By Laura edited by Cynthia Smith |
I'm happy to report, that I'm very happily married, and my wife knows, and is very understanding of my so called other half..."Laura". The only downside, is that she doesn't really want to see, or play with Laura, but small steps can take us across the world, just slowly across it. I'm just finally happy to have it all out in the open in our relationship. Something I'm sure many transgendered people deal with, and the bitter feelings that can develop for those we love.
My wife found out in the first few months of our marriage in 1990, not by accidental discovery, but by my ill-planned surprise. It did not go well. At that time, I was still only just wearing the corset and stockings, and looked nothing like the pictures you may have seen of me, so she didn't really know how deep my feelings ran, and I have to admit neither did I. So, we let it pass. I just kept waiting for the sexual phase to pass, and my desire to die...but as we all know it doesn't, just a fire that keep burning. So no longer able to stand the hiding and feelings of being a criminal in my own house, I just laid out all the cards for her and told her how important it was to me. She saw how deep it hurt for me to say these things, and rewarded my courage with her support. So, Laura could begin to get ready for her first few steps in the real world.
Sorry to make it all sound so dramatic. But, for me it was, and just want you to know a little of my history. From most I have talked to it sounds the same, almost like an AA meeting.
For me the dressing is always a sexual thing. I get thrilled at the preparation, and the feeling as the stockings roll up my legs. I love the sheer pleasure of applying my make-up on my face, and seeing the change happen in the mirror. Then when the final touches our done, and Laura comes out. My heart is beating like a rabbit, and I feel totally sexy and fem, in every thing I do. For me, just dressing in he clothes is not enough. I need total illusion. Not enough to fool anyone. Just enough to make some guy say..."Hot Damn!" "You Look Hot As Hell!".
As for fantasy, I consider myself very sub when dressed, but also have a good Dom streak, as well as a very good imagination with just enough kink. I guess I have to admit my ultimate fantasy is to be taken away and totally transformed...injections and all. Then trained to be the best slut you ever saw...But it's just a fantasy...(or is it???)
On a more personal note, I love music and movies, and work in the entertainment field. I have an active life as my other self. Who loves to play hockey (good for the legs and ass) I also love to both water and snow ski. My favorite thing is to go dancing at a wild club, and just watch everyone enjoy themselves until 4 in the morning.
So, I hope this tells you more about who and what Laura is. I'm sorry if my fantasy stuff is too much, but just want to be as sincere and honest as a girl can be.
Love,
Laura