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- "And then, the moment I met you, again.
- I knew in my heart that we were friends.
- It had to be so, it couldn't be no ..."
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-
- I was a precocious kid at the age of 13 when I moved in with my father
- and his roommate back in the early 70's. He had divorced my mother about 2
- years before (and a messy divorce at that) and went to pursue what was
- known back then a "hippie" life-style, complete with their artifacts of
- the time (drugs, "free sex," non responsibility, etc.). He did still
- visit me from time to time after the divorce, but the deteriorating
- relationship between myself and my mother came to a head, and after
- a number of times showing up at the county Family Crisis Center (usually
- late at night), the county finally took me out of my mother's house,
- and let me stay with my father.
-
- Needless to say, it was a drastic change for me.
-
- One of the first things I had to adjust to was his new life-style. He
- didn't try to hide his drugs (which was only Marijuana and Peyote) or his
- girlfriend. He also introduced me to his new friends, which were all
- people who had migrated to Berkeley from the midwest to catch the Berkeley
- "movement," though it had pretty well died off by the early 70's there,
- save for the occasional demonstration on the Berkeley campus. Eventually,
- he introduced me to marijuana and rock concerts (which I though was the
- best combination I ever experienced), and his roommate...
-
- His roommate was also divorced, having come from the same circumstances
- as my father, and also indulging in the same things that my father was now
- indulging in. He was more outgoing, though, with numerous girlfriends
- (which he _loved_ to take Polaroid pictures of, and showing them around to
- his friends and myself). He was always out somewhere with his numerous
- dates, either at a rock concert, dinner, or at their house, since now
- that I moved in, it made it inconvenient for him to enjoy his sexual escapades
- at home.
-
- I, myself, had started being independent almost a couple of years
- before, learning how to get around the Bay Area (on the bus and the subway
- here, called BART), and making the most of my newfound mobility. One of
- the things my mom didn't like was that I "disappeared" until the wee hours
- of the morning (sometimes 2am), not knowing what the hell I was doing
- out so late, being that I was so young (11-12 years old). Usually, I would
- be in San Francisco, in numerous places (like Polk Street, Mission Street,
- or wherever there was people hanging around). Since I didn't have any
- more neighborhood friends (they had either moved or made new friends
- themselves from going to different schools themselves, as I lived on
- a school border line for 2 different junior high schools), I made do
- with hanging out in "The City."
-
- My father didn't mind any of this at all, since it made his
- life easier, so to speak, because I was not around so much. He still
- had a hard time communicating with me, as he had really abused me
- (physically) when I was a little kid, and he didn't know how to
- apologize for that (or even "make up for it"). So he compensated
- it by giving me money and marijuana in any quantity I wanted, which
- gave me even more mobility to get around. Since some of his friends
- lived in Berkeley, I discovered that area in short order, and was
- also "hanging out" there also.
-
- In being so independent and precouious, I seemed to attract
- women who were...errr...a little more outgoing themselves.
- (I eventually did attract one a short time later, but that is another
- story...). That attitude even showed up on the telephone, which I
- always seemed to be answering for my father and his roommate all the
- time, since they were never home, and answering machines were not common
- back then.
-
- (Well now, the story.)
-
- In time, I found out why my father's roommate did have so many dates.
- He regularly placed personal ads in a local paper called the "Berkeley Barb."
- The "Barb" was, to say the least, a local "alternative" newspaper that
- catered to the more radical and sexual tastes of the East Bay, with
- either accusatory articles of local or state politicians, or the sexual
- romps of those same people.
-
- Well, since my father and his roommate worked, I usually ended
- up answering calls for both. That included messages for Gil (the
- roommate) from the personal ad.
-
- The messages always sounded innocent enough, usually with the
- woman asking "Is Gil there?" and me answering no, and then a name and
- phone number taken. Sometimes there were as many as 5-10 calls a day,
- sometimes none for a week at a time.
-
- One man did call once. I didn't think it was from the ad at the
- time (since I had seen the ad, and it was obvious he was looking for a woman).
- After asking for Gil, he then started asking a lot of questions, like how
- old I was, if I was alone at the time, and if I'd like to meet him
- somewhere in Berkeley. I was definitely *not* interested in men, or
- their sexual antics, and promptly hung up on him...
-
- But literally on the same day, a woman called. She had started off
- just like all the rest of the people calling Gil.
-
- "Hello?" I said.
- "Hello. Is Gil there?" she responded.
- "No, he isn't," I answered.
- "Well...do you expect him back soon?" she asked.
- "Yup. He's at work now. He usually gets back `round 6 or 7," I said.
- "Oh kayyyy. I was, uh, calling about the ad he placed."
- A little hesitant, I noticed.
- "Oh yeah, the one in the Barb?"
- "You know about it?" she asked.
- "Yeah. He's shown it to me. I'm used to it now."
- "Huhhh," she wondered, "Does that mean, ummm, he gets a lot of calls?"
- "Yup," I blurted out. Shit, I thought, I shouldn't of said that. I
- probably blew this one.
- "Oh..." she quietly said.
- Well, I kept thinking, I ain't gonna tell Gil about this one, since I
- doubted she'd call back anyway. Besides, Gil was planning to be gone that
- night anyway since he was going on another one of his "dates" again...
- "O.K." she concluded...I thought.
- Well, time to get back to listening to the radio, since I was
- waiting for the time for some more concert tickets to be given away. I was
- drifting off, thinking on which concerts were coming around this weekend.
- Wasn't Golden Earring going to be at Winterland this...?
- "Well," breaking into my thoughts, "I didn't mean to bother you."
- "Hey," I said, "no problem. I was just listening to the radio
- anyway."
- "The radio...? What are you listening to?"
- "KFRC," I answered. It was the local Top-40 bubblegum station. Very
- much listened to by every kid 16 and under in the Bay Area. They were
- playing "Half Breed" by Cher.
- "Oh. You don't listen to KSAN?" she asked. KSAN was the local
- "underground" station at the time. Better known now as "Classic Rock."
- "Naw," I answered, "only when they're giving away tickets to something."
- "Tickets?" she wondered, "tickets to what?"
- "Concerts," I answered. "Usually at Winterland. I'm waiting for them
- to announce it. They usually do it once an hour."
- In fact, the station gave them away exactly once an hour at a
- particular time of day. That time was still about 10 minutes away. Plenty
- of time to bullshit on the phone.
- "Which concert is it?"
- "I think it's Golden Earring," I said, "I'm not too sure. I usually
- don't care that much who it is, `cause sometimes I sell the tickets anyway,
- and just spend the money instead."
- "Oh yeah, Golden Earring..." she said, "I haven't seen them yet,
- but I've seen the Electric Light Orchestra and David Bowie."
- "Electric Light...Oh! E.L.O!" I replied, "And David Bowie? You
- saw the Spiders from Mars tour?"
- "Something like that," she said. "I guess you like to go to a lot
- of concerts being that you're...uh...how old are you?"
- "13," I said. No use of lying about my age, unlike countless
- other times I've lied to other girls I see in school.
- "13!? That young?" she said with a little surprise in her voice.
- "Yeah. How old did you think I was?"
- "Uhhh...I thought you might have been older...or something" she
- stammered back.
- That nervousness again, I thought. Why does she seem so nervous?
- Still keeping an ear on the radio, I heard the D.J., Dr. Don Rose start
- talking after the previous song. He was making another of his famous
- jokes about Arco (the oil company) again. I still remember the apology
- they had to make after the last joke he cracked about them about a month ago.
- Looking at the clock, I figured after the commercials and one more song,
- the latest round of tickets would be given away. Time to finish the call up...
- "Oh yeah..." remembering what I was going to ask, "How old are you?"
- "Uhhh...How old do you think I am?"
- "Well...how about 25" I said. I never was good at guessing the age
- of somebody. I figured I'll probably off by a few years.
- "Hmmm, try 23."
- Hey, I was actually near the mark for once!
- "All right! I was real close!" I said.
- "Yes, you were."
- Silence. I glanced at the clock. the second commercial was starting.
- "Well," I started out saying, "I guess you wanna go..."
- "No, not really. Did you need to do something?"
- Yeah, I do, I thought. I need to get those tickets so I sell them, since
- I just remembered I hated Golden Earring and that god-awful hit of theirs, "Radar
- Love." Sell them and go to the Grateful Dead concert at the Cow Palace where
- they were testing out some awesome sound system with zillions of speakers and
- millions of watts of...
- Oops, drifting off. "No, I don't have anything to doooo..."
- What the hell did I say that for? Clock time again. Third commercial...
- "I...I just wanted...to talk to somebody. Do you mind?" she asked.
- "Sure, I don't mind." There I go again! Why did I say that?
- "What do you want to talk about?" she asked.
- Why is she asking me? She's the one who wanted to talk, I thought.
- "Well, whatever you want to talk about."
- "You sure you don't mind talking...?" she started to ask.
- "No, no, no, no!" I quickly responded, "Really, I don't mind at all!"
- "O.K. It just sounded like you didn't want to talk to me, that's all"
- "No...Really...I don't mind" I replied.
- All of a sudden, my mind started to think: What is going on here? Why
- did I tell her I didn't mind at all!? At that age, I wasn't very considerate
- to others, having proved that time and time again when I hung around with my
- Father's friends. Why didn't I just tell her I had to go and hang up the phone?
- Oops, more silence...
- "Well," I started again, "Did you...uhhh...want to say something?
- Maybe ask something...or...Something...err...You know!"
- The radio blared out the jingle..."Six-Ten, K-F-R-C..." I barely
- caught it. The song they started...uhhh..."Show and Tell" by Al Wilson.
- Second time I had heard it then. I would later think it was sooo appropriate.
- "Uhhh...Oh! School. What school do you go to?" she asked.
- School...which school did...Oh yeah!
- "King" I answered.
- "King? King what?"
- "Oh yeah. King junior high, on the avenue" I replied.
- `...and here is the soul of which you've taken control...' the song went.
- "The `Avenue'?" she asked
- "Yeah. Telegraph Avenue."
- "Where's that?" she kept asking.
- "Oh! In Berkeley. Don't you live in Berkeley?"
- "No," she said, "I don't. Uh, I live in the City."
- The City was, of course, San Francisco. Why didn't she know Berkeley?
- "Haven't you ever been to Berkeley?" I asked back.
- "Yes, once. A long time ago, with a friend...ummm...ex-friend."
- "Ex-friend?" I said.
- "Yeah...well...kinda. He was somebody I was seeing, you know...
- something like that."
- That song again: `These are the hands that can't help reaching for you...'
- "Somebody you're seeing? Like a boyfriend?" I asked.
- "Yeah, I guess you could say that...you know."
- No, I don't know, I thought...
- "You going out with him still?" I kept going on.
- "Not really. I kinda see him sometimes, like when he comes over."
- "So he's still your boyfriend?" I said.
- "It's...it's kinda hard to say."
- `Show and tell. It's just a game I play...' the song kept going.
- "I, uh, don't..." I started.
- "He, uh...He just stays over from time to time."
- "`Stays over,' like overnight?" I said.
- "Do you know what I mean?" she asked.
- "Yeah, kinda." I said.
- At least I think I get the idea, sorta..."Does he stay with you?"
- "Yeah, he, well, he sleeps with me still."
- "What do you do when he sleeps over?" I blurted. Oops...
- The song: `Girl, so show me, and tell me that you feel the same way too.'
- "We, uh...We hold each other a lot."
- "Oh," I said, sounding disappointed, "that's all?"
- "No. We also make love sometimes."
- "Make love? Like kissing or something...?" I trailed off.
- "No, it's a little more involved than that. I guess you'd be a little
- young to understand."
- "Well, no, I, um...read some magazines." I said.
- "What kind of magazines?"
- "You know, like, uh, Playboy and Penthouse." I stammered ahead.
- "You've seen those?"
- "Yeah, of course. My dad gets them all the time and leaves them lying
- around the apartment, so I go through them" I answered.
- "You do?" she asked.
- "Uh huh"
- "Do you look at the pictures?" she kept going on.
- "You mean the centerfolds?"
- "Yes" she said.
- "Yeah, I, uh, look at the girls."
- "What do you think of them?"
- "Like what?" I asked.
- "Like, uh...Like do you do anything?"
- "`Do anything?' I don't get it?"
- "Like," she hesitated, "like keep yourself occupied?"
- Occupied, I thought. How the hell do I...Oh shit!
- "Oh! You mean do I, uhh..."
- "Do you do that already?" she asked.
- "Do what?"
- "Do, uh, you know...Use your hand, I guess." she stammered out.
- Oh, I thought, I thought she actually meant that I did it with a girl or
- something like that. I'd been `using my hand' as she said for the last year.
- "Yeah, I do, but, uh, I don't use the pictures."
- "You don't?" It was her turn to be confused, obviously.
- "No, I don't. I, uh, read the stories."
- "You do!?" she said, surprised.
- "Yeah. The stories are a lot better than the pictures."
- As a matter of fact, I had read the stories ever since I could remember.
- It had took a while to understand what most of the `lingo' was, but Xavier
- Hollander's column took care of all that, in excellent detail, I might add!
- And her column sometimes had the best stories. But mostly, it was the `Letters'
- column that I had read, since the `knowledge' that the letters were `real'
- made it a lot more exciting than the fiction inside (except for a story I
- still remember to this day about a few people who were called "Wavers" and
- could hypnotize their partners that it was the best sex they ever had...but
- that's another story). Of course, once I found out the `Letters' were
- also fiction themselves...
- I explained all the above to her.
- "But the pictures don't do anything?" she asked.
- "Naw, not really. It was kinda weird at first, but they all look the
- same now."
- "Do you remember any of the stories?" she said.
- "Yeah, some of them."
- "Like which ones?"
- "Well," I hesitated for a second, "there was one in Xaviers column
- about a somebody who was just divorced and had moved into an apartment by
- herself, and she started fooling around with a boy."
- "A boy?" She asked, "Like a young boy?"
- "Yeah, he was 14, and was just out at the pool in the apartment
- building, and the woman comes over and sees him just sitting on the side there,
- and she decides to sit next to him. She then starts talking to him and then
- goes swimming. He then sees her, uhhh..."
- "Her what?" she pressed.
- "Well, he sees her bikini creep up her, uh, you know. In the middle there."
- I was still too embarrassed to say `pussy'.
- "You mean her vagina" she said.
- "Yeah, that." I almost stuttered back. "After that, she then takes him
- inside the her apartment and, uh, you know, `makes love' as you say."
- Also too embarrassed to say "fucks him".
- "Does the letter go into detail?"
- Detail!?! Of course, I thought. Some of the best detail I could
- remember! That's why _I_ remember it!
- "Uh, yeah, kind of..." I slowly said.
- "I never read anything like that. Can you tell me what it said?"
- "Like how? You mean, like, you want to, uh, hear all of it?" I asked.
- I just realized she didn't seem nervous anymore. She even was talking
- a lot softer now, like somebody who was putting you to bed, or something like that.
- "Well, OK. Uh, where was I...?"
- "She was coming in from the pool into the apartment." she reminded me.
- "Oh yeah! That's right! She had brought the guy inside and asked him
- if he wanted anything to drink, and he said yes. She had brought out a coke for
- him and then asked him if he wanted to get out of his wet swimming trunks. She
- said that she had one of her ex-husband's robes, and he could use it if he
- wanted to. He said he didn't mind and went off to the bathroom and took his
- trunks off and put the robe on. He then came back to the living room and saw that
- the woman had put a short robe on also. She then started to ask him if he lived
- in the area, and he said he lived upstairs in the apartment building, and then
- she asked if he had a girlfriend, and he said he didn't. She then asked if
- he'd been with any girls at all, and he said no. As she was sitting there,
- she decided to open up her legs a little since she was sitting almost across
- from him on the couch, and she had taken her bikini off, so she was showing
- him her pu...uhh..."
- "Don't worry. I've heard the word `pussy' before' she said.
- "Uh, ok." I said back. "So, like I said, she was showing him her,
- uh, pussy since she didn't have anything on underneath the robe, and it was
- real short to begin with. She saw that he was staring straight at it, and
- she saw that he was getting a, uh..."
- "...a hard on?" she asked.
- "Yeah, a hard on. So she decides that she wants to fuck, uhh..."
- "No, no! That's allright. Come on! It doesn't bother me. Really!"
- "OK" I said. "She starts thinking that she wants to fuck him, so she
- starts to move closer to him and starts opening up her legs wider so that he
- can see everything, and she then puts her hand on his leg to see if he'll
- do anything, but he didn't get the message. So, she keeps moving closer and
- keeps moving her hand up the robe and has it on the top of his leg, and he
- still doesn't do anything..."
- "Would you have done anything then?"
- "Of course!" I lied. Honestly, I would have been just as scared as the
- kid in the letter was, but even I didn't admit that to myself back then.
- "So, where was I? Oh! Yeah, she has her hand right next to his, uh, dick
- and he almost drops his Coke and he grabs it just as she grabs it also, but she
- had grabbed his robe with her other hand to balance herself, and it pulled off.
- "So he was naked?" she asked.
- "Yeah, she opened up his robe when she pulled on it. So she was sitting
- there staring at his dick and they just froze for a second and he says he's
- sorry about that, and she says about what? And he says about his you-know-what,
- and she says your hard-on, and he says yeah, and she says that he shouldn't
- be sorry at all, that there was lots of other ways to apologize other than
- saying sorry, and he says how, and she puts her hand on his dick and says
- that `that' could apologize for him in more ways than one, and she then bends
- over to kiss him..."
- "French?" stopping me for a second.
- "`French?' I don't get it?" I ask back.
- "Whaddya call it...? `The tongue'?"
- "Oh, yeah, she gives him the tongue" I continue. "She then asks him if
- he's ever done it with another girl, and he says that when he said he never
- had a girlfriend, he'd also never been with a girl, period. She then says
- if he ever wanted to know what it was like to be with a girl, and he said
- yeah, that he'd jacked-off looking at pictures but he'd never fucked a real
- girl. She then said that he was about to find out what a real girl was like,
- and after taking his and her robes off, she had him lie down on the couch,
- and she leaned over his face and made him start licking her pussy..."
- "Have you ever thought of that?" she broke in again.
- "Thought of what?"
- "Thought of licking pussy?" she asked.
- "Yecch, no. It sounds nasty" I answered back. Little did I know, it
- would eventually be my absolute favorite position, better than anything else!
- That was a ways down the road, though, at this point.
- "Why not?"
- "I don't want to stick my tongue there at all! Who knows what it may
- taste like" I said.
- "You'd be surprised" she answered.
- Heh heh, it was eventually a surprise...
- "Anyway, uh, where was I?" I asked.
- "He was licking her pussy" she reminded me again.
- "Oh yeah. She was bent over him, like I said, making him lick her,
- and then all of a sudden, he came all over himself."
- "That fast?" she asked.
- "Yeah, a little fast, huh?" I asked back.
- "Yeah, well, I knew a few like that...Anyway..."
- "Hmmm, yeah. Anyway," I continued, "she didn't get upset about that,
- since she understood that he's never been with a girl before, and so, keeps him
- going at her pussy until she comes herself. She then slides down him to give
- him another kiss, and at the same time, slides his dick into her pussy."
- "Are you sure you've never been with a woman before" she asks again.
- "No, never. Not at all" I reply.
- "But...But you know all the moves, errr...everything that a man
- would do in bed. You learned all that from the magazines?"
- "Yeah, nothing else." I answer.
- "Wow...Ummm, anyway, where were you?"
- "Uh, oh! Yeah." I said, "She was sliding down and eventually touches
- the head of his dick with her pussy, and starts teasing it to see if she can
- get it hard again, and it does get hard almost immediately. She waits for
- it to get hard enough so she can slide it into her pussy while she's still
- kissing him all over his face. He keeps feeling her trying to get his dick
- in her pussy, and thinks that she can't find it, so he goes ahead and just
- thrusts it in and starts pumping right into her. She's trying to control
- him, trying to keep it slow, but he's just going at it, and he starts cumming
- in her in a minute or so again."
- "Is that it?" she asks.
- "No, not really." I said, "He finally calms down and they go at it
- again that night, and keep going at it for the next few months until either
- she moves or he moves, I don't remember."
- "Wow!" she exclaims. "That was really a hot story."
- "It was?" I asked.
- "Yeahhh," she said, breathing heavily, "I'd forgot all about my childhood."
- "Your childhood...?"
- "Well, I...errr...forgot how horny I used to be when I was about
- your age." she said.
- "Yeah, I know the feeling," I kept going. "I seem to be like that
- all the time."
- "Like what?" she probed. "You mean...horny?"
- "Yeah, really bad lately."
- "Hmmm," she said. "I want to ask you a question, if you don't mind?"
- "Like what?" I asked back.
- "Like, uh...Have you ever been with an older woman before?"
- Holy Shit, I thought...
-
- (to be continued)
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