My daughter and I had a long talk earlier this week where I told her about my dressing.
She took it real well.
As I suspected she knew my ears were pierced and was wondering why I did not tell her. At first when I started telling her she thought that I was going to tell her that I was born a woman and had a sex change.
SInce she felt I was always so femmine and that I was finally going to tell her about the sex change to a male body. I told her no. Children can see a lot more than adults give them credit for at times. But I was born in a man's body and felt I was a woman in every other way and it took years before I would allow myself to accept that. She said that a lot of things that I have said and done over the years all make sense now.
She was very calm and very talkative about the whole thing. She was very knowledgable about things like sex change, etc. I was surprised. We did not talk about my total desire to become a women completely since that is something I am since working out slowly. But if I end up with any more changes to my body that I can no longer hide then it will force the discussion. She had all kinds of questions about 1 If I was gay. ( I easlly convienced her I was not) She didn't think so either since she knows how much I adore going out with women. 2 How long had I felt this way. So I told her as long as I can remember. She liked the idea of me when I was in first grade dressing up as a girl for halloween. She told me I need to do Elvira. She wants to borrow some of my earings sometime now, if there are any she likes.
She is totally accepted this since mainly she sorta knew something like this already and was somewhat hurt at first that I didn't tell her sooner. I told her that I needed to be assured she was mature enough to handle it. She agreed.
Now I don't have to hide my clothes as much. I can leave them hanging in the closet and my undergarments in the drawers. And having mail come for Sharon won't be a problem for my daughter anymore.
As for my relationship with my daughter, yes I am very excited. Since she has seen me with no shirt and with a snug fitting one I decided to start wearing my bra under snug fitting shirts without trying to cover up with a loose sweatshirt.
No comment at all. The other night I decided to change the color of my nail polish on my toes. I did it right in front of her while we watched TV. And then I polished my fingernails with clear polish. The only comment I got was the polish stinks.
I have started wearing my small hoop earings, a little more makeup and snug fitting turtle necks at home during the week she was off from school. Even one turtle neck which was white you could see right thru it and see the bra. She was mildly upset at first but then was ok about it. She even had me correct my eye makeup that was smudged under my eyes. I explained to her that my wearing a bra was because that it sometimes hurts some if I come down the stairs a lot and my breasts bounce.
I have been trying to stretch my living more as Sharon with my daughter without pushing it too fast. She keeps borrowing my earrings though.
I also wore light makeup in front of my Daughter today. I put it on after she left for school. I took off the earrings and replaced the darker lipstick with colored lipgloss just before she came home. All she said was my eye lashes were curled. But what I wore I would go out in public with as either person. It was not overly done. In fact it just enhanced my features without looking like makeup at all. Unless you got real close. I must be getting better at this.
So I just let people guess. I did not try to pass with her when we went to the grocery store this evening, but left all the makeup still on. I also put on a large sweatshirt to cover up my bra from showing. Just a little at a time until there comes a point it is no longer androgenous. Like she told me if people saw her with Sharon they would think her Mom moved down and would wonder where her Dad was. So that is something that will need to be worked out eventually. For now She will not be seen with Sharon.
My daughter now knows about my eventual desire for SRS. I have told her about which hormones I take and why. She seems OK with it for now. WIth my hips starting to fill ot and my breasts now at a full 38 B, it is getting harder to hide the hormone's effect.
On Monday I told her I was going to a business meeting she asked if I was going as Sharon? I told her not tonight and she laughed about it. She told me the other day that she was hurt that she was not invited to the wedding. I said what wedding. She said that I must be married since I get male listed for both me and Sharon together. She jokes alot about it and still is trying to come up with a good version of a Tomboy name for this. She seems totally at ease with this. She knows how much I love her and seems to accept it quite well. She said when I finally go full time as Sharon she would rather be in a new place where nobody knows us as we are today. This way she doesn't have to explain to anyone where her Dad went. She said even I go thru with the SRS that I would still be her Dad. That means a lot ot me.
Sharon