid consumption. At the hospital--"
-
- "I'll keep her here," said Ann Eliza quietly.
-
- After the doctor had gone she went on for some time sorting
- the buttons; then she slipped the tray into its place on a shelf
- behind the counter and went into the back room. She found Evelina
- propped upright against the pillows, a flush of agitation on her
- cheeks. Ann Eliza pulled up the shawl which had slipped from her
- sister's shoulders.
-
- "How long you've been! What's he been saying?"
-
- "Oh, he went long ago--he on'y stopped to give me a
- prescription. I was sorting out that tray of buttons. Miss
- Mellins's girl got them all mixed up."
-
- She felt Evelina's eyes upon her.
-
- "He must have said something: what was it?"
-
- "Why, he said you'd have to be careful--and stay in bed--and
- take this new medicine he's given you."
-
- "Did he say I was going to get well?"
-
- "Why, Evelina!"
-
- "What's the use, Ann Eliza? You can't deceive me. I've just
- been up to look at myself in the glass; and I saw plenty of 'em in
- the hospital that looked like me. They didn't get well, and I
- ain't going to." Her head dropped back. "It don't much matter--
- I'm about tired. On'y there's one thing--Ann Eliza--"
-
- The elder sister drew near to the bed.
-
- "There's one thing I ain't told you. I didn't want to tell
- you yet because I was afraid you might be sorry--but if he says I'm
- going to die I've got to say it." She stopped to cough, and to Ann
- Eliza it now seemed as though every cough struck a minute from the
- hours remaining to her.
-
- "Don't talk now--you're tired."
-
- "I'll be tireder to-morrow, I guess. And I want you should
- know. Sit down close to me--there."
-
- Ann Eliza sat down in silence, stroking her shrunken hand.
-
- "I'm a Roman Catholic, Ann Eliza."
-
- "Evelina--oh, Evelina Bunner! A Roman Catholic--YOU?
- Oh, Evelina, did HE make you?"
-
- Evelina shook her head. "I guess he didn't have no religion;
- he never spoke of it. But you see Mrs. Hochmuller was a Catholic,
- and so when I was sick she got the doctor to send me to a Roman
- Catholic hospital, and the sisters was so good to me there--and the
- priest used to come and talk to me; and the things he said kep' me
- from going crazy. He seemed to make everything easier."
-
- "Oh, sister, how could you?" Ann Eliza wailed. She knew
- little of the Catholic religion except that "Papists" believed in
- it--in itself a sufficient indictment. Her spiritual rebellion had
- not freed her from the formal part of her religious belief, and
- apostasy had always seemed to her one of the sins from which the
- pure in mind avert their thoughts.
-
- "And then when the baby was born," Evelina continued, "he
- christened it right away, so it could go to heaven; and after that,
- you see, I had to be a Catholic."
-
- "I don't see--"
-
- "Don't I have to be where the baby is? I couldn't ever ha'
- gone there if I hadn't been made a Catholic. Don't you understand
- that?"
-
- Ann Eliza sat speechless, drawing her hand away. Once more
- she found herself shut out of Evelina's heart, an exile from her
- closest affections.
-
- "I've got to go where the baby is," Evelina feverishly
- insisted.
-
- Ann Eliza could think of nothing to say; she could only feel
- that Evelina was dying, and dying as a stranger in her arms. Ramy
- and the day-old baby had parted her forever from her sister.
-
- Evelina began again. "If I get worse I want you to send for
- a priest. Miss Mellins'll know where to send--she's got an aunt
- that's a Catholic. Promise me faithful you will."
-
- "I promise," said Ann Eliza.
-
- After that they spoke no more of the matter; but Ann Eliza now
- understood that the little black bag about her sister's neck, which
- she had innocently taken for a memento of Ramy, was some kind of
- sacrilegious amulet, and her fingers shrank from its contact when
- she bathed and dressed Evelina. It seemed to her the diabolical
- instrument of their estrangement.
-
-
- XIII
-
-
- Spring had really come at last. There were leaves on the
- ailanthus-tree that Evelina could see from her bed, gentle clouds
- floated over it in the blue, and now and then the cry of a flower-
- seller sounded from the street.
-
- One day there was a shy knock on the back-room door, and
- Johnny Hawkins came in with two yellow jonquils in his fist. He
- was getting bigger and squarer, and his round freckled face was
- growing into a smaller copy of his father's. He walked up to
- Evelina and held out the flowers.
-
- "They blew off the cart and the fellow said I could keep 'em.
- But you can have 'em," he announced.
-
- Ann Eliza rose from her seat at the sewing-machine and tried
- to take the flowers from him.
-
- "They ain't for you; they're for her," he sturdily objected;
- and Evelina held out her hand for the jonquils.
-
- After Johnny had gone she lay and looked at them without
- speaking. Ann Eliza, who had gone back to the machine, bent her
- head over the seam she was stitching; the click, click, click of
- the machine sounded in her ear like the tick of Ramy's clock, and
- it seemed to her that life had gone backward, and that Evelina,
- radiant and foolish, had just come into the room with the yellow
- flowers in her hand.
-
- When at last she ventured to look up, she saw that her
- sister's head had drooped against the pillow, and that she was
- sleeping quietly. Her relaxed hand still held the jonquils, but it
- was evident that they had awakened no memories; she had dozed off
- almost as soon as Johnny had given them to her. The discovery gave
- Ann Eliza a startled sense of the ruins that must be piled upon her
- past. "I don't believe I could have forgotten that day, though,"
- she said to herself. But she was glad that Evelina had forgotten.
-
- Evelina's disease moved on along the usual course, now lifting
- her on a brief wave of elation, now sinking her to new depths of
- weakness. There was little to be done, and the doctor came only at
- lengthening intervals. On his way out he always repeated his first
- friendly suggestion about sending Evelina to the hospital; and Ann
- Eliza always answered: "I guess we can manage."
-
- The hours passed for her with the fierce rapidity that great
- joy or anguish lends them. She went through the days with a
- sternly smiling precision, but she hardly knew what was happening,
- and when night-fall released her from the shop, and she could carry
- her work to Evelina's bedside, the same sense of unreality
- accompanied her, and she still seemed to be accomplishing a task
- whose object had escaped her memory.
-
- Once, when Evelina felt better, she expressed a desire to make
- some artificial flowers, and Ann Eliza, deluded by this awakening
- interest, got out the faded bundles of stems and petals and the
- little tools and spools of wire. But after a few minutes the work
- dropped from Evelina's hands and she said: "I'll wait until to-
- morrow."
-
- She never again spoke of the flower-making, but one day, after
- watching Ann Eliza's laboured attempt to trim a spring hat for Mrs.
- Hawkins, she demanded impatiently that the hat should be brought to
- her, and in a trice had galvanized the lifeless bow and given the
- brim the twist it needed.
-
- These were rare gleams; and more frequent were the days of
- speechless lassitude, when she lay for hours silently staring at
- the window, shaken only by the hard incessant cough that sounded to
- Ann Eliza like the hammering of nails into a coffin.
-
- At length one morning Ann Eliza, starting up from the mattress
- at the foot of the bed, hastily called Miss Mellins down, and ran
- through the smoky dawn for the doctor. He came back with her and
- did what he could to give Evelina momentary relief; then he went
- away, promising to look in again before night. Miss Mellins, her
- head still covered with curl-papers, disappeared in his wake, and
- when the sisters were alone Evelina beckoned to Ann Eliza.
-
- "You promised," she whispered, grasping her sister's arm; and
- Ann Eliza understood. She had not yet dared to tell Miss Mellins
- of Evelina's change of faith; it had seemed even more difficult
- than borrowing the money; but now it had to be done. She ran
- upstairs after the dress-maker and detained her on the landing.
-
- "Miss Mellins, can you tell me where to send for a priest--a
- Roman Catholic priest?"
-
- "A priest, Miss Bunner?"
-
- "Yes. My sister became a Roman Catholic while she was away.
- They were kind to her in her sickness--and now she wants a priest."
- Ann Eliza faced Miss Mellins with unflinching eyes.
-
- "My aunt Dugan'll know. I'll run right round to her the
- minute I get my papers off," the dress-maker promised; and Ann
- Eliza thanked her.
-
- An hour or two later the priest appeared. Ann Eliza, who was
- watching, saw him coming down the steps to the shop-door and went
- to meet him. His expression was kind, but she shrank from
- his peculiar dress, and from his pale face with its bluish chin and
- enigmatic smile. Ann Eliza remained in the shop. Miss Mellins's
- girl had mixed the buttons again and she set herself to sort them.
- The priest stayed a long time with Evelina. When he again carried
- his enigmatic smile past the counter, and Ann Eliza rejoined her
- sister, Evelina was smiling with something of the same mystery; but
- she did not tell her secret.
-
- After that it seemed to Ann Eliza that the shop and the back
- room no longer belonged to her. It was as though she were there on
- sufferance, indulgently tolerated by the unseen power which hovered
- over Evelina even in the absence of its minister. The priest came
- almost daily; and at last a day arrived when he was called to
- administer some rite of which Ann Eliza but dimly grasped the
- sacramental meaning. All she knew was that it meant that Evelina
- was going, and going, under this alien guidance, even farther from
- her than to the dark places of death.
-
- When the priest came, with something covered in his hands, she
- crept into the shop, closing the door of the back room to leave him
- alone with Evelina.
-
- It was a warm afternoon in May, and the crooked ailanthus-tree
- rooted in a fissure of the opposite pavement was a fountain of
- tender green. Women in light dresses passed with the languid step
- of spring; and presently there came a man with a hand-cart full of
- pansy and geranium plants who stopped outside the window,
- signalling to Ann Eliza to buy.
-
- An hour went by before the door of the back room opened and
- the priest reappeared with that mysterious covered something in his
- hands. Ann Eliza had risen, drawing back as he passed. He had
- doubtless divined her antipathy, for he had hitherto only bowed in
- going in and out; but to day he paused and looked at her
- compassionately.
-
- "I have left your sister in a very beautiful state of mind,"
- he said in a low voice like a woman's. "She is full of spiritual
- consolation."
-
- Ann Eliza was silent, and he bowed and went out. She hastened
- back to Evelina's bed, and knelt down beside it. Evelina's eyes
- were very large and bright; she turned them on Ann Eliza with a
- look of inner illumination.
-
- "I shall see the baby," she said; then her eyelids fell and
- she dozed.
-
- The doctor came again at nightfall, administering some last
- palliatives; and after he had gone Ann Eliza, refusing to have her
- vigil shared by Miss Mellins or Mrs. Hawkins, sat down to keep
- watch alone.
-
- It was a very quiet night. Evelina never spoke or opened her
- eyes, but in the still hour before dawn Ann Eliza saw that the
- restless hand outside the bed-clothes had stopped its twitching.
- She stooped over and felt no breath on her sister's lips.
-
-
- The funeral took place three days later. Evelina was buried
- in Calvary Cemetery, the priest assuming the whole care of the
- necessary arrangements, while Ann Eliza, a passive spectator,
- beheld with stony indifference this last negation of her past.
-
- A week afterward she stood in her bonnet and mantle in the
- doorway of the little shop. Its whole aspect had changed. Counter
- and shelves were bare, the window was stripped of its familiar
- miscellany of artificial flowers, note-paper, wire hat-frames, and
- limp garments from the dyer's; and against the glass pane of the
- doorway hung a sign: "This store to let."
-
- Ann Eliza turned her eyes from the sign as she went out and
- locked the door behind her. Evelina's funeral had been very
- expensive, and Ann Eliza, having sold her stock-in-trade and the
- few articles of furniture that remained to her, was leaving the
- shop for the last time. She had not been able to buy any mourning,
- but Miss Mellins had sewed some crape on her old black mantle and
- bonnet, and having no gloves she slipped her bare hands under the
- folds of the mantle.
-
- It was a beautiful morning, and the air was full of a warm
- sunshine that had coaxed open nearly every window in the street,
- and summoned to the window-sills the sickly plants nurtured indoors
- in winter. Ann Eliza's way lay westward, toward Broadway; but at
- the corner she paused and looked back down the familiar length of
- the street. Her eyes rested a moment on the blotched "Bunner
- Sisters" above the empty window of the shop; then they travelled on
- to the overflowing foliage of the Square, above which was
- the church tower with the dial that had marked the hours for the
- sisters before Ann Eliza had bought the nickel clock. She looked
- at it all as though it had been the scene of some unknown life, of
- which the vague report had reached her: she felt for herself the
- only remote pity that busy people accord to the misfortunes which
- come to them by hearsay.
-
- She walked to Broadway and down to the office of the house-
- agent to whom she had entrusted the sub-letting of the shop. She
- left the key with one of his clerks, who took it from her as if it
- had been any one of a thousand others, and remarked that the
- weather looked as if spring was really coming; then she turned and
- began to move up the great thoroughfare, which was just beginning
- to wake to its multitudinous activities.
-
- She walked less rapidly now, studying each shop window as she
- passed, but not with the desultory eye of enjoyment: the watchful
- fixity of her gaze overlooked everything but the object of its
- quest. At length she stopped before a small window wedged between
- two mammoth buildings, and displaying, behind its shining plate-
- glass festooned with muslin, a varied assortment of sofa-cushions,
- tea-cloths, pen-wipers, painted calendars and other specimens of
- feminine industry. In a corner of the window she had read, on a
- slip of paper pasted against the pane: "Wanted, a Saleslady," and
- after studying the display of fancy articles beneath it, she gave
- her mantle a twitch, straightened her shoulders and went in.
-
- Behind a counter crowded with pin-cushions, watch-holders and
- other needlework trifles, a plump young woman with smooth hair sat
- sewing bows of ribbon on a scrap basket. The little shop was about
- the size of the one on which Ann Eliza had just closed the door;
- and it looked as fresh and gay and thriving as she and Evelina had
- once dreamed of making Bunner Sisters. The friendly air of the
- place made her pluck up courage to speak.
-
- "Saleslady? Yes, we do want one. Have you any one to
- recommend?" the young woman asked, not unkindly.
-
- Ann Eliza hesitated, disconcerted by the unexpected question;
- and the other, cocking her head on one side to study the effect of
- the bow she had just sewed on the basket, continued: "We can't
- afford more than thirty dollars a month, but the work is light.
- She would be expected to do a little fancy sewing between times.
- We want a bright girl: stylish, and pleasant manners. You know
- what I mean. Not over thirty, anyhow; and nice-looking. Will you
- write down the name?"
-
- Ann Eliza looked at her confusedly. She opened her lips to
- explain, and then, without speaking, turned toward the crisply-
- curtained door.
-
- "Ain't you going to leave the AD-dress?" the young woman
- called out after her. Ann Eliza went out into the thronged
- street. The great city, under the fair spring sky, seemed to throb
- with the stir of innumerable beginnings. She walked on, looking
- for another shop window with a sign in it.
-
-
- THE END.
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