A Funny Thing Happened

By Jennifer Lynn


On the way through the mall.

You see it was a typical day, like so many others as I strolled my favorites mall. To the untrained eye I was just a typical guy in his early 20's quietly going about his business. At this point in time there were no visible clues to my transgender nature, and that nature is not really important to the story anyway.

As it would happen I came across a trio of exceptionally beautiful young ladies. In my usual fashion I would intently check out these wonderful creatures. some would call it ogling but since the stare was, at least in part, rooted in envy I knew better.

However today was different... No I didn't suddenly have a revelation that my actions were somehow unjust and have a feminist vision of politically correct thinking. I didn't foam at the mouth, or have a spontaneous orgasm either. What happened to me physically was something else all together.

Nothing.

That's right nothing. Instead of my usual old faithful erection, strong and true, there was nothing. Wee Willie was fast asleep in his cave oblivious to the delights I was beholding. Most strange. The little rodent had deserted me!!!

I pondered this event for some time. Of course I had to gather empirical evidence as to the proper functioning of the aforementioned appendage. For this task no medical expert was needed. A test was self administered... Willie passed, with flying color I might add. The test was repeated to verify the validity of the experiment and the test method employed. Same result.

Yee-Ha!!!

Further experimentation was conducted with the aid of the love of my life at the time. That she was unaware of the experiment is unimportant. suffice to say the results in the initial and subsequent tests were to my liking. I hope I am not to bold to suggest that they were to the lady's liking as well. ;-)

So what had happened to unhook my penis from my eves??? Why had a closed loop system that had served me so well changed??? I was still worried about this event even in the face of my positive experimental results.

THAT IS UNTIL...

I realized that things were better, not worse. Lovemaking with my partner was more intense and had a newly found emotional edge. I found I could now check out women at close range. With just a little work on my facial expression and I could do the same face to face, with nobody the wiser. I found myself relating to women more as people, less as things. DAMN this is G*O*O*D!!!

Could it be that for lack of a better term I was growing up??? Whatever was happening the change was quite liberating. I was no longer a slave to the connection between my all seeing eyes and my ever erect penis. I was free from servitude to a few ounces of erectile tissue.

Free... free at last!!!

As time passed I noticed that this change had more subtle and far reaching changes in my person. Freed from sexual servitude I began to enjoy the other 99% of life a bit more. Sex became just another part of a life that was beginning to achieve richness and depth. I didn't become sexless, far from it. It's just that sex and the underlying genital / harmonal forces assumed what I have come to believe is a more appropriate part of my life, and not its driving force.

Finally the most important impact of these events came to be. With this change I could see clearly my place in the Gender Continuum. Of course at this time I didn't have the words to adequately express this feeling. However I knew I was different, neither Man or Woman in the conventional sense. I was now free to explore what I was... and am. At this time the as then unnamed Jennifer was truly born.

What does this mean???

Perhaps in my own simple way I'm a microcosm of the Transgender community as a whole. My awakening as transgender person coincided with the end of my sexual / genital driven behavior. I think it is or should be so in the Transgender community as well.

Rather than the ongoing efforts, IMHO, to classify ourselves into nice neat little categories which are usually (at least in part) genitally driven I feel we should reject this notion. We should free ourselves from genitally driven behavior.

As in society people are forming many homogeneous groups to the exclusion of all others. Our efforts to do the same WILL fail. TS vs TG vs TV is no different than Catholic vs Jew vs Protestant, Black vs. White vs. Asian, or a dozen other categories I could name. It is my firm belief that society and by extension the Transgender portion of it will succeed only by the elimination of such barriers.

My simple, and yes perhaps naive, solution to all this is to focus on our similarities not differences. We all are forging new definitions of gender. The personal flavor of that gender definition is different. BFD. If my personal example is relevant and valid we as a community will progress, but only in direct relation to the adoption of this approach which goes hand in hand with the rejection of genitally driven behavior.

My personal definition of this is now expressed as GEM. This stands for Gender Enhanced Male. While it is only a name it expresses my Transgender in a positive light as an enhancement to my male birth state. It draws no boundaries and makes no distinctions in that enhancement. As well we can use the term GEF to describe the opposite state, Gender Enhanced Female. IMHO this is an advancement on the standard TV - TG - TS groupings.

I accept that these ideas are personal. I have no body of evidence to support the concept. Still my personal experience and the knowledge I have gained in the many years of my Transgender awareness have continued to validate the original premise.

So I see life... from my perch in the GWN on the edge of the north Atlantic...

LITITTS,
Jennifer Lynn

PS - LITITTS is a tag line I've adopted of a dear departed T friend that means: Life Is Too Important To Take Serious



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